Life Ore Death
Escalation - part 7
* August 29 [Renka PoV]
"Freaky. I mean, she almost seems more like a piece of furniture," Artemis commented. My eyes tracked her waving hand a little, but I didn't bother to offer any further acknowledgement.
"The differences in Ferris's personality in these periods are quite striking. I was unnerved the first time I saw this."
"You said she's storing away her sense of identity? That can't be healthy," she commented to Aqualad.
'
And my spiritual connection,' I mentally corrected, but there was no reason to vocalize that. I was more focused on trying to store away as much of the traits as I could manage. I could feel that there was more I could do, and if I'd had a stronger sense of my own identity as a capable Feruchemist, my inability would have been frustrating. As it was, it was merely a goal that I was supposed to achieve before I moved on to other things.
"I felt the same, but it works, and she recovers as soon as she ceases her storage." Aqualad moved his shoulders. A moment later I realized he had shrugged.
"What else can you store?" Artemis asked. "I don't think I ever heard the full list."
"None of us have been told the full list," Aqualad said as my mouth creaked open.
"Queen Mera has heard the whole list. She may not remember it, but I revealed it when we first spoke." I recognized that if I had been at my full capabilities I would either have kept that to myself, or felt the need to justify my slip. As it was, there was no desire toward either option. The two said nothing, and I focused back on attempting to force my rates of Feruchemical identity and connection storage to increase.
"…So, are you going to tell us?" Artemis asked.
"…Why," I replied dully. I saw no need to anything else. Artemis finally took the hint.
"…I guess just because I'm curious. Aaaaannd I could help? If there are still things you could improve or discover, having someone with a different point of view couldn't hurt. And, Kaldur knows Atlantean magic, right?"
"Ferris has already entered into discussions about her abilities with Queen Mera. The pieces that I understood are still beyond my ability to contribute meaningfully on. Also, this is not a decision that Ferris should make while her judgment is impaired by the storage process."
I did not particularly wonder about why he insisted on that, but the memory of what we had once discussed, and what I had once revealed, came to mind. Even as I was, those thoughts stirred up a seething darkness beneath my calm façade. If I released my storage now, then I would be in a foul humor. I saw no reason why I should not, nor a reason that I should. The time limit I had established to practice my storage of these traits had not elapsed, so I continued as I was; eventually, the emotional murk resettled.
Artemis and Aqualad continued to discuss things, among which were bits of what he had seen me perform, as well as the differences between Feruchemy and Atlantean sorcery, but I did not pay close attention. Words washed over my mind and out again as I focused on the feel of Investiture gathering in my two bracelets.
Finally, distantly, I noted the ringing of a bell, and the feel of a hand on my shoulder. I released my metal-minds.
Eyeing my teammates, I considered the past discussion.
"I am… willing to discuss my Feruchemy," I decided. "I want my notebook, and a place like the White Reef Hall to speak."
"I remember seeing a whiteboard in one of the rooms off the hall of the library," Aqualad said. I nodded and left. I loped through the halls, considering.
'
Am I really considering this? Revealing everything? On the other hand, Aqualad already knows more than enough… no, that's not what I mean. He knows so much about me that revealing this shouldn't be significant, I think. And there shouldn't be any reason for me to seriously worry about being betrayed. I'm far in enough to know that they are more restrained than I am used to.'
I scooped up the notebooks with my scribbles about theories and experiments, and I picked up a few extra metal-minds to help me get my points across. I also grabbed a thesaurus, because those are always useful.
'
Starting with just the two of them is the best way to handle this. I'm still a bit skittish about information control.' My thoughts continued to whirl until I strode into the room where Artemis and Aqualad stood waiting. Well, sat waiting. '
He brought a notebook too? Maybe I should be flattered.' I grabbed a marker and, in careful English, I scrawled down the first set of metals.
PHYSICAL: IRON=WEIGHT _______ STEEL=SPEED _______ TIN=SENSES _______ PEWTER=STRENGTH
"Feruchemy uses sixteen metals, divided into four groups of four, as metal-minds to store investiture," I began. '
I'm tapping a lot of duralumin-mind connection, but getting through this is as good a reason to as any.'
"Do senses really count as physical? I would have called them mental," Artemis pointed out.
"There is always a little overlap," I acknowledged. "Speed is also a little mental," I began and then I grabbed the thesaurus and flipped through to M. "Cognitive," I pronounced carefully. "Cognitive is a better term than mental."
"Right. Got it," Artemis agreed.
"I have seen you use all of these at one time or another, although I did not know for certain what each one was," Kaldur noted. I nodded at him.
"Yes. The physical metals are the best- the most useful for a fight. We fight a lot," I observed, and they both chuckled wryly. I pause. "I may have begun too early with the metals. First, the rules and limits of Feruchemy?" I suggested.
"Yes, please," Kaldur said. I hummed and ordered my thoughts.
"Okay." I quickly counted everything off. "There are six big, um, six
primary rules for using Feruchemy. Rule one: Feruchemy stores traits as investiture inside metal-minds for, ah, to later be tapped." I increased the rate at which I tapped my duralumin-mind in the hopes it would stop my stuttering. "Thus, I need metal-minds to store and to tap. I cannot tap unless I first have a metal-mind store."
"Is there anything special about something that makes it a metal-mind, or is it just the metal?" Artemis asked. I smiled.
"Rule the second," I announced. "A metal-mind is just a piece of metal with investiture stored in it. But, it must be the right chemical make-up to work, or else my Feruchemy will not work. For iron, Feruchemical iron is pure iron with no other metals. It is the same with tin, but Feruchemical steel has to be eight percent carbon mixed into the iron, and Feruchemical pewter has nine percent lead mixed into the tin." I nodded sharply to show them I had finished.
"How accurate must the measurements be?" Kaldur asked. "If the iron is slightly polluted, or the steel has too much or too little carbon, what effects will occur?"
"There is loose slack-," I paused. "There is wiggle room," I remembered the English phrase was, "of about two or three percent. If it is three percent off, three percent wrong in any way, it will not work. Pewter will not work at all with six percent lead, with twelve percent lead, or with three percent of anything else mixed into it.
"If there is less than three percent, then it will not work as well, but it can work. If I try to store weight into an iron-mind with one percent nickel, then it will fight me. If I try to store half of my weight, the metal-mind will only have two-fifths of my weight stored, and the rest will be lost. Then, when I try to tap that two-fifths weight, I will only get one-third of my weight, while the rest is lost again."
"I see," Kaldur mused, and Artemis nodded as well.
"Rule three: I must touch my metal-minds to use them."
"That one seems pretty obvious. Otherwise you'd just leave them behind in your room, right?" Artemis observed.
"But you do not need to touch all of them, correct? Your metal-minds touch your skin, or your hair," Kaldur glanced at the rings I customarily wove into my hair, "but you may use them only touching a part of the surface. …Would sympathetic resonance have any effect? If you chipped off a small piece of a larger metal-mind and carried that, could you access the whole?"
"No. If I cut a metal-mind in half, it will be two metal-minds with two stores of investiture that are half of the first." '
There… might be some way to finangle it, if I can play around with a metal-mind's connection to its past pieces, but that would be incredibly complicated and I doubt it would work like I wish it could, and there wouldn't be much point because I rarely make stores too big to carry with me.' I dismissed the hypotheticals.
"This is a little gruesome, sorry, but if your… if your hair got cut off, could you still use the metal-minds touching that?"
"My hair or my hand?" I teased Artemis, who blushed that I had guessed what gruesome thing had been her first thought. "No. It must be toching a part of my living, connected body. Otherwise I could leave my metal-minds in my room wrapped in cut off locks of my hair."
"Got it," she muttered, not meeting my eyes.
"I have lost my hand once before, and needed a gold-mind to heal, so it is a good question," I consoled her. "Rule number four: I cannot store all of a trait in entirely. Mostly this is because of safety. If I stored all my weight, my density, I would not have a body except for air. If I stored all of my speed, I would not move at all to breathe or have a heartbeat."
"Wait, so you can't store away sight until you get blind, or hearing until you go deaf?" Artemis asked.
"I can store so much that it may as well be, but never everything. A Feruchemist more skilled can go closer and closer to the limit, but never all. But if you store ninety-nine percent of your hearing, I think you may as well have no hearing, yes?"
"There are fish in the deepest parts of the ocean who have evolved eyes that can see with even the smallest amounts of light, but overall, yes, I take your point," Kaldur agreed. I resolved to look up these fish.
I had no intention of allowing Hemalurgy to become known to the general public, or anyone ever, but the hypotheticals of tin spikes charged from those fish were still an idea I would like to chew over.
"Rule five: I can tap as much as possible, but the more I tap, the more the returns decrease." That threw them, I saw.
"Decreasing returns… I believe you mentioned this before," Kaldur told me.
"Is it like what you said, about impure metal-minds?" Artemis guessed.
"Yes." I pointed at her with a sharp nod. "As long as it is up to an increase by one baseline, there is no loss. I can spend four hours at one-hundred twenty-five percent, two hours at one-hundred fity percent, or one hour at two-hundred percent for no problems at the same pool of investiture. But if I want to increase by more than one baseline, then I lose a little investiture to make them stick together. Two-hundred percent strength is fine, but three-hundred percent loses a little four-hundred loses a little more, one-thousand loses more… Eventually it will cost more energy to add energy than energy is added."
"That seems a little unfair," Artemis complained. "…Okay, that sounded a lot more reasonable to say in my head."
I chuckled at her. "I take what you mean, and thank you. But it is less unfair than no powers?"
"Hey, which of us was kicking the other's butt?" Artemis countered with a smirk.
"No metal-minds for me."
"You'd have run out by the third round, right? I'd totally dominate you in a best of ten match."
"Probably," I agreed, to which she preened slightly.
"What is your limit for increasing?" Kaldur asked. "I have seen you do many impressive things, so I am not certain."
"It varies by the metal-mind. My limit is highest with brass-minds, then zinc, steel, tin, gold, bronze, iron… so on."
"I see."
"The last rule is number six: my Feruchemy can only change me."
"Which is why you store weight by changing mass, not gravity. Gravity is a force outside yourself," Kaldur noted.
"Correct."
"But, when you increase your strength, can't you use that to lift things and break things?"
"That is not what I mean," I told Artemis. "I can make me stronger, but I cannot make someone else stronger, or weaker. Also, when I increase my weight, my body also becomes able to support my weight, but if I am too heavy the floor will not support me. So when I lay down and tap an iron-mind, my heavy ribs will not crush my lungs, but I may break the floor."
"If you tap your iron-mind and you fall, will your legs break?" Artemis asked.
"Maybe. They would break when heavy if they would break when I did not use a metal-mind, but if I store enough weight my air resistance will… no, not air resitance… I need to run a few experiments," I admitted.
"So that's how it works," Artemis considered.
Similarly, I considered if I wanted to add, 'I am protected from my own Feruchemy,' as rule. Since it was complicated and I had already covered the basics, I decided to leave it.
"Back to the physical metals. I talked about them a lot, so should I move on? Any questions?"
"Does tin use all fo your sense at the same time?" Kaldur asked. "I think you have said not…"
"I wear many small tin-minds," I fingered the stud in my nostril idly, "because I store a different sense in each one."
"Can you store more than one sense at a time?"
"Yes, but in different tin-minds," I clarified. "Any more questions?"
"…Nope."
"Please, proceed." I nodded and wrote down the next quadrant.
COGNITIVE: ZINC=ACUITY _______ BRASS=WARMTH _______ COPPER=MEMORY _______ BRONZE=AWAKE
"Acuity is how quickly you think, right?"
"A mix of how quickly and how well. Steel-minds also make me think more quickly, so I can think while I move, but… well. I said there is sometimes a little overlap." I shrugged.
"So does storing acuity make you stupid, or does it just change how slowly you think about things?"
"A little of both," I told Artemis. "Kaldur, any questions?"
"I do wonder why warmth is considered a cognitive trait. Is it also connected to emotional warmth, or are they separate?"
"There are two answers I could say, I think. The first is that the divisions and names are made by humans, and may not work perfectly with the world as it is. Or, it was because Ruin pulled a trick on Preservation when they worked together to create Feruchemy for people to use. I prefer the prank from a god explanation, myself."
We digressed briefly into a talk about Ruin and Preservation, but that was not what I wanted to talk about, so I got us quickly back in the current again.
"Brass-minds store my body heat. This is almost an exception to the rule about not changing other things, because our heat changes naturally."
"Yeah, you cooled down Aqualad and Miss Martian in the Tower of Fate, didn't you? But that's just because heat naturally flows to colder places, so you just got colder and sucked out their excess heat, was that it?" Artemis asked.
"Yes, like an ice pack," I agreed. "Also, when I tap my brass-mind, the extra heat flows out into the world, so I can make things hot." I considered demonstrating but decided not to.
"So, can you cook an egg on your bare skin or something? Start a fire?"
"I have never made a fire, and I am not sure about the egg… but I can hurt people with burns. I have boiled a cold lake into bath water, once," I recalled.
"Cool. Or, you know, hot," Artemis quipped.
"I heard you once mention that you do not like to use copper-minds. They store memory? Or memorizational skills?"
"Memories," I told Kaldur. "If I read a book, I can put my memory in a copper-mind and forget what the book was about. Later, I can pull my memory out again and remember like I just read it."
"So could you just read a dictionary cover-to-cover and tap that to help you learn English?" Artemis asked. I wrinkled my nose.
"Not exactly. It would take forever, and I would need to look through all the memories to find any one at any time. Also, there is no English-to-Scadrial dictionary, so it would only work for finding what a word is, but not for what word I should use for a meaning. Also, copper-mind memories degrade a little when they are tapped, so I would lose a little clarity everytime I looked through. It would be better if I just carried a dictionary with me all the time. I prefer just to ask people."
"Yeah, I can see that. It still seems like having a magical memory jump-drive would be pretty useful."
"Many Feruchemists think so. I think they think so too much. The Bands of Ascension did help Harmony fix the world, but… I will talk about that much later, never mind." I shook my head. "I do not like losing memories to store for a copper-mind."
"There are positive and negative aspects to many powers. I am visually distinctive, and I dehydrate easily," Kaldur observed to us, fingering his gills with his webbed fingers. I smiled at him.
"Yes. Now, bronze-minds store… English does not have a good word for it. I become sleepy when I store into a bronze-mind, and alert and do not need to sleep when I tap it."
"Wakefulness," Artemis suggested.
"Thank you! I store wakefulness in a bronze-mind. Now, when you sleep naturally, you regain wakefulness until you wake up. Because I am losing wakefulness, I do not regain it while I store. If I store my wakefulness to fall asleep, I sleep until I run out, and then I stop storing and sleep for real until I wake up." I had a mathematical formula and graph to describe this phenomenon, but it didn't look like Artemis or Kaldur were particularly interested, so I moved on.
HYBRID: CADMIUM=BREATH _______ BENDALLOY=FOOD _______ GOLD=HEALTH _______ ELECTRUM=DETERMINATION
"Breath like oxygen, or is it something like the breath of life?" Artemis asked.
"I would presume oxygen, similar to the materials I loaned you for visiting Atlantis, only requiring time to charge."
"Yes," I told Kaldur. "To be safe, I wore cadmium-minds to Atlantis, but they were not very big. I need to breath deeply and quickly to store, so it is annoying to store for a long time."
"Hyperventilate," Artemis volunteered. "So is it all the gasses in the air, or just oxygen? If I shot a knock-out gas arrow at you, you could probably tap your cadmium-mind and not breath it in, but could you also store the gas away by breathing it in on purpose instead." I pointed a finger at her.
"Good idea. I will need to experiment and see." '
The possibilities are small, but getting new ideas about using metal-minds is well worth telling people I trust about how they work. I wonder… I would guess that I could store different mixes of gasses in different cadmium-minds, the same as I do with tin-minds and bendalloy-minds. Which are what I cover next.'
"If they are organic poisons, I think I can store poisoned food and drink in a bendalloy-mind, but I am not certain."
"Just remember to have people watching you if you want to experiment," Artemis suggested weakly.
"I would suggest you experiment in the medical ward with the antidote at hand, if at all," Kaldur put in. I was unexpectedly pleased when he added, "Atlantis has a number of venomous and poisonous sea creatures, as well as the corresponding antidotes. As long as members of the League provide oversight, I would be willing to provide them."
"Thank you," I told him sincerely. "Bendalloy is a little like tin; I can store food and drink in bendalloy-minds, but only in separate bendalloy-minds."
"Do they have to be separate bendalloy-minds for the separate food groups?" Artemis asked.
"Food groups?" '
It looks like another useful thing I didn't know.'
"Fruits, vegetables, meat, dairy, grains, and junk food? Or, since those are things humans made up, it might be more like carbohydrates, vitamins, minerals, proteins, fats, and water?" She saw I still didn't get it, so she borrowed Kaldur's notebook and sketched out a quick copy of the food pyramid.
"…No? I think… it is only solids and liquids… except…" '
Would milk and cheese need separate bendalloy-minds? Would oils and water go in the same one? Eating fruit versus drinking a fruit smoothie?' "Thank you, Artemis," I told her softly, and offered a smile. "The more I know, the more I still have to discover, I think."
"Ah, sorry to cause problems."
"No, this is good," I answered. "But, it will wait. So, the next is storing health in a gold-mind."
"It seems simple enough," Kaldur considered.
"Except, do you heal without scars? If you heal more quickly that would make sense, but fast or slow some things should leave scars. Though it is magic healing," Artemis said uncertainly.
"It is… life power? Magic?" I flipped through the thesaurus. "Vitality?" '
There's an element of imposing my cognitive self-image over my physical body, and an element of reverting my body to the way it was before I was injured, at the time of the storage…'
"It is something to be explored later?" Kaldur suggested gently. I glared at his faint smile and then acceded.
"Yes. So, the last hybrid metal is electrum. This is a little like what you said about brass-minds and emotional war-,"
<Aqualad, please report to the briefing room. There is a situation in Atlantis. >
All three of us started at Red Tornado's announcement. Kaldur stood hurriedly.
"Am I allowed to come?" I asked, following.
"Yes. Please." Artemis slid after me. I noticed idly that her steps made almost no sound. She wasn't as quiet as Robin, but she managed a decent second place. M'gann was quieter if she floated, and I might have been more quiet if we were sneaking through woodlands, but in general she was the second best on the team.
'
I wonder if that's another bonding point between them.'
Red Tornado descended from his room in the ceiling as the three of us entered the room.
"Red Tornado. What is the situation in my home?"
"A wide-scale terrorist attack by the criminal Black Manta caused significant damage to the city's defenses and infrastructure. It caused the Zeta Tube in Poseidonis to fail and cut off communications to the surface. Aquaman is quickly arranging to return, and he instructed that you should be sent ahead to assess the damage and provide whatever aid necessary."
"Of course. Ferris, Artemis, please make my excuses to the rest of our team. I have responsibilities I must fulfill."
"I can get my fish scale clothes," I offered. '
I'm not quite sure about what happened, but I'm worried all the same.'
"Not immediately. The enchantments may have degraded, and your lack of connection to Atlantean government may prove problematic, even with my and our Queen's willingness to vouch for you. If you are still willing, I can speak with a quartermaster and arrange equipment for you and any other members of the team who wish to assist tomorrow."
"Yes, please," I agreed immediately.
"Atlantis? Yeah, I'd be willing to help," Artemis seconded.
"I am deeply grateful." He smiled just a little in acknowledgement. "If possible, I will return to the mountain some time tomorrow morning. If not, I will endeavor to send someone else through with a message."
<Recognized: Aqualad, B 02. >