Chapter 8: Things We Lost in the Fire.
It wasn't a complete loss. The entrance, kitchen and master bedroom were largely intact, save for smoke damage.
The rest of it though... most of it was ash or blackened ruins.
Ria stood in the ruins of her room, gazing at what remained of her things.
It was just things, most of which were easily replaced. They could actually probably replace 80% of what they lost in a few hours of shopping.
Come to think of it, how much of it really mattered?
She wouldn't miss most of the clothes. She liked them, sure, but she had no real attachment to them.
The beret, the styles, it wasn't because she particularly liked them. It was something she did out of fear. Fear of being exposed.
She wasn't sure how different she was mentally from Lilim. Similar to a large degree sure, but interacting with them always felt like there was some script that everyone else in the world had access to, except her and Okito.
They had worried they wouldn't seem human enough to the others, that the whole ruse would fall apart and everyone would see what they really are. Her taste in clothing was an act, an act she admittedly lost herself in sometimes.
The only thing she actually mourned were the books. She liked books. They provided insight into the minds of people she would never know, told her of people she could never meet. It helped her feel connected in a way that actually interacting with many of them didn't.
She didn't understand how people tolerated dealing with millions of others. Even after all these years the strain of having to deal with so many people was at times overwhelming.
She pulled out her phone, scrolling through her contacts until she came to Mari.
There were some advantages to having so many people around, she had to admit.
The phone rang twice.
"Hey." Mari's voice was awkward but sympathetic.
"Hi," Ria replied.
"Um, so my mother. She told me the whole truth about what happened, with the Angels."
"...How does she know?" Ria questioned.
"She's been reactivated," Mari explained. "I don't know anything more than that. Pretty sure I'm not really supposed to tell you that."
That raised a great number of questions in Ria's mind. Questions she wasn't prepared to deal with.
"So that means Okito was one of….them." Mari said hesitantly.
"Yeah," Ria sighed, "An idiot and a monster."
"Do you want to talk about it?"
She did, there was quite a lot she wanted to say. Opening up to her parents had been painful, but it had also lifted a great deal of weight off of her. It was liberating. She wanted to be that honest with Mari. She wanted a lot of things with Mari.
But she hadn't know Mari as long as she knew her parents. Mari almost certainly didn't trust her as much as they did. She almost certainly wouldn't understand.
She might though, there was a non-zero chance of that, certainly a better chance then Misato understanding, or Kodama. Okito had almost certainly burned that bridge.
She was tempted, so incredibly tempted to tell her. To have someone else she could be completely honest with.
"I...no, not right now," Ria said reluctantly, scared and ashamed of herself. "I just want to get my mind off things. Sorry."
She was sick of the lying, but the thought of losing anymore people was too much right now.
"Don't apologize. I shouldn't have asked in the first place," Mari replied.
"It's fine, it's fine," Ria insisted. "Hey, um. I know this is strange timing but would you want to go out the day after tomorrow? We could do well, anything, your choice."
Her parents would both be at NERV for a briefing so they would be safe.
"You sure. I mean I know I'm not one of those things but I have to imagine suspicion is pretty high right now. Would your parents be okay with us going out?"
Despite the situation, Ria smirked a little.
"I'm pretty sure Misato won't let you within a kilometer of my parents but other than that, yeah it will be fine."
/
"Okay, extend your fingers," the nurse said.
The slightly off-color fingers moved in synch with the rest of his hand.
"Good, good, now grab this ball," the nurse said after he flexed his hand a few dozen times.
Shinji grabbed the pale blue rubber ball in his hand, his grip was firm, he could even somehow faintly feel the rubber beneath his new fingers.
"Good, very good." The nurse smiled when he mentioned it. "The surgery took."
It would be weeks, months even before his hand would fully recover. And even then, most of it looked like it belonged to a mannequin.
It was strange, none of the injuries he suffered when he actually piloted left lingering physical scars. Huge amount of mental scars that would last until the day he died, sure, and a few of the fights left him hospitalized. But they never left any lasting physical damage until now.
He wasn't entirely sure how he felt about that.
Misato entered, her expression twisting at the sight of his hand.
A wave of guilt hit Shinji. He did his best to ignore it. Lying to her was the only move that didn't make things a thousand times worse right now.
"So we've gone over your apartment." Misato's face twisted with pain. "We found traces similar to that of the eleventh angel in the electrical lines, the phone lines, even some of the plumbing. They've probably been watching you since you moved in."
Well, wasn't that lovely?
"Anything here?" Shinji asked.
Misato shook her head. "So far no traces. But Ristuko's going to have every wire in the place checked."
Some relief there, and if the other Angels had any intention of blackmailing Ria over her status, they probably would have done so by now. Not that it would have worked. Okito could have emailed those cell phone conversations directly to Misato and she would dismiss them out of hand.
Oh, good, now he felt even guiltier.
"There's an apartment building not too far from here under construction. Through a dummy corporation I had the thing bought out. When it's finished it will probably be the safest place in Kyoto. I'm increasing the size of our security threefold. There will be no repeats of Sachel's attack," Misato explained.
"Are we supposed to stay here until then?" Shinji asked.
Misato shook her head. "We have to keep up appearances. To the world, that was just the act of an unstable kid. If you and the others hide for months, people will know and talk. I'm putting Asuka, Ria, and you up in a hotel, I've made it as secure as possible."
The doubt and uncertainty in her words was painful to listen to.
"What about the other two?" Shinji asked.
"They're staying with me," Misato stated. "It's safer for everyone that way."
Shinji was surprised.
"I thought you said you couldn't handle them?" he questioned.
"The only thing I can't handle right now is losing any of you."
/
Her mother watched on from the living room with concern but said nothing, grief distracting her.
The patio was empty and barren, a concrete slab overlooking the city. Only thing on it was a metal trash can, and her.
Kodama had been thinking about this all the way home, planning in the silent car.
In the can where his clothes and any photo she could find of him. She had wanted to stuff everything of his into the can but even now, even as angry as Kodama was, she knew that would end poorly.
On top was a shirt, a shirt she gave him on his 13th birthday. She had saved up her allowance for a month to buy that overpriced bit of tat. He had been so grateful, so happy when he opened it. Of course the happiness was an act, everything he did was an act.
The contents of the can were soaked in lighter fluid.
Kodama struck a match, staring at the small fire it produced until the match nearly burned down to her fingertips. Then she threw it into the can.
It took a moment for the fire to start, but soon it took hold. The photos curling and turning brown, then black. Smoke rising from the can as the clothes burnt away.
Kodama stood there and watched the flames. She watched until the fire turned to smoke, and the only thing left in the can were grey ash and cinders.
It didn't dull the pain, it didn't wipe away, but seeing so much Okito's stuff go up in flames alongside every picture they had of her brother, she couldn't deny how good it felt.
She vowed in that moment to never let herself be fooled again. No Angel would hurt her like Okito had.
/
The train doors closed, the last of the passengers took their seats, and the train moved on towards Kyoto.
Only five more stops and Kensuke Aida would be there.
The train was half full, mostly businessmen and women making their way to work. There was one other kid his age, physical age at least. Sitting across from him, her head hidden behind a book.
The past couple of days had been a whirlwind for Kensuke, one he still hadn't recovered from.
He still had echoes of instrumentality in his head, whispers of million souls at the edge of his hearing. He did his best to ignore it, focusing instead on the rather bizarre situation he found himself in.
The Angels were back, after they had all died, after he had left Tokyo-3 because of all the damage they had inflicted.
Going to Kyoto now, after the Angels had already attacked there once, and mad cults were attacking his friends, seemed crazy.
"So what brings you to Kyoto?"
Kensuke looked up to see the girl sitting across the train car, staring at him. She had brown eyes, long raven hair, and was wearing glasses that were rather similar to his own.
She smiled at him, with left him rather confused.
"You're asking me?" he said nervously.
She pointed to the small blue luggage bag next to him "My Aunt was given the same bag when she washed up out of the sea."
"Right, right," he said sheepishly, "I just...didn't really have anywhere else to go."
She winced. "Oh, sorry."
"It's fine," Kensuke said dismissively.
His family was gone. Either still in the sea or fallen off the face of the Earth in the years since Third impact. Touji was the only person he had left, and frankly it was shocking he had him at all. They were friends over a lifetime ago, good friends to be sure. But Kensuke was surprised Touji put himself on the list of people to call when he was found.
Twenty years had passed. That was hard to get a grip on. A span of time equal to his entire life plus six years. Touji was old enough to have a kid his age.
Shinji was an adult as well. So was Asuka.
Kensuke shuddered at the thought. Asuka at thirteen was hard enough to deal with.
Of course that led him into the strangest part of all this.
"So are there actually two other pilots?" Kensuke asked.
He'd heard a lot since he was washed on shore but some of what he heard just didn't seem possible.
"Oh the time-travelers?" the girl replied. "Yeah, that happened a few months ago. Only reason we're still alive. The Angel probably would have killed us all if they weren't around."
The idea of time travel actually being a real thing struck him as absurd, like something out of a science fiction story. Though the same could be said of everything about Tokyo-3.
So well at least with having a younger Shinji around things would be somewhat normal, as normal as things got with giant monsters around. But still, that wasn't too bad. Shinji was probably almost as lost as he was, Kensuke wasn't that far removed from time travel himself when he thought about it.
"Heard the two actually had to go to school with their future selves' daughter. That's gotta be awkward." The girl went on.
"Wait, who's daughter?" Kensuke asked, trying to process what he just heard.
"Ikari and Soryu. I take you haven't seen the news, they were attacked two nights by some fanatic nutjob," the girl explained.
Kensuke had heard about the attack, though Touji had been incredibly cryptic about and had hinted there was more going on that would be explained when he got there. Shinji and Asuka having a kid somehow slipped through the cracks of their conversation.
Kensuke's mind struggled to process the news. It wasn't impossible, he supposed. Asuka and Shinji had at times given off the same vibe Touji and Hikari had. But he'd seen how nasty Asuka was, even at the best of times she was unpleasant, but towards the end she was just outright hostile and bitter.
How the heck could those two have a kid together?
"I take it you know them?" the girl asked. "Or are you one of those weird people who ship people in real life?"
"Err, what?" Kensuke was baffled.
"Internet thing, just ignore it," the girl replied. "But you looked like someone punched you in the face when I mentioned the kid."
"I...uh, went to school with them," Kensuke admitted. "Kind of sorta actually was in an Eva, once."
After nearly being smashed flat because of his own stupidity. But that wasn't something he was going to admit to anyone, let alone a cute girl.
"No foolin'?" the girl asked, looking more than a little surprised.
"Yeah," Kensuke said nervously, rubbing his neck.
"So this is pretty much out of the frying pan, into the... slightly different frying pan for you." she said awkwardly.
"Pretty much."
She smiled. "Well best of luck to you. Mr…"
"Aida, Kensuke Aida," he introduced himself.
"Well Mr. Aida, it was nice to meet you," she replied. "My name is Tsukiko Yamagishi"