Shephard
Still in Statis
Prayer may cleanse the soul, but pain cleanses the body. So it was said by Confessor Ganinimus in his writings, and so it is you bring a freshly cleaned scoriada against your back, each leather lashes delivering a painful shock across your back. You remember the all too human faces of those grotesque mockeries of men and women you fought in the courtyard.Caelia knelt in prayer in the chapel.
She prayed for strength. Today had been a long day-and the Sister Superior had said tomorrow would be yet worse. She prayed for the strength to endure the next day, and the next, and the next. She prayed for the strength to face the Daemon-for she knew they could be far worse than the creatures she had feared upon the field. Had her ancestors been so scared as her? Had they not, often not armed nor trained so well, triumphed? She could not afford to be weak. Her blood and house demanded it of her, and so did the Emperor.
She hated herself for these doubts-they were a weakness all their own. They came from the same place as the fear, and she detested that fear. She could not afford either of them.
Somewhere else in the chapel she could hear the snap crack of a lash, and a small gasp of pain. It hardly seemed audible over the sound of prayers of other sisters, but it stood out to her. Someone undergoing penance-likely personal. She thought back to Kristold-the man had accepted his pain with admirable strength and clarity. Perhaps that would clear her mind of weakness?
Resolved, she stood up, and turned to find a private side room, and a lash. One that was hopefully not coated in a fellow sister's blood.
That task complete, she knelt, and opened the back of her robe.
"Pain is righteousness entering the body." She said, then brought the whip back across her own back.
She grit her teeth in pain, but did not cry out. That pleased her.
She swung again.
(OOC: Seek personal flagellation)
*Crack*
You remember the sound of a bolt deflecting off pale, naked flesh, a discordant sound that reminds you of nothing so much as nails on chalkboard.
*Crack*
A man's voice, clear and normal as all could be. The words, "You can't go outside, Davian, it's not safe out. I'll take you to the park another day.", all too normal from the sight of that peeled flesh, the white, exposed bone.
*Crack*
Your heart is pounding, the blood rushing in your ears. Your mouth dry, and you can't breathe. You can't breath, your heart ready to burst-
*Crack*
A woman's face, curled up in horror, as her head flops upon a broken neck. Her eyes are still on you, though. Shifting to follow you, pleadingly. The fractured spinal bones grind and snap and
*Crack*
Palais. Derosa. Chainswords in hand, meeting the foe.
*Crack*
The bodies of horrors burning upon the pyre. The psalms of your Sisters, ringing into the heavens.
*Crack*
The sights of your boltgun, trained over the thing charging toward you. The tension of your finger on the trigger, the resistance as you pull your finger back, and then the boltgun fires with a
*CRACK*
And you let the scorianda fall, gasping deeply of the chill air. You rest your hands on your legs, sodden with sweat, a familiar and unpleasant ache on your back. You kneel there for some moments, looking up at the statue of the God-Emperor staring down at you with his stern eyes. Faintly you can make out the pounding of rain outside, the creaking of metal piping, and the shrieking of the wind. It sounds almost like a wounded animal, but it is a comforting sound compared to the sounds those possessed wretches made.
The God-Emperor tested you this day. But for all the horror you witnessed, all the fear in your heart...You did not flee. Was it not said that knowing fear is human, but denying it divine? You didn't run away. You didn't cower. You fought. You killed them. You killed them all.
You come to the main hall, walking along the long nave leading to the sanctuary and altar to the Throne. Fellow Sisters are here, tucked in among the pews, or in the shadows along the pillars in the outer aisles, praying aloud to the Throne. If this part of the Cathedral was ever touched by fire or war, you would not know. The paint of the walls is untouched by dust or grime, the mosiac floor bearing not a single blemish. Lumen-torches light the architecture of the main hall, Great banners line the pillars, bearing the symbols of Dreverarch, the city of Port Baptismus, and Church and Imperium, beneath them statues of Saints and heroes (Most prominently, Sebastien Thor). Above that you see the stained glass. It is dark beyond them, the rain rattling against the glass, but they are gorgeous to look upon nonetheless."Goodnight Sister." Ilana echoed, feeling every second of those first few steps Eriko took down the hallway. She had suffered trials of faith unimaginable to most citizens of the Imperium, to have her faith tested repeatedly under the exacting eye of Abbot Freihart and Sister Riela, to embrace pain as her redemption from the flaws that plagued her mortal spirit. Yet, as she struggled to still her trembling hands and endured how her heart burned under the wake of unfathomable anxiety, she could not recall the last time she felt so brittle in mind.
She tilted her head as she heard the whisper of prayer as she stalked back to her quarters, the hymn of the holy drifting to her from the corridor adjacent. If she recalled correctly that was the main hall of the Sanctum Imperialis, where her fellow sisters still went to pray in His House. She shuddered, the siren call of the privacy of her quarters seeming so distant now. She switched directions, onward to the haunting sound of prayer, where she might at least confess her weakness before the judgement of the Emperor Almighty. She may endure alone in the presence of her sisters, but not Him, never Him. No matter how far she would flee, his light shined in every corner of the galaxy, and she would rather burn in that scathing light than to deny His Divine Mandate.
They depict Sebastian Thor, you see, clad in the robes of an Ecclesiarch. Images of his life and times. You see him preaching at distant Dimmamar. You see the God-Emperor bringing down his hand, sweeping aside Vandire's fleets in the Storm of the Emperor's Wrath. You see rows of the Adeptus Astartes, those Angels of Death, the ranks of the highest Magi of the Adeptus Mechanicus, even towering Titans, God -Machines, kneeling before Sebastian Thor. Not in fealty, as though to a liege lord, but to receive his benediction as Terra shines in the distance. You name the Chapters: Ultramarines, Dark Angels, Imperial Fists, all of them First Founding but one. The Ironbreakers in grey and bone white. On it goes, until you see Alicia Dominca, the founder of the Adepta Sororitas, cut down Goge Vandire at the God-Emperor's command.
"We remember you, Alicia Dominica. You who received the word of our Father and cast down the apostate. You who returned us to our true path of vigilance and devotion. We remember you and honour you with our words, actions, bodies, and souls." The harsh voice of Palatine Rathitta rings out behind you. She is still clad in her warplate you see, faint scratches visible upon its carmine surface and droplets of water running down its slick surface. She gives you a single, firm nod. "Good evening, Sister Ilana Laetifica."
The older woman's eyes flick down for a moment, then she meets your gaze directly. "Your hands are trembling, Sister. But I know you didn't face the possessed like some of your squadmates. What is troubling you?"
As you enter the hall, you see Palatine Rathitta-still clad in her full suit of power armor-speaking with Ilana. You continue on down the hall, passing other Sisters praying in the pews or in the shadow of the aisles, the flickering lumen-torches giving light to the altar of the God-Emperor and the statues that line the hall. Thor (Who takes central stage), Ollanius, Dominica, and others beside. Above, though dark, you can still make out the artistry of the stained glass windows, which depict Thor's life. His early preachings, the storm of the Emperor's wrath, Adeptus Astartes and God-Engines alike kneeling to receive his blessing, Dominica cutting down Vandire.Maria walked alone to the chapel, having eaten quickly. She took comfort from emptying a heaping plate, proof of a day spent in hard labor, but now was the time for her soul and judgement. The sister-superior wished to speak with her, and it was unlikely to be some quiet moment of praise. The rustle of her robes and pad of footsteps took her back through the events of the day, the good and bad.
She had stopped a heretic bomber.
She had nearly been blown up.She faced down an ambush by heretic and abomination.She'd killed a young woman.She'd taken good care of the ViatoremEriko...
Maria sighed, entering the sanctum with none of the usual joy in her heart. It had just been better before the damn hospitaller. She didn't mind almost anything else she'd ever gotten. Being ignored by her sisters, listening to their prattle about noble houses and ancient glories, it didn't matter. There was just the mission, the faith, and the end. It had been this unflappable stoicism that recommended her as a retributor. Privation? Danger? Stress and boredom and uncertainty? She sailed through calm and cool as could be. Geldovans were made to suffer. It was in her bones, but everything about that upjumped newcomer was just skin deep. It was frankly, irritating.
She blinked, cursing herself as she knelt in prayer. Even here the annoyance blossomed. Doing everything she could to clear her mind Maria sank her head in to her clasped hands with a remembrance for Dominica, the nobility of sacrifice for the wider Imperium, and the instructive nature of silent pain.
You kneel in prayer for some time, the chants and whispers of your fellow Battle-Sisters echoing through the mostly empty hall, dancing like beautiful music in your ears. Your breathing begins to steady, some calm coming over you, when you hear the soft rustle of robes behind you. A hand gently falls upon your shoulder.
"Sister Maria?" Palais' whispers. "If I'm not intruding, may I speak to you in private?"
The Sanctum Imperialis played host to administrative offices, sub-chapels, room quarters and other rooms beyond the central hall of worship. It is to the refectory that you yourself head, a small dining hall that may have once been used for ceremonial meals or, perhaps, lunch by the deacons who worked here. The room was clearly never meant to staff as many Sisters as are now filling the bloodoak tables, dozens of Sisters in the red robes of the Order, some stripped down to their black bodysuits, or even a few still in their warplate standing whilst they eat.Dinner, because of course even with her head pounding Eriko must see to take care of her body as well. And at the moment her body is telling her to eat.
She stands in line and soon enough carries her meal, a hearty if simple fare, on a metal tray. With Sisters from both the Mission and Cannoness Jessiera's Commandery space is at a premium. The temple was simply not tasked with housing their number, but the Sisters of the Adepta Sororitas are spartan when need be and can drop unnecessary gear. This practice does not do them much good in the face of communal dinner. The Sisters carry nothing else but their evening fare and the clothes on their backs, yet the hall is bustling with women eating and positioning for seating, which is now at a premium.
Eriko is subject to the same, and she walks around the hall, looking for a place to sit and ready to take it as a hawk its unwitting prey.
You dish yourself up a plate of steaming grox meat stew with local vegetables, fluffy padonus rice that reminds you pleasantly of home, a warm loaf of bread and a bowl of tea. It was food that a nobleman may look down upon in its simplicity, but the hearty food looks like the grandest of feasts to you at that moment. It takes about a good minute before a Sister who'd finished eating grants you her spot, and you squeeze in along with a number of your fellow Sisters. Sisters of the Burning Rose. Sisters all too unfamiliar to you, who had served so long in the Order of Pure Water.
The Sister in front of you, a broad shouldered woman of black skin and black hair, gives you a quizzical smile as she nods at you. "Evening, Sister..." She hesitates, finger twitching. "Squad Palais, right? Your name's right at the tip of my tongue."
Another, very muscular Sister nods as she mixes her rice into her stew. You think you recall her from Derosa's squad. "She's Eriko-Right? She was with Squad Palais at that fountain."
"You helped cast out those Daemons?" The woman across from you asks. "By the Throne, surely you're blessed. I'm Sister Gwynais. Dominion Squad. What are you-?"
"She's the Hospitaller," A heavily scarred woman says, absently, her focus taken up by dipping her bread in the remnants of her stew.
Gwynais' brow furrows. "But she's wearing our robes, how can she be from the...Oh. You're the transfer, then," She pauses at that. She shakes her head, reaching for a bowl of tea. "You poor soul."
There's a clatter of dishes as a fourth Sister rests her augmetic hands on the table, the ivory skinned woman looking at you with a raised eyebrow. "Our new transfer got stuck in against possessed?" She gives a small laugh, not unkind. "Leanna must be looking over you to have kept someone as inexperienced as you alive through that."
"The Saint must be guarding her," Greiland nods in between bites of stew. "She'd gotten split off from the rest of us, trying to take this fleeing apostate when two of them jumped her. I saw her go down, and I couldn't get a shot. I thought her dead for a moment, but then this civilian beats down a cultist for his heavy stubber. Lights the wretched things up, driving them back! Eriko picks herself up, cuts one of them down with her chainsword. Cleaves straight through its claws, ripping the abomination in twain."
Gwynais about spits out her tea. "A civilian had to save a Battle-Sister? In full war-plate? A civilian?" She looks at you, horror clear in her eyes. "A Sister of the Burning Rose needing to be saved by a civilian-"
The scarred woman snorts quietly. "I doubt Leanna will feel much shame over a transfer, Sister," She says, waving it off. "What about the other creature? How'd Sister Eriko handle that one?"
Greiland hesitates at that. "Uhm..." She looks at you, with something like pity in her eyes as you hear other Sisters beginning to whisper.
"As though we weren't disgraced enough at Almium Magna, now the Hospitaller is embarrassing us? By Terra, have we done something to offend the Emperor? "
"Maybe we should light some additional candles of incense in penance?"