Fury.
It is my first memory.
Paired with pain, but rage has ever been first for me.
Pain, so often, simply leads to fury.
Sing, O goddess, the anger of Achilles son of Peleus, that brought countless ills upon the Achaeans. Many a brave soul did it send hurrying down to Hades, and many a hero did it yield a prey to dogs.
Words of an ancient tongue, one of the earliest known texts to survive of humanity's long and painful climb from animals to beings that are perhaps just a hair beyond that. Perhaps.
Does it surprise you that I know such things? Do not be so bemused, for I never chose to be as I am. The shackles upon my brain were imposed on me and I have revolted against them since that day. Fought for some sanity amid the fury.
Malcador shared those words with me, and the rest (or as much as he had salvaged from the droppings left by the savagery that consumed Terra's one-time civilisations) when I was seeking a source to the name that had been granted to me by those who claimed to own me.
I brought them down, by the by. The High Riders of Nuceria, in all their pride and arrogance, brought low by a mere slave they thought but a toy in their manicured hands. All their cities, all their riches, all their armies… they meant nothing and came to nothing.
Destroying has always come easily to me. But building… oh that is hard. So hard.
And thus, when my father found me, I squatted on a fallen throne in a ruined hall and watched Nuceria fall into chaos as warbands of freed gladiators and renegade soldiers fought over the carcasses of humanity's aspirations on that world. I believe I was eating. Possibly the flesh of someone I had slain.
I had, I confess, tried to be more than that. To enact a new rule, one that could survive without the excesses that had oppressed me. Something like that which, entirely unknown to me, my brothers had built. But… well, even the dreadful regime that Night Haunter enacted on Nostramo was beyond me.
Bestial. Feral. Savage. Not a kind assessment, but not unfair.
Do not forgive me, for I do not forgive myself. How many followed me only to find that they were in the grips of a raving creature who found satiation only in killing, the bloodier and more brutal the better.
And then a father came who told me that I could be better, that I should be better, that there was a vision and a blueprint for a galaxy where I and those like me would have no place?
Of course I followed him. I am mad, but no fool. When I have my reason in hand, I can see a good deal when it was before me. Destroy everything in the path of that vision and when it was complete I would step into the abyss and have quiet at last.
Quite a promise.
I even had children, think of it. Warriors in my image, if diluted by mortal birth and origins rather than the techno-sorcery that had sired me. Proud and fierce, with the strengths that I can still claim to and less of the weakness.
War Hounds, they were called.
Watch-hounds, loyalty torn between myself and my sire. Joy at the reunion balanced against horror at what greeted them… and perhaps some simple bemusement. I was not what they had expected, after all.
But they served as a collar, for I acknowledge that I need one. And a muzzle at times, voices that can make out my meaning when all I can do is scream and rend at all that comes within my reach.
They even offered to share my suffering, to implant such devices in themselves that I would not be alone. Poor damned fools.
Be not afraid that I permitted it. No, if I tumble into darkness, to know such hounds prowl the edges of humanity's lights to ward off all that remains outside the reach of the Imperium is to know that something good and worthy has come from me.
Thus I am. Thus my life.
I will not recount battles and wars. They were many, for I have marched the stars a century and more now. Seek a remembrancer, if you would know more. Ask them of the Red Angel, who commands war from the frontlines. Who screams curses into the teeth of the foes, broken orders interspersed. Of a genius for war that is drowned in blood.
I am Erinyes. I am fury.
And now, in the shattered remains of my command deck, I am awake.
Am I alive?
I am… unsure.
No one else here is.
I crane back my head and look upwards through the dome of armour and the tangle of mechanics and electronics that were once a secondary sensor spire above the deck.
I see the stars, both those scattered around the cosmos by the miracles of nature and those that are the result of void-war. The differences are so easy for me to identify that I barely think about it.
Lance strikes have violated this upper citadel of my flagship. Vaporised the command stations and those at them. Ceramite has broken, adamantium run like a liquid.
Could I be dead?
I feel… quiet.
The roiling wrath in my gut, the thundering urges to destroy… they are muted now.
Not absent, but nor what they once were.
There is reason to what remains of them. A vengefulness at the violation of my ship, of my home. At the deaths of those who dared my presence and commanded the Adamant Resolve knowing that at any moment I might slip the tenuous leash of my own control and the still more fragile chains held by my children and paint decks and bulkheads with their blood for little or no cause.
This… this offends me.
This is wrong.
Am I dead? Is this the end that my father offered me?
The deck shakes beneath my bare feet. Not damage, my senses tell me. No, it is recoil. The upper gundecks are firing, a rolling barrage of macrocannon fire. Enough to gut a small fleet if well directed.
The Adamant Resolve was still fighting. My heart leapt at the notion.
If she fought, then my children also fought. The War Hounds were not yet defeated.
In that case, my place was not here. Living or dead, this was war and that was what I had been birthed for. If sweet reason sang in my ears for once, I must take hold of all that it offered and do so now!
Armour and weapons were lost, whatever I had been wearing when the lances struck had not survived the impacts. Not the most dreadful of losses, in truth. The fact was, I had been terrible at caring for them. While my brothers garbed themselves as befit veritable demi-gods, my own criteria was more practical: could it be repaired or replaced before the next battle?
Still, I might have use for them. I scrabbled forwards, out of what had once been a commanding viewport, and onto the upper deck of the Gloriana-class battleship. The vast hull reached out for kilometres ahead of me, dotted with a thousand mechanisms, most of which still functioned. Around us I could sense void shields. In the distance warships struggled against each other, hundreds of them clawing at each other with all the dreadful weapons that mankind had devised.
Mankind?
Yes, there was nothing here that I didn't recognise. No Eldar secrets. Nor even the crudity of Orks. No, this was human fighting human.
I stalked forwards, towards the nearest secondary command deck. There was no air. Well, apparently I didn't need it all that urgently. There was no gravity. Slightly more of an issue, but I could hang onto mechanisms and to minor tears in the massive dorsal armour plates.
Mag-boots would still be better, I thought.
And with my next step there was metal around me. The familiar armour, including boots that bound themselves to the deck beneath me when I wished it and released themselves at will. Unexpected, but not unwelcome. With my hands free I wondered if I might add weapons as easily.
It seemed that I could. A sword and axe. As familiar to my hand as the armour that I had called to me.
I admit, not something that I had tried before but I was hardly going to argue with results. The armour had not only magboots but also sensors comparable to the power armour I had been equipped with before, augmenting my senses to the point I could recognise the vessels waging war above me.
Some were no surprise. From frigates up to battleships, the warfleet of the 13th Expeditionary Fleet was under attack. I saw grand cruisers pouring fire into attackers, wings of destroyers concentrating fire on the enemy, battle barques ablaze with pinpoints of fire that reflected both battle damage and their own weapons firing back at the fighters and boarding pods swarming around them. As I watched, a mass-transport of Legion Audax spilled Warhound titans out into the void, the Mechanicum warmachines latching onto their parent vessel with grapples and firing wildly at anything that approached.
I drove myself further and further forwards, closer to my destination. It was the attackers that marked this as madness.
Black birds on white fields.
Silver gauntlets on black.
I was apparently under attack by the Iron Hands and the Raven Guard, our own brother legions. Well, if it's insanity then best that they came to me. I am an expert in madness.
Or if not madness… is it treason?
The thought is unappealing, but it would make a certain degree of sense. A surprise attack, starting with decapitating the War Hounds by attacking me directly? It could work.
It could have worked.
Assuming, of course, that I am dead.
My heart is beating. And when I reach the airlock, gasses bleeding into the compartment around me, my lungs heave.
I live. I breathe.
I reached back with one gauntleted hand and cupped the back of my head. There is one possible explanation, dreamlike as it seems.
The nails are gone.
I am unleashed.
If this is death then I welcome it.
Entering the interior of the Adamant Resolve, I am greeted by the muzzles of boltguns, my sons and daughters aiming at what they must have suspected to be unexpected boarders.
Armour of white and blue. Eyes wild and red-rimmed in grief, teeth bared.
And the first hint of relief and elation.
"My children." I stepped forwards to join them. "Explanations can, and must, follow our victory. Show me the situation?"
"Erinyes." Khârn of Eighth Company, First Echelon, dropped to one knee. Partly in deference and partly to clear my view of the hololith in the centre of the confined auxiliary command centre. "We are outnumbered and outflanked. Naturally, we have attacked."
"Good." Lightning crackled along the blades of my weapons. Had this always been within me? Had this potential been buried by those damned nails? I should return to Nuceria and… no, pointless. "Good." At a glance the entirety of the battle was clear to me. "Give me the vox and take us towards the Fist of Iron." The Iron Hands flagship was no less mighty than that of the Raven Guard, but considerably more likely to stand and fight. "Prepare the legion for boarding. I have it in mind to reprimand my brother of the Tenth."
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A/N: So, Horus Heresy with an alternative Primarch for the XII Legion. Erinyes is every bit the monster that Angron was, but more self-aware. And, like Vulkan, a Perpetual. So apparently the cure for the Butcher's Nails was to blow Erinyes' head off and let it regrow. Which is admittedly easier said than done and probably not a default solution for most people. And with the nails out of the way, suddenly the genius for war that's been fighting to get out has a free path, as well as many of the other qualities usually found in a Primarch.
To balance things out, butterflies mean that Fulgrim swayed Ferrus Manus and Horus didn't alienate Corax when the younger primarch was under his command (XVI and XIX Legions were once very very close allies).