Present Day, Merina
"So what do you think they'll look like?"
Weaver looked up from her meal to Eliera. "Hm?"
"The implants," her companion clarified. "…You aren't going to start wearing those full-cover Techeun robes are you? Because I don't know if I could survive such a tragedy," she said, a teasing grin on her face.
Weaver rolled her eyes. "No, I'm not going to suddenly switch wardrobes just because I get some jewels stuck in my head."
"Phew. Good," Eliera said, sounding more relieved than she had any right to. "Do you know what they'll be?"
The Risen woman shrugged. "Amethyst, I'm guessing. That's what's standard, right? Can't see them doing something unusual."
Eliera blinked. "Weaver, I don't know how to break this to you, but you are unusual. What about any of this is normal?"
The other woman opened her mouth… and then closed it. "Okay, good point."
"I kinda wish you could show me what it's like beforehand," Eliera told her. "Your power thing."
Weaver stared at her. "It freaked out a Techeun. The ones who are supposed to deal with weird stuff. And I can tell you what it would be like. It's like being paralyzed. You can't control anything, can't say anything, can't do anything, except you can still feel everything that happens."
"…You know, that sounds kinda sexy."
Weaver buried her face in her hands. "Oh my god, El."
"What? I'm just saying!"
There was a few moments of silence, and then Weaver felt a pair of hands lightly grasping her wrists, pulling her palms away.
"I thought we were past this, Weaver. I trust you. You know that."
"I know, I know. It's just… the thought of anybody being okay with that, with wanting it?"
Eliera just offered a shrug and a sly smile. "It's all about the situation, right?" She picked her fork up, and waved it at Weaver. "Plus, you know, consent."
Weaver shook her head with a smile, going back to her food.
"So how does it work, anyways? What kind of limits are there? Is it all crazy space-time stuff like the Techeuns?"
The human looked at her and shook her head. "No, it's more… manipulating nervous systems, I think. It used to be I had limit that only let me control very simple things, but I had a very large range. Now… now I can control really complex things, but my range is very small. The problem is I can't control who it affects. Ironic, huh?"
"I… guess? …But I bet you still have some good stories," El said, resting her chin on her hand.
"Well, there was one time with the Chicago Wards—Oh, Chicago was a city in North America, and the Wards were…"
The next five days were spent falling back into her old routine of work: managing the Eliksni half of the Guard, bickering with the other lieutenants of the Guard over allocations and budgeting, and keeping a pulse on the Awoken and by going out and being visible.
Five days later Weaver finally got the message that the Techeuns had come up with something for her and would be able to perform the implant operation the next day.
She had flashbacks to Bonesaw cutting into her skull, Panacea turning her into Khepri, being paralyzed and unable to do anything, even her power disabled. She knew logically that her Light was able to prevent that, but the scars and marks from the experiences couldn't just be rationalized away.
Weaver spent the night fitfully in El's arms as the Awoken woman simply held her, whispering softly and talking about insignificant things that had happened a century ago but still filled the silence.
The next day was a beautiful day in Merina, and yet she couldn't bring herself to enjoy it.
"You know this is going to be okay, right?"
Kali phased into existence at her shoulder, and Weaver looked over at her Ghost as they walked through the city towards the medical facility Shuro Chi had asked to meet them at.
"Yes, Kali. It's just uncomfortable. Ever since you brought me back, I haven't needed to deal with doctors or anything, because you could heal me. Meanwhile to me it feels like only two weeks ago I asked Panacea to try to make my powers more useful and ended up practically lobotomized," she said. "Every single instance of people playing around with my brain has ended poorly."
"Except this is what the Techeuns do. Those were people playing with things they didn't know," Kali countered.
Weaver made a sound of agreement. "I know. And that, and the fact that this means I won't have to have this suppression field on all the time, are the reasons I'm not being worse."
"Well, you know I'll be right there with you," the Ghost said comfortingly, and Weaver smiled.
"I do. I wish you could have met Lisa. You either would have loved each other or hated the other's guts."
Kali's shell rippled "Do you ever wonder…?"
Weaver shook her head. "I doubt it. It's just… I chose to die. At the end, there. And I think Contessa put my body where nobody could get to it, where nobody would be able to find me, a universe far from our cluster, somehow displaced onto an entirely different planet. They lived their lives, and the most I can hope is that they were happy. There were things powers couldn't predict, and I think the Great Machine and Ghosts are some of them. She couldn't have predicted you finding me and reviving me, but you did."
"And I'm very glad I did, too. I mean, do you know how boring it would have been searching for decades and centuries and never finding you?"
"You might have mentioned, yes," Weaver said, a smile tugging at the corners of her mouth.
"Really boring. Like, really really boring," Kali said as they stopped in front of the medical building. "Now lets go get some fancy stuff stuck in your head so we can get back to more important things like giving that woman in acquisitions and assets who hates us a headache."
Weaver laughed, but dutifully followed her Ghost inside.
It was twenty minutes of waiting before they were ready, and they had her remove all her armor until she was down to her skin-tight undersuit. The room they led her to was bare and empty except for the reclined medical chair in the center that reminded her of dentists' chairs in her past life—if much more comfortable-looking and molded—except that this one was missing a headrest.
They were ready when she was, they said, all she needed to do was sit down and release her barrier, and then the Techeun who'd led her to the room left.
She took a breath before sitting down and following their instructions, but even feeling whole once again it was all she could do to control herself and not freak out at the hiss against her neck as they sedated her, with no swarm to push her emotions into.
And then there was nothing.
No sight, no sound, no feeling no body no life just nothingnothingnothing, a void that had no time no space where was—
"Weaver?"
"Weaver, can you hear me?"
…Kali?
"Yep!"
What was going on? Where was everything? She couldn't remember…
"You're sedated. Remember? To install the augments you need?"
Augments? Oh, right, the ones for her power.
There was something poking, moving through her skull. It was there but not but she knew it was there as sure as she knew the reality of gravity.
And yet, she couldn't feel anything.
"Well, you're supposed to be asleep. But. Uh. You kind of didn't want to be. So you didn't. Your body is but you're not. Isn't Light amazing?"
Anxious excitement, childhood Christmas Eves where she couldn't sleep.
"Yeah yeah, you're here too, we know. It's a whole party in here."
How much longer would it be?
"No idea. And I'm not rematerializing to check. Interrupting anything they're doing out there would be bad news."
Agreement.
There were objects, threading through her, like they'd pulled apart the fabric of her being, stretched it out on a loom, and were weaving things in.
She felt oddly thin, like she was less substantial and liable to be blown away in the lightest breath of wind.
She huddled closer to her other-halves, as if being with them could protect her.
Hopefully this would be over soon.
"Urgh."
She groaned, reaching up to massage her forehead, freezing at the feeling of hard, smooth bumps under her fingers.
"Welcome back, Weaver."
She blinked, eyes adjusting quickly to the light above her.,
She was whole.
She was whole, and she'd never have to be split in twain again.
Her power shifted in weird ways, flexing in odd directions and with a sense of malleability she'd never had before. She knew where the Techeun was, standing beside her table, but she wasn't in control. She could be, if she wanted, she knew, but she didn't have to be.
She could read the Techeun, she realized. Not just where she was but how she was standing, where her limbs were, how she was positioned. If she wanted she could touch her senses too, experience everything without touching the controls.
They'd taken the broken, shattered end of her power in her brain and twisted, tuned it into something that had so many uses and potential on its own that it rivaled her original.
They'd fixed her.
There was a satisfaction and calm that underlay her feelings, which she knew was from her passenger, but she echoed it completely.
"Thank you, for this. So much," she said softly, and felt the Techeun's mouth move into a soft smile.
"You are quite welcome. Besides, it is the least we can do for one of our Queen's Guard in need," the Techeun replied, and she recognized her voice as Kalli, the one who'd been in charge of the procedure. "Especially one so dedicated. It was a good test of our abilities, as well."
Weaver touched lightly upon the woman's sight, looking at herself and the changes through eyes she didn't command.
Blue crystals dotted her forehead, embedded in her flesh and ranging in size from the nail of her pinkie to only a few millimeters. The larger ones sat around the center of her forehead, before the collection spread to her temples and got smaller.
She twisted her head, following the glittering crystal trail as it made a circle around her temple and then flowed back to behind her ears where there was another cluster, before finally going back towards the base of her skull where she assumed it met with the other side. Light glinted deep in her black hair, and with her fingers she probed her scalp, finding a veritable web of the crystals over her skull, converging over her parietal lobe where the majority of her Pollentia sat.
With an odd twist of her power in a way she'd never done—couldn't have done—before, light bloomed in the purple stones, spreading out across her forehead and to the sides, flowing through her hair.
It… actually didn't look too bad. Or at least not the way she'd anticipated.
There wasn't a scar or sign of the procedure to be seen, and according to the Techeuns, if there weren't any complications she could leave immediately, the recovery time required essentially negligible. The Awoken's medical technology and methods easily rivaled a Tinker like Bonesaw's.
Weaver shuddered at the thought and immediately pushed that comparison out of her mind.
What do you think?
A feeling of possibilities and excitement, of exploration and newness, was what she got in reply.
"How long was I out?"
"As we predicted, it took a little over three hours to complete your procedure, most of which was tuning the implants and running internal tests."
Weaver blinked. "Geeze, if you do this all over your body it must take forever."
"It is fairly involved, yes. However, yours also took longer than usual because of how different the interfaces that had to be aligned and settled were, as well as the difference in neurology of the control areas."
The Risen woman nodded, sitting up and putting her legs over the side of the surgical chair. "Oh, before I forget, Petra sends her well-wishes."
Kalli's smile became somber. "Thank you for the message, Blade," she said, stepping back to allow Weaver to stand.
She felt… larger, in a way that she couldn't easily describe. Like she encompassed more.
"There are a series of control exercises for the augments that rely on meditation and self-reflection, following the flow of one's energy and understanding it, however I understand you already have some experience in that yourself. We will send you the details, although I cannot promise that the methods required are entirely the same, even if the basics are similar."
Kalli led Weaver to the doorway, and the Risen turned to her. "Again, thank you. If you or your Order ever need anything that I can help with, please let me know. I'm not sure if you understand how big a deal this is for me, and I don't know if there's any way I can truly repay you, but I'll try."
The Techeun accepted the gratitude graciously with a nod of her head, and then they parted ways.
"So let's see it."
She hadn't even gotten halfway through the door to the apartment before she heard Eliera's voice.
"At least let me get my shoes off first, El," Weaver said back.
Just as the door was closing behind her and she was dismissing her boots, the Awoken woman appeared around the corner of the entranceway.
Her eyes went up to Weaver's forehead. "Ooooh."
After a second, she reached out and grabbed the Risen's hand, dragging her into the living room. "C'mon I need some more light."
Weaver allowed herself to be manhandled over to the couch, sitting down as Eliera sat beside her.
The woman gently took her head, tilting it this way and that, following the pattern around her head. "Very pretty," she commented, and Weaver could feel the appreciation in her emotions. "So what can you do now? Anything new?"
"I haven't exactly had time to try much, El. I literally just got out," Weaver told her. "But so far it's everything I had before, but I have control over how much… well, control I have. It seems like I can have it as low as just simple empathy and knowledge of where people are around me, but if I want I can access senses, partially or completely."
"…Or even just control part of a person," she said, momentarily taking command of El's mouth.
The Awoken woman laughed in surprise immediately after. "Oh god, that's weird. Really cool, though. We'll definitely have to test that out. What's it like, seeing and hearing through everything?"
Weaver shrugged. "It's just… natural. I don't have trouble keeping track of everything. Back when I controlled insects I had swarms in the billions. I don't have trouble integrating things, either. Seeing something from multiple points of view is just… seeing something from multiple points of view, for me. It's really difficult for me to explain. I essentially have an infinite capacity for multi-tasking. I am my swarm, my collective, not just… this," she said, gesturing at her body. "Every single thing I'm connected to is part of me."
El shook her head, and Weaver could feel her wonder. "I can't even imagine it. When you talk about things like that you sound like the Queen, the way the stories describe the things she can do."
Weaver remembered what it had been like, being in range of Mara Sov, the way she had appeared in her power. "No, she's… she's something more."
Eliera leaned back against the back of the couch, tilting her head so that it rested on Weaver's shoulder. "…I'm glad you're feeling better."
"Yeah, me too."
A/N: Another fairly quiet chapter, but an important one. Weaver now has the tools she needs to work with her shard. Originally there was a scene about Solemn Silence in here, but it was suggested that it felt out of place and should be moved to some point later.
Next chapter is Weaver's first days in the Guard, and depending on how much I include it might end up being one of the longest chapters in the story. After that will be a bit of a timeskip, and it'll be time for Crota.