The Ashlar Knells


It's not really self loathing its this bloody spiral of chemical imbalances... I've managed 1 page since friday but all day today and some of yesterday I've been stuck in hyperboredom, unable to glean any effort out of myself to create in any capacity and I just feel like nothing matters. I know rationally its not like that but my emotions are just going "you either stay here in hellworld where no happiness rests or you kill yourself. there is no other option" and I know its unmedicated bullshit from my traumatized ADD brain but...
bleeeh.
 
Part 23









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The best part is how serious Brick Golem looks. He thinks he is in an arm unit doing some serious training...and he looks like a precious brick child. I am here for this.
 
He has got some sick moves. His foundations are as solid as bricks.
 
The brick Golem looks quite nimble. It may not make the best tank like a classical Golem but I can think of some things this little one can aid in.
 
And thus did the party double their supply of legs, heads, and (presumably) torsos. Truly a great day for the collective, though, alas, not a revolutionary one.

I find it interesting that an apparently green brick adopted Nilam's colourscheme. I wonder if that implies something... at least they thus far seem loyal.

Is that a five'o'clock-shadow?
 
The Brick Golem's very serious about this dance routine. He must have been practising.
 
Bricks are psychic/stone type with the evolved form of stack of bricks according to the eldritch goddess that pretends to be a Pokémon trainer
 
Gotta admit, I was expecting the golem to be...bigger.

Maybe the brick golem can hurl itself into the eye of whatever wants to hurt Nilam?

Also, it seems that this dungeon is significantly above Nilam's level, and the rat she ran into is at least ten levels higher than her. Meaning it was created for adventurers at least 10 times as powerful as her.

And it seems we she have enough magic juice to create a staircase to the opening above.

Quite a pickle, indeed...
 
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what was the point of the torture porn in chapter 16/17? i cant read a litrpg where the menu has it out for the mc.
Then you shouldn't read it? I have been thinking about this comment for a while because it has been bothering me in the context of this comic. And I can finally put my finger on why it is bothering me.
It feels to me that characters aren't allowed to have real strugless, or be broken when I' m reading these kinds of comments about fiction.

I see two broad interpretations to that scene. The Menu box being a function of her mind that is creating invasive thoughts while the Nilam is low. This is I sympathize a lot with this interpretation myself and it makes Nilam a very relatable character for me.
And other the interpretation of the protagonist being dependent on a abusive helper, of the kind that hsd their self-worth being (partially) dependent on the idea that the person you are trying to force your well meant halp on appreciating that halp. These poeple tend to lash out in illogical ways, like kicking out when the dependent actually asks for help after having tried to do something independent before.
I'm sure that we've all seen or heard people with tendencies like that since the character trait doesn't seem. And it soothes me that I am not the only one who sees these people exist.

It often feels that there is a taboo on talking about these subjects even in fiction
But I like it when they are talked about, because it allows me to think about them more freely about behaviors and situations without having to consider the muddy waters of the complex realities that interpersonal conflicts and blame games that people like to hang themselves in. Fiction is often the only context that we can discuss topics like abuse, mental illness and just being unfortunate in life because everybody is meant to ignore the the uncomfortable things in real life.
It me frustrates that people are always trying to shut these topics down. It frustrates me that even in the context of fiction it appears every so often that people complain about characters going through bad times. It frustrates me because many authors and artists describe showing their art it is like putting your soul out there and one negative comment can have more impact on some authors than many positive ones.
That frustrates me because I hunger for what you call torture porn, it reminds me that I am not alone and that suffering is a core part of the human experience and not something to feel ashamed about.
 
Then you shouldn't read it? I have been thinking about this comment for a while because it has been bothering me in the context of this comic. And I can finally put my finger on why it is bothering me.
It feels to me that characters aren't allowed to have real strugless, or be broken when I' m reading these kinds of comments about fiction.

I see two broad interpretations to that scene. The Menu box being a function of her mind that is creating invasive thoughts while the Nilam is low. This is I sympathize a lot with this interpretation myself and it makes Nilam a very relatable character for me.
And other the interpretation of the protagonist being dependent on a abusive helper, of the kind that hsd their self-worth being (partially) dependent on the idea that the person you are trying to force your well meant halp on appreciating that halp. These poeple tend to lash out in illogical ways, like kicking out when the dependent actually asks for help after having tried to do something independent before.
I'm sure that we've all seen or heard people with tendencies like that since the character trait doesn't seem. And it soothes me that I am not the only one who sees these people exist.

It often feels that there is a taboo on talking about these subjects even in fiction
But I like it when they are talked about, because it allows me to think about them more freely about behaviors and situations without having to consider the muddy waters of the complex realities that interpersonal conflicts and blame games that people like to hang themselves in. Fiction is often the only context that we can discuss topics like abuse, mental illness and just being unfortunate in life because everybody is meant to ignore the the uncomfortable things in real life.
It me frustrates that people are always trying to shut these topics down. It frustrates me that even in the context of fiction it appears every so often that people complain about characters going through bad times. It frustrates me because many authors and artists describe showing their art it is like putting your soul out there and one negative comment can have more impact on some authors than many positive ones.
That frustrates me because I hunger for what you call torture porn, it reminds me that I am not alone and that suffering is a core part of the human experience and not something to feel ashamed about.
im not against abuse existing in fiction. ive appreciated works that feature it heavily even. as a survivor i dont apprciate being triggered unless theres what to me personally feels like a good reason. i called it torture porn not because she was having a bad time, but because it was explicitly sexual. i felt like it wasnt given appropriate narrative weight. maybe if there was some kind of trigger warning? I know irl these things come out of the blue and blindside you, but this is a fiction forum. its not that i want to force everyone and everything to be positive all the time to accommodate my trauma.
 
im not against abuse existing in fiction. ive appreciated works that feature it heavily even. as a survivor i dont apprciate being triggered unless theres what to me personally feels like a good reason. i called it torture porn not because she was having a bad time, but because it was explicitly sexual. i felt like it wasnt given appropriate narrative weight. maybe if there was some kind of trigger warning? I know irl these things come out of the blue and blindside you, but this is a fiction forum. its not that i want to force everyone and everything to be positive all the time to accommodate my trauma.

that's a fair assessment, though I did go for "infantalizing speech" and "go along with my dismissive rude behavior" more than sexualizing, but that's ultimately a failure on my ability to convey. Mostly this was there to show that the narrator holds all the cards in this situation and is both spiteful and just a jerk. Nilam's not sure where the heck she is in this new setup, nothing is certain and nothing is safe, while the only source of potential help she has is being spiteful mostly out of boredom while also literally losing nothing from their position either way.

I was basically trying to convey that the narrator is a bastard to set up even further how naturally hostile they are to someone who doesn't go along with their idea of what was supposed to happen, both on a shared enthusiasm level and also just on proper "behavior". They keep sarcastically calling Nilam "Hero", having expected a proper protagonist.

I would like a set of triggers I should warn for in the first post, because im sure I've already missed something more than this infantilizing behavior already, and im sorry for having caused you this pain.

Also this is more of an open request, you, prof_chemical don't have to personally give me a list.
 
i called it torture porn not because she was having a bad time, but because it was explicitly sexual.
What? I did not get this impression at all. The point was to humiliate her but humiliation does not need to have a sexual component and it did not in this case, I don't think forcing someone to apologize to you in a groveling manner is in any way intrinsically sexual.

It can be sexual but I don't think anything about how the story handled it made it sexual, explicit, or otherwise.

I don't think there's anything wrong with feeling uncomfortable or thinking there should be a trigger warning, but this viewpoint doesn't seem justified by the actual content of the story.
 
im not against abuse existing in fiction. ive appreciated works that feature it heavily even. as a survivor i dont apprciate being triggered unless theres what to me personally feels like a good reason. i called it torture porn not because she was having a bad time, but because it was explicitly sexual. i felt like it wasnt given appropriate narrative weight. maybe if there was some kind of trigger warning? I know irl these things come out of the blue and blindside you, but this is a fiction forum. its not that i want to force everyone and everything to be positive all the time to accommodate my trauma.
I feel that I will say something to reply, Because I started this rather difficult conversation. Most of what I would have liked to say has already been covered.
Especially the words of sympathy about you having stumbled on a trigger and the 'huh? what do you mean sexual'.

So instead I would like to thank you for explaining your opinion.
 
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