Life Ore Death
* September 23 [Captain Marvel PoV]
'
This is totally great! I've been wanting to get to know these guys and hang forever, and I really hope we all get along. Sure, it's a downer what happened with Mr. Tornado and his family,' and I had the Wisdom of Solomon to assure me that everyone was going to be unhappy for a while and it was healthy for them to be like that, '
but once we work together and find out who's making those animals hurt people and make them stop, they should get happier to have it all done and we can all stay friends when their hearts all start healing.'
The Wisdom of Solomon was very rarely wrong – although the Wizard had warned me not to use it to understand women, but that was a personal, selfish use anyway so Captain Marvel didn't do that and Billy Batson knew better, too – but looking at all the glares on the faces in the bio-ship, I wasn't feeling too confident about it.
<Disapproval. Deception. Loneliness. >
Ferris sighed and pulled her hand away from that awesome talking Sphere because it didn't want to let her pet it goodbye, and then she got on the ship.
"That seems to be a theme with a lot of people, today," Kid Flash said as he, Robin, and Aqualad filed onto the ship. And I was worried about whether Aqualad was okay to be walking around while he was still burned, and he had a bandage over his left eye, but if Batman and Aquaman thought it was okay for him to be out then I shouldn't try to argue, so I didn't.
Aqualad stopped in the entryway to the ship and straightened his back. "No."
No one said anything.
"Uh… no what?" I asked. Half the team twitched like they'd forgotten I was here, and '
I'm not that lame that I would be forgotten, am I? C'mon guys, can't we please be friends?'
"I am the leader of this team… I have said before that I did not want this position, but I have taken it and you all have followed me through and out of danger in the past," Aqulad announced firmly to the team.
"Yeah, but if you keep leading us into-,"
"
Then do not be a hero!" Ferris snapped at Kid Flash, who flinched.
'
That seems a bit extreme. From both of them,' I noted unhappily, but I didn't know what all was going on with them.
"Thank you," Aqualad said to Ferris. "However, my point is that, no matter what the Batman says, I am not the leader of this team because the Batman says so. I am the leader of this team because you, all of you, have trusted me to lead you on our missions, and have given your words that you will follow my orders. I lead, I do not rule."
"Yeah," scoffed Kid Flash, "and look where that got us." I wilted on Aqualad's behalf, because bad things happened, and he was sorry even though he wasn't the bad guy here, and no one else seemed to appreciate that and I couldn't help him except by staying silent and letting it all play out, according to the Wisdom of Solomon. "Seems like trust is a one-way street here."
"I assure you, it is not. I would trust everyone here with my life, and I am not pleased that the reverse is no longer true. Out of respect for that, as the leader of this team, I am going to hold a vote."
"Oh?" Artemis asked archly.
"Well, democracy is a step up from a one-man secret-police state," Robin grumbled. "What about?"
"Whether to have Ferris replace me as leader of this team until I have regained your trust."
"
Hggk," the older girl choked, wide-eyed.
'
Whoa, I didn't see that coming either. …But she is the oldest one here, right? And she's Superman's sidekick, and he leads the Justice League right now, so it makes sense,' I figured, nodding my head along.
"Ferris?" Robin asked. "She's been doing this less than… well…"
"She's been doing it longer than me," Zatanna pointed out. "And… I'm not happy that she slapped me yesterday," to which I wondered why that had happened and who owed whom an apology, "but she got me free when I never thought I could, and she was getting the rest of us moving and she's the one who let the League know what happened. My Dad probably wouldn't let me be here right now if she hadn't stood up for me making my own choices."
"Yes. And while Ferris has less experience fighting crime than many of us, Robin, she survived a civil war in her home, did her best to ensure that as many people as possible survived as well, potentially saving thousands of lives, and then she led the efforts to rebuild in the aftermath of an apocalyptic event. By now she know our methods, and our rules of engagement, and she has been the leader of our team in all but formal title since the events of last night, while I have been…" He touched the bandage over his eye. "I have been less than optimal, both as a combatant, and as a leader. Ferris, for this mission, will you lead the Team?"
She still hadn't quite recovered from having her name tossed out, and just stared mutely at the rest of us.
"I-," she tried, and couldn't quite say anything else. If I'd been next to her I'd have put a hand on her shoulder, but if I stood up to walk over to her side I'd steal her thunder, and I knew it was important to let them all handle this.
'
It's never fun when the grown-ups lean over your shoulder to make sure you're doing your work they way they thought it should be done instead of the way you thought you should do it, even if they just want to help.' I didn't want to do that to them.
"…As long as… we avoid what happened with Cheshire, yeah, I'll follow her orders," Artemis said. "Your orders," she corrected, looking Ferris in the eye that time.
"Me too," Zatanna agreed.
"I've got your back, and I know you'll have mine," Kid Flash said, nodding.
"I'm…" Robin trailed off.
"I'm with you," Miss Martian decided.
"…Yeah, fine. It's not like you could mess us up any worse," Superboy grumbled.
"I'm not sure…" Robin said slowly.
"Finally! Someone with sense," Ferris said, and I had no clue why she was so exasperated when everyone was saying nice things about her.
'
Maybe, if she had some bad experience leading in that war Aqualad talked about, and it really sucks that she had to go through that, but she might not trust herself as much as we all will,' I guessed.
"I'm not sure, but I was sure about Aqualad, and he was sure too, and he sure ended up being wrong. So I guess the only way to be sure is to try. I'm on board, if it's for this one mission."
"…what?" she checked bluntly.
"What has happened is that you have the floor, team leader," Aqualad told her as he took a seat. "Is there anything you wish to… No, I will stop offering advice that I should not give." He shook his head, and gestured for her to speak. We all leaned forward.
Slowly, Ferris looked around the faces while we all looked at her.
'
Is she blushing? That's really sweet. I hope she's feeling all the warm fuzzies we're sending to her. You can do it, Ferris!'
"I feel… guilty. I wish you all did not trust me with this," she complained. "But… fine. I will lead. For today, for one mission. So. Miss Martian, can we fly?"
"Right! Bio-ship to Re- oh." I realized whom she had been about to contact and my heart went out to her crestfallen expression. I almost got out of my seat, but she shook the feelings away first. "Bio-ship to hangar? Are we cleared to take off?"
<This is Black Canary. Bio-ship, you are cleared. Opening hangar doors. >
Not long after, we were in the sky.
"How long do we fly?" Ferris asked when we were all settled in.
"Local time is seven oh three in the morning," Robin answered. "We're looking at a five hour flight-time, and a nine-and-a-half hour time difference, so we'll arrive on scene at nine in the evening, India standard time."
"Five hours? I see… My metal-minds are low, so: debrief, then one more talk in two hours, then strategy discussion before we end flying." Ferris nodded firmly. "Robin, explain to me what this mission is and why it is important? Will we have to fight? Also, why is guerilla gorilla a joke?"
I didn't know what a guerilla was, either, so I paid super-extra-careful attention when Robin – the Boy Wonder!! And I was hanging with him!! That was so cool!! – started to explain. He pulled up the same articles on what had happened, but they were smaller on his wrist-top, so I couldn't see the pictures as well or read the words at all.
"Hamilton Hill, the Mayor of Gotham, was in India on a hunting trip on his vacation, and they went to a place where there had been a lot of reports of 'devil animals' from the locals. The reports were basically about monster animals, like two-headed crocodiles, vultures with tiger fangs, monkeys with wings-,"
"""
Like the Wizard of Oz?"""
"Jinx!" I called to Artemis and Kid Flash. "Jinx! We said the same thing so now you can't talk until I say your names!" I smiled at them, happy I was the first to say it. Apparently, they didn't want to play along, though.
"Yeah, I get it, we should be quiet already, geez," Kid Flash grumbled, folding his arms.
"That's not what I-,"
"It's fine, Captain Marvel. Mission now, debriefing, serious subject, yeah. Keep going," Artemis told Robin.
"Aww," I muttered.
"Yeah," Robin commented. "So, devil animals. Mayor Hill and his cronies then got shot up by, supposedly, a gorilla with a machine gun. The animal is called a gorilla, and it was dressed for something called guerilla warfare, which is the joke," he added to Ferris. "Batman did some more research, and included among the 'devil animal' stories are some about people with animal parts too, or vice-versa, as well as some local people who've gone missing in the area."
"We can expect a fight?" Ferris clarified.
"At the very least, we'll be looking at tracking down the gorilla with the gun," Robin confirmed, "and then we need to find out where the gorilla got the gun and how he learned to use it. And check whether the other 'devil animal' stories have any more truth to them, too."
"Yes," Ferris mused slowly. We all waited for her to say anything else. "Does anyone have anything else to say?" It looked like the question caught the others off-guard, but I put my hand up. "Captain Marvel," she said, calling on me just like Mrs. Bennet or Mr. Palm did in class.
If, you know, I had gone to class as Captain Marvel instead of as Billy Batson.
"I just wanted to say again that I think it's really awesome that you guys let me come along, and I really hope we can all be good friends." 'I hope I didn't sound… no, no, sounding eager is exactly what I want.'
Most of them didn't say anything, but Ferris gave a nice, polite nod to me.
"Thank you, Captain Marvel," she said. "Anyone else?"
"After we finish-," Superboy cut off and looked at Miss Martian.
No one said anything for a brief bit.
"No," Ferris declared after another few seconds. "You are being rude. Say speaking, or invite Captain Marvel in," she ordered. '
Oh, they must be talking in their minds like Martian Manhunter does. I wish they'd include me, but I guess they don't want me to hear. I should make them feel more comfortable.'
"I don't have super-hearing," I offered. "If you guys want to talk without me, I can go fly outside for a little." Ferris glanced at me, pursed her mouth, and intently dragged her gaze slowly across every other member on the Team.
"Thank you, Captain Marvel. Kid Flash, you raise a good point, which I will say now to his face
instead of behind his back," she pronounced slowly at Flash's sidekick.
"Um," he spluttered.
'
Oh, she's angry. That sounds like the same voice Becky Taylor used when Brian said he didn't like her hair and he didn't realize he'd hurt her feelings.' I wilted sympathetically, and then I paid careful attention to the big girl in charge.
"Captain Marvel, you are a member of the Justice League. We are not. As Robin says – but not out loud because he is being rude – this team came together because Robin, Kid Flash, and Aqualad did missions differently than the Justice League. We have different… what were the words?"
"Protocols. The team uses different methods, we have different reactions, priorities…" Robin trailed off.
"And sometimes," she continued, "the team does the things that the Justice League does not like, or plans the things."
"
Ferris! Why are you telling him that?" Kid Flash squawked.
"Because. Captain Marvel, are you willing to promise that you will be a member of the team, and obey our… obey my orders, while I am team leader? Even if what the team does is not what the Justice League wants?" My heart soared.
"You guys want me to be on the Team! Like, a real member of the Team? That's totally awesome!" '
This is now one of the best days of my life! Oh, wow, this is going to be so great!' The Wisdom of Solomon nudged me again. "Oh, but… I won't promise to do anything bad if you tell me to. But that's the same thing I told Batman when he asked if I would do what he said, and I don't think you're going to want me to do anything bad, and he hasn't, so is that okay?"
"That is good," Ferris nodded, which meant '
Oh yes yes yes I'm a member of the Team now!'
"Don't worry, we don't go around killing people," Artemis grumbled.
"Not unless we get brainwashed again," Kid Flash muttered. "Ow! What, that was-,"
"Enough," Ferris snapped at Kid Flash and Artemis. "Kid Flash, I know." He looked a lot more sorry at that than if she had said she was angry at him or disappointed because he said something bad, '
but maybe what he said wasn't that bad? I don't know. Man, I hope I start getting the in-jokes pretty soon. I still don't get a lot of what the League guys say. But…'
"So I'm a member of the team now? Like, for real?" I checked eagerly. "Do I get a card like the Justice League, or is there a secret handshake or anything?"
"What do you think we are, ten?" Robin asked. There was a lot of mean stuff in his voice.
'
Wow. That really hurt,' I realized, rubbing at the ache in my heart. '
I can't take it like that. They don't know how old I am.'
"Says the thirteen-year-old," Kid Flash countered, but he said it a lot nicer, and then he and Robin were smiling, so I hoped it was an in-joke and tried to laugh it off.
"If I ask you not to tell the Batman about what we say, do you promise to not to tell?" Ferris cut in.
"Cross my heart and hope to die," I promised proudly, drawing the X as I finished, "stick a needle in my eye."
It was harder to tell, but when I looked at Ferris because she drew in a biiig breath like she was about to scream, her face looked really pale.
'
She is really pale,' I realized, crossing my eyes to get a better look because her face was abruptly just in front of mine.
"
What the Rusting Mists did you just say?" she snarled, low and dangerous like I was in a looooottt of trouble.
"I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I didn't mean to upset you I'm sorry," I babbled quickly, hoping she wouldn't kick me off the team when I only just got on. If I didn't have the Stamina of Atlas, her fingers would probably have hurt when she dug them in while grabbing my shoulders harder.
'
I didn't want to hurt your feelings, please don't kick me off the team!'
"Whoa, Ferris! Stay traught, okay? What's up?" Robin hopped out of his chair to pry her off of me.
"Yeah, easy, easy. It's just a schoolyard kiddie rhyme," Kid Flash added, getting over to us first and trying to soothe her temper. I felt her let go, and she leaned back.
"A kiddie rhyme?" Her voice was not nice, and her eyes were half-lidded and still glaring at me. "Kiddie, kid? A child's rhyme about dying and poking met- ah, poking
needles through your eyes?" she semi-snarled a little more calmly.
"I didn't mean to upset you," I protested again softly. "I'm really sorry."
"A lot of kid's stuff has some pretty gruesome origins," Robin told her. "I mean, Ring Around The Rosie?"
"What about it?" I asked him. "Ring around the rosies,\ Pockets full of posies,\ Ashes, ashes, we all fall down!" I sang. '
Well, I had heard a few kids sing it we all fall dead, but… okay, yeah, it isn't a very nice song if you sing the words like that.'
"Really?" Robin asked. "It's originally about the Black Plague. You know, the thing that killed one-third of Europe?"
"…Oh." '
That's not very happy at all.' "How does that work?" I asked, still not seeing how they were connected. '
If it's really old, is it like trying to read Shakespeare and how they wrote really funny back then because there were no dictionaries?'
"Depending on the version, 'Ring around the roses,' either refers to the religious rosaries put in rooms where they put plague victims, or it refers to walking a ring around the plague victims, avoiding them to keep from catching it, because a 'rosie rash' was one of the first symptoms of getting sick," Robin listed off. "People carried posies as charms to ward off the plague."
"'Ashes, Ashes,' was referring to burning the bodies, right?" Kid Flash added.
"Nope," Robin told him. "Back then they didn't burn a lot of the bodies, they just used mass graves mostly. Ashes was either the ashy skin color of people with the plague, or it was the sound 'achoo!' Sneezing and coughing were some of the last symptoms before victims died."
"And we all fall dead," I muttered, embarrassed. '
That really isn't a nice song after all.'
"To
return to the
needles," Ferris hissed, not any happier.
"Right, right! I guess that could be upsetting. I never thought about what the promise actually was," I apologized. "I'm sorry I upset you. Is a pinkie promise safe?" I asked, extending my finger.
Ferris glowered, but it looked like she was thinking it over.
"…It is a common rhyme? Not about…" she trailed off, looking at Robin instead of me.
"Yeah. You hear it all the time in elementary schools," he admitted with a shrug.
"…Okay." She sighed heavily. "I am… sorry. At home… no, never mind. How do we pinkie promise?"
Robin quickly walked her through it, I promised not to tattle-tale to Batman unless it was really bad and I needed to save people's lives, and we linked pinkies.
"If that's over with," Superboy grumped, "can we finally talk about that damn robot? I want to start looking for him as soon as we finish this mission."
Ferris took a deep, frustrated breath.
"Is there anything more to say about this mission?" she inquired. "…No? Yes? Okay. Superboy, what do you suggest?"
He scowled. "I say we find that traitorous tin can with or without the League's permission and turn his freaky family into scrap! We can't just let them walk away, and the League will never let us help!"
"But," I had to ask, "isn't Red Tornado your friend? I mean-," Superboy looked like he was about to yell at me.
*
clap*
We all looked at Ferris, who put her hands back on her hips.
"The Batman," she announced tersely, "has promised that we will be told as the Justice League searches for Red Tornado. When I talk to him, later, I will see if he keeps his promise. If not, I… well, the team leader after this mission will decide what we do. But. We will not search for him right now. It will be the next leader's decision, but for now, we will wait one week-,"
"That's-!'
"
We will wait one week or I will bench you for two," Ferris threatened Superboy. He backed down in a huff. "In Dakota City with the Superman, I fought the Blue robots, all four, with the Superman, the Icon, and the Icon's sidekick Rocket to help. We still were badly hurt and almost died. The Blue Beam made an illusion and changed our voices so that Rocket and I fought.
"The illusion was of the female Red robot, and the voice was her voice, and Blue Bolt used the same thing to hold me to a wall that they used in the mountain. In the cameras, I saw the Red robots used Blue Beam's invisible bubble and lasers, Blue Bolt's electricity, and Blue Bite's ice as well, and maybe they had and did not use Blue Boom's sound.
"As thus, we are going to wait," she insisted. "We are going to heal. We are going to train, practice new tricks to fight the new tricks they have, and when we can fight well we will fight. If the League finds Red Tornado first, we can stand on the side like you say they want and watch. And if the League wins, good. If the League loses, then we can fight the tricks better and save them. And if the Batman lies, then we will find the Red Tornado without the League, and the Captain Marvel can tell them that we decided to do this because they lied. Yes?"
"If you want?" I offered. She nodded briefly to me.
"But. At now, my metal-minds are low. Miss Martian and Aqualad were stuck in fire. I broke Zatanna's finger, and I do not know how much magic you have. Artemis is low on arrows, yes?" Artemis fiddled with her quiver. "Robin was hit in the head. Kid Flash was shocked. Superboy was hit by a laser that has hurt the Superman." He folded his arms.
"I'm fine," he grunted, but she kept talking.
"The Batman has given us, I think, an easy mission. Yes? But the Superman thought going to Dakota would be safe. The Batman thought Clayface would be safe to track, but he fought us and we yet won. The game was supposed to not even be a mission, and talking to ice people was supposed to be talking and practice. If this is an easy mission, it is still a mission.
"We will do this and learn if we are strong. We will then take the time to become stronger. Only then, I think, will we fight the Red Robots. The next team leader may say differently, but today everyone here has promised that I will lead and they will do what I say, and so you will do what I say or I will bench you and tell the Batman to bench you. Yes?"
Everyone chorused some version of 'Okay,' me included.
"Like a bunch of animals will be a threat," Superboy grunted, after.
"Then we will not need you to fight them, and you can stay above and watch the bio-ship, yes?" Ferris challenged cheerfully.
"…Sorry."
"Yes. Now. Mission. Robin, is- does your computer work?"
"Yeah? Why?"
"Who also has a computer? For the internet?" Hands went up. "Share and talk with people who do not, or think. But for two hours I will meditate. While we fly, learn. What are the rumors? How many people are missing? How could a gorilla have a gun? Most important is what could make this happen? What is the best possible thing, where we have an easy mission and win? What is the worst possible thing, where we all could die again if there is a fight? Think. In two hours, we meeting again."
"Right." Robin nodded.
"Got it," Kid Flash agreed.
"Yes ma'am," Miss Martian chirped.
"I will need to borrow a computer," Aqualad admitted.
"Me too. The league has communicators, but I didn't bring mine, and I'm not allowed to have a cell phone yet," I added.
"…Oh, fine," Robin grumbled to us both.
"You can borrow mine," Zatanna offered to me. Artemis just nodded.
"Good," Ferris finished. "I am going to meditate. Tell me if I need to know, or two hours are passed."