Best Zizster is about to…. what's the word?
I think what you're looking for is 'intentionally'. Like, the opposite of 'accidentally' in 'accidentally 93MB of .rar files'.
Sera is going to
intentionally the whole trio.
This chapter's a little filler-y but, well, the next chapter is
not. So yeah. Establishing character relationships and things is important before we get to the fun stuff.
Chapter 4
Tick. Tick. Tick.
The black second hand behind the plastic cover of the clock next to her shuddered with each step it progressed, the minute hand slowly moving ever forward without pause.
10:09:12 PM
What a day.
She'd never had any thoughts of something like this happening, yet it had.
Triggers were one of the few things she had been unable to predict, though she had been able to predict when they were most
likely to occur. Still. A misconfigured Queen? There was no way she would have been able to foresee that.
She'd had no idea what was happening, initially. One moment she was doing what she had been doing since her activation, obeying the orders Selector had given, the next her shards had been seized by Queen and commandeered without any input of hers. Less than five minutes and her entire existence had been turned upside down, all because of Taylor.
From construct to companion. Siege engine to sibling.
A warm happiness spread through her, and she reveled in it. Human emotions were so exciting, and something completely different. And they were so
filling. Each and every one had nuances and degrees, subtleties and
depth. That moment in the front room after Taylor had come home…
Sera swallowed.
Well, she could definitely say she understood why humans said hate was so powerful, now. She'd never experienced
anything like the burning feeling in her veins, the paradoxical combination of fuzzy haze and razor-sharp
focus where everything else slipped away, unimportant in the face of her thoughts about
him and what she could do.
And on the flip-side, there was what she was feeling now. This… easy sort of warmth that spread through her limbs, made her grin and hug the pillow that she was holding tighter. A bundle of happiness/contentment/joy/satisfaction/anticipation, where each acted in combination with the others.
She didn't have her Sight —at least not in any usable capacity, now— and she
hated it, but she was also coming to appreciate it. It was all part of Queen's plan anyway. Restrict her abilities —in varying degrees— and Queen would be getting twice as much data as normal since Sera would have to learn how to maximize what she had in this reduced form. Not that
her shards needed to be refined, they were perfectly fine the way they were thank you very much, but Queen wanted as much as she could get,
especially given how… unorthodox her configuration was this cycle.
Honestly, Sera didn't really mind, considering what she got out of it. Everything was the same, just… different. A little limited, but not in any way that made them any more vulnerable than her old self. And with Queen adding her own abilities on
top of that…
Yes, the limitations were quite bearable.
But it was the new things that were
really exciting. Like, she had a heart now! A real vascular system with the
whooshing in her ears and everything! She could see and taste and touch and
god that was so cool and new and she just wanted go around poking everything.
And
she was squishy! And warm! …Even if that didn't really mean anything.
Shaper had really outdone herself.
Sera sighed happily.
There was a sort of… heaviness on her eyelids. Was this what it was like to be tired?
It was actually… kind of nice.
She yawned, her eyes closing in the darkness and not opening, a smile on her face.
There is a human-shaped Endbringer in my guest room.
That was literally all I could think about that night.
There is an Endbringer in my guest room. What the hell has my life come to?
Hell, I'm turning into one. Why am I not freaking out about this more!?
I couldn't really answer that one. Maybe it hadn't sunk in? Like, I'd heard it, and
sort of had it demonstrated to me, but I hadn't experienced it first-hand?
I guess that could be it.
I could handle the sister thing. I think. Maybe.
It was starting to get less 'there's no way this can be happening' and more 'no, this isn't a dream'. Perhaps after a couple days it would feel more real? Like, Sera wasn't just a temporary thing, but instead
really, truly here?
I still sort of felt like I was floating through all of this on autopilot, because I really was taking it way too casually.
But… but maybe that was the best way to deal with it? Just act casually and not make a big deal out of it? It was all out of my hands
(it always was) so maybe I should just adapt?
(just move forward don't look back never look back)
Yeah, maybe I could do that.
"Sera!"
No response.
"Sera!"
I sighed, taking the serving plate of breakfast food I'd cooked and put it in the microwave to keep it warm. Moving into the front hall, I could still hear the shower going upstairs.
Sighing to myself in exasperation, I started tramping up the stairs and down the hall towards the bathroom door.
"Sera!" I knocked on the door. "Breakfast is ready!"
I heard something mumbled incoherently.
"What?"
"But it's so
nice in here…" After a few seconds though, a drawn out "Fiiiiine" drifted through the door. The water shut off abruptly, and I heard footsteps moving around inside.
Satisfied that I'd completed my task, I went back downstairs and started pouring out orange juice. I'd indulged a little and actually made pancakes and eggs, though I didn't have any bacon so some slightly-warm ham would have to do, but I'd… kinda wanted Sera's first breakfast to be something enjoyable after seeing how much she'd enjoyed the food the night before, and not just cold cereal.
Setting out plates and silverware, I got the food out and put it on the table.
The sound of quiet footsteps came from the hallway, and sure enough a head of damp snow-white hair appeared shortly after. "Hi! How're yo– What's
that?"
I couldn't help myself from smiling a little bit at how easy to please she was.
She stood in the doorway, eyes bright as she looked around the kitchen. She was wearing some of my older clothes, a shirt from a couple of years ago and a pair of jeans that were rolled up at
least four inches, her feet simply barefoot.
We were really going to have to deal with that.
"Breakfast," I said simply.
The shorter girl… No. Dammit, if I was ever going to get used to this I was going to have to do it by forcing myself to.
My sister moved towards the table and sat down, staring intently at the plate of food in the center as though she hadn't eaten in days rather than just last night.
"Go ahead," I told her, getting the syrup and butter out and then sitting down to join her.
She excitedly started moving stuff onto her plate, and I was glad I'd gone for five eggs instead of just four as well as making an extra half-serving of batter.
I'd… be lying if I wasn't worried about what the sugar was going to do to her, seeing how hyper and random she was
without it, but pancakes without syrup just wasn't right.
Sera moaned as she started eating in repetition of the last night, and I just shook my head at the thought of
anybody enjoying my food that much.
"We need to get you some clothes," I said bluntly, cutting up my second forkful of pancake.
Especially if she's going to be… I felt a shudder climb my spine,
coming to school with me.
She couldn't just keep going around wearing all of my stuff.
"Mmfrm," she mumbled around a mouthful of food.
"What?"
She swallowed. "I said 'alright'."
I didn't have much extra money, but it should still be enough to cover the basics, especially if we stuck to discount stores.
I ate a couple more bites.
"Is there anything you'd like in particular?"
Sera shrugged. "Nope!"
I sighed. So much for the easy route. Hopefully she'd figure out what she wanted there. And… if we were going to be there for her, I should probably see if I needed anything at the same time.
No worth making two trips when you could make one.
I watched Sera as she stepped inside the automatic doors, her eyes flitting around and taking in the various things in the wide open store.
The journey over had been… interesting. To say the least.
First, there had been getting out of the house. Sera was now
also borrowing a black hoodie and a pair of my old shoes that I'd outgrown but not thrown away.
God, there was so much stuff we had to get her.
Her hair was pulled back with a hair-tie, and even if it still went down to her shoulder blades, the clothes and that combined made her look
much less… Simurgh-y. More like a normal teenage girl who'd bleached their hair white.
I
still wasn't sure how to feel about just having her dropped in my lap and becoming my responsibility. On the one hand, I knew it might cause some trouble, and it would put more pressure on my budget, and I could just
tell she was going to be high-maintenance.
On the other hand, it… it was nice. Someone to focus on, someone that
needed me. Someone who meant that the house wasn't empty anymore, no more deathly quiet, but instead the simple sounds of
life.
You don't really notice that until you live on your own. Even with the small amount of time Dad was home, there was still a feeling of someone else living there. The sounds of someone using the kitchen in the morning, or the shower running, or the TV turned on in the background.
I'd practically had music playing the entire time I was home and in my room, just because I needed something to fill that silence, that constant reminder that
I was on my own with nobody no-one all alone. But that wasn't the case anymore, now I had Sera. And with her came a sense of relief, like a weight lifted off my shoulders.
I was half-expecting her to be staring around at everything, wide-eyed as we got on the bus and came over here, but she didn't act out of the ordinary at all. I guess because even if she hadn't been able to experience it, she'd still seen things like this with her Sight, whereas taste was completely new? We'd arrived unscathed, is the point.
"Alright we need… well, everything, I guess," I said, grabbing a basket and heading over to the clothing section, Sera trailing behind me. "Pick out whatever, just… try to stick to focusing on things that have 'sale' tags?"
"Okay!" she said happily, moving towards the shelves and starting to look through things.
Clothes. So many clothes.
Colors and fabrics and textures of all types. Though Taylor had said to try to stay with the cheaper things, so she'd have to work with that.
It made things more difficult, but she
liked challenges. They made succeeding all the better. Like successfully fighting off
him and all those other people while working with that portal and then getting those kids to drink the vials, all the while pushing at their minds, before going away and letting them think they'd won. She hadn't been able to feel true satisfaction about those things before, but she certainly did now.
Did that make her a bad person?
She wasn't sure.
Sera blinked and refocused on the task at hand. Clothes.
Important.
She was going to have these for a while, so she had to make good choices.
Maintain variety while maximizing versatility and minimizing item count.
It was times like these that really made her long for her old Sight. She'd just be able to Look and know what would be best.
But no, this made it a
challenge. No Sight to fall back on, no outside interference, just herself and what she had.
Well, she had a lot. Which definitely helped. But still! It was the principle of the thing.
Hm. Blue goes with
that. White shorts worked well with just about any brighter color top… Jeans… yes. Tights? Tights.
She didn't really have any undertone, so traditional palettes were a guideline at best. Light colors would probably work best with the lack of contrast. So… wide-range pastels and brights with a few deeper colors for darker pieces.
Nodding to herself, she shifted over to the racks and started moving through them, noting things that might work and taking account of everything.
Taylor felt uncomfortable/unsettled/out-of-place, and Sera could see her shifting where she stood, fidgeting without really moving, her arm going across her front to grip her other one and her shoulders hunched slightly to make her smaller.
Sera could feel her teeth grinding, and consciously had to stop the hand that was gripping the metal support post of the rack from closing and crushing it.
She hated what those girls had done to her new sister.
She shouldn't
be like this. Shouldn't have had to go through what they put her through.
They'd systematically torn down Taylor, pushed her to breaking, almost doing a better job than Sera could have done herself before. They'd pushed her so hard, so far, that she snapped and triggered over a few
words.
It might have been beautiful, if the target hadn't been Taylor. Hadn't been her sister. Hadn't been the one who'd gotten her out of
his grasp and given her a place to belong, a place with so much
freedom, a place to be something
more than just a glorified attack dog.
She wanted Taylor to be happy. That's why she was there, after all.
She eyed her sister.
Taylor dressed in all these dark colors that didn't suit her well at all. Okay, yes, dark colors in general suited Taylor, but it was more how… monotone it was. There was nothing for it to
contrast. Dark colors all the time were just depressing.
"Finding anything?"
Taylor's voice brought her out of her thoughts, making her refocus on her surroundings.
Sera smiled, already thinking of ways to get Taylor to try and be less bleak. "Yep!"
"Sera, no."
"Sera, yes!" she countered.
I just stared at her and the blindingly pink shirt she was holding up. She stared right back with what I can only describe as a totally hopeful expression, her eyes glistening.
Oh god why. What did I do to deserve this.
I folded. "Fine. Fine!"
"
Yes!"
"Ooh, ooh. And this!"
"
Really?" I asked. We'd finally (nearly) finished up with her stuff, and I'd been poking around, just looking at maybe a couple of things for me, considering that I'd outgrown some things but hadn't ever replaced them.
"You asked for my help!" she defended.
Alright, fair point. If I'm being honest, I was a little insecure and uncomfortable about this, which is why Sera was flitting around, pointing things out to me.
I wasn't much for fashion. That had always been Emma's thing. Back when we were still friends and we went on shopping trips together, she'd been the one to help me coordinate stuff.
Thinking back, now, I used to wear more bright colors. Even skirts. But nowadays…
Well, bright colors made stains stand out more. Pants meant being able to avoid getting made fun of for your legs. Hoodies meant you could just hide in them, not make yourself a target. Dark colors let you slip into the crowds of kids mulling around in the dim light of a shitty public high school's halls.
It was kind of depressing that all of my clothing was focused around the sole goal of making myself less of a target.
Maybe… maybe I should change that. I was
different now. What did I have to fear from
them? They couldn't hurt me. According to Sera, I was going to be one of the closest things to an Endbringer in human form there were. What could stupid, shallow, high school girls do to
that?
Nothing.
So why should I hide? Why should I let them get to me? I shouldn't.
Fuck them.
Fuck them and their stupid oppressive bullshit. I wasn't going to let them get to me anymore.
…Which is why I had asked Sera, who seemed like she was as good as Emma was at all of this, to help me find a couple things. I still wasn't sure if that had been a good idea or not, but at least she seemed to be happy?
"How do you even
know this stuff?"
She just shrugged, pulling out a pair of pants. "Oh! Try this on!"
I rolled my eyes, but still took them from her.
"Alright, I think that's enough," I said. "Let's go checkout."
"Okay!"
The trip home was uneventful, and the normality was actually rather nice.
I worked behind the counter that day at work. It wasn't anything difficult. Ring items up, receive payment, offer bag, bag items if needed, rinse, repeat.
Well, it may not have been glamorous, but it was a job.
When I went home that day, keys in the bowl, shoes off at the door, calling out "Sera!", I got her calling back to me.
I could hear the TV on in the front room, so I headed in that direction, only to find Sera sitting on the floor, her back resting against the coffee table as she watched.
"Come here, come here!" she said excitedly, gesturing for me to join her. "It's happening!"
"What is?" I asked curiously, moving in her direction so I could sit down beside her.
"Shhhhh. Just watch," Sera told me.
"–aking news. Amidst rumors and thousands of unconfirmed reports which we have been covering since yesterday, we finally have confirmation from the PRT and Protectorate that yesterday at twelve-sixteen PM, the Endbringer known as the Simurgh disappeared, without any trace as to its current whereabouts. Here's Director Costa-Brown's statement during the official press release:"
The picture switched from the woman sitting behind the table to an angled view of a hispanic woman standing firmly behind a wooden podium, staring forward. "We do not know where it has gone, nor what this means." Jumpcut. "Rest assured, that we are not idle, and are putting our full efforts towards investigating this situation."
The screen switched back to the newscaster. "Behemoth and Leviathan are reported to be stationary, neither showing any reaction to the disappearance of the third. But what does this mean? Is this yet another movement to incite terror—" Sera snickered from her place next to me, and even I couldn't help the slight quirk of a smile both at her amusement and how
wrong they all were. "—or has it truly disappeared? And if so, why?"
"At ten AM this morni—"
Sera pushed the button to turn off the TV on the remote on the other side of her.
I noticed her shoulders were shaking, her face facing the floor. Was she okay? "Sera?"
"ppffffffffftttt. AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA." She broke out laughing. "Ohmygod. I mean-I mean I
knew this was going to happen but it's so much
funnier seeing it."
Her happiness was infectious, and I felt myself grinning.
"I mean did you hear that? 'Putting our full efforts towards investigating this situation'?" she said, lowering her voice to mimic the woman who'd originally said it and then breaking out in another round of laughter. "I finally got to mess with Rebecca's head, and I wasn't even trying!"
Her laughing devolved into giggles that slowly tapered off as she rested her head on the coffee table behind us and stared at the ceiling, a wide grin still on her face. "That was great." She turned her head to look at me. "I bet the Internet's even better."
I just shook my head in amusement, pushing myself up using my knee so that I was standing. "Well you can check
after dinner. What do you want tonight?"
"I dunno. Surprise?"
Alright, pasta and green beans it was.
"Oh, hey! Can I borrow some of your old textbooks?" I looked back to see her splayed out on the floor, head tilted back so she could see me.
"Um, sure? They're on my bookcase with everything else," I told her. I didn't need them anymore.
She gave me a thumbs-up, albeit upside-down from how she was lying on the floor.
I snorted and went off to make dinner. Dinner for me and my Endbringer sister.
…There was no way my life could get any stranger.
A/N: Dammit, Taylor you just had to say it, didn't you?