Interlude 31 - The Meaning Of Duty
Date: 256.M42
There is a knock on the door to his quarters in the Battle Barge Telesto. A servitor growls to life, ready to announce his visitor, but Zargo already knows who it is. Who else could it be? The Castellan Encarmine opens his eyes, meditation forgotten, and grunts. "Enter."
The door slides open to reveal Aurelius Asterion, the Lord in Crimson Clad still wearing his armor. They gave themselves a few hours before the operation would commence, to give his Regent time to recover, regroup, and launch their assault. They only have one left before the drop pod assault. Truthfully he expected this a bit earlier. Cold feet, then? "And to what do I owe the honor, Asterion? Or are you here to ask for the honor of leading the vanguard?"
Aurelius starts to bristle at the quip but he holds his retort in. Mm. Perhaps the man has learned. Instead he bends to his knees and kneels before the Castellan, both of his hands on the floor. "I would ask for forgiveness, Castellan. For what I've done before."
"Mm? Forgiveness, was it?" Zargo grunts, exhaling harshly through his nostrils. "You ask for much, Asterion. You know exactly how much you have to answer for."
"Yes," Aurelius says, his head held low. "I regret everything I was as a Battle Brother, everything I failed to be as a Blood Angel. I was a prideful, narrow-minded fool, too caught up in personal glory to see that it didn't matter." The Chapter Master pauses, trying to find the words. "And... I regret Acheron. I regret I was the Captain sent there. It should have been another, someone better."
Zargo nods. "So you have grown, Asterion. But you know your failure on Acheron is a stain that will never be wiped away. Your actions on Xeron and Stonehaven are not enough. Your valiant contributions to the Retribution Crusade, while well appreciated, are not enough. Bleeding, burning, dying on Baal, it is not enough. Nothing will be enough." The Angel Encarmine leans forward. "Do you know why?"
Aurelius nods slowly. "I do."
"Do you know why I disdain you so greatly, Asterion? Why I refuse to accept you, even after so many people have claimed you've turned a new leaf?"
He nods again. "I do. I erred on Baal. I know that."
"Everyone has foes, Asterion. Everyone has personal, hated enemies that taunt them, that dare them to slay them here and now. But we are better, Asterion. We know our duty, and our duty is to carry out our orders, no matter the cost. You killed the traitor and a company of traitor marines, but so what? What if I had not attended the assault on the Mors Ad Imperator because I met such a foe? What if Astorath did not? What if Gough did not?" The Angel Encarmine looks at him, takes a deep breath, before continuing. "You still put yourself ahead of your Chapter, Asterion. For all your talk of duty, you were still selfish. Still interested in your own petty feuds. Too blind, too impulsive, and too much of a deviant to know that we do things for a reason. A nemesis is not to be sought out just because he ran his mouth. Everything is done for a reason: For the Emperor." He looks sharply at Aurelius. "Can you rightfully say you hunted that body thief for the Emperor?"
"I cannot. I erred."
"You erred on Acheron, and you erred on Baal, and you've erred dozens of times between both events. Terenas. Yivil. Vorkas. Even though you wield Invictus, the blade of duty, you still err. What a joke. The only blade you should wield is a neophyte's chainsword." He sighs heavily and shakes his head. "And despite all that, despite having failed and failed and failed and failed and failed, Asterion, despite being a colossal failure... People still believe in you. Sebastos did. Dante still does. Men greater than you still trust that you will, somehow, become a great man." He points at Aurelius, finger jabbing straight through his soul. "You are almost five hundred years old, Aurelius Asterion. How much longer will it take for you to become a man?"
He holds it for a long time, time moving at a snail's pace. Aurelius holds his bow the entire time.
Zargo sighs and lowers his hand again. "You are a warrior. A good swordsman, I will admit. A good commander, a good leader, and an inspiration to your Chapter. Your brothers, your Crimson Crusaders, they are great men. They embody the duty that you've failed to uphold. They, and the people of this world, are the only reason why your Chapter has succeeded as well as it has."
"I know," Aurelius says. "I've learned more from them than they will ever learn from me."
"Then I suppose you have taken another step on the road of life." Zargo grunts harshly. "And this is ridiculous. By the Angel, Asterion, sit up. You are a Chapter Master, not a scout being punished."
Aurelius does so, a steely look in his eyes. He has no fury, no despair, no sadness, no petulance, nothing on his face. He simply accepts and absorbs, like a sponge. Zargo nods faintly. Perhaps he is worth something. "Let me prove myself, Zargo. I have changed."
"And how will you prove it to me?" Aurelius starts but the Castellan holds up a hand. "Never mind that, you have already proven it. Hard as it is to admit it... You have proven yourself. Astorath spoke of your conduct at Laanzig. Only an advisor, in support of your Captain, you aided him in the conduct of a campaign, only lending advice where he asked. And again, here, you are still here. I fully expected you to be in the Hive, fighting against impossible odds, looking for glory and not your duty. You are finally a Chapter Master, not a Captain playing at being Champion. Though I refused to believe it, you have already proven yourself."
Aurelius shakes his head. "I haven't, Zargo. Not yet. I have to do more."
"And there you have it, Asterion, the sign that you have already proven yourself." The Lord in Crimson Clad looks oddly at the Castellan, Zargo smirking at him. "Duty is not always about valiant holding actions and glorious charges and beating nigh-suicidal odds. It is disappointing. It is boring. It is slow. It is necessary. And you, Aurelius Asterion, have finally grasped the concept."
"...But you, Castellan, you lead the charge even as you lead your Chapter."
Zargo barks a laugh, loud and coarsely. "Do you really believe the propaganda and the aggrandizing boasts of my brothers? More often than not I spend my time on a ship, managing things from a desk! Command is dull. It is boring. It is a total and utter waste of my Angel's blood. But it is my duty and I carry it out. If my duty is to break a line with the Angela Saeva then it shall be so, but it any other can do it I remain here, doing what only I can do. Dante is the same. We are all the same, Asterion. Including, it finally seems, you."
Aurelius frowns. "Then what you said earlier, of my failures... Zargo, what do you..."
"A test." The Castellan grunts. "No, not quite. It is my frustration. Anger that it took almost two hundred years for you to become the Chapter Master Dante knew you could be. That man has a frightful talent for foresight, but who am I to disagree now?" He shakes his head and sighs. "Orloc, that frightful heretic, thought the same. He saw your potential, a diamond in the rough trapped under fifty metric tonnes of toxic hive sewage."
Aurelius ignores another biting quip, focusing more on the matter at hand. "And what do you think of me now, Zargo?"
"Make no mistake. You still have a lot to answer for Acheron, Asterion. I will never like you." There is a hush, before the Angel Encarmine breaks into a begrudging smirk. "But I will respect you. You deserve this much, one brother to another. And your Chapter deserves much, much more."
The Angel Encarmine extends a hand to Aurelius. The Lord in Crimson Clad blinks, not quite understanding. Slowly he takes it, and the two men shake hands.
"For the making of a man," Zargo says.
"For the duty of the future," Aurelius says.
Aurelius stands and bows to the Angel Encarmine once more. Zargo nods back, a small tilt of his head. The Crimson Crusader leaves quickly, and Zargo is alone once again.
Perhaps, he thinks, it will be nice to have another Chapter who crusades quite as hard as the Angels Encarmine do around. After all, neither of them would ever want for enemies to destroy. They are brothers. They should learn to share and get along.