Faster than any single one of them. Stronger than even ten of the combined. In all the meaningful areas, you were both literally and figuratively beneath her. Pride did not hold you back in that fight. Not even when she had broken through all of your guards and cracked your face to become a fountain of blood. The disparity between yours and hers may not have been immediately clear, but you certainly felt it.
Certainly far more than the wall behind you; that one cracked against the force of your landing. Yet even then, you wanted to continue fighting. Success was all that mattered and you refused to be left behind like this. But despite how willing the spirit may have been, your body had taken far too much damage to respond. Wherein you wanted to zip through the air to continue the fight, all your body could do was squirm as you fell face first to the ground.
Even with both arms unresponsive, you were still conscious. And desperate enough to use your teeth and chin to drag your mangled body towards the arena. It was not to be. Too late did you notice the stretchers and staff coming to pick your pathetic body off the ground. An indescribable wave of bitterness swallowed you from within as you watched someone else succeed where you yourself should have. You continued to look, even when the medical staff had carted you back to the infirmary.
Success was all that mattered. As a consequence of your loss, you did not.
So lost in your thoughts, the events that transpired between your briefing and being shucked inside the healing pod came to you in fogged acknowledgment. One thing was clear though, even through the soporific machinations of the healing pod. You had lost. But you were alive. All you had to do was to win. Take back what belonged to you, and then come back home. And with that, your consciousness finally faded away as you drifted off to slumber.
When you awoke, it was to find yourself against the sterilized bed of the clinic. Your mother sat beside you, cutting apart edibles and tossing them in a bowl. You did not speak however. The fresh wound of your defeat still a source of shame and agony. Thus you trained your eyes unto the greyed ceiling of the room, with nothing but the scraping of a knife to accompany your thoughts.
The reverie was broken when the knife clinked against the bedside table. Your eyes darted to the source only to stop as it met your mother's. Red and swollen. A complete difference from what you had become accustomed to. She made to speak, albeit the words did not appear. She took a moment, closed her eyes, before she spoke.
"Your items for the Rite of Passage have been prepared. An Overseer will arrive to brief you of what will be expected of you." You couldn't quite tell what exactly was so different in her voice. So you merely nod, accepting the words for what they were. Wordlessly, your mother pulls something from her bag. And from it appeared the worn and beaten Scouter that your Father's team managed to bring back. You followed the memento as your mother pushed it into your hands. Even with all the marks notched on it due to time, the gadgetry still worked.
"Come back, Kohri. And never forget."
"Success is all that matters." The both of you intoned, and where your mother stood up to leave. Leaving you with nothing but a heavy Scouter, and a heavier heart.