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The chapter title is surprisingly straightforward for once, though also at least slightly misleading given that there isn't too much of a connection between Ivory and Moon themselves here.
"Alright." Ulyssian held up a hand. He wasn't adept at these sorts of situations, but for Pearl he would try. And if Ivory decided she wanted no part of Pearl regardless, he would leave her to her peace.
I rather like how mature Uly is approaching this. I'm not actually sure this attitude was that present in the thread itself, but that may jsut be me misremembering stuff.
Ivory stopped, breathing heavily. She wiped a sweaty hand across her brow. "I'm sorry, Uly. Er, Ulyssian. I've... my teachers showed me things, what she had done, so that I wouldn't repeat the mistakes of the past. The Solars were heroes at first, and so was Pearl. But they became monsters, monsters almost too powerful to be slain."
Then again it might just have something to do with Uly reckognizing she was having a breakdown and caring enough for her to back off if necessary.
"I may have been a monster," said Odyssial calmly. "I was many things, most of which I do not remember. But I do remember Sepulchral Pearl, and the Pearl I remember was a hero until the very end. Professor Ivory, only you can decide who you are or are not. But it should be you that decides, not Odyssial, not Zao, and not your other teachers either."
It's interesting how he apparently remembers more about here than himself, but part of that is probably that Odyssial's impressions of another superbeing are much easier to parse than the more involved memories of a superbeing's thought processes.
Ivory sighed. "All right. It's true that I've heard of Pearl only from her enemies. But I have her memories, especially of her mortal life, and she... she wasn't a happy person, Ody. The hate she held for the Primordials, the bitterness, it consumed her for the entire war. I remember times with you, when we, I mean she, could be distracted from that. But for the entire Age of Dreams, she left sorrow and death in her wake. Creation's enemies, yes, but also our fellow Exalts, even mortals. Hundreds, thousands, millions! And then the Usurpation, and I betrayed our fellow Sidereals, fighting for Odyssial. How many more died in those days, by our sword, and my curses? Billions?"
I feel like how heavily she stumbles with the pronouns and especially how she actually notices it, corrects herself and still doesn't come to the conclusion that she might actually be the same person drives home how deeply she really was brainwashed.
For an outside observer the conclusion seems more than a bit obvious but her conditioning really seems to do a number on her.
The part about what kind of person Pearl was is interesting though. Probably not all that objective but I suppose it makes sense that she and Ody probably bonded over how much they hated the Primordials and it frames her seeking him out over how many of them he slaughtered appear in a rather intrigueing light.
The Bronze Faction was capable. They had managed to villify Pearl even in the heart of her reincarnated self, who had years of her memories. Her happy years, they'd glossed over. Her assassin's role, they'd emphasized. Yet Ivory still identified with her past memories, to the point where she couldn't coherently speak of them without referring to Pearl as herself, even when she tried to stop it. How much guilt and misery had she suffered, tortured by those twisted memories?
Yeah, that's just depressing. Using all that massive guilt to distract Ivory from the almost obvious is really just cruel, though I suppose it's probably more of a sign of just how hard they had to work to keep the indoctrination up as opposed to being pure sadism.
"During the Age of Dreams, no Chosen of Endings cared for the mortals as much as Sepulchral Pearlescence," Ulyssian said gently. "That was why it hurt her so much to slay them. She was an assassin, yes. It was what she was good at. But can you say your own role is different? You are a Chosen of Endings. I cannot imagine the Bronze Faction has a nonviolent position for you."
It's still rather cruel how the Bornze Faction is using that both Ivory and Pearl are fundamentally good people in order to camflage the inconsistencies in their narrative.
"I killed, yes," Ivory said, voice small. "It is what I am good at. Fellow Exalts. Fellow Sidereals, even. And yes, mortals. I have no compunction against taking lives; I wouldn't be a Chosen of Endings otherwise. We both fought for what we believed to be necessary. By the fact is, I could kill for the rest of my life and not do a tenth of the damage she did to Creation with her betrayal. And it's astronomically unlikely that I would have the same soul, the same consciousness, as Pearl!"
It's really interesting how Uly getting closer to a convincing argument flares up the hysteria again. Especially visible in the last sentence here, which is both not really related to the previous argument and was in fact already adressed last update.
"You told me that you betrayed your faction just now, when you helped me and Zao," Ulyssian said. "Did it feel wrong to do so? Did you think you were hurting Creation by doing that? Pearl did not think of it as betrayal, when she fought the Vision of Bronze. She was conflicted, but in the instant of need, she acted without hesitation."
The parallel here is a rather good one and it's once again a remarkebly mature stance to take on these things. I'm actually surprised at how little "They were the evil ones!" is contained in these arguments, but I can't argue that going with a more reasonable "She chose what she thought was right" isn't much more likely to work.
Ivory smiled wryly. "So basically, if Pearl was a monster, then I am no less of one? I suppose that's true enough, now."
She may be calling herself a monster now, but self-depreciation is only a few steps away from acceptance, so we're totally making progress!
"And no more of one. But if you are so convinced, then I am still Odyssial, one of the most heartless kings of the Old Realm," Ulyssian replied. "If it makes you feel any better, we can be monsters together."
Aww, how sweet of him.
"Just like old times, huh?" Her voice was wistful. "But I truly don't think that I'm her, Uly. How can you prove something like that? Souls don't have any identifiers besides their characteristics."
So at least her breakdown is over, even if she isn't convinced quite yet.
Well, luckily we actually have such proof.
"Our sword," Ulyssian said. "You spoke of it earlier. Do you remember it?"
"Ambition," she nodded. "I, she used it many times."
The obvious stumbling is still there though, so I don't doubt the necessity of getting rid of the brainwashing fully for amoment.
"Then you know it cannot be fooled. If I deny a wielder my permission, they will simply be unable to use it. Unless they are one of four people, one of which was Pearl." Ulyssian reached into the well of power inside, straining past the limits of his newly Exalted form, and with a colossal upwelling of will, managed to draw forth the blade of his anima.
To be honest I'm a bit disapointed the act of spending 320k XP doesn't have more than the single sentence devoted to it.
Though it's admittedly rather impressive this way.
Light given sharpness, Odyssial had thought, when he'd slain Larsyifex of the Contingent of Valour. That ideal, he'd crystallized into the argent blade Ulyssian now held.
Really like it whenever you can draw lines from a signficant moment as his first Exaltation towards Artifacts of the scale of Ambition. Helps to give them the kind of weight they deserve and connect them to their creator more intimately, which is only right.
"Forged in the pyre of a thousand Creation-leveling threats," he murmured. "Pearl helped to build it as much as I did."
Ivory's eyes were wide. She was silent, on the precipice of anxiety and terror, knowing what was to come.
Hmm, so it seems like her previous calm was likely just one more defensive mechanism so she wouldn't have to confront the actual claim.
"I do not," Odyssial said aloud, watching as the runes etched themselves into the blade with golden fire, "give the woman before me permission to wield you. No matter her identity. Not if she is Sepulchral Pearl herself."
Nice how he's referred to as Odyssial in this particular instance, which seems only appropriate since it has far more to do with his story.
He presented the blade to her, hilt-first. Ivory hesitated, trembling for a moment, but squared her shoulders, recovering some of her usual composure.
Probably shows that we shouldn't underestimate Ivory's capacity to deal with revelations like this either.
"Gee, thanks," she grinned, as she adjusted her stance, and nonchalantly closed her slender fingers around the hilt.
Though I can't help but think a lot of it is false bravado.
Odyssial let go, and Ivory prepared to fall, unable to lift the blade.
She didn't fall. Ambition shined as brilliantly in her hands as it originally had, so many millennia ago.
She stood like that, in silence, for a time.
Really liking the singel lines standing on their own here.
Manages to give each of these rather short moments in this sequence a fitting amount of gravitas.
"Alright," she said, a soft, sad smile creasing her face. "I can't argue against that. Let's... let's be monsters together."
That's just so very touching.
I do rather like how quickly she managed to recover her composure here though.
Someone as strong as Ivory/Pearl doesn't need more than a few moments tor ecover from something like this.
Time and the Bronze Faction had done much harm to their bond. Worn down, ravaged, twisted and frayed, nonetheless it had survived his long absence. They would both have to make up for lost time. He only hoped that Ivory would remember more of the times when Pearl had been truly happy.
Gotta love that optimism and bright outlook here.
"Well," he said offhandedly, turning his head to the side. "If you insist, I guess. But there'll be no standing on my shoulders this time, I don't think my frame could take it."
Uly actually initiating banter is just too good and seeing him have enough sense to move to lighter topics is awesome as well.
I don't even regret for amoment all the stuff invested in getting Pearl back.
"What?" She gasped, leveling the blade at his torso. "Uly, are you calling me fat?"
Heh.
Still, it's interesting that she apparently decided to keep calling him Uly, at least for now.
"I'm saying you've gained weight, yes," he replied dryly, without blinking. "I am, after all, a monster."
He's surprisingly good at this.
"You dare!" She huffed, drawing herself up. "Well, if you're going to present conditions, then I will too. I'm still your professor, you know! You will respect my position as your teacher. There's a lot you have to know about the Second Age."
And Ivory's petulant side is just pure awesome.
"Pearl," he shook his head, "you've saved my life on thirty-six thousand, five hundred and twenty-three occasions. But I would sooner die, than respect your authority."
Odyssial is unbelievably good at teasing Pearl. Though given that deadpan teasing is the objectively best way to deal with petulant adults in the shape of a little girl I shouldn't be too surprised at this.
She pouted. "We'll see what Zao has to say about that!"
So adorable!
And so they went to see Lung Feng Zao.
I just have to love this transition. I literally don't have the option not to. That overly serious narration makes for too hilarious a contrast.
"You're finished? Good." Zao was standing besides Moon's bed, weariness stamped heavily on his features. He nodded towards Moon. "She's doing fine. Let's go somewhere secure."
Walking over here sure was productive.
And so they walked all the back to the Headmaster's office.
Still just as hilarious.
"Now," he said, setting into his chair with a brief look of pain, "Onwards to other matters. We must consider your path of advancement. With your new power, we can accelerate your curriculum easily. I could teach you personally, and Professor Ivory could step in when I'm not busy."
I'm just going to assume this meant "when I'm busy", because after reading it thrice it otherwise still doesn't really make sense.
Behind Zao, Ivory smirked, Pearl's trademark vulpine grin on her face.
I have a feeling learning under how now should end up hilarious. She's going to have entirely too much fun with Odyssial during her lessons.
"You'd be a captain, either a Privateer with a letter of marque, or at the helm of a major warship, Imperial or Sesus. I can have you fast-tracked for the Admiralty within four years, two if I resign my position here and assume my old position there. You'd get half a year here, to grow your powers in relative safety, and though my power in the Navy is not unquestionable, not even the elders of Ivory's faction can stop me. We could direct your mission assignments so that you're directed against actual threats to Creation, or Anathema that you can negotiate with. The Realm has enough enemies that we could get away with that, as long as it's not a Peleps fleet, and as long as it's under the table. Of course, you'd have to keep your true nature a secret from everyone but Nilul. That includes my-"
So his actual plan isn't centered around taking over Sesus in a year?
I suppose it makes sense that that was more about quickly illustrating Zao's new expectations given that it did seem a bit weird as an immediate goal.
He paused for a moment. "That includes my other students, especially Moon."
Well, that's not good.
That wasn't what he was originally going to say. But Ulyssian was much more concerned about what he did say.
Really hating how we don't have enough IC knowledge to bullshit our way into that particular conclusion.
"Nilul is an Anathema, so I understand that part. Sfor, I don't trust. Hero would not understand. But you're forbidding me from telling Moon?"
And once again I'm reminded of the fact that we
still have no freaking idea what the hell Sfor is like.
"Categorically," Zao said.
And as expected Zao is absolutely unwilling to move even a single inch.
That would be disastrous. Ulyssian thought back to his first few conversations with Moon. She'd told him, with true earnestness, that though he was no Exalted, he deserved to be. That she admired him for being a mortal and yet trying so hard.
If she thought, now, that he had been hiding his Exaltation this whole time, that he had been faking his mediocre ability to lie, then everything they'd done together, all the concern she'd shown him when they sparred, all the times she'd exposed herself to Immaculate censure by protecting him - it would all be tainted by that inference. That one false fact. She would feel like she'd been lied to, when she was at her most trusting. She would feel like a fool.
Sums up the situation pretty much completely.
Hell, there's even a good chance she'd think his
denseness was part of the act since, someone with enough csocial acumen to mislead that well would have to be capable of getting that much, and that's just unbelievably hurtful to find out.
Ulyssian drew on Odyssial that was.
I'm really liking this part.
It continues to remind us of the signficance of their relationship, emphasizes how strong Odyssial was as a person and at the same time shows how strong Zao is and how hard it is to gainsay someone like him.
"I refuse," he said, "categorically."
I do love how they mirror each other.
I'm left to wonder whether Uly is even consciously using the exact same phrasing as an act of rebellion or whether he just learned that much from him.
Zao put on hand on his forehead, leaning into his desk. "I know it will be hard for you, boy. Do you think I'm stupid? Because I know you're not. Look at the consequences if she knows. First. Moon is exceptionally skilled for her age, but she has no talent for deception. A determined and powerful Sidereal could get the truth out of her. As could most Dynastic elders. At the very least, they would infer that she is hiding something, that something is not as it seems when she talks about you."
It's kind of a shame he has reasonable arguments to back his demands up.
That's the problem with competent people rationalizing their emotionally driven decisions, they still end up having good reasons not easily discarded for doing what they do.
I do have to wonder how Sidereals and Elder Dynasts would necessarily get to her when Zao is probably going to watch her like a hawk, regardless of what she's told.
"Second. You will be subject to numerous assassination attempts now that I have declared you my heir. Not just from the Immaculate Order, or rival dynasts. The Lunar Exalted, and their Solar mates. The Abyssal Exalted. The Infernal Exalted. They will come in force, at any time of the day, whether you are alone or not. You can protect yourself. She is not ready."
I hadn't actually expected assassination attempts from Celestial Exalted to be this regular a thing.
"Wanna get something to eat, Uly?", "Nah, it's Tuesday. An Abyssal should be here in two hours."
Still, it should probably be something that can be handled by not spending that much time with her in positions easily attacked or hard for her to retreat from, until she's capable enough not to be a pure burden during such things.
"Third. You are under suspicion for being Anathema. We discredited Flame thoroughly, but if proof ever comes out, all your acquaintances are also suspect. The more people who know, the more opportunities for evidence to emerge. Moon is your closest friend. Flame tried to kill her for that reason only. Defending a mortal? That can be eccentricity. Defending an Anathema that infiltrated the highest strata of Imperial society? That is treason and blasphemy against the Dragons. She will be a pariah. She could well be executed. Would you have her drop everything, sacrifice all that she has gained here, the Realm she's read her whole life about, just to safely be your friend?"
Well, onsidering that we are apparently Creations greatest hope, shouldn't we extract whatever resources we can, if discovered anyways? And wouldn't an Exalt of Moon's talent certainly count as an extremely potent one? And what has she really gained in the Realm that, apart from Uly himself, sorely disappointed her so far that she can't gain elsewhere so far?
From a logical perspective Moon may easily be more useful with us, especially since she so far doesn't have the bloodline to rise high in the Realm, and from the perspective of where Moon would be happiest Zao may be underestimating how much this "revelation" would hurt her in contrast to having to abandon her position here at the Academy.
He sighed. "It is best if that story ends where it is. You know it is not expedient to marry a Lost Egg in any rate, no matter how talented. You are young. Do not let the fate of nations hang by the thread of a teenager's drama."
Well, personally, I don't think of marrying her much anyways, but this is just way too shit thing for me to accept regardless of waifu stuff.
Not to mention that I think it was Orm put it best when he said that Flame and Moon teaming up to put down the soulless demon possessing the empty shell of Sesus Ulyssian is not something I'd look forward to.
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