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The Wave
[ ] A Fish Out of Legend - Rumor foretells of a continental beast whose overturnings send entire oceans a-roil, whose roar is the death of island chains and whose latticed fin in rise-and-fall spawns tsunami waves capable of wiping entire civilizations away like grout before the cleaner.
-and then Nekhbet sees the wave and she knows that this is the center of her life, that this is the jagged edge of loss that will divide all of her into 'before' and 'after'. Or it will be her death.
It is vast beyond reckoning. It is ascending into the sky, it is the sea woken from its bed and standing upright. It is miles highs and still rising, it drives the clouds in the sky before it. It is coming towards her silently and very fast, but there is still time.
"I love you" she tell her husband, her beautiful husband. She strokes his hair, and for a moment the weight of him and her is a weight beyond any dream of lifting, love is a chain dragging her down to death. In her hands is everything she ever wanted and can never have, in her hands is everything. There is nothing but here. There is nowhere else.
He sees the wave too. Stares in blank comprehension, animal-dumb, a deer frozen as it stares down the barrel of a gun.
She is an animal too but a different sort of animal.
She tells him her love again but her lips are melting down into a cruel beak and her words are a vulture's cries. There are feathers beneath her skin and with each bloody rake of her talons she frees them from their prison of flesh, tears off her breasts to let her plumage pour forth, shakes herself free from bloody strips of woman-flesh, and with her wings she grasps the air and flies.
The crest of the wave ascends above the setting sun and darkens the crimson sunset to algae green. The ocean is a curtain drawn across half the world, the orb of the sun slowly darkening as it drowns. For a little while she can see the last remnants of the sun, the orb squashed into an oval by the diffraction of light through the thicker bottom-half of the wave, then though the upper atmosphere is still blue the shadow of the wave darkens the whole world.
She can only see the wave, shining from within from the devoured sun. It is the wrath of god. It is the end of all things. Its beauty is the beauty of all things great and terrible. She looks upon it and feels that humility of spirit that men call terror and worship.
Her hometown meets death with stoic indifference. She sees them far below gathering in little clusters, some with their backs to the wave, others unable to look away. A few individual scurry about in blind panic but are caught by larger groups and made still.
There are a few people running for high ground, but most give up quickly. There is a great deal of sex happening, much of which would have been unspeakably taboo only hours before. A few of them have bird animal forms like herself, but they are eagles and songbirds and seagulls, and she is a leviathan-vulture, the god-eater bird, whose domain is the upper atmosphere, whose eyes can see a dead leviathan a thousand kilometers away and whose wings can bear her unto the uttermost ends of the world. They do may do their best but some gulfs are insurmountable.
The wave rises from the depths of the sea to the upper reaches of the Troposphere. It has caught all the Cumulus clouds for ten thousand miles and is pushing them before it like a snowplow, drifts of cloud the size of nations pouring over the top of the wave. The wind tears at her wings as the very sky flees what comes.
Her sister has gathered her children about her in the storage cave. Nekhbet calls on her Wise Blood and hears her sister as she says
"It will be okay." She is smiling and stroking her littlest daughter. "The ocean was napping, but then it woke up and turned over in its sleep. It is frightening, but the water will pass over the cave and we'll be fine."
"Then why aren't grandma and grandpa and auntie and all the others here?" her oldest asks.
"When you become an adult you get a second animal form," she tells them. "Your great uncle is a tiger, but he has a secret form as well, a giant so big and so strong that the wave cannot touch him, with limbs as big around as a hundred ceder trees. He'll go for a little swim and then he'll be fine. Or he'll roar at the wave and scare it away. He can hear you right now, and he'll keep you and everyone else safe. Now, I saw you playing with Bebe. What game were you playing?"
The sun has been swallowed and the night sky is bright with stars. The storm that has wrapped itself around the wave has ignited and now lightning strobes madly, claws of searing brilliance raking the dark waters.
Those with aquatic forms are leaping from the clifftop, shedding their human forms in sprays of discarded flesh and blood and plunging into the raging sea as sleek porpoises and fish and even a sea wurm.
She sees uncle atop the cliff, naked, arms stretched out and leaning forward to embrace the wind. He leaps, twists in mid-air with cat-like grace to tear his false skin and from the husk comes a divine tiger with fur the color of fresh-fallen snow and eyes of glowing gold. He lands atop the surface of the water and roars, and all the waves around him are flattened by his voice, and she can hear the sound of it even here. Then he runs across the top of the water, faster and and faster, until he plunges into the storm and is lost.
She can see whales and leviathans and a thousand things no man has ever lived to name caught in the wave and swirling down like gobs of shit in a toilet bowl, she sees bloody corpses the size of islands pounded into raw meat and violently ejected into the air to be cooked by lightning. She is higher than she has ever flown but the air is still thick and she is ascending faster than she has ever fallen, for the whole of the sky is rising with her and fleeing with her and she is but a scrap of feather stretched out like a sail to catch it.
They said her soul was that of a vulture and they were right, for she has never felt more alive or more real than in this moment of utter devastation.
She sees her brother making tea far below. Pours the water into the kettle, sets it on the stovetop. Glances out the window and sees the end of all things. Turns up the heat.
His animal form is a bear, with great shining eyes and teeth strong enough to bite a man in half and gentle enough to lift her without harm. But bears cannot drink tea so he is human still. She reaches out to him with her Wise Blood and into his mind she says 'Brother, I love you.'
'Of course. You've said it many times, as have I.' He is very matter of fact. 'Two tea bags, I think. They won't have time to steep properly but with two of them they'll be done in time.'
'Is that all you can think of? Tea?'
'Why not?' He pours the water into his mug and steps outside to his chair on the porch. 'There is nothing we can do. There is nothing left undone. The wave acts within its nature; so do I.' He takes a sip of his tea. 'Same as it ever was. I love you sister. Fly high.'
He finishes the last of his tea and sets the porcelain cup down carefully on a drink coaster. 'Until we meet again'.
And then the wave is there and he is gone.
...
Then comes at last the sound of the end of the world, lightning flaring sheetwise across the wave turning night into a blinding haze of white and blue, the once-staccato sound of the drums of hell grown so fast that it has become a continuous and agonizing aural beating. A thousand devils hammering black and wild upon the anvil of the world, the wave like the edge of the reaper's blade, lightning like chains across the shivering black face of the abyss.
She looks up and see's in the wave's crest the end of the world. Her wings burn with Saint Elmo's fire. She is beyond words and thought. From her scarlet beak comes a scream, the ragged thread of humanity of her cry the only possible answer to such monstrous and unthinkable immensity.
The storm reaches her, envelops her in its screaming dark, slashes at her with ten-thousand frozen knives and beats her with an hailstones that tear bloody holes in her and she can see only dark and hear only that screaming rage and feel only agony and there is no up or down or beginning or-
-end. As she is torn from the raging white and into the sky above.
The sun is here, setting red and bloody into the haze of mist. The world churns beneath her, the sky clutches her, but she is free.
She climbs, higher and higher, above clouds through which lightning courses, ten thousand filaments igniting and burning out in an instant. She calls upon her Wise Blood and the wounds heal, and new feathers sprout. And she realizes that somehow, she will live.
...
She circles the place where they died for three days, searching for survivors. Other waves come and go but she is god-vulture. She is above, far above, such things.
Traumatic memories, she thinks, are like signposts in that all your other memories organize themselves in relationship to them. She will remember this forever. On her dying day she will close her eyes and be able to name every person she saw die down below, she will know where they died and how they died, she will know their last words better than she knows her own name.
At last she loses hope, and turns her eyes to the origin of the waves.