Sunlight pours down, warming the fresh spring air as I arrive at Shiro sano Kakita.
I'm finally here! I'm going to see Onii-chan!
Excitement courses through me as I make my way up to the castle. After a long winter on the Wall, I have finally wrangled a short leave to visit my brother and his family. It's been a long time since I've seen him, not since just after my gempukku. I have so much that I want to share with him. My feet want to skip and I have to actually restrain myself from carolling with joy. These Crane would probably give me that haughty, superior look they have and I don't want anything to spoil my reunion with Onii-chan.
My big brother has always been my hero. Ever since...well really, forever...I've looked up to him. Back when I was small, he was the best brother a girl could ask for. He was kind and loving. He always had time for me no matter what. He never had a harsh word for me. A look of disappointment was enough to quell even the most rebellious of beginnings of thoughts. He was gentle with me and always found a way to bring me small tokens to show me how special I was to him, how much he loved me. I remember that I cried for weeks after he left to get married. It was the first time that duty took him away so permanently from me. My sister-in-law has no idea that she's married to the most amazing gem of a man imaginable.
Onii-chan isn't waiting for me to greet me...that's weird…
I instruct the servants to bring my things to my rooms, frowning. What can possibly be keeping him from welcoming me to his home? Is he sick? Has he somehow been held up by a duty given to him by Ayame-sama?
I fly through the halls to the court. A brief glance around the room shows me that he isn't there. Just a bunch of Crane staring at me strangely behind hastily raised fans. Hastily, I duck out before I have to apologize and explain myself. Making nice with these Crane is the last thing I want to be doing right now.
"Where is Kakita Katsuie-san!?" I demand, grabbing the nearest servant. She stares at me with frightened eyes. I shake the girl by the shoulders.
"Where can I find your master?!"
The servant splutters and finally manages to give me enough words that I can understand that my brother can be found in the garden. I release her without another word and she scurries off after giving me another frightened look. Ok...it's possible that I maaaaaaayyy have been a little overzealous in my inquiry…
But still… The gardens? That's really odd. Onii-chan has never had much use for gardens, really. I must have been right. He must be fulfilling some sort of duty for Ayame-sama and gotten held up. A feeling of relief fills me. Of course my brother must fulfill his duty to his daimyo and wife even before coming to fulfill his duty to his sister...even though he would never spend time in the gardens of his own volition, especially when he's expecting me.
A thin tendril of resentment towards my sister-in-law snakes up within me. Couldn't she have taken my arrival into account? Doesn't she care that I have only very limited time to spend with my brother and we haven't seen each other in years?
Duty demands, I remind myself. I remember Onii-chan instructing me in the tenets of Bushido when I was very young.
Don't forget, Takamona-chan. Duty is the most important of all virtues.
I learned everything I know about being a good samurai from him. I have always tried to live up to his standards and his example. He would want me to be understanding about this, impatient though I am. And so, I push down the feeling as best I can.
Still though...he must be bored stiff at whatever tea drinking, flower smelling duty he's stuck at. I decide that I'll at least make my way down there and smile at him so that he can see I'm arrived and understanding of his delay. It will give him a happy thought to sustain him through his duty. My mind made up, I set off once again, my feet practically dancing over the floor.
In my mind, I can see my brother's handsome face, that special smile he reserves just for me. He's never smiled at anyone like that, not even Ayame-sama. I can hear his voice, gentle with just a slight hint of humour telling me that he's so glad to see me, that he missed me. I hasten my pace a little, as the walk seems interminable. Perhaps Onii-chan is right and I should work on being more patient. Ok, who am I kidding? Of course he's right. He always is.
Finally. The gardens. Where on earth is he? I scan the area carefully. There! At the entrance to one of the other gardens, I see him...well, his back really. He is faced away from me and appears to be waiting for someone or something. But there can be no mistake. I know my Onii-chan...it's him. A broad smile spreads across my face as I hurry towards him. I won't interrupt, just pass by him as though I was just another person visiting the gardens.
As I approach him, I see that he's with a woman, a Crane woman. Her laugh rings through the air.
Yes, yes, my brother is very entertaining, you lucky bitch. But when his duty is done, it is I who will enjoy his company, not you.
I walk by slowly, pretending to admire the flowers that I really couldn't care less about. And then I freeze in place, stricken as if by lightning. My brother is looking at the woman with such eyes, such softness about his jaw. His eyes pass over me but he doesn't recognize me. ME, his own SISTER!! This cannot be duty, not with those eyes. Who is this woman who so commands his attention?
My world shatters around me as I continue to watch them from behind a rose bush. Horror upon horrors, the smile that he gives her...that's MY smile. How can he smile so to another? Bitterness wells in my heart. How dare that woman take my beloved brother away from me? How dare she make him forget that I was arriving today?
I know just as surely as if he was shouting it out to the world. Despite the on he wears, despite the trappings, the pretense of Crane society, I can see it. My brother is in love. And now I, who has only once ever had to come second to another woman - his wife - am pushed even further away by this usurper, this vile seductress. She can't possibly be anything else. My brother would never so forget his duty to his family, to his wife...to me…
They begin to walk away, back to towards the entrance of the gardens. I strain to hear their words, to see if I can make out a name. Their conversation holds no interest for me. It's that polite, dull drivel that the Crane seem to have no end of.
"I must go, Sakura-san. But I will count the hours impatiently until we might talk again."
Sakura. Kakita Sakura, it seems, judging by her mons.
It's not until they are gone that I move from my place behind the rose bush. Sick with emotion, I make my way back to the castle and find a servant to direct me to my room. Given the wide berth that others seem to be giving me, I can only imagine what sort of expression I must have on my face. So much for controlling my on. Who cares anyway. Oni don't care about what kind of expression you have on your ace.
I pour myself a cup of sake and raise it to my lips, downing it in one single motion. I can't believe my brother betrayed me for a Crane floozy...no I won't believe it….he...he wouldn't, she must have...must have done something, done something to control him, to manipulate him…
That bi---
The sound of ceramic cracking echoes in my hears and I look down to see my cup utterly crushed between my fingers, a victim of my anger...no, not anger...hate.
That whore, that bitch stole my brother.
By all the Fortunes, I would get him back or die trying, and if that meant killing that worthless piece of shit woman…
Well, that just made me so damn happy.
I see the blood dripping from where the ceramic shards pierced my skin. I raise my hand up holding it in front of me, and bring up my tanto to let a little more blood flow.
"Onii-chan...I swear, I'll save you from her. This is my blood oath...Kakita Sakura is my sworn enemy from now until the end of our lives."
That bitch won't know what hit her.