It takes you about fifteen minutes to pull yourself back together. By the time you're fully lucid and out of the fuzziness, you find your hand is being held by Angharad —who's sitting on the floor next to you and leaning on the wheelchair— with Natalie also seated on the floor watching you, and a half-full bottle of water you don't clearly remember getting or drinking in your free hand.
Peter and Dr. Liang are in the booth, looking at something below the window and gesturing.
"They're trying to figure out what happened, and if something went wrong," Nat says.
You shake your head. You know there was nothing wrong.
Natalie twists around, waving her arms and getting the attention of the two in the booth, and then motioning to come out.
They emerge a moment later, walking over to you.
"Are you okay? We were thinking about taking you to the medical center, but you seemed to be getting better on your own pretty quickly," Peter tells you. "Nat got you some water and that seemed to help, too."
You shake your head at the thought of ending up on a stretcher again. You've had enough of infirmaries for the next week.
"I'm fine," you tell them, and you aren't even sure if it's a lie or not. You'll hold your opinion.
Dr. Liang bites her lip and crosses her arms. "Can you tell us anything about what happened?"
"I wasn't ready for it," you say, and it's the truth. The worst part wasn't the nothingness, not… not really, it was how unprepared you were for it. That's what made it so shocking and terrifying. "It was… nothing. Literally, nothing," you tell them.
"I-I couldn't see, couldn't hear, couldn't taste, or smell, or touch. And I couldn't even feel myself."
That was probably the worst.
"What do you mean?" the professor asks. "Internal sensations? Like proprioception, pain, hunger, thirst, physical weariness?"
You nod.
She frowns. "That's… unusual."
"The only things I had were the direction and…" You blink. You hadn't even realized it, but… "The two objects."
"The 'two objects'?" Peter repeats.
You nod. "One is fifty-six million two hundred ninety-one thousand eight hundred six miles that way," you say, pointing nearly up but a little off. "The other is nine thousand four hundred eighty three miles that way." Your other hand points almost perfectly straight down but a few fractions of a degree off.
"Uh, Amy?" Angharad says, getting your attention.
"Yeah?"
"…That's the Sun. And Haeld."
…Oh. "Oh," you say dumbly. That would make sense. You let your hands drop. "Well then."
"Have you always been that precise with distances?" Dr. Liang asks.
You shake your head. "It's just those two things. I know where they are."
"Hmmm," she hums thoughtfully.
"Um. What did it look like out here?"
Angharad shakes her head slowly, her face slightly pale.
"It was pretty freaky. Really freaky," Nat says. "And I tried to cancel you, but it wouldn't work."
"Is there a video or something?" you ask.
The professor nods, and there's suddenly a visual ping as your runner has access to the file.
You open it, letting your runner open broadcast the program so the others can see it as well and it doesn't look like you're just playing with empty space.
It's actually a full holo, three dimensional and everything, but you adjust it so that you're looking at it from about the same view as the others would have.
You start it, and everything is still, you just see yourself sitting there. Nothing changes.
And then without warning you deform, everything about you compressing impossibly, your knees getting closer to your hips even when the wheelchair hasn't changed, your front getting smaller and sides becoming visible, looking like you're turning inside out before suddenly you're just not there.
What the hell.
There's nothing, and you fast-forward, holo-Natalie appearing in the room and becoming more and more stressed, pacing around, biting her knuckle, until you hit the eight minute mark, and you're suddenly there, filling out until everything settles back into place, the same as what you'd seen at the start, just in reverse.
You go back to the beginning, and adjust the view so that you're looking down at the room as a cube from the corner that's currently your upper left. The video plays out, and this time it's even more nauseating, the geometries impossible and just not making sense. You clearly don't move an inch, and your knees are at the front edge of the seat and your butt at the back, and the wheelchair doesn't change, and you know you're still taking up the same volume and distance, but somehow you appear to get thinner and thinner, the distances shortening, your body flattening and sides becoming visible, back somehow expanding to match the rest, until you can't get any more thin and just disappear.
You look up from the holo, everybody else staring at you. "That was…"
"Yeah," Peter agrees. "Like someone combined Escher and Dalí and decided you'd be the perfect way to bring it to life."
Greeaaaaat.
"The parts with you appearing and disappearing are slowed down by about twenty-five times," Dr. Liang tells you. "The room automatically moves to a much, much higher sample rate when it notices activity, but that's far too slow to really see what's happening and is only really useful for very detailed analysis."
It looked like it took about seven and a half seconds. Point seven five over two point five is… zero point three. That all happened in point three seconds.
You go back to the video and alter the speed of the segment that the professor was talking about to real-time, and then watch, and oh my god that's even worse.
It happens so fast that you don't get anything other of an extremely disturbing sense of utter wrongness and impossibility before it's gone, leaving you no time to process it, the vision of you turning inside out burned into your mind and playing over and over. The suddenness is even more jarring and shocking than the drawn-out version, and it make the entire event all that much worse.
And you weren't even turning that fast!
Ugh.
You rub the heel of your right hand against your forehead.
"I was… turning," you tell them. "That's all I really know. I turned, and then nothing. And I… I wasn't ready for it. It was nothing. So I turned back."
"Having adverse reactions to your own Talent is rare, but it does happen," Dr. Liang tells you. "Sometimes the person even rejects it completely."
You shake your head. That's not it. What you experienced was extremely unnerving and scary, but it was the shock and that you were caught so off guard that really made it as absolutely terrifying as it was. Now that you knew what it was like, you felt like it might not be so bad. Like watching a scary movie the first time versus the second time.
Besides, you're here to learn your Talent. It may be disturbing and unnatural and absolutely terrifying, but it's yours. It's yours, and it's not some useless little Talent. You can go away in less than a second, and that's not a small thing.
"No," you say with finality. You're not running away from this.
…But you also really don't want to try anything with it again right now.
The professor sighs. "Well, the good news is that what you did wasn't dangerous. Honestly, it's probably one of the tamer things I've seen come out of a Talent, considering I specialize in abnormal expressions. You're not doing anything to your environment, or to the people around you, just something to yourself. Of course, we also weren't getting any readings from the sensor ring after you disappeared, but until you did there wasn't anything out of the ordinary."
You nod.
"Since this is your first time, you probably don't have a good enough feel of yourself to be able to gestalt with anything yet, much less a Generator, so we can't evaluate your channeling. Or energy production."
You're pretty sure you're okay with that. "Do you… do you have any idea what it is?" you ask her. She's a researcher, right? If anyone should have an idea, it's her.
Unfortunately, it seems not, because she shakes her head. "Not the specifics, no. I can say with almost a hundred-percent certainty that it's a Warping ability, though. It's the only class you find Talents that mess with space like that. But I've never seen or heard about anything like what you did." She smiles. "So even if this didn't turn as happy as we hoped, I suppose I should be thanking you, it's not every day I get to see something completely new, especially something that dramatic or exciting. I might actually look into it some more, if you don't mind?"
You shake your head.
"I'm guessing you wouldn't be up for trying anything else today, either?" she asks, but sounding like she already knows the answer, and not minding.
"Sorry," you apologize quietly. You had really hoped you'd be able to get a lot out of this, too, or at least a clearer picture than you did.
"No. It's not anybody's fault," she tells you. "Can't help what you can't control."
That's fair, you think, though you're still a bit disappointed even with the memories of that place fresh in your mind.
"C'mon. How about Nat and I take you two out for ice cream or something?" Peter offers. "The place here on campus should be open, even if it's limited hours today."
You can't help but perk up a little at that. This was supposed to be an adventure today, and it's not even been three hours! And you did learn about your Talent, even if it wasn't all that great an experience, but it's enough to help you pick your classes now!
You look at Angie, and she nods a little, so you turn back to facing the older people. "Okay!"
He smiles. "Nat?"
The older girl shrugs. "Sure, I'd be up for it."
"Alright then," he says and moves to walk around you, you turning to follow as he walks towards the exit door. You hear footsteps behind you, so the other two must be following you.
At the door, Peter stops and turns around. "Thank you for helping us Dr. Liang!"
Oh! You swivel around to face the professor, who's at the other end of the room. "Yeah! Thanks!" you yell.
She just waves you off. "Of course!" she calls across the open space.
Peter leads you out the heavy door and back down the hallways to the elevator you'd come from.
"So, um, you're a telepath?" you ask looking at Peter, the detail coming back to you suddenly. Was he reading your mind right now? It didn't feel like it. Back in the room you'd had a very distinct feeling of him reaching out to you, and you couldn't feel that at all.
Peter nods as he leads you out of the elevator and back into the building, heading in a different direction than you know. "Yep. I'm actually a bit of an oddity, because I'm unusually low on the generation/channeling scale for a T/T with the full set, just T-8," he says, taking you outside where it's just as beautiful as when you walked over.
"It's actually why I got into Talent Science. I wanted to learn more about why certain Talents seem to cluster, and why those clusters have a tendency towards certain regions of the G-C scale. Like telepaths are frequently only receiving or sending, but telekinetics who are also telepathic are disproportionately more likely to be able to both send and receive. Why does telepathy and generalized telekinesis seem to be so closely aligned, and why are so many of the strongest Talents are T/Ts and Elementals? Why are there so many more telekinetics and Elementals when it seems like it should be completely random?"
He shakes his head. "Maybe we'll even figure out where the heck the energy that's letting us do all of this is coming from and what lets us use it eventually," he says, and then blinks. "Ah, sorry. Didn't mean to get so technical."
It was… a bit over your head, to be honest. You can't really understand why someone would care so much about something like that. …But he seems happy?
"What are you guys interested in?" Nat asks.
"…I like reading," Angharad says. "It's like… going somewhere but not. …And I liked playing rugby, before I couldn't."
Could those things be any more different?
She looks down. "Explains why I was so good though," she mutters with a hint of frustration. "Knew it was too good to be true."
"Places!" you say, drawing everyone's attention to you and keeping Angie from getting too lost in her thoughts.
"…Places?" Nat repeats incredulously.
"Yep!" you confirm.
"Like traveling?" she asks.
You wobble your hand. "That counts, but also like, just exploring stuff and doing new things? Like this is."
"I can definitely see that," Peter says, laughing a little. "I don't think we've ever gotten the high school kids coming to the TSC on their own just for fun, especially before school's even started. We get some at the restaurants and dining spots on the weekends sometimes, but… never anything more than that, really."
Whaaaaaaat?
"But it's so cool over here!" There's so many buildings and so many places that probably have bunches of interesting things in them.
He laughs again. "Most of them are probably a bit intimidated. There are some freshman-senior relationships that keep dating and stuff, but yeah. We don't really see much of you guys, especially you freshmen," he says, leading you into a building.
The space you're in is pretty empty, there's only a couple other people, and at the far end is an open food-serving area and an actual ice cream place.
Oh you're so remembering this.
Peter leads the group over to the counter and you order, a guy coming out of the back room to serve you, and when you all have everything he and Peter go to the end of the counter to do something.
"Most of the campus dining stuff here is free, but places like this that are technically franchises aren't," Natalie says, noticing where you're looking, and then immediately continues when you freeze, eyes wide. "Don't feel guilty or anything. We actually have some pretty easy ways to get money—I've personally got licensed mod designs on the market—and there's not a ton to spend it on here. I know for a fact that Peter's more than happy to do this."
The young man in question comes back over to you, heading towards a table a bit to your right, and your group migrates that way to join him.
You all sit down, you taking your time to just enjoy the ice cream you got.
"So do you guys have any idea what you want to focus on in school?" Peter asks. "…Not that you have to. Jeez, I knew I had no idea what I wanted to do. But maybe you do?"
You turn to look at Angie, the other girl doing the exact same thing, before you both turn back to Peter and shake your heads.
He shrugs. "Worth a try, at least."
Nat looks at you two, resting her chin on an upturned palm. "How about we tell you about who's the best teachers then?" she offers, smirking.
The conversation turns into a series of stories from Peter and Natalie, what the school's like and roommates, teachers and craziness, and it sounds… fun.
It makes you feel less nervous about all of this. Better. If they could have that, then you can too.
And now… now you're actually kind of really looking forward to it all.
A/N: Sorry for the uh… month? of absence. I'm back. Writing the next segment (a little wandering + lunch), and that'll have the next vote in it.
Anyways, more Talent details, along with some decompression and ice cream therapy. Amy's feeling a bit better (both generally and her anxiety about school), though she's still a bit shaken by everything.