This one fought me something fierce, not going to lie. But here we are:
Chapter 15:
No...no no no...
Indestructible jumped in front of Admiral Takeda, as she looked forward. Brown eyes remained focused entirely on the area in front of her. On the
girl in front of her. The powerful battleship, that could snap most warships like a twig. And this was a battleship she had to prepare to
fight. For Tosa bore the classic markings of an Abyssal. While she had only seen them in pictures, Indestructible recognized it. Dark black hair, lank and almost
wet. A distinct smell of salt water. Pale skin. And her
eyes. Tosa's blue eyes, staring for the moment at Kaga. One was normal, but the other...
The other glowed with unnatural light, just like the pictures.
And yet, she had not moved. Tosa's eyes, normal and glowing, were focused entirely on Kaga. Who, for her part, had not moved an inch either. Despite every instinct that girl had. A carrier that close to a potentially hostile battleship was in a
bad place. Hiei had moved in front of a stunned Akagi for exactly that reason. But Kaga, despite her experience and personality, had made no similar moves. Indestructible had to resist the temptation to rush out and pull her to safety.
"What are you doing..." The British girl muttered, looking between the sisters anxiously.
Her fingers twitched, her crew warily waiting for the order to fire. Indestructible had no illusions of course...even at this close of a range, Tosa had far more than enough armor to take a few hits. Hiei was even worse off. But if it came down to it...
She
would fire.
"Kaga."
The battleship's attention was drawn back to Tosa, however. The younger battleship, her voice still scratchy and entirely too deep, had not turned away from her sister.
"Onee-san," Kaga replied, her own voice...weak. There was no longer the stoic carrier. Now there was nothing but shock, and worry.
"I..." Tosa shook her head, the glow in her eye stubbornly refusing to fade. "Why? Why did you...?"
"We needed you..."
"No you don't!"
Twitching, Indestructible pushed Admiral Takeda further behind her. Even Kaga flinched back, though Indestructible couldn't see her face from the angle she was standing at. Regardless of that though, it was readily apparent nonetheless...that the carrier was stunned by the outburst.
Tosa was stunned, as the battleship flinched back, holding a hand to her face.
"Indestructible..." Takeda whispered.
"Stay here, Admiral."
The British girl was far from inclined to let the Admiral get himself hurt. Though she was forced to look back at the sisters, as Tosa backed away.
"You
never needed me." Tosa continued, her hand not once moving from her face. Even as she shook her head, lank hair swaying with the motion. "I was tossed aside, used as a test despite how complete I was. I never had the chance to serve. To
live. Kaga, you have no idea how that
feels. How
angry I am!"
Tosa practically spit out the last words, her hand falling away at last. The glow in her eye had not faded in the least, as she glared out at the room in general. Not at Kaga, and not at Indestructible. Perhaps, in her anger, she had failed to notice the Admiral or the British battleship. But, that would not last forever. Indestructible tensed further, as she watched Kaga move forward. There was none of the of the calm strides that had become somewhat familiar to the British girl. No, Kaga walked forward almost hesitantly.
That she did even that, was something that- perhaps -only Indestructible could understand.
For no matter what Tosa was...or what she was acting like...she was still Kaga's only sister. If
anyone could get through to her, it would be the carrier. The carrier, and no one else. Not even Indestructible, who had experienced abandonment all on her own, could do that. Tosa needed her sister. And Indestructible could only stand back, and keep the Admiral safe. No matter what her instincts were screaming at her.
I am not
going to be the one to take Kaga's sister from her. Not a chance in hell.
"I..." Kaga spoke, her voice softer than usual. "Onee-san, please. I don't want to fight you, or I would not have asked you to come back."
"The last thing I want is to hurt
you." The battleship shot back. "But you should have let me rest. I'm not...I'm not like you remember me, Kaga. I am
so angry. I want nothing more than to destroy everything around us, and find a way to show Japan the pain I felt. No one can understand that feeling."
Clenching her fist, Tosa brought it down on the wall she had moved towards. Her fist punched clean through, no sign it even hurt her.
"Look at me, Kaga. Look at how easily I can destroy things. Do you have
any idea how much it tempts me to draw my weapons and..."
Kaga shook her head, stepping forward again, "Onee-san, I cannot claim to understand how you feel. I was...hurt. It pained me so much, to see you lost. To know I would likely never see you again. Were it not for Indestructible, I would not have even tried this."
"Indestructible..."
"Yes. She has been...a great aid."
Tosa shook her head, blue eyes shifting from Kaga, and finally noticing the British battleship. Indestructible tensed at that, as she pushed herself to cover Takeda further. She could see the anger in Tosa's eyes better, now that
she was the focus of it. And it was very clear, that this girl was barely holding herself back. The glowing eye...the British girl could
see how much anger was held in it.
Just like that picture.
"You," Tosa spoke, her scratchy voice not once changing tone. "What are
you doing here?"
"I was summoned here. Not my choice, mind. But it was..."
"No, why are you
here."
The anger in her voice had Indestructible frown, "Pardon?"
"There was no reason for you, of all people, to call me back!" Tosa practically snarled, her eyes narrowing as her fist clenched on non-existent weapons. "You left us behind, left your sisters behind."
Indestructible couldn't help it. She stumbled back like she was physically struck, her brown eyes widening. She...
"I didn't leave anyo..."
"You did! I was tossed aside, but at least I mourned losing my sister! You...
you...just found new sisters."
"I..."
Had she done that? Had she abandoned all thoughts of reuniting with Hiei, content to have Implacable and Irresistible? Had she used her British siblings as surrogates for her Japanese siblings?
"Onee-san..." Kaga tried to break in, only for Tosa to push her aside.
The glare on the battleship's face had not faded, as her normal eye glared at Indestructible every bit as much as her glowing one.
"At one point, I thought you might understand me. You had faced the same I had...abandonment by Japan. Tossed aside because it was inconvenient to keep you. But...I realized something, as I rested." The Japanese battleship narrowed her eyes again, pointing at herself. "I had only Kaga. In being tossed aside, I failed to do what a sister
should do. And that hurt almost more than being abandoned in the first place. But
you were given new sisters, and abandoned your old ones, all to serve another nation.
I h̠̻̩͉a̸t͉e͎̜̲̰͇ ̟̗t̰͖̕h̯͖̼͇a͡t̬͍̞ͅ."
Everyone in the room, save for Tosa herself, flinched back at those words. Her voice...had taken on a tone that had the ship girls in the room on edge, unable to believe they were hearing it from...one of them. Indestructible flinched back more than any, however. Those words...they hit her, directly in her heart. She had...she had mourned the loss of her sisters. Indestructible had never
once forgotten Hiei and the others. How could she? How could she
ever forget her beloved siblings? The very idea...
But...
She had done what Tosa accused her of. She had latched onto the British battlecruisers, both her true sisters and the others, and tried to turn them all into one big family. Indestructible had tried to take the pain of losing her Japanese sisters, and compensate by attaching herself to the British. And in a way, that was abandoning Hiei, Haruna, and Kirishima. Abandoning any hope of seeing them again.
I...never thought...
"Onee-sama!"
Head snapping up, Indestructible looked, her eyes locking onto Hiei. Who was giving her a big grin, her thumb up despite the fact she was still shielding Akagi.
"I never hated you, or blamed you! I know you couldn't see us, but you're here now. I love you, you know that!"
"Hiei..."
"You're my sister...Indestructible." Hiei's grin softened, as she saw the look on her sister's face. "So don't let her get to you!"
Squaring her shoulders, the British girl nodded. Her heart was warmed by those words...no matter the situation. No matter what Tosa said.
Hiei was the one who would have had real reason to be angry, yet she wasn't. And that meant...
"You're wrong." Indestructible turned to look at Tosa, who had kept up her glare. "I was abandoned, just like you were. And you know, I hated Japan for a long time too. I...I'm still not particularly fond of them. I have my sisters, and friends like Kaga. But I still don't like the idea of being here. But you know the difference between us?"
"What?" Tosa ground out.
"I had someone save me." The battleship replied, looking down at her Royal Navy uniform. "Yes, I may have grown attached to my new home. And yes, I may have used my sisters in Britain as a way to forget the pain of losing Hiei, Haruna and Kirishima. But...I had a home. I was able to serve, and live my life to it's fullest. So...bloody hell, I can't understand how you feel. I can understand how it feels to be abandoned, but not to fall without a chance to live. Still, I don't blame you for how you feel, Tosa."
Indestructible shook her head, a small frown crossing her lips.
"Even so, I won't fight you if you don't make me. I hope you can come to accept what happened. I have, though it wasn't easy."
Tosa looked away, her hands clenching in her dark skirt, "How can I ever forgive Japan for w̖͞h̹̤̝͉̹a͕͞t̷̻͕̤ ͙t̟͉̘̲h̗͇̟͍͟e̬̩y̖̤ ͚d̩̩̹͖̟̘͝i҉̲d͍͓͓̳̫̝ ̧t͕̭͉̹̣̟͡o̘̫ ̘̻̪m̝̪̫̥̳e͕̤̲͍̬͞?̗́"
"You probably can't. I
haven't forgiven them."
The battleship looked up at that, and it wasn't just her. But Indestructible only looked at Tosa. Looked in the girl's blue eyes, the light in her unnatural one fading ever so slightly.
"I may understand why I was abandoned. And I know why. But that does
not mean I forgive Japan. I will probably never forgive them." Indestructible continued, studiously avoiding looking at Takeda behind her. "But...I can
accept it. And I don't hate anyone I've met since I returned. Not one of them had anything to do with what happened to me. Bloody hell, not one person I've met- ship girl or otherwise -was even
born when that happened. It would be hypocritical of me, to blame them for something they had nothing to do with."
"Even..."
"Even though I can never forgive the
nation or the people who did it." The British girl sighed heavily, looking over at her sister. Hiei smiled at her, something Indestructible returned before turning back around. "I have done nothing but make friends since I returned. I can't hate them."
Well, leaving aside that wanker Goto. But one step at a time here Indestructible...
"I..." Tosa looked conflicted, as she held a hand to her glowing eye.
Conflicted, until Kaga stepped back into view. Indestructible could actually see the carrier's face now, and it had her eyes widening. Kaga's stoic expression was gone, her own brown eyes slightly red. The carrier only sent a small nod her way though, before moving forward to Tosa. Kaga pulled her sister's hand down, completely uncaring of the anger that Tosa had already shown. Uncaring of the danger she was in. Tosa stared at her sister, wide-eyed. But the anger wasn't there.
If anything, she almost looked...ashamed?
"Onee-san," Kaga spoke quietly, holding her sister's hand tightly. "I do not blame you for how you feel. I could never blame you. But all I can ask you, is that you do not let it become all you feel. I...am not good good at expressing how I feel, but I know this much. If you let anger rule your actions, you will be no better than the Abyssals. I...do not want to lose you again."
Kaga squeezed her sister's hand even tighter, brown eyes staring into the blue counterparts of her sister.
"I do not know if I can handle losing you for a second time, Tosa onee-san."
Tosa's eyes widened further, before tears built up in them. Even the stubborn glow in her right eye faded, if not completely...then at least enough to not be noticeable compared to the tears. Her pale arms pulled her sister into a hug, Kaga's shocked body not resisting the movement. Even if her own arms were extremely hesitant, as the carrier returned the gesture. The sisters tightly held on to each other, making Indestructible feel like she was intruding. On some level she was...this
should have been a private moment.
And, in fact, Admiral Takeda tapped her shoulder. The British girl turned away to look at him, the man's aged features twisted into a small smile.
"We should leave."
"Admiral?"
"I think we do not need to worry, now. Kaga will keep her sister from snapping..." Takeda nodded at the door, where Indestructible saw familiar black hair. "Moreover, Nagato and Mutsu are here. They will keep an eye on Tosa, until we can...figure out what has happened here. Otherwise, I feel that you have done what you can. If Tosa desires to talk to you further, she will. And right now..."
The Admiral looked over at the sisters, neither of whom had moved from their embrace.
"Right now, I feel we will only be in the way. Kaga needs this, as much as Tosa does. They are sisters, and I am sure you understand that better than most." Takeda sighed softly. "I hardly enjoy taking this risk, however, I really do believe it is the best chance we have. Kaga and Tosa will talk, and we can only hope that is enough. Attempting to force her to do anything would..."
Indestructible winced, "Not end well."
"Indeed."
And so, the British girl followed the Admiral. Hiei and Akagi were close behind, as Nagato and Mutsu moved into the room to take their place. Indestructible nodded gratefully at both of the larger battleships. Nagato merely nodded back, but Mutsu sent a soft smile and a thumbs up at the Brit. Smiling at that, the battleship truend back to Takeda. Hiei and Akagi were standing a respectful distance away, the former hugging the latter. Akagi was clearly overwhelmed then.
Not that Indestructible wasn't. She didn't like leaving Kaga in there, but...it was truly the best option. Tosa seemed to love her sister enough to get past her anger. And, well, that was the important thing. Getting her past that anger.
Still, I am worried. What if Tosa...
That thought would have to wait, as Takeda sent a weary smile up at the battleship. The Japanese Admiral tapped a headset she hadn't noticed he was wearing, as he looked over at the exit of the building.
"I confess, there was another reason to come out here. I received a message from Ise," Takeda spoke up. "And you will be happy to hear that the handoff of your sisters is complete. They should be here in a matter of two or three days."
My...sisters. Irresistible. Implacable. They will finally be back with me!
And, despite Commander Goto...despite Tosa...Indestructible felt a grin crossing her face.
An important note to make: No, the situation with Tosa is not defused. Far from it, in fact. In fact, the next chapter will start from Kaga's perspective, and get more detail on the Tosa situation.
Hopefully it worked out the way I wanted it to.