Life Ore Death
Undertow - part 2
*September 6 [Renka PoV]
I slipped in several more hours of storing my metalminds during our trip in the bio-ship to Poseidonis. I was beginning to feel more confident in my ability to handle myself in case of any problems, but my combat-use metal-minds were still laughably small compared to what I wanted them to be, and that would take a week or more to change.
Truth be told, in many ways I was a worse wreck than when we first left the mountain. It was only by tapping large streams of Identity from my collection of four aluminum-minds that I could function in polite society without snitchy twitches, whimpers, or displays of violence. Fortunately, I had been storing identity every day to practice but almost never tapped it, leaving me with at least enough for a day of almost personable interaction.
Connor and M'gann had tensions of their own, but they both relaxed more as we entered Poseidonis and Kaldur got us through the heightened security around the city perimeter. When I deigned to look out the window on the trip to the palace, I was again reminded that there had been an attack here not so long in the past. I by no means had memorized the city's… sky line?
'
Whatever it is called, buildings are broken or gone now that were not before. I can see they are rebuilding quickly… According to Kaldur, many of buildings are grown out of "coral," I think. Are these fixes being made with some type of healing magic, or with construct earth magic? It could be either or both, from what I see. I will have to ask, later.'
"It is much better?" I asked in response to M'gann and Connor's comments about how quickly the city had recovered from the attack. I hadn't forgotten that they'd volunteered to assist in the clean up, but beyond repeated confirmation that I still couldn't safely handle the pressure I had only paid perfunctory attention to their stories.
Once we seated the bio-ship and traveled into the city, I could conclude that M'gann and Connor had downplayed their own efforts in the rebuilding process.
"You! You're the girl from the Justice League who pulled my brother out of the rubble in the bazaar," a pure-graft Atlantean girl gushed. "Thank you, thank you, bless you! The medics say he can be out and about in another few days; if he'd been left under there for much longer Ara'male'en might have choked on the grit before they could save him."
M'gann looked less overwhelmed as she spoke with this woman than she had when confronted by each of the previous three who had recognized her. Meanwhile, two octopus-graft parents half-heartedly scolded and tried to pull their children off of Connor. While awkward, he unmistakably smiled at the attention as the kids tried to smother with affection the boy responsible for freeing their trapped class from a collapsed school building.
I tapped enough bronze and electrum to muster an honest smile for Kaldur. "This is what being a hero is all about," I told him in Atlantean. "I am a little jealous of them, I think, but they deserve all this and more."
"In my early days, I had always thought of my service in terms of combatting those who would do evil, but it is not," he agreed.
"No matter how much evil you destroy, destruction is still destruction. We must also
Preserve,
Cultivate, and create to make a better life. Less evil is not the same as more good." We shared a nod, and I released those metal-minds again.
A part of me wanted to begrudge them their recognition, but it was a small part. If I wanted such things for myself, I had long resolved, I would simply have to earn it as they had.
Our path through the morning clamor of the Poseidonis streets was slow and meandering. We had an hour before it was the local lunchtime, and Aqualad had pointed us in the general direction of a place he had frequented in his Conservatory years, but we were in no hurry.
"Kaldur'ahm!" Topo met us at the corner that led to the eatery, which was a favorite for conservatory students on lunch break. I made a point of hugging the squirmy little octopus boy – I later learned that Topo was older than Kaldur by several months, but he was too small and cheerful for me to have processed it – because Topo probably lacked hugs in his life, and I shook hands with a girl named Lori, who was a triton-graft.
M'gann took the opportunity to make her own triton tail, and Lori couldn't quite cover her discomfort.
'
Is M'gann that oblivious, or has she met Lori before and is intentionally pulling her… pulling her hair?' I wondered. I was not quite certain how perceptive of body language versus thoughts M'gann was, and how good she and I were comparatively at discerning people's displayed versus actual feelings. '
And that's assuming that I'm not misreading Miss Lori's reaction and she actually doesn't care or is flattered.'
"Kaldur," I murmured in English as we selected a table, "does Atlantis have a nudity taboo?" He shot me a confused look. "He," I nodded to Topo, "wasn't wearing anything when I met him, and now he is."
"He was not? He was?" Aqualad frowned. "No, we do have a nudity taboo, and Topo was definitely clothed when we met."
"I do not remember that."
"I am certain of it. He was wearing a dark uniform, and it was skintight; you may not have noticed the differences in the murky lighting, as we were underwater."
That… was not impossible, I allowed. I had also been remembering Topo as being much smaller than he was now.
"What are you two talking about?" Topo asked. I glanced to Kaldur. I didn't particularly care if he brought up a slightly embarrassing misrememberence on my part. He decided to cover for me anyway.
"We were discussing your outfit; Renka liked the color of your shirt. Is that a new acquisition? I seem to remember that you usually prefer more muted colors." Topo shifted, but Lori had overheard and answered first.
"No," she all but snarled, "but it's the only thing he has soft and loose enough not to aggravate his scars."
"
Lori!"
"""
Scars?""" we all demanded.
"
Scars. Tell him, Topo; Kaldur'ahm needs to know, and you know he would never judge you." Topo shrank back from the group's attention. I decided not to get involved and leaned back to listen.
"Topo. If someone has hurt you," Kaldur began.
"Beating up bad guys is what we're here for," Superboy finished grimly.
"I-," he managed, "I don't want to talk about it." If I had been more involved, that would have been my clue to back off.
'
But will they take it? I... Rusting conscience.' Just to avoid being a hypocrite, I left my seat and got in front of him.
"If he does not wish to talk," I said in English, "he should not be have to." The others hesitated. Lori did not.
"If he won't, I will. Topo was attacked by a bunch of purists just for how he looks!"
"""
He what!""" He really did cringe back from our volume, and even I had spun around. I eyed his shirt, tempted to pull it up and check, but I did not want to humiliate him like that in a restaurant.
"Can I-," M'gann began.
"After lunch," I interrupted, forcefully, pulling on even more identity and determination than I had been before, "in private, I want to hear more about this. ...If it is okay. Lori," I turned to her, "what are these purists like?" What followed over our meal was an introduction to modern Atlantean bigotry, instead of the historical versions I had heard from Kaldur before.
It… did not make much sense to me.
"So," I summed up, attempting to organize the confusing hypocrisies. "Purists are pure-graft Atlanteans who think Atlanteans with fish traits are impure and should be killed off."
"Basically," Lori agreed.
"Despite their talk," Kaldur put in, "I doubt many of the people who say they espouse this doctrine would be willing to endorse mass murder. If things were that bad, then we would not be worrying about individual attacks by cowards, but open civil war in the streets."
"According to the genomorphs, people said the same thing about
Ubumwe," Connor argued, which redirected the conversation into past atrocities on the surface. After listening for things that I wanted to research later, I caught Lori's attention.
"Purists think impure Atlanteans are beneath pure Atlanteans," I repeated privately.
"Yes?" she agreed, probably uncertain why I repeated something so obvious.
"Purists
also believe they are superior air-breathing humans, even though the purists are humans who were made impure by breathing water," I continued. Something about that offended Lori, I recognized the way she swelled up before she spoke, but either through my tapped connection or through her own self-discipline she held her tongue. What she did answer wasn't her first reaction, and I wondered what that would have been.
"Please do not call us, any of us, impure," she asked. I shrugged.
"I will not. But,
using Purist thinking," I emphasized, "pure-graft Atlanteans are impure humans, the same way they think other Atlanteans are more impure." Lori frowned.
"I… suppose you could say that. I've never heard anyone call them pure-grafts before. Just purebloods, or pure Atlanteans." I shrugged in reply to her observation. "That… I sort of like that."
"Kaldur's father said the same thing. He was born a pure human and got gills, so he has a unique perspective." Lori's eyes went wide and she turned across the table. '
I really hope I did not make a rude comment or innuendo in Atlantean Greek.'
"Kaldur'ahm, your father used to serve Black Manta!"
After her yell, I caught the lack of sound from everywhere else in the restaurant. '
That is never a good sign.' I resisted the urge to turn and scan around the room with my eyes. Kaldur sighed. Lori, mortified, had clapped her hands over her mouth.
"That is… a complicated matter, and one I do not wish to discuss in the open. I will pay the bill, and we can speak more at the Conservatory."
~
"Wait. Wait please," I said at the end of our discussion about the Ocean Master, the Purist movement, and the Black Manta. '
I have a worse headache, and it has little to do with telepathy pain.' "It… I… The Ocean Master is a purist, and the leader of the purists; he wants to kill all of the non-pure-graft Atlanteans?"
"Yes," Lori answered shortly.
"He espouses the purist dogma, yes, but very few purists would claim to agree with his extreme measures. Even among purists, much less the more rational pure-grafts, the Ocean Master is quite reviled. He has been known to injure or kill purists in the past who attempted to protect impure Atlanteans from his assaults," Kaldur clarified. None of those, however, were the things giving me the most mental problems.
"The Ocean Master believes Atlantis is superior to the surface world, and believes pure-grafts should be supreme within Atlantis. If he wins, he would enslave or cull other Atlanteans and end contact between Atlantis and all the countries above?"
"Essentially, yes," Kaldur agreed.
"But this great purist leader has as his second-in-command, not other pure Atlanteans, but an army of surface humans, and they are led by a surface human whose stated goal is to conquer Atlantis for his own army?" Kaldur and Lori both nodded. I threw up my arms in Earth's 'I can't believe this' gesture. "Power," I concluded dismally. "No one believes in anything, they only just want power, power, and more power."
"Not surprising," Connor grunted.
"How so?" M'gann asked in confusion. I briefly wondered if she were using her telekinesis to swim, because she moved differently than Lori did but kept up the speed just fine. I decided it was not important.
"Pure-graft Atlanteans are the…
dominant, social group?" Using that particular word struck a bad chord in me, but it was the most appropriate for my question.
"In Poseidonis, yes. Other Atlantean cities, like Nanavue, have much smaller pureblood- pure-graft Atlantean populations. But as Poseidonis is the seat of the senate and of High King Orin-,"
"Even here the pure-grafts aren't a large majority," Lori interrupted. "I think the ratio is sixty to forty, and the next highest pure-graft populated city has maybe one-quarter or one-third of its population being pure-grafts. I forget which."
"I see," I muttered. Then I returned to M'gann's question. "Ocean Master, in his heart, does not care whether an Atlantean is triton-graft or whale-graft or shark-graft or fish-graft. All he cares about is power, but he shouts pure-graft ideals because purists will follow him and give him more power." M'gann frowned.
"But, why wouldn't he call for equality then? Couldn't he lead all the other Atlanteans, who outnumber the pure-grafts, and get more power that way?"
"Because," Kaldur breathed, and he seemed to realize something. "Because if Ocean Master were not agitating the purists and sowing dissent, there would not be so much oppression and strife about the matter."
"Oh, I doubt that," Lori answered.
"No, Lori, Topo, please consider it. Before we were born, and before Ocean Master appeared after King Orin was enthroned, there was so little purist sentiment in the popular consciousness that the Senate was willing to enthrone King Orin, who has an human father, over pureblood Prince Orm, who was also the son of an honored general and well known to the public, while King Orin was not. History books have not had purist beliefs as such a major influence in politics and culture since two centuries in the past. It was only after Ocean Master appeared that the sentiments he espoused… oh."
"What is it, Kaldur'ahm?" Topo asked, while Lori seemed to be thinking through the ideas.
"He made a self-fulfilling prophecy, much like in Oedipus the King," Kaldur explained. I had no clue what the person or story he referred to was, which was odd because Superboy seemed to recognize the title. "By attacking 'impure' Atlanteans and calling for their subjugation-," he fingered his gills, "-our subjugation, he made purebloods who did not hold purist views feel unsafe and fear that the 'impure' Atlanteans would blame them for the Ocean Master's actions. Those Atlanteans who were not purebloods, at the same time, were made to wonder who did or did not secretly support the Ocean Master."
"And after several years of this, and our generation growing up like this," Lori continued in a sickened voice, "both sides are starting to feel like they have to pick a side, because everyone is feeling like people are only either with them or against them." She looked extremely nervous. "Kaldur'ahm, what do you think Ocean Master's true goal
is, if we're thinking about this the right way? Would he really genocide people, us, if he took power? I don't- have King Orin and Queen Mera ever thought about it from this perspective? I always thought purists just were hateful bigots, but if Ocean Master is actually trying to inspire people to
become hateful bigots…"
"I am almost certain they have, now that I remember a number of comments I did not understand at the time I heard them."
"I wonder something," I mused.
"What are you thinking?" Topo asked.
"If an impure Atlantean who believed, genuinely
believed he was impure - believed that the pure-graft Atlanteans should be
dominant over him-," and the word from home made my stomach roil. "If he tried to join the purists, do you think they would let him?" The three Atlanteans shared stupefied looks.
"I can't believe that would ever happen," Lori answered.
"Nor can I. But… yes, I see what you meant about hypocrisy and power," Kaldur said. "If purists practiced as they preached, they would want to recruit impure Atlanteans who also believed." He grimaced. "A part of me always… hatred," he sighed. "It is like that surface world saying: the man berates the boy who kicks the dog who bites the cat who chases the mouse."
We digested that imagery in our heads.
"Wait, does the boy kick the dog before or after the man yells at him?" Connor asked.
"Is there a difference?" M'gann asked.
"Yeah. If the boy kicked the dog first, maybe it was because the dog bit the cat. If not, then why is the boy being yelled at?"
"I th-think," Topo volunteered nervously, "that the point is that it doesn't matter why the boy is being yelled at. He can't yell back because the man is m-more, stronger, bigger, whatever it is, so he goes and hurts something weaker than him the way he was hurt. The cycle of hatred."
"The cycle of hatred indeed, where malice and anger spread like ripples," Kaldur agreed. I hummed.
"If it is a cycle," I volunteered, "then maybe the man yells at the boy because he is angry he cannot catch the mouse that ate his breakfast." After a moment, Superboy started chuckling. M'gann wilted.
"That's accurate," he said.
"But it's so
unfair. No one feels any better and it doesn't fix any of the problems anyone has," M'gann complained. "Everyone just makes everything worse."
"That is why there are heroes," Kaldur said. "We try to feed the mouse so that it does not eat men's food, and we stand up for the boy before the man, and protect the dog from being kicked by the boy." Around the table, we four shared an almost physical feeling of pride.
"Um," Lori asked, "I'm sorry, but can someone tell me what a cat, a dog, and a mouse are? I don't know much about surface world animals."