Chapter 3.1.1
An absolute whirlwind of emotions.
That's what the last week had been.
I had been on a tiny rocky island surrounded by ocean. Determination had come first, the instinct to get my bearings, to figure out my location and survival.
So while calmly putting my prizes into the filthy sack and the last IV drip into my weapons pouch, I concentrated on the retreating figure as keenly as possible.
He had been fast, very fast even, but I had no intention of catching up. I had just wanted a direction and so I had followed at a pace, that wouldn't have jumbled the mess that had been my chakra but had allowed me to keep track of the white-haired bastard for as long as possible.
A calm but single-minded pursuit had led to a coast, which had been covered as far as the eye could see with dense, lush green forest. The scenery had been so pleasant in fact, that I had decided to abort my chase of the slowly but surely disappearing figure in favor of some foraging. In no time at all, I had a bunch of berries and a stream where I had drunk my fill and had given myself and my clothes a thorough and long overdue cleansing.
Feeling fresh and with the situation under something that had vaguely resembled control, relief had begun to worm its way next to my determination.
So with a spring in my step, I had resumed my walk in the general direction of the cunt, which quickly had turned out to be north.
More importantly, however, onto a road that according to the signs would have led to the Modoroki Shrine, which I had luckily remembered from ANBU 101 was in the Land of Tea, more precisely on Nagi Island.
And quite suddenly anticipation had begun to weasel itself between my determination and relief. From there on out, it truly had become a walk home.
Sadly it had been a long walk, seven days to be precise, because I hadn't dared to push myself when I had, and still was, constantly feeling the snake bastard's shit rippling through my chakra pathways.
A single quiet moment on the road and my focus inwards had been more than enough for my mood to take a sharp turn for the worse.
Seven days on the road, seven days of hesitating, seven days of simply stopping in the middle of nowhere to stare at nothing.
Since stealing some poor farmer's laundry, which had fluttered enticingly out in the wind on a line to dry, and giving myself a buzzcut using my palm and careful application of wind chakra, since then I had been cruelly left alone with my thoughts and a filthy sack containing the heads of my former comrades.
A million threads that dipped into the past, the present, and the future had left me dizzy and had led to more than one existential crisis while I had drudged along.
A decade of being Daiki Ito, a decade of this madness, a madness that I somehow excelled at, and I was more than certain by now that everything else that I had been once was simply gone.
Nothing more than an unreachable haze that had slipped through my fingers and left me with an unexplainable hole.
As disconcerting as this multiversal dementia felt, I couldn't help but admit, that it gave me a weird sense of freedom. The chance to simply go with the flow.
During one of the countless moments of contemplation on the road, there had been this tiny moment when I had thought about just turning around and leaving. Just drop everything and make myself comfortable in a small corner down in the southern Land of Water, enjoying the sun, the ocean, and the tranquility.
That moment, perhaps thankfully, had been quickly dashed by the smell of the sack dangling from my fingers and the memories it carried with it.
Since then something novel had fueled me, all the way to the present.
Simple, unadulterated anger had quickened my steps and had etched a vicious snarl onto my face, that had been with me for the remainder of the trip.
For the very first time, my and Konoha's interests were wholly in line.
Orochimaru had to go. Simple as that.
I had been good at killing.
Now I was determined to become fucking great at it.
"Drop the sack and extend your fingers above your head where we can see them!"
Doing as I was told, I breathed a tiny sigh of relief simply because I had decided to wait at Konoha's perimeter for an ANBU patrol to stumble over me instead of going with my initial idea of waltzing through the gates to just get this ordeal over with.
Things probably would have gotten a bit awkw...
"Sanzo Yukimaru, state your business now! Any and all resistance will be met with force!" the young captain of this particular squad shouted from my blindspot.
'Wait, what?' my eyes widened a fraction, and my tired and sluggish mind sharpened at the unexpected turn.
I pursed my lips at my own stupidity and the fact that I just now was sensing the tenseness in the whole squad.
Shrugging off the last of my mental cobwebs I swallowed minutely one last time and finally responded.
"012301 returning from mission; requesting an immediate briefing with the commander," I stated straight-backed and in a clear voice.
I sensed confusion and a pause roll through the entire squad, the edge however was still there, too.
A couple of tongue clicks by the captain directed at another ANBU to my right were easily understood by me, too, so I was unsurprised when the man in question stepped forward and spilled out the contents of my burlap sack.
Given the pungent smell, the sight was simply confirmation of the nature of its content. It was, however, also enough for the captain to dispatch one of his men to follow my request and alert the village command.
Watching the lone ANBU disappear among the foliage I felt the first hints of something akin to calm wash over me.
Whatever happened now was out of my hands. I was going to spill the beans regarding my potentially colossal fuck-up to whoever they wanted me to, and then, then, who knew.
"So...," I began after a solid minute of absolutely nothing with my fingers still spread above my head and the ANBUs remaining on guard around me.
"Anything new from the Icha-Icha series?" I asked, not at all embarrassed and beyond caring by now, "Last thing I read was Violence, which I thought was great."
The silence dragged on until...
"I heard they are making a movie," a lone female voice suddenly answered quietly from my left, and to my immense amusement, I sensed her colleagues shift minutely in her direction.
Perhaps feeling the stares of her teammates she continued a tad defensively.
"What? It's great dialog and worldbuilding!"
"Couldn't agree more." I happily supported the ANBU lady.
It was good to be back.
"I'll take him from here," a male voice said from somewhere in front of me, while I slowly began to regret my decision not to settle down at a beach in southern Water Country.
"Hai," that must have been the leader of the ANBU squad I've been transferred to by the patrol squad. The squad of cunts, that had slapped a seal on my forehead and hands and put a fucking sack over my head.
The final insult to injury was that I had been carried on someone's shoulder like some fucking hunting trophy until we reached the entrance of whatever this building was.
Torture and Interrogation, ANBU headquarters, or already prison, who knew?
Feeling the cloth over my head shift, I quickly hid my scowl just in time for the veil to be finally lifted and to meet the unreadable gaze of our resident jonin commander Shikaku Nara.
'Well?'
I stared back, waiting for him to set the tone of whatever this was going to be.
Taking a peak out of the corners of my eyes, I noted the clean wood floor and the dark green walls of this particular hallway and couldn't help but come up short. I didn't recognize any of this.
After what felt like an eternity, the Nara patriarch shifted and motioned toward a door behind him. "Follow me, Hokage-sama, and the council waits," he said nonchalantly and I dimly felt my eyes widen and stand straighter.
Seeing my reaction, I watched him quirk an eyebrow.
"You are a Konoha shinobi involved in an international incident that greatly destabilized a major village. Given the subsequent events, and the fact that you stand accused of being a major factor in league with a notorious mercenary group, we felt it prudent to handle this situation with the proper...severity."
"Yeah," I pursed my lips. When you put it like that, "that is totally understandable."
"Isn't it?" he agreed drily before stepping through the double doors with me in his wake.
Space for a couple of dozen people, followed by a big sturdy judge's bench, and there they sat, Konoha's executive and judicial power.
A lazy nod, which seemed to qualify as a bow, and Shikaku stepped a few feet to the side, obviously granting me the center stage.
A proper bow on my part and the show was on.
"Daiki Ito, welcome back," The Third Hogake greeted me in a somewhat friendly, borderline businesslike manner, "although your return is overshadowed by turmoil and questions we wish to give you the benefit of the doubt in light of your past services."
"Please give us a detailed report of your actions since your last missive from roughly three and a half months ago, I believe." He finished and gave a sideglance towards Elder Utatane to his right, seemingly looking for confirmation.
Which obviously was all for show. It wouldn't surprise me if the four adults in the room had memorized every single report that I had sent over the last two years just for this moment.
The grey-haired lady nodded minutely, "Indeed, your last report stated you had been en route to engage with Zabuza Mamochi and his entourage."
"Since this is a rather lengthy timeframe, you have permission to speak freely," allowed the Third Hokage and gave a little motion with his hand, which quite obviously was my cue to get going and finally explain just what the fuck happened.
"Well," I began after a mental shrug, "my team, Unmo, Chōjūrō, and I caught up with Zabuza in north-western Water Country rather quickly after they had harassed some locals for supplies and some deliberate use of my sensing."
"Deliberate?"
"Yeah, I had never revealed the true extent of my sensing capabilities to anyone," I answered unbothered by the interruption coming from Shikaku and managed to stay in the flow. "As I was saying, we caught up, or rather Zabuza and his team had decided to wait and engage with us when they had sensed our coming."
"Zabuza front and center in a little clearing; Gozu, Meizu, and Haku scattered in the surrounding foliage."
"Unmo had decided to lead with a pretty lackluster attempt at recruiting which had been dismissed by Zabuza rather quickly and bluntly. Stating, that he would rather, and I quote, fancy his chance on his own."
Remembering where this particular story was heading, I decided to pause for a second and give a little disclaimer to my audience.
"Uhm, after two years of living in a cave and being a glorified bandit in a conflict that wasn't my own, well, I guess you could say I had been rather cranky at the time." I paused a second time and only received slightly raised eyebrows at my sheepish undertone.
"To put it bluntly, I laughed at his declaration; told him he wasn't the biggest fish around; that he was an asshole with the personality of a puddle, and that he had practically zero chances to do anything."
That got a cough from Shikaku. I ignored him in favor of getting this particular episode over and done with.
"I told him he was denying his student a proper life and himself the chance to be a someone in a village where he had a voice and where people with a bloodline could be safe."
"Bloodline?" Elder Mitokado perked up at that.
"Haku was of the Yuki Clan. He had been able to use Ice-release."
"Had?" again Elder Mitokado.
"Dead, we will come to that later. He died during 'the incident'." I answered, mindful of spoilers. Didn't want to ruin the grand finale, now did I?
"So, after insulting Zabuza I threatened to kill his student."
"You what?"
Maybe it was my blasé attitude or my blunt disregard for human life, but my little declaration somehow got a reaction out of Sarutobi-sama.
Now slightly unsure if I was, perhaps, losing my audience, I hesitated for a split second only to decide to remain in the same lane. No risk, no fun.
"I had my team between him and myself, and his student directly in my sights. Plus, I was confident that I could get away." I answered, immensely glad, that I didn't shrug.
"Zabuza made this whole spiel about not caring; I told him I could sense that he was lying, and I made certain that he understood, that I was not bluffing."
"Tense stand-off; I told him last chance; Awkward silence; He laughed, and then he decided to join under the condition, that I was going to be part of his team."
"Fast forward, Zabuza is the team leader of Chōjūrō, Haku, and I, which was as fun as it sounds," I said drily, remembering the harsh taskmaster asshole. "Still, it was quickly made clear that Chōjūrō with Hiramekarei and I with Raiga would be groomed to be part of a new set of Swordsmen of the Mist."
"Of the rebels outside the village, I reckon, I had been as close to the inner circle as I could have been due to my age. I had access to all the high-profile individuals, unrestricted access to the headquarter, and various other minor hide-outs I had detailed in my last report." I rattled off what I considered successes and shook my head in exasperation.
I exceeded expectations, goddammit!
"I had the trust of Ao, Zabuza, and Mei Terumi, for crying out loud," I vented, getting increasingly annoyed at the snake bastard for ruining my winning streak. "And then Mangetsu Hozuki got killed, poisoned to be precise. His brother Suigetsu, also regarded as a prodigy and skilled in their clan's secret technique, as well as his sword Nuibari went missing."
"It was a big deal, to say the least," I resumed my verbal report to my stone-faced audience, and reminded myself to keep a lid on my anger knowing full well what was to come. "My team had been ordered to meet up with Unmo and his team, now consisting of the Demon Brothers, near the village, while Ao's three-man ANBU squad had been dispatched beforehand."
"The situation had been deemed grave enough for Mei to meet with us outside the village, and give us the news in person."
I paused and glanced at Shikaku Nara, who had been standing idly by, content to keep quiet. For quite some time now there hadn't been any questions, and slowly I began to wonder what exactly they hadn't known so far. My bag of presents surely had enough clues for the people currently present.
A lone sigh escaped me unwittingly.
'I wonder how Terumi-sama is doing.'
...there he was! And what's the first thing he did?" I asked exasperated. I saw everybody's interest spike noticeably now that we were in the meat of the story. "He looked straight at me, and told me that I was special after all. Oh, and the asshole revealed my name!" I added slightly pissy.
I was agitated despite my best efforts, but I still noticed the various exchanged looks. Luckily they were still refraining from commenting, as I wasn't sure if I should reveal that one nightly visit of the Sannin and Danzo-sama all those years ago. That was a can of worms I didn't even want to be near.
Better to roll right on and give them stuff so they could come to their own conclusions without needling me.
"The shock in my squad hadn't even settled when his gaze had turned to Haku. He had referred to him as a 'special specimen'." I said in disgust and could clearly see hints of shame in Hokage-sama's frown.
"Then," I paused, searching for the right words while fighting the hollowness that was opening in the pit of my stomach.
"What happened then?" Apparently, my pause had grown stagnant enough for Shikaku to feel the need to push me along.
I did what I thought was right!
Didn't I?
I imagined myself standing straight and professionally. I wasn't sure I was succeeding.
"The second the last word had left Orochimaru's lips, I turned and beheaded Haku while extracting myself from the group," I stated emotionlessly, willfully ignoring the eery stillness I carried on. "A move that had seemed to have surprised even Orochimaru as he then had praised me as one of Danzo-sama's finest."
"Explain your reasoning!"
My gaze fell on the Third. With the seal on my forehead blocking my sensing, and with his hands steepled in front of his face, it was beyond impossible to get a read on him.
"Given the environment and our survival chances, I considered it mercy, instant and painless. I also wanted to deny an enemy of Konoha whatever he wanted," I answered dispassionately, clinging to the explanation, that had kept me sane. Or saner, I guessed.
My eyes were on my motionless leader, but in my peripheral I saw the two elders nod minutely.
"I...see."
...after a short clash, I landed the killing blow and prepared myself..."
"You killed Unmo Samidare in single combat?" Shikaku Nara questioned from the sidelines, forcing me to pause my little story.
If he was someone lesser, I imagine, I would have heard a hint of disbelief.
I met his gaze, which had gained a certain weight. As if I just handed him a puzzle piece he hadn't expected, a piece that seemed to give hints at something more.
"You killed a highly capable Jonin, noted to be particularly gifted in ken-jutsu, in close-quarter single combat?"
In any other situation, I would have blushed, but I was starting to get tired, and annoyance was beginning to seep through minuscule cracks.
"How?"
I blinked and turned back towards the Third.
He wasn't going to like it.
"Using words and Gen-jutsu I tormented him with the death of his old Genin-squad until he snapped," I told him plainly, no shame, it was him or me, and Konoha's interests were at stake. "Then I used my Bunshin variation he hadn't known about and slid his throat."
Silence.
Heavy Silence.
"Danzo!" The name was spoken quietly but still clearly audible. "What have you thought these children?"
"Nothing of the sort, that's all him," a grave voice spoke from my left, and I was surprised, that I was even surprised, because around a pillar stepped Danzo Shimura.
"Don't lie to me!"
"We are not children, Hiruzen," Danzo replied seemingly unbothered by the Third's anger, and kept his gaze squarely on me. "He is an exceptional killer all on his own, you have read Yūhi's reports, too."
Now all eyes were back on me, and I felt them! Were they judging me, pitying me? Was I another Itachi, or worse, another Orochimaru in their eyes?
Milliseconds felt like minutes, and my gaze shifted from left to right.
Did they think I was some damaged goods?!
Fuck them!
"I did my fucking job!" I didn't snarl, but my tone was biting.
"I killed teammates, I killed teachers, people I had to spend months, even years with, almost every waking hour."
"Chōjūrō, someone my age, someone I might have considered a friend, someone truly good, someone who gave his all for things 90 percent of this fucking village take for granted!" This time I did snarl, picturing the lazy fucks that littered this goddamn village. "I was splattered with his brain after I punched his head clean off his shoulders!"
"Just so not a single word of Konoha's involvement would reach anybody's ears."
"I didn't want to be good at killing, but I will do it over and over again, because this place will remain safe for the people I actually..."
Suddenly my entire body locked up, breathing, even blinking impossible!
Stopped cold in the midst of my furious tirade, I could only helplessly watch as inky black lines glowed and raised down all the way to my raised hand.