Itinerant: A Pilgrim Quest

3.1 Waters Take Him
Unanimous votes! All of them for one and the same option, that is not obeying! The thing has spoken. Or something. Also, this is the bonus update!


3.1 Waters Take Him

At Cu's words, you did not move, even though your heart fell swollen and your muscles week; terror came over you. And for a while, all was silent around the fire, and all eyes were on you. And then Cu spoke again, his voice light, as if he was just a witness to a juggler's play.

His words were as such: "I was told that the women of Liefs are of such meekness that they meekly submit even when their life and virtue is at the stake."

He came closer to you and leaned over you, and his smile was altogether cruel.

"Yet for all of my urgings, you sit still; but unlike a female from the lands that are my own, you do not reach for the spear to defend yourself. A half-breed you must be, born of more courageous blood. Or deaf, for I am yet to hear you speak."

Others laughed at his words, and it only encouraged him further. He stepped back and presented himself to others, and his next words were in a mocking tone.

"But I know only of submission, and of fighting, and if you do not fight, you will submit, and yield me your spot by the fire. But as you are obviously weak, I will grant you that:
you can have the spear, while I will only have my bare hands!"

A roar of laughter went through the men at the fire; the only two who did not laugh were Reik and Notker, and only Notker spoke, standing up. And his words were harsh like lashes, and he declared that if Cu cuts you a finger, his arm will be taken at the shoulder, and at this the laughs died, and even Cu withdrew from you, taking his spear with him, and leaving you be for the night. But although you retained your place by the bonfire, you did not sleep easily or in fact at all; and so you watched the starless sky until it turned grey and it was the time for you to go with the river's flow once again.

Although the previous day was one of stories and games, this seemed cursed by silence and sombreness; few spoke, and when they did, it was in rough words, and often called each another not by the name, but rather by a derogatory moniker, and so you found that you were now referred to as "Notker's whore", and while previously they seemed indifferent towards you, now they treated you like one may treat a servant, that is unkindly and harshly, and sparing you little good word. And the sky above, though yesterday iron, now seemed leaden and heavy, as if a storm was to break.

Once again, you sat at the edge of the ship and wondered where the river Charm was taking you next, and whether the Saints would deliver you there safely, or would you perish on the day, or see worse things happen to you. Doubt once again took root in your heart, and although you tried to cheer yourself with the words of a prayer, they did not bring such consolation as to lift you up from the dark. And you wondered, too, whether it was because the kind of you was not fit to make pilgrimage, and that perhaps you should had stayed at your father's side and tended to him. In the dimness of the light and the silence of the bog, your whole endeavour seemed almost stupid to you.

It was then that you heard raised voices, and turned to see Reik discussing some matter with king's man Notker, who seemed very wroth with him. You did not catch what was the source of his displeasure, but aside from the look on his face, he was quiet, while Reik (as he was wont to do) grieved about the way he was treated and respect he was not receiving, and which was his due, and how Notker should be more mindful of him and perhaps more thankful, for he did much for both of them and gratitude was his due. Finally, his voice raised, he demanded he should be paid immediately and without delay, at which the patience that Notker had ended, and he reached for his sword and struck Reik in anger, and seeing that the blow was grievous, he cursed in an ugly fashion and shoved the man off the barge and into the river, which took him. Some words were exchanged between the others, but they seemed accustomed to such violence, and resumed their idleness. Thus died Reik.

You sat alone for a time, until Cu approached you and sat next to you, brandishing his spear to test his skill against the fishes of the river, and he spoke to you that it amused him greatly how afraid you were yesterday, but that you should not worry about him, for he had made a vow that he would not touch a woman under the light of the sun or moon, and from that vow his mettle originated, and thus he would not intrude on your virtue. He also told you more of Notker, who had also been known as Notker Red Hand, for he had killed his own brother in a quarrel, and although he spoke little, he was quick to rage and never hesitated to strike with bared steel, and that there were many feuds held against him, and many from his family were killed for him, but he seemed little concerned for that.

And then Cu laughed about Reik, saying that the man who angered Notker such had to be very stupid, and more stupid to make demands from him on his own boat, and that he was surely befriending fishes and eels now.

All while he talked, he skewered fish, but on that fell day, even that task did not go his way, and he did not catch half as many as yesterday. Angry, he put aside his spear, before smiling and handling it to you, asking if you wanted to try your hand at this game (which, as he had explained, was often practiced in the land he came from).

You…

[ ] Accepted and tried to catch a fish.

[ ] Did not accept it, but talked to him more.

[ ] Did not accept it and asked him to leave you, for you were grieving.
 
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The gesture is appreciated, Notker, questionable though your motives may be. I feel a bit bad about our character's perception of him - 'disgust' is definitely not an appropriate reaction for a man of his caliber. It would be nice to know what he intends for us.

Not sure about the current choice. On one hand, I'd like to give it an honest try. On the other... there is something to be said about keeping what we've been doing so far and not fitting the pattern that is expected of us. We managed to get his interest that way at least, and we can make more sense of people by talking.

Hm. Is that a compliment he is making by comparing us to the women of his homeland, or is it accidental?

[X] Accepted and tried to catch a fish.

One way to find out, I guess.
 
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Bye Reik. I'm sure someone will miss you, somewhere. Maybe.
You sat alone for a time, until Cu approached you and sat next to you, brandishing his spear to test his skill against the fishes of the river, and he spoke to you that it amused him greatly how afraid you were yesterday, but that you should not worry about him, for he had made a vow that he would not touch a woman under the light of the sun or moon, and from that vow his mettle originated, and thus he would not intrude on your virtue.
Erm. Something something new moon? Cloudy skies? Twilight? Still kinda worried here.

[ ] Accepted and tried to catch a fish.
-[X] If we can find a secluded place consult the book on Cu's people and their traditions.

Cause I want to read more, but not if everyone can see us. I'm probably imagining the boat wrong.

Also it's a good skill to have, if nothing else.

Thanks for the bonus update, still wondering if braving the road alone would've been wiser. Will probably wonder till the end of journey. Lovely quest.

E: actually, are we sure that fish-catching with strange men isn't some weird marriage ritual where Cu comes from? Cause that'd be inconvinient.
 
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E: actually, are we sure that fish-catching with strange men isn't some weird marriage ritual where Cu comes from? Cause that'd be inconvinient.
Unlikely to be the case just in a single day... but yeah, I suspect he may be hitting on us, with how specific his denial of interest seemed to be.

We are not of his people, and can thus feign ignorance of such matters.

and many from his family were killed for him, but he seemed little concerned for that.
Wait, was this always there? I must have missed this on the first reading, it seems... :confused:
 
Unlikely to be the case just in a single day... but yeah, I suspect he may be hitting on us, with how specific his denial of interest seemed to be.

We are not of his people, and can thus feign ignorance of such matters.
Just, there's this story I've been reading where there's this village that has fishing as a 'couple' activity, and I don't want him claiming we're leading him on.

Maybe gon vote for 'decline' after all. Need sleep first.
 
[X] Accepted and tried to catch a fish.
-[X] If we can find a secluded place consult the book on Cu's people and their traditions.
 
[X] Accepted and tried to catch a fish.
-[X] If we can find a secluded place consult the book on Cu's people and their traditions.
 
3.2 Hinds and Lynxes
Scheduled update time! This one is shorter, but hey. Anyway, trying to catch a fish won, so that is what you did!

3.2 Hinds and Lynxes

You took in your hands the javelin as offered, and attempted to do as Cu did, that is to skewer fish on it. But this task, although easy to explain, was not altogether that easy to perform, and so your thrusts reached water and threw up foam, but never pierce the fish that dwell in them, and each time you missed, Cu would laugh. Between his words of ridicule and mockery, however, he would show you how to better grasp at the javelin, and explained to you how to thrust, and as he did that, he also spoke of his homeland, which was not the Thistle Island, but rather the Rosemary Island which lay across a strait of the sea from it, and which is a home to many great warriors that take pride in knowing that even in the time of the White Wall, they were never conquered. And he also told you that you were, in appearance, not that unlike a sister that he had, and loved dearly, and who was taken by fell fever at a young age, before even a husband could be found for her, and that it was assumed it was caused by a curse (for gnawed bones of a wolf were found after she had died) of which another clan was accused, and that much bloodshed and murder followed as they sought avenge themselves, until by the king's own decree they were all expelled from the island for seven years, so that the carnage could be stopped, and that there were still three years of exile ahead of him.

As he spoke, you kept on attempting to catch a fish, and in the end, perhaps by luck more than skill, you managed to impale one on the javelin and threw where the previous catches had been stored. Cu laughed at that again, but you found it less mocking in tone than before, and he took the spear from your hands and instead himself quickly skewered another three, all the while asking you to tell him about your peregrination. And you explained to him that you left your home for your family was afflicted by a great misfortune, thinking that only the grace of the First Saint in the city of Step could avert hostile fate and save your clan from perishing from the face of the land, and with your brothers slain or captured, there was no one else to take the burden, but you. When asked if it was truly your desire to walk all across the known world to find the most blessed city, you replied that truly it was, and for the third time he laughed, and declared you utterly mad. For to think that you could do such a thing and accomplish such a feat for him seemed very unlikely, if not impossible, and he told you that he was expecting you to die on your quest, or else abandon it, or have even a worse fate imposed on you, and any and all of that was likely to happen to you before the next saintly day. In your defence, you declared that the Saints guide you and guard you, and that if it is their will to carry you to the city of Step, then you will reach it without a doubt, and if it is not, then you will submit to their judgement, for it is just, and perish on your way. Unexpectedly, those words troubled Cu, who cautioned you not to speak so idly of fate, but he refused to explain what he meant by that. Instead, he told you such:

"A lynx may walk alone, but not a hind; for the wolf fears to strike the lynx, but hunts the hind."

And with those words, he left you for the rest of the day, which you spent in silence and in solitude, mercifully ignored by others, even though their jests on the subject of you reached your ears, particularly when they called you the "virginal widow". Then came the night, and once again, you made land and you were put to kitchen duties, and later also set to scrub the pots and to other tasks which you found onerous, and there was such a number of them that you did not have the time to consult the book as you had intended to, and you did not finish them until the night; later, when you were sitting by the fire as on the previous day, you noticed Cu talking with Notker in hushed voices about some matter, and saw Cu putting something in the king's man hand. Then, they appeared in agreement, and soon enough you found Cu standing over you. Once more, he repeated the yesterday's gesture, and thrust a javelin between your legs. And the eyes of others were instantly upon you, and he spoke in the tone of cruel mockery:

"Little hind, you still take my place?"

Against your will and wish, your heart swelled again. And then, you...

[ ] …moved away from the fire.

[ ] …did not move, as on the previous day.

[ ] …reached for the javelin.
 
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[X] …reached for the javelin.

Hmm. So, if it comes to an actual fight, we'll probably lose, but I got the impression that he might respect us just for doing so. ... Or maybe beating a woman in a fight allows you to claim her. Who knows?
 
Given his previous words I feel this is more of a self-defence lesson incoming, or maybe he's testing our resolve. But either way, now that we know what javelin is about we can't take middle road w/o looking stupid, and surrender is not an option (to me) for reasons discussed previously.

...Here's hoping this won't end with us beaten bloody and dragged of someplace nasty/thrown overboard :D

E: really wish we were reading Dat Book instead of scrubbing pots, but whatcha gon do...
 
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[X] …reached for the javelin.

This may be presumptous of us, but his advice earlier and the way he doubts our ability to reach our goal seems to imply that he wants to convince us not to go through with the journey if we're not ready.

This is his way of testing if we're a lynx or a hind.

That, or he's really into us and wants us to realize we need him, a lynx, on the journey.

Basically, he's tsundere for us. :V
 
PSA: Since I am very likely to miss the scheduled update tomorrow (being in transit and all that), I will be making an update today at around 10PM CEST, and then another tomorrow at a similar hour.
 
Or maybe beating a woman in a fight allows you to claim her. Who knows?
Currently we are Notker's property who has not been informed about her status yet on account of the deal breaking off. Rather violently, too.

It is likely that Cu wants to take us under his wing and/or protection. Given our conversation, I think that this might be for the best. Better him than Notker, anyway.

A single lesson in javelin handling is not enough to win, but might be just enough to prove something. After telling him the lengths to which we would go for our goal, I don't think we can back out.

[X] …reached for the javelin.

That, or he's really into us and wants us to realize we need him, a lynx, on the journey.
Consider the situation we got ourselves into without even being aware of it. No wonder he warns us not to speak of fate idly.
 
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So, all the while I am thinking up what will happen next, I was reminded of something rather amusing, which I thought I may share, and that is a certain problem with middle ages bestiaries and symbolism.

So, with lynxes being here and in full force too, I thought to myself that maybe I should check out what the epoch had to say about them cats, and consulted the Physiologus (do not ask me which version precisely, it is if I recall correctly one of the XIVth century ones). There, disappointed, I found out there was nothing on lynxes, however, there were panthers there, so I thought to myself, "ha, panthers! Big cats! Satanic animals! It is like lynxes". So I read about panthers and learn that they are actually the nicest animals out there that scare dragons with their call and are like Jesus Christ. Okay, that is nothing new, or at least shouldn't be new, but as anyone who ever had in their hands the opening cantos of the Divine Comedy can attest, panthers should be all demonic and satanic and definitely not like Jesus Christ.

Here's the thing, though; if anyone ever tries to sell to you that the middle ages were consistent about their symbolism, you can laugh straight in their face because they freaking weren't. You couldn't have an unicorn stand for virginity and Christ and then in some other version of the Physiologus you would have it be the beast of the Devil known for its ferocity and bloodlust. Or, to sum up: this stuff is way more varied than you would expect and most beasts could be cast in both positive and negative light and there would be no contradiction in that.
 
3.3 Lynxes and Wolves
Unanimous again! You reached for the javelin, for better or for worse. Well, then.


3.3 Lynxes and Wolves

You reached for the javelin and took it into your hand. A round of laughs came from the throats of Notker's men as you stood up and faced Cu. His raised his hands high, to show that there was no weapon in them, and barehanded, he turned to you. Others gave space, and cheered.

"Gut him, whore!" was the call of their whistles and shouts, and although seemingly encouraging, you found it dreadful and sickening. And Cu said nothing, his arms wide, as if beckoning you to strike. And you circled him for a time, feeling your limbs quiver and your heart race, like that of a hare. And before you even struck, you felt that your grip may slip, and that you may trip, and the night seemed very dark to you. And Cu only smiled, and his smile was one of a devil, and you knew that his was the smile of the Malefactors. And you thrust at him, and he dodged your thrust, and you thrust, and he dodged, you thrust, he dodged.

And again, you thrust, knowing that he was playing with you, and seeing that with each of your strikes, he turned to others and made a flourish, as if a juggler or a jester asking for reward for his performance, and they awarded laughs, ever louder and louder and they cheered for you harder and harder, calling you to move forward, to strike at him, to bleed him, to skewer him. And you knew that all they wanted to see was him step aside again from the way of your flailing, and see you humiliate yourself more. For it is pleasing for men to see a bear that is dancing and monkey that is juggling. And you did not know for how long it had lasted, for it felt like it took the entire night and more, and it continued until he tired of the game, or perhaps ceased to find it amusing to him, and without difficulty he took the spear from your hands and placed his hand on your throat. And he asked what he should do with you, and they told him what he should do with you, and he slung you over his knee like a parent does with an unruly child, and bared your bottom for all to see and struck on it savagely with the shaft of the javelin until you pleaded that he would cease, and then he threw you to the ground and took from you your cloak, for he liked that it was warm, and he said that he leaves you to others to do with you as they please. But the king's man Notker spoke again and said that you are not to be touched in such a fashion, and so you crawled off away from the fire, and there in the dark you first prayed, and when no one answered your prayers, you cried, and when no one answered your cries, you slept.

***

You have gained a scar! Scars will not leave you and they will accompany you all the way to the holy city of Step, wherever it may be. They are the burden that you carry; the reminder of toils that a pilgrim must suffer. And they are, perhaps, also the soil from which strength will grow.

Humiliated: you have learned that your honour means nothing, if you you are not mighty enough to protect it, and how easy it is to strip one of dignity and plunge them into the depth of despair. You have learned that shame does not kill.

Also you have lost possession of your cloak and the fibula fastening it.

***

Mirth returned to Notker's men on the next day, and, as you sailed down the river Charm, they spoke at lengths at the circus they had witnessed, and how good of a leader Notker was to allow such merriment on the voyage that was always so dreary. Once more, there were tales, and boasts and even brawls, for it almost came to for Siegbert to strike another of the warriors in anger over who of them was better at hunting boar. You were given no mind by them, and they treated you as if you were not there, unless there was a need for you to do something, but as there was no necessity for a servant on a barge, thus there was little need for you, and you were left to your own thoughts, which were such that the hand balks at transcribing them, and so they will not be related.

As for Cu, it seemed that he forgot of your existence, or else lost all interest in it, perhaps having sated his curiosity on previous. He too paid you no mind, and yourself, you could scarcely bring yourself to look at him, for he carried your cloak on his shoulder. But as you watched the water flow, you heard him discuss some matter loudly with others, that is what beast of the wild is most dangerous; and while most argued that it must be the wolf, he presented a different case, and he said such words:

"There is no beast more ferocious than the lynx; for a wolf, although dangerous and deadly, with an iron muzzle and a heavy hand may be tamed made to obey, and it is known that it is how dogs came to be in the service of men. The lynx, however, will not submit, and even if beaten with a heavy hand and put in an iron muzzle, she will still rake at her captors with her claws, until she frees herself, or dies in defiance."

Others did not believe that he was right, and argued that the wolf can hunt the lynx, but the lynx rarely hunts the wolf, to which Cu replied that the matter they were considering was not one of might, but rather one of ferocity, which is different; for, as he explained, a slave may be mighty, but never ferocious, and that one may be feeble in the arms, but still more ferocious than the mightiest warrior, who, having never been truly tested, was only strong in the body, but upon facing defeated, he cowered and surrendered, for such was his fear of death and disgrace.

Notker in particular disagreed with Cu, and declared him, in curt words which do not warrant repeating, for they were laced with blasphemy, a fool and a jester for saying such things, and perhaps too capable with words to be a proper warrior. Then one of his men suggested that Cu should become a priest, for such was his eloquence, and they all laughed, as they were prone to doing.

You made land again, and again you were put to many tasks, and also listened to several remarks and calls that, if heard by your brothers or your father, should lead to drawing swords. But on that evening, you felt indifferent to them, and that worried you.

Yours tasks finished, you set to find yourself a place to sleep on the ground. And you noticed that the spot by the fire which Cu took yesterday was left vacant, and Cu himself sat someplace else; and you noticed that he was looking at you.

With that, you decided to…

[ ] Take your seat by the fire.

[ ] Sleep in the dark.
 
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