Episode 3 - 5
Shinobu Oshino
Kiss-shot Acerola-orion Heart-under-blade
- Location
- Unseen Horizon
Midori stands in front of you, clutching her jacket close to herself. Her eyes look to the night sky for the right words. Her mouth moves, but only a veil of white mist escapes.
After watching her struggle with her failing words, you tap the empty seat next to you. She stares for a moment, lost in a trance. Another tap on the bench is enough to snap her from her stupor. With a solemn nod, she sits with her hands clasped in her lap. Midori leans back as her eyes close.
You both heard the sound of splashing water in the fountain; the sting of the cold autumn night. Despite sitting next to Midori, you never felt further away. You were cast away on an island that no one could ever hope to reach. In just a short week, the world you knew had become a distant memory. The door had been opened. There was no going back.
You knew things you weren't supposed to, saw things you were never meant to. How your mind isn't breaking apart at the seams is itself a mystery. You had the answers that you wanted; why it happened, what happened, and why it had to be you. Having them didn't make your problems go away. In fact, it arguably made things worse.
You knew that Madoka sacrificed everything for the sake of people she never knew. The struggle that she endured to get to that point must have been unbearable. She was a fragile girl, always wanting to do her best to help others. It wasn't an inherent sense of justice, or an earnest desire to be selfless. It was because she didn't want to be a burden. That's the beginning and end of it.
Did that make her a bad person? No. Not at all.
However, it did make her short-sighted. If she was anything like your own sister, it was the kind of choice that she might regret. In that sense, during your birthday, she had given you the opportunity that she never had; a chance to back out and return to a normal life.
The resolve that pushed you to contract remains firm. Not once have you reconsidered the contract with the older Madoka. If you did, it would be understandable. No one would know if you turned your back on her. No one would judge you, not even Madoka.
Knowing what you do now, you had to fight harder than ever. If your sister's fate was to become a goddess and to leave those she loves behind, then you would reject it. Fight tooth and nail, even if you had to exchange your life for hers. It wasn't out of a sense of obligation for others, or self-sacrifice; it was purely your own selfish desire.
You wouldn't consider yourself a bad person. You did what you could to get by and that was all. Your earnest desire was to protect those close to you. Life was becoming complicated enough as it was. There was no room in your life for haphazard heroics, even if you were a magical girl. Of course, you would save people if you could help it. You weren't heartless.
But, would you throw your life on the line to save someone you don't know? The answer eluded you. Most people might give the same answer. It's the kind of question you never know until the moment arrives.
"Momoka." Midori breaks the silence.
"Yeah?"
"I wanted to thank you for your help. You know, against the witch."
You lean back, resting your head on your hands. There was nothing to thank you for. According to Mami, what you did was reckless. One misstep would have led to disaster. The fact you were still here right now was a miracle. Then again, with a goddess on your shoulder, a 'miracle' might not be the proper term. 'Blessing' seems more appropriate.
Regardless, it wasn't fair to say that you really did anything. You made the decision to make use of her power, but that was it. If anyone was deserving of any credit, it was your sister. Not that Midori would believe you even if you explained it.
"I didn't do anything." You say.
"No, you did." Midori shakes her head. "I didn't think I would… I mean, I didn't think I'd have the chance to…"
Midori's hands fidget as she averts her eyes. What she wanted to say must be difficult. Midori didn't seem to have trouble talking to people. She had enough resolve to face down that witch on her own. It wasn't just a witch, it was her former friend. It was the magical girl that spoke to Midori in the vision. The one that pestered her about her wish. A wish that Midori was too embarrassed to share.
"I wanted to thank you for giving me a chance to remember her."
Midori clasps her hands around yours. Her touch is warm and her grip tight.
"Just seeing you wield her weapon, use her magic… I don't know." She says, smiling wide. "It just reminded me of something that I'd forgotten."
"Really?"
"Yes." She smiles. "The reason I became a magical girl in the first place."
Midori looks down, realizing her hands are still locked with yours. She retreats, throwing herself to the other side of the bench.
"Sorry!" She yelps.
You laugh at her expense.
"So, why did you become a magical girl?"
You already knew the answer. It was to become a 'hero'. What that meant to her, though, was something that you didn't know or even understand. It was a word that had a lot of different meanings. With magic, anything was possible. A 'hero' could be anything from a conventional super hero, to a magical girl, or to something as mundane as a doctor or a firefighter.
"It's, um… actually, it's a little embarrassing."
"You don't have to tell me."
"N-no. You deserve to know."
"If you say so."
"I wanted to be, like… a hero. You know, someone who saves people."
"So, like a superhero?"
"Well, yeah, I-I guess." She reels back, trying to take refuge in her jacket. "You're going to laugh, right?"
"No." You shake your head. "I actually think that's pretty cool."
Midori's shoulders slack. "So, you're not teasing me?"
"No." You shake your head. "Not at all. It's something I could never do."
"What? I mean, with your power, you definitely could." A pondering hand rubs her chin.
"That's not what I meant." You frown. "It's not that I couldn't do it, it's more like … I'm too much of a coward."
It was the only word that came to mind to describe what you were. You were scared, yes, but no one could blame you for that. Witches were far too much for a normal person to even consider. The fact they were real, lurking around the corner, was enough to evoke fear in even the bravest. It could be even someone as stalwart Mami was scared. Maybe not of the witch, but of what happens if she loses. It meant leaving Momo and Kyouko on their own.
In truth, outside of distant relatives or a pet, you've never lost anyone. You've never even been to a funeral. It was a pain that you've never felt. An experience you've never had. Despite that, you were afraid of dying, of leaving everyone behind. It should be a transient fear for someone your age. Your biggest worries should be waking up in the morning, school, and finding young love.
For magical girls, it was a persistent fear of death. You were afraid of putting people through the pain of losing someone precious. It's why you didn't want to lose anyone. It's why you didn't want Sayaka to contract. It's why you made the spur of the moment decision. A decision that may have defined the rest of your life.
"A coward?" Midori scoffs in disbelief. "Everyone's scared, Momoka. There's not a single magical girl who fights a witch and isn't scared."
You shake your head, freeing yourself from the grasp of your gloomy thoughts.
"Isn't that a bad thing, then?" You say. "If someone freezes up during a fight, wouldn't that mean…"
"Being scared means you're on your guard. It pays to be properly paranoid."
"Then when you charged into the witch's barrier a few days ago…" You roll your hand as if expecting a response.
"I… Listen, don't follow my example." Midori crosses her arms. "I can give advice, I'm just not too great at following it."
You roll your eyes. "You're not going to do that again, are you?"
"No." Midori shakes her head. "I don't intend on dying. I realized I got some people waiting for me. So, if I die, then I won't get to see them again." Midori nods to herself. "I'll fight hard and come back in one piece."
"That's good. I'd rather you didn't die."
"Thanks for the vote of confidence." Midori grins. "It'll be a hard fight, but I think I can do it. Especially if the witch isn't regenerating like she was." A frown wrinkles her brow.
"What's wrong?"
"Eh, it's just after the job's done, I'll probably be getting out of here."
You were well aware of magical girls and their territories. Mami didn't strike you as the type to make too much of a fuss. Then again, you were friends with Momo and were Mami's new protege. Midori was from another town with a territory of her own to protect. Probably.
"Is this about territory, or something else?"
"That's part of it." Midori grasps the locket around her neck. "I have my own reasons too."
[_] … tell Midori that you'll help her find and fight the witch. The more magical girls, the better the odds.
[_] … wish Midori luck in her efforts to subdue the witch. It wasn't your fight, you had your own mission.
[_] … suggest that she shouldn't jump into it so soon. Even if she has rekindled resolve, rushing things could end in catastrophe.
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