2.4 Achieving Sufficient Paranoia
The access to information from the library was as wonderful, as expected. Except for the other person, optimal_assessment. He had guessed I was a cape, apparently just from watching my posts, and wanted to talk with me.
Dad took took the news about it sort of OK.
He had vacillated between angry, worried, sarcastic, and possibly hysterical, while lecturing me about safety. A lot of talk to basically say, 'After we decide what to do about this, I'm going to say I told you so, every day for a week. I told you capes are powerful and can find out almost anything.'
Stupid Thinkers.
Once dad wound down I tried to bring him back to reality. "OK, but I haven't told him anything, or even responded. I can create a new account, or better yet, several, and I'll randomly use them. That should be a pretty good way to mask my activity."
Dad pretended to think about it for a second, but I was pretty sure his exaggerated hand movements were him trying to impress upon me his
seriousness. "Well, if this person didn't have powers, I'd say that's perfect, but what if they're doing something else? What if it's the library that is tapped? What if they can clairvoyantly see the last person they talked to? I'm not saying give up, but life isn't fair, so don't assume their power is fair. Maybe it's nothing but a lucky guess on their part, but well, I'm sorry Taylor, but this stuff scares me and I want you to be safe. Independent capes last an average of six months. This is the first week you started doing something public, even just anonymously on the internet, that was directly related to information you wanted as a cape, and somebody already is trying to find out about you."
Yeah, he kind of had a point, if Dragon was secretly evil, she could likely trace the connection at least the library. Other capes could do equally crazy stuff. "I know this could be bad, and the worst part is we don't know how bad. So then we need to plan. I need to know if the library is compromised, or maybe just my account. I need to decide how to mask my online activities, or if it isn't even worth it. Is that everything?"
"Yeah, I think that's all the bases, except for one more thing. Your lair is a smart idea for your work, but I think you need to figure out how to make an escape tunnel. Maybe I'm overreacting, but if your ID is ever discovered, you and I need a safe way to escape. You are the most important person-"
I started to argue that he mattered to me, but dad stopped me from interrupting, "-Between the two of us. I'm not going to do anything dumb, but your mother would never forgive me if I didn't do my best to keep you safe. Odds are, if we're smart it'll never come down to us having to make such an awful choice, but let's hedge our bets, and work out some plans."
That was hard to argue with, especially with dad guilt tripping me about what mom would've wanted. Despite some surliness, I accepted that goal. I guess he was right, but I'd do my best to ensure it didn't come that.
Those goals became my priorities for the short term. I made us both undershirts that were a kind of crummy armor. It wasn't really armor, but it wouldn't tear under any kind of stress, well almost any. It would stretch, even around a bullet. I couldn't make it bind to blood, and clot it to stop any bleeding, but it would stop bullet fragments from doing more damage, and would reduce what knives and stuff could do to a person. I also created a secondary base. The shipwreck I'd been harvesting, I stopped pulling materials from it, and started digging under it and sealing the new tunnel from water. It would be my secret underwater shipwreck lair, and not even dad would know where it was.
He knew how to get to safety though. By the Union offices, there were some docks. The closest one to the boardwalk, not that it was on the boardwalk, or saw any tourists. I remotely had my units clean the area underneath it of debris. Fifteen feet down, off the end of the dock, were two escape kits. Both had helmets with rebreathers and hand and feet flippers for swimming. There was also suits, that were insulating, just in case. Either of us could make it to the Protectorate base from there, or I could take us to my secret underwater lair.
As to the library, well it was compromised, because there was no way to ensure it wasn't. I'd switch those accounts to private and monitored, but that's it. I'd figure out a new connection to the net eventually, but as much as I wanted information I didn't want dad to restrict my new options for really building things.
Including throwing myself into armor development, which was very satisfying. Dad also stopped pestering me about trying to socialize more. I came home, worked on homework until dinner, then I'd plan or tinker for the rest of the evening.
Not that I shut dad out. I planned in the living room, and he was always welcome in my basement lair. I did work out the skin binding issue, and could really start on power armor. It would be modular, based off units that would climb on me, bind to my skin, and then act as external muscles that amplified my strength. Not much though, it basically only prevented me from getting tired. More strength was too much of a strain on my bones and tissue. There would be tearing or compression damage. Still, each armor unit had scales on the outside, a flexible metallic polymer based on beryllium. I wanted to include titanium, but I'd make do as that was too hard to acquire.
Even school was good. Sophia left me alone, and I kept to myself. Carlos had tried to talk to me a couple more times, but well, I killed those attempts by being minimally responsive. Victoria Dallon seemed nice though, from a distance anyway.
Maybe it was unfair to them, but I wasn't going to risk attracting Sophia's attention. She was starting to get a bit crazy looking, like she wasn't taking care of herself. Nothing dramatic, but frazzled and twitchy. After having to watch out for her and Emma for a year, I had gotten pretty used to observing her, and the changes were visible, even if also minor.
I'd been like that by the end my first year at Winslow. If she was being bullied, then well, I couldn't convince myself that she didn't deserve it. However, the odd thing was that nobody appeared to be tormenting her like what she did me. Hmm, maybe it happened except during lunch.
Watching her, my vindictive thoughts caught up with me and I sighed, as being a hero meant doing the right thing, even when I'd rather stab the bitch, or at least watch her suffer some.
Still, I had
two secret lairs to her none, so that was some consolation.
The next day I went and found Mrs Green a few minutes before my next class. "Hey Mrs Green, could I talk to you about something awkward for a minute? It didn't involve me."
She gets a look I can't interpret, sort of actively not frowning, while subtly raising an eyebrow at me. I guess she's had to deal with teenagers for a while? I doubt we're that much worse than adults, but at least she's listening.
I launch into things, "So, I've been glad to be here, and have avoided Sophia very successfully, and my life is good. I've only even talked to her once since coming to Arcadia. The thing is, she's starting to look pretty bad. I will deny saying anything if anybody asks, because I don't want her coming after me again, but you might want to ask her homeroom teacher about getting her somebody to talk to or something. I spent a year watching her to avoid her, and now she's starting to look like she's getting dragged under by life or something." I awkwardly trail off that blabber of words.
Mrs Green responds promptly, "Well, if I was to ask Sophia if she's talked to you, she would say she hasn't, right?"
"Yeah, that's correct, and I still don't want to talk to her, but still, even if I don't like her, I'd assume somebody does, and I'm willing to be nice to somebody I don't know."
Mrs Green sighs and I can't tell if she is agreeing with that, but I also don't care.
"Well, Mrs Green, I'm going to go now, I guess."
"Alright, thank you for bringing your concerns me, Taylor. You did the right thing, but I was already aware of Sophia's difficulties. Please do not interfere with her, as she has people monitoring things to help with her problems."
As I leave go to class, I kind of wonder about that, Mrs Green was sort of weird about the whole conversation. Who 'has people monitoring things to help with her problems', or even just who says that? Aside from Mrs Green, I guess.
The next day I jinx myself by thinking that I am in the clear. Maybe the appropriate phrase would be 'no good deed goes unpunished'. Regardless, Victoria scares the life out of me just as I step out of the bathroom. Her in-your-face 'HELLO!' causes my response to be a yelp. Before I have time to even figure out how to respond, she's already talking a mile a minute. Dragging me behind her, she knows everybody in school apparently, except that she hasn't met me yet, so she had just just wanted to say HELLO! and find out who I was.
She drags me, her sister, and a girl named, uh, Claire, maybe, to my table. I think that it's very telling about a hero if they can take people screaming at them upon their first actual meeting. I don't share that thought though and just grumble a bit as I pull out my lunch. It's not as if I mind my hero meeting dreams to so far turn out to start with them yelling at me and me shrieking at them.
Victoria has finally stopped talking is just staring at me. Awkwardness builds until I can't take it. "Hey, uh, so it's nice to meet you Victoria, and Amy, and Claire." How the hell do you talk to somebody who is only interested talking to you only because they haven't talked to you yet?
Victoria doesn't mind, responding cheerily, "Hi Taylor, it's great to finally get a chance to meet you. Call me Vicky, and I like meeting people and wanted the chance to get to know you, but fairs fair, so ask me anything as well."
There, uh, wasn't a question in there, Vicky. Also, I think Amy rolled her eyes without moving her head. I guess I'll start then. "Do you, uh, like your education track that you're in here at Arcadia? I'm in the engineering one, and kind of wondered what the others were like."
"Naw, they're all the same, none of us know enough to need actual differentiation in high school. I'm going to be a professional hero. There's no pay in that though, so I'm going to make money in communication and management. I've got a pretty face, which is great, and as long as I use my brain to leverage things, there are plenty of companies that think that consulting is done better by somebody looking good. Dumb, I know, but the hours are flexible and the pay is reasonable. I need both to be a hero."
I have no idea how to respond to that. "Uh, Claire, or Amy, what, uh do you like to study? Or do?"
Vicky answers instead of one of them, "Oh, Amy spends a ton of time volunteering the hospital, she's great. She has healed so many people. I still can't find her the right boyfriend though. She also reads a bunch. She looks smart but is smarter." Vicky is an enthusiastically helpful sister I guess.
"I've only been to the hospital for checkups and shots, are you considered like an intern then, or will you be able to get a job at a hospital later?"
Amy speaks rather brusquely, "I only do volunteer work currently, I don't know what I'll do as a career. I expect a hospital would hire me once I'm an adult."
Well, I guess the excitement part of being a hero has worn off for her. I try to be polite, and ask Claire the same thing. She does a lot of shopping, as paid for by babysitting, and is thinking she wants to teach preschool or kindergarten. Apparently, babysitting pay is great for a teen, but she's a lot more vague about her future plans. I add my own goals for being an engineer, though I'm not sure about what area. Amy is quiet, but Claire and Vicky are enough to carry on a conversation through a few different topics. Vicky changes topics in a whim, which makes me grateful for Claire.
Vicky draws my attention away from my pretending that my sandwich is absolutely fascinating. "Come on Taylor, you haven't asked any questions about flying or anything, aren't you curious?"
An aspect of talking to Vicky that has become apparent is that she herself is probably her favorite person. She's friendly enough though, I guess.
"Uh, well, I didn't want to be rude. Uh, can I ask anything or are there questions I shouldn't ask?"
Vicky sags a bit, and looks pensive. Yep, good job Taylor, that took the wind right out of their sails.
"Yeah, that's fair, and I guess if you don't know, better to ask than stumble into things. Here's the taboo stuff, and this is likely true for any cape. The biggest is don't ask about how somebody got powers. They won't tell you, because getting powers sucks, and nobody gets powers the same way anyway. Second, aside from New Wave, identities are secret, even joking about it is seriously offensive. Lastly, uh, don't try to find out weaknesses, that's like asking which window of your bedroom is easiest to break into."
"Uh, fair enough, so Vicky, are there any downsides to flying? Like bugs in your hair or something?"
"Hah, yeah, but not for me, Amy here though occasionally has some trouble when I pick her up from the hospital."
"Oh, bummer about that then." I should try to include Amy and Claire, since they came to sit at my table too. Amy first, I guess? "So, I don't know what to ask about healing. I mean it's great and all for helping people. Oh, do you have to put up with people who won't stop talking? Ever had to go 'nurse, I think this patient needs a sedative to ensure optimal treatment?"
Amy just kind of looks blankly at me for a moment, but then she does smile a bit and respond, "Healing people is fairly quick, so thankfully the annoying ones blur together, so nobody gets a chance to talk much."
Awkward pauses don't exist around Vicky, "So, Taylor, aside from me, who are your favorite heroes?"
I finally manage more than basic responses. "OK, so when I was a kid, it was Armsmaster and Alexandria. Now that I've grown up some, I've been thinking, and I guess my opinions changed. I'm going to go with Dragon, because more than handling criminals, she had made the world better, not just stopped it from getting worse. She invented containment foam that the entire Protectorate uses, and the PRT, as well as helping reverse engineer tinkertech, and rebuild after Endbringers. The world is actually better for reasons other than stopping people from making it worse."
Claire adds in her own support. "Well, I love Dragon because her mechs are awesome, but yeah, your reasoning is better. So, you're being all kinds of deep. Who do you think Vicky and Amy's favorite heroes are?"
Thanks Claire, I really appreciate being put on the spot to guess about people I've talked to for 10 minutes.
I try to make a joke about Vicky. "I bet Vicky's favorite hero is herself."
I wave my hands a bit to forestall Vicky's interruptions. Just in case she's annoyed I want to get my defense out first. "Hear me out, Vicky, you try to be a great hero, and nobody can understand that better than you because you're you, so sure, maybe there are better heros, but there's nobody you understand more who strives to be the best hero they can be."
Vicky gives me a questioning look for a second, but then laughs. "Yeah, alright, I'm my own favorite, but I'm copying what you said for myself, cause it sounds better than how I say it. So, guess for Amy and then we'll let the spotlight off you."
"OK... Well, Amy, don't take this as mean, but you seem pretty used to your powers, like they're boring to you. You're still a hero, you still help people, but I bet other powers are more interesting. You don't seem as, uh, action-packed as Vicky, so maybe you like helping people more than explosions. How about a cape that helps people differently than you, like defending at the Endbringer fights? Maybe you like Narwhal the most? Because her shields-"
Claire thinks this is hilarious, her laughter causing me to trail off. It takes me a minute to figure out what she's saying. Also, Amy is freaking me out a bit. She's just intensely staring at me, but her mouth remains expressionless.
Claire gets her laughter under control, which draws my attention back to her as she repeats her question.
"Taylor, OK, so how much do you know about Narwhal? Sure she defends people, but that's not the normal reason people pick her as a favorite."
"Uh, well, not all that much, I've seen a picture of her once, from the Guild webpage, but her defending people was the only reason I figured Amy might have her as a favorite."
OK, maybe it's not me, and Amy is shy or something, cause she's blushing and not wanting to be here. Vicky helps, well, I can't even think that, Vicky talks.
"So Taylor, you've seen Narwhal's picture, but you think first of her defending people? Well, you're definitely straight."
Uh, what? Narwhal's costume is just metallic armor the same color as her force fields. She does look good, but… I take a moment to collect my thoughts and I'm still stuck with 'what?', so I guess start there.
"Uh, well, she's good looking sure, but there has to be heroes that have more revealing costumes or whatever for titillating guys, right?"
Vicky and Claire think this is hilarious, but at least they aren't openly mocking me I guess, just laughing about me being dumb.
"Yeah, well, I suppose I haven't thought much about the sexy rankings of various capes."
Claire says "So Amy, how does Narwhal rank for you? Any surprises in your preferred cape lists?"
That uh, seems to upset Amy more, and her response is clipped. "Narwhal does defend during Endbringer attacks. However she isn't Manton limited and she also uses her force fields to fight. She can generate sharp force fields inside people's bodies. Not only simple stuff like cutting off arms, but even cutting people in half, and even up to shredding their bodies like they ran through a wood chipper. She's frequently involved when the Guild carries out Kill Orders."
And I'm done eating. I'm not really hungry anymore either, "Oh, uh, OK, yeah, that wasn't a good guess then, sorry. I'm uh, I mean I need to go pick up a book from the library, so maybe I'll just leave you guys eat lunch, yeah?"
I get up and pull my stuff up, and head towards the school library. Claire and Vicky are still unsettled by Amy, and Amy seems to be sulking. Yeah, that wasn't fun at all.
Still Arcadia is a lot better than Winslow, so I shouldn't complaint. The library is quite nice as well, and I waste some time reading before lunch ends, and try to get mental images of blendering people out of my mind.
When school is over and I'm leaving for home, I spot Vicky floating in the air out by the school gate. Maybe she wants to show off or maybe it is easier to spot people from 20 feet up. Meh, maybe avoiding her is a good idea. Lunch wasn't exactly fun, and Vicky does sit at the same table as Sophia.
Vicky
seemed nice, if boisterous, but then again, so did Emma. I turn around back into the building. The only student entrance is through the main gate, but there are exit turnstiles on the others sides so that the facility can get to their cars.
I avoid any trouble, which is the best kind of fight to be in, or rather not be in. It takes longer to get home, but I swing by the public library. There's no obvious tampering of the switch or my cable, but still, without actually taking it apart, there's no way to really tell. If I can do a cursory check of it just by looking at it, I guess somebody could pretty easily notice, if they were looking for how a new cape was reliably accessing the library internet. The library has public wifi available, if I'd been smarter in the initial planning, maybe I could have been less obvious. Still, that would require a computer that I could manage to get through a 3 inch pipe, so maybe not. My ant and turtle unit network had expanded to maybe half the city, with maps in progress for the another quarter. The last bit, an outer ring, sort of, around city may not be with mapping, unless I get get enough materials for more squiggles.
My squiggles, I only had five of them, were amazing, at least in mechanical function. They are faster and more capable than the ants, which themselves were a solid step up from the turtles. All of my units had the same kind of cascade memory/processor driving their behavior though. It burned out, but I was getting better at making them, so my total unit population keep increasing slowly.
I got home and made food, dad would be home soon, and we could have dinner.
I made spaghetti, which we both liked, and was simple.
My relay to the library still operated, and I checked it occasionally. Dad had agreed with me that just checking my questions for any extra answers didn't add to the harm already done.
However, there was a new message.
New message from yabf9gcf
Message sent 12 hours ago (8:33 AM)
Hey listen, this is optimal_observations, I know I creeped you out and I'm sorry about that. I've gotten into some trouble I can't get out of by myself. You're really good at not making waves. Could you help me? I just want out of a bad situation.
This is me