B01-030 - Dissociate
"I told Lord Guilliman you're fond of him, and he said we could call!" Lilith said brightly as Saint Celestine entered Varynna's quarters.
Varynna freezes, staring at Celestine, brain beginning to process exactly what was just said. "I…Lilith." Her voice is very calm and very, very collected. Naval uniform tight and studded with medals, a threatening sabre in a sheath.
"Also, Anastasia, Myself, and Celestine have been transferred to your ship." She added, staring at her for a reaction, keeping her face stony in case this was in fact a problem, that she caused. "We're going to be traveling for a month, I don't want to leave Ana my darling wife, I'm going to war for Celestine so we should spend more than a day together, and Guilliman seems nice, gave us permission to call, and not to mention I love you too, so… Seemed like your quarters or… Office… Dining room? I never asked what this is… Oh well… Would make a good home base!"
"And I will assure you, Lord Admiral!" The Saint speaks with care, "Warp travel is much safer with me aboard." Pulling the attention of everyone in the room as she starts to pick through the liquor cabinets, staring at the various options Varynna has.
"I see." Varynna growls, staring at Lilith again, "You are so very lucky Lilith."
Lilith bit her tongue with a smile, "Lucky that I'm cute?" She said, somewhat hopefully. "I did more social math than you might have thought, Varynna. I'm getting very good at this whole politics thing."
Ana lights up a lho stick for herself, making Celestine tilt her head, "Those are bad for you, Anastasia."
"We're like, immortal? If anything super bad happens, I just vent myself and go back to the hatchery." Lilith said, reaching for the pack, lighting her own.
"I suppose." She shrugs, pulling a wine bottle free as Varynna's eyes widen. "S-saint, no that's-!" Her shout is interrupted by Celestine drinking the entire bottle in one go. "Oh." Varynna quietly says.
"She… Sees Truth, that means she knows what was in that bottle… Right? Varynna what did she just drink?" Lilith now recalling a very vivid memory of herself swallowing a random pill off the floor during a rave in Tarsonis.
"Obscura." Celestine chuckles, falling backwards into a couch she barely fits on, "Very very illegal, Lord Admiral." Twisting to stare with golden eyes at Varynna, she confidently says, "You've been a bad girl." Varynna, to her credit, only stiffens a lot instead of freezing.
Lilith stops for a second, looking at Ana, "We tried that right? It was like… We had terrible shakes for hours after I think, but then I learned how to just cut that out?"
Ana smokes her lho deeply, breathing out the smoke as she stares at the slowly grinning Saint, "There were also the hallucinations, and…insatiability." As Celestine grabs another bottle of wine.
"I think… One of us needs to be able to infest the rest."
"Lilith, can I hold you up against the wall?" Celestine shakes the room with the simple request, now focusing on the aforementioned woman, giving Varynna a moment to breathe.
For her benefit, Lilith had only spent a few moments gawking like a fish, "I didn't think she'd run straight to the fucking… Orgy decanter." Lilith says suddenly, before also saying, "Yes."
"That's good." Celestine chuckles, not moving after the declaration with a cocky smile on her face. Ana starts to stand up.
"I think I just realized the game I've started, and am feeling very objectified right now." LIlith said with a weak smile as Anastasia approached, though nothing in her tone, or in swarm space registered as a complaint.
"Someone has to be uninvolved in this mess." Varynna declares, "So I suppose I'll be banished from my own quarters-."
"No, I'll go," Lilith says suddenly, "I can… Watch? Through Swarmspace. Then there's not any competing!" What are you doing?! I'm chickening out. WHY?! I… Don't know WHY!? They're all so hot. Also, this is how you got your last wife killed. Are you really worried about that?! YES!
"Liliiiiiiiiiiith." Celestine croons for the woman, vibrating the air with the noise, "Come to meeeeee." She extends her arms, awaiting an embrace with closed, spark-leaking eyes.
"Awww… She just wants to cuddle…" Lilith says quietly, immediately melting. Walking towards Celestine for a moment, "I mean…" She looks at Ana, "Cuddling is… Fine. Right?" Taking very nervous steps.
"You can hug other women Lilith." Ana declares with a smirk, "You've already done more with her anyways, right?" It's not heated, just curious.
"I asked in the hallway!" For once not a lie, "If I'm asking can I run off with a giant angel with wings who can throw me like a football. That's… Like… I told you that, in the ship quarters."
Rolling her eyes, Ana says, "Just making sure, I wasn't able to wat-" She freezes.
"I knew it." Lilith said smiling, "I knew you were a little freak." The voice was very, very kind. "But why weren't you able to watch?" She's still looking at Anastasia, walking backwards towards Celestine.
"The flash of light, mostly." Anastasia very carefully admits, the ruse finally up as Celestine's hands reach and pull Lilith back, almost ensconcing her with her leg and arms. "Mhmm, you're soft." The Saint mumbles, lips brushing against Lilith's ear.
"That… Was the very very end. Whu—" Lilith was suddenly extremely grateful for Zerg parts again that were far more flexible, and more importantly, durable. "Hmmm!" Lilith said, before squeaking like a chew toy.
Anastasia takes the opportunity to break line of sight, whilst Varynna goes back to getting her uniform just right for the voyage ahead. All the while Celestine keeps mumbling loudly, "I really like you."
Then suddenly aware of Ana breaking eye contact, Weren't able to watch because of light? Or Feelings? Lilith said, not pushing Celestine off, but also not going much further.
"Do you want me to let you go? For Ana?" Even through the haze, the Saint can see what others feel, asking with the gentle volume of a caring whisper.
"I'm going to tell you the same thing I told Varynna, and Ana." Lilith said very calmly, "I'm not comfortable being intimate while anyone is under the influence without discussing it first. It's very odd to me that this is a conversation I've had with every woman I've met in the imperium. Also odd that I haven't met a woman in the imperium who doesn't like me, but I will stow that paranoia for later."
"I'm more of a thoughtful wave than a woman." Celestine considers, "My body is light, if you were wondering." She flickers sparks from her fingertip, letting them fall on Lilith's arm.
"If you're made of light, how do you get… All fucked u—" Then she stops herself, "I'm going to extricate for now we have a month. You have a day to un-Obscura so we can talk or plan that first."
"I'm a being of light, Lilith." Celestine glows, a shuddering feeling passing through anyone the light touches, "I can just purge it." She smirks, looking confidently at the other woman.
"You're so mean." Lilith says but not unkindly, before looking at Ana, "Do you and I need to have a talk?
"I don't mind you with other women Lilith, I think." Ana says, "I just…don't enjoy watching, I realize."
"Oh." Lilith says, then looking to Varynna, "You know I was thinking board games, but I guess I have a reputation at this point don't I?"
"Certainly have." Varynna chuckles, properly fitting her medals, "I'd recommend avoiding my drinks, and using the games under the cupboard, they're tame."
Not… quite annoyed, but also not overly pleased either Lilith said, "It's very… Odd to me, that I seem to be very clear on my wants." She says, walking over to the cupboard, hoping to god to find actual games or picts. "I do not think any of you, besides maybe Ana are entirely understanding of the fact that I'm truly not trying to bed everyone." She sighs, opening the cupboard, and sure enough, they were not board games of the traditional kind, before closing it.
"I am lonely." She says, openly, "I walked into a hivemind, because I am lonely, my physical needs are… There's no… Max there lets say, but I do need a bare minimum of affection to exist." She's not even entirely sure who she's speaking too. She guess she was a little annoyed. "I'm trying to make a family, not a harem."
"This feels like my fault." Celestine wonders from her couch.
"Not entirely, no, it's actually a talk I wanted to have with everyone, but I've been trying to avoid big speeches. I'm rather preachy" Lilith admits, "But also a little bit that was a move for sure."
Ana's quietly contemplating the words and Varynna is fixing her neck piece, leaving mostly Celestine to answer for now.
"Not really, I was shocked not surprised if that makes sense." Lilith adds, not lying. "You're not at fault for anything. I kind of realized what I had done, and been signaling far too late."
"Could you come back, once you find a game?" The Saint asks, shifting to allow more space, "I can't promise I won't tease, but, I enjoy holding others."
"Oh!" Lilith said suddenly, "I just assumed…"
Lilith the buzz kill.
Can you calm down, you're too intense
Gleaming steel.
Cuts.
Splash of blood.
Alone.
"I made an incorrect assumption, my bad, sorry."
"We all make those. Now, stop letting me get cold." She reaches out a grasping limb to try and grab at Lilith, just a little too far even for her size.
Am I strong enough too… Lilith thought to herself before, grabbing her arm and realizing that No she was not strong enough to overpower Celestine into a princess carry as she fell back into a teasing cuddle.
Don't you love me? Why would you do this? That was my tuition…
Of course I love you! But I needed rent.
slice - butcher - disperse
I adore you Lilith, can you take this package for me, don't worry what's in it.
Are you sure? The last one….
You got out fine, don't worry about it.
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You're the best Lilith, but actually something better came up. Sorry.
What do you mean something better?
I mean you're moving. You freak me the fuck out.
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"Unforgivable curs." A growled word from the Saint brings the whole room to a chilling stop. Anger like a flare, coating every surface with her feelings, forcing reality to acquiesce to what she feels. Even the air warbles with her, falling under Celestine's will.
"All of them. Betrayers." Another rumbled word as Lilith fully blinks back out of the moment.
With a big smile that doesn't reach her eyes Lilith says, "Oh. You see Truth with like… A capital T." She huffs, "That's been happening lately. No-one should see that! I cut it out from the swarm! Completely!"
Hey look, do you want to eat tonight?
Yeah…
Then take the fucking gun. Go.
Sorry…
It's ok, I'm sorry. I'm trying to look out for you because I love you.
"I am not the Swarm." The Angel answers Lilith, "Your pain. The pain of every human in this universe." Celestine calms her voice, moving back to something soft, almost whispered echoes. "It is why I fight. To stop it all. I'm truly sorry I couldn't save you." She holds Lilith lovingly, deeply.
You chose to be Queen. Anastasia chose to stay. Everyone… Everyone picked me. I have a family.
Yes. We do.
Is… Kerrigan going to hug me? Oh. Oh. Even after all that… I Just want a hug. Why do I always have to ask?
She snatched at her to be the small spoon in a cuddle as she latched on.
Lilith is… Dissociated, completely separated with a look that's just a bit quiet, and dead. Though she knows to keep smiling.
"Anastasia. Come here." A request, but one she'd be a fool to not follow.
My dream, lovely Is one day, this isn't just a beautiful dream. It's… real. The both us, real. And I can be there, forever.
Well… Too late for that Manth… Sorry.
Another person enters Lilith's space, smaller, proportional to her. "Love. Tell me what to do." Anastasia asks.
I know that you almost didn't. It doesn't matter, because you chose me, and that's all I ever wanted.
But do you choose me? Or am I just available
I will always choose you. You are… everything to me.
Oh… You still won't say it back…
She… hugged you? And you fell for her? That's all I had to do? I didn't have to seduce you at all!
Yes… It's literally that easy. Just… Please.
Keep hugging me, and telling me I'm good, great even. Tell me my feelings are valid.
You are my perfect, great, beautiful wife. I love everything about you.
Why do I always have to ask…
Has anyone ever told you, Lilith, that you are beautiful?
Twice… No, once.
She told me I'm beautiful. I didn't have to ask…
"Hold her." A command from the divine woman gives Ana direction. Warmly wrapping around her love. "I love you Lilith." She says, "Please be alright." She begs.
"Ana?" Lilith said, blinking, "What's wrong? Come here, I'm sorry. I must have… Got a bit distracted."
Ana looks scared, holding Lilith desperately at the command of the Saint. "You are loved, Lilith. You are cared for." There's no room to brook argument with Celestine, she speaks with only truth. "Grasp the world, change it, for your heart cannot bear suffering silently." Ana's obviously not understanding, only one half of the conversation involving her.
"Don't worry about it Ana." Lilith whispers, "I love you and I know you love me."
No, you won't. Not when I've started to like you.
I think… It might be too late… I ca-
It's a trick, there's points involved. Your Queen is in danger.
But, Lilith, the world is not simply others. The dread for others is blinding you.
It's a trick, you should be mad that she's using this against you
Fuck
"Feel, remember, overcome." Celestine gently encourages, "You are strong, I know it." Holding both women at this point, a staunch, glowing fortress to hold onto, if anyone will reach out.
"Tell me how to help." Ana whispers, either to the Saint or her love.
Manth loves me, they seeked me out. Of course Manth loves me. They must, they chose me, they saved me and asked for nothing. I just need to keep some thoughts away from the swarm. Just a little twinge
Oh. Manth is dead. Kerrigan is dead again. I killed them.
"Kerrigan is dead… I killed her." Lilith whispered again. "Twice. Why does that bother me? It shouldn't." She squeezed Ana, harder, so hard that she felt her own muscles crack. She couldn't help but taste blood. Blood or pennies or steel. She had managed to kill everyone who had ever hurt her. Everyone. Why was she upset. She was here, and they were not. It shouldn't matter past that.
"I love you Ana I'm fine. Sorry, I think this is my second breakdown in a week." She said quietly, "I'll recover, I think. I bounce back pretty fast."
Varynna freezes, staring at Celestine, brain beginning to process exactly what was just said. "I…Lilith." Her voice is very calm and very, very collected. Naval uniform tight and studded with medals, a threatening sabre in a sheath.
"Also, Anastasia, Myself, and Celestine have been transferred to your ship." She added, staring at her for a reaction, keeping her face stony in case this was in fact a problem, that she caused. "We're going to be traveling for a month, I don't want to leave Ana my darling wife, I'm going to war for Celestine so we should spend more than a day together, and Guilliman seems nice, gave us permission to call, and not to mention I love you too, so… Seemed like your quarters or… Office… Dining room? I never asked what this is… Oh well… Would make a good home base!"
"And I will assure you, Lord Admiral!" The Saint speaks with care, "Warp travel is much safer with me aboard." Pulling the attention of everyone in the room as she starts to pick through the liquor cabinets, staring at the various options Varynna has.
"I see." Varynna growls, staring at Lilith again, "You are so very lucky Lilith."
Lilith bit her tongue with a smile, "Lucky that I'm cute?" She said, somewhat hopefully. "I did more social math than you might have thought, Varynna. I'm getting very good at this whole politics thing."
Ana lights up a lho stick for herself, making Celestine tilt her head, "Those are bad for you, Anastasia."
"We're like, immortal? If anything super bad happens, I just vent myself and go back to the hatchery." Lilith said, reaching for the pack, lighting her own.
"I suppose." She shrugs, pulling a wine bottle free as Varynna's eyes widen. "S-saint, no that's-!" Her shout is interrupted by Celestine drinking the entire bottle in one go. "Oh." Varynna quietly says.
"She… Sees Truth, that means she knows what was in that bottle… Right? Varynna what did she just drink?" Lilith now recalling a very vivid memory of herself swallowing a random pill off the floor during a rave in Tarsonis.
"Obscura." Celestine chuckles, falling backwards into a couch she barely fits on, "Very very illegal, Lord Admiral." Twisting to stare with golden eyes at Varynna, she confidently says, "You've been a bad girl." Varynna, to her credit, only stiffens a lot instead of freezing.
Lilith stops for a second, looking at Ana, "We tried that right? It was like… We had terrible shakes for hours after I think, but then I learned how to just cut that out?"
Ana smokes her lho deeply, breathing out the smoke as she stares at the slowly grinning Saint, "There were also the hallucinations, and…insatiability." As Celestine grabs another bottle of wine.
"I think… One of us needs to be able to infest the rest."
"Lilith, can I hold you up against the wall?" Celestine shakes the room with the simple request, now focusing on the aforementioned woman, giving Varynna a moment to breathe.
For her benefit, Lilith had only spent a few moments gawking like a fish, "I didn't think she'd run straight to the fucking… Orgy decanter." Lilith says suddenly, before also saying, "Yes."
"That's good." Celestine chuckles, not moving after the declaration with a cocky smile on her face. Ana starts to stand up.
"I think I just realized the game I've started, and am feeling very objectified right now." LIlith said with a weak smile as Anastasia approached, though nothing in her tone, or in swarm space registered as a complaint.
"Someone has to be uninvolved in this mess." Varynna declares, "So I suppose I'll be banished from my own quarters-."
"No, I'll go," Lilith says suddenly, "I can… Watch? Through Swarmspace. Then there's not any competing!" What are you doing?! I'm chickening out. WHY?! I… Don't know WHY!? They're all so hot. Also, this is how you got your last wife killed. Are you really worried about that?! YES!
"Liliiiiiiiiiiith." Celestine croons for the woman, vibrating the air with the noise, "Come to meeeeee." She extends her arms, awaiting an embrace with closed, spark-leaking eyes.
"Awww… She just wants to cuddle…" Lilith says quietly, immediately melting. Walking towards Celestine for a moment, "I mean…" She looks at Ana, "Cuddling is… Fine. Right?" Taking very nervous steps.
"You can hug other women Lilith." Ana declares with a smirk, "You've already done more with her anyways, right?" It's not heated, just curious.
"I asked in the hallway!" For once not a lie, "If I'm asking can I run off with a giant angel with wings who can throw me like a football. That's… Like… I told you that, in the ship quarters."
Rolling her eyes, Ana says, "Just making sure, I wasn't able to wat-" She freezes.
"I knew it." Lilith said smiling, "I knew you were a little freak." The voice was very, very kind. "But why weren't you able to watch?" She's still looking at Anastasia, walking backwards towards Celestine.
"The flash of light, mostly." Anastasia very carefully admits, the ruse finally up as Celestine's hands reach and pull Lilith back, almost ensconcing her with her leg and arms. "Mhmm, you're soft." The Saint mumbles, lips brushing against Lilith's ear.
"That… Was the very very end. Whu—" Lilith was suddenly extremely grateful for Zerg parts again that were far more flexible, and more importantly, durable. "Hmmm!" Lilith said, before squeaking like a chew toy.
Anastasia takes the opportunity to break line of sight, whilst Varynna goes back to getting her uniform just right for the voyage ahead. All the while Celestine keeps mumbling loudly, "I really like you."
Then suddenly aware of Ana breaking eye contact, Weren't able to watch because of light? Or Feelings? Lilith said, not pushing Celestine off, but also not going much further.
"Do you want me to let you go? For Ana?" Even through the haze, the Saint can see what others feel, asking with the gentle volume of a caring whisper.
"I'm going to tell you the same thing I told Varynna, and Ana." Lilith said very calmly, "I'm not comfortable being intimate while anyone is under the influence without discussing it first. It's very odd to me that this is a conversation I've had with every woman I've met in the imperium. Also odd that I haven't met a woman in the imperium who doesn't like me, but I will stow that paranoia for later."
"I'm more of a thoughtful wave than a woman." Celestine considers, "My body is light, if you were wondering." She flickers sparks from her fingertip, letting them fall on Lilith's arm.
"If you're made of light, how do you get… All fucked u—" Then she stops herself, "I'm going to extricate for now we have a month. You have a day to un-Obscura so we can talk or plan that first."
"I'm a being of light, Lilith." Celestine glows, a shuddering feeling passing through anyone the light touches, "I can just purge it." She smirks, looking confidently at the other woman.
"You're so mean." Lilith says but not unkindly, before looking at Ana, "Do you and I need to have a talk?
"I don't mind you with other women Lilith, I think." Ana says, "I just…don't enjoy watching, I realize."
"Oh." Lilith says, then looking to Varynna, "You know I was thinking board games, but I guess I have a reputation at this point don't I?"
"Certainly have." Varynna chuckles, properly fitting her medals, "I'd recommend avoiding my drinks, and using the games under the cupboard, they're tame."
Not… quite annoyed, but also not overly pleased either Lilith said, "It's very… Odd to me, that I seem to be very clear on my wants." She says, walking over to the cupboard, hoping to god to find actual games or picts. "I do not think any of you, besides maybe Ana are entirely understanding of the fact that I'm truly not trying to bed everyone." She sighs, opening the cupboard, and sure enough, they were not board games of the traditional kind, before closing it.
"I am lonely." She says, openly, "I walked into a hivemind, because I am lonely, my physical needs are… There's no… Max there lets say, but I do need a bare minimum of affection to exist." She's not even entirely sure who she's speaking too. She guess she was a little annoyed. "I'm trying to make a family, not a harem."
"This feels like my fault." Celestine wonders from her couch.
"Not entirely, no, it's actually a talk I wanted to have with everyone, but I've been trying to avoid big speeches. I'm rather preachy" Lilith admits, "But also a little bit that was a move for sure."
Ana's quietly contemplating the words and Varynna is fixing her neck piece, leaving mostly Celestine to answer for now.
"Not really, I was shocked not surprised if that makes sense." Lilith adds, not lying. "You're not at fault for anything. I kind of realized what I had done, and been signaling far too late."
"Could you come back, once you find a game?" The Saint asks, shifting to allow more space, "I can't promise I won't tease, but, I enjoy holding others."
"Oh!" Lilith said suddenly, "I just assumed…"
Lilith the buzz kill.
Can you calm down, you're too intense
Gleaming steel.
Cuts.
Splash of blood.
Alone.
"I made an incorrect assumption, my bad, sorry."
"We all make those. Now, stop letting me get cold." She reaches out a grasping limb to try and grab at Lilith, just a little too far even for her size.
Am I strong enough too… Lilith thought to herself before, grabbing her arm and realizing that No she was not strong enough to overpower Celestine into a princess carry as she fell back into a teasing cuddle.
Don't you love me? Why would you do this? That was my tuition…
Of course I love you! But I needed rent.
slice - butcher - disperse
I adore you Lilith, can you take this package for me, don't worry what's in it.
Are you sure? The last one….
You got out fine, don't worry about it.
slice - butcher - disperse
You're the best Lilith, but actually something better came up. Sorry.
What do you mean something better?
I mean you're moving. You freak me the fuck out.
slice - butcher - disperse
"Unforgivable curs." A growled word from the Saint brings the whole room to a chilling stop. Anger like a flare, coating every surface with her feelings, forcing reality to acquiesce to what she feels. Even the air warbles with her, falling under Celestine's will.
"All of them. Betrayers." Another rumbled word as Lilith fully blinks back out of the moment.
With a big smile that doesn't reach her eyes Lilith says, "Oh. You see Truth with like… A capital T." She huffs, "That's been happening lately. No-one should see that! I cut it out from the swarm! Completely!"
Hey look, do you want to eat tonight?
Yeah…
Then take the fucking gun. Go.
Sorry…
It's ok, I'm sorry. I'm trying to look out for you because I love you.
"I am not the Swarm." The Angel answers Lilith, "Your pain. The pain of every human in this universe." Celestine calms her voice, moving back to something soft, almost whispered echoes. "It is why I fight. To stop it all. I'm truly sorry I couldn't save you." She holds Lilith lovingly, deeply.
You chose to be Queen. Anastasia chose to stay. Everyone… Everyone picked me. I have a family.
Yes. We do.
Is… Kerrigan going to hug me? Oh. Oh. Even after all that… I Just want a hug. Why do I always have to ask?
She snatched at her to be the small spoon in a cuddle as she latched on.
Lilith is… Dissociated, completely separated with a look that's just a bit quiet, and dead. Though she knows to keep smiling.
"Anastasia. Come here." A request, but one she'd be a fool to not follow.
My dream, lovely Is one day, this isn't just a beautiful dream. It's… real. The both us, real. And I can be there, forever.
Well… Too late for that Manth… Sorry.
Another person enters Lilith's space, smaller, proportional to her. "Love. Tell me what to do." Anastasia asks.
I know that you almost didn't. It doesn't matter, because you chose me, and that's all I ever wanted.
But do you choose me? Or am I just available
I will always choose you. You are… everything to me.
Oh… You still won't say it back…
She… hugged you? And you fell for her? That's all I had to do? I didn't have to seduce you at all!
Yes… It's literally that easy. Just… Please.
Keep hugging me, and telling me I'm good, great even. Tell me my feelings are valid.
You are my perfect, great, beautiful wife. I love everything about you.
Why do I always have to ask…
Has anyone ever told you, Lilith, that you are beautiful?
Twice… No, once.
She told me I'm beautiful. I didn't have to ask…
"Hold her." A command from the divine woman gives Ana direction. Warmly wrapping around her love. "I love you Lilith." She says, "Please be alright." She begs.
"Ana?" Lilith said, blinking, "What's wrong? Come here, I'm sorry. I must have… Got a bit distracted."
Ana looks scared, holding Lilith desperately at the command of the Saint. "You are loved, Lilith. You are cared for." There's no room to brook argument with Celestine, she speaks with only truth. "Grasp the world, change it, for your heart cannot bear suffering silently." Ana's obviously not understanding, only one half of the conversation involving her.
"Don't worry about it Ana." Lilith whispers, "I love you and I know you love me."
No, you won't. Not when I've started to like you.
I think… It might be too late… I ca-
It's a trick, there's points involved. Your Queen is in danger.
But, Lilith, the world is not simply others. The dread for others is blinding you.
It's a trick, you should be mad that she's using this against you
Fuck
"Feel, remember, overcome." Celestine gently encourages, "You are strong, I know it." Holding both women at this point, a staunch, glowing fortress to hold onto, if anyone will reach out.
"Tell me how to help." Ana whispers, either to the Saint or her love.
Manth loves me, they seeked me out. Of course Manth loves me. They must, they chose me, they saved me and asked for nothing. I just need to keep some thoughts away from the swarm. Just a little twinge
Oh. Manth is dead. Kerrigan is dead again. I killed them.
"Kerrigan is dead… I killed her." Lilith whispered again. "Twice. Why does that bother me? It shouldn't." She squeezed Ana, harder, so hard that she felt her own muscles crack. She couldn't help but taste blood. Blood or pennies or steel. She had managed to kill everyone who had ever hurt her. Everyone. Why was she upset. She was here, and they were not. It shouldn't matter past that.
"I love you Ana I'm fine. Sorry, I think this is my second breakdown in a week." She said quietly, "I'll recover, I think. I bounce back pretty fast."