When you had finally given into Radana's wicked tortures of describing Kingsdream, you promptly demanded time out of your office to catch a break. You didn't quite care where to or how long, you simply needed a vacation from all the work had buried you ever since your coronation. You were the Solar Queen dammit, you deserved a vacation somewhere, somehow!
In hindsight, you should have definitely been far more specific and now glared at your traitorous best friend. "I said I wanted a breath of fresh air."
"You did indeed. The atmosphere here is rated safe for human consumption."
"I said I wanted to travel to somewhere new."
"That is true. I believe this is your first time on the planet, unless you've been sneaking out again."
"I haven't done that since we left- oh, you know what I mean!" You snapped and pointedly glared at the world beyond the vehicle windows. "I can't believe you set me up like this. How could you?"
"Because since the memorial was finished, you still haven't paid your respects once yet and people are starting to get antsy," Radana flatly told with a small sigh. "Not to say that they don't still support your rule, but given the purpose of its construction is to honor the royal family, acknowledging it so is only the expected social gesture. Given that you possess the sociability of a cat being told to it was to be bathed, I anticipated that a certain degree of...omission would be needed to set you on the path."
You loudly huffed and looked away. After a moment, your friend's face softened and she shook her head. "But if you truly take offense and don't wish to make a public appearance at the Princess Memorial, then arrangements could still be made. Just tell me now, and I swear to you I will make it happen."
"No, it's...dammit, I hate that you make sense in convincing me to do these and more," You groused and leaned your head back, the tension fading from your shoulders. "If you say it's politically necessary, then it really is. I trust that you won't just shove me into extra stuff that I don't actually need to do."
Her head bobbed up and down. "Of course. I've even already taken a few liberties in arranging your visit. There's no expected speech, no expected after-party, not even a need to visit the new Lycoris Sanctuary," She listed reassuringly and patted your arm. "All you need to do is show your face, and let me handle the gossiping. Just look like you're in mourning, so nobody can approach you with good reason. If anybody dares, deflect them to me and I'll make sure you won't be bothered so."
You noisily exhaled, but there was no denying the thankful tone in your voice. "I'd appreciate it."
"And I'm grateful to you for understanding too," Radana professed, placing a hand to her chest. "Please, enjoy your time in Bastion. Take as long as you wish to study that which has been dedicated to the blood of House Iris."
Only a few minutes later and the vehicle pulled up to its destination, a large memorial park not far from the Bastion city center. It was actually the former airbase that once housed the recommissioned 92nd Intercessor Airwing, before your invading army had captured and destroyed the facilities. The hanger with its accompanying features had since been torn down and removed, the same as the broken tarmac was once littered with bullet casings. The churned ground had then been tilled and carefully cultivated into the sight today, capped with a protective glass dome to aid in controlling the environment for optimal growth.
One would think a glasshouse was hot on purpose but compared to the sweltering heat Bastion was cursed by from the nearby volcanic sea, you found it rather refreshing. Not quite to the degree of your perfectly controlled office space, but enough so that you weren't sweltering like you would have been walking anywhere without protection on the planet. Perhaps you could find an excuse to wear your Guardian suit the next time you visited, it did have internal heating and cooling systems.
You shook it off now and braced yourself when the waiting reporters finally realized who had just stepped into the memorial park. A thousand flashes later, along with a plastered smile that felt like it was going to slid off your face at any moment, then Radana managed to wrestle you free of the ever-hungering news chasers. You stayed silent the whole time, watching your best friend wheel and deal with her noble diplomatic finesse, directing the crowd into touring a little side garden exhibit detailing the study of flame blossoms with her.
It meant that following a single nod in your direction from her, Radana was able to draw away the petitioners from you and give you some alone time. The silence that accompanied it meant that there was nothing to distract you from your own thoughts either, especially when you slowly stepped forwards towards the heart of the converted airport. Small little exhibits and placards of varying flora growing about faded away, leaving only the raw natural beauty on show with naught to quantify it so. It seemed then that whoever designed the place at least knew that some things were better experienced than explained.
You spotted the centerpiece work first, the lone statue that stood out amid the soil beds that surrounded it so. The construct was forged in a rather familiar alloy combination but without the heat of the star to make it blessed so, leaving it dull and mundane instead of the sacred material your people worshiped. The appearance was of a rather nondescript and rather plain-looking young girl in a simple dress, beaming and holding out a similarly metal flower crown to those who visited. It was mounted on a podium to give it a bit of extra height but even then, you could practically see eye to eye with it.
Regarding the flora around it, the selection was surprisingly sparse. Indeed much of the space actually laid fallow, the soil ready to receive seeds yet untouched otherwise. The only filled bed was that of a vivid crimson flower, a specimen that you were quite familiar with. After all, it had been the deciding factor when it came to you choosing a place to make planetfall...and start a new civilization.
There was no escaping it anymore. You looked away from the flame blossoms and stared into the unmoving face of the little girl, she who supposedly represented all the Solar Princesses of House Iris now and then. This included you but you knew the memorial symbolically encompassed more than just the Princesses, yet not just the Princes as well. No, you were sure of it, it was for all those of House Iris who had been lost over time, from your siblings who hated you so to your father who loved you too much.
In the silence of their eternal absence, neither extremity seemed to matter now. Idly, you wondered if the eldest, the First Princess who was the presumed heir, had managed to claim the seat of House Iris back on Helm. Or if, following the loss of both their ruler along their most sacred text, the state of legitimacy had been truly shaken and chaos ensued. You absently recalled that while the First Princess did have her own followers and some support from others of royal blood, she also happened to have no small amount of enemies and rival claimants waiting to pounce to steal her position away. Such heated bickering and simmering conflict was most unbecoming of their position, yet it was quietly permitted by the late Solar King so, or at least tolerated. You knew he did not like it, but given that the Helmsmen had by then established a reputation as the Stellarch's Iron Flowers, an open disapproval of them honing their ability against one another would only cause a confused image.
Not to mention that to some degree, the constant competition to overcome each other had indeed sharpened their respective talents. All were naturally educated and trained martially, but it was in other areas where valuable supplementary skills were developed. Some were like your best friend, developing an ability for gossip and rumor to perfect conceal diplomatic ambition. Many turned out like your sisters, whichever one, priding themselves on their ability to produce coin for whatever end. A few managed to even become academically enlightened, their faith in the knowledge of solarium spurring aspirations of greatness.
Then there was you and your half-brother. Your stupid, idiotic sibling who thought he himself above all because he dabbled in your same chosen craft, but poorly. Your fist tightened in memory of his decapitated head rolling about on that doomed flagship, his developed vices earning him the rare open censure from His Late Highness. The fool did touch upon spycraft but only a shallow dip, unlike the misdirections you cloaked yourself in. Yet a few underhanded deals beneath the table with interest foreign powers propelled forward an ego that think him a made man already, able to indulge in whatever he saw fit. Hence the scandalous incident that saw him forever attached to your father's side to keep an eye on.
A few moments passed while you depressingly reflected on how the two children who worked in the shadows turned out so different in fates. He had all but slew his own sire, while you had inherited the actual position to carry on so. The more you thought about it, the more bitter it was when you finally got the chance to think about it all. The estranged sibling, the illegitimate daughter, the bastard child that should have stayed on Mars with her mother, the unexpected and hidden blessing for a troubled empire.
Yet that child had the audacity to yearn for a different sort of life. You closed your eyes and sighed, opening up to see the statue of the little girl had changed in your mind's eye. Now you saw a young girl in some of the finest cloth that could be purchased in the United Empire holding her hands out, begging her troubled sire to be her knight. To whisk her far away from the trappings of her birth, to something less grander, less ostensible, less sociable. Someplace where she could remain in the shadows forever, never needing to talk to anybody, never fearing that the circumstances of her blood could shatter the trust of the Iron Flowers.
Well, she was taken, and what had happened? Only the shattering of what could have been a happy family. Only the furthering of internal turmoil of a heroic house. Only the death of a great man who was a necessary pillar of support for the Stellarch back then, in more ways than one.
You were proof of that, after all.
Still, when you gazed upon the begging girl, you reminded yourself of a critical fact. It wasn't fair to just think of yourself here. You closed your eyes once more and in the darkness of your mind, you could envision it. Your siblings, each of them young like her, holding out their hands in a silent plea. All of them wanting to prove themselves to the one who had sire them, whose legendary ascension meant great expectations were placed upon them since birth. There was much to prove, that they were indeed children of a great Solar King. More importantly, there was the pressure to prove that House Iris was not just a simple flash of genius, that the bloodline was equally as valid to so many others across the United Empire.
Then there you came along, tainting their efforts with your mongrel blood. The gazes from all the young children including yourself intensified, hands reaching out in anger, in demand, in retribution. You whose position now betrayed all of them, the leader of House Iris despite your best efforts to remain otherwise. It was spitting on their memories and efforts and labors to get this far, only for a mysterious turn of fate to make it all for naught.
Finally, you opened your eyes and stared at the still smiling statue once again. It was unchanged, as if the pained and hurt cries of those young House Iris hadn't just bothered you so. You were alone still, yet you spoke openly to the statue now, uncaring of the madness it could be. "I can't ever say that I'm sure I made the right decision then about what heritage to follow. Even if I did later change my mind, the moment the I was gifted with solarium, there was no going back. The path was set there and then to come into conflict with so many.
"Maybe had I decided to stay, to muster just a bit more to endure my birth, everybody dead now could still be alive. Would we have been better siblings then, if introduced that way?" You idly mused with a hum. "Honestly speaking, I don't think so. All of you were...distasteful in your own way. Overbearing, intolerant, and manic. Unfit for the responsibilities of your blood. Hah.
"Am I a hypocrite if I speak of such?" You gave one last long look at the memorial before coming to a choice. In a single smooth gesture, you made a gesture of prayer to the memory of your lost family, the first time you were able to mourn them since. "Either way, if I shy away now, abscond from the duty before me, it would truly waste your memory. So I won't abdicate, just yet.
"Especially when I need to look out for what surviving family I do have left, however distant they might be." With that, you turned and left the Princess Memorial. Hopefully, by the next time you visited, more flowers would have been added to the collection through your efforts to live in this galaxy.
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- Since we have a turn where all actions are carrying over, have a bit of a narrative character dive. It's only appropriate given that the next cycle features the first Senate vote to determine your hopes and aspirations for leading.