[x] Trondason
The next week was far more relaxing than the previous one, given that you didn't have the shadow of such an important operation hanging over your head. But it was still a remarkably busy period, because you refused to waste time.
On the spirit of that, you decided to investigate the reason why you hadn't really felt tired even after a night full of work and with very little sleep. If things turned out the way you expected, it would give you even more time to use.
So you tested things out. One night you spent completely without sleep, trying to see what kinds of effects that would have on your health. And that was all that was necessary to show that you had indeed not become immune to sleep, because you spent the entire school day feeling like crap, and immediately went to take a nap after coming back home.
The next day, you decided to try and see if the previous event had been a fluke. You stayed up until four in the morning and woke up at six. And apparently that seemed to be enough. You spent the entire day doing things and failed to notice any abnormality caused by the lack of sleep.
Having an idea, you did the same thing as before, except that when it came time to sleep, you deliberately avoided doing any of the mental exercises that you had usually done out of routine. The difference was startling. While you wasn't as bad off as going on no sleep, that still really hindered your mental focus for the day.
For your next experiment, you spent some time during the night doing your mental exercises, but neglected to actually sleep. That ended up being even worse, though it still wasn't as bad as going awake without doing anything.
From your experiments, you came to the conclusion that sleep had both physical and psychological functions. The latter you could compensate by using your mental techniques, but not the former. With that said, you decided to test whether meditation could have an effect, given how much you were focusing on it during the weak.
The answer was... Kind off. You could use meditation as a substitute for sleep, but you couldn't do anything else with the meditation while doing so, and it wasn't any more efficient than normal sleep. It could be useful if you were sleeping in a dangerous place and didn't want to get your guard down, but otherwise, it was pretty much the same as normal sleep.
With this, you would have extra time for your projects every week (you intended to keep checking yourself to see if there were long term effects, just in case) but you also got something else from that:
Mental Discipline Level 9
- The skill to maximize the potential of your mind. At this level, you can memorize things with no effort, and sort information into distinct groups for easy access.
Besides that, you were also training meditation, hoping to master it soon. It was both better and worse than your sleep experiments. It was better because you never had to deal with painful results such as the sleep deprivation, but it was worse because progress was a lot slower and more erratic.
It couldn't be helped, since you were trying to reach mastery in something that other people would devote their entire lives with trying to pursue without even reaching where you're currently at (and isn't it amazing that you once thought of your power as something quaint?), but you had even used your self-hypnosis to make things easier, and even then your progress proceeded at a snail's pace.
Usually your training worked in fits and starts, as you slowly looked for the best ways to advance from your current level. However, Meditation was a bit different. It was simply far too broad for specific methods to help more than just a bit, and that resulted in your experience progressing just a little bit more every time, regardless of the methods you used.
Still, you persevered through all of that, deciding to try meditation in movement, mostly katas, since it would be a way to increase the intensity of the training while also making it less bothersome.
Meditation was all about seeking your inner self, but you thought about your use of self-hypnosis and wondered what such a thing could be, what truly is someone's inner self. Over the course of your meditation you had recognized your two biggest obsessions: Your fascination with obtaining control and your hunger for improvement, the two things that had driven you to your recent actions, which would seem unthinkable to anyone who didn't understand them.
However, simply focusing on those things wasn't enough. Eventually you moved on to other aspects of yourself, your likes, your relationships... Everything that you could consider as part of your essence.
All of that gave experience to the skill, but you never actually found something that could truly be called the core of yourself.
And that, as you deduced, was precisely the point.
There wasn't such a thing as a core, an absolute inner self of a person. Everyone was composed of a multifaceted mix of desires, influences, biases and all those sorts of things. The question wasn't finding one's own true self, but understanding how much each part of you influenced your thoughts and decisions. That was the meaning of knowing yourself.
Meditation Level 20
- The skill to reach inside yourself and obtain a better understanding of your own mind and behavior. At this level, meditation is not any more thought intensive than simple rest, and your level of self-knowledge has attained the point of mastery.
You have obtained: The Shard of Self.
- By seeing the self as multifaceted, you can now recognize the Gamer ability as something both from within and without yourself. This realization will be important for your future path.
What you got from reaching level 20 wasn't as straightforward as the other skills you mastered, but you could tell that it could possibly be even better than the others. The mastery specially, considering that it was the first time your ability referred to itself.
You were itching to explore your new gains, but you simply did not have the time. It was already late saturday, and it was almost time to go to the gang meeting.
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A.N: This was taking too long, so I decided to split the chapter in two so you didn't have to wait so much. Part 2 will come faster, together with the choices.