Chapter 69: Sharing The Burden
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Chapter 69: Sharing The Burden
Walking into the kitchen for breakfast makes me freeze in confusion. Dennis is sipping a cup of oil heated up as if it's coffee and Darla has done the same with the sheep blood. But it takes me more than a handful of seconds to recognize Angel with her adjusted look.
My eyes are locked onto now raven black hair before they roam onto the complete lack of colour in her wardrobe. Gone is any of the red that made her fit in with her new friends at the Sunset Club, replaced with a full commitment to the goth look.
It takes me a few seconds to get my mouth in motion and the croaky voice reveals how little sleep I got. "... New look?"
"Can't play pretend anymore." Angel's grim words are accompanied by a face filled with self disgust. "Better if I'm just honest with myself about how terrible the world is." That explains the new style.
I'm not sure exactly what happened to her in the show's timeline. But I know she was supposed to end up a lot happier than this. Just one more person I made things worse for.
"Jonathon and Marcie finally smartened up. I wouldn't blame you for wanting to leave too." Mary would probably let you stay with her.
Of course I just blurt the words out without any real thought and mistake the expression of terror on Angel's face for fear of staying. "You could have gone back to a normal life and I never even asked what you wanted."
"You don't want me to stay?" Buried under miles of my own grief, I miss the very obvious hurt in her voice.
"Not really." I want you to have a long and happy life, something people aren't going to get around me and my stupid ideas.
A gasp escapes Angel as she tries blinking away tears I once again misconstrue as ones of relief. "... Oh."
The only sound in the now deathly quiet kitchen comes when the microwave beeps. Darla ignores our tense mood to retrieve her warmed mug and only says something after draining most of it in a single gulp.
"You do know how that sounded, right?" The vampire's emerald eyes shine with sympathy as they settle on the teen beside her.
Scowling at her, I have no problem hissing out my growing self hatred. "Like I'm a trouble magnet and she's safer anywhere I'm not."
"Uh..." Dennis starts to speak only to hesitate when three sets of intense eyes swivel towards him. "That's not really what I heard."
"It sounded more like you just don't want me around." Voicing her own fears makes me turn to see Angel's tear streaked face.
Guilt surges through me. "Well that's because I don't think before I open my mouth sometimes."
"Really?" The way her voice is shaking clearly shows me this is a make or break moment in our relationship.
"I'm terrified of losing any of you." I know how ironic this sounds. "That's why I don't want you anywhere near me."
A cough behind me is followed by Fred's snort of frustration. "Well that's just stupid. You've given us all plenty of chances to walk away and we keep rejecting them."
"When are you going to let us help?" Angel loses the shakiness in her voice and replaces it with some of Fred's borrowed willpower.
"You're right." As hard as it is to admit it, I need help. "So does anyone have any ideas for dealing with our problem?"
It shocks me when Darla turns out to be the first one with a suggestion. "Whatever you do, better get started before Xander spills everything to the Master. Luke and Colin will be coming after you in force once he spills his guts."
"My plan A was to make a robot blow up in the Master's face..." Glancing over at Dennis guiltily, I make it clear the plan has changed. "But that was before I knew how you worked. Isn't really going to work now."
"What was plan B?" Fred starts loading her plate with french toast that I know is about to be drowned in syrup.
I know she's not going to like my answer and it comes out barely above a squeak. "... Use the lightning gauntlet."
"The one that doesn't ever come off?" She doesn't even look at me when she asks, just lets the disappointed tone do all the work.
Lowering my eyes in shame, I see no reason to keep my plans quiet anymore. "Jenny's already working on that part for me."
"And how's it coming?" Fred finally turns her scowl onto me directly.
Letting out a tired sigh, I reveal the many failures. "... Terribly."
"You need to thin the ranks first, if you're really dumb enough to attack the Master that is." Grim faced but with eyes full of hatred directed at someone besides me, Darla keeps giving out the good ideas. "Best if you start with Fork and then take out the Three. That would leave you with mostly minions in the lair."
She fills us in on the amputee vampire and his current lack of favour before moving on to details of the trio of warriors. Eventually filling us in on Luke and her most likely replacement Colin, Darla seems even more invested in this than I am.
"Once his capable help has been cut off, we can attack right after sunset." Eager to pay back the one truly responsible for her cursed existence, Darla is practically vibrating. "Feeding time is when he has the least protection and your only chance."
"I'll have Willow and Warren help me make some combat modifications to Dennis." Fred's eyes narrow in thought as her mind races with possibilities. "Hope you don't mind plugging your nose."
Not sure what she has planned, I never the less commit to whatever it is. "I'll pick up some swim masks just to be safe."
Once we have the beginnings of a plan, Darla frowns as a stray thought hits her. "Did you warn Xander's parents?"
"Nope." And I really don't plan on it, not with what I know of them.
"What about telling his friends that he would probably come for them as soon as he rises?" Shit!
Worry makes me surge to my feet. "How long does that usually take?"
"Sunset the next day. Which means last night is the earliest the demon could have risen." Her words chill me as I hand Angel the phone, asking her to call Willow to avoid any awkwardness with parents who may or may not be home.
When the phone rings for the first time and I don't hear a voice on the other side, my heart starts to plummet. It picks up speed when the second ring is just as unanswered. But it turns into a skydive when the third ring sounds.