1.10
Pushing limits was always nice. Emma whimpered, Taylor patted her head absently.
"You have really pretty eyes, you know."
"What?" Emma asked, her brow furrowing at Taylor, putting down the milkshake she was about to sip on. "That came out of nowhere."
"They just look kind of grey—" Taylor grabbed what was left of Emma's hair roughly, forcing her eyes open; she stared at them from a different angle. "—but when you look at them this way, over here, they're kind of green. It's really pretty."
"Oh, well, thanks." Emma's smile grew, and she went back to sipping at the milkshake.
"No problem," Taylor said, smiling back. Emma was a good friend, now that Sophia was out of the picture. "We should do this more often."
Emma cried.
--
Taylor started her daily routine. She washed, clothed, and made herself presentable for the day. Then, she split things, and went downstairs in one timeline. She tested the waters, checking how Dad was doing, preparing how she should she speak to him in the other timeline. This took roughly five minutes. Then, she went down again, trying the lines out. Sometimes it took one to two more iterations.
Other girls did makeup, she carefully tested social situations, then manipulated them to her benefit. Given that she was still shit at makeup, that was probably more difficult than splitting timelines.
"Hey Dad, how you doing?" Taylor said, her voice sufficiently chipper and yet loving.
Dad murmured, sipping at coffee, looking at the paper.
"I heard today will be a real scorcher, humidity is going to be crazy. You should take some water bottles with you to work!" Taylor said, beginning preparations for Dad's lunch, smiling at him for a few seconds, one, two, three, then refocusing on the lunch. A nice sandwich. He enjoyed pastrami, and loved it with deli mustard, he enjoyed many things, and Taylor made sure to put each one on the sandwich. Dad deserved to be happy.
Taylor added things to the mix, making a thermos with some iced tea, adding some hummus and crackers until it was full. She finished wrapping everything in foil, filling the lunch box and handing it to her father with a smile.
"Thank you very much, Taylor." And that was all the reward she needed, seeing the smile spread across his face. Taylor hugged him, and he left for the day. She closed the timeline up in her room, then split things again, sending one off to pick up Emma for school. In the other, she went to go check finances. Dad was doing okay thus far, but he might not be in the next month or so. She would need to step up the whole investment thing, maybe use an intermediary, such as Emma. She would be easy to persuade, and Taylor knew all the right places to push. Perhaps it would be a different breach of trust this time. It was more interesting to her with each time, because Emma grew
ever more trusting.
Taylor wasn't
remotely like Sophia, after all. Taylor offered kindness as well as the strength that Emma so
lusted after, grasping for it, clawing and scrabbling. Desperation was the name of the game, and Emma was a whale of a player. Every time Emma's insecurities kicked in, Taylor could play off them, encourage her, tear her down, rebuild her ever so
slightly.
And then Emma trusted her,
just a
bit more.
And Taylor could use that against her,
just a
bit more.
The intricacies of trust made every betrayal unique and interesting, because it was a larger breach each time. She could twist that knife with words or, well, a knife. Whichever it was, it lent that special sting, and each bit of uniqueness was
amazing to watch. "Oh, you really thought I was your
friend? I just felt
sorry for you. I wanted to see if you had what it takes, and you
don't. You're just as weak as you were back then, you know?"
Sometimes she told Emma the truth.
The
expression as Emma slowly pieced things together, as Taylor was able to wait, wait,
watch as she drew the conclusion. Things made
sense; Taylor was—was— and it was at that moment that Emma either crumpled into a heap, breaking down, as her little world broke around her again, or leapt at Taylor, nails clawing at her face. In
those instances, Taylor smoothly stepped out of the way, applying the stun gun to Emma's stomach. She was crying, twitching on the floor. Taylor patted her on the head in both instances of terror and fear.
"I'm so glad that we're friends again, Emma. So, so glad. Aren't you glad? You'll
never even know that I'm doing this." Taylor hugged her, then closed the timeline.
She was
very careful not to overdo that particular scenario. Taylor didn't want to screw up how much she got from having this relationship with Emma.
Her friend's indiscretions aside, Taylor started off the day by hugging her. "Hi, Emma!"
"Hi, Taylor." Emma's voice was small. Aw, she'd had one of her
attacks last night. What a terrible shame. Taylor knew how to cheer that
right up. She slowly eased her
best friend toward school, telling her how they'd swing by the convenience store, and pick up some chocolate. That made things a lot better. Emma wasn't
allowed to have attacks unless Taylor was causing them.
School was a breeze, as usual. They ate together, Madison wasn't very popular any more. Ms. Clements had apparently said that Taylor was
creepy to her friends. The rumor mill had spread it around a little, but Emma was quashing that one quite successfully. Perhaps she would be their next 'target'.
After all, Taylor knew exactly what Emma wanted. She was weak. She wanted to be strong, so,
so badly. But she
never would be. The little broken pieces that made up courage just weren't inside her. All she could do was repeat that little cycle of hate, riding it down to self-destruction.
It wasn't like Emma was
cutting or anything, no, that sort of control, that point funneling to give herself the vestige of personal fulfillment— that dose of endorphins at the burst of controlled pain, that was
beyond her.
Enjoyment was too much of a word for what Emma did. It was the act of pretending to enjoy, in the hopes that she might someday reach that point of enjoyment. Taylor was fairly certain that Emma could never reach that point.
She'd kept a timeline running where she'd made Emma kill an ABB member, then observed her. Emma broke down, retching, unable to come to terms with the event. Taylor had stayed over, staying awake, watching her fitfully toss, moan, and eventually wake up, rushing to the bathroom to throw up again, finding there was nothing left but bile and dry heaves.
Had she felt that way when she'd done something similar to Taylor? Suffering from panic attacks, crippling guilt, all leading up to terrible nausea and self-destruction?
No, Emma didn't have even the ability to self-destruct. She would just wait for someone else to do it
for her. Was that why she'd bullied, pushed Taylor? For the reaction that she would receive, not to show that she was
strong, but to finally show truly
how weak she really was?
The hypothesis amused her, as the timeline shut.
--
Emma encouraged her to join the Wards. Surprising, given how much Sophia had protested it, spat at it. Perhaps it had to do with how Taylor had professed to not kill anyone, with that earnest expression she'd had to practice three or four times to get right without laughing.
Well. She only killed people who
deserved it, at least.
The process was a long thought, truncated by Mr. Barnes bringing pizza into the room.
Taylor put a finger to her lips; because Emma was asleep on her lap. She had expressed her
worries about Taylor becoming like Shadow Stalker, injured out there, or having to
kill in order to survive. Emma had cried, talking about how
terrified she'd been, how little she could
sleep when she'd seen Shadow Stalker drop people off rooftops.
Mr. Barnes dropped the pizza, as Taylor put the knife down. He staggered back against the windowsill, and Taylor smiled, wiping the blood off on the couch. She had been waiting for him to come back.
She watched his face for a moment more, then obviated it. Taylor needed both timelines to talk
properly to him.
Taylor discussed the possibilities of joining the Wards with Mr. Barnes in one of those, revealing to him the pertinent information. The process wasn't too difficult, and it wasn't like she'd hurt anyone with her powers, or would need to be a probationary ward, like
other certain parties that he did not want to specify the
particulars about, but strongly implied they were Shadow Stalker.
It wasn't like Taylor didn't know
that bit, but she was amused anyway. The money sounded nice, and would help Dad. The teammates— more people to get to know like she had Emma? That did sound… fun. And she'd be good friends with them! Maybe even have Emma meet them.
After all, she had called Lisa, asking for help. Lisa had made fun of her, hung up on her, and denied even
knowing her. With her
ability. That
kind of irked Taylor, so she
kind of wanted to join the Wards.
And be a
hero.
Taylor smiled. It was slightly too wide, and it didn't reach all the way to her eyes. She closed that timeline, then tried again. Better.
Mr. Barnes asked why she was smiling, as Taylor reached for a slice of pizza.
"Just happy to be here," she said.