that's a thing?
I'm not up to date on NGE-Fanfics, so its like I missed that one.
Is it form one or more Fics?
It's just wordplay. TsundeRei sounds the same as tsundere.
Now...BONUS UPDATE.
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Rei Ayanami resisted the urge to tighten her grip even further. "Your juvenile rambling will do you no good here."
"...and this is why I call you 'Ayanami-san'," admitted Kaworu. "You're the only one who's ever looked at me with murder in your eyes. Sure, some are driven to annoyance by my mannerisms; a few actually hated me in truth...but none have ever gazed at me with such deathly intent."
Rei resisted the urge to make good on that look her eyes possessed, because there was still that niggling bit of doubt in the back of her mind. (
What if I'm wrong?) Caution gained a brief foothold against protective anger. "Why did you knock out Ikari-kun?"
"I invited him to a voluntary Boxing Club session, and Captain Sanada wanted to test his strength. I offered Shinji-kun the first punch, and I countered out of pure reflex. A blow to chin, and he was out cold."
"...so it was-"
"An accident, yes."
Rei tried not to let her features contort into a mulish expression. "...I see." Still, since she had the opportunity...now was the time to try and make at least one gain, to get at least
something out of this. "...does the name 'Tabris' mean anything to you?"
The boy's face went still, even as his lips contorted to a bitter smile. "Tabris...an old name. A hated name. The name of one who is now a castaway. Free Will, rejected in favor of Wrath and Retribution."
So he remembers. Slowly, delicately, she released her hold on him, letting him down onto the ground. "My apologies, Nagisa. At this stage...I can't afford any mistakes."
Kaworu rubbed at his throat, still maintaining that bitter smile. "A fair enough statement. Though, for those who don't
know you, your behavior would seem awfully...interesting. And you would prefer
not to be interesting, wouldn't you? After all...such effort only signifies the truth of who Shinji-kun truly
is."
(...that was a fair point for him to make.) "There is also the manner by which you appear...to a certain sense. Your soul is familiar, but the mind-"
He answered before she could finish. "A consequence of how I have manifested myself, this time around. A consequence of the
rules that govern the workings of this particular world." His smile became slightly more genial: losing the character of an old and frustrated soul, gaining that of one who was seeing an old friend. "You have no fear of any harm coming from yours truly."
Finally, Rei allowed herself to relax. "...sometimes, I cannot be certain as to who is friend and who is foe. The variables can be...vexing."
"A desire for more constants: I can empathize with that."
"So...can I count on you as an ally? Your power would be useful."
Kaworu shook his head. "There were many consequences to Tabris's departure. To summarize a long and sordid story, let's just say that I would be...
ill-suited, to help you in the battles you have chosen."
"...I see."
Her Other sighed.
"How unfortunate. He would have been useful."
The Beast shivered in the cold.
"Yet one more card denied...what else is new...?"
Nagisa quietly leaned against the wall, his red eyes gleaming with untold knowledge. "In fact, I would advise that it would be best to not associate with me, going forward...at least, in so intimate a manner."
"Why do you speak with such innuendo? It only serves to make your life more difficult."
Kaworu's smile morphed into the grin of one who was in on the joke. "Why not?" And that was all he had to say.
"...I see."
"But still, heed my advice: after all, you have no idea who could be listening...or watching."
That was very true. Now that she had more or less gotten what she wanted, it was time to depart. "A shame, Nagisa. It would have been...nostalgic...to have you fight by our side."
"I'm sure," he said, gazing away. Gazing on a vector towards the unseen moon. "You should know that even if Free Will is gone, that does not mean that my kin lack agency. Even if their destination is now set in stone, they still have some leeway on the path that they take...after all, it is no small thing for
Him to be reduced to such a state where even freedom seems meaningless."
Rei instantly knew that he was referring to the long-suffering ADAM. "I...would prefer not to imagine."
"It is a sign, one of many: however many times we have suffered before...it is
this time wherein shall be the culmination of all our destinies...for good, or ill. Be mindful of that...
Rei-chan."
"...that sounds odd, hearing it from 'this' you."
"I suppose it does."
"One last question." To sate her curiosity (to be a balm on her fear), more than anything else. "Knowing the circumstances...if you are unwilling or unable to assist, then why then do you still persist in getting close to Ikari-kun?"
The smile fell, as Nagisa's expression became uncharacteristically serious. "The minds of lilim...sorry,
humans...can be so base, no matter how long it's been. I am not blind nor deaf to what others say; yet, I will act as I will, until we attain the consummation of all things. To put it very bluntly...Shinji Ikari gives my existence
meaning. Nothing more, and nothing less."
"...in that, you and I are still alike," she admitted, a rare smile coming to her face. "...fare thee well, Kaworu Nagisa. Maybe...once all this is over-"
"Let's not make any plans
now. After all, as students are so fond of saying, you might jinx it." He smiled. "It would be best if you leave the way you came; it would be quite scandalous if you were seen leaving through the halls, or jumping out of my window...unless you
want to be the subject of licentious gossip, for a change?"
"Good
bye, Kaworu-kun." With those words said, Rei Ayanami shifted away, departing through the familiar grayscale that few could see or access; though her melancholy still remained (would
always remain), her heart was noticeably lighter than it had been mere minutes ago.
She would take whatever she could get.
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Kaworu Nagisa sighed as Ayanami vanished from sight and sense. "Well...
that was certainly something." He slowly walked over towards his desk, reaching for the familiar stress ball. Squeeze. Squeeze. Squeeze. "Yes...something..." Squeeze. Squeeze. Squeeze. The limitations of mortal flesh could be incredibly tiresome at times, regardless of the advantages that came with it. Still...at least Rei Ayanami (nay,
Lilith) had departed in a better mood.
Squeeze.
...the spirit is willing, but this flesh is so very weak...
Squeeze.
It took about thirty minutes before he finally stopped.