Chapter 19:
Pineapple
Punished Pineapple
- Location
- Passin' the kouchie 'pon the lef' hand side
- Pronouns
- She/They
Chapter 19:
Till death do us part
Till death do us part
If I was going to cry myself to death, a martian brig was as fine a place as any. Failure, abandonment, invalidation. I could pick from a list of reasons to bawl, so why not cry about everything? It wasn't like I had much else to do between the bi-hourly ass beatings and quarter hourly interrogations.
Martian weaponry wiped my home off the globe, somehow that justified beating my ass over it. I guess that's just how military dickheads operate. I would know, my father was one, or close enough to count.
Hard men making hard decisions. Gotta keep up appearances.
I didn't tell them a damn thing. I didn't tell them how to use Eva, didn't tell them how to pull the data, didn't tell them how to start it. Didn't tell them shit about my neural link. Especially not the fact that everything out of my left eye had been in grayscale this entire time, showing me information I shouldn't know.
The link felt active, but distant. Eva was nearby, I only needed to get to her. Not that they'd ever give me a chance. I'd made it back to space but into yet another cage. I'd slain gods but I could do nothing without a machine to do it with.
I was nothing to them, or I shouldn't have been. Actually, I should have torn the ship in half instead of agreeing to dock with it. But that was before the intimate medical examinations and even more intimate interrogations.
If one more Mars Fleet dickhead uttered the name 'Shinji Ikari' in my earshot, I was going to do everything in my power to snap his fucking neck.
I crossed my legs and sat in the corner of my cell, index and middle finger pressed against the middle of my forehead, thumb just under my lip. I found this helped me focus on the implant. It was in my brain, it interacted with my brain. If that was the case, my brain should be able to learn to interact with the implant.
It was there, in my brain, I could feel it's location, I could feel the way the information crossed over the boundary. It was all programatic data; I wanted to ask it a question. It wasn't the first time my brain had to re-learn its nerve connections. I'd had plenty of re-learning to do after I'd killed Gendo's son, after all.
I could perceive a not-quite-static that my brain translated as best as it could into white noise. Actually, no, something else. A carrier wave, that's what a carrier wave sounded like. My link to Unit One wasn't based on that kind of technology, so what the fu--
My eyes snapped open and my brain felt like it had been bitch-slapped from the inside. I felt my eyes tearing up as I fell back against the wall. I could feel the blood running down my nose. No, that wasn't supposed to happen at all.
Yet at the same time, I was left with a gut feeling that somehow, someone was coming for me.
There was something else too, not that carrier wave. This came in unbidden, almost like I was about to cross the activation threshold--
***
"Fuck!" I screamed at the top of my lungs as I sat upright on an exam table. The black and white effect had disappeared from the vision in my eye and instead I was seeing things in a whole new light. Everything was in it's standard vivid visible spectrum but then of course ultraviolet and infrared had also decided to join the party.
My brain didn't like this. It didn't have a way of assigning perceptible values to those ranges and yet it was being forced to and it hurt like a son of a bitch. I could feel the interface with the implant had expanded, I could feel it hooked into my senses, accelerating and caching impulses, but why?
Sorry about that. There wasn't a way to initiate a bidirectional link so I pushed myself over as an AI construct.
I took a break from holding my head in agony to instead stare at the floor in terror. That voice in my head was not mine. It was not mine at all and it was a voice that I hadn't heard since I was four years old, one I'd never expected to hear again.
Mom?
Sort of. I am Yui Ikari's memories grafted onto the artificial soul construct that was originally intended to inhabit Evangelion Unit One. So I'm not exactly your mother, but every time you come into range with Unit One our mutual memories synchronize so--
So it's close enough I thought back to the voice in my head that was certainly not a symptom of implant psychosis. So, if it wasn't psychosis, why was she even here.
Evangelion cannot get to you right now. Even if it could, it would be of no help. The three of us formed consensus that you shouldn't be left without aid at a time like this.
Three of you?
Yui Ikari, Myself, and the fragment of Lilith that comprise Unit One. The triad of our wills forms the control interface that allows you to become one with the beast. This copy of myself residing within you doesn't compromise this fact.
Okay, that doesn't make sense but if you're a copy my mother and… and for some reason I believe you. Why go through this?
Natsu, even if I'm not really your mother, I'm still your mother. Deep down, I think you've always felt that, ever since the first time you sat in the chair.
Not that I don't appreciate a voice in my head offering help, how exactly are you going to help me out of this mess?
Oh Natsu, didn't your father tell you I was a doctor?
I don't like where this is going.
Then keep your eyes closed.
***
I hadn't been able to, despite her warning. I'd seen much, much worse, but I'd seen it from within Evangelion. It was a little different when the blood stained my own skin. Whatever had happened while I was 'out' had been violent, it had been efficient, and it had been… wet.
When I was me again, my left hand was broken and my right hand had a gun in it. The door to my cell was sealed behind me and I had the very strong compulsion not to look inside. Whatever 'Yui' had done, she was silent in my head now.
So maybe I was just insane.
I tried to press-check the pistol but my left hand turned out to be very broken, not just a little bit broken. Failing that, I bit down on the rear sight and pushed the grip forward to pull the slide back just a bit, just enough to catch a glance inside the chamber with my peripheral vision.
Round in the pipe. Thank you, Yui.
It was funny how a battery of waterboarding, interrogation, and deliberate deadnaming could change a girl's outlook on interpersonal violence. Or maybe that was just the time I'd spent riding that beast of destruction.
That my mother resided inside should have been a revelation, but if she could work me like a marionette she could just as easily keep me calm, right? With that implant rammed into my brain I had to wonder how much came back in when I synchronized with Eva.
This Yui-AI said she was running on my implant hardware but it still made me wonder what was sitting in my wetware.
I shook that thought out of my head. That carrier wave was still tickling at the edge of aformentioned implant. It wasn't Eva, wasn't mother's AI. It was local to the ship but it was carrying more bandwidth than even the synchronization with Eva.
Now how in the hell did I know that?
The sound of rushing boots echoed around the corner of the hallway that seemed to run around the outside of the ship. I couldn't tell how many, but I hadn't survived a space station decompression, eldritch abominations, and my father just to die now.
Maybe it was something that the construct living in my implant had done to me, maybe it had been the torturous invalidation and hostile medical exams at the hands of my captors, but in either case…
It was time to free the beast.
I might have been next to helpless on Earth without my mobility frame but in microgravity I was at home. I shoved my broken left hand through the hand hold on a crew transit track and punched it to maximum speed.
Oh adrenalin how I've missed you. Somehow I didn't feel like Natsu Ikari, I felt like I had all the power of my Eva behind me at the same time. This felt like being back in the entry plug. It felt like being...home.
Gunfire shook me out of my thoughts and I pulled my hand out of the conveyor grip. I'd picked up enough speed already. I raised my pistol as I kicked off the wall to round the corner—to realize that none of that fire was meant for me.
In the middle of a pile of bodies in various states of distress, stood an augment, and a very heavily augmented one at that. Steam vented from crescent shaped slits alongside where his ribs should have been. Then he turned to face me and I saw a face I honestly hadn't expected to see again. One I wasn't even sure I wanted to see again.
"Natsu?!" He said with shock that quickly melted into determination. "I'm here to rescue you!"
I almost dropped the gun in shock. After his reaction I would have thought… "Touji? Why? How?"
He pulled me into an embrace before I could react and his lips pressed firmly to mine. "Because I love you. Now let's get the fuck out of here."