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Emma sat on the white stone steps, waiting, her back resting against the railing by the open door to the newly-rebuilt juvenile detention center in Brockton Bay. The original had been leveled by one of Zion's attacks as he cut across the city in his inexorable travel eastward, but not before Fortuna's agents had managed to evacuate it.
Once their Ring of Power had fostered understanding between Fortuna and her Shard, they were a force for even Zion to reckon with. They hadn't been able to evacuate
everyone, but they'd been able to identify somewhat in advance which cities the Entity would hit, and had worked with Dragon to evacuate any high-occupancy buildings they could. One of those buildings had been the Bay's juvenile hall.
Once the battle was over, the rebuilding had started. It had been sped up by the efforts of the sudden influx of…
immigrants.
An Elf gave her a respectful nod as he approached the building, a box of supplies in his hands as he ascended the stairs. "Greetings, Lady Emma," he said.
Emma tried not to grimace. She'd eventually given up trying to get the Elves and Maiar to stop treating her like some sort of noble. Not that they didn't listen when she asked—the Maiar especially never needed to be corrected more than once. There were just so
many of them, and
every single one of them seemed to think that acting like a glorified compass on the
Vingilot made her some kind of living saint.
Oh, well. She gave the Elf a nod. "Do you know if the transport is coming soon?" she asked.
"I believe so," he said. "The last word from Earth Vav was that the inmates were being loaded on schedule. They should be arriving any minute."
"Good," said Emma. If she was honest with herself, she wasn't sure how she felt about it. But, to be fair, she wasn't sure how she felt about any of this. She'd come here this morning on a whim, and now she felt she had to see it through. "Thank you."
"Of course." The Elf passed her and stepped into the building, shutting the door behind him.
Emma slumped, crossing her arms and resting them on her knees. Why was she even here? After everything that had happened, what did she really expect? Had she let the respect of the Elves get to her head? Did she really think that anything had actually changed just because people didn't look at her like muck under their boots anymore? She didn't even know what she wanted to say. She just knew that she wanted to say
something.
There was a sound like a thin stream of air blowing along a paper's edge, a sort of hissing wind. Emma looked up as a large bus drove into the parking lot through the portal. It slid shut behind, like curtains of air drawing closed.
The bus doors opened. The first person out was a security officer, armed and armored in Kevlar. He was followed by the inmates, filing out one by one. Some of the kids were handcuffed, some weren't.
Kids, she had thought. She felt ridiculous. Most of them were around her age, some were even older. And it wasn't as though they were less
mature than she was—just less fortunate. Emma could read the scars on their psyches as plain as text on the sign over the doorway behind her.
Janice was the last to file out. Her hands were bound. She wore a stiff-looking yellow raincoat over simple, shapeless black clothes. Her eyes found Emma's immediately. Her face twisted.
Shame, Emma's power whispered in her ear.
Fear. Anger. Want.
Want? Emma dug into that one, and her power offered more detail.
The desire for acceptance. The desire for power. The desire for freedom. The desire for forgiveness.
Emma breathed in a gulp of morning air and stood up. A few other inmates glanced her way as they approached, then passed her by. As the end of the line approached, she flagged down one of the guards.
"I want to talk to her," she said, nodding at Janice in the back of the line.
The guard followed Emma's gaze. "Rune?" she asked.
"If that's the name she's going by," said Emma.
The guard looked back at her, searchingly. "You have some kind of ID?" she asked.
In answer, Emma held up her left hand. Lumeya glimmered on her finger.
The guard's mouth dropped open. "Oh. Uh. Right. Yes, ma'am."
The startled awe in his face made Emma immediately wish she had gone for her PRT ID instead. Sure, it would have outed her as Oracle, but
all of the Ring-Bearers were basically out at this point. Just flashing a bit of magic jewelry shouldn't give her this kind of access, shouldn't have people falling over themselves to accommodate, to obey.
Janice was pulled out of the line once most of the others were inside. She was brought before Emma like a prisoner being brought before a judge. It was unsettling. There was no reason Emma should have the kind of authority she now did, and yet here she was, flaunting it like a model on the catwalk.
She tried not to let the discomfort show as she nodded to the two guards accompanying Janice. "Can we have a minute to talk?" she asked. "Privately."
"Um," said one.
"Sure," said the other. "Just… bring her inside when you're done."
They left.
Emma met Janice's eyes.
Fear. Respect. Hate. Admiration.
"You want something, hero?" Janice asked.
Emma's lips twisted. "I'm not really sure," she said honestly. "I just felt like, after everything, I should at least check in with you. See how you were doing."
"I'm flattered," said Janice dryly. "Saved the world, but you still have time for little old me."
A front, Emma's power noted.
Honored. Ashamed. Afraid.
"I wish I'd come sooner," Emma said. "I've missed you."
"Really?" Janice sounded unimpressed. "You're the one who deep-fried Kaiser in his own armor, not me."
Anger. Betrayal. It made Emma's heart sink. Janice
did have regrets, but serving Kaiser, it seemed, was still not one of them. She had a lot more progress to make yet.
"He survived," Emma pointed out, biting back another response along the lines of
yes, and I don't regret it at all. She still needed to figure out exactly where Janice stood, and putting her on the defensive was not a good way to do that. It'd be much easier if she let Janice think she had the advantage.
"Not exactly the point, Oracle."
"No, I guess not." Emma studied Janice, trying to figure out what to say. It was already clear that Janice was
not ready to reenter society, but Emma wanted to know more than just that. She wanted to understand the story Janice was telling herself about how she'd ended up here, so that—maybe—she could start to take it apart, and help Janice build something a little closer to the truth.
"You sent me here." Janice spoke before she could. "You knew what my trigger was, and you
sent me here."
Emma winced. She
did remember Janice's trigger—an attack by several inmates, who had been provoked by her open racism. The attack would probably have killed her if she hadn't triggered. Instead, it had put all four of her attackers in the hospital.
Unfortunately, Janice wasn't saying that because she was genuinely suffering from the trauma of being here.
Escape. Freedom. Want. It wasn't an
intentional lie—Janice knew Emma's power, after all—but it was still a lie. Janice
had suffered, in her first few weeks in juvie, it was true. Emma had heard about her anxiety attacks, her insomnia. But she had overcome, she was getting
better. She wasn't even being isolated from the other inmates anymore.
But Janice wouldn't tell Emma that directly, because it didn't serve her goal of getting Emma to help her out of here.
Aloud, Emma said, "I got Mairë to give you an offer. You didn't take it."
"I don't like being coerced," said Janice flatly.
But that's not why you didn't take the offer, Emma thought unhappily.
You didn't take the offer because you weren't ready to admit that you were wrong—or at least, not to admit to the depths of your wrongness. It was an intimately familiar thing Emma was looking at now, like a window into herself of only two months ago. Janice
did regret some things—the brutality of the Empire, the worst crimes, the obsessive clashes over territory and manipulative recruitment drives—but not all of it. Not enough.
Emma sighed. "I'm sorry," she said. It was true. But the reason she said it wasn't the reason she knew Janice was seeing.
"Oh, you're
sorry, are you?" Janice asked.
Hope. Excitement. "
Sorry, but you're just going to leave me in here?"
Emma raised her eyebrows. "Do you think you're ready to leave?"
"Yes!" Janice said, and she really wasn't lying. It didn't recommend her. "I'm not planning on hurting anyone once I get out—I know you can see that!"
"I can," Emma agreed. "But you know what they say about plans."
Janice blinked. "They… say a lot of things about plans," she pointed out hesitantly.
"They often go awry," Emma said. "Sure, you're not
planning to hurt anyone. But if Kaiser busted out and tried to restart the Empire, you'd definitely consider joining back up, right?"
Janice's face fell. She knew it was true.
"You have no intention to hurt anyone in the world as it is right now," said Emma, "but the world isn't always going to
be the way it is right now. What you're
planning doesn't matter nearly as much as
why you're planning it. And, Janice, I think we both know
why you're not planning on hurting anyone."
Solitude. Exposure. Fear. Janice looked away. "So that's it then?" she asked. "You're giving up on me?"
"Did I say that?" asked Emma gently. "Janice, you're my friend. You were
there for me. I don't want to abandon you. I
haven't abandoned you."
"Sure feels like you have."
"I've been"—Emma gestured at the silver building beside them—"a little busy. But I never for a second forgot about you. I just… needed to figure
myself out first. How could I help you if I hadn't even helped myself yet?"
"And now you have?"
Emma grimaced. "Million-dollar question, isn't it? But I'm further along than I was. Far enough that I can maybe help you get your feet back under you."
Hope. Admiration. Fear. "What does that look like?" Janice asked. "If you're not getting me out of here, then what?"
"I don't know," Emma said. "Let's talk about it."
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Colin spun, the servos of his armor whirring as they empowered the motion. His opponent's glaive was deflected against the mithril-alloy of his pauldron. Colin completed the motion, bringing up his training halberd like the far end of a cracking whip, and flicked its tip against the Elf's throat.
"Hit," called Dragon, sitting luxuriously on the sidelines of the ring, her legs stretched out along the wooden bench, her back propped up against a beanbag. There was a book open in her lap, but her blue eyes were on the fight. "That's the match."
Colin stepped away, only a little out of breath. His opponent was more so, a sheen of sweat glistening on his pale skin. "It is tempting," he said, "to say that I am out of practice. But I know better. That armor is magnificent, Armsmaster."
Colin let his halberd hit the ground like a walking-stick, though he didn't try to lean the weight of his armor against it. "Thank you," he said. "And I see what you meant—your people are definitely faster and stronger than the average human. I'd never have gotten a match like that out of a non-cape."
Gil-galad nodded, wiping his brow with a cloth and leaning heavily on the original Aeglos. "There were few in Aman who could match me, let alone defeat me, with the very weapon with which I am most familiar," he said. "We must do this again."
"Of course," said Colin. "Send me an email, we can schedule something weekly."
Gil-galad nodded. "I will," he said. "But for now, farewell. I must bathe, and then there is more work to be done."
"There always is," said Colin. As Gil-galad left, he turned to Dragon. "Any notes?" he asked her.
"You're the halberdier, not me," Dragon pointed out.
"You're the superintelligence," Colin countered.
Dragon grinned at him. "You know this already," she said, "but even with mithril it's probably not a good idea to rely too heavily on your armor. We know there are things that can cut through it."
There were. Experiments with several Shards had shown that much. Flechette and Sting could shear through mithril plate like paper, and a spike time-locked by Dennis and Relativity would punch through mithril pushed against it with enough force. Taylor suspected that Sophia's power, Intangible, could have bypassed mithril as well. They weren't able to test that last one.
It was worrying, of course. They were building starships with mithril plating these days. If all it took was a single attack from some key Shards to punch a hole right through their hull, well, it made space travel an even more fraught proposition than it already was.
But then again, at least mithril would defend them from any known conventional weapons. That was better than anything they'd had before.
"It's a good point," Colin acknowledged, glancing at his pauldron. He brought his fingers up to run along the line where Aeglos had scored through the blue paint. "I should probably try to avoid building bad habits."
"It's not that," Dragon said. "I doubt you're going to spend much of your time in hand-to-hand against Shards and Entities. It's just important to remember that you'll have to fight differently when you do."
"I'll keep it in mind."
"Good." Dragon stood up and stretched, slipping her book into a satchel at her side. "So, back to the lab?"
Colin nodded. "Just for a few minutes. I want to set up an experiment with one of the samples of Entityflesh Shaper provided, but it can run while we're out."
"Out?" Dragon asked. "Where are we going?"
Colin suddenly found it hard to meet her eyes. "I was hoping you'd join me for dinner," he said. "You mentioned that you'd rigged up an artificial digestive tract, and I was just thinking, well, I don't often go out to eat. I thought it might be fun."
"Oh, Colin…" Dragon's electric blue eyes seemed to sparkle, drawing his gaze back to her. "Of course I'll come."
He swallowed. "Good," he said. "Because I, uh, already have reservations."
"Of course you do," Dragon laughed. "Come on, let's get that test set up."
She took his hand as they walked back to the lab.
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Lisa chewed on her tongue, eyes narrowed at the whiteboard in front of her. On it was a sprawling web of broad words and ideals, seemingly unconnected. The only common factor in all of them was that each had layers of subtle meaning to her personally.
"Okay," she said aloud to the empty room. The last rays of sunset streamed in through the windows to her right, painting the gray carpet with gold. "I have questions."
Unbidden, her eyes flicked to a series of two words on her whiteboard.
Analysis. Undersiders.
An offer of answers, in the name of friendship and reconciliation. It was
working. She hadn't been sure it would. Sure, it was possible she was subconsciously doing this herself, injecting the answers she wanted into the experiment…
You're not, her power told her.
This is real.
"Okay," she said, letting out a relieved breath. "So. Mel and Emily both fell unconscious during the Zion fight. That was her power preparing to leave and return to Zion, right?"
Analysis. Trojan Horse. That was a yes, and a reference to what, exactly, Faultline's power leaving would have meant.
"So what I want to know is, why was it just them?" Lisa asked. "None of the others got knocked out."
Undersiders. Analysis. Thinker. Brute. A complex idea, but Lisa got it.
Too general a question to brute-force like this.
"All right, more specific," Lisa said. "I can do that. What about Newter?"
Abandoned. Home. Estranged. Rex. Oh, fuck, that was a rough one. It took her a minute.
"They're Eden Shards," Lisa realized. "They
couldn't go back to Zion. None of the monster capes could. None of the Cauldron capes at all."
Analysis, her power confirmed. Her Shard liked that word, that idea. So did she. It was so versatile, so tangled with so many different ideas in her head, that it could mean almost anything. And with the help of her Shard, she could pick the right meaning out of the web. In this case, an affirmative.
"Okay. What about Elle?"
Home. Control.
"You're saying that the Shard felt, what,
safe with Elle? Powerful?"
Home. Analysis.
Lisa took a deep breath. "Is that why you stayed with me?"
Home. Analysis.
Lisa's arms closed around her torso, hugging herself. "I don't understand," she whispered. Here, in the solitude of this empty room, with no one but her own head and the Shard that lived inside it for company, she could admit the truth. She was never any good at lying to herself. "Why me? What made me such a good host for you?"
Rex. Home.
Lisa closed her eyes and let her chin fall onto her chest. She felt small. "I don't understand," she admitted. She took a moment for herself, then looked back up at the board.
Undersiders. Home. Support. Regret. Rex. Regret. Trigger. Regret. Home.
Lisa realized her mouth was open. She licked her dry lips and closed it again. "I hated you," she whispered. "For years I hated you. It felt like your existence was rubbing what happened to Rex in every day. But that wasn't fair, was it?"
Analysis. Learn. Regret.
"I taught you regret," Lisa realized. "I taught you why the whole triggering model was cruel—because I was never grateful for having gotten your 'solution,' I was just mad that I hadn't gotten it
in time. You…
learned from me. No Ring of Power, no magic bullshit. Just us."
Home.
Lisa took a deep breath, then stepped forward and flipped the board around. There was an alphabet on the other side. "Thank you," she said. "What should I call you?"
She let her eyes glide along the board for a moment. Then she smiled. "All right, Negotiator," she said. "We should probably find an easier way to talk, but we need to do this again sometime."
Analysis. Home.
"Love you too."
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David hesitated just outside the door of the little restaurant. It was an oddly humble place for a member of both the Triumvirate and the Penitent to meet someone who, by all accounts, had single-handedly saved humanity in its infancy by literally sailing to Heaven. The restaurant was a hole-in-the-wall curry bar, well off the old hubs of Brockton's downtown and boardwalk. Apparently, it came highly recommended.
Swallowing, David pushed open the door and stepped inside. The interior looked a little better-kept than the exterior, but there were visible cracks in a few walls and, David noticed with a wince, heavy water damage across most of the carpeted floor. The building might still be standing after Leviathan's attack in May, but it hadn't survived unscathed.
There was no one at the host's desk, but from within the dining area, visible through another doorway to David's right, a young man's voice called, "Coming!" Soon the speaker jogged into view. It was a young man in his early twenties, with dark rings around his almond-shaped eyes but a genuine smile on his face, still chuckling at something. "Sorry, sir," he said. "Is it just you?"
"I'm actually supposed to meet someone here," said David. "Uh, an Elf."
"Oh, go on in," said the host, grinning. "He's waiting for you. Someone'll be around to take your orders soon."
David nodded and entered the dining room. Eight tables were set up in an irregular pattern, most of which could comfortably seat four. The only exception was the single two-seat table, near the back, where the restaurant's only current customer was looking over at David with a sympathetic smile on his face.
David swallowed and approached. "Eärendil?" he asked.
"I am he," said Eärendil, with the musical voice and strange diction David had come to associate with Elves. "You must be David." He glanced down at the Ring on David's finger. "Bearer," he murmured, "of Numenya, Ring of the West."
Suddenly the sheer
weight of that symbolism struck David. He hadn't even thought about it before that moment. He sat down, staring at Eärendil, trying to think of something to say.
"Once," Eärendil said, rescuing him, "the very existence of such a Ring of Power was considered profane. I still remember how Celebrimbor raged to see a thing so blessed in name turned to the vile purposes it served under Sauron." He smiled at David. "Now, I see it as I see its bearer and its maker both. An emblem of redemption."
David swallowed. "I'm… flattered," he said.
A waitress came to take their orders, offering David a brief respite to collect his thoughts. When she left, Eärendil looked back at David. His smile faded, but did not disappear entirely. "I asked my son and daughter if they would be willing to speak with you," he said quietly. "They were not yet ready. I am sorry."
"I understand," David said. "I don't—I
regret what they went through, of course, but mostly I still don't
understand what they went through. I was hoping you had some insight."
"Ah, of course," said Eärendil, his smile widening again. "In that, at least, I can assist you. My daughter and Taylor have explained the better part of the situation to me. What did you wish to know?"
Eidolon took a deep breath. "Uh, first question. I was flying into Seattle just when the
Vingilot went into that portal. I saw the Simurgh…
flow into your crown. I assume that was something to do with you once bearing her Silmaril?"
"Precisely," said Eärendil. "Her body is a shell of the flesh of Ungoliant's brood around the Silmaril at her core. She temporarily cast away the flesh and embodied herself almost entirely within the Silmaril. She knew that I was more experienced wielding its Light, and thought it the best way to assist in the battle. She was likely correct."
"Okay. And after the battle she, what, regrew the rest of her body?"
"Ah, this is one of the things I understand less well," Eärendil admitted. "Mairë tells me that my daughter had still
retained her body, merely… stowed it somewhere. A 'different set of dimensions' is what I believe she said."
That… made sense, actually. At this point it was common knowledge, at least among those closely involved with all this, that Shards existed in far more than the usual three dimensions. The Simurgh probably had similar access.
Their curry arrived. Eärendil tucked in with relish. David was more sedate. It was good, but he'd had better—albeit not in New England.
"I think I get it," he said. "Okay. I'll understand if this next question is… a bit of a sore spot. I know why the Simurgh, and the other Endbringers—"
"Please," Eärendil interrupted. He drew his spoon away from his lips with a sharp movement as he looked away from his bowl, piercing eyes suddenly fixed on David. "Do not call them that."
Eidolon winced. "Oh. Yeah that… sorry."
"You are forgiven, of course," the Elf said. "You have not exactly been in a position to be updated as my children try on new monikers. For the moment, they are willing to go by their old identities, though they both intend to take on proper names once they choose suitable ones. But they are not
Endbringers. We have not yet found a suitable way to refer to them as a collective, but for now they are
my children. My two youngest. No more, no less."
"I understand," said David. "I'll remember."
"I appreciate it," said Eärendil, his smile returning. He picked up his spoon again. "And so, I am sure, will they. Go on with your question, please."
David shook his head, trying to recover his train of thought. "Well… your
children were broken from my unwitting control by Carte Blanche—my clone, if you haven't heard."
"I have been…
informed about Carte Blanche," said Eärendil. He was still smiling at David, but there was an angry storm in his eyes.
"Well," said David, "I understand he forced all three of them to attack San Francisco, all at once. What I
don't understand is why, after Zion showed up, they suddenly started helping us. Nor do I understand why they behaved so differently from usual at the start of that attack."
"I am given to understand," Eärendil said after swallowing a mouthful of curry, "that Carte Blanche's orders were far…
sloppier than the ones which my children received from your Shard. As a result, they were also less constraining. They were forced to
attack San Francisco, but they were
not forced to behave as mindless killing machines bent on the destruction of mankind while they did so. Additionally, Carte Blanche's order was specific:
All three Endbringers must attack San Francisco. As such, with him dead and your Shard blocked from giving further orders, my children saw freedom on the horizon. Once the battle at San Francisco ended, they would be free. Unfortunately," his eyes grew sad, "it was the
other failure condition which triggered first."
"Behemoth's death," David realized. "
All three. There weren't three anymore, so the order wasn't valid."
"My daughter knew that there would be a sacrifice to win their freedom that day," said Eärendil. "She believed it was to be the lives of San Francisco's defenders. She was wrong. She and her brother still mourn. As do I, for the son I shall never know."
"I'm so sorry," whispered David.
Eärendil's expression was a kind one. "I will not say you have nothing to regret," he said. "But this, at least, was not your fault."
"If I hadn't let Carte Blanche be created in the first place—"
"Bah.
Yes, that was a mistake, and
yes, it was reasonable to assume it would cost lives. You should regret it." Eärendil shook his head. "But you could never have imagined it would lead to my son's death. You had spent years trying to understand your power. You had no idea what it was doing to my children. For that part, at least, I consider you blameless."
"Do your children agree?" David asked, feeling sure he already knew the answer.
He was wrong. "Yes," said Eärendil simply. "My daughter wished to convey her regrets to you. She does not blame you for what happened. She is not ready yet to face you, but it is not because she holds you responsible."
"She's traumatized."
"She is," Eärendil said. "But she is healing."