:Mandy, Elil.: You tried to be gentle, but there was only so much you could do. You couldn't have hidden your resolve if you'd wanted to. :This entire mission is a risk, and we've taken dozens of those already. Let me take this one.:
:Vega-:"
:I said let me take it.: You shook your head behind the Masque, exasperated despite yourself. Amanda was so used to piling the weight of responsibility and danger on herself that sometimes she missed the important things. :Not let me take it alone.:
:I, oh.: You felt the flash of embarrassed heat within the realisation. :Sorry.:
:It's alright.: You made the words a reaching motion, hands out, grasping your friend's shoulders. It pulled her close, a moment of met eyes and sincere emotion. Perfect for what you couldn't not say next. :I'm not you, Mandy.:
:...that's not fair,: she muttered, humour sparking between the three of you despite the seriousness of your dilemma. She'd tried for repressive and gotten warmth instead.
:Perhaps,: Elil considered. :But it is true.:
:Alright, alright,: Amanda laughed, waving the statement away. She reached out across your links, breathing in deep of both air and her Practice. She didn't extend it beyond herself, but you felt the steady tension around her that was ready to do so in an instant. :If you're going to be me, then I'll be you, ready to catch you.:
Elil stretched out wordlessly, icy power welling up within them to aid you against the madness you had committed to touching. You took the connection fully, weaving it through yourself without pause. His Focus might not be quite the same as Phoebe's, but the technique you'd created to work with her was just as effective.
:Thank you.:
You turned inwards once more, and stretched out woven fingers of Insight and Harmony to the maelstrom that had threatened to cut your soul to ribbons. You knew more this time, at least. Between your interlinked Focuses, you should be able to find a way to what lay within the metaphysical hurricane of memory driven into the world around you. And if you couldn't, Mandy would be there.
All you had to do was build a door.
It wasn't that simple, of course, but the premise held. You had to create a way into a nexus that had never been designed to be accessed. No one, not even Amanda, had ever done that. It was beyond the experience of any Potential, but if that was the case, then you had the right combination to find a solution. Your woven fingers spun together, drawing burning lines into the world around them, tracing the wounded space that had almost ended you.
It hadn't meant to, you knew that; that would have been attributing the construct far more will than it would ever be capable of. But power was power, and trying to harness that without the proper preparation was always a dangerous exercise. The cost of preparation had almost been more than this mission could bear, but you understood now.
Soulspace fingers spread wide, stitching a thread across the fabric of the reality beyond reality. It wasn't a conventional door, but nothing about this was conventional. But it was a shape that could be entered, sketched across with swirling contours of light and measure that you knew had purpose beyond the imagery. Otherwise they wouldn't be there.
You brushed it gently against the edge of the memory nexus and let the moments pass. You could only make the initial contact. The rest was up to the door.
To Make a Way: 73. Success.
You felt Elil's curiosity, restrained beneath the clarity of purpose that was so easily his to call upon. It was so different to Phoebe's in its own way, but close enough to feel familiar. It made you wonder… If she was ok. If everyone outside of your mission was ok. You could feel the general presence of humanity far beyond proper perception, but it was only that, a feeling of presence. It let you know that the world you'd left behind was still turning, but nothing more.
Right now, you wanted to know more than that. A lot more. You wanted to see one of the people you loved, see the world you'd dedicated yourself to protecting. And you couldn't do any of that until this mission was complete. The Adamant's drive was entirely capable of returning you home for a spell, but you couldn't risk it now. Not with the expected focus that the Shiplords would place on Sol. No matter how much you wanted it.
:We all have those we miss, Vega.: Elil's voice was glassy-smooth, but not bereft of emotion. Since Second Sol, many of the Unisonbound had begun to find families. Before then, there hadn't seemed to be much point. And, of course, Amanda and Mary's example. Not that any of you would ever tell them.
:You'd think that would make it easier,: you sighed between the flickering instants as the door you'd stitched into creation finally began to settle.
:Sharing the pain of missing those we love isn't about making it easier,: Elil chided, and you looked across at his presence in soulspace with a blink of confusion. He chuckled, the sound a rolling thing of warm rains and brilliant sunsets. :It's about knowing that you aren't alone. Even when it feels like it.:
You turned the thought in your mind, considering it, before giving a chuckle of your own. :I guess it is.:
:And at least we have each other,: the Insight-Focused pointed out. :Few of the crew have the luxury of a connection as strong as ours.:
:You know I've tried,: you pointed out. Elil laughed again, a memory of the last 'impromptu' social you'd organised flickering between you.
:Yes,: he nodded, :I know. And I know that it helps. But it still not the same.:
:Only so much I can do,: you agreed. But there was still brightness in that memory, and you treasured it for that. :But sti- oh, it's done.: And with that, the matter was brushed back again. The space within the door shimmered, then turned transparent.
:Ready?: You asked, broadcasting beyond your link with Elil.
:Ready,: Elil confirmed with exacting precision.
:Ready,: Amanda's voice came from all around you.
You reached through the doorway…
Return to The Maelstrom: 92. Greater Success.
..and found your questing fingers brushing through a flow of memories and more. This time, though, they didn't slice into your hands like blades. The metaphysical waters weren't placid, but they were not the barely restrained hurricane that had almost killed you before.
:It worked!: You carolled. You felt layers of tension boiling out of your shared links as you confirmed what the lack of a sudden scream of pain had already stated. :I can-: Oh.
Oh my.
Charting the Depths: 62
- 2 rolls vs DC 80: 90, 20
Success
There was so much here. So much buried within thought and memory more ancient than humanity could properly comprehend. Even the oldest of the Group of Six, those races who had agreed to aid you, were far from their first hundred millennia. Only two that you knew of could lay claim to such marked years. The Shiplords, and the Neras, and you wondered how both of them handled it.
Yet that was the edge of your focus, as you dived into the oceans of memory through a portal of nonsense lines and almost playful structure. It went on and on and on, so far that you almost missed it when it looped back to the beginning, and it was constantly growing too. Why was it so much more present here, than at the other Sorrows? Hard to say. Perhaps a matter of size? A station was only a station, after all. The other Enclaves had been compounds, and the stretch of a planet's surface was far more than this place.
Odd, now that you considered it. Why a station here?
:Is that truly important right now, dearest?: Kagiso prodded. Your Unison Intelligence had a point, didn't she. You were here for a reason, not to sightsee. Even if the reason could technically be called sightsee- :Vega!:
:Alright, alright,: you hedged. But you turned your focus to the matter at hand. :Think we can do this?:
:Would we be here if we couldn't?: Kagiso asked in return, and you cracked a smile. You fed more of your presence through the door you'd forged, running anchors of self deep into the rippling chaos all around you. You weren't even going to try to read it, not right now. You were risking enough even touching it again. But you could pull out a reflection of its existence, and that would be enough, given time.
:Of course,: you said. :We'd just do it anyway.:
Your power sunk into the depths of the nexus-world, only the depths, for it had no heart that you could find. Not even its beginning, as it looped right back to the end. But deep enough that you could make the picture whole.
Then you pulled.
Data Integrity Check: 6
"On the one hand I want to beat you over the head for risking yourselves, and the mission, again," Jane growled from her place next to Amanda as she looked over the theoretical treasure trove you'd returned with to the Adamant. You didn't have a firm memory of the walk from the quiet place to the ship, but it had to have happened. You wouldn't be here otherwise.
"On the other, well," the naval woman shrugged. "I'm not an analyst. Then again, the immediate reaction my analysts gave me when I handed them the data you recovered was muted terror. It took almost a minute to get them to explain why."
"I think I can guess," you sighed heavily. You'd hoped that the feeling had been wrong, but it seemed your instincts had been true again. Unfortunately, this time. "There's no structure to it."
"And in one sentence you sum up the problem that Sunset took a paragraph to explain." Jane brushed the knuckles of one hand across her forehead. "But yes, that is the problem. There's no data structure and there's nothing to even start building one on. They're going to have to have to go through the entire record, block by block, and try to build a structure that'll make sense from the similarities."
She sighed, as heavily as you. "They said that the sorting algos will kick in once they hit critical mass, and the lagless processor we have will make it go very quickly once we reach that point. But we don't have many analysts, and Sunset was quite adamant that they'd need all of them to get anywhere on this in a reasonable time period."
"That's, yeah," you nodded. "I hoped I was wrong." You did your best to make it an apology, but there was only so much you could do. "But this nexus, it isn't like the other ones. It was made completely by accident, and I don't think it was ever meant to be 'read'. We want a picture from it, we're going to have to put it together ourselves."
"Do we have any other options?" Amanda asked wearily, from the head of the table.
"I have one," Iris chirped from her seat, head tilted just so as she looked at the data structure. "I was built to be a data processing VI before I became, well, me. I still have all of those protocols, and the Lagless Core will let me work much more efficiently than Sunset and the rest of the intel section."
"How much more?" Mary asked, watching her daughter carefully. Iris grimaced.
"Not as fast as I'd like," she admitted dejectedly. "There are limits on my multitasking unless I fork, and," she shuddered in place. "No. Not again. Not unless there's no other choice."
"Of course," Amanda extended a hand, brushing against the air between them, too far for her to reach. Iris shuddered again, and smiled tightly.
"Thanks." Then, as if nothing had happened, she continued. "But it's an option. And I'm certain I'll be able to put together a better picture of things. The only issue is that…it'll take me out of the equation for most of the next Sorrow, I think. Efficiency only goes so far, and most of that will be focused on getting a better picture instead of a quicker one."
"So, lose our primary infowarfare specialist," Jane quirked an unexpected smile. "Not as bad as it could be, given the codes Kicha gave us. We know they work now, at least."
"But still a weakness," Iris added.
"So we put the intel section through hell for a middling picture, lose you for a spell," you nodded to Iris, "or…I could try something." Amanda shot you a look.
"You think you could do that?" she asked. Without being detected, she added without saying so, but still loudly. You shook your head.
"Not here." You gestured vaguely out beyond the confines of the star system. "But the Adamant has one hell of a drive. Jump us somewhere the Shiplords won't be able to see us. An empty star system, or just between them if we feel like flaunting another Directive."
There'd never been any exact proof that there was a reason behind that one; not to linger between the stars. But given you'd literally declared war on the Shiplords, what was another violation? Unless, of course, there was a reason for it.
"How long?" Jane asked immediately. You shrugged.
"The Chorus we have aboard will help a lot. I wouldn't have even suggested it without that." The small group of Harmonials had been vital to early infiltration, allowing you or Elil to leave the ship without compromising the ship's stealth systems. Now, they could serve another purpose, close to what they'd been trained to do.
"But I can't give a firm timeline. Faster than it would take Iris or Sunset to put it all together, but it'll all have to be spent away from a Sorrow." You shrugged again, the motion as helpless as before. "Two weeks at worst? And if we don't have it by then, well-"
"I'll be far enough along to be present for the landing wherever we go next," Iris said confidently. "It could work."
"Your call, Commodore," Jane said, nodding to Amanda.
You have recovered a snapshot of the nexus bound into the soulspace around the Shiplord station dedicated to their First Sorrow. Unfortunately, it's a total mess. You have three options for how to proceed. Regardless of which you choose, your time here at the First Sorrow is over.
[][Solution] Sweat and Tears - Throw this at your intel section. They'll put something together eventually, though it will make it harder for them to focus on all their other duties. And don't expect the result to be perfect.
[Applies malus to intel section rolls for at least the next Sorrow.]
[][Solution] Eyes Are For Seeing - Ask Iris to dedicate her time to unravelling this mess. It will lose you easy access to her talents for the next Sorrow, but it will provide a solid answer to whatever Vega was able to return to you.
[Iris unavailable for the next Sorrow]
[][Solution] Awaiting Harmony - Jump from the Sorrow to somewhere beyond the reach of the Shiplords, and seek the answer in Vega's Focus. It would take a miracle to easily reassemble the nexus data. Fortunately, those are her stock and trade.
[I will roll once a day until Vega succeeds in triggering a Miracle. Will take a maximum of 15 (3d4+3) days. Iris will work in parallel with this option.]
To which Sorrow do you go next?
[][Sorrow] The Second Sorrow
Kalilah: Our host implied that the First and Second Sorrows are somehow linked. She was there for the Second, not the First, yet gave the First far more importance. Why? Something to consider.
Mary: After what the First Sorrow was, I'm almost scared to ask what the Second involved. But I think we need to see it.
[][Sorrow] The Fourth Sorrow
Amanda: Very strongly without saying as much, Kicha suggested that we visit this Sorrow last. She wouldn't explain further, but if we're accepting her help, I don't see a reason to refuse this.