Companion Chronicles [Jumpchain/Multicross SI] [Currently visiting: INTERMISSION]

I flounder when there's insufficient explaination and scaffolding. Just high people count doesn't phase me. I did just fine with WoT - I never once has any confusion between the large number of women whose names became with E, whereas less well scaffolded works with less people and less similar names lost me regularly.
 
Add me to the pile of people who enjoy your dialogue. (Hello people! Excuse me as I flop onto the pile!) I don't even know how anyone would write it without this much dialogue. It's primarily about people working out difficult mental and emotional problems, and doing that in a conversation is a really good way of working through it. Maybe you could move some of it into an internal monologue, but I feel it would lose a lot that way. There's just a lot of charm and a lot of skill in having characters bounce off each other like you do.
 
"Was I that cool?" I asked, falling back on humor to push aside the discomfort of being compared to my future self again.

The question brought a wry grin to Homura's face. "No," she said, "you were a dork. But you stalled the Second American Civil War in one tiny town in Arizona long enough for the war effort to cause the Anglo-American Fascist Union to collapse."

"Nothing about that sentence will ever make sense."
I feel like "canon" Cass might've had a niece/nephew, or some other kids that she took up a maternal role for in her show. Because I could see Cass going into Mamma Bear Mode and doing all of that if Zeke or Luke were threatened.

If Cass ever has to go Full Mamma Bear Mode in this fic... Welp. Run.
 
Chapter 125: A Notable Lack of Disaster
AN: Beta-read by Carbohydratos, Did I?, Gaia, Linedoffice, Zephyrosis, and Mizu.

Chapter 125: A Notable Lack of Disaster


I awoke the next morning ready to face whatever crisis had occurred beyond my immediate line of sight. I knocked on Tess's door, then Dinah's (even though she hadn't imported), then Anna's. The first accepted my invitation to breakfast, the second called me a 'godforsaken morning person', and the third didn't respond.

"She's probably down at breakfast already," Tess suggested.

"Maybe." I gave the door another glance, then turned a suspicious eye down the hall. "You don't think she might be in Zeke's room instead?"

"Do you want to find out?"

"My good sense says no, but my nosiness says yes." I was being literal; I still had the shoulder sprite perk active, and the two were saying exactly that. "Let's go with the former, shall we?"

The first thing we saw upon arriving at the Palace was, unsurprisingly, Max, who waved us over from a table near the door with a call of, "Good morning."

"Good morning," I replied, Tess a half-second behind me. "Any disasters, catastrophes, or other emergencies I should be aware of?"

"No…?" he replied, clearly wondering what I'd been expecting.

"The last two breaks began with one form of drama or another and I'm capable of pattern recognition."

Max rolled his eyes. "Relax. Nothing but good news since you moved back in yesterday."

"But there is news?"

"Yeah. Remember when you asked if telling Tedd about the 'chain was a good idea?"

I sighed. "Yes, I do."

"Well, with the benefit of hindsight, I can tell you it was. Look there." He pointed across the room to a table in the corner, where Zeke and Anna were sitting across from Tedd and Grace.

Tedd and Grace?

"We left, didn't we?" I asked. "Like, 'doors are closed, next stop wherever' left?"

Max laughed. "Yeah, and they're along for the ride. Probably only for a Jump or two, but I'm happy to host them as long as they want."

"That's the news, then?" Tess asked. "Zeke brought three people along in one Jump?"

"Two Jumps," I corrected her.

"One and a half."

"One point eight, if you're going to be a stickler for precision," Max interjected.

"Point eight?" Tess asked.

"He was there for eight years. No idea why."

"The war probably ended," I suggested.

"Yeah, that would make sense."

"That would make it only one point three," Tess argued. "One half plus four fifths."

I tuned out their good-natured bickering and looked at Zeke and company again. Their table was full, so I'd have to catch him later.

Maybe I'd been taking Zeke's friendship for granted, because I could already feel the urge to take that personally.

———X==X==X———​

As it happened, Zeke wasn't the one I spoke with after his breakfast group split up; I'd just finished my own breakfast when Anna excused herself from her table and walked over to mine. Max and Garrus had left not long after Tess and I had arrived, and Tess herself had headed off soon after, so I was finishing my meal alone.

Perhaps that was why Anna approached me now; to meet one new person at a time.

I kept half an eye on her as she walked up to the table, but I wanted to let her approach on her own terms and so didn't do more than glance her way until she drew to a stop at the opposite side of the table and called my name.

"Cassandra Rolins?"

"That's me," I replied, oddly reminded of my first encounter with Max. "We met yesterday, briefly. Would you like to sit down?"

"Thank you."

Anna slipped into the chair, which appeared to move backwards the bare minimum necessary to accommodate her of its own accord. She didn't need to look at what she was doing, so she kept her eyes fixed on mine the whole time. If I'd expected her to act like a 'normal' person, it could easily have been unsettling; as it was, it was merely unusual.

I waited for her to raise whatever topic she'd come to discuss. She remained silent.

"How do you like your room?" I ventured.

"It is… adequate," Anna responded. "The silence will take some adjustment." She spoke with the sort of precise diction I'd come to associate with Homura, but where Homura was mellow to the point of flatness, Anna's words were short and clipped.

"Silence?"

"The room is perfectly isolated. There are no stray signals. It is unpleasantly like being blind."

"Oh."

Anna didn't offer further commentary or invite a response.

"I'm sure you can have some signals sent to your room if you'd like…?" I offered after a long five seconds of silence.

"Zeke suggested the same thing," she replied, with no indication as to whether she considered it a useful suggestion or not.

Well, there was a topic I could move on to. "How did you and Zeke end up as, uh, friends?"

Anna took a moment to consider the question.

"We were both out of place at the Academy."

That didn't explain the 'how'; it barely explained the 'why'.

"Who approached who?" I asked.

"I approached him."

"Because he was also 'out of place'?"

"Yes," she confirmed. "I was… curious."

"About?"

"Why he kept himself apart."

"I see."

Another long few seconds passed in silence before Anna blinked and refocused her gaze on me. "I'm sorry if this is inappropriate," she said, "but it's strange to be talking to you."

"Because I wasn't there?" I guessed.

"No, I meant you, specifically. Cassandra Rolins. Zeke talked about you often, but he never mentioned your last name. It explains some things."

Now that was a very interesting statement.

I raised an eyebrow. "Oh?"

"Yes. It—" She cut herself off. "Sorry. He mentioned you didn't like to talk about your past."

That was one way to put it.

"Well, the thing about that is that it's not my past," I explained. "I joined long before I would've done any of the things people would've seen, and I'm not really comfortable being treated like I have, if that makes sense."

"Oh." Anna paused, her face inscrutable. "Based on what Zeke said about you, I'd assumed you had."

"I'm not sure how to feel about that. I don't know much about my not-future and I don't think I want to."

Something flashed across her face too quickly for me to read. "Why not?"

"I didn't want to know how bad things would have gotten without Max's intervention."

"Didn't?"

"Still don't," I corrected myself. "Learned a bit anyway, against my better judgment."

Her eyes unfocused for a moment while she considered that answer before visibly returning to meet mine.

"Do you regret it?" Anna asked.

I waggled one hand. "'Regret' is a strong word. It was not particularly pleasant, but not so unpleasant that I would rather not have done it." After a moment, I added, "I still have no desire to learn more, regardless."

She gave a sharp nod—acknowledgment and perhaps understanding.

"How much do you know about me?" she asked.

That was a difficult and likely thorny question. "Some? I looked into your, well, your 'world' when Zeke disappeared, but I didn't learn a whole lot about you as a person."

"Oh."

If I'd been expecting an offer to fill me in, I'd've been disappointed.

"So," I said, "what is your relationship with Zeke, anyw—?"

"It's not a relationship," she blurted out, then cleared her throat loudly. "Ahem. I mean, we are friends. That's all."

That was on me. "Sorry, let me rephrase: how would you define your 'interpersonal connection' with Zeke?"

"We are friends," Anna reiterated.

"Close friends."

"Yes."

Anna once again declined to elaborate.

"You must've been very close, to follow him here," I said.

Another expression flashed across her face—narrowed eyes, jaw set—before vanishing just as quickly.

"We made promises," she said. "Promises not to leave the other behind."

Was you coming along you fulfilling your promise, or him fulfilling his?

That was obviously not an appropriate thing to ask.

"I'm glad he had someone to lean on," I said instead, genuine gratitude mingling with a desire to fill dead air. "I can't imagine what it must have been like for him to drop into a warzone without warning. Thank you."

She shook her head. "I only did what anyone would have, and he helped me, too."

"Maybe not everyone could have. He trusted you for a reason."

"Maybe," Anna allowed, "but I don't think he 'chose' me as a confidant so much as I was the one to pry at the right time."

"Hm."

I was still searching for a way to continue the conversation despite Anna's participation when a new arrival saved me the trouble—and caused a whole bunch more.

"Heeeey, Cass!" Zero called as she hurried across the room, today's sky-blue circuit-pattern sundress swishing furiously at her pace. "Did you hear we got—is that Anna fucking Sanchez?"

Anna stiffened, which was impressive considering how stiff she'd been before Zero showed up.

"Yes, it is," I replied, shooting Zero a look I intended to mean 'calm the fuck down', though she either missed or ignored the hint. "Anna, meet Zero. Zero, Anna."

Zero grinned and shot two thumbs up at the Valkyrie. "Sweet. Thrilled to have you here, Anna. I'm a fan."

"A… fan," Anna repeated skeptically.

"Yeah! Fury of Saskatoon! Hey, would you show me the ropes whenever Mordin gets core production up and running?"

"I… yes, I would be happy to."

"Nice," Zero purred, slipping into the seat beside me. "Anyway, sorry to interrupt. What were you two talking about?"

That was a good question, since we'd been having a conversation only in the technical sense. I replied, "I was thanking Anna for looking after Zeke," which was true enough.

"Oooh." Zero turned a predatory grin on the poor woman. "What's the story there?"

"We won."

Anna's voice had the resentful flatness most people's would when they said, 'We lost,' and did not invite further questions—not that that deterred Zero, unfortunately.

"I bet you did!" she chirped. "But I was actually asking about you two. Who approached who? How'd you get to know each other? What was your first date?"

"I—we're not—!"

Zero opened her mouth to double down. I leaned over and shut it.

"Excuse my friend," I growled. "She doesn't think before she speaks."

Anna's eyes tracked back and forth between us for a moment before she stood up. "Please excuse me," she said, "I, uh… I am going to leave." Suiting actions to words, she turned and walked back to where Zeke had just risen from his seat.

"Mmmmmmmgah!" Zero squawked as I released my hold on her jaw. "Fuckin' rude, Cass."

"You were just going to dig yourself deeper, and it's not like you couldn't've just overpowered me if you really wanted to."

She laughed. "Yeah, but I wanted to honor your effort. Like, shit, girl, you've grown! Can you imagine yourself trying to manhandle me back when we first met?"

"No, I can't," I admitted. "But I've become a lot more comfortable with violence over the last forty years."

"You consider that violence?"

"Use of force, then."

Zero shrugged and moved on. "Hey, was it just me, or was that more 'season 1 Anna' than 'season 3 Anna'?"

"She's not from the anime, remember?" I scolded her. "And if you weren't paying attention, it sounds like things got worse for her as the war dragged on, not better."

It took her a second to catch my meaning. "Ah, fuck. You think the main timeline went RAVENZ in the epilogue?"

"The hell does that mean?"

"RAVENZ was all about Valkyrie-on-Valkyrie combat," Zero explained. "You know, 'live' combat, not the fucking tournament arcs in the OTL. Extradimensional invasion happens and people still fight each other as much as the fucking invaders. Humans gonna human, right?"

I huffed and rubbed at my forehead. "Why the hell is 'everyone started killing everyone else' your first assumption?"

"What were you trying to imply, then?"

"That you should give her more space, mostly. You know, I'm honestly surprised you care this much."

"About what?"

"Anna. Valkyrie Core. I knew you liked the series, but didn't expect you to be this invested in it."

She scoffed. "Cass, I don't know how you avoided noticing, but I fucking love videogames. And sex. And absurd weapon systems. And videogames about sex and absurd weapon systems." Zero's grin vanished as her mind jumped to another topic. "Shit, you don't think she's gonna be weird about my name, do you? What with Type Zeros and whatnot?"

"I'm pretty sure she was reacting to your personality."

"Damn, you're catty today."

I scowled at her. "You weren't exactly on your best behavior there, you know."

"I wasn't trying to piss her off," Zero whined. "Anyway, her and Zeke? Dating? How the fuck did that happen?"

"They insist they are friends, nothing more, and she wasn't exactly forthcoming."

"What do you think?"

"I've spoken with them each exactly once since they got back."

"And?"

I shrugged. "I don't know. I guess it wouldn't surprise me if one or both were ace."

"Oh, I'm sure they're both aces. Those two must've kicked so much ass—"

"You know what I meant!"

"Yeah, yeah," Zero grumbled. "Still. You really think there's nothing going on there?"

"Not all love is romantic."

"So you do think—"

"What I think is that we ought to let them be whatever they want to be rather than telling them their business," I snapped. "Why did you come over here, anyway?"

Her face lit up. "Oh, right! Zeke was a fucking hero and brought back the blueprints for Valkyrie cores! But judging from your company, you probably already knew that."

"Yes, I did."

"What did Anna have for breakfast?"

"You need to slow the fuck down, and why does that even matter?"

Zero grinned. "Like I said, she gave me 'season 1 Anna' vibes, and I was wondering if she was going alphabetically again."

Logically, I knew it was a sorer spot than normal because Anna had just brought up my own show, but Zero's disrespect was really starting to piss me off. "You shouldn't judge her based on the show! Zeke's arrival would've thrown things off track even if he was in that continuity, which he wasn't!"

"Sorry, sorry!" Zero threw her hands up in surrender. "I guess you'd know how that shit feels, huh."

"I was just reminded, actually."

"By Anna? But—no, nevermind, your show would've been airing when Valkyrie Core did its 'present day, present time' apocalypse shit. The tapes survived the end of the world, huh?"

"Apparently."

Zero finally picked up on my mood.

"Ah, nevermind that, Cass," she told me, leaning in to throw an arm around my shoulder. "Look, Mordin says it'll take him a week or two to work out core production, but he's gonna spend all that time fiddling with things that don't matter. I bet I can wheedle a couple prototypes out of him by tomorrow afternoon, so what say we get practicing early?"

I found myself unable to match her enthusiasm.

"Thanks, but…" I trailed off into a sigh. "I dunno. Seeing Zeke with a war veteran's thousand-yard stare makes it hard to muster much enthusiasm for his 'loot'."

"Ah, he'll be fine. We've got six different flavors of bullshit super-therapy on tap."

"Sure, that's good and all, but…" I didn't know how to say it. Zeke would heal, I was certain, but would he ever be the same? The way he spoke now was… it lacked the stiff precision and weird turns of phrase that made talking to him so entertaining, the confident, unqualified bluntness that revealed his exasperation with an illogical world.

Something strange and unique and wonderful was gone, and I wasn't sure it would return.

———X==X==X———​

Tedd and Grace were still in the hotel lobby when I finished my breakfast and headed out.

"Hey, Tedd," I called. "Hey, Grace."

The two turned from their discussion as I walked closer. Tedd was a girl today, wearing a tube-top and cardigan over yoga pants; Grace was in her hybrid form, wearing a tank-top and jean shorts.

Tedd raised an eyebrow when she recognized me. "Cassan—?"

She didn't get a chance to finish the question. "I knew it!" Grace yelled, jumping into the air with one fist held high. "I was right!"

I raised an eyebrow as well. "About?"

"You!" Grace cried. "When we first saw you, I thought, 'Woah, weird! She'd be the perfect actress for Doctor Rolins!' I thought it was funny because I already knew your name was Cassandra."

Oh, that's why she'd been giving me a weird look when she first walked in.

"Then you were all, 'in an infinite multiverse, all things exist, even fiction'," she continued, "and I was like, holy crap! Maybe it is!"

"And you didn't call me out on it?" I asked, raising my other eyebrow.

Grace did a one-eighty from triumph to shame. "What if I was wrong?" she murmured, intently twiddling her fingers. "I'd be so embarrassed! And even if I was right it would be rude to say so because if you wanted us to know who you were you would've told us yourself…"

"Thanks. I think." I tempered my exasperation with a smile. "Say, uh, I called you 'Tedd' earlier. Is there something you'd rather I call you when you're a girl?"

She shrugged. "I've been using 'Tess' at work, but that's taken, so just 'Tedd' is fine."

"Multiple people can have the same name."

"Not in fiction!" Grace objected.

"Tedd is fine," Tedd repeated.

"All right, then," I said. "How are you doing? Did you get a tour?"

"Yesterday."

"We're going to the Arcade!" Grace told me.

"After we look at that 'Magic School' thing," Tedd reminded her.

Grace turned the full force of her pout on her presently-girlfriend.

"And then we're going to look at that 'Magic School' thing," Tedd corrected herself.

"Well, have fun," I told them. "And if you need directions, just ask Dragon."

"Dragon?" Grace asked, quizzical-head-tilt deployed.

"Yes?" Dragon replied.

"Aaaah!" Grace yelped, spinning around in an attempt to locate the owner of the unfamiliar voice.

I looked to Tedd. "Max didn't introduce you to Dragon?"

"He did," Dragon said.

"He did," Tedd agreed. "Grace was a little distracted by the geometry at the time."

"The rooms are bigger on the inside!" Grace yelled, waving her arms for emphasis. "Like, little building"—she cupped her hands around an imaginary object, then threw them wide—"biiig room! Are they all like that?!"

I nodded. "Most of them, yeah."

"Cool. Hey, did you bring any of your robots?"

"Uh… no. I never actually built any. See…" There was something undeniably frustrating about having to explain this over and over again. "…so, yeah. No robots."

"Why not?"

I gave her a flat look. Didn't I just explain—?

"Like, you explained why you hadn't built any before," Grace hurried to add, shrinking under my stare, "but you could still build one now, right?"

"I mean, I could, but…"

But what, exactly? Sure, anything I built would be inferior to what we already had available, but you don't make a hobby aircraft because you want to revolutionize the field of flight.

"It's not a bad idea for a project, I guess, if only so I don't have to keep explaining why I don't have any robots."

"Sorry!"

"It's fine. Occupational hazard."

———X==X==X———​

Homura was in her usual post-Jump spot under the cherry blossoms.

"Good morning, Cass."

"'Morning, Homura."

"Sticking with that form?"

I shrugged. "I like looking like me. I mean, I was fine with my other forms"—I added 'mostly' under my breath as I remembered the body Management had stuck me with in MGQ—"but I like the idea of it, if that makes sense? Kinda makes the whole 'be the best version of yourself' thing literal, you know?"

"I will take your word for it."

I wandered over to the tree trunk and sat down, leaning back against the bark. Homura joined me a moment later.

"You know," I said, "in some ways, coming back here after last Jump feels weirder than ever."

"How so?"

"All the little things I've gotten used to doing are just gone. I don't have to do laundry, or dishes, or wipe the counters and shampoo the carpet."

"Or cooking," she added.

"Or cooking. It's not that I miss doing chores, exactly, but it's weird having them just disappear."

"Is cooking a chore?"

"I think so," I said. "You disagree?"

"I would have classified it as a hobby."

"I'm sure it is, to some people. I like baking better."

She smirked. "You're just saying that to make me feel better."

"Am not! You don't need me to massage your feelings like that, anyway!"

A breeze sent the branches swaying and knocked a light dusting of petals onto our heads.

"Maybe you should set up an apartment," Homura suggested. "Something a little more personal than the hotel room."

"How's that work?"

"Talk to Max. She'll get you set up."

"Maybe I will," I said. "What'd'ya think the next Jump'll be like?"

"I don't know. Normally, after a peaceful Jump like that, I'd expect somewhere war-torn and messy, but Zeke just had that experience."

"Mm."

"Are you looking forward to a less quiet decade?" she asked.

I closed my eyes to better appreciate the simulated sunlight and breeze while I tallied my own feelings on the matter.

"I think I am, actually," I admitted. "I guess I like adventure a lot more than I'd've thought."

"I suppose you're hardly the only person who joined the 'chain for something other than adventure."

"Did I, though?" I asked. "Join for something other than adventure, I mean."

"You would know better than I."

"I think I did join for adventure, sort of. I just had a woefully insufficient understanding of what that meant."

"How so?" Homura asked.

"I hadn't thought through the consequences."

"To yourself, or to others?"

"Both."

"Hmm."

A brief pause.

"Regardless," she continued, "there are countless reasons one would choose to join the 'chain besides 'adventure'. Power. Immortality. Simple survival, in some cases. Leisure. Love—or lust. Or friendship."

"Mhm."

I took a nice deep breath, enjoying the scent of the cherry blossoms overhead and the rosy light filtering through them.

"Anna approached me at breakfast this morning," I said.

"What did she say?"

"Very little. I'm not sure why she wanted to talk to me at all, to be honest. I guess she just wanted to put a face to everything Zeke might've said about me."

"And what would that have been?"

"I don't know."

After a moment spent recalling the conversation, I realized that wasn't quite true.

"I guess I got a hint," I amended. "She said knowing I was 'Cassandra Rolins' explained a few things about whatever he'd said."

"What does that mean?"

"Now that, I don't know."

I leaned my head back against the tree and closed my eyes again. It wasn't the most comfortable position, but I'd fallen asleep in worse, and was at serious risk of doing just that when Homura spoke again.

"Did Zeke sound different to you?"

A glance to my left showed her in the same position I was in, staring out across the top of the hill towards the horizon.

"You noticed too?" I asked.

"I did."

I sighed and adjusted my posture into a marginally more comfortable position, returning my eyes to the horizon.

"He stopped by my room last night," I said. "It was pretty hard to miss. All his normal verbal… quirks, I guess? Nearly gone. The way he holds himself is different, too. If he didn't still look like Zeke, I don't think I would've recognized him."

"You would have. Max has a perk that helps us recognize each other even when we're disguised or transfigured."

"That's not the point. He doesn't act or talk like he used to at all. It's like he's a whole different person."

"People change over time," Homura said.

"For better or for worse."

"You think this is for worse?"

"No, that's not—gah, fuck," I grumbled. "Is it wrong that I miss the old Zeke? That I'm sad he came back different?"

A few seconds passed before she answered.

"I don't know."

I nodded to myself and closed my eyes again.

"He visited me last night as well," Homura said.

"Oh? What'd you talk about?"

"Past Jumps. Wars I'd seen."

"You've seen a lot."

"I have," she confirmed. "Anyone who imports enough times will."

"Yeah, because we keep importing into wars, chaos, even literal apocalypses. Sure, there are the quiet Jumps, but you've been to Starcraft and Battletech and probably worse places than either. 'Adventures', fah. Why do we keep going back?"

"To be heroes. Or for power, experience, and treasure. Or just for the love of fighting."

"Heroes," I repeated. "What does that even mean when we can't die? Can we really claim to be brave when we're not risking anything?"

I felt rather than heard Homura sigh beside me.

"Being a hero isn't just about being brave. It's not about our actions, it's about what those actions mean."

What, serving as an exemplar? A figurehead? That sounded more like being a 'Hero' than a hero to me.

Maybe she guessed what I was thinking. Maybe she just thought she'd not made her point.

"Zeke wouldn't say much about his own experiences," Homura continued, "but he said enough that I know there are things he's proud of doing over the last few years. Things that mattered to him. He was a hero to someone, I think."

"Anna?"

"Perhaps. Perhaps a kohai of his own. Perhaps just a face in a crowd, thanking him for his service. But it meant something to him." She paused. "There are things we won't regret no matter how much they hurt at the time, aren't there?"

God knew I had more than my share of those; at least one a Jump and plenty before. College—and the friends I'd kept after crashing and burning—came to mind.

"Yeah," I agreed, "there are."

———X==X==X———​

I decided to check if Max was in his usual spots—the lounge or library—before asking Dragon to page him. My first guess was half right.

"—with Tess was bad enough, but at least that was just one of your usual gotcha's!" Max was yelling, voice echoing down the stairs from the meeting room. "Now you're just doing whatever the fuck amuses you at the time! How am I supposed to make any kind of informed decision when I have no idea what kind of bullshit you're going to pull next?"

Management's response was too low to overhear, and I found myself drawn towards the scene like a rubbernecker.

"Bullshit! Every time I ask for the slightest bit of leeway, I hear, 'there are rules for a reason', or 'if I make an exception once, you'll want it every time', or 'work with what you've got'. I can't work like this! What good are rules if I can't rely on you to keep to them?"

I reached the top of the stairs just as Management finished their response and sidled in next to the door, eavesdropping shamelessly.

"—control," Management was saying. "Hello, Miss Rolins. Can I help you?"

Busted.

"I was just eavesdropping," I said, stepping into view. "Hi."

Max had been standing on the opposite side of the table, leaning forward on both hands as he glared at the speakerphone. His expression softened into an amused smile as I emerged—because of course I wasn't going to sneak up on an elder Jumper and his benefactor—before returning to a scowl as he refocused on the phone. "Hey, Cass. I was just explaining to our benefactor"—the word dripped with scorn—"why I took issue with their recent, shall we say, 'improvisation'."

"Good."

"And what is your complaint, exactly, Miss Rolins?" Management asked, clearly annoyed.

"The part where you threw my friend into a war-torn hellscape," I snapped.

"It was hardly a hellscape. I could have dropped him in Muv-Luv."

"You basically fucking did!" Max yelled.

"Circumstantially speaking, perhaps, but—"

"But nothing! Who are you trying to make excuses to here? 'I could have sent him somewhere worse'? The place you sent him was more than bad enough judging from how it sandblasted his personality off!"

"'Sandblasted'?" they repeated. "That's the metaphor you're going with?"

"It fits," I said. "I think it captures the irreverent, destructive cruelty of the process pretty well!"

"But even that isn't the point," Max continued. "I've been doing my best to mitigate your 'irreverent, destructive cruelty' for thousands of years, but this time—this time—you took someone I'd taken responsibility for and threw them into a world where I had no way to reach them without even the slightest pretense that it was something I could have somehow foreseen or prevented!"

"As you have said," Management growled. "Repeatedly. Loudly, even. But you seem to have forgotten one incredibly important fact. The most important fact, one might argue."

Max and I exchanged a glance.

"I don't answer to you!" they crowed, the previous menace replaced with naked glee. "You may get off at the next stop, as it were, or you may continue to deal with my 'irreverent, destructive cruelty'. The choice is yours. See you in two weeks."

The speakerphone clicked off.

———X==X==X———​
 
AN: Management generally makes an effort to give the impression that there are rules beyond 'whatever they want to do at the time'. Generally.
 
Have to wonder about recruiting some more someones who can act against management tbh. Or fewer. This improv session might be in response to Meave breaking the rules.

Alternately, personages who can act against management are probably a good idea. Even if that is just going to annoy them. Not that I can think of much. Alaya and Gaea cant. Yukari is maybe as much of a rule break as Meave, but not really more. Most scifi uplifted sentients are not even at Q levels. Not Dark Star or Volfeid, maybe the lord of Nightmares though?

But if it were, why would management even let the chain near red sphere?

Not that any of this would stop me from being along for the ride. I'd still be along for the ride.
 
"Well, the thing about that is that it's not my past," I explained. "I joined long before I would've done any of the things people would've seen, and I'm not really comfortable being treated like I have, if that makes sense."
The other day I was thinking about this specifically in the context of Star Trek. Cass did solid, innovative work on transwarp drives, which echoes what she would have done in Revolution Drive. For the transwarp shuttle, using three warp nacelles with different designs would have been perfectly understandable when she was cobbling mechs together for a small team; she could handle the weird part needs for a very small number of mechs. And the emphasis on safety measures is also appropriate when you have very few resources as a small insurgent team and each mech and each pilot is extremely important.

"You would have. Max has a perk that helps us recognize each other even when we're disguised or transfigured."
So that's how she recognized Dinah so quickly in Breath of Fire III.
 
Fuck Management.

And yeah, that's probably also covered under our usual approach of "Fuck management", but it seems to bear repeating for emphasis here.
 
Remember when Maeve told Management to be careful, because she might believe the "rules" are no longer in play?

Something tells me Maeve might go wild after hearing about this.
 
"I'm not sure how to feel about that. I don't know much about my not-future and I don't think I want to."

Something flashed across her face too quickly for me to read. "Why not?"

"I didn't want to know how bad things would have gotten without Max's intervention."

"Didn't?"

"Still don't," I corrected myself. "Learned a bit anyway, against my better judgment."

This still baffles me, I can't fathom why you wouldn't want to know about who you would have been or what the world would have become.

Gonna have to get dropped into a mecha anime just so she ends up designing mecha and gets over this nonsense.

"So," I said, "what is your relationship with Zeke, anyw—?"

"It's not a relationship," she blurted out, then cleared her throat loudly. "Ahem. I mean, we are friends. That's all."

Not sure why Cass is still pressing on this topic, thought it was resolved last time. Kind of veering towards the whole 'Guys and Girls can't be friends, they must be into each other' compulsory heterosexuality thing, which feels weird and out of place.

"Heeeey, Cass!" Zero called as she hurried across the room, today's sky-blue circuit-pattern sundress swishing furiously at her pace. "Did you hear we got—is that Anna fucking Sanchez?"

Anna stiffened, which was impressive considering how stiff she'd been before Zero showed up.

"Yes, it is," I replied, shooting Zero a look I intended to mean 'calm the fuck down', though she either missed or ignored the hint. "Anna, meet Zero. Zero, Anna."

Zero grinned and shot two thumbs up at the Valkyrie. "Sweet. Thrilled to have you here, Anna. I'm a fan."

Zero is a fan of the Monster, I feel like if we'd contemplated it this would not be a surprise.

Man gives innumerable prayers to Heaven for salvation. Heaven replies with nothing but death to recompense Man. Kill. Kill. Kill. Kill. Kill. Kill. Kill.

Zero would be into that.

"As you have said," Management growled. "Repeatedly. Loudly, even. But you seem to have forgotten one incredibly important fact. The most important fact, one might argue."

Max and I exchanged a glance.

"I don't answer to you!" they crowed, the previous menace replaced with naked glee. "You may get off at the next stop, as it were, or you may continue to deal with my 'irreverent, destructive cruelty'. The choice is yours. See you in two weeks."

The speakerphone clicked off.

Berating Management on moral grounds might feel good, but I feel like Cass has forgotten that Management give zero fucks.
 
This still baffles me, I can't fathom why you wouldn't want to know about who you would have been or what the world would have become.

So you'd be okay with finding out that, say, you got fridged after three seasons and promptly forgotten about, proving that you don't matter, you never mattered, and the world goes on just fine without you? Because that's a possibility here. Or possibly worse, what if it turns out that part of what made you into what you were in the show was due to the show throwing sexual assault at you for "character development and realism"? Perhaps the show writers shoved straw opinions into your mouth to prove you wrong and teach the episode's "lesson", meaning that you grew up to be the kind of person who believes nonsense that not even real-world bigots are dumb enough to believe. And maybe the worst possibility, what if your show pulled an Evangelion and had you flirting with a literal teenager as an adult? Even if it does something with the show's themes and is actually handled with sensitivity, that still means you're the kind of person who could be pushed to that.

Or on another note, perhaps finding out that you would have grown up to be brilliant, with nothing you'd even think about changing, the most perfect version of yourself you can possibly imagine, and you're over here feeling like hot garbage because around a quarter of the stuff you've accomplished came at the cost of traumatizing teenagers. How could you possibly live up to that idealized version of yourself? How can you avoid sinking into a depression when you realize you might never measure up to that? How can you avoid wondering if coming on this Jumpchain was a mistake because now that you've gone and changed things, it's literally impossible to ever be that person you wish you were?

Heck, even ignoring what you might find, Cass fends off the expectation that she be more like her "future" self by going "No, I haven't seen my show and I don't want to". It forces people to engage her on her merits as a person, not on the expectation that she's that other person who might have been but won't be, not now. It'd be different if her source was obscure, but apparently it's common enough on any Earth variant that she's going to be recognized again and again, and the more unintentional pressure people put on her to act like that other self, the more she might feel she has to act a little more like her source, because that's what everyone expects her to be and are disappointed when she isn't.

No, we understand why Cass wouldn't want to know.
 
Not sure why Cass is still pressing on this topic, thought it was resolved last time. Kind of veering towards the whole 'Guys and Girls can't be friends, they must be into each other' compulsory heterosexuality thing, which feels weird and out of place.
Cass wasn't "pushing on" anything here IMO? "What's your relationship with <person>?" doesn't imply you're in a relationship with the person, it's just how you ask what their "interpersonal relations" with the person look like.

This was just a run of the mill "minor conversational hiccup" that you see probably more of in CC than in most other fiction (which is a neat feature of CC's more conversational pacing -- it really makes the conversations feel real even though it slows things down). Since everyone had been constantly assuming Anna and Zeke were dating it was a hair trigger reaction from Anna on the word "relationship", even though that's not what Cass was talking about.
 
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The other day I was thinking about this specifically in the context of Star Trek. Cass did solid, innovative work on transwarp drives, which echoes what she would have done in Revolution Drive. For the transwarp shuttle, using three warp nacelles with different designs would have been perfectly understandable when she was cobbling mechs together for a small team; she could handle the weird part needs for a very small number of mechs. And the emphasis on safety measures is also appropriate when you have very few resources as a small insurgent team and each mech and each pilot is extremely important.
I really like this analysis because it's totally true and also totally different from I was thinking when I wrote that bit.

Cass's work on transwarp drives is mostly drawn not from the engineering I've done, which I don't have a whole lot of experience or confidence with, but from my approach to programming. I sometimes go haring off in pursuit of 'elegance' in coding in ways that can be difficult to read (and thus maintain), so Cass creates a perfectly optimal engineering solution that would be a nightmare for logistics when more power would work just fine. I also tend towards an overabundance of error checking (such as validating input to a function before calling it even when the first thing that function does is validate its input because that's good programming practice in the general case where one isn't writing both sides of the function call), whereas Starfleet technology tends to fail in amazingly dangerous ways.

And yet all of those things are totally appropriate for the Show as described because that's what my life story is written to support, after all. 🤷‍♀️

So that's how she recognized Dinah so quickly in Breath of Fire III.
And much, much earlier, all the way back in the Prologue, how she recognized Max as being Max after he shed thirty years of age in an eyeblink.

This still baffles me, I can't fathom why you wouldn't want to know about who you would have been or what the world would have become.
So you'd be okay with finding out that, say, you got fridged after three seasons and promptly forgotten about, proving that you don't matter, you never mattered, and the world goes on just fine without you? Because that's a possibility here. Or possibly worse, what if it turns out that part of what made you into what you were in the show was due to the show throwing sexual assault at you for "character development and realism"? Perhaps the show writers shoved straw opinions into your mouth to prove you wrong and teach the episode's "lesson", meaning that you grew up to be the kind of person who believes nonsense that not even real-world bigots are dumb enough to believe. And maybe the worst possibility, what if your show pulled an Evangelion and had you flirting with a literal teenager as an adult? Even if it does something with the show's themes and is actually handled with sensitivity, that still means you're the kind of person who could be pushed to that.

Or on another note, perhaps finding out that you would have grown up to be brilliant, with nothing you'd even think about changing, the most perfect version of yourself you can possibly imagine, and you're over here feeling like hot garbage because around a quarter of the stuff you've accomplished came at the cost of traumatizing teenagers. How could you possibly live up to that idealized version of yourself? How can you avoid sinking into a depression when you realize you might never measure up to that? How can you avoid wondering if coming on this Jumpchain was a mistake because now that you've gone and changed things, it's literally impossible to ever be that person you wish you were?

Heck, even ignoring what you might find, Cass fends off the expectation that she be more like her "future" self by going "No, I haven't seen my show and I don't want to". It forces people to engage her on her merits as a person, not on the expectation that she's that other person who might have been but won't be, not now. It'd be different if her source was obscure, but apparently it's common enough on any Earth variant that she's going to be recognized again and again, and the more unintentional pressure people put on her to act like that other self, the more she might feel she has to act a little more like her source, because that's what everyone expects her to be and are disappointed when she isn't.

No, we understand why Cass wouldn't want to know.
Hestia&theCourt pretty much covered all the bases. There's basically nothing Cass could learn from the show that wouldn't be an emotional blow. The only thing I'd add is that the fact that Cass starts the series holed up in a decommissioned nuclear silo in the middle of the Arizona desert implies that her backstory will involve more than a little "this is how all your friends and family died"—particularly since the protagonist who has to get in the damn robot is her nephew, and said plucky teenage hero's actual parents are nowhere to be seen. Oh, and the fact that even if you ignore the dire possibilities Hestia raised, Cass already knows that she-the-future-character would have turned her closest living family into a child soldier rather than go out and fight herself, and that doesn't reflect well on her no matter what sort of mitigating circumstances the authors thought up (if they even bothered!).

Not sure why Cass is still pressing on this topic, thought it was resolved last time. Kind of veering towards the whole 'Guys and Girls can't be friends, they must be into each other' compulsory heterosexuality thing, which feels weird and out of place.
Cass wasn't "pushing on" anything here IMO? "What's your relationship with <person>?" doesn't imply you're in a relationship with the person, it's just how you ask what their "interpersonal relations" with the person look like.

This was just a run of the mill "minor conversational hiccup" that you see probably more of in CC than in most other fiction (which is a neat feature of CC's more conversational pacing -- it really makes the conversations feel real even though it slows things down). Since everyone had been constantly assuming Anna and Zeke were dating it was a hair trigger reaction from Anna on the word "relationship", even though that's not what Cass was talking about.
Indeed, Cass is trying to give Anna a chance to define her interpersonal 'relationship' with Zeke because she knows they don't like the assumptions people are making, but Anna balks at her phrasing. She prods a little because Anna summing it up as 'just friends' is a clear understatement, then stops when Anna makes it clear she doesn't want to say more.
 
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"Cool. Hey, did you bring any of your robots?"

"Uh… no. I never actually built any. See…" There was something undeniably frustrating about having to explain this over and over again. "…so, yeah. No robots."

"Why not?"

I gave her a flat look. Didn't I just explain—?

"Like, you explained why you hadn't built any before," Grace hurried to add, shrinking under my stare, "but you could still build one now, right?"

"I mean, I could, but…"

Suddenly I get the impression that you're going to go home some day, and use what you've gained in the 'chain to turn IRL into a giant robot anime…

Can I have a robot dog?
 
So, I've just read the whole story, for the first time, and I have things I WANT to say.

The issue is, I'm not sure I should say them, especially not in such a public forum…

But I don't think any of them are mean spirited, and they don't touch on what might be the… I don't want to call it touchiest because that implies certain things… hmm… I don't have any negative opinions on all the… I don't know a good all encompassing term because I want to include Zeke and Tess in this as well as Cassandra and Luke and others…

Let's just go with "Sapient Identity" discussions. I'm not touching that. No, what I want to speak on, is Worm and how it ended, as well as what that meant for the rest of the series. I have my own little shoulder spirits arguing back and off and maybe I'll include a bit of that.

So Worm. This is officially inside the spoiler now I guess. I frankly dislike how it ended. I think Kasey was told the single least charitable explanation for her actions, and then just… agreed with Lisa, who was being a huge bitch about it, that she completely told the truth and never in ten years did she find another way of looking at it, other then sort of "I was a teenager at the time"

Now I'm not trying to argue in any way that was Kas did was right, but I think the idea what Kas did was so completely and irredeemably wrong that "I hate you, I never want to speak to you again, I never want you to speak to any of your other friends again (the friends YOU helped bring together) and I never want you to set foot in this town, the only place you truly called home this jump, ever again.

From both Lisa AND Taylor.

Especially Lisa, but both should get some flack for this. That was second trigger worthy stuff right there. 'Everything you've ever known and loved, fuck you, you prick you don't deserve it and I'll never forgive you for it' Kasey, not Cassandra, lost her whole world A SECOND TIME. And while Lisa and Taylor are like 'We may have gone a bit overboard' I think of as a drastic understatement.

There are plenty of ways to frame what she did as, perhaps not as 'ok' but as 'understandable' perhaps even 'understandable compromises'.

I don't want to go too deep into each frame, but just the fact there are so many of them. The first would be that Kasey and Taylor were not friends yet. Even if she wanted to be. She was under no moral or social obligation to help the girl she had not met. Taylor was not yet 'One of my best friends' Taylor was 'Taylor Herbert from Worm but now she's real' and I don't think Cass understands the difference. Even if the world IS real it wasn't internalised properly in that moment, or if it was, Kasey had never met Taylor and while Cass might have had some obligation, Kasey didn't and it took a bit to sort the imbalance out.

From another perspective, the 'ends justify the means' perspective. Kasey decisions gave Taylor everything she ever wanted. Friends, self respect, the chance to be a hero, literally saving the city, a loving relationship. Heck, Taylor was probably able to get the ferry up and running, her dad's comedically overly brought up wish. The point is, was what Kasey did a dick move? Yes. But Taylor benefited MORE then immensely from it. It might have been the single, most useful decision that was ever made for Taylor. Now the "FOR" Taylor is a big issue and we see that in the next jump, but we'll get to that. This is a rant about Worm specifically.

The next framing device, is the consequences, and we can split that into two. The first is that we all know is Kasey stopped Taylor triggering, she'd then try to carry the weight of, if not the world, at least Brokton Bay. With Taylor as a normal, Kasey would think it her job to step up and fills those shows, having not really seen what the rest of the crew can do. She likely would have forced herself to BE Taylor in ways that were not healthy for her.

The other way to look at it, still with consequences, is if Kasey stopped this ONE prank, what's to say Taylor triggers anyway? Is Kasey now responsible for preventing Taylor from triggering ever? What about the bullying? Cass might be able to stop these things by calling in assistance, but KASEY did not have the ability, not really anyway, to stop Taylor from triggering ever. And while "If it was going to happen anyway" isn't a good argument, the argument is instead, "Could Kasey have ever afforded the time and effort necessary to TRY and prevent it. The answer, I think, is likely NO"

The final thing, that I want to bring up at least, is that I'm not sure Taylor had the self esteem necessary to claw herself back from the edge without the powers. It ties into the 'Could Kasey have stopped this' idea, but more the consequences of actually stopping it. Would Taylor now be her responsibility? Taylor could never really be 'a friend' to Kasey with the power dynamics.

It would be an alternate version of the toxic relationship between Emma and Sophia almost certainly. Kasey would be Taylor's only emotional support pillar and the shining beacon of hope in Taylor's knew life. What if Taylor found out Kasey was a villain in this scenario? If that didn't cause Taylor to trigger, the shattering of her entire world view, that her saviour was a villain, then I'm sure it would have caused other issues.



Now maybe these things are all excuses. The thing is, I just wasn't sold that Kasey should have accepted as much blame as she did. Especially not for ten years. I think what Lisa and Taylor did to Kasey was much, much worse then what Kasey ever did to either of them. And fuck, most of this is about Taylor. Sure Kasey fucked up a bit with Lisa, but Lisa CAUSED HER OWN PROBLEMS. It's not really Kasey's fault, and Lisa's kind of a bitch about it.

With that massive rant out of the way. Now we can get onto why I'm so worked up. It's because maybe all of these complaints are irrelevant because it was good for the story as a whole.


So regardless of if you read the rant in the spoiler box or not, Cass, or Lina, depending, goes on to have a similar experience. Getting impaled 'for the greater good' without being asked. We get to see that it really is about agency (which does mean I'm still a bit salty because frankly 'Hey Taylor if you could have everything you ever wanted you just have to survive somewhat mentally intact tomorrow? Want me to stop that' would have you labelled crazy at best… or at worst, Taylor was nearly suicidal at that point already, I don't know she's in the right headspace to answer that question responsibly. And I mean, it's not like you could ask Danny instead?

All that being said though, I really like the questions I brought up. I like how it gets into the philosophy of it all. It also makes me wonder if I should be 'more ok' with what happened in Worm because other people didn't see the problem. It was mostly just Cass who did.

Still, regardless of that. It does make the story better. We get to see Cass in the position of the victim… but I'm not sure how much that added. Cass had already had her revelation, I don't know we needed to see it happen again…

But guess what. It was a wonderful story beat. Everything that flows on from worm just seems to add to the joy that I have for this story. It asks questions I didn't know I ever wanted answers for. We get to see how so many different characters treat each other and the worlds they are in. We get to see what they find morally acceptable and how different answers they can come up with.

I think, one of my favourite… not quite single scenes… but I suppose 'arc' was Cass refusing to allow Luke to change his gender identity (I know I said I didn't want to touch this but it's SUCH GOOD WRITING). To see the angel and devil arguments, instead both agree that they didn't want to do this because of very valid reasons, still hash it out in a long form issue.

So I guess that's what I'm going to do. I guess Love and Hate work well, even if they are a bit extreme.

Hate: "So, we can say it was a poor writing decision to railroad Kasey so hard at the 'end' of the Worm section. It wasn't built upon well and all the other interpretations were a lot kinder to Kasey. It feels odd she never found any and it was poor writing."

Love: "Yes but it's the foundation for all Cass' excellent character growth going forward. Even if it was built on a shaky foundation, it made the rest of the story better by its inclusion"

Hate: "But we're just critiquing the Worm section really. This isn't about the whole story. Sure Tempestuous managed to salvage things, but we're ranting about the ending of Worm"

Love: "But we didn't just KEEP it to Worm. We branched out and spoke on how it made things better. It did so much good, so why are we caught up with just the Worm section?"

Hate: "Because we love Worm, or well no Worm is awful to read and you shouldn't recommend it to people but I do LOVE the fanfiction made from Worm, so much of it is amazing and it really grinds my gears to have such a… well such a cannon Worm ending. Like… it feels like Kasey had to suffer 'because it's not Worm otherwise' and not because it actually made that much sense"

Love: "Well, we could talk about Genre conventions. I could point out that fits in with the story quite well in fact. It might not be a mistake. You could also argue it was necessary foundational work."

Hate: "Can't argue authorial intent though. I could go full 'Death of the Author' and say it doesn't matter what they were planning or have written later. MY interpretation is that Kasey was railroaded into the 'Worst End' timeline for reasons I don't think are fully valid"

Love: "Death of the Author is a poor excuse to expression your opinion about things. It's also not like the story is finished. Oh and THIS ISN'T A WORM FANFIC. This is a… fuck I don't know what it is and it feels wrong to call it a jumpchain story despite being technically correct. Is it fair to judge the "Worm segment" in a story not focused on Worm. It's unfair to the greater narrative, and to the author if we're trying to pretend Worm existed in a vacuum"

Hate: "But it DOES exist in a vacuum. Perhaps not solely in one, more like a series of interconnect vacuums, but we experienced Kasey's story in Worm. Even if she is a part of Cass, the rest of the novel is Cassandra Rolin's story not Kasey's."

Love: "Maybe you just feel bad because YOU had fun reading the fic and don't like that you'd do exactly what Kasey did and are trying to justify it retroactively so as to not feel bad about having fun reading it,"

Hate: "That's false equivalency. I have no shame in enjoying the Worm section of this fanfic. What I would or would not do in Kasey's place has no bearing on this. I don't think objectifying fictional characters is a problem, despite what Cassandra thinks, as shown by the stuff with Paul. They are completely fictional, and to assign true agency to them would lead to the slow collapse of the medium."

Love: "So what you're saying is 'Yes I would do what Kasey did and I don't want to feel bad about it the author should instead'?"

Hate: "Well that's just being unreasonable. The author shouldn't feel bad about any of this. The story is a wonderful one. The closest thing to a masterpiece and Jumpchain has ever gotten and it isn't even finished."

Love: "So you love the story then?"

Hate: "I hate you"

Love: "No you don't. Otherwise you wouldn't have written a two thousand word comment and posted it on Sufficient Velocity"

Hate: "I hate you,"

Love: "No, no you really don't"
I hope you had fun with whatever the heck this was and that it was at least enjoyable, if not thought provoking. I just really needed to expression my frustration and love with the situation. Especially because I DO care about this story.
 
That was second trigger worthy stuff right there.
I'll be honest: I'm surprised that Kasey didn't second trigger from that. It was traumatic for all the reasons you've said, and it's a trauma that Cass is still grappling with. Cass is now well into her 60s/70s and she still hasn't healed from that trauma. And Wildbow's WoG (which is shaky ground to tread, I know) says that second triggers never recover from their trauma.

The point is, was what Kasey did a dick move?
I'd argue that Kasey was still reeling from the trauma of her trigger. Kasey notes that the "fake" memories feel real for her. So real that she thinks she dreamt up the Jumpchain that first day. And her Drop-In memories are intertwined with realities from Cass's "real" history (friends are re-skinned and planted, then are all killed in the flood).

So not only is Kasey acting with the cognitive function of a real adolescent teenager (Which impairs her decision making in all the obvious ways), she is also still reeling from a very major personal trauma. Grief, loss, sudden change, unsupported by her maternal authority figure... Is it any wonder why Kasey makes such mistakes?

And while Lisa and Taylor are like 'We may have gone a bit overboard' I think of as a drastic understatement.
I maintain that Companion-Chronicles-Lisa was depicted as an absolute monstrous person (drove Kasey to suicidality, talked Kasey down because that reminded her of Rex, and then immediately resumed her cruel kicking once she was assured Kasey wasn't going to kill herself) and the fact that Kasey agrees with Lisa and befriends her viscerally sours something within the depths of my soul.
 
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