Chapter 12: Downtime
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Chapter 12: Downtime
Since the Japanese attack things had been pedal to the metal for a week. Between two sorties, and figuring out our new forms, we'd barely had a moment of calm. The return to something resembling a routine was a relief. But even so, more surprises were in store.
DECEMBER 21 1941
1010 HOURS
So. Hi. I have no idea what I'm doing. Wales makes this look so easy. Anyway! Hello, I'm Repulse, and I will be your writer for today at Wales' behest.
Where to start? Ah, I know. While Wales was trapped in the baths some things had been unfolding. After the debrief the admiral had brought in a couple of boffins. For the next three hours they'd grilled me for anything about the future. I hadn't been able to offer much about future events. I didn't remember much. I'd been young during the first time around, and I'd never been much of a student of history.
What I did have was an understanding of most naval weapons systems. I'd been a Weapons Tech in the Royal Navy from the mid-fifties to the early eighties. I'd worked on nearly every weapon we'd had in service during that time.
The first thing I'd provided them from memory was a blueprint for the Exocet ASM. I didn't expect it would change things much. They'd have no problem manufacturing a rocket and warhead. But I'd been a tech, not an engineer. I couldn't provide a detailed blueprint for the miniature guidance radar, and the radars of the time were too big and fragile. I doubted we'd see any before the end of the war.
The same went for the acoustic torpedoes. I didn't have a good enough understanding of the guidance system to allow them to recreate it.
What I did expect to see entering service before the end of the war were two gun systems I had spent the majority of my time maintaining. At the end of the day, all guns are purely mechanical, and while they'd likely be expensive to make, both gun systems were easily possible to build with 1940's technology.
I couldn't help but salivate at the prospect of being refit with M61 Vulcans and having my secondaries replaced with the rapid firing magazine-fed 4.5-inch Mark 8s. Being able to spit thousands of rounds into the air would go a long way to making sure I wouldn't get sunk a second time. I'd had an excellent understanding of both weapons, and so been able to draw relatively good diagrams and documentation. I didn't expect it would be easy, or that we would see either weapon before the end of the war, but I could hope.
I had two days with the boffins before they were evacuated. With any luck, they and their notes would make it back to Britain, and the engineers could get to work.
The next five days were relaxing. I had time off and only had to spend an hour a day with the boffins. It was a day before Wales got out of the baths that I was summoned to meet the Admiral.
I was wearing my whites when I stepped into the situation room that morning. I paused as I realized the Admiral's entire staff was in the room. Admiral Spooner himself was at the head of the map table, and Captain Tennant was beside him.
"You wanted to see me, sir?" I asked with a salute.
He returned the salute, "You're the last one Lieutenant Commander. Let's get started." He nodded to one of the officers at the table.
The young Lieutenant cleared his throat, "Sir. As far as we can tell, last evening, coincidentally just before Force Z left port, one of the ship spirits activated, that is, made visible, a Merchant vessel. This nelly activated spirit then did the same for others, and so on. As of this morning nearly every single vessel in the Singapore area that has a spirit has been activated."
There was surprised murmuring around the table. I let out a surprised whistle, "Shite."
"Gentlemen...And Lady." Spoke Admiral Spooner, "We are going to lose Singapore. It will take time, but it is inevitable. We cannot, under any circumstances, let the Japanese get their hands on activated ship spirits. At the same time, we need to inform the civilian population so they don't panic. The secret is out. I need suggestions. What do we do?"
One of the staff officers spoke up, "How small can a boat get and still have a spirit?"
I had an answer to that, "Twenty tons or five crew."
I could see the collective grimace around the table. The same officer rubbed his chin,
"That covers a lot of vessels."
"Don't they have to willingly activate new ones?" Another interjected.
Another fired back, "And what is to stop the Nips from forcing them?"
I furrowed my brows at him, "How?"
He just shrugged, "Death threats. Torture. They're Nips."
I wanted to retort, but he wasn't wrong. Us warships seemed to come built tough as nails. We'd yell, we'd cry, but I'd never heard of a ship spirit breaking. Even the destroyers, despite their young appearance, were some of the toughest, most willful people I'd ever met.
But Merchant ships? If we were born and bred soldiers, then they were civilians. Diverse, capable, and very good at what they did, but completely useless the moment violence reared its ugly head. Sure, some of them would keep a clear head. Some of them were extremely tough. But some of them I could see completely and utterly breaking under interrogation. Off the top of my head, I knew at least two merchants that would do whatever they were told if threatened with harm.
Another officer spoke up, "We could have them scuttled once the Japs come by."
I just glared at him, "No! We are nae jus' executing them in cold blood because they're inconvenient!"
I stood there huffing in anger for a moment. I met the eyes of everyone in the room. What stood out to me was the fear I could see on everyone's faces, barring the Admiral and my former Captain. That took the wind out of my anger. They were terrified of me.
It took me a moment to realise why: I could tear a man apart with my bare hands. The Admiral and my Captain actually knew me, and that I'd never do so without just cause. To the others though, I was an absurdly powerful person. And if that wasn't enough for them, I was a 'fragile and delicate' woman. As far as they were concerned, I could snap at any time and go ballistic.
I visibly calmed myself and spoke, "What else do we have?"
Everyone recomposed themselves, though I still received some weary looks. The Intelligence Lieutenant who had originally delivered the brief cleared his throat, "Perhaps we could keep it quiet? We could make it clear to the crews and spirits themselves that they have to keep this from the Japanese. Have them pass off the spirits as family members. We'll have to instruct the media censors to prohibit any publications on the subject, keep it an open secret. If it's purely word of mouth they may not learn of it. Japanese Intelligence is woefully inadequate."
Captain Tennant shook his head, "We assumed the same about their navy and aircraft as well."
"We could evacuate them." Offered one officer.
"Are you mad?" Asked another as the table descended into discussion. This was going to take awhile.
DECEMBER 22 1941
0840 HOURS
In hindsight I was remarkably blase about losing an arm. One would think such a thing would make more of an impact. Yet I believe it was a perfect example of my second life and new body affecting me psychologically. It was just my two front turrets. They'd be fixed.
Suffice to say, slowly watching your arm grow back over the course of a week is surreal.
I found a nice routine. I'd wake up around eight and get breakfast in the officers' mess. After that it was into the pool for four hours. I'd then hop out to get lunch, and then spend eight hours in the afternoon and evening in the pool. After that, it was dinner in bed. Most of the time in the pool was spent watching movies, usually joined by the destroyers that were not busy escorting convoys, which was usually two or three of the girls. A week passed. The day before I was done they were all sent to run a convoy escort.
I woke up early again on the twenty-second. I was dressed and just about to leave my room when I realised I didn't need the bath anymore. My turrets and magazine had been finished the previous evening. It was nice to have my fingers, hand and arm back. Either way, I was free from the pool. I may have had a slight spring in my step as I headed for the mess.
The whole ordeal had given me a new respect for amputees. Repulse had had to help me for the first three days. I hadn't been able to fully dress myself, and it was a shock to realise how much I took being able to carry two things for granted.
I'd eaten half of my breakfast when Repulse placed her breakfast down to join me. "Mornin' lass."
"Morning." I replied in between spoonfuls of cereal.
We ate in silence for a few minutes before the Battlecruiser spoke up, "So the Merchants go' activated."
I blinked in confusion, "What? Activated?"
Repulse shrugged, "That's wha' the boffins are callin' making a spirit visible."
I nodded, "Ah, I suppose that makes sense." I scooped another mouthful of cereal. I was just swallowing when my slowly awakening brain finally processed what she had said. "Wait what!? How did that happen?!"
Repulse shrugged, "Some spirit decided te'. I don't blame them, s'nice being alive, but it's put us in a bind."
"Because the Japs might get them when they take Singapore?"
She nodded "Aye."
I opened my mouth to speak... "Wales! Repulse!" Only to jump as Electra's voice on the radio broke the silence. "You're gonna wanna fucking see this!"
"Electra? What's happening?" I asked over the radio.
"Docks! Now!" Was the shouted reply.
The two of us exchanged a look before getting up and breaking into a sprint. Thank god I was wearing my practical whites rather than my sundress. It took us mere minutes to reach the docks. As we arrived I spotted Electra just being tied up. Men crowded her deck, and the atmosphere was muted.
The destroyer in question was already standing on the dockside with her two sisters and Jupiter. All four of them seemed subdued. I could see tear stains on Jupiter's face.
Repulse spoke as we approached, "Right. Wha' happened lasses?"
Jupiter looked like she was ready to cry while the others gave her pitying looks. Ever the big sister, Electra answered, "We had a run-in with Japanese subs."
The first thing that occurred to me was that one of them had been hit. But none of them looked any worse for wear. I glanced over where their hulls were being tied up. No visible damage. Perhaps they'd lost a ship or two from the convoy? I'd never seen any destroyer this broken up about something like that though. But my gut was telling me I was missing something here. That's when I noticed. My face fell. Please be wrong, please be wrong. I had to ask though.
"Jupiter? Where's your hull?" The way she teared up and sobbed made my heart drop. Before I knew it I had joined the other three destroyers hugging her and comforting her. "It's ok. It's ok. Shhhhhhh."
After only a couple of minutes she had managed to pull herself together surprisingly quickly. "I'm ok. I'm ok." She spoke shakingly, even as she wiped her eyes.
Repulse gave me a look, and while none of the destroyers could see she quickly blinked out a code like a signaling lamp. I nodded, and she turned to Jupiter. "Come along lass. You look like shite. Let's get you cleaned up and put some food in your belly."
The destroyer sniffed and held out her hand for the Battlecruiser to take, "Okay."
As soon as they were gone I spun on the three E's. "What happened?"
Electra visibly steeled herself, "Convoy was damn quiet. We'd already left 'em to come back 'ere." She sighed, "Then four 'ours ago a fuckin' Nip sub ambushed us thirty nautical miles out. Put a torp right into Jup's midships. It was a miracle she didn't sink." She looked angry now, "We depth charged the bitch for two 'ours while Jup' limped back. She was down to ten knots, so we caught up. We were jus' entering the straits when…" She took a deep breath, and I could tell she was trying to control her rage. She failed, "It's so fucken' unfair! She's right there, almost 'ome-fuckin'-free! And she hits a goddamned fucking mine! It's bullshit!"
Encounter looked nearly as mad as her sister, while Express just looked sad. The younger sister just shook her head, "It broke her back. She sank in less than fifteen minutes."
I sighed and ran my hands over my face, "Fuck." I shook my head in frustration, "This damned war." I took a moment to compose myself, "So how is she still with us? The same as Repulse and I or…?"
"Aye." Nodded Express, "She just popped off 'er 'ull as she was going down. 'ad the rigging appear like you two, and started helping rescue her crew."
I thought that over in my head, a happy smile slowly appearing on my face. "That's...That's incredible. If anyone sinks, they don't die. They become a S-H-I-P." I gave the girls an elated grin, "You, and the others still visible on their hulls, can't die without getting a second chance!"
The three E-class' eyes widened. "We ge' to be fully 'uman like you two?"
I gestured back the way Repulse and Jupiter had gone, "Jupiter is, isn't she?"
That turned the hopeful looks into happy grins, "Ha! Hear that Jappos!?" Yelled Express, "If you kill us we just get stronger! HAAA!"
I couldn't help but smile at the three E's as they celebrated. Being able to truly live as a person was something people just took for granted. But to see three young destroyers celebrate just the simple fact of knowing they would one day be able to enjoy that? It was a nice feeling.
DECEMBER 23 1941
1753 HOURS
Have I ever mentioned how much I despise the tropics? It's hot, it's muggy, and my radar, boilers and electronics always go to pieces.
As a reprieve from the scorching heat I'd found a nice little beach just east of the base, gotten into my swimsuit, and just enjoyed the somewhat cooler water. I'd been in the water for a mere ten minutes when I spotted Jupiter walking along the shore. I stood up and began to wade back to the beach. "Jupiter!"
She jumped a bit at my voice and spun to face me. Even from here I could see her eyes widen before she screeched, "What the hell are you wearing Wales?!"
I glanced down at the red and white bikini I was wearing before flushing, "It's a bikini…"
Jupiter was staring at me blushing profusely as I stepped back on dry land. "I-it's so lewd." She managed to stammer out.
I produced a towel from my hold and began drying myself as I approached, "It's quite normal swimwear from my time."
That made her pause, "Wait wot."
I just shrugged as I finished drying myself and pulled out my whites to put on over my swimsuit, "Things change. Society is far less uptight in seventy years."
"But...but…!" She stammered. It seemed I'd broken the poor destroyer. She continued to stammer and blush as I finished getting dressed.
After a moment I gave her a tap, "Oi. Jup. Snap out of it."
She seemed to snap back to awareness, "Oh, ahhhh. I'm ok!"
I pulled a pair of deck chairs from where I'd stored them. I may or may not have nicked a few from the pool-turned-repair-bath. "So what brings you out here?" I asked as I sat down.
Jupiter sighed and sat down, "Just thinking."
"About?" I prompted.
She thought for a moment before answering my question with another question. "How do you do it Wales?"
A confused look crossed my face. "I'm sorry?"
For such a young looking girl, Jupiter looked far beyond her years as she spoke, "How do you deal with knowing you failed your crew."
"Ah." I bit my lip. With a sigh I pulled out a bottle of rum, popped the lid and took a swig. "Glass?" She gave me a small nod so I produced two glasses and poured us each one. I downed it in one go before I started, "I don't." Seeing her look of confusion I continued, "I remember all three-hundred-four of them. I failed them. I have nightmares, not as bad as after Denmark Strait, but still nightmares. It hurts. And from what little I know about psychology that you need to talk about it. Unburden yourself." I sighed and took another swig, "I'm too much of a coward. Even just talking about it indirectly like this...it's so hard." I emptied my glass and poured myself another. "Just...if you can, talk to others. The E's are good girls. They'll do what they can for you."
I glanced over to see Jupiter nod, "Okay." I nodded back, and let things trail off.
…
…
"Can I have another glass please?"
I barked a laugh. And happily refilled her glass.
Since the Japanese attack things had been pedal to the metal for a week. Between two sorties, and figuring out our new forms, we'd barely had a moment of calm. The return to something resembling a routine was a relief. But even so, more surprises were in store.
DECEMBER 21 1941
1010 HOURS
So. Hi. I have no idea what I'm doing. Wales makes this look so easy. Anyway! Hello, I'm Repulse, and I will be your writer for today at Wales' behest.
Where to start? Ah, I know. While Wales was trapped in the baths some things had been unfolding. After the debrief the admiral had brought in a couple of boffins. For the next three hours they'd grilled me for anything about the future. I hadn't been able to offer much about future events. I didn't remember much. I'd been young during the first time around, and I'd never been much of a student of history.
What I did have was an understanding of most naval weapons systems. I'd been a Weapons Tech in the Royal Navy from the mid-fifties to the early eighties. I'd worked on nearly every weapon we'd had in service during that time.
The first thing I'd provided them from memory was a blueprint for the Exocet ASM. I didn't expect it would change things much. They'd have no problem manufacturing a rocket and warhead. But I'd been a tech, not an engineer. I couldn't provide a detailed blueprint for the miniature guidance radar, and the radars of the time were too big and fragile. I doubted we'd see any before the end of the war.
The same went for the acoustic torpedoes. I didn't have a good enough understanding of the guidance system to allow them to recreate it.
What I did expect to see entering service before the end of the war were two gun systems I had spent the majority of my time maintaining. At the end of the day, all guns are purely mechanical, and while they'd likely be expensive to make, both gun systems were easily possible to build with 1940's technology.
I couldn't help but salivate at the prospect of being refit with M61 Vulcans and having my secondaries replaced with the rapid firing magazine-fed 4.5-inch Mark 8s. Being able to spit thousands of rounds into the air would go a long way to making sure I wouldn't get sunk a second time. I'd had an excellent understanding of both weapons, and so been able to draw relatively good diagrams and documentation. I didn't expect it would be easy, or that we would see either weapon before the end of the war, but I could hope.
I had two days with the boffins before they were evacuated. With any luck, they and their notes would make it back to Britain, and the engineers could get to work.
The next five days were relaxing. I had time off and only had to spend an hour a day with the boffins. It was a day before Wales got out of the baths that I was summoned to meet the Admiral.
I was wearing my whites when I stepped into the situation room that morning. I paused as I realized the Admiral's entire staff was in the room. Admiral Spooner himself was at the head of the map table, and Captain Tennant was beside him.
"You wanted to see me, sir?" I asked with a salute.
He returned the salute, "You're the last one Lieutenant Commander. Let's get started." He nodded to one of the officers at the table.
The young Lieutenant cleared his throat, "Sir. As far as we can tell, last evening, coincidentally just before Force Z left port, one of the ship spirits activated, that is, made visible, a Merchant vessel. This nelly activated spirit then did the same for others, and so on. As of this morning nearly every single vessel in the Singapore area that has a spirit has been activated."
There was surprised murmuring around the table. I let out a surprised whistle, "Shite."
"Gentlemen...And Lady." Spoke Admiral Spooner, "We are going to lose Singapore. It will take time, but it is inevitable. We cannot, under any circumstances, let the Japanese get their hands on activated ship spirits. At the same time, we need to inform the civilian population so they don't panic. The secret is out. I need suggestions. What do we do?"
One of the staff officers spoke up, "How small can a boat get and still have a spirit?"
I had an answer to that, "Twenty tons or five crew."
I could see the collective grimace around the table. The same officer rubbed his chin,
"That covers a lot of vessels."
"Don't they have to willingly activate new ones?" Another interjected.
Another fired back, "And what is to stop the Nips from forcing them?"
I furrowed my brows at him, "How?"
He just shrugged, "Death threats. Torture. They're Nips."
I wanted to retort, but he wasn't wrong. Us warships seemed to come built tough as nails. We'd yell, we'd cry, but I'd never heard of a ship spirit breaking. Even the destroyers, despite their young appearance, were some of the toughest, most willful people I'd ever met.
But Merchant ships? If we were born and bred soldiers, then they were civilians. Diverse, capable, and very good at what they did, but completely useless the moment violence reared its ugly head. Sure, some of them would keep a clear head. Some of them were extremely tough. But some of them I could see completely and utterly breaking under interrogation. Off the top of my head, I knew at least two merchants that would do whatever they were told if threatened with harm.
Another officer spoke up, "We could have them scuttled once the Japs come by."
I just glared at him, "No! We are nae jus' executing them in cold blood because they're inconvenient!"
I stood there huffing in anger for a moment. I met the eyes of everyone in the room. What stood out to me was the fear I could see on everyone's faces, barring the Admiral and my former Captain. That took the wind out of my anger. They were terrified of me.
It took me a moment to realise why: I could tear a man apart with my bare hands. The Admiral and my Captain actually knew me, and that I'd never do so without just cause. To the others though, I was an absurdly powerful person. And if that wasn't enough for them, I was a 'fragile and delicate' woman. As far as they were concerned, I could snap at any time and go ballistic.
I visibly calmed myself and spoke, "What else do we have?"
Everyone recomposed themselves, though I still received some weary looks. The Intelligence Lieutenant who had originally delivered the brief cleared his throat, "Perhaps we could keep it quiet? We could make it clear to the crews and spirits themselves that they have to keep this from the Japanese. Have them pass off the spirits as family members. We'll have to instruct the media censors to prohibit any publications on the subject, keep it an open secret. If it's purely word of mouth they may not learn of it. Japanese Intelligence is woefully inadequate."
Captain Tennant shook his head, "We assumed the same about their navy and aircraft as well."
"We could evacuate them." Offered one officer.
"Are you mad?" Asked another as the table descended into discussion. This was going to take awhile.
DECEMBER 22 1941
0840 HOURS
In hindsight I was remarkably blase about losing an arm. One would think such a thing would make more of an impact. Yet I believe it was a perfect example of my second life and new body affecting me psychologically. It was just my two front turrets. They'd be fixed.
Suffice to say, slowly watching your arm grow back over the course of a week is surreal.
I found a nice routine. I'd wake up around eight and get breakfast in the officers' mess. After that it was into the pool for four hours. I'd then hop out to get lunch, and then spend eight hours in the afternoon and evening in the pool. After that, it was dinner in bed. Most of the time in the pool was spent watching movies, usually joined by the destroyers that were not busy escorting convoys, which was usually two or three of the girls. A week passed. The day before I was done they were all sent to run a convoy escort.
I woke up early again on the twenty-second. I was dressed and just about to leave my room when I realised I didn't need the bath anymore. My turrets and magazine had been finished the previous evening. It was nice to have my fingers, hand and arm back. Either way, I was free from the pool. I may have had a slight spring in my step as I headed for the mess.
The whole ordeal had given me a new respect for amputees. Repulse had had to help me for the first three days. I hadn't been able to fully dress myself, and it was a shock to realise how much I took being able to carry two things for granted.
I'd eaten half of my breakfast when Repulse placed her breakfast down to join me. "Mornin' lass."
"Morning." I replied in between spoonfuls of cereal.
We ate in silence for a few minutes before the Battlecruiser spoke up, "So the Merchants go' activated."
I blinked in confusion, "What? Activated?"
Repulse shrugged, "That's wha' the boffins are callin' making a spirit visible."
I nodded, "Ah, I suppose that makes sense." I scooped another mouthful of cereal. I was just swallowing when my slowly awakening brain finally processed what she had said. "Wait what!? How did that happen?!"
Repulse shrugged, "Some spirit decided te'. I don't blame them, s'nice being alive, but it's put us in a bind."
"Because the Japs might get them when they take Singapore?"
She nodded "Aye."
I opened my mouth to speak... "Wales! Repulse!" Only to jump as Electra's voice on the radio broke the silence. "You're gonna wanna fucking see this!"
"Electra? What's happening?" I asked over the radio.
"Docks! Now!" Was the shouted reply.
The two of us exchanged a look before getting up and breaking into a sprint. Thank god I was wearing my practical whites rather than my sundress. It took us mere minutes to reach the docks. As we arrived I spotted Electra just being tied up. Men crowded her deck, and the atmosphere was muted.
The destroyer in question was already standing on the dockside with her two sisters and Jupiter. All four of them seemed subdued. I could see tear stains on Jupiter's face.
Repulse spoke as we approached, "Right. Wha' happened lasses?"
Jupiter looked like she was ready to cry while the others gave her pitying looks. Ever the big sister, Electra answered, "We had a run-in with Japanese subs."
The first thing that occurred to me was that one of them had been hit. But none of them looked any worse for wear. I glanced over where their hulls were being tied up. No visible damage. Perhaps they'd lost a ship or two from the convoy? I'd never seen any destroyer this broken up about something like that though. But my gut was telling me I was missing something here. That's when I noticed. My face fell. Please be wrong, please be wrong. I had to ask though.
"Jupiter? Where's your hull?" The way she teared up and sobbed made my heart drop. Before I knew it I had joined the other three destroyers hugging her and comforting her. "It's ok. It's ok. Shhhhhhh."
After only a couple of minutes she had managed to pull herself together surprisingly quickly. "I'm ok. I'm ok." She spoke shakingly, even as she wiped her eyes.
Repulse gave me a look, and while none of the destroyers could see she quickly blinked out a code like a signaling lamp. I nodded, and she turned to Jupiter. "Come along lass. You look like shite. Let's get you cleaned up and put some food in your belly."
The destroyer sniffed and held out her hand for the Battlecruiser to take, "Okay."
As soon as they were gone I spun on the three E's. "What happened?"
Electra visibly steeled herself, "Convoy was damn quiet. We'd already left 'em to come back 'ere." She sighed, "Then four 'ours ago a fuckin' Nip sub ambushed us thirty nautical miles out. Put a torp right into Jup's midships. It was a miracle she didn't sink." She looked angry now, "We depth charged the bitch for two 'ours while Jup' limped back. She was down to ten knots, so we caught up. We were jus' entering the straits when…" She took a deep breath, and I could tell she was trying to control her rage. She failed, "It's so fucken' unfair! She's right there, almost 'ome-fuckin'-free! And she hits a goddamned fucking mine! It's bullshit!"
Encounter looked nearly as mad as her sister, while Express just looked sad. The younger sister just shook her head, "It broke her back. She sank in less than fifteen minutes."
I sighed and ran my hands over my face, "Fuck." I shook my head in frustration, "This damned war." I took a moment to compose myself, "So how is she still with us? The same as Repulse and I or…?"
"Aye." Nodded Express, "She just popped off 'er 'ull as she was going down. 'ad the rigging appear like you two, and started helping rescue her crew."
I thought that over in my head, a happy smile slowly appearing on my face. "That's...That's incredible. If anyone sinks, they don't die. They become a S-H-I-P." I gave the girls an elated grin, "You, and the others still visible on their hulls, can't die without getting a second chance!"
The three E-class' eyes widened. "We ge' to be fully 'uman like you two?"
I gestured back the way Repulse and Jupiter had gone, "Jupiter is, isn't she?"
That turned the hopeful looks into happy grins, "Ha! Hear that Jappos!?" Yelled Express, "If you kill us we just get stronger! HAAA!"
I couldn't help but smile at the three E's as they celebrated. Being able to truly live as a person was something people just took for granted. But to see three young destroyers celebrate just the simple fact of knowing they would one day be able to enjoy that? It was a nice feeling.
DECEMBER 23 1941
1753 HOURS
Have I ever mentioned how much I despise the tropics? It's hot, it's muggy, and my radar, boilers and electronics always go to pieces.
As a reprieve from the scorching heat I'd found a nice little beach just east of the base, gotten into my swimsuit, and just enjoyed the somewhat cooler water. I'd been in the water for a mere ten minutes when I spotted Jupiter walking along the shore. I stood up and began to wade back to the beach. "Jupiter!"
She jumped a bit at my voice and spun to face me. Even from here I could see her eyes widen before she screeched, "What the hell are you wearing Wales?!"
I glanced down at the red and white bikini I was wearing before flushing, "It's a bikini…"
Jupiter was staring at me blushing profusely as I stepped back on dry land. "I-it's so lewd." She managed to stammer out.
I produced a towel from my hold and began drying myself as I approached, "It's quite normal swimwear from my time."
That made her pause, "Wait wot."
I just shrugged as I finished drying myself and pulled out my whites to put on over my swimsuit, "Things change. Society is far less uptight in seventy years."
"But...but…!" She stammered. It seemed I'd broken the poor destroyer. She continued to stammer and blush as I finished getting dressed.
After a moment I gave her a tap, "Oi. Jup. Snap out of it."
She seemed to snap back to awareness, "Oh, ahhhh. I'm ok!"
I pulled a pair of deck chairs from where I'd stored them. I may or may not have nicked a few from the pool-turned-repair-bath. "So what brings you out here?" I asked as I sat down.
Jupiter sighed and sat down, "Just thinking."
"About?" I prompted.
She thought for a moment before answering my question with another question. "How do you do it Wales?"
A confused look crossed my face. "I'm sorry?"
For such a young looking girl, Jupiter looked far beyond her years as she spoke, "How do you deal with knowing you failed your crew."
"Ah." I bit my lip. With a sigh I pulled out a bottle of rum, popped the lid and took a swig. "Glass?" She gave me a small nod so I produced two glasses and poured us each one. I downed it in one go before I started, "I don't." Seeing her look of confusion I continued, "I remember all three-hundred-four of them. I failed them. I have nightmares, not as bad as after Denmark Strait, but still nightmares. It hurts. And from what little I know about psychology that you need to talk about it. Unburden yourself." I sighed and took another swig, "I'm too much of a coward. Even just talking about it indirectly like this...it's so hard." I emptied my glass and poured myself another. "Just...if you can, talk to others. The E's are good girls. They'll do what they can for you."
I glanced over to see Jupiter nod, "Okay." I nodded back, and let things trail off.
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"Can I have another glass please?"
I barked a laugh. And happily refilled her glass.