"Well..." You're not sure if you can bring yourself to tell her the whole thing, or if she needs to know of a lot of the reasons why those circumstances were so important, but you figure you may as well at least try and explain it. At the very least, it'll probably make it easier to talk about with everyone else later. "It's... the people Ikutsuki hired to go after Shinjiro-san came back."
Thinking back, it's not much of a surprise they did. They'd never given up, before, on making other people miserable.
You get a concerned look from this, which is... honestly sort of what you expected. "What do you mean?'
"I'm not really sure what they were there for," You admit. "They just showed up. And it... didn't exactly go well for them." You're not sure how to explain your friendship with Lavenza, so you just don't, for now. "By the end of it, they couldn't even move, and..." You trail off.
"And?'
"It... it would have been easy. To just reach out with my magic and..." You'd be lying if you said you hadn't considered it, after all, even if you ultimately turned away. "If I did, they... They wouldn't have been able to fight back."
Had our positions been reversed, they would have done it without a question.
"But you didn't."
Of course not. That's not the person you are. It never was. "Why would I? They couldn't hurt anyone, the way they were."
"I suppose so." It's impossible to tell what she's thinking, like this. Not that you've ever been able to tell what she's thinking to begin with. "It must have been a hard choice to make."
"...Not really." The only thing pushing you in that direction, when you think about it, was a voice in your head whose mental stability is... Well, it's not that you don't trust him, but you have to admit that, sometimes, relying on him may not be the best idea. "I thought it'd be a harder decision than it was. i guess that's when I finally realized that I was different, from..."
"...From?" You aren't sure you want to answer this question, but somehow, even without Nemi's intervention, you still find yourself doing so.
"Back... back when Mom died... I told Shinjiro-san that I hated him. I wanted him to hurt. Then I forgot all about that night for a while, and when I remembered... I wasn't sure what to do, but I remembered that... That it was an option. To hurt him. And... I think that night's when my Persona became Nemesis. If I had an Evoker before, I... would have summoned something else." Maybe it would have been Kala-Nemi, maybe it would have been a different Persona entirely. You don't know.
You haven't been that person in a very long time, either.
You get the feeling that something important's coming. Not the Gekkoukan Culture Festival- though Junpei-san and Makoto-san are whispering about something, which you honestly find really concerning- but something else, something you can't name.
I mean, there's a good enough chance time doesn't break twice in three days this time, right? There's no way it'll happen like that two timelines in a row... right? We don't even go to Tartarus on Sundays and Tuesdays!
It's probably a good thing you're not too excited about the festival, actually- it's a bit early to tell for sure, but it looks like there'll be weather conditions with a good chance of cancelling it.
Still... whatever it is, whatever's approaching... you have no idea what it is. Until it happens, you'll just have to go about your life normally. (Pick up to three.)
[ ] Spend time with friends.
-[ ] Mitsuru-san, Akihiko-san, and Shinjiro-san.
-[ ] Aigis-san. (+Expression)
-[ ] Makoto-san and Elizabeth.
-[ ] Akira and Lavenza.
-[ ] Kyouma and Futaba.
-[ ] Chidori-san and Morgana.
-[ ] Junpei-san and Koromaru.
-[ ] Oyama-chan. (+Empathy)
-[ ] Fuuka-san and Yukari-san.
[ ] Practice Channeling
-[ ] Bless spells
--[ ] By yourself
--[ ] With Makoto-san
-[ ] Healing spells
--[ ] By yourself
--[ ] With Makoto-san
--[ ] With Akihiko-san and Mitsuru-san
[ ] Explore the library. (+Courage)
[ ] It's almost Akihiko-san's birthday. You should probably start thinking about that...