As it's been literally years since the one time I've read through this part of GO I for one do not care how close or far from the rails of canon it is because I can't remember much of what canon was in the first place.
Hereafter [Worm x Fate/Grand Order]
- Thread starter James D. Fawkes
- Start date
- Crossover
It has been a while... That said, i miss Queen Marie's "Yo!"
...Why isn't that in here?
Interlude S: Ally of Justice
James D. Fawkes
Court Scribe
- Location
- Avalon (Isle of Mists)
Interlude S: Ally of Justice
Hero of the Nibelungs, they called him.
What an empty, meaningless title. It was a title befitting a hero who had only ever answered others' prayers, who had only ever granted others' wishes, and who had only ever done as others asked of him. It was a fitting title for a hero who had only ever done what others had expected of him for the sake of others' ambitions.
That was not a hero. That was an errand boy.
And yet, despite having lived his life in such a manner and despite having died in such a manner, people had still seen fit to call Siegfried "hero." They had still seen fit to record his deeds and exalt him. They had still seen fit to laud him for what little he had truly accomplished.
It was a strange feeling, to know his own worth and yet to not feel worthy of it.
No, that wasn't quite it.
The things Siegfried had done and the deeds he had accomplished were indeed worthy of praise. Without a doubt, they belonged to a Heroic Spirit who had gone on great adventures and done great things. As the one who had achieved those glories, it wasn't wrong for him to be glorified, nor was it wrong for others to call him "hero."
It was simply that Siegfried did not feel particularly heroic.
He had helped all of those people and he had completed their requests, but that was only because he had the strength and they had the need. There hadn't been anything more behind it than that. Was it proper to truly call himself a hero simply because he had done for others the things they had been unable to do for themselves?
No, that wasn't quite it, either.
The problem was deeper than simple actions. After all, if you divorced what he'd done from his name, no one would disagree that the person who did those things and accomplished those feats was a hero. It followed that the dragonslayer, Siegfried, should then be called a hero himself, and that such a title was fitting.
The problem… The problem was that none of it had been of Siegfried's own will, for Siegfried's own desires, of Siegfried's own volition.
It would be wrong to claim that Siegfried regretted the things he had done while alive, but it would also absolutely be wrong to claim that Siegfried had died without regrets. No, perhaps it was precisely because he hadn't regretted any of it that had led him to regret his own empty legend, that of the hero the people had asked for who had fulfilled all of their wishes.
Siegfried had never done anything for his own sake. Or more to the point, he had coasted through his own life, agreeing to every request made of him, even the one that he had known would mean his own death, and he had never once acted to fulfill his own dreams and his own ambitions. Yes, how could you call someone a hero simply because he had never been able to turn down another's wishes, even to his own detriment?
If only it had not taken his own death to realize the emptiness of his life. If Siegfried had acted on his own will to fulfill his own desires, then perhaps nothing would have changed, but at least he could have claimed with pride that he was "Hero of the Nibelungs." Not a mere errand boy chasing down others' requests, but an ally of justice who had done right by all of the people, simply because he believed in its inherent righteousness.
Lady Bradamante let out a long breath, and her hand left his side. It didn't twinge anywhere near as much as it had even just a mere few days ago.
"My apologies, Lord Siegfried," she said as she always did. "I've done what I can for today, but it's still not done."
Siegfried smiled. It seemed he had been woolgathering while she worked.
"Don't worry yourself, Lady Bradamante," he said sincerely. "That you are lending us your aid is already something to be thankful for. Please, don't feel that you have to push yourself for my sake."
She offered him a sad smile. "You are too kind, Lord Siegfried. If it was someone like His Majesty, I'm certain he could have handled this in an instant." She gave a self-deprecating laugh. "Well, I can do at least this much! It may take me longer and more effort, but I swear to you, I will break this curse!"
Siegfried inclined his head. "Then I will gladly accept this kindness."
Bradamante let out a gusty sigh. "If only I could join you on your mission to fight the Dragon Witch. But I can't leave Thiers undefended to go off chasing after witches, not while its people still need me. Ah, not that I regret this at all!" she added hastily. "As a knight, there's no higher honor than protecting the people and their lives! Doubly so that they are the descendants of my own people and therefore my king's subjects! It's only…"
She looked away.
Ah, Siegfried thought. It was like that, was it?
"To be trapped in a single place, waiting for something to happen, that is its own brand of suffering, isn't it?"
Bradamante sighed again.
"It really isn't befitting my temperament," she agreed. "Charging forward into battle, facing my foes head on — that is the kind of woman, the kind of knight I am! A hundred wyverns, a thousand wyverns, an army of enemy Servants, I would gladly stare them all down across the battlefield!" She turned, and although there was nothing and no one there with them in the church, Siegfried got the sense that her gaze encompassed the entire city and all its people. "But that is not what Thiers needs me to be."
She turned back and offered him a smile. "So even if it chafes, I will continue to be this city's stalwart defender! That's why… I'm sorry that I can't simply break the curse in an instant."
"I understand," Siegfried said, returning her smile. "I'm sure my Master does as well."
Her smile fell.
"Ah…" She looked away. "Yes, if you say so, Lord Siegfried."
Yes, there was that, too, wasn't there? Siegfried wondered if she had even noticed, but he was certain Jeanne and Arash had both noticed it, and given how sharp his Master's eyes were, she had likely seen it too. The reason behind Lady Bradamante's distrust of their Masters eluded Siegfried, but the fact that she did indeed distrust them was obvious in the way she talked to and about them. Never outright suspicious, but always with a polite distance different altogether from the respect she gave the Servants.
Siegfried wasn't sure what to do about it. He wasn't sure there was anything that could be done about it, not without knowing the source of it.
Perhaps he should have asked Arash while the opportunity was still there. Now, it seemed that he would have to wait until the others returned to ask and see if his ally had any greater insight into the situation than he did.
The doors to the church swung open, and as though mentioning her had summoned her forth, his Master stepped inside, face flushed and brow damp with sweat from her "morning run." While he applauded the initiative in maintaining her fitness, Siegfried also had to lament how it left her unprotected to run through the streets every morning without a Servant to aid her if they were attacked.
He was less concerned about a wyvern or two than he was an enemy Servant, especially another of the Assassin class. He didn't expect a few lesser dragons to prove much of a threat to her, at least not one that she couldn't escape with relatively little difficulty, although when he'd said as much to Lady Bradamante a few days ago, she'd been shocked and appalled.
It was baffling that no one else seemed to have noticed. Was he the only one who knew the stench of the Dragonkind that clung to his Master's bloody sleeve? Was he the only one who recognized that for what it was?
Perhaps it was just a matter of like recognizing like. As a hero who had slain a dragon, he was more familiar than most with their particular mysteries.
"Good morning, Master," Siegfried greeted her.
"Morning, Siegfried, Bradamante," she replied. Her eyes immediately honed in on his wound. "How is it?"
Siegfried's hand moved to his wound of its own accord. It didn't pain him anywhere near as badly to touch it as it had for the past few weeks.
"Well enough."
"It's still going to take me a few more days," Bradamante told her.
His Master accepted this with a nod. Not happily, but as a matter of fact, a statement of truth, something which had to be considered, accepted, and worked around. She did not whine or complain, she shouldered it willingly and stoically.
And then she ran a hand through her hair and scowled.
"I'd kill for a shower, right about now," she muttered, so low he almost didn't hear it.
With a sigh, she sank onto one of the empty pews and threw her arms across the back, letting her head lull onto the wood as she looked up into the church's rafters.
"I guess it's kind of pointless to ask if the twins have gotten into contact, considering I'm the one with the communicator," she said wryly.
"They've only been gone three days, Master," Siegfried pointed out.
"Which means they should be coming across whoever that Servant is pretty soon," she replied. She spared a glance Lady Bradamante's way. "I know I said it before, but I do appreciate that. We've been going by foot most of the time since we got here, and I don't think we could have convinced that farmer to lend us a couple horses on our own."
Lady Bradamante smiled brightly. "It was no trouble! Though…" She trailed off thoughtfully for a moment. "It seems that it would have been an easy problem to solve, if you trusted yourselves to your Servants."
His Master snorted. "Chaldea's courses on Servants had one thing to say about having them carry us to and from our destinations."
"What's that?"
"Don't."
Siegfried couldn't stop a smile, and the short burst of air that hissed out of his nostrils wasn't quite a snort.
Lady Bradamante's brow furrowed. "Why not?"
His Master rolled her shoulders in what might have been intended as a shrug.
"It's considered an unnecessary drain on Chaldea's resources to have our Servants exert themselves for something so petty. If you're in such terrible shape that a little exercise and some walking is enough to wear you out, you have no business being a Master of Chaldea — or so the Director liked to say. At this point, though…"
She scowled.
"We might have to rethink that rule," she admitted sourly. "It was fine when we were crossing a city, but it's too much to ask for when we're crossing the French countryside. We waste too much time just getting from place to place."
And that there was one of the reasons why Siegfried was so certain that whatever misgivings Lady Bradamante had must have been unfounded. His Master was not a cruel or heartless woman, and she did not treat lives as currency.
"I'm sure Mash, Ritsuka, and Rika are fine, Master," he said reassuringly. "Arash would not allow any harm to befall them. They're in good hands."
His Master's scowl deepened. "I'm that transparent, huh?" she whispered under her breath.
Truth be told, his Master wasn't the only one feeling the wait. Although he spoke confidently about Arash's competence as a defender, if he was being honest, Siegfried was anxious as well. It felt like he had spent the majority of his time since his summoning cursed by the wound that still plagued him, and he had never felt so useless as he had hobbling at the tail of the party as they trekked towards Thiers in search of aid.
He, too, was ready to be rid of it and take the fight to the Dragon Witch. For the first time since his death, here was a moment, a conflict with clear right and wrong, and he was to be on the side of justice. And yet, he was cursed to sit it out, barely capable of walking without assistance, let alone fighting, powerless to do anything except wait for an opportune moment where he might fire off his dragon-slaying Noble Phantasm.
It rankled. There was a feeling of impotent frustration in his belly that threatened to boil over almost constantly, and it was tempered only by the knowledge that everyone was doing everything they possibly could to see it fixed as swiftly as possible.
As cold a comfort as it was, he couldn't do anything except accept it. It wasn't that he wasn't grateful, but he was ready to be rid of this wound and the curse that made it linger.
His Master let out a long, slow breath, and then she levered herself out of her seat and back to her feet with one limber motion.
"I might as well eat," she said. "Did the priest leave anything for me?"
"Ah, yes!" Lady Bradamante said. "There should be a bowl of porridge —"
Master honed in on it immediately and made a beeline for the thick, wooden bowl; Lady Bradamante faltered. "…right…over there."
That, too, had taken some getting used to.
Master picked up the bowl and grimaced down at the contents, like she had been personally offended. Although that bland, largely tasteless porridge was exactly the sort of thing Siegfried had eaten all his living life, having now tasted the food cooked by this "Emiya" for himself, he could understand the disappointment at having to go without it. He didn't need food at all, and yet he found himself craving just one more bite of the stew that he had been blessed with tasting.
"Barely two weeks since he took over the cafeteria, and Emiya's already spoiling me," Master muttered.
Despite her complaints, she took one of her metal spoons from the kit she carried and started eating.
"If you are so offended by the priest's generosity," Lady Bradamante said sourly, "then could you not simply have your Acting Director send you more of this Emiya's fare?"
Master shook her head and swallowed. "It's not that easy. A lot of the science and the magecraft stuff goes way over my head, but us just being here is already incredibly complicated and should probably be impossible. Sending food and supplies can be done, but there are limitations on how and where."
"Limitations?"
Master lifted one eyebrow. "Do you think I'm going to start trusting you with all of our secrets when you won't trust us?"
Lady Bradamante flushed, but didn't back down. "I trust you perfectly well!"
"Really?" Master stopped eating long enough to thrust out her hand; the red of her Command Spells stood out starkly on her skin, and it was juxtaposed by the maroon stain on her sleeve. "Then make a contract right now. Become a Servant of Chaldea and help us fix this Singularity."
Lady Bradamante grimaced and turned her head away, refusing to even look at Master's hand.
"I can't," she said. "The people of Thiers need me —"
"Because you think I'll use a Command Spell to force you to leave, right?" Master said, cutting across her. "Use whatever it takes to get my way and force you to fight for my goal without any consideration of your feelings, regardless of what it means for this city."
"Wouldn't you?" Lady Bradamante shot back. "After all, what use are these people against the good of all of France? My obstinance must be quite the obstacle for you, magus of Chaldea."
"How convenient that ivory tower of yours is," Master rebuked. "No one is as just and righteous as you, are they? We're just a group of selfish wizards who don't care about anyone but ourselves and accomplishing our own aims. We all think the ends justify the means, no matter how many people we have to trample on to get there. Is that right?"
"Ha!" Lady Bradamante scoffed. "Are you trying to claim that this is all about altruism? Magi are all as you just said: selfish, greedy, and self-centered. I've yet to meet a single one worth even half of my weakest, least experienced page!" A moment later, she hastily added, "Except Lord Merlin, of course!"
"You must not have met that many, then," said Master. "I've met at least three that I would call pretty decent people. One of them happens to be the closest thing I have to a best friend, these days."
"I suppose you count yourself among them?"
Master shook her head. "No," she said simply, and Lady Bradamante's indignant anger just deflated. "I'm a lot of things, but I don't know that 'decent person' is one of them. I was that kind of person you seem to think I am. I'm hoping I left that behind when I joined Chaldea —"
Master startled and turned away, vaguely in the direction the others had left to travel westward. "Arash?" she asked the air. "Is something happening?"
She fell silent, although by the furrowing of her brow, the conversation continued in her head as she spoke with Arash via the Master-Servant bond. A jolt shot through Siegfried's belly, an unusual sensation when paired with the persistent ache of the wound carved into his flesh.
Something was happening to the other team. Something unexpected, or at least something they had hoped wouldn't happen. An attack? Had another Servant been dispatched by the Dragon Witch to crush the others while they were all separated?
And here he and Master were, stuck in Thiers, him too weakened to help and her too far away to contribute at all.
A long moment of tense silence followed, although it couldn't have been any longer than perhaps thirty seconds. It felt like hours to Siegfried. At last, Master turned back to him, and without preamble, she declared, "The town the others went to is under attack."
"Is there anything we can do?" Siegfried asked immediately.
Master shook her head. "From here? No. We can at least keep track of what's happening, though. Romani!"
She held up her wrist and spoke into the communicator. An instant later, a harried Doctor Romani appeared.
"Taylor!" he said briskly. "I'm sorry, I can't talk right now, the others are —"
"Being attacked, I know," she cut across him just as swiftly. "Is there anything you can give me? Data, flow charts, profiles on the enemy, anything at all so I can keep track of what's going on?"
"R-right! Of course! Just give me a minute!" He turned away from the camera and started fiddling with something none of them could see. "Right, so, if I do this… N-no, that's not it… Maybe here… No, that's something completely different. Damn it, Da Vinci, this is your field, why is it up to me to try and mess with this stuff?"
Long seconds passed, but nothing changed except Master's patience, and her mouth drew into an ever tighter line. Eventually, she just shook her head and squeezed her eyes shut.
"Forget it, I'm going to get a look with my own —"
She cut off mid-sentence and gasped, stumbling backwards into one of the pews as her bowl clattered to the floor and spilled porridge over her boots. Her face had become pale and drawn, like all of the blood had drained away, and her mouth flapped open and closed with naked shock.
"That's…" she whispered, and it was the first time Siegfried had heard anything like awe or fear in her voice. "That's a dragon?"
Siegfried's gut clenched. "Master?"
"That's gotta be…almost twice as big as Behemoth," she said shakily. "If that thing breathed fire, would there even be a town left?"
Oh.
No, it couldn't be, could it? Of all the dragons that the Dragon Witch might summon to her aid… But it made a degree of sense that Siegfried did not want to believe. After all, if it was just a matter of a dragonslayer, then there were a number of Heroic Spirits who could have been summoned in response. However, that it was Siegfried himself who had been summoned instead…
It must be. For a woman who had already slain a dragon, what dragon would she fear but the greatest and evilest of them all?
"Master!" Siegfried seized her by the shoulders urgently, and he only just remembered to control his strength so he didn't crush her bones into powder. "Please, that dragon, describe it to me!"
They were two sides of the same coin, after all. Victim and murderer, inextricably linked by fate and destiny.
Master blinked up at him, but turned immediately to her communicator. "Romani!" she barked into it. "That dragon, is that —"
"The output far outclasses any of the wyverns you've come across so far!" the Doctor confirmed. "In terms of sheer magical energy and mana density, it puts even a top class Servant to shame! Taylor, that's the genuine article, a real dragon!"
"Master!" Siegfried insisted.
She looked him in the face, and then her eyes trailed down to the glowing marking etched into his chest. Siegfried let go of her and recoiled, because that all but confirmed it, didn't it?
"Siegfried," she began with quiet haste, "that mark on your chest, is that —"
"Yes," Siegfried said. "This mark is the mark of the blood of the dragon that I bathed in. It marks my Noble Phantasm, the armor of the evil dragon gained by killing it and taking its body as spoils. It binds us together, a symbol of our shared destiny."
"Then," she said, "a dragon that has a symbol just like that on its chest would be…"
Siegfried closed his eyes and inclined his head.
"That's correct, Master. That there is a dragon bearing this symbol on its chest attacking the others can mean one thing and one thing only."
He sucked in a deep breath. The wound just below his ribs throbbed, as though to remind him that he was in no shape to go charging into battle against the greatest enemy he had ever faced.
"The Dragon Witch has called forth my old nemesis," he said solemnly. "Once more, the evil dragon, Fafnir, now walks this Earth."
Master whirled about towards the doors, as though she was going to sprint to the other team's aid right then and there, but she spun back around halfway there and stalked down the aisle. A low buzz began to hum in the background from the walls, the ceiling, and the floor, as though the entire cathedral was about to come alive.
She looked down at her Command Spells, brow knitted together.
"If Arash used his Noble Phantasm," she began.
"It may be enough to defeat Fafnir, but it would at least force a retreat," Siegfried agreed. "Master, Lord Arash will do whatever he deems is necessary. There's no need to use your Command Spells."
His Master's restless energy matched his own. It was not in Siegfried to sit and wait, to be so passive when the enemy was clear and the goal unambiguous. He wanted to race off himself, to chase down the dragon and cast it from the sky with his Noble Phantasm. He wanted to be strong enough that he could do just that. Ritsuka, Rika, Mash, Jeanne, they were all in danger, and he was the only one strong enough to protect them from the evil dragon, if only the wound in his side was gone.
But he wasn't and he couldn't. The wound remained. He was stuck in this church, unable to do anything but wait.
"Romani!" Master barked instead into her communicator. "Send Emiya! Give them some kind of backup!"
"I-I can't!" the Doctor replied. "The interference from such a huge concentration of magical energy is throwing off our instruments! I can't guarantee exactly where he'll land!"
"Send him anyway!" Master snarled. "What good is holding onto emergency backup if you can't rely on him in an emergency? He just needs to get here! Rika can use a Command Spell to bring him closer if she —"
"I-incoming enemy Servant!" Romani shouted. "Location, he's on his way to Thiers, heading directly towards you!"
Lady Bradamante gasped.
Doctor Romani's image turned to Master with wide eyes.
"This Saint Graph reading — Taylor, it's Dracul."
Master jerked as though she'd been slapped, her mouth moving silently for a moment as she processed the news. The name meant little to Siegfried, because it wasn't one he immediately recognized.
But if the expression on his Master's face was any indication, he was not a foe to be taken lightly.
"Fuck."
Next — Chapter XXII: Common Enemy
Hero of the Nibelungs, they called him.
What an empty, meaningless title. It was a title befitting a hero who had only ever answered others' prayers, who had only ever granted others' wishes, and who had only ever done as others asked of him. It was a fitting title for a hero who had only ever done what others had expected of him for the sake of others' ambitions.
That was not a hero. That was an errand boy.
And yet, despite having lived his life in such a manner and despite having died in such a manner, people had still seen fit to call Siegfried "hero." They had still seen fit to record his deeds and exalt him. They had still seen fit to laud him for what little he had truly accomplished.
It was a strange feeling, to know his own worth and yet to not feel worthy of it.
No, that wasn't quite it.
The things Siegfried had done and the deeds he had accomplished were indeed worthy of praise. Without a doubt, they belonged to a Heroic Spirit who had gone on great adventures and done great things. As the one who had achieved those glories, it wasn't wrong for him to be glorified, nor was it wrong for others to call him "hero."
It was simply that Siegfried did not feel particularly heroic.
He had helped all of those people and he had completed their requests, but that was only because he had the strength and they had the need. There hadn't been anything more behind it than that. Was it proper to truly call himself a hero simply because he had done for others the things they had been unable to do for themselves?
No, that wasn't quite it, either.
The problem was deeper than simple actions. After all, if you divorced what he'd done from his name, no one would disagree that the person who did those things and accomplished those feats was a hero. It followed that the dragonslayer, Siegfried, should then be called a hero himself, and that such a title was fitting.
The problem… The problem was that none of it had been of Siegfried's own will, for Siegfried's own desires, of Siegfried's own volition.
It would be wrong to claim that Siegfried regretted the things he had done while alive, but it would also absolutely be wrong to claim that Siegfried had died without regrets. No, perhaps it was precisely because he hadn't regretted any of it that had led him to regret his own empty legend, that of the hero the people had asked for who had fulfilled all of their wishes.
Siegfried had never done anything for his own sake. Or more to the point, he had coasted through his own life, agreeing to every request made of him, even the one that he had known would mean his own death, and he had never once acted to fulfill his own dreams and his own ambitions. Yes, how could you call someone a hero simply because he had never been able to turn down another's wishes, even to his own detriment?
If only it had not taken his own death to realize the emptiness of his life. If Siegfried had acted on his own will to fulfill his own desires, then perhaps nothing would have changed, but at least he could have claimed with pride that he was "Hero of the Nibelungs." Not a mere errand boy chasing down others' requests, but an ally of justice who had done right by all of the people, simply because he believed in its inherent righteousness.
Lady Bradamante let out a long breath, and her hand left his side. It didn't twinge anywhere near as much as it had even just a mere few days ago.
"My apologies, Lord Siegfried," she said as she always did. "I've done what I can for today, but it's still not done."
Siegfried smiled. It seemed he had been woolgathering while she worked.
"Don't worry yourself, Lady Bradamante," he said sincerely. "That you are lending us your aid is already something to be thankful for. Please, don't feel that you have to push yourself for my sake."
She offered him a sad smile. "You are too kind, Lord Siegfried. If it was someone like His Majesty, I'm certain he could have handled this in an instant." She gave a self-deprecating laugh. "Well, I can do at least this much! It may take me longer and more effort, but I swear to you, I will break this curse!"
Siegfried inclined his head. "Then I will gladly accept this kindness."
Bradamante let out a gusty sigh. "If only I could join you on your mission to fight the Dragon Witch. But I can't leave Thiers undefended to go off chasing after witches, not while its people still need me. Ah, not that I regret this at all!" she added hastily. "As a knight, there's no higher honor than protecting the people and their lives! Doubly so that they are the descendants of my own people and therefore my king's subjects! It's only…"
She looked away.
Ah, Siegfried thought. It was like that, was it?
"To be trapped in a single place, waiting for something to happen, that is its own brand of suffering, isn't it?"
Bradamante sighed again.
"It really isn't befitting my temperament," she agreed. "Charging forward into battle, facing my foes head on — that is the kind of woman, the kind of knight I am! A hundred wyverns, a thousand wyverns, an army of enemy Servants, I would gladly stare them all down across the battlefield!" She turned, and although there was nothing and no one there with them in the church, Siegfried got the sense that her gaze encompassed the entire city and all its people. "But that is not what Thiers needs me to be."
She turned back and offered him a smile. "So even if it chafes, I will continue to be this city's stalwart defender! That's why… I'm sorry that I can't simply break the curse in an instant."
"I understand," Siegfried said, returning her smile. "I'm sure my Master does as well."
Her smile fell.
"Ah…" She looked away. "Yes, if you say so, Lord Siegfried."
Yes, there was that, too, wasn't there? Siegfried wondered if she had even noticed, but he was certain Jeanne and Arash had both noticed it, and given how sharp his Master's eyes were, she had likely seen it too. The reason behind Lady Bradamante's distrust of their Masters eluded Siegfried, but the fact that she did indeed distrust them was obvious in the way she talked to and about them. Never outright suspicious, but always with a polite distance different altogether from the respect she gave the Servants.
Siegfried wasn't sure what to do about it. He wasn't sure there was anything that could be done about it, not without knowing the source of it.
Perhaps he should have asked Arash while the opportunity was still there. Now, it seemed that he would have to wait until the others returned to ask and see if his ally had any greater insight into the situation than he did.
The doors to the church swung open, and as though mentioning her had summoned her forth, his Master stepped inside, face flushed and brow damp with sweat from her "morning run." While he applauded the initiative in maintaining her fitness, Siegfried also had to lament how it left her unprotected to run through the streets every morning without a Servant to aid her if they were attacked.
He was less concerned about a wyvern or two than he was an enemy Servant, especially another of the Assassin class. He didn't expect a few lesser dragons to prove much of a threat to her, at least not one that she couldn't escape with relatively little difficulty, although when he'd said as much to Lady Bradamante a few days ago, she'd been shocked and appalled.
It was baffling that no one else seemed to have noticed. Was he the only one who knew the stench of the Dragonkind that clung to his Master's bloody sleeve? Was he the only one who recognized that for what it was?
Perhaps it was just a matter of like recognizing like. As a hero who had slain a dragon, he was more familiar than most with their particular mysteries.
"Good morning, Master," Siegfried greeted her.
"Morning, Siegfried, Bradamante," she replied. Her eyes immediately honed in on his wound. "How is it?"
Siegfried's hand moved to his wound of its own accord. It didn't pain him anywhere near as badly to touch it as it had for the past few weeks.
"Well enough."
"It's still going to take me a few more days," Bradamante told her.
His Master accepted this with a nod. Not happily, but as a matter of fact, a statement of truth, something which had to be considered, accepted, and worked around. She did not whine or complain, she shouldered it willingly and stoically.
And then she ran a hand through her hair and scowled.
"I'd kill for a shower, right about now," she muttered, so low he almost didn't hear it.
With a sigh, she sank onto one of the empty pews and threw her arms across the back, letting her head lull onto the wood as she looked up into the church's rafters.
"I guess it's kind of pointless to ask if the twins have gotten into contact, considering I'm the one with the communicator," she said wryly.
"They've only been gone three days, Master," Siegfried pointed out.
"Which means they should be coming across whoever that Servant is pretty soon," she replied. She spared a glance Lady Bradamante's way. "I know I said it before, but I do appreciate that. We've been going by foot most of the time since we got here, and I don't think we could have convinced that farmer to lend us a couple horses on our own."
Lady Bradamante smiled brightly. "It was no trouble! Though…" She trailed off thoughtfully for a moment. "It seems that it would have been an easy problem to solve, if you trusted yourselves to your Servants."
His Master snorted. "Chaldea's courses on Servants had one thing to say about having them carry us to and from our destinations."
"What's that?"
"Don't."
Siegfried couldn't stop a smile, and the short burst of air that hissed out of his nostrils wasn't quite a snort.
Lady Bradamante's brow furrowed. "Why not?"
His Master rolled her shoulders in what might have been intended as a shrug.
"It's considered an unnecessary drain on Chaldea's resources to have our Servants exert themselves for something so petty. If you're in such terrible shape that a little exercise and some walking is enough to wear you out, you have no business being a Master of Chaldea — or so the Director liked to say. At this point, though…"
She scowled.
"We might have to rethink that rule," she admitted sourly. "It was fine when we were crossing a city, but it's too much to ask for when we're crossing the French countryside. We waste too much time just getting from place to place."
And that there was one of the reasons why Siegfried was so certain that whatever misgivings Lady Bradamante had must have been unfounded. His Master was not a cruel or heartless woman, and she did not treat lives as currency.
"I'm sure Mash, Ritsuka, and Rika are fine, Master," he said reassuringly. "Arash would not allow any harm to befall them. They're in good hands."
His Master's scowl deepened. "I'm that transparent, huh?" she whispered under her breath.
Truth be told, his Master wasn't the only one feeling the wait. Although he spoke confidently about Arash's competence as a defender, if he was being honest, Siegfried was anxious as well. It felt like he had spent the majority of his time since his summoning cursed by the wound that still plagued him, and he had never felt so useless as he had hobbling at the tail of the party as they trekked towards Thiers in search of aid.
He, too, was ready to be rid of it and take the fight to the Dragon Witch. For the first time since his death, here was a moment, a conflict with clear right and wrong, and he was to be on the side of justice. And yet, he was cursed to sit it out, barely capable of walking without assistance, let alone fighting, powerless to do anything except wait for an opportune moment where he might fire off his dragon-slaying Noble Phantasm.
It rankled. There was a feeling of impotent frustration in his belly that threatened to boil over almost constantly, and it was tempered only by the knowledge that everyone was doing everything they possibly could to see it fixed as swiftly as possible.
As cold a comfort as it was, he couldn't do anything except accept it. It wasn't that he wasn't grateful, but he was ready to be rid of this wound and the curse that made it linger.
His Master let out a long, slow breath, and then she levered herself out of her seat and back to her feet with one limber motion.
"I might as well eat," she said. "Did the priest leave anything for me?"
"Ah, yes!" Lady Bradamante said. "There should be a bowl of porridge —"
Master honed in on it immediately and made a beeline for the thick, wooden bowl; Lady Bradamante faltered. "…right…over there."
That, too, had taken some getting used to.
Master picked up the bowl and grimaced down at the contents, like she had been personally offended. Although that bland, largely tasteless porridge was exactly the sort of thing Siegfried had eaten all his living life, having now tasted the food cooked by this "Emiya" for himself, he could understand the disappointment at having to go without it. He didn't need food at all, and yet he found himself craving just one more bite of the stew that he had been blessed with tasting.
"Barely two weeks since he took over the cafeteria, and Emiya's already spoiling me," Master muttered.
Despite her complaints, she took one of her metal spoons from the kit she carried and started eating.
"If you are so offended by the priest's generosity," Lady Bradamante said sourly, "then could you not simply have your Acting Director send you more of this Emiya's fare?"
Master shook her head and swallowed. "It's not that easy. A lot of the science and the magecraft stuff goes way over my head, but us just being here is already incredibly complicated and should probably be impossible. Sending food and supplies can be done, but there are limitations on how and where."
"Limitations?"
Master lifted one eyebrow. "Do you think I'm going to start trusting you with all of our secrets when you won't trust us?"
Lady Bradamante flushed, but didn't back down. "I trust you perfectly well!"
"Really?" Master stopped eating long enough to thrust out her hand; the red of her Command Spells stood out starkly on her skin, and it was juxtaposed by the maroon stain on her sleeve. "Then make a contract right now. Become a Servant of Chaldea and help us fix this Singularity."
Lady Bradamante grimaced and turned her head away, refusing to even look at Master's hand.
"I can't," she said. "The people of Thiers need me —"
"Because you think I'll use a Command Spell to force you to leave, right?" Master said, cutting across her. "Use whatever it takes to get my way and force you to fight for my goal without any consideration of your feelings, regardless of what it means for this city."
"Wouldn't you?" Lady Bradamante shot back. "After all, what use are these people against the good of all of France? My obstinance must be quite the obstacle for you, magus of Chaldea."
"How convenient that ivory tower of yours is," Master rebuked. "No one is as just and righteous as you, are they? We're just a group of selfish wizards who don't care about anyone but ourselves and accomplishing our own aims. We all think the ends justify the means, no matter how many people we have to trample on to get there. Is that right?"
"Ha!" Lady Bradamante scoffed. "Are you trying to claim that this is all about altruism? Magi are all as you just said: selfish, greedy, and self-centered. I've yet to meet a single one worth even half of my weakest, least experienced page!" A moment later, she hastily added, "Except Lord Merlin, of course!"
"You must not have met that many, then," said Master. "I've met at least three that I would call pretty decent people. One of them happens to be the closest thing I have to a best friend, these days."
"I suppose you count yourself among them?"
Master shook her head. "No," she said simply, and Lady Bradamante's indignant anger just deflated. "I'm a lot of things, but I don't know that 'decent person' is one of them. I was that kind of person you seem to think I am. I'm hoping I left that behind when I joined Chaldea —"
Master startled and turned away, vaguely in the direction the others had left to travel westward. "Arash?" she asked the air. "Is something happening?"
She fell silent, although by the furrowing of her brow, the conversation continued in her head as she spoke with Arash via the Master-Servant bond. A jolt shot through Siegfried's belly, an unusual sensation when paired with the persistent ache of the wound carved into his flesh.
Something was happening to the other team. Something unexpected, or at least something they had hoped wouldn't happen. An attack? Had another Servant been dispatched by the Dragon Witch to crush the others while they were all separated?
And here he and Master were, stuck in Thiers, him too weakened to help and her too far away to contribute at all.
A long moment of tense silence followed, although it couldn't have been any longer than perhaps thirty seconds. It felt like hours to Siegfried. At last, Master turned back to him, and without preamble, she declared, "The town the others went to is under attack."
"Is there anything we can do?" Siegfried asked immediately.
Master shook her head. "From here? No. We can at least keep track of what's happening, though. Romani!"
She held up her wrist and spoke into the communicator. An instant later, a harried Doctor Romani appeared.
"Taylor!" he said briskly. "I'm sorry, I can't talk right now, the others are —"
"Being attacked, I know," she cut across him just as swiftly. "Is there anything you can give me? Data, flow charts, profiles on the enemy, anything at all so I can keep track of what's going on?"
"R-right! Of course! Just give me a minute!" He turned away from the camera and started fiddling with something none of them could see. "Right, so, if I do this… N-no, that's not it… Maybe here… No, that's something completely different. Damn it, Da Vinci, this is your field, why is it up to me to try and mess with this stuff?"
Long seconds passed, but nothing changed except Master's patience, and her mouth drew into an ever tighter line. Eventually, she just shook her head and squeezed her eyes shut.
"Forget it, I'm going to get a look with my own —"
She cut off mid-sentence and gasped, stumbling backwards into one of the pews as her bowl clattered to the floor and spilled porridge over her boots. Her face had become pale and drawn, like all of the blood had drained away, and her mouth flapped open and closed with naked shock.
"That's…" she whispered, and it was the first time Siegfried had heard anything like awe or fear in her voice. "That's a dragon?"
Siegfried's gut clenched. "Master?"
"That's gotta be…almost twice as big as Behemoth," she said shakily. "If that thing breathed fire, would there even be a town left?"
Oh.
No, it couldn't be, could it? Of all the dragons that the Dragon Witch might summon to her aid… But it made a degree of sense that Siegfried did not want to believe. After all, if it was just a matter of a dragonslayer, then there were a number of Heroic Spirits who could have been summoned in response. However, that it was Siegfried himself who had been summoned instead…
It must be. For a woman who had already slain a dragon, what dragon would she fear but the greatest and evilest of them all?
"Master!" Siegfried seized her by the shoulders urgently, and he only just remembered to control his strength so he didn't crush her bones into powder. "Please, that dragon, describe it to me!"
They were two sides of the same coin, after all. Victim and murderer, inextricably linked by fate and destiny.
Master blinked up at him, but turned immediately to her communicator. "Romani!" she barked into it. "That dragon, is that —"
"The output far outclasses any of the wyverns you've come across so far!" the Doctor confirmed. "In terms of sheer magical energy and mana density, it puts even a top class Servant to shame! Taylor, that's the genuine article, a real dragon!"
"Master!" Siegfried insisted.
She looked him in the face, and then her eyes trailed down to the glowing marking etched into his chest. Siegfried let go of her and recoiled, because that all but confirmed it, didn't it?
"Siegfried," she began with quiet haste, "that mark on your chest, is that —"
"Yes," Siegfried said. "This mark is the mark of the blood of the dragon that I bathed in. It marks my Noble Phantasm, the armor of the evil dragon gained by killing it and taking its body as spoils. It binds us together, a symbol of our shared destiny."
"Then," she said, "a dragon that has a symbol just like that on its chest would be…"
Siegfried closed his eyes and inclined his head.
"That's correct, Master. That there is a dragon bearing this symbol on its chest attacking the others can mean one thing and one thing only."
He sucked in a deep breath. The wound just below his ribs throbbed, as though to remind him that he was in no shape to go charging into battle against the greatest enemy he had ever faced.
"The Dragon Witch has called forth my old nemesis," he said solemnly. "Once more, the evil dragon, Fafnir, now walks this Earth."
Master whirled about towards the doors, as though she was going to sprint to the other team's aid right then and there, but she spun back around halfway there and stalked down the aisle. A low buzz began to hum in the background from the walls, the ceiling, and the floor, as though the entire cathedral was about to come alive.
She looked down at her Command Spells, brow knitted together.
"If Arash used his Noble Phantasm," she began.
"It may be enough to defeat Fafnir, but it would at least force a retreat," Siegfried agreed. "Master, Lord Arash will do whatever he deems is necessary. There's no need to use your Command Spells."
His Master's restless energy matched his own. It was not in Siegfried to sit and wait, to be so passive when the enemy was clear and the goal unambiguous. He wanted to race off himself, to chase down the dragon and cast it from the sky with his Noble Phantasm. He wanted to be strong enough that he could do just that. Ritsuka, Rika, Mash, Jeanne, they were all in danger, and he was the only one strong enough to protect them from the evil dragon, if only the wound in his side was gone.
But he wasn't and he couldn't. The wound remained. He was stuck in this church, unable to do anything but wait.
"Romani!" Master barked instead into her communicator. "Send Emiya! Give them some kind of backup!"
"I-I can't!" the Doctor replied. "The interference from such a huge concentration of magical energy is throwing off our instruments! I can't guarantee exactly where he'll land!"
"Send him anyway!" Master snarled. "What good is holding onto emergency backup if you can't rely on him in an emergency? He just needs to get here! Rika can use a Command Spell to bring him closer if she —"
"I-incoming enemy Servant!" Romani shouted. "Location, he's on his way to Thiers, heading directly towards you!"
Lady Bradamante gasped.
Doctor Romani's image turned to Master with wide eyes.
"This Saint Graph reading — Taylor, it's Dracul."
Master jerked as though she'd been slapped, her mouth moving silently for a moment as she processed the news. The name meant little to Siegfried, because it wasn't one he immediately recognized.
But if the expression on his Master's face was any indication, he was not a foe to be taken lightly.
"Fuck."
— o.0.O.O.0.o —
Not totally happy where this landed, in some spots. Nasu's version of Siegfried feels kind of weird, and trying to get a handle on his mental state was funky. I did my best, but your mileage may vary. Also, yes, Emiya finally gets dropped into things. Fafnir is the kind of enemy you pull out all your trump cards for, after all.
Next chapter is the rematch with an old foe from earlier in the Singularity.
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Next chapter is the rematch with an old foe from earlier in the Singularity.
Special thanks to everyone who has helped me out, and especially to all my Patrons who have stayed with me this far, through all the rocky moments and dry stretches. You guys are the best, and your continued support is invaluable.
If you like what you're reading and want to support me as a writer so I can pay the bills, I have a Patreon. If Patreon is too long term, I have a Ko-fi page, too. If you want to commission something from me, check out either my Deviantart post or my artist registry page for my rates. Links in my sig. Every little bit helps keep me afloat, even if you can only afford a couple dollars.
MountainBookSage
Daydreaming Sage
- Pronouns
- He
Ha ha
Yep
A very appropriate word for the situation at hand
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- He/Him/His
Damn. You really know how to raise the stakes.
All in all, this was an excellent character driven chapter with a brilliant high tension,cliff-hanger.
I know nothing of Bradamante, but her distinct character came across very well.
And Seigfried felt true to his character (as I remember it from Apocrypha), (though to be honest I never enjoyed his particular rehash of Nasu's "selfless heroics are bad" lesson).
All in all, this was an excellent character driven chapter with a brilliant high tension,cliff-hanger.
I know nothing of Bradamante, but her distinct character came across very well.
And Seigfried felt true to his character (as I remember it from Apocrypha), (though to be honest I never enjoyed his particular rehash of Nasu's "selfless heroics are bad" lesson).
- Location
- Elsewhere
To be honest, it sounds like Nasu is running out of "whiny hero complaints" and started recycling.
This is basically taking Emiya and rotating him by 5 degrees.
I guess there's only so many ways you can say "I have fame, power and wealth. Oh woe is me."
captain_belgica
But you'll call me Captain or Sir
- Pronouns
- Captain/Sir
Are we going to have an interlude with the other masters in one of the next chapters?
Or are they going to get reunited before that can happen?
Or are they going to get reunited before that can happen?
- Pronouns
- He/Him/His
Nasu has this weird idea that helping others is an unrewarding, if not outright miserable activity.
Kiritsugu's active and ruthlessly objective approach to "heroics" is born from childhood trauma and being raised by a mercenary/assassin. He was punished for not mercy-killing his childhood crush. He was praised and rewarded for murdering his father. He was then raised by a killer-for-hire who obviously taught him to solve problems with violence because that's what her job was. So, "killing people" is good, "not killing people" is bad, and "non-violent solutions" don't exist. Kiri doesn't enjoy what he does, but he's too afraid to stop. Because if he does, he's "knows" something terrible will happen and it will all be his fault.
Shirou is a traumatized amnesiac with survivor's guilt. He has little to no sense of self-worth (and as a corollary believes everyone else has far more inherent worth than he ever will), hero-worships the person he thinks Kiritsugu was (note how Kiri is actually described as never around), and is convinced on a fundamental level that aping Kiri's real or imagined style of heroics will eventually bring him to a state of pure joy, even when he doesn't actually enjoy the process. That's why he can flip between "I want to save everyone, victims and victimizers" and "I will kill so-and-so if I have to" so quickly. And why he's constantly accused of having borrowed/stolen/fake ideals.
Seigfried follows the same pattern of "Heroics are an unrewarding chore". The problem is that "I am a passive, people-pleaser who somehow never found time for myself" is quite the boring background in comparison.
Siegfried's problem was that he felt he was a fraud. While he may have been a 'people-pleaser,' the real issue isn't that he didn't have time for himself, it's that he had no motivation or personal desires. He helped people because they asked and he could, in the absolute most literal sense; if they hadn't asked him for help, he would've just sat there and done nothing, no matter how bad it got, short of maybe himself being endangered. He didn't go out and do great things because he wanted to, he did it because people asked him to and he was expected to, so he feels that he doesn't deserve the praise he gets and that someone else, someone more selfless should've gotten that praise and glory. Nasu's world is basically Warped Aesop's on steroids; everyone has to accomplish everything themselves, and people are so completely and fundamentally awful as a race that doing anything for them is stupid, is what I usually get is what it's trying to tell me. I don't know if that is what Nasu intended, but it's what we got, and while he's done some clever things in terms of history and mythos, in other ways, such as the complete and utter trainwreck that is his version of Morgan le Fay's past and history, he crashes and BURNS.
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- He/Him/His
I don't understand how any of that contradicts what I said?
Siegfried's whole motivation in Fate/Apocrypha is that he feels like a fraud because he never did anything on his own initiative. He feels that a Real Hero would have helped others without external prompting. And that he would have never done anything noteworthy on his own accord. This is why saving Seig, and especially doing so against orders, is the end of his character arc in the most literal sense.
The problem is, that's all there is to his character. He doesn't really value anything except for the discomfort his imposter syndrome causes him, so he has no motivation to actually do anything. I mean he willingly and knowingly took on a literal suicide mission, yet doesn't consider that a selfless act, implying he doesn't even value his own life.
So, you agree Siegfried is passive.
And you agree he's a people pleaser.
Siegfried's whole motivation in Fate/Apocrypha is that he feels like a fraud because he never did anything on his own initiative. He feels that a Real Hero would have helped others without external prompting. And that he would have never done anything noteworthy on his own accord. This is why saving Seig, and especially doing so against orders, is the end of his character arc in the most literal sense.
The problem is, that's all there is to his character. He doesn't really value anything except for the discomfort his imposter syndrome causes him, so he has no motivation to actually do anything. I mean he willingly and knowingly took on a literal suicide mission, yet doesn't consider that a selfless act, implying he doesn't even value his own life.
It's more like Nasu believes that helping others is not a substitute for good mental health. Shirou and Kiritsugu have a multitude of problems which they attempt to cope with via helping people, but which don't actually help their underlying issues.
TimeDiver
Herald of Dis Lev
- Location
- In-between the parallel worlds...
Just to clarify... in this context, you are referring to 'Morgan' as in, her Lostbelt counterpart's i.e., the first Avalon le Fae's backstory, and not her Pan/Proper Human History iteration, yes?
Ghost in a wall
Just a bit spooky
you know... I do have to wonder, Servants/Masters have those dreams of eachothers histories right? I'm curious if that's applying here, and what they have seen and will react to of Taylors History.
OctarineShrike
Avatar of Mandos
I think the dream cycle is fanon from Gabriel Blessings work but I'm not sure.
Isiri Pudireach
Predictive text can go duck itself
I remember seeing it on the actual show. At least we see it from Shirou during the fate route. Its how he could Trace Caliburn.
Rin also sees bits of Archers past in her dreams, in the anime at least.
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- He/Him/His
Yep. It's how she figured out his identity.
I'm referring to the Pan/Proper Human History version. Nasu BLENDED her history into such an inconsistent slurry that anyone who's researched Arthurian Mythology would probably have an apoplexy over trying to follow whatever logic produced it.
No. I don't. Being a people pleaser implies a deliberate desire to see others pleased, or a need to have their needs or wants sated for whatever reason the people pleaser in question is operating under. Siegfried is closer to a wind-up doll than a person, at least in his own mind, so calling him a people pleaser isn't an accurate indicator to his personality, as it implies he has more sense of self than he really does.
Kell of Snow
Verified TinTin enjoyer
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- New York
That pun was terrible. I love it.
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- He/Him/His
And completely unintentional if you believe it.
To be fair, IRL Arthurian mythos(or, hell, any mythos) is such a convoluted mess of variations of the story that trying to sort them out is a nightmare. For instance, no two versions of the story can agree on just how many half-sisters Arthur had, or, as another example, the parentage of Mordred.
Lagoon12002
How far have I fell down into this deep deep sea
Dracul Round Two! And Siegfried is mulling on his own personal failings, again. Hope he doesn't rip out his own heart.
While I am enjoying the story so far, and the perspectives that are given, I am starting to dislike the way Taylor seems to dodge any harsh analysis by any of the 'holy' Servants. Jeanne I can understand; She is more worried by the evil twin burning away her beloved country and spitting on every thing she has done. A magus that can control insects in a way not dissimilar to a Demon or Servant (that is, effortlessly and without prep) is weird, but not her priority.
Bradamate on the other hand is a hardcore Paladin, and has been in Taylor's general area for 3 days. Seigfried has noticed Taylor's uncanny ability to know where stuff is, but he doesn't care. Bradamate would be likely to jump on any reason to be hostile to a magus, having 'demonic' abilities would be low hanging fruit. She doesn't know about the insect control yet, but once she does, it would definitely cause friction, if not hostile action.
I am looking forward to the eventual meeting with Caster Gilles though. He somehow knows when a being is touched by the eldritch, and Taylor is anything but untouched. And Gilles near-worships Foreigners for their unbreakable will. It will be interesting to say the least.
While I am enjoying the story so far, and the perspectives that are given, I am starting to dislike the way Taylor seems to dodge any harsh analysis by any of the 'holy' Servants. Jeanne I can understand; She is more worried by the evil twin burning away her beloved country and spitting on every thing she has done. A magus that can control insects in a way not dissimilar to a Demon or Servant (that is, effortlessly and without prep) is weird, but not her priority.
Bradamate on the other hand is a hardcore Paladin, and has been in Taylor's general area for 3 days. Seigfried has noticed Taylor's uncanny ability to know where stuff is, but he doesn't care. Bradamate would be likely to jump on any reason to be hostile to a magus, having 'demonic' abilities would be low hanging fruit. She doesn't know about the insect control yet, but once she does, it would definitely cause friction, if not hostile action.
I am looking forward to the eventual meeting with Caster Gilles though. He somehow knows when a being is touched by the eldritch, and Taylor is anything but untouched. And Gilles near-worships Foreigners for their unbreakable will. It will be interesting to say the least.
When I was first told what Nasu did to Morgan, I immediately said; "He did WHAT?" Such a waste of a character.
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