... You know, Rory, honestly, that's an urge that a lot of people have had, and the longer your Ethan exposure the more likely you are to snap. At least your snap only resulted in a punch and not marrying the idiot! (Who I'm sure has some redeeming qualities, especially in other works, but my goodness is he just absolutely overwhelmingly terrible with the Orderly!Wards.)
I wouldn't say he's uniformly terrible, but he'd honestly be less frustrating if he was. As it is, he has just enough moments of taking things seriously and/or doing a legitimately good job to show that, if he tried, he could a be good coworker/boss. And then he just doesn't.

And he keeps being grossly insensitive even though he's fully capable of just not doing that.

Yeah, it's pretty understandable to want to punch him in the face. Still probably not a good idea though.
 
40-1 Inform
What do you even say to something like that?

Reassurances are, of course, the obvious answer, assuming you have the slightest shred of empathy for the person saying it, (and I certainly hope that's the case,) but that's far easier said than, well, said.

What possible reassurance, sincere or otherwise, could possibly seem adequate?


If I had been the one doing the reassuring, my first answer probably would have been hugs. Can't say for sure if it would have been a good answer, but they were my go to for a reason, and physical presence and pressure has a weight of its own.

And not just in the ways that physics tell us.

Failing that, probably because the hypothetical other person wasn't in a hug-friendly state, or just didn't know me well enough for it, I'd probably admit my own worries, faults, or foibles. That method has its own risks, of course, particularly the chance of seeming like you're undercutting the other person or trying to make it about you, but if you can pull it off, get it understood that you're sympathising instead of patronising, it can work wonders.


Triumph could, in fact, pull it off. Or, rather, Rory could pull it off. That's an important distinction.

The face was the core of it. Triumph's frozen face was that of a lion victorious, triumphant in its feline, predatory, glory, wrought in gold (that probably wasn't actual gold but definitely looked like it) and pride unbreakable. Whether you deemed it arrogant and overreaching or as it's (presumably) intended shining beacon of strength and hope, it wasn't a face made for admitting weakness. It wasn't a persona meant for admitting weakness. Or folly.

It wasn't physically impossible for Triumph to admit fault, but it was distinctly at odds with every other aspect of what was Triumph, the carefully crafted celebrity character. It wasn't unimaginable for that "everything I do is perfect and how dare you imply otherwise" aura to drop, but it was incongruous, and thus more than a little difficult to believe.


Like, well, basically any cat. Only more so. Infinitely too proud to acknowledge mistakes.

Although unlike Felis Catus, I don't imagine Triumph was particularly likely to fall off a piano or get caught eating the houseplants. And his record as a superhero wasn't anything exceptional, but it was pretty solid for the point of his career he was at. So maybe his pride was a little more justified.

But it was still a little much if you wanted to talk to a person instead of a shining beacon of hope, positivity, and much less floof than you'd expect from a cat-based superhero persona.


Rory was a different matter. He could admit fault, and do so with impressive grace. He could be Rory, suddenly in the face of all that Triumph was, and laugh. Genuinely at that, or at least with a considerable amount of skill and effort put into faking it. It doesn't say great things about his perceptiveness that he apparently failed to notice the name thing before, but you couldn't fault his willingness to admit when he'd been stupid.

It wasn't the most obviously admirable of admirable traits, but I admired it all the same. And he certainly made it work for him.


"Look, Jacqueline, I can't say that poking Purity like you did wasn't stupid, but I also can't say I haven't done stupider things for worse reasons."

Admittedly, stunned blinking probably wasn't the reaction he was going for, but he certainly didn't let it stop him. Not for more than a moment, anyway. And even that was probably just in case we had anything to say.

(He also didn't exactly use the word "things", and he probably shouldn't have been using the word he did use around impressionable minors, but I wasn't particularly worried about it. The situation did require a certain level of emphasis, and it wasn't like we'd never been exposed to profanity before. I had, in fact, heard significantly worse from both of the other girls in the room, and even if that hadn't been the case this was Brockton Bay. I had read the writing on the wall(s), and a statistically significant portion of it made Triumph's expletive seem positively prudish in comparison.)


"At the end of the day, all you did was lambast somebody who definitely deserved it. Harshly, yes, and with incredibly bad timing, but it was still just words. From what I heard you didn't even curse, and you held your tongue until she specifically asked why you were 'looking at her like that.'"

I supposed that was true. And a good thing too, given that anything more probably would have pushed it from "could have ended very poorly" to "ended very poorly".

"I, on the other hand, once punched Assault in the face just because he was being a teasing jerk."

That did sound like him. Assault, that is. It would have been more surprising to learn that the man hadn't gotten himself punched in the face for being a jerk at some point. I wouldn't have specifically pegged Triumph as the one to do it, but I also wouldn't have pegged him as particularly unlikely. Story checked out.

Giggling was probably not the most appropriate response on my part, but in my defence it's not like the man couldn't take a punch. He could take all the punches. It was a core part of his schtick.


"Okay, okay, maybe that one's funny cause it's him," Rory continued, visibly but not verbally acknowledging that he definitely did it on purpose, "but it was still a poor move on my part. I didn't even consider his powerset before I did it, and he absolutely could have torn me apart for it. Physically or just with the rules. He didn't, because as much as he can be grossly insensitive and almost never actually apologises he's not one for retaliating when he's called out, but he could have."

Yeah. He absolutely could have. Rory was a Brute in his own right, of course, but Assault was out of his league in terms of experience with Brute-on-Brute violence and significantly more powerful to boot. And his power was pretty much a direct counter. And though I didn't know too much about Wards' disciplinary matters, I was fairly sure the PRT didn't exactly appreciate assault on a superior officer.

Even if they deserved it, it wasn't the sort of thing a paramilitary organisation could let slide.

"So you see, you're not the only one who's gotten mad and done something stupid."

I blinked at that.

"And if that doesn't convince you, I've got plenty more stories."

I decided that I liked Rory as I nodded with something approaching eagerness.
 
"And if that doesn't convince you, I've got plenty more stories."

I decided that I liked Rory as I nodded with something approaching eagerness.

And this shows the true power of friendship by poking fun at ones self to lighten the mood and taking others' minds off of the chaos that is known as life.
 
And this shows the true power of friendship by poking fun at ones self to lighten the mood and taking others' minds off of the chaos that is known as life.
Rory's very good at not taking himself too seriously, and that's a trait Jacqueline admires. It's a good combination.
 
40-2 Induct
Rory did, in fact, have plenty more stories. He didn't play the starring role in all of them, or even a majority, but he did make sure to include plenty of his own mistakes. To hear him tell it, it was hard to believe he'd established himself as a solidly respectable superhero, or even lived to adulthood, but I took his point: If he and all the people he talked about managed to make it despite the occasional screwup (remembering that his stories were spread over years and just shy of a dozen people) so could I.

One mistake wasn't the end of the world.


Unless it got you killed or something, but he was being very careful to stick to stories where the consequences weren't that serious or where things could have gone deeply wrong but ultimately didn't.

I knew there were stories where they did. Maybe he knew them or maybe he didn't, the details of most of them weren't exactly clear, but they existed. The business was like that. Mostly it happened to independents, without the extensive support structure Wards and Protectorate members alike enjoyed, but not universally.

There were names that had been on the publically-facing rosters that weren't there anymore. Transfers, rebrands, or both, most of them, but not all.

But Rory didn't mention any of them, even in passing, and I didn't ask.


Instead, I allowed myself to be lulled. I laughed at Clockblocker trapping himself in his suit. I made appropriately worried noises at Vista publically challenging Über to fight her. I sat enraptured over no less than three Nazi supervillains getting attacked by heroes at inadvisable moments. I laughed at Clockblocker trapping himself in his suit again, then at the time he'd gotten Alabaster stuck in concrete for hours out of pure vindictiveness. I cringed at several moments of Assault being himself at supervillains at particularly bad times, then at him punching Lung in the face over some frankly relatively innocuous comment, I laughed at Clockblocker trapping himself in his suit.


Yes, I mentioned Clockblocker trapping himself in his suit three times. So did Rory, in three entirely distinct stories set in three entirely distinct settings and each time it happened for a different reason, but I knew full well he was making a running gag of it. It wasn't like there wasn't plenty of material: the suit was apparently designed specifically so that he could freeze it as a single piece as a defensive measure.

It made sense: if there was danger about that mundane material science and his martial skills couldn't protect him against, he could just freeze his armour and become all but invincible. Sure, it wasn't entirely certain that being enclosed in a frozen object would protect him from everything, but no amount of force the testing department had been able to bring to bear could puncture or rend so much as a piece of tissue paper if it was under the effects of his power.

In the parahuman world, it is inadvisable to assume that you, or anyone you care even slightly about, is perfectly protected against everything, but being protected against things is still tremendously valuable. And such a defence certainly protected him from a lot more things than just about anything else could have.

It was just also fairly easy to activate inadvertently. And considering that the consequences of that were merely annoying and inconvenient instead of dangerous, it was a worthwhile tradeoff.

Not that Rory was quite so explicit about what he was saying, but that was what he meant.


I was aware of the tangent, I'll note. I knew full well that I was being diverted into a distraction. I've pulled that trick too many times to not recognise it. And Rory wasn't being particularly subtle about it, even if I was the one who asked why Clockblocker's suit could be frozen like that.

I'm not sure if that was the plan from the beginning or if he just took the opportunity and ran with it, but he did a good job either way. By the time he went back to storytelling, I was all but on an even, if still unsteady, keel once more.

An even keel, coincidentally, would have been very useful to Vista in her seaborne (well, bayborne) misadventures. She apparently didn't take challenges to her capabilities or maturity well, and hadn't been much of one for picking out boats carefully or checking the weather. Which, considering this was a town with a lingering maritime culture, probably could have been handled better. It probably wouldn't have ended well if she wasn't, well, Vista, but at least it was an experience she seemed (by Rory's account) to have learned from.


Stormy seas and silly scenes aside, though, Rory did eventually get around to explicitly making his point instead of just hinting at it. (Not that the buildup wasn't important in its own right, but you get my point.)

"Look, my point is, none of us superheroes are perfect. We've all made mistakes, and most of us have made mistakes out of anger. I certainly have, and even if my timing wasn't as unfortunate I've certainly done a lot more for a lot less reason.

"And as for anger taking over your life, well, I've seen it happen. A lot of people, a lotta capes in particular, let it drive them further and further until they burn out, usually leaving a lotta bodies behind them. But that's the thing, they let it."

He sighed, and I got the feeling that he'd known at least one of "they" personally. But if he didn't want to tell me about it I wasn't going to ask.

"They justified it, and whatever stupid things they did with it, with whatever causes they had, and by the end never stopped feeling like they were the one wholly and incontestably in the right. They wouldn't be blaming themselves for something like this, especially in the case of the potential harm never coming into reality.

"You've already learned the lesson they failed to. I can't say I'm in any way happy about how it happened, and I can assure you that I'm not the only one unsatisfied with how certain things were handled, but I don't think you're going to forget it anytime soon."

"...no."

"Attagirl," he nodded at me, "so yeah, take it as a learning experience, but don't think it'll 'forever dominate your destiny' or anything like that. Not unless you want it to, and I'm pretty sure you know better than most that you don't. And I don't think you'll be in any way lacking support in that decision"

He looked at Taylor, over my shoulder, and must have liked what he saw, because he nodded and (metaphorically) handed me over without a fuss.

The last I heard from Rory Christner, just before he turned back to dealing with Sophia, was "don't worry, you'll probably do a lot better than I did!"

That probably shouldn't have been as reassuring as it was.
 
Rory is so awesome!

I think he's one of the bottle supers, right? If he is, would be awesome to befriend his power
Yup. His father bought him his powers from Cauldron.
Canonically, Rory got his powers because his dad bought them from Cauldron in order to support Rory's career ambitions in baseball, where he was always second best. This failed because, as it turns out, letting superhumanly strong, fast, and tough people play professional baseball is actually really bad for the sport, and mere months after Rory got his powers the MLB started screening for Coronas.

That strikes me as the kind of "how I got my powers" story that either teaches you to laugh at yourself or to resent the world and everybody in it. Fortunately for Jacqueline, Rory took the less self-destructive route.
 
40-3 Inexpert
This wasn't my first time alone in a public bathroom with Taylor, but a lot had changed since I'd bustled her out of the last one and into a dusty, empty, and underequipped classroom.

For one thing, this was the single-person variety, one that was locked, guaranteeing us at least some measure of privacy. (And significantly less of my blood on the floor.) For another, her unspoken "what is wrong with you" had metamorphosed into an equally unspoken "I know exactly what is wrong with you, and I love you and it's not your fault, but I am still very much upset about it."

Which, you know, fair.

I had pretty much spent the entire time I'd known her ping-ponging between old disasters being revealed (to her) and all-new, all-different, disasters. To some degree, it was remarkable that she was even willing to put up with me.

Not that I was surprised. I was adorable, we were trauma-bonded, and it wasn't like she was exactly swimming in unneeded love and support. She was almost as much of a disaster area as I was, as much as it wasn't really either of our fault, and much less well equipped to get other people to help her deal with it than myself.

Attachment was, if not inevitable, something neither of us were particularly inclined to evit. We were stuck with each other, disasters and all.

I can't say I minded terribly much. And while I suspected Taylor could say she minded all she wanted, if she wanted to be all tough and self-reliant and dumb about it for whatever reason, it wouldn't be particularly convincing.


More immediately relevant, at least on a surface level, last time we'd been alone in a public bathroom, my hair had been fine. Not great, considering Winslow's extremely limited haircare product availability and my limited skills, but not actively bad in any way. Taylor's was a lot nicer, but mine was still pretty good.

This time was a different story. This time I looked like a whole bunch of chunks of my hair had been heavy-handedly removed because they were completely unsalvageable after unfortunate encounters with human remains, vomit, and/or a blowtorch.

Because, well, that was exactly what happened. The results were not pretty, and if Taylor didn't say as much when she dragged me in front of the sinks, I was clearly supposed to infer that she was making an effort to mitigate the damage, and that that was why we were in the bathroom.

I was one for two. The effort was definitely being made, but if it was Taylor's sole purpose we would have been somewhere better equipped for the job. Or she would have gone and acquired something. At a minimum, she would have had a brush or comb and a few hair ties. Maybe some pins or accessories or something of that nature, and perhaps some product of one type or another.

Instead we had our hands, a small mirror, a sink, handsoap and a handdryer, those last two both very much designed for hands and not hair.

Taylor wasn't the best at long-term planning, but even if she'd somehow missed our crippling lack of resources when we came in she had to have noticed by the time her third attempt to sculpt the tattered remnants of my coiffure into something vaguely acceptable with her bare hands failed miserably.


That made it pretty obvious that there was something else on her mind. Well, that and the way her reflection looked like it was desperately trying to come up with a way to start a potentially awkward conversation. That was why we were in an empty bathroom.

I decided to let her try. She needed the practice, and I really didn't. If it looked like she was going to fail, I'd step in, but she did seem to be building up rather than breaking down.

I didn't expect her to be building up to a hug instead of words, but it came all the same, taking the place of a fifth futile attempt at hairdressing. I'm not entirely convinced (or at all convinced,) that it was deliberate intent on her part so much as mounting frustration with her lexicon's failure to initiate getting the better of her, but I decided to interpret it as a sign that I was a good influence on her all the same.


I let it happen, obviously, and reciprocated as best I could. Which wasn't particularly well, seeing as she was behind me, but I awkwardly leaned into it and put my arms over her own all the same.

Fortunately I had been carefully rehydrated recently, so I had all new tears to shed. Taylor hadn't, as far as I knew, but she didn't seem particularly hindered in that regard. Odds were it wasn't her first cry of the day either, just by sheer weight of the previous day's events, but maybe she just had bigger liquid reserves than I did.

Or maybe she'd actually drunk some water like a normal person. Probably that. As much as I had my doubts about her ability to take care of herself and make good decisions in more than one regard, I didn't think she had any problems with drinking. Her ability to take care of her physiological needs was, if not precisely impeccable, at least better enough than my own that I couldn't criticize. Like most teenagers, at least those with things like homes and parents, it was the higher tiers of the hierarchy of needs that were a little more in doubt. Perhaps the second a little more so than usual.

Not that I could talk. At least she'd waited for Armsmaster to start things before she set in on Lung.


I don't know how long we just stood there, crying and hugging. Probably longer than a bathroom visit could reasonably be expected to last, if hair fixing attempts hadn't already pushed us past that limit. But if anybody was intending to use our bathroom in particular, they clearly weren't desperate enough to knock. They could wait. So could awkward conversations.

We'd earned this.
 
So it feels stale now. We got like 10 chapters with same thing now. nothing is being done, everyone is crying, everything is shit.

We get it, move the plot along please.
 
I wouldn't put it quite so harshly, but I do kind of agree - it is starting to spiral; the story could do with a bit of momentum. You don't need to have a ninja jump out with a grenade, but you could easily flow into a "Back to School" segment, and at least move the struggle to "How do you deal with pop quizzes and homework after being kidnapped, tortured, and not-quite-accidentally murdering a super-villain?"
 
I wouldn't say nothing is being done: character development, recovering from a series of ordeals, etc. all take time and can't exactly be hidden under the rug a timeskip, at least not without severely undermining the impact of the story.

That said, yes, readers have varying levels of endurance for trauma and tears, and I'd expect moving to other themes to provide more contrast.
 
For quite some time now, Jacqueline's frankly absurd levels of trauma has been a recurring element, it's always there, even before "yesterday". Chapters vary in how prominent it is, but just about all of them have at least a nod to it. That's not going to change.

That being said, it has been heavier than usual recently and I am aware that another broad swing needs to come fairly soon. The next chapter is still pretty big on it, because that conversation that didn't happen this chapter does need to happen, but after that it'll be back to the background for a while.
 
40-4 Intracutaneous
Of course, the conversation did need to eventually happen. To her credit, Taylor was able to start it after the worst of the tears were past. To my credit, I didn't punch her in the face when she just straight-up asked me what happened with Purity with no warning whatsoever.

I mean, in a very real sense, it was a tremendously insensitive question. That the subject was beyond touchy was no secret whatsoever, and the results were no more so. It was on video, and that video was on the internet. It wouldn't be so ubiquitous you couldn't miss it, even if you followed cape events, but it'd be there if you looked. I knew Taylor could operate a search engine at least that well.

I'd seen her research on the city's cape scene, after all. I wouldn't call it prodigious, but it was well past the level needed.


But instead of lashing out, physically or (honestly more likely) verbally, I took a deep breath, steadied myself, and thought a little further. I was trying to be better than that. If I didn't want my life to be all about anger, I couldn't give in to it that easily.

Honestly, I don't think I would have even without that extra weight on the "don't lash out" side of the scales, but the temptation was sobering anyway. A reminder that anger comes in all shapes and sizes, that there's more to it than actual gross injustices. Sometimes it's more than unwise, it's unjustified. It was by no means the first time I'd come to that revelation, but it cut more than a little deeper than usual at the moment.

So I kept my cool, at least on the outside, and considered the question and why it had been asked. It was harder than I would have liked, but I could handle it, and be (relatively) nice about rebuking the question if it became necessary to do so.


Taylor wasn't nearly as accustomed to the internet and the wonders of modern communications networks as I was. Sure she knew they existed and how to use them, at least on a basic level, but they weren't the automatic go-to solution to not knowing something for her the way they were for me.

Actually, they weren't even really an automatic go-to solution to not knowing something for me anymore. They had been, for the me that came from outside, but the old Jacqueline wasn't nearly as quick to go to them, because of her historically limited access to them if nothing else. They were a tool to be used, and I didn't shy from them, but it might not have occurred to me to look there if our positions had been reversed.

And, well, it wouldn't have felt great to go behind Taylor's back and look for important things in her life without even talking to her about it first. It was for precisely that reason (admittedly not just for her) that I hadn't gone into public records to find out what happened to the mother of the Hebert family. If Taylor wanted to extend me the same courtesy, it would hardly be reasonable to blame her for it.

And I cared about her, and she about me. That meant that, if I could, (and that was, admittedly, an awfully big "if",) I should do my best to give her an honest explanation when she was worried. Even if she really could have been more careful about asking.

I sighed, and started talking. Even if I wasn't happy about it.


"So I did some research in the archives Saturday, looking into the Empire's capes. I learned, well, a lot of stuff and you should probably take a look-see yourself at some point, but most importantly I learned what happened the night mom died."

I didn't look at Taylor's face as I spoke. I suspect I wouldn't have liked what I would have seen if I had, and I knew if I looked I wouldn't be able to continue.

The quiet choked-down gasp I caught was not encouraging.


"Lung was out and about, doing whatever it is draconic would-be warlords do, a block or so north of his established territories of the time. Purity came along, doing whatever it is psychotic racists with way too much firepower for anybody's good do, and immediately started hit-and-running him into the least white neighbourhood in the vicinity: mine.

"By the time they were done thirty-seven people were dead, including my mother, I was homeless along with I don't even know how many others, and nothing of value was accomplished by or for either of the capes involved. Lung was up and about and extorting shopkeepers by noon the next day, Purity was seen maiming some Merchants a few days later, and none of the big gangs even bothered to claim the territory they'd fought over.

"My mother died for nothing more than an inconclusive skirmish, started for nothing more than Lung being slightly outside his territory and Purity having no regard whatsoever for her life."


Calm, Jacqueline, calm. I was ranting. Just a little, but this wasn't the time for it. I was angry, and I had cause to be, but it wasn't helping. And even if I had a right to be angry, it didn't make my mistakes right. And that was the next part.

Stopping to breathe helped. It still wasn't easy.

"So when she showed up out of the blue, I didn't respond well. I couldn't take my eyes off her, and I wasn't subtle about it. And when she took exception to that, I lost my temper and chewed her out, completely ignoring the fact that if she took exception to that a whole lot of people, people in my care at that, were going to die.

"I don't want to even try to remember what I said right now, let alone attempt to recreate the energy of it. I'm scared even the effort will send me right back where I don't want to be. If you really must know, somebody took a video of the whole thing and put it up on PHO, but I won't be watching it with you. I know I'll have to face it someday, but I don't want that day to be today.

"Yesterday has already done enough to ruin today."


I realised I was telling the truth there even as I said it. Today was supposed to be better, and not just in comparison to that abysmally low bar.

"I want to move on, at least for now. Let's do something productive."

"Okay," passed Taylor's lips like a benediction, careful and reserved yet filled with all the goodwill in the world. I was glad I didn't punch her stupid, pretty face. Hugs were swiftly exchanged, and then I stepped out the door and into the future.

Taylor quietly informed me that Armsmaster was up three flights of stairs and down two corridors before the awkward realisation that I had no idea where I was physically going fully set in.
 
40-5 Intellectualism
Armsmaster was expecting us. I don't even mean that he wasn't surprised by us walking into his (backup?) workshop unannounced, although he wasn't, he was actively and specifically ready for us.

Either he was keeping a closer eye on us than I'd realised, or Taylor had called ahead. A glance at the girl in question revealed nothing in a way that was clearly supposed to not reveal anything, so I assumed it was the latter. Metaphorically or literally.

A poker face is all well good for hiding things, but unless you're really good it still reveals that for some reason you think you need a poker face. Sometimes that's enough to give the game away all by itself. Armsmaster got around that little problem by making poker-face, or at least poker-helm, his default expression, and Vespiary would probably do something similar, but Taylor was an open book when she wasn't actively using her powers to cover it up.

Me, I sidestepped that issue by not using poker face unless I didn't mind the other person realising I was hiding something. Whether that was because they still wouldn't know what I was hiding or, as with Clockblocker, I suspected it would be funny whether or not they noticed.

(Which I was totally right about, by the way. It was hilarious. But you already know that.)


Anyway, Armsmaster was prepared with fun and productive activities for us. Well, fun for me. Taylor wasn't quite so enthusiastic about being given a bunch of tests at first, but she brightened up upon being informed they were the placement assessments for Arcadia.

Me, I was just happy at finally being given an intellectual challenge that was neither life-threatening nor way beneath my level.

Well, partially not way beneath my level. These were placement assessments, after all, which meant they were designed for placements. A normal examination would all be roughly on the same academic level, give or take, but one meant for placements covered a broader range.

It would start, Armsmaster explained, below our grade level and gradually ramp up. We had an hour and half to get as far as we could, and we were to do our best but not worry if it eventually got beyond us. I honestly suspected there was a pretty good chance I'd make it all the way on at least some of them, depending on where they set the bar, but it was fine if I didn't. It was designed to find out where we were, not judge us.

At a minimum, it should take some actual effort.

I got the feeling that he was paraphrasing somebody considerably wordier, but I think he conveyed the gist of the matter well enough. Start easy, progress to your limit, find out where you're at. Simple enough.


Taylor didn't seem to think so. She wasn't being obvious about it, she was, in fact, back to being poker-faced, but it's like I said before: that meant that for some reason she thought she needed a poker face.

There weren't all that many possible reasons for that to be the case. She could have simply disliked Armsmaster, or just been upset with him for whatever reason and been politely trying to hide it, but she was the one who'd decided to go to him. Even if she knew I was fond of the man, he was far from the only option. And she had dropped it during the explanation phase.

That, and the fact she hadn't used it during the trip, meant it wasn't about what'd I said in the bathroom, and for similar reasons it wasn't about what I'd said before the trip. Actually, it probably wasn't about me or Armsmaster at all, except for the part where she didn't want us to see it.

And, well, I knew all about Taylor's complicated academic history. It wasn't hard to make an educated guess.


"You'll do fine," I told her, much to her (only slightly concealed) surprise. Hopefully that was surprise at my noticing her test anxiety, rather than my being supportive in the face of it, but it was clear that a little further support would not go amiss.

"I mean it. I know your school experience has been colourful as of late," I understated grandly, "but you weren't failing. You were scraping by, by your own account, and I'm pretty sure you were actually doing at least a little more than that."

The look on her face confirmed it, even if it also said it wasn't that much more. Maybe it was and maybe it wasn't, it was still pretty impressive under the circumstances.

"And I know that wasn't on the strength of your assignments. I've kept a weather eye on Winslow's grading system, just in case somebody ever tried something, and you had to have done at least okay on tests. Even assuming the teachers were playing softball with you, and you've told me at least some of them very much weren't, with as many missing and late assignments as you had you'd need at least consistent mid Cs on exams to have even made it as far as you did, and that while being actively sabotaged on at least some of them by your erstwhile peers.


She did not, however, look convinced.

"Which I can promise won't be happening here."

Because I was literally the only peer she had in the room and I had no intention of doing so. And while she could sabotage somebody's test-taking without either being in the room or being unacceptably obvious about it, as far as I knew none of the other Wards could or would.

She didn't seem to take that second line of thought as far as I did, but she did seem at least a little comforted when she said "I know you wouldn't". I decided to take that as a win, all the more so when she followed it up with "I trust you."

I smiled, warmly and genuinely. "Then trust me when I say you'll be fine. Maybe you won't do as well as you would have, (she almost definitely wouldn't, but there was no need to say it out loud), but I have no doubt you'll put on a respectable showing."

I didn't. I even meant respectable by the standards of a functioning education system, instead of, well, Winslow, so it'd actually look a little impressive.

Taylor smiled back, seemingly convinced of her ability to do this at last, so I decided not to undermine my position by pointing out that even if she screwed this up massively it wasn't like the PRT and Arcadia alike wouldn't each individually give her a level of support Winslow students could only dream of to get her up to snuff.

Or how even if she somehow still managed to flunk out of high school her powers and Wards status basically guaranteed her a Protectorate position if she wanted one. Or her ludicrously massive advantages in entomology that would have any lab in the world salivating to hire her if she decided the hero life wasn't for her.

The fact that it would be trivially easy for her to cheat on exams, by the time she had to worry about graduation and universities if not just yet, and basically impossible for anybody to prove it also went unsaid, but I wouldn't have brought it up either way. I trusted her, just as she evidently did me, and there was nothing to be gained by pointing it out besides making it look like I didn't.

That wasn't something I wanted to do to her. So I just patted her on the back in what I hoped was an affirming fashion.

She'd be fine.
 
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You know what would be funny; Taylor being as hard to read as she is in cannon, which would cuase everyone to look at Jacqueline strangely when she describes her maybe future sister as easy to read.
 
You know what would be funny; Taylor being as hard to read as she is in cannon, which would cuase everyone to look at Jacqueline strangely when she describes her maybe future sister as easy to read.
It wasn't planned this way, but there's three big reasons why canon-Taylor is so hard to read, and none of them really apply to Jacqueline, at least not in full force.

First, there's the fact that most of the people who have difficulty reading her don't know her, they know her reputation. Skitter's actions are hard, ruthless, and reflective of a cold merciless and calculating personality instead of the teenage mess she actually is. Jacqueline, of course, first came to know Taylor as a mess.

Secondly, there's the body language. Taylor can just not have that, and that really messes with most people. Some are better at it than others, but most people instinctively look to that (and facial expressions) as their main means of reading people. Jacqueline, however, is naturally bad at that, and supplements it heavily with her understanding of the situation and how people work in general.

Finally, there's the one actually touched on in this chapter: canon Taylor responded to most cape stuff by making herself hard to read, purposefully or otherwise. Her mask is full face, and doesn't show anything. Poker-faced is her default state. But Taylor trusts Jacqueline, and Jacqueline has seen a lot more of Taylor without the mask, metaphorical or literal, than she has with it, and that means when there is a mask Jacqueline knows there's a reason for it.

And the really fun part is, absolutely none of the reasons Jacqueline isn't affected apply to this Taylor's enemies.
 
I don't want to even try to remember what I said right now, let alone attempt to recreate the energy of it. I'm scared even the effort will send me right back where I don't want to be. [...] I know I'll have to face it someday, but I don't want that day to be today.
Jacqueline, reminding us that mindfulness is ever important 💜


I love that! Jacqueline learning how to understand social cues in a different manner helping her connect with Taylor :)
Yas, and it might even help Taylor understand how to be more approachable when she needs (or wants) to be... and I feel in Worm, being approachable so people can resolve conflicts by talking, is more super a power than many parahuman abilities.
 
40-6 Incomparable (Interlude: Taylor)
Taylor:

The product ((2x3​-50x) ÷ (5x2​-30x+25)) ((5x-5x2​) ÷ (x3​+5x2​)) can be reduced to an integer n. The value of n is:

After six attempts, Taylor could confidently assert that she had no idea. The exam had been easy enough at first, but this was the sixth question in a row she simply hadn't known how to handle. The worst part was that she didn't even know if that was a problem. Was it just because she'd reached past her grade level, or was this something she should have known?

That she didn't remember encountering anything like this in class wasn't as much help as it should have been. Not only was Taylor's attendance in class spotty both physically and mentally, she didn't trust Mr. Gomez to have actually taught the curriculum instead of mechanically chewing through whatever the textbook put in front of him. Nor did she trust said curriculum to live up to Arcadia's exalted standards. It was Winslow, after all.

Call her cynical.


Jacqueline both was and wasn't helping. The girl tried to, that much was obvious, and Taylor did appreciate it. Her words had been reassuring, in a tempered, realistic, way that Taylor honestly found more believable, and less crushing, than any amount of blind faith could have been. They felt like something Taylor could live up to.

Taylor hadn't been a good student, not in her teacher's eyes and not in the eyes of the grading system. Not since the Trio's campaign had started. But, as Jacqueline had pointed out, she had been an acceptable one. In some areas more than others, admittedly, but she'd still managed it even while continuously distracted and harassed and with any given assignment having fifty-fifty odds of making it to the hand-in time unmolested. And, even if she'd needed it pointed out, that millstone was no longer around her neck.

Jacqueline's faith in her felt like it had some basis to it, and that alone was enough to warm Taylor's heart, above and beyond the feeling of the faith and goodwill itself.

Taylor had felt good about maybe, possibly, being a good student again.


Right up until she'd hit a wall in the exam. No matter how much effort or thought she put into them, there were questions Taylor just couldn't answer. Even her recent, more esoteric, mind-expanding activities as of late were no help. It simply didn't matter if she could hold however-many trains of thoughts at once if none of them knew how to solve the problem before her.

And, of course, they meant that Taylor simply couldn't focus exclusively on the exam. She could put as much focus as pre-locker Taylor physically could have on it and more, and she was doing exactly that, but she was still aware of other things.

And that was where Jacqueline wasn't helping. Not that she'd noticed, the girl was entirely intent on her work in a way that Taylor couldn't help but feel bad about not achieving, but Taylor still couldn't help but feel a little inadequate in the face of the younger girl's progress.

Jacqueline was on the first page. Which wouldn't have made Taylor feel inadequate, more worried if anything, except this was the fifth time Jacqueline was on the first page. Taylor hadn't tried to see what Jacqueline was writing, and she honestly wasn't sure if she could have read it through bug eyes even if she did, but she saw enough to tell where Jacqueline was writing.


First, she'd methodically gone through the booklet, not even touching her pencil, just looking at all the questions. Fair enough, that was a habit Taylor hadn't ever really picked up but she'd seen it before.

Then Jacqueline Colere, cute, sweet, kind, and reassuring yet so very in need of protection Jacqueline Colere, went through the booklet and answered what seemed to be every single question almost without stopping. It wasn't until the last few pages that the girl slowed down appreciably, and even then she made it all the way to the end. Then she went through the entire thing again, occasionally making corrections and very occasionally redoing things entirely. Then she went through it again, and this time there was only a single, small change.

And now she was right back at the start, doing it yet again. Taylor wasn't sure if she was just that thorough or if she was deliberately taking extra time to avoid putting pressure on Taylor by finishing first, either would fit what Taylor knew of her personality, but Jacqueline was definitely at the point of quadruple-checking.

Taylor hadn't even gotten through it once, and it didn't look like she was going to. She admitted to herself that she was stuck. With a sigh, she went back to the first page and started checking her own work. After that, she'd skim the rest of the book and see if there were any more that she could handle.

She didn't exactly have high hopes for that.
 
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The brain reaction is still a thing. Taylor needs the help of all the brains she can get to overcome this hurdle🧠
 
Can it though? There's no division or anything, so you end up with a gnarly long quadratic equation.
Thanks for pointing that out. The division signs got eaten in the copying over (along with a great many other issues around the exponents), because these text-based internet formats aren't meant for math equations. I've gone ahead and replaced them.
 
Can it though? There's no division or anything, so you end up with a gnarly long quadratic equation.

fun fact: this problem is a lot easier than it looks: you can ignore all but the highest exponents in each term and simplify it to (2/5)(-5/1). You can rely on it because if this simplified version isn't equivalent to the original formula then the premise that it can be reduced to a real number must be false.

I don't blame Taylor for not getting it, but the category of problem seems more "silly trick question that she hasn't learned the trick for" than "actually hard"

[whereas if you weren't told that it reduces to a real number, and were given the same formula with just instructions to simplify it as far as possible, you'd have to do the actual work - though at some point you'd probably notice "huh, this side goes -10 10 250 -250 and this other one goes 5 -5 -125 125"]
 
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