I have been thinking. I thought I could walk off this thread into a normal life...but here I am, surrounded by death, arguing philosophy with death gang members. I told myself that my choices were about Synergy, protecting Hunger...but I was wrong.
I learned that trying to kill Gisena felt good, really good. The story and picks after "A Wind full of Knives"...they helped me forget the devil inside, but who am I kidding. I hate Gisena, I was born to vote to kill her. The bit about being rational and calculating? I guess I needed something to keep the Ripper in check while I was knee deep in vote debates.
But this week has been a wake-up call to what I really believe - Gisena must die.
[X] Hold the Line