The adrenaline's completely gone. Your whole body is one big ache. You sit down and simply breathe for some time, great shuddering gulps that sting your throat on the way in and out.
"'s not fair," you mumble one more time. You rear back to punch the ground, but think better of it. Men of God don't throw tantrums when they don't get their way.
Eileen gingerly places a hand on your shoulder, snapping you out of your funk. You look up to see that she's got her mask off once again, every line on her kindly face stretched in concern.
"Are you alright?"
"Yeah," you say, working your way slowly back to your feet. "I'm alright. Was just hopin' there'd be someone left for me ta punish."
"It wouldn't have made you feel any better."
"Maybe for a little while, at least," you offer with a weak grin.
You stand there together, alone in the silence.
"I'm gonna bury 'em," you say. "They didn't deserve any o' this."
She nods. "I'll scout ahead. Would you like some help digging?"
"Nah; need some time ta clear my head anyway."
She turns on her heel and replaces her mask, strolling towards the doorway in the rear. You leap back into the Orphanage and survey the damage. The bodies are quickly losing their luster as oil and blood pools beneath them. The stems that once held the bulbs wither and brown before your eyes.
As you behold the dimming of the Orphanage's twisted beauty, you bring your hands together and pray. The simplest prayer, one that you've led so many children through in the past.
"Our Father who art in Heaven,
hallowed be thy name.
Thy kingdom come.
Thy will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven.
Give us this day our daily bread,
and forgive us our trespasses
as we forgive those who trespass against us.
And lead us not into temptation
but deliver us from evil. Amen."
You crack your neck and breathe one more "fuck" for the road before getting to work.
The dirt is soft, yielding easily to your fingers and your massive blade, serving as a makeshift trowel. You could, of course, have simply made some craters with your club and explosive bayonets, but some things are worth taking time for. You carefully drag the nearest body into its final resting place and reverently cover it in a layer of earth. Head bowed, you pray for them.
"LORD, please guard this soul, that was so cruelly used for unholy works. Let them be shepherded inta safety and love, that they may never know anymore pain."
You'll come back someday with real headstones. A bayonet will have to do for now. You move to the next one, carve out a berth, and bow your head. "LORD, please guard this soul..."
You fight the part of your mind that wants to slip away and let the routine take over. They all deserve your attention. Time slips away instead, and after however long, you wipe your forehead with grime-encrusted gloves. Haphazard furrows capped by bayonets line the room wall-to-wall beneath drying ichor. You're not terribly good at this, you admit to yourself for the hundredth time.
You've buried children before. It never gets easier.
You turn to see Eileen standing in the windowsill. You don't know how long she's been standing there.
"There's an elevator through that doorway. It's down there," she says without a trace of impatience. "I got out before it saw me, but it's down there."
You walk over to her on numb legs. Before she can speak again, you scoop her up and hug her as tightly as you can without breaking her. You squeeze your eyes shut and hold fast to the moment.
She rests her head on your shoulder and gently holds the back of your head until your breathing stabilizes again.
"Are you alright?" she whispers.
"Aye, I think so."
You let go and she takes a step back before putting on a rueful smile.
"What is it with you holy men trying to crush me tonight?"
"Can't exactly use Djura, can we? The man'd snap like a twig."
The two of you turn to face your destination. There's nothing left between you and Ebrietas but a short trip down.
Nowhere to go but forward.
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