LV: Chances
LV: Chances

So, how to begin? Beginnings are tricky, in a galaxy with a history even deeper than he'd known. Perhaps violence made him philosophical. Perhaps he was a little bit heartbroken with what he had to do. But now he hesitated, considered his words carefully. He meditated for a while, knowing that sending words in haste, or with violence or hatred still on his mind would not help.

He'd had to kill someone, but then did he? Necessity was the excuse everyone made for each and every one of their crimes. Nima, at least, was safe. She wouldn't have been, in circumstances like today.

At last he began.

"Hey, Nima, I hope you're holding up. I heard there was an incident in the Falorka Sector, something about an ancient robotic army and a lost treasure? I'm not sure how Ahsoka and Obi-Wan manage to find these adventures. My missions tend to run together: sentients being terrible, rinse and repeat. You were nearby, but should be well out of the way of any harm, I hope. I wanted to ask you whether you'd been keeping up your sparring. More than that, whether you'd kept up the real practice, which can't involve simple Jedi duels, even though you've faced more force users than most have, but also…"

*******

Nima very carefully sipped the tea, settling back in her seat. She'd chosen a somewhat more bitter tea, primarily because it helped soothe cramps, and she was regretting it now as she looked at the Ikeneli Jedi, F'anr Tuli. Ikeneli were short--a little over a meter tall on average--and rotund by nature, their skin greyish-green and covered in visible veins. Tuli was an experienced diplomat, and a lovely teacher.

They were also sneaky, and so Nima kept on her guard, as she continued sipping the tea. It smelled far better than it tasted, truly. But it was good for her.

"So, Tyruti, what do you do or say if you don't know the cultural practices of a people you're having to negotiate with?"

Nima knew this answer, or thought she did. "Do you keep quiet and try to learn?"

"Close, but not quite," Tuli rasped, shaking their head back and forth in a very human gesture, considering the Ikeneli didn't truly have visible necks. "Sometimes there's not any time at all to learn. If so, the best thing to do is to humbly admit failings, but in a charming way. Show your desire to learn, let their ego and cultural pride swell as they show you what you need to know, and they'll often respect it far more than you'd think. Sometimes, fear of showing weakness is itself a weakness, Ms. Tyruti. This is a lesson that should come easily to Jedi, but I fear has not. We have made ourselves statues and pillars alike in the name of holding up the Republic, but pillars cannot be people, and a diplomat cannot be a pillar and be fully effective. It was… a trend, it is true, rather than an absolute."

"But you have to control trends," Nima said, repeating another common bit of wisdom. Jedi had so little control of all kinds of elements of their missions, but the practices the Jedi brought towards their mission were something they could influence. The Force was supposed to guide them, but when they weren't certain, Jedi tended to act on their training instead.

"Yes, and you have to not move. Do not move, enemies are entering the room. The negotiations have been interrupted, and they are here to kill me because they don't want to negotiate peace between the two warring tribes," Tuli said, voice entirely lacking in even faked distress, as Nima looked around carefully.

She'd feared this was coming. The room itself was relatively empty, other than the table, which wouldn't provide any real protection against blasters. She couldn't be sure, because often there was no such trick. She'd even been on a very minor diplomatic mission, confirming the details of a previously decided treaty, and that had included absolutely no fighting or danger at all. Nor were the training meetings always like this.

Instead, she said, "Get behind me, and… we should probably retreat. If the enemy thinks they can get past a Jedi, they might have reinforcements. Is this area safe? Are we liable to get reinforcements?"

"All good questions." There was a pause in Tuli's speech, as Nima waited for them to continue, and then sensed that they weren't going to.

Nima tensed, not sure if there was going to be an actual attack, or just the outlining of one. "Zir, then, as the diplomat negotiating with me, what do you feel about an incoming attack? Do you think we should retreat?"

"How could they ever dare to attack me! Those barbarians will surely run when they get a taste of hot blaster!" Tuli said, volume raised, but sounding no more interested than before. "I then dramatically draw a blaster and seem to insist on fighting them all myself, in the name of my tribe's pride and honor."

Nima stared for a moment, dumbfounded. "You… what?"

"Do you think I'm afraid of them?" Tuli asked. "Why would I be, I have a Jedi with me!"

"Okay, I tell you to get back, but to keep the blaster ready, and then I try to sense where they're coming from."

"You can't sense anything. Can't feel any emotions."

"Droids, then," Nima said, standing up and looking around the small cave they were using as a classroom. "Are there windows in this scenario?"

"Yes."

"I get away from the windows, and then… and then I prepare for wherever the attack is coming from."

"Hmm, is that so? How do you prepare?"

"Take my lightsabers out, and see what happens," Nima said, a little bit annoyed. What else was she supposed to do without knowing what was coming.

"You're frustrated, it seems." Tuli hopped out of their chair and waddled over towards the door. "But you're not providing bad answers. It is simply that you have to be ever vigilant of the dangers which you will face. These tests will continue, but the more you are prepared, the less stressful they will be."

"Right," Nima said, skeptically. She didn't sense any deception from Tuli, but fighting was always stressful, even when the Force was with her. She didn't think it was that unusual, and thought that probably those Jedi who seemed to find nourishment in conflict were walking a dangerous path.

"Either way, to continue what I was saying, culture is often something that those you are engaging in diplomacy with want to share, in limited ways, under their control."

Nima listened. Carefully.

******

Wherever Nima Tyruti was, she had some very common habits. Every day when she woke up, she stretched and then went on a jog, then a run, and then a jog and walk, making sure to stretch her legs and get both training in endurance and bursts of speed and energy. Then, every other day, she followed it up with a full workout.

This began with weights, which had increased a little bit, but involved all the careful contortions, making sure that she was training her body for the weights in a free and practical way, rather than fixed positions. She wasn't going to be deadlifting from a fixed position, she was going to be climbing carrying something heavy and delicate, or twisting her body as she tried to attack from a different angle.

At the end of the weight training, she'd usually, in part following her Master's guidance, spend a little time practicing sparring, though she did so more on her 'off' days. Then, at last, she'd go take a bath or shower. This was both for her--it relaxed her quite a bit--and for the rest of the world, since all of that workout worked up a sweat that made her feel rather gross and disgusting. Still, the exercise seemed to be working. She felt like she had more energy in general, and she seemed stronger, though it was hard to tell. It wasn't exactly something that came up in her everyday life.

All in all, she found it relaxing and meditative, in a way, despite any strain.

Nima did have to fight against momentary exercises in vanity, pointless though they were. She'd find herself idly thinking about whether Katarina would like to spar with her, or even appreciate her dedication to physical fitness… only to remind herself that Katarina did not feel that way about her, and that besides she shouldn't feel that way about Katarina.

She knew, of course, that Hannah was interested in her, and she had at least a crush on Hannah back, but that still couldn't happen anyways.

So, farewell to vanity, and hello to humility!

Maybe.

It was a work in progress.

The exercise was congenial, at any rate, especially at the new Temple. There was a pulse, a sort of beat in the Force that matched her heartbeat at rest, and so when she ran through the corridors of the caverns, she felt the lava beneath her, its warmth and power, both power deployed and power withheld.

There was a feeling, when something powerful didn't happen, that couldn't really be described in such a way not to seem absurd. But just because it was hard to understand, didn't mean it wasn't real.

Compared to that, her work with Seluku and Baqqanid was rather less restful. It was repetitive, but the kind that frustrated her. She'd hold her Shuhudaku dagger, and then throw it at the target, and hear the fifty different ways she was bad at it and might as well not have bothered. Not that either of them were cruel, but Nima was able to read in their statements the fact that she wasn't progressing as fast as they hoped.

She was able to hit a target. Usually. But she often threw it too hard or not hard enough, and her aim was entirely unsteady. In battle she'd thrown it successfully before, but outside of it her every movement felt clumsy.

In battle she couldn't necessarily rely on being perfectly in-tune with the Force. The Force would be with her, always, but she needed more than just that.

"It will come," Baqqanid said. "It is hardly our specialty either, so we are learning just as you are."

Nima nodded, and tried to not let her frustration with being told to wait and see. She'd been told that the whole time, but she was almost fourteen! She was part of a war for the survival of liberty and freedom in the galaxy, and had almost died a half-dozen times. There was a distinct lack of time, even though she was carefully separate.

"Okay, so, what do I need to do better?"

"You need to visualize your target, and throw in a single motion. You're hesitating, and you're breaking it down into steps. You cannot do that, it's just too sensible," Seluku said. "You want to make all of what you're doing natural, and the more you break it down, the more you think about it, and the less you do. Course, I just did stuff and hoped it worked, but you're trying to be an even better Rider than me. More like Baqqanid."

"Thank you for the compliment, but your perennial laziness is a lie," Baqqanid said. "A form of self-abasement that makes no sense."

"Hah, as if," Seluku replied.

*******

"A key is to continue the development of your own style. Jar'kai is a start, but you can't allow yourself to be held back by any one standard, not merely in combat but in life. I've had to learn again to be flexible, after a war in which I had to stand strong and steady against any attempt to change me. You should be willing to retreat, or even run away, and if you're learning to fight at a distance, or through Rider's hit-and-run tactics, then you need to be willing to do things differently. As such, I suggest that you train with as many different sorts of Jedi as possible, as well as combat droids. In fact, you should try to spar even with less skilled Jedi."

"Heck, here's a suggestion: spar with talented Padawans, with old Masters who normally don't put hand to lightsaber. Try to get an understanding of the wide variety of ways that lightsaber combat can and will break down."

"Moreover…"

*******

It was a beautiful night, but Nima could hardly enjoy it. She was dressed up in some of the strangest garb she'd ever worn. It wasn't quite a dress of any kind, but nor was it not a dress, and she truly didn't understand the fashion sense of the Chartisian culture, or their insistence on using dozens of types of cloth, wrappings, and so on in dizzying variety of colors. Still, it was the first major diplomatic event she'd been to, and so she was determined not to mess it up.

The Chartisian culture was famous for its respect for academic learning and, flowing from this, its mastery of both slicing and the creation of cryptography. If they joined the war, it would not provide the Coalition with anything they didn't already have, but it would provide means to keep the Republic from using such academics.

All of this led to a relatively small mission, entirely because most of the deal was already worked out. All Nima and Master Denia, an experienced and steady Jedi hand who normally would have been retired, but had been on Cato Neimodia when Order 66 came, had to do was manage not to offend anyone too badly at the celebratory meetings.

So of course, things went bad from the very start. First, Nima found herself ruing her initial decisions not to change clothing. Chartisians, who were a near-human species different mostly in the texture of their skin and its reaction to cold, lived on a planet where if it got over freezing, that was regarded as a rather balmy summer day. It was, in other words, in the middle of a dreadful ice age that would, sources predict, last another five thousand years or so.

She'd shivered the whole time, determined to stick to her Rider's gear, but wishing that it was a little less form fitting, skin-tight, and breathable. All of this made it very, very bad at keeping out the cold. Still, she'd managed to survive the three days of celebrations, and had avoided most of them because of her age. The Chartisians valued highly various drinking rituals which, of course, children would never have been subjected to. She'd only be required to be present for the signing--in which she had stood quietly in a corner until the time had come to applaud, at which point she had done so with the appropriate level of enthusiasm.

It wasn't much of an education, to be honest. She wasn't learning much more about diplomacy as it was done, even if she did get a chance to see what the aftermath of successful diplomacy looked like.

Nobody paid her much mind, and she was fine with that, especially considering she was trying desperately to finish writing something. She'd been continuing in her study of Old Coruscanti, and more than that the influence of the Rakata on the language that eventually became Basic. The machines and computers had confirmed, apparently, her speculations as to some of the phrases, glyphs and so on that were a heritage at the time of Rakatan language.

This had real implications, at least according to some of the historians and linguists that had sent her feedback about her writing. She'd basically ignored all the carefully worded critiques of her writing style. She was used to them, and she'd try her best to fix it, but she just wasn't much of a writer. What they had noticed was that speculation about the division of the Rakata had been tied up in the Liberation War Thesis, the idea that any similarities between languages had to do with the collapse of the Rakata, and Coruscanti explorers spreading their language. It was claimed that the Rakata actually had several different languages, and that the extent and scope of their Empire had been overstated, and the extent to which the "Liberation War" and the fall of the Eternal Empire had begun the union of the galaxy understated.

Except, of course, Old Coruscanti had none of the features required to fit this Thesis, which had been based more on a lack of knowledge than any specific evidence other than a tradition of, well, liberation myths. Nima honestly, when she'd been told, had scrunched up her face and sighed, since it seemed such a human thing to do, to assume that no liberation war could be fought unless it was the humans helping to liberate the galaxy.

Though apparently it was popular not just among humans, but by those attempting to construct greater precursors for the Republic than the mercantile societies that had seemingly been the real pre-Republic structures that had been built on. What is free, or even particularly democratic, about planets agreeing to regulate some small matters of trade via an association that could even… in the middle of the Clone Wars, be described as 'federation of trade'?

So, there had to be a different origin, or at least the distant memory of a different origin, if galactic unity was--apparently--to mean anything.

And then Nima came along. Others were rephrasing her insights and citing her clumsy but properly cited papers in this matter, at least, and taking it to their actual natural conclusions.

It was a controversy, and here she was, on a planet famous for its academics, where University Presidents sent representatives to a central committee that decided all activity on the planet. Still, the odds that it would come up seemed remarkably low.

She was cheating to even figure that much out, of course, since she hadn't come by it by careful analysis, but from just being straight-up told something wasn't true. Seluku had been skeptical of the entire idea that Coruscant, past, present, or future, could save the galaxy from anything.

Baqqanid hadn't believed it immediately absurd, but agreed that the lack of evidence, and the evidence against it, was telling.

All of this had led to her dressing up in a blue, white, and green...robe, perhaps... with a tall, hard back that kept her from being able to see behind her no matter what, and a crazy-quilt of sewn-on parts onto the dress that made it feel like she'd draped herself in the entire contents of someone's wardrobe than anything else.

She couldn't even blame it on her size, since apparently for those who were adults, the amount of material was that much greater. Nima couldn't run, heck she couldn't have jogged to save her life, and it made her feel intensely hot, though the party was not going to have heat.



The party space, the Fertizkaf as it was called, was a vast hall carefully designed around stations of activity and interest, with lighted paths between them. It was considered the highest insult to step on the 'dark' areas of the room until towards the end, when the whole place was opened up to the, supposedly usually inebriated, free mingling of people. She'd be excused at that point, as would the rest of the Jedi. It was cold, of course, at least in theory. Even with the clothing, it was still a little chilly, because the garb didn't seem designed for heat except as an accident.

She made her way down one of the lighted paths, having been dismissed by the even more uncomfortable Jedi Master. She didn't show it, but Nima could sense Master Denia's unease. She could sense plenty of unease, jealousy, and even spite in this entire gathering, despite its supposedly celebratory nature. It wasn't that there wasn't happiness, but that the petty emotions stood out, like chunks of gristle in a fine pie.

The only good news was that everyone was dressed equally absurdly, and so she just looked for where the non-alcoholic drinks were. They were, thankfully, in a different square of light from the alcohol, for ease of access and avoidance of confusion. She was just drinking a rather bitter punch when she felt the approaching sentient.

He was focused on her, she could sense it, and was a Chartisian with a ridged brow and dark, piercing eyes that fit with his elaborate silver-and-white dress. The clothing she wore was apparently unisex, with only minor differences in the weave of the clothing telling apart the four most socially accepted Chartisian genders. He was tall, and he felt solid in the Force, the kind of person who barreled over others, though from his flab probably not physically. Though who knew, Chartisians, perhaps because of the icy cold of their planet, tended towards stoutness even when they were strong or athletic.

"Are you Neyma Tyruti?"

"Nima'tyruti, yes," Nima said. "It is good to meet you…" Nima trailed off, waiting for an introduction.

"Mr. Cael Rodes, Professor of History at Alrlbelg University. I study the origin of the Republic, and I would like to talk to you regarding your accusations and articles." He said it all quickly, as if he was rushing an armed blaster-post.

"O-of course," Nima said, a little nervously. "This isn't the time or place for a full debate, but I'm always happy to talk about my studies." She had to be, since to refuse a discussion of one's academic interests was a sort of laughable rudeness.

"I feel as if your footnotes are not entirely serious: A ghost told me this in a dream, one of them reads."

"I said that a ghost told it to me after I asked him about a dream," Nima said, though her face was hot. "Interviewing a primary source has always been acceptable, and I apologize if I cited it poorly. If you doubt the existence of Seluku and Baqqanid I could arrange a meeting."

"I don't… particularly," he admits. "I'm sure you're truthful, to the best of your knowledge. You're a Jedi. However, they don't speak Basic, do they?"

"They're learning, but not in full, no," Nima admitted, feeling a little uneasy. Attention was starting to grow, and people passing through were stopping, circling.

Academic arguments were common entertainment among a certain class of Chartisian. Nima had seen hints that a large percentage of the Chartisian populace lived in highly unequal circumstances. But among the sorts of people who would have gotten an invitation to a hall like this… they were all interested in these sorts of things.

"You've studied Old Coruscanti, as you label it, for under several years? I've been studying the Jedi ability to learn new languages. It's quite impressive, but it is hardly perfect, and with only two examples to draw on the language, how do you separate individual differences from specifics?"

Nima was taken aback. It wasn't that she hadn't expected and thought through some of these arguments. She even had a response, but a part of her had imagined the criticisms less well thought out. It was foolish, a sort of arrogance, and so Nima nodded, as she was required to do by the rules of debate. "This is a good point, but I did ask Seluku about differences in his speech, and Baqqanid spent his young life as an upper class student. I… er, thought that considering the inequalities present, academic or literary Old Coruscanti was probably more similar to Baqqanid than Seluku's. I did ask them about other subcultures, but nothing fit with your thesis, if you're arguing about Coruscanti spreading to other planets."

"And language stays the same across the entire occupation, and anything that changes is a clear result of the Rakatan, and not other factors?" the professor asked.

Nima took a deep breath. "I can't say that for sure, but if you view the Eternal Empire's fall as so important, then why not their rule?"

"Perhaps, perhaps," Mr. Rodes said absently. "It still seems like there's a lot of assumptions going into this."

"It's evidence, not absolute proof. We don't have anyone who was alive throughout the entire period. Most of the sources were destroyed before or after the time of Revan," Nima said. They'd known quite a bit more about the history of the Rakatan Empire back then, but what had survived--according to the experts she asked--was mostly the general narrative. Neither Revan nor any of the scholars at the time had been particularly interested in linguistic developments. She didn't know how to feel about them, honestly, so she preferred not to consider the distant past before she'd met the ghosts.

"This is true."

Whew.

"But, have you considered…"

Ah.

"The possibility that the upper and elite classes that spoke in that way were overthrown during the fall of the Rakatan Empire? Thus a group rose with linguistic patterns that differed from the norm overthrew the old elite and became a new elite. We can't be sure of it, but we do know that there were at least several changes in the nature of the elites during early Coruscanti History during the Republic period, and…"

She listened, and then she responded, a little outraged by the dodge into ancient speculation. Then he returned fire, and she stood there, frustrated and uncertain, and trying to figure out how to argue against someone who was clearly smarter than her in his field, but who was also using that intelligence to make arguments that just didn't quite make sense.

Still, she managed to mostly keep her cool, though she didn't have a lot of strong arguments for some of them except that she'd seen no indication of that at the time, and it didn't make sense to her. She did manage to talk a bit about Old Coruscanti, but by the end of the debate, when a crowd had gathered to press around at her on all sides, she was glad when she felt Master Denia coming.

"Ah, Nima'tyruti, you're needed to attend the lecture near the front about the value of this treaty," Master Denia said. Her grey hair seemed even paler against the colorful garb she too was forced to wear.

"Ah, is that so?" Nima asked, turning to him. "Could you send me a message about any further arguments?"

"Of course, of course. It was interesting to talk to you. You're bright for your age, and I would encourage you to continue studying linguistics," he said. There was perhaps a little condescension there, but Nima could feel that he'd been impressed as well. She nodded sagely at him, in the most Chartesian manner she could.

"Thank you for the discussion," Nima said, though in truth she was now sweating rather heavily. It was hidden by the clothing, at least, but it had been rather stressful. She managed to keep her voice light and thoughtful, though, so she was pretty sure he at least accepted her polite fiction. "I learned much from it."

He nodded, and they parted ways. Once they were out of hearing, Denia said, "It seemed like you needed a hand."

"Thank you, Master. The discussion was interesting, but it was starting to wear on me. I didn't expect it," she confessed. "But I hope I acted acceptably."

"Yes, you did. These things happen. You have to be ready and willing to provide the answers needed," Denia said, her voice soft. "Remind me to give you a crash course on the way to Exus Station." Exus Station, of course, being the transportation hub they'd traveled through to reach the Chartisians.

"I will, Master Denia."

******

So there they were, two days later, in clothing more comfortable for both of them.

"So, the first and highest rule is simple: follow the emotions. If you're trying to negotiate between two sentient factions, and you don't understand, you should of course try to understand. But in the case of tariffs, or taxation, you will find that most of the sentients involved don't fully understand either," Denia said, with a single raised brow. "If you understand?"

"I don't understand taxes, so we'd be in the same place," Nima confessed. She wasn't terrible at math, of course, but taxation involved all sorts of categories and considerations that bored her.

"Yes, so feel out what they think about a particular deal. Then understand where they are coming from. This is the secret to dealing with a thousand things you don't know about, if you cannot learn about them in time. You reduce it down to the concerns of the sentients involved. You don't cut deals that would hurt sentients, and if you're trying to negotiate a compromise and one party is miserable and the other happy, that means you should consider more deeply why it's troubling them."

"Sometimes it's because one side is at fault," Nima argued.

"Yes, but you can never know that for sure," Master Denia said. "Even when you sympathize with one side, you should remember the limits Jedi and diplomats operate under. You cannot force others to accept a deal, and if you do and don't have a way to enforce it, they will wait for you to leave and then undo it."

Nima nodded, though she thought about how Bell got around those restrictions and problems. Then again, that was part of why he wasn't a diplomat. He didn't get involved in situations where negotiation of that sort was likely. Nima bit her lip, "And what about specific scenarios? It's one thing to think about diplomatic missions in general, but…"

"I'm glad you asked. You're learning. So first, consider you suddenly meet a diplomat on the other side of the issue--"

******

"Oh," Ahsoka said, with almost believable surprise. "Nima, I didn't know you'd be here." She'd bumped into Nima, literally, despite being a trained Jedi. Nima hadn't dodged because she'd been sure that Ahsoka would not run into her. She'd been wrong, as it turned out.

"You didn't?" Nima asked, looking around the not that crowded space station. They were in a concourse with only a few dozen other sentients, most of whom were playing the tourist by looking out the viewports.

"Okay, maybe I saw you and didn't want to… I dunno," Ahsoka said, with a shrug. That shrug seemed like all the answer Nima was going to get, honestly.

"Are you alright?"

"Scout told me some of what happened on Kamino, but I don't… know." Ahsoka shrugged, and grinned. "So, Nima, what are you up to?"

Nima wanted to analyze exactly what Ahsoka meant, but she also knew that this desire wasn't particularly healthy. She wasn't a Mind-Healer, she was a friend. "Well, we just had a diplomatic mission to the Chartisians, where are you coming from?"

"Space pirate infestations.; They tried to take me captive," Ahsoka said. "It ended badly for them, and we managed to salvage some of their ships. We might be able to use them in the war." She gestured broadly. "We have to use something."

"We do," Nima said, trying to figure out what was really bothering her. "Do you want to get something to eat? I don't have to leave for a few hours."

"Of course," Ahsoka said.

******

"So, Scout's been well, I guess, but she's so busy nowadays," Ahsoka said. "Everyone is. I've only been in the capital a day in the last few months. I haven't even really seen Lux much, but it feels kind of petty, you know? I'm an active Jedi, and there's plenty of adventures to be had." Ahsoka muttered 'adventures' to herself, before looking up from her fried vegetables and sauce, to where Nima was delicately trying to eat meat on a stick. "Oh, sorry, I've been dominating the conversation."

"I like listening, and you're doing good work out there. That's what you need to focus on, if you're ever worried," Nima said. "You're not being petty, complaining a bit to a friend in between risking your life for others."

The more Nima listened to Ahsoka, the more she felt it must be guilt that she wasn't doing more, and perhaps… the way she said 'adventures' made Nima think about how all of Ahsoka's life and death situations had been made to seem like something from an… an adventure holovid.

"Yeah, but sometimes it's… almost fun," Ahsoka finally confessed. "Not always, but Anakin always made it feel like sometimes it could be a game. But he fell to the Dark Side, and so I shouldn't be imitating him. But whenever I try to treat it as something serious and miserable, it just makes it harder."

Nima blinked slowly, thinking that through. It was fun for her? The risk, the danger? That truly was unnerving, but at the same time... "Almost fun? It's okay, as long as you don't revel in the destruction, the violence. But if sometimes it feels a little like an adventure, that's okay. Anakin had a lot of things wrong with him, you know. You won't fall just because of that. You won't fall at all, as long as you trust the Force and seek out your friends, y'know? I don't know where I'd be if I didn't ask for help."

"Right, right," Ahsoka said, as much to herself as Nima. "You know what we should do, if we have time?"

"What?"

"Spar! I've heard you've been in diplomatics for weeks, we wouldn't want you to lose your edge," Ahsoka said. "How about it?"

"I am eating," Nima pointed out. "But… sure. I wasn't that hungry anyways."

This was a bit of a lie, but ah well.

What could it hurt?

******

As soon as Nima returned to the Temple, she redoubled her training. She hadn't done that badly, really, and she'd lost none of her skills, but the spars with Ahsoka reminded her of just how much she had to learn.

She had noticed a few things from fighting such an overwhelmingly powerful opponent that she hadn't noticed before. First, while it was nothing compared to the power of the Force, her greater strength and stamina paid off in at least prolonging the fight, and keeping Ahsoka from winning quite as quickly. In the end, Ahsoka was physically stronger than her, and was more in tune with the Force when it came to enhancing her strength anyways. But it required more effort than it would have three or four months ago.

So she definitely should keep that up. So she did. She had at least a little of downtime before her next mission, though it was unlikely to be all that serious.

So she trained until her muscles ached and sweat rolled down her body, and then she kept it up.

She was finally almost approaching adequacy at knife-throwing when she was interrupted.

"There, that made it! It's progress," Baqqanid said.

"Of course, if you're going to have to ask your enemy to stay still, that really doesn't work," Seluku said, offhand. "But it's a step forward!"

Nima opened her mouth to respond, only to hear the chime of her holopad, which was sitting in the corner. Ah, an incoming message?

She sprinted over to the holopad before it went to automated message, and activated it after quickly wiping the sweat from her brow. She'd just have to manage.

She clicked 'accept' without looking at who it was. If they were getting through to her here, they'd already gotten clearance.

"Oh, I seem that we've caught you at a bad time," Hannah said. Hannah was certainly not sweaty. In fact, her blue-green hair was tied back in a somewhat elaborate style that made Nima assume she'd just come from some sort of function. It drew more attention to her face, compared to the usual mass, and attention away from her Padawan braid, which was now just one of many.

Nima refocused and said, "No, just finished exercising." She heard a sound of dismay from Baqqanid, who had another ten minutes of exercise planned. But she was done now, that was for sure. "Wait, we?"

Hannah shifted her head aside, and moved her recorder, to show that Katarina was there. Katarina's dark eyes seemed to stare right through Nima, though she at least didn't look particularly fancy, the same expressive, long face as ever, the same eyes--

Gah.

"So, you two wound up in the same place?"

"Yep! I had a diplomatic mission, a real snoozer, and Katarina and her Master just finished a hard mission, did she tell you about--"

"Blinma, yes." Nima had, a week and a half ago, had tea with Katarina and talked about philosophy. It'd been rather relaxing, though not particularly memorable. But Blinma had been mentioned, and even the most unmemorable interactions with Katarina (and Hannah) stuck in her lekku. Hannah, she'd seen briefly two weeks ago. They'd had lunch together, and Hannah had talked a little about what she was learning about diplomacy, and they'd compared notes.

Hannah hadn't had this new hairstyle at the time, but clearly something had changed in the meantime.

"So her Master decided to tag along on this mission, to help teach Katarina, I dunno, something about non-violence? I don't really get it," Hannah admitted, with a smirk. "She's better at rejecting violence than I am. It's just that she's better at actually fighting people as a warrior philosopher."

"Hannah… this is perhaps true, but if you wanted to learn, I could teach you," Katarina said.

Nima froze, a weird sort of jealousy washing over her. "Oh? I'm g-glad you're getting along, I'm sorry my path hasn't crossed much with either of you. I barely have time when I'm in the Temple, though I did get lunch with Ayguin." She'd also gone to another therapy session, and the group therapy, where she'd mostly listened to how hard a lot of Jedi had it. She agreed, but she was also in a better place for the moment.

"We miss you too," Hannah said.

Katarina hesitated before saying, "I agree. Nima, I wish I could see you more often. You mean a lot to me, and are my best friend, and I apologize if I don't say it enough."

"Wahh," Hannah said. "I feel slighted! I'm not your best friend?"

"No, you are not. But you are my friend. As you know." Katarina was smiling now, the kind of smile that Nima actually wanted to get out of Katarina. She wished she could feel Katarina's emotions in the moment and understand them. But through the screen, she couldn't always tell what everyone was feeling to the same extent.

"I do know, that's true. So, Nima, you just got out of exercising, so what are you learning there?" Hannah asked. "I could tell last time that you looked stronger. Er, as a Jedi." Hannah stumbled over her words. "Not that you did not also look stronger."

"Your heart seemed more whole the last occasion we met, and I really want nothing more than that," Katarina chimed in. "But your training is interesting."

Nima found herself spacing out for a moment, flustered at Katarina's concern and for that matter, the flustered way Hannah was reacting to Nima's new exercise routines… or something.

"Well, I've been practicing throwing the Shuhudaku dagger, and I'm finally starting to get better. But I also did plenty of running and weightlifting."

"Ah. That's good. I haven't really, uh, been exercising much," Hannah admitted. "Katarina, of course, could lift both of us."

"I could not. Perhaps just one of you," Katarina protested. Then, she smiled and said, "Hopefully one of you."

"Listen, just because I complained about a little extra weight…"

Nima blinked. "What happened?"

"I ate a little too much at a diplomatic function, and combined with the indolent nature of the last few assignments, I've gained almost a kilogram," Hannah said. "But I intend to work it off, when the time is right."

"When will it be right?" Nima asked. "Won't you always have your diplomacy, or political philosophy?"

"Are you offering to continue the three person workout routine we enjoyed so a while back?" Hannah asked, with a teasing wink.

"I-of course, if we have time. Which we probably won't. Still, if we cross paths, perhaps we could do something like that. I sparred with Ahsoka a few days ago."

"How was she? As sharp as ever?" Katarina asked. "I would like a rematch with her, actually."

"I can get you in touch," Nima promised, glad to be able to be of some assistance to Katarina, and glad to find a way to get away from thinking about… everything.

"Well, that's good," Katarina said. "I was wanting to ask you if you'd learned anything about the philosophy of decision-making from your lessons. I've been wanting to talk about that."

"How fascinating," Hannah said, with absolutely no sarcasm evident at all. "I've been looking into that, but I don't really have any free time. Herdrik has some interesting thoughts about the question of how we make decisions, but he also ignores the Force entirely."

"They always do," Katarina said, with another fond smile towards Hannah.

Jealous? No, Nima had never been jealous in her life, and even if she was jealous, she shouldn't be. So she wasn't.

Still, it would be nice to be able to hang out with both of them for more than a few hours a month. It'd be nice to see just what they truly meant about a lot of the philosophical talk. It'd be nice to help Hannah keep in shape, and spar with Katarina, and…

"You're frowning, Nima," Katarina said, voice quiet.

"Oh, sorry. I was thinking, but I should be mindful of the present," Nima said, nodding and centering herself and her thoughts. "You say the mission is boring, but there are always stories to tell even about boring missions. So tell me about that…"

"Well, it is a beautiful landscape, though it is quite cold," Katarina said. "I want to go for a walk through the glacial peaks. But I'm pretty sure you would be adverse to joining me there."

"Yeah, but you should do it if you want to. Your Master can't insist that there's not time," Nima said. "If the peaks are culturally valued, you'd even be doing your job."

"We're negotiating tariff rights," Hannah said, with a long, weary sigh.

"Is it going well?" Nima asked. "Is everyone involved satisfied with them?"

"Maybe, I don't know," Hannah said. "I don't read people like you do, but they're moving towards actually signing the stupid treaty, so I guess?"

"That sounds like a good sign," Nima said, nodding. "Can you tell me any more about the people, the culture?"

"Well, I suppose so," Hannah drawled. "But only if Katarina helps."

"Oh, of course," Katarina said nodding.

By the time the conversation was done, the sweat had long since dried, and it was well past lunchtime, and in fact on the way to dinnertime.

She'd hold it close to her, in the future, these moments.

She'd need them in times of disaster.

******

This was a disaster. This was the wreckage of everything! She carefully kept a straight face, and tried to understand how this could happen.

"So, Mala'tyruti, it is good to meet you," Darrin Arkanian, a Sullustian Jedi Master, said, "You're the representative of the group in charge of the creation of standards for labor negotiations?"

Nima's own mother stood there in a crisp suit, baby weight noticeable but ignored, and gave a sort of shrug-nod with her lekku. "I'm the one they chose to help represent the decisions of a very ad-hoc body. The standards we have drawn up are, we hope, acceptable to you."

"What is your exact role?" Master Arkanian asked. The Sullustan wore traditional Jedi robes, but had on a Sullustan skullcap. "Or position, rather."

Mala Tyruti walked around the table as she answered. "I'm currently a project manager, which is to say I focus on the organizational and bureaucratic side of things. I'm partially on leave right now, thanks to having just had a child, but I assume I'll be assigned more permanently. So, we've decided on a strategy to work with the various unions, but we have to create a policy for wildcat strikes."

"The Jedi Order will not, according to a decision by the High Council, act to interfere in any way with strikes, even ones illegal under any bargain made. However justified the government thinks it is, it is not our job," Master Arkanian said, with a nod. "This is a hard line."

"Yes, of course. We didn't expect you to, but we were wondering what your position is on being mediators in case of any such disagreements. Internal diplomacy is diplomacy, after all," Mala Tyruti said, with a warm, if practiced, smile.

"Well, actually, if you do not mind, Padawan Tyruti has studied this issue extensively. As a test, I'd like her to outline this position, and then we can get into further discussion."

"I'm sure that she will do an amazing job," Mala said, tone still level and professional, but eyes slightly misty. Nima could feel the pride coming off of her in waves, and this only served to fluster Nima further.

"I-er yes. We're willing to serve as negotiation staff, but we also want to keep our options open. Put simply, the Jedi Order is in its composition an allied government of the Coalition, for legal purposes. Many such unions are intergalactic bodies just as we are, so we do not want you to assume that we will act as negotiators for the government. It may well be that a union requests that we talk to you, rather than you simply requesting that we talk to them." Nima said it hesitantly, stopping and starting because she could see and feel her mother's smile at her words. "Thus, it is the Order's position that we cannot make commitments to any particular intervention regime. But we could work to put procedures in place for such requests. It's outlined in documents we are sending you."

"Ah, that all makes sense," Mala said, her lekku indicating, 'Good Job, Nima.'

Master Arkanian could in fact read lekku at least a little bit, and from the amusement spreading through him, he'd noticed it.

Nima was blushing, and she stumbled through the rest of the meeting. Once it was done, she went to use the restroom.

It wasn't that Mala Tyruti ambushed her, since that wasn't really possible. But she allowed Mala to catch up to her. "Ah, Nima. I'm sorry if I embarrassed you, I didn't actually know that you'd be there. It was a welcome surprise, though."

"I didn't know you were back to working, even part time."

"I want to keep in, show that I can play a role. We'll really see what happens," Mala said, softly.

"I really do hope it goes well. It's not that far from your new apartment," Nima commented. "So it must not have been a long journey."

"Yeah, so I should be able to be back in time for breastfeeding."

Nima shook her head, "Mom, I…"

"Don't want to hear about that, I know." Mala Tyruti quirked a lekku in the equivalent of a shrug and said. "So, has diplomatic work been treating you well?"

"Mostly, yes, but there was an incident, actually."

"Please, tell me about it," Mala said, clearly eager to hear from her.

Well… it began like this.

Of all the minor missions she had, one stood out as particularly challenging, though not potentially lethal. Which one did she take part in?

[] The Nightmares of Count Nives: The symbolic Count of Jaxxor is old, ailing, and now having nightmares. He has called together representatives of both the Republic and Coalition, being a neutral system considering changing sides, to decide his succession and the path of his country. He doesn't have direct power, but he's a figure of great religious and cultural cachet. The Republic sends a delegation… and Nylirah is on it, so Nima will have a chance to confront her once more.
[] Ill met by Sun-Moonlight: An eclipse is coming, and a very important one at that, for the people of the Fize, a planet of little importance itself, but near the front lines in the 'southern' part of the Mid-Rim. Observing this ritual is important, but something strange is happening with the solar events, something that doesn't quite make sense.
[] Contract With The Enemy: The planet of Isi-97 is a weird player in the Confederate of Independent Systems Civil War, a breakoff of a breakoff, currently in unstable situation. They're reaching out to the Coalition, at least at the moment, and they want to discuss a deal, trading some of their resources for neutrality or some sort of escape from the violence. Of course, the Republic is noticing this as well, and the complicated corporate structure of Palpatine's machinations comes into play...


******

A/N: So, please read this! These are a new form of mini-mission. I can promise you that, at least for this set, Nima's life will not be in danger. Failure will be possible, and incomplete success will be likely.

They will be between two and four updates, ideally. These are not entire 12-15 update monstrosities, but instead a brief exploration.

Then we spit you out to plan voting again, have another such mission, and it continues until… well, you'll see.
 
LVI: Perchance
LVI: Perchance

This was certainly not the best birthday she'd ever had. Sitting in a cramped ship, reviewing endless history of an absurd system that seemed to have dominance over what was ostensibly a democracy, but seemed to take most of its cues from Count Nives of Jaxxor. And he believed all sorts of strange things, especially politically. His reign had been prosperous, but it was very clear that whoever would succeed him, whenever they did, would almost inevitably go in a different direction.

The Republic and Coalition, Nima assumed, both wanted to make sure it was a direction they supported.

This was typical enough, but the nightmares were another strange thing. After all, what did his nightmares really mean? Was he force sensitive? He wouldn't allow himself to be tested, that much had been clear already. He didn't distrust Jedi… maybe.

He said he didn't, which could mean anything, honestly. Still, there was the issue to consider involving--

"Ah, I can almost hear the brooding even without the Force powers," her new temporary Master said. A tall, silver-skinned humanoid, he had a shiny bald head and big, wide yellow eyes. Master Massick was always cheery. Always. He was also an experienced Mind-Healer who'd also served as a diplomat for decades. His species lived to five hundred at the lowest, and he was a young, spry hundred. "You don't have to worry. You'll do fine. We'll do fine. Hopefully we'll have that Count in a better mood by the end of the week. And if not, well, there's supposed to be only four serious candidates. And he's given indication he won't pick beyond them short of 'unfitness.'"

They were in a cramped room in the hold of a passenger ship that had been repurposed to be a transport. There would of course be an honor guard with the diplomats, Jedi included, but they weren't going to be bringing an army. Jaxxor was not known for its army, and the Count had encouraged members of parties' especially willing to listen to him to act in ways to reduce the army and navy.

Still, they'd all be within the power of the Count. And when it came down to it… "Master, does Jaxxor even fit the standards?"

"By a relatively narrow margin, yes," Massick said. "Plus, there might be new reforms whenever he goes. Or if the people vote against his agenda. As far as we can tell, they hold real elections, they've just learned to listen more than act out against authority. Well, enough people to win the elections." Massick shrugged. "It's the best you can do sometimes. You deal with the situation you have in front of you."

Nima nodded, but somewhat reluctantly.

"You really are more like your Master than you think."

Nima turned. "Oh?"

"It's not an insult, but even though you have the mind of a diplomat, you're still thinking in part about ways to change it. Maybe we'll manage that, maybe we won't." He shrugged, a big, expansive gesture that started at his arms, and ended with his head shifting back and forth. "In the meantime, why don't we turn it into a game. A quiz show maybe, like in the holovids?"

"Turn what…"

"Your prep work! So, for a bowl of mushroom soup, what is the name of the first of the candidates."

"Dulia Nives, I think? His daughter." Nima frowned. "But she apparently has spent a lot of time off-planet, so either she has her own life or… are they estranged?"

"We can't know!" He was cheerful even when talking about grim things, though she could feel that some of it was an act. When others suffered, he felt their pain, but tried to turn it into something else. He was an alchemist of a very different sort, and Nima wasn't sure what to think at all.

"Right…"

"Now, here's one. What's the national fruit of Jaxxor?"

"I… don't know." Nima wondered whether she was supposed to.

"Neither do I, but when we land down, we should certainly take time to appreciate the little things. Each planet we see, Nima Tyruti, is a part of the tapestry of the Force, and only by understanding it can we see where it might fit. But seeing where it fits isn't the same as making it fit how we see it."

"I understand that," Nima said, gently.

"Next question! Where does the Count live?"

"The Island of Settlement, I think. Where the first colonists landed down?"

"Yes. And five-hundred years ago the Count granted them a charter to democracy on that very island, in exchange for certain symbolic powers that led, of course… to cultural influence. The Force works in very mysterious ways." Massick nodded sagely. "Meditate on the varieties of life, and know that politics is no more outside the Force than the birds and the beast. They are all equally 'sacred' and 'profane.'"

Nima thought about it, and could find nothing un-orthodox about the opinion, though the way it was expressed was slightly odd. There wasn't much of a focus among most Jedi around the idea of profanity, really. Evil and good, dark and light, right and wrong, yes. But profanity drew to her mind the idea of impurities, and sacredness of… what? Blessings?

Nima gave herself a mental shake, and tried to focus on the task at hand. "I understand, I think."

"Good, good. Now, speaking of politics, what is the Minister seeking the position a minister of?"

"Agriculture, science, and industrial development," Nima said, though when she'd heard that she thought it was somehow three different positions. But no, it wasn't. Which made no sense at all.

"And what battle is Axia, the General, famous for, and against who?"

"It's pirates, obviously, but the battle… I dunno." Nima's lekku twitched in uncertainty. "It was…"

"Blanking on it?"

"Yes. Something about an asteroid!"

"Close enough, and now I have to ask you…"

He was a good teacher, that was quite true, always willing to give partial credit and her learn. But would it be enough?

******

"He sounds like quite a character," Mala admitted. "I'm surprised he didn't throw you a birthday party. Did you get my gift, actually?"

Nima's mother had sent a locket, with a picture of the rest of the family in it. Small personal possessions were acceptable, and so Nima had decided she would treasure it forever. "I did, and thank you so much."

"Well, so, these candidates, you got to meet them? Were they any good? What you told me about them sounds like they're not much to talk about. But wait, why was that woman minister of three different departments?"

"Well, it was apparently a miscellaneous department of catch-all. Agriculture was down to the peasants to decide, science wasn't important, and industries and unions are… necessary but not encouraged," Nima said. And as she said this, she thought about the approach to Jaxxor.

It was both usual and unusual.

Jaxxor was not a rural planet… it was not also an urban planet. So far above, she couldn't see everything, but it was nighttime. But instead of either an almost complete lack of light, or a single light… or a planet filled with the lights of power running all night, it instead had a single huge cluster in the middle of a vast continent, an eye of the storm that was matched nowhere else. There were, when she squinted, flecks of color at a few locations, but even that was seemingly incidental.

They had a city, and it was a nation in size, and then they stopped.

No ecumenopolis, but no economic collapse into the more typical forms. It baffled Nima, though it did seem to explain at least some of the odd politics. Though there were stranger planets out there, by far.

The shuttle she was arriving on banked downwards, as the planet slowly rotated. Night was going to end in three or four hours, and they'd need all the time they could get. Count Nives didn't sleep well because of the nightmares, and had apparently taken to holding his court in the early hours of the morning, before dawn, and then sleeping during the day. He didn't sleep well then, but he slept better.

Nima didn't know what was and wasn't a clue, and so she just stared out the window of the shuttle as they went over waves and waves of dark, shadowy grain, stretching in every direction. There seemed to be villages in between it, but there were no obvious dividing lines from the air. Nothing to say 'this is mine, this is yours.' Instead it was simply endless sameness which turned into endless variety when the sameness shifted to fruit trees, and then another crop, and then the grain again. But each time it was hundreds of miles of it, connected by dirt roads.

They didn't even fly over the city, which apparently wasn't even the capital. Instead a town in the south was, with its elected and bureaucratic population five times larger than the rest combined.

The island, though, it was hard to miss, especially once they were well below cloud cover. There were a small amount of defenses, several turrets and a small airfield, but it was otherwise dominated by a huge, rambling mansion which seemed painted red and black, though in the darkness she couldn't be sure. It had five huge towers ending in sharp spires, and jutted upwards at random places, as if it had been haphazardly constructed over centuries. The towers seemed ancient, though, worn and grey/black near the top, and only shifting into reds barely visible in the darkness. The shuttle turned lazily around those towers, and moved towards the airfield, where a half-dozen sentients were standing. One of them was pacing, wearing a jacket way too big for her, the sleeves not filled in, so that they hung limply. Even from dozens of feet up, she could see the sway of the sleeves as they paced. Impatient.

Their emotions were a storm that could not be contained, and when they landed the figure marched over.

"We'd better see what she wants," Master Massick said. "Because that's our General. The indomitable Axia, spoiled of a fight and looking to start one with us. If she wants it, consider whether it's not cruelty to refuse." He was smiling as he said it. Luckily both of them were fully awake, having slept to wake up just before taking the shuttle down. Of course, it'd make the day itself miserable, but better than falling asleep in their robes.

Nima checked that her lightsabers were present, and nodded to herself. She was ready. The shuttle door opened and she strode out, next to her own temporary Master.

Axia was upon them in a moment, furious but her face smiling widely. Her voice was almost cheerful. "There you are, Jedi! The other ambassadors will be down tomorrow, right? The Count made it very 'clear' that he wanted just the two of you. He makes things very clear, doesn't he?"

Behind her were a military guard that was wearing black and red uniforms. There was a pin she vaguely recognized, in its wheat and fist motif, as a sign that they were in the Count's service. However, they radiated respect towards her, and were (perhaps fortunately) out of range of her words.

"We wouldn't know," Nima pointed out. "We've never met him."

"Well. You don't have to meet him," Axia said, with a shake of her head. Up close, she had cropped hair, golden-brown skin, and deep green eyes. She looked somewhere in her forties, and physically fit despite her small size, just slightly shorter than Nima.

"The patch there, it is on the other side from usual in your forces," Master Massick pointed out. Indeed, there was a patch on a side Nima wouldn't have possibly known was wrong unless Massick had pointed it out.

"It was my father's. I inherited it from him, after he was gone, when they downsized the military early in the count's reign."

"Ah…" Master Massick said. He too could feel it, the dark turn, the anger and hate: it wasn't merely normal, it was quite possibly murderous. "I'm sure he'd be proud of what you've done."

"Of course he would. Or else I would not be wearing it, Jedi." She turned, still smiling. "I know you understand pride, being from such a brave warrior order. You have never eaten a blaster bolt from shame and humiliation."

"No, I haven't," Master Massick admitted, taken aback but not showing it at all. "So, where will we be meeting the count?"

"You will be. But I've had it suggested that the Padawan Tyruti should meet with the daughter… by the daughter, and at the protest of the ambassador and his guard. Strange person."

"Guard?" Nima asked.

"You can see her, over there, with her boss."

Exiting from a building were two figures. One was simply a balding, middle-aged humanoid, shaped roughly like a stick, with thick glasses and a feeling in the Force as if he was not nearly as mild as he seemed. However, next to him…

The darkness spread out like ink in the water, but both defensive and offensive, and slimy and sickening. It could almost blind one to the idea of there being anything at all except for it. It was a clouding, sickening, cloying darkness she'd only felt once before. It had a beat, like a heart, but the beat was fast, and growing faster, as Nylirah turned and sensed Nima at last.

Open surprise echoed in the Force for a moment, a moment of humanity quickly crushed as she sneered. Nylirah was as tall as ever, blue-black hair even more striking in the darkness of the early morning. She was still dressed in those flowing clothes, though whether the colors were the same, Nima couldn't see from there.

"Nylirah?"

"Nylirah?" Master Massick asked. "Do you know her? Not as a friend, I assume."

"Ah yes, star-crossed battlefield rivals, then?" Axia asked, tapping her chin. "Very well. Anyways, so the Count's daughter truly isn't someone to be kept waiting, I would suggest. But I also don't get along with her, so feel free to take however long you need."

Nima looked over at Master Massick, who said, "I'll go ahead and try to talk to the Count. Unless you'd rather come with me?"

"No, it's fine," Nima said. She wasn't actually entirely sure that it was, but she hurried onwards in the direction pointed to her. She went through a rather drab back entrance that creaked when the door opened. There on the other side were liveried servants. When she asked about the Count's Daughter, whose name was Dulia, she was directed down a series of passageways.

The passages really were narrow inside the building, a warren seemingly in desert clay from the red color of the walls. There was no gilding, and no portraits, against her expectations of such a pile of credits. She knocked on a big, black wooden door.

"Come in!" a voice shouted, as if screaming. When Nima opened the door, she knew why. Some sort of modern dance music was playing at an incredible volume. The instruments all danced and capered about, half-mad and half-grieving. When she focused a little on it, and on the nonsense lyrics that seemed to fade in and out of meaning, she got an intense feeling of emotions that could not be put into words, that could not be understood, and thus could never be justified or explained.

The bronze-skinned woman sitting at a table banging her hand to the beat must be Dulia. She was rather round, a plump woman somewhere in her thirties dressed in a blue dress that went halfway down her thighs. The room smelled like a distillery, and Nima stepped forward carefully.

"Ah, so not a romantic entanglement. It would have been interesting, but one supposes that one doesn't get every single fucking thing you want." Her voice was rich, deep, and had the ability to draw one in, as if personally confiding to them. Nima could feel deep into Dulia's emotions, though it was muddled by the alcohol, and she seemed more annoyed than angry. "Or anything," Dulia added, but under her breath, so that Nima only heard it because she was watching her lips.

"Not a romantic…?"

"I was wondering why Nylirah reacted so badly when she heard the name of one of the Jedi diplomats."

Nima startled at that, but Dulia kept on talking. "I've only known her a few hours, but I'd watch a holovid show about her life. I'm pretty sure she's 'evil' or something as you'll assure me, but really, can anyone be that bad with such a good taste in music?"

"Wait, did she choose this music, or like it, or…" Nima asked, baffled, as she stepped forward. The room itself was relatively dark, with glowing lights on the wall. There was a seat for her.

"Oh, interesting story. Please, sit down."

Nima settled into the chair, which felt cold and icy beneath her. "Ah, sorry, I'm still experimenting with chairs," Dulia said. "If I am in charge, this whole place is getting knocked down and replaced with something industrial, or post-industrial, just as soon as I finish pissing on the old man's grave."

Okay, that was two candidates that despised him, out of four.

"I haven't met the man," Nima admitted. "But if this is your mansion, if you inherit, I suppose you could do what you want."

"Ooh, a lot less measured than Nylirah, who all but said that if there was a coup against me, the Republic would back me to the hilt. Remember, you're trying to buy me."

"I'm trying to talk to you, right now," Nima said, with a smile.

"Oh ho! How personable." Dulia took a sip of her drink. "Hey, if you give me a moment, I can order some mocktails." Some what? "I was going to try to convince you to drink, but you can't be, what, twelve?"

"I'm fourteen," Nima shot back defensively, unable to keep from blurting it out.

"Oh, fourteen, that's very different… nah, I think I'll wait to offer anything until you're at least sixteen. So, you're curious about the music?"

"Yes," Nima admitted, drawn in despite herself. The woman was clearly dissolute, a classic wastrel by Holovid standards, but it was her job to be interested and curious, and so she was. The music was interesting, too, emotions hidden, veiled, obscured but obviously present.

"She wrote it herself! She told me that it would auto-delete itself within three days, as it was a creation and could not be preserved, which sounds awfully avant-garde to me! She really missed out with this whole 'war' profession of hers, considering her obvious talent. Now, where are those non-alcoholic cocktails?"

Nima stared for a long moment, not moving at all, and then listened to the music closer. Ah, yes. It was clearly toneless and without passion, a paint-by-numbers aping of other music in the genre. How could she have missed that?

Finally they arrived, and Nima got to have the 'pleasure' of trying seven different fruit juices mixed together with something to make it fizzy and bubbly. Her mood was ruined, caught up on the snare of Nylirah's existence, but she managed to smile and keep reasonably reactive. She promised to stop by again, and left as soon as she could.

******

Someone ran into her when turning a corner. She half-dodged them, so that it was only their insistence on plowing endlessly forward meant they clipped each other at all. It was enough to send the other sentient to the ground, stumbling.

Which meant that Nima had to stop.

"Ah! Sorry! Sorry! I need to… oh, wait, you're the Jedi." The sentient was dressed in ill-fitting black clothing, pants and a shirt covering most of her skin, which was the same color as both Dulia and Axia, but whose eyes were a stunning, slightly manic looking blue. "Ah, so, I'm a Minister, and one of the candidates," she squeaked. "Anyone with the blood of the Count can be selected, and my mother's cousin's great-great-grandmother married the bastard child of the Count of that time's brother. You can look it up!"

Nima wasn't really interested in that, and instead offered her hand. The woman, who couldn't be older than her early thirties, was light and easy to help pull up. "Ah, so why do you want to be heir?"

"There are some policies he's pursued that have been bad not only for the factories, but also for the peasants that are his greatest concern. They're understandable flaws, of course, I'd never think he was responsible for them. He isn't the Chancellor, of course, but… I'd like to do things a little different if he steps down for some much-deserved rest."

There was a spike of distaste when she spoke about him, like the bitter aftertaste in bad food.

So. Three of four.

"Right, I understand entirely," Nima said, quietly. "I'm sorry we ran into each other."

"I'm glad I ran in you. Surely something has to be done. Someone has to do it. I don't know, perhaps I should talk to Dulia? I'm not sure. Oh, did I introduce myself? I don't know if you--"

"Hali Suli?" Nima both said and asked, remembering the name vaguely.

"Right! Very good. Uh, so, I'll see you…" the woman hurried off, heart obviously beating double-time.

******

She found Master Massick standing outside a door in the center of a hall. The hall lacked any other doors, and so it made sense that this was Count Nives' room. "Ah, Nima. I've been kept waiting, because someone is--"

The door opened that very moment, and a thirty-something man with red-brown skin stepped out, dressed in an elaborate costume with rather too many belts, far more than were needed. "I'm just saying, Count, that--"

Again, someone was cut off, this time by a fat, elderly, bronze-skinned man who was roughly spherical, but with a small head, like a ball droid. He was bald, and his dark eyes glared out at the other man. "That you want useless reforms that will only hurt peasants and lead to the end of the glorious peace that I have pursued so effectively. But let me remind you of something: three years ago, a man named… Niles, I think, your age? Whips? Chains? Pain? Paddles? Something like that."

The man looked sick. "You wouldn't…"

"I would. I would reveal it to everyone. They'd know of your perversions. If you want to succeed me, you'll need to make better promises than that, Hyrem."

The man looked at him with impotent, endless loathing.

From the smile on Count Nives' face, he liked the impotent part of that. Nima could feel his mind, and it was strange. It was a tangled thing, the thickets of a garden rarely pruned, until it had overgrown itself. He was in pain, oh, in so very much pain, but he was clearly getting his satisfaction from being able to spread it, in being able to dine on the berries amid the brambles of a life that was clearly, even if his nightmares faded away, near its end. He didn't look healthy even without the thorny grasp of his sleeplessness, dragging at him, and his nightmares, plaguing him.

It made Nima feel for him, for all that he was clearly someone so used to cruelty that it was nothing special, nothing new.

It was the sort of garden that the wildlife, if it knew better, fled on instinct.

She wanted to explore it out of a sort of fascinated horror as she looked upon this sentient, the second most odious person she'd met thus far. Nylirah, of course, was a Dark-Side-using murderess. What evils did he do, to feel so grandly petty?

"I… yes, sir. Wait, the Jedi, they're listening."

"Oh, they're very galactic in their tastes, really. Every Jedi I've ever met has been the strangest combination of chaste and entirely accepting of such… immoral acts. But nobles such as us, we have standards. You know it, I know it."

Count Nives didn't care. He really didn't. There was no outrage, none of that bright orange-red of disgusted, righteous anger. No, whatever 'act' involved wasn't something that mattered to him.

"So they won't tell, will they?"

"No," Master Massick said, absently, looking as if he was having to fight to keep the smile on his face. "We would not reveal whatever this is to anyone else. It might well bring shame to some involved."

Nima managed not to blink at just how pointedly Massick wasn't referring to the noble.

"Right, very right," Count Nives said. "So, Hyrem. Are we going to have a problem?"

"No, of course not, sir. I do wish that your nightmares swiftly pass, and the bad sleep soon be something of the past," Hyrem said it and felt like he meant it, at least a little bit. Hyrem shook his head. "It can't be easy to live through it."

"I've lived through my father, and your uncle, and far worse than this," Count Nives said. "But I will keep that carefully tailored expression of sympathy in mind, Hyrem." Nives gave a sickly, gap-toothed smile and shook his head. "It was certainly better than some of these other… carrion-birds. Have a good morning."

Hyrem retreated, and Count Nives turned his smile on Padawan and Jedi Master. It was a weak, strained smile. "I am quickly running out of strength for such affairs. I would like to talk about my nightmares, now, Master Jedi."

"Jedi Master," he replied. "And of course, I would be happy to help however I can. May Padawan Tyruti come with me? She's learning to be a Mind-Healer as well."

"Of course, of course. It'd be rude otherwise. Let's go."

They stepped into the room, and the door closed behind them.

What does Nima focus on over the next period of time? (Choose 1)

[] Doing everything she can to help improve Count Nives' nightmare problem, in the hopes that once recovered he'd be grateful to them and at least let them stage some of their naval forces here, even if he's unlikely to militarize himself.
[] Look into the four heirs. They would both have motivation if this is… less than natural, but more importantly if he retires or feels unable to do his (supposedly symbolic but clearly very powerful) job, then they will be the ones to step up, whichever of them can impress him the most. Or unimpress him the least.
[] Nylirah is up to something. One can tell because she's Nylirah, a darkside illusionist who was sent shortly after a Count started to have nightmares. She couldn't have been the initial cause, based on information as to when she arrived… but could she be making it worse? Of course!

******

A/N: So yeah. Merry Christmas. Shit's been shit here, but that's not important.
 
LVII: Moonlight
LVII: Moonlight

It was the strangest change of schedules she'd gone through. The Count operated at night and slept, patchily, during the day, in short shifts to try to prevent dreaming. This also prevented restful sleep, but he was nothing if not determined. Therefore, the entire operation of this court was reversed. The politicians arrived in the day with messages if they couldn't stay, or arrived as the sun set.

People lived their life by moonlight, by reflection and secondhand sources. Nima was among them, walking out into the darkness and trying to see her way to something true. There was a metaphorical turn of mind that waking in the darkness and operating the twisting paths that conversations took. Nobody was as direct as they seemed, when later she told Mala Tyruti all about it. She focused on the moments they made sense, and not the time she'd been made to listen to three hours of music while trying five kinds of juice, all to hear at the end:

"If my father does retire, I am of course for sale." Dulia said it so casually, half-reclining beneath the stars. The moon was obscured by clouds, but the stars were peeking at the very edges of those clouds, like they were gilding to the soft blanket stretched out over the sky.

The music was done, and Nima had drunk so much juice that, in truth, she needed to go pee rather urgently. But she wasn't going to waste this moment, not now. Not when at last she was so close, despite the cool of the evening. This was the fourth day since she'd arrived, and thus far all she'd gotten were non-answers and the beginnings of a 'web' of the sort that Master Massick asked her to create, and then destroy so that it couldn't be found and read. It would find all the contacts, all the connections, and make them make sense.

The noble candidate, Hyrem, had plenty of contacts here, but mostly among minor officials, which he competed for with Hali, who was very vigorous in getting in contact with both minor officials and some of the staff.

Dulia kept only Nylirah and a few other friends who jetted in for all-night parties as company, while Axia's strongest contacts seemed to be with the guards.

Massick wondered, idly, whether she might not be planning a coup of her own. It would make sense, and certainly Axia was too direct to have been behind the nightmares. Master Massick noted that the nightmares seemed to not be going away easily, but that at least at the moment, he didn't suspect foul play.

(He also did not think that Count Nives could actually face or confront the various psychological or physiological hangups that could have caused the nightmares. But if Nylirah wasn't directly causing them, then it was pretty convenient, wasn't it? Nylirah was here for a reason, and that didn't seem to be to act as a Mind-Healer. Or if she did, she made sure to keep her activities secret.)

"Oh?" Nima asked, wanting to let Dulia talk. There were chirps of distant birds, and this garden spot was far from quiet. But in this moment it stretches as Nima remains seated, sprawled almost, in her chair, sitting across a low table strewn with dozens and dozens of glasses that had been filled with juice. The silence was uncomfortable, but she didn't want to fill the silence too much, or else she'd lose the words she wanted to hear.

"Are you going to give me an offer?"

Nima hesitated and then asked, "Has Nylirah already named a price?"

"Oho, your lekku have sharp tips," Dulia said. "Impressive, impressive. No. She's hinted at a price. Surely you can hint at one too. A bigger one. That's how this works, isn't it? This planet is just a piece on the board. A backside song in a low-selling album. So, what is it?"

Nima hesitated, lekku twitching with uncertainty. "Why do you want to be the Count? Is it just about your father?"

"What isn't about him? The world is warped in his image. If I spent my whole time sitting on my ass," Dulia said with a smirk. "It'd be better than what he's doing. I intend to keep a hand off, maybe try to introduce these people to decent music and parties. I'd never want to do what my father thinks his job is, but most Counts at most select a few Prime Ministers via winks and nods and kill a bill or two, now and again. Usually small stuff. The last Count got into a scandal because he tried to kill a bill that was going to hurt a buddy's sports stadium."

That did seem rather petty.

"But then what do you have to… well, offer? Nylirah surely wants you to side with her."

"That'll be my one big act, picking a side and then getting to the business of living my life. If I'm selected. He doesn't like me, but I'm family, and I'm sure you can offer plenty. You seem like an interesting person. But maybe not used to me being so blunt?"

"You haven't been previously, but I will take what you've said to Master Massick," Nima said, which was as close as she could come to saying that, at this point, this was the best lead she had.

"Ah, so formal! You sound a little hasty. Are you in a hurry?"

Actually, a little bit. She still had to use the restroom, and she still didn't want to be drawn away while there was something to gain. "Not particularly. Though with every day the issue does become more pressing."

"It becomes more pressing, and so does the juice, no? Did you like the three-fruit juice, the one with the bit of spice to it? It does go right through you, admittedly," Dulia said with a smirk. "It seems to be doing so for you as well, I bet. You're not moving at all, as if you're trying that hard not to squirm. Come on, I'll still be here when you get back. And perhaps Nylirah will be as well, and we can all talk about our friendship!"

"No, thank you," Nima said, and then she added. "When we last met, she tried to murder me as part of a plot to kidnap thousands upon thousands and enslave them."

"Right, right. I know she's terrible, but have you ever considered her perspective?" Dulia asked. "She's destructive, terrible, and oh so interesting."

Nope. She was none of those things.

"Perhaps. I don't know how she became who she is," Nima found herself saying, the words spilling out. "But I can't let myself… care about that. Not after all she's tried to do." It was hypocritical, she knew, but she hadn't known Nylirah as a flawed but good person. She could picture what was good about Barriss, what had been good about Anakin, even though both had fallen. One of them, though, had been willing to change. If Nylirah wanted to redeem herself, Nima wouldn't stop her.

She didn't.

When Nima got back from the restroom, the topic was music--loud music, fast music, new music, none of it anything Nima knew--again, and Nima just had to sit through it as best she could.

*****

Endurance was certainly a theme, in getting through these long nights.

It wasn't that she was against hearing about exactly why Hali thought that the current Count's policies were wrong.

It was that she was sitting in a rather uncomfortable wooden chair hearing in detail about the different sorts of fertilizer and their effects on the soil. It was in a big conference room, one of those pits that seemed to try to focus all attention on the speaker in the center. Universities had them, she was told, and this certainly felt like every stereotype about galactic university lectures. The chair was digging into her back rather uncomfortably.

"Ah, am I boring you?" Hali asked.

"I don't have the background to understand this," Nima admitted, not falling asleep only because of her training and the discomfort of the chair. "Can we put it down more simply? So, you say that he is against a lot of the most modern agricultural techniques, including new fertilizers. I don't really need to know how they're better, just that they are, and perhaps send me citations if it's controversial."

"Right, right," Hali said. "Okay, I can do that. Basically, his father was seeking to expand the use of machines for agriculture, and while doing that was also reducing funding and support for farmers that didn't use his new technologies. Count Nives' has encouraged a reversal, where this all changed. They were subsidized to not change their lifestyles too much, and moving to the city to get a higher education or join and factory went from being supported to not, especially since the various unions or workers' associations have been… thought little of for the past few decades, weakened at every step. He wishes to return to a time that never existed, but even with all the support parties' are sending in his names for the rural farmers…"

"It isn't enough?"

"No, not really. There are still plenty of them moving to the cities anyways, it's just a trickle rather than a flood, and in exchange for staying they have to work just as hard as their grandparents worked. But we could spend even less and still improve their lives, and more than that, start to industrialize the planet further. Small semi-urban industrial centers, plentiful support to make sure it doesn't hurt so much… it's the only way to move forward, to shift our planet towards the next stage of its history."

Next stage.

Nima didn't know whether that was… all that true. History was hard to predict, that much was sure. There were so many factors that could fit wrong. Nima could feel the woman's mind, sparking with ideas, enthusiastic and impatient. Yet what she was impatient for wasn't even some transformation of her world, but another step on the way to its transformation.

At the same time, she thought about what Dulia had said. Why should the Count have such power and influence? Shouldn't that be the elected minister? Was she sure she couldn't get that position? Was she trying to shortcut her way into power?

Though, if she was, what could Nima truly say about that?

She wasn't this woman, she didn't know her struggles, could only sense her emotions and make judgements based on that. "How would you do this as a Count, though?"

"Have you seen the current Count Nives? His power is seemingly without limit. Some of this is personal, but some of it has to do with the unwritten rules of 'county review.' Even his grand-uncle, the Count before last, still got to look over bills and make comments, even if not all of them were listened to. There's always been power in the position, it's just grown less and less subtle and more and more all-encompassing."

"Couldn't you argue that the way to act would be to counteract that? That what the planet needs more than anything is a Count that would step away from such power?" Nima asked, lekku twitching as she saw Hali's annoyed gaze.

"Perhaps, but in a way he's set up a self-perpetuating system. If he stops throwing fuel on the fire, that's good, but… I want to convince him to give another way a chance. I can't seize power…"

Nima couldn't tell whether she believed this or not, but she sounded sincere. "So you need to convince him. But if he's believed this for decades, why would he change now?"

"He's not well, even besides the sleep. People change when they're at the end of a long career," Hali insisted. "I think… I think that I might have a shot."

She didn't sound sure.

She didn't sound sure at all.

******

Nima fell out of her exercise routine, at least a little bit. She still jogged every evening, but she remembered to do her weights only once in the first week there, and that belatedly, at the end of a long… night. A long, long night. She'd been talking to nobles that night, and bureaucrats, and for that matter getting a report from the doctors that did indicate that he had heart and stress problems that would probably require him to retire in the next few years if he didn't want to die in office.

She lifted the weights, pacing and thinking. She wondered what these people would do if he simply improved, refused to pick a side, and tried to hold on until this civil war was over?

Still, she'd understand his desire to keep on going. Her Master, Bell, was old enough that he could have retired by now if he wanted, without even the tiniest bit of guilt. But she suspected he wouldn't ever retire.

He'd just keep going, until…

Best not to think about it.

It was the next night, waking calm and rested, that she was invited to play a sport.

Hyrem stopped her in the middle of the hall, on the way out towards the gardens, which truly were beautiful. The glow-fruits hung in the trees, enough light that even on overcast nights the garden was a riot of color and light. It was a lovely place to go for a jog, and if she wasn't marinating in stress she might have spent even more time there.

Instead, she'd put together a web of associations that seemed to place Hyrem in a very strong position… except that, of course, the Count didn't respect so many of Hyrem's noble and semi-noble allies, who were often reluctant hangers-on.

The question is, what would they do if Hyrem wasn't put in charge? At least a few of them had asked whether they wouldn't be more 'democratic' to have a council of nobles fulfilling symbolic positions, if need be.

Of course, some also seemed to be advocating for the petty nobles to get even more directly involved in politics than they already were: some nobles were prominent and powerful members of the various parties that currently, in coalition, ran the Thing.

This meant that--

"Ah, Nima'tyruti, was it?" Hyrem asked, jogging up. "I wanted to invite you to play Kla-Ball with me. I invited Axia and she accepted. Hali refused, politely, and Dulia said that she'd watch but asked me whether she 'looks like someone who has ever exercised a single day in her life'? Which I could not answer properly and remain a gentleman, since no answer wouldn't be rude. But since only Axia was playing, that means we need a third to really get to the game."

"What's Kla-Ball?"

"Oh, it's an interesting game. I think we'll do the variation with gloves instead of paddles. But basically, you have a projector set up, or a specially made wall. Either way, you have a blank wall and then circular 'targets' that you need to bounce, knee, elbow, and kick to these spots on the wall, which change and rotate over the course of the game. You can't grab a ball, but you can hit it with your gloved hand or any other part of your body. You're trying to keep the other player from getting the 'touch' that--"

He kept on explaining the rules, and Nima listened, but at the same time also found herself paying more attention to his feelings. He was excited, but also calculating. The latter was like a dash of sour fruit in a sweet juice--a simile that certainly was aided by Dulia's plying of Nima with non-alcoholic fruit drinks--and didn't seem to entirely obscure the sweetness.

He wanted friends, but he also wanted political advantage. Who didn't, here? Nima hardly wanted to be hated by any of the candidates, but she was also playing a diplomatic game, trying to figure out which, if any of them, was going to be the candidate the Coalition supported. For that matter, would supporting someone help or hinder their chances?

She didn't know. This was going to get messy if Master Massick couldn't help out the Count. Even if he could, would that really help things? The Count was clearly widely disliked… though he had to also be widely popular. She was surprised that there were no candidates who wanted to continue his policies, if they had such a majority. It wasn't a strong majority, but… something had to be going on, if these were the final four.

Nima wasn't sure what, though.

He'd finished speaking.

"Ah, I'd love to try. Are you going to ask anyone else?"

"Your Master's going to be busy, won't he?"

"He's not my Master, exactly," Nima said. "It's more that he's watching over me for now."

"Ah, right. Oh! You'll have to not wear those shoes of yours. I was told that they can make you stick on walls, and that's a pretty unfair advantage."

Nima was a little uneasy, but if this was all some sort of coup attempt, she probably would have felt it. So she nodded. "Where should I meet you?"

"Right, right. You want to put your shoes in your room?"

"Boots, and yes. That'd probably be… actually, no, I'll take them with me. I assume there's a locker room?"

"Oh, of course." Hyrem smiled, clearly quite genuinely.

******

She had a helmet, and these thick gloves designed so that a round ball flying at a considerable speed could hit one's hands and, at most, sting a little. There were also pads for the knees, the elbows, and just about everywhere.

Once you got the ball bouncing everywhere, it could really pick up speed, which was part of the challenge, apparently. Axia, who dressed in the women's room with her, wore a grey and red bodysuit, and moved with an easy grace. "I hope he's any good."

"You're a regular player?" Nima asked.

"Oh yes. There was a device in the orphanage I went to after… what happened, happened. It was set for a smaller half-court, but that's all the room we had," Axia said.

Nima wondered what happened, but wasn't going to--

"I see that look on your face. My father committed suicide, blackmailed, mocked, and humiliated by Count Nives," Axia said, quite simply. There wasn't even hurt in her, as if the wound was so deep that she was the scar. "So I went to an orphanage for a number of years, and they had a projector, so we could use it to play. So, I'm pretty good. I'm not a professional, though. I did play in college, however."

Nima nodded, more sure than ever that if Count Nives' died, not only would Axia not mourn, but would be an obvious suspect. Then again, who wasn't?

Except his dreams seemed to be his own, his nightmares unrelated to anyone here… right?

"I hope you'll show me how to play, then," Nima said. "I heard some of the explanation, but I'm not an expert."

"Oh, of course. This way…"

She was pointing not to the way she came in, but to a door in the back.

******

The field was really quite impressive. It was exactly nine meters wide, thirteen meters long, and the ceiling was nine meters above. In other words, a full-sized one of the sort used in professional games had to be a custom building, or had to be partially constructed by going outside and setting up retractable walls. Less expensive, but still a significant investment. Schools could afford that, but only the wealthy could afford their own.

In the center of the room, surrounded by a circle that you apparently couldn't step in, except to forfeit, was a projector. It was a huge, black and tan cube, with dozens and dozens of lenses all over it. She guessed that it'd rotate around, casting different light in different locations.

Hyrem, dressed in a gaudy gold bodysuit, told Nima that there was a mode where the light was different colors, so you got different numbers of points for different colors.

"Do you have to hit the circle at all, or does the ball need to be entirely in it?" Nima asked, as she warmed up, going through a few basic stretches.

"If you hit it dead on, you get two points, but with all the angles you're bouncing it against, that's pretty unlikely," Hyrem said. "It can be a team game, but we're just going to play against each other. So, why don't I serve?"

"Oh, you serving, what an idea," Axia muttered to herself, but loud enough that she clearly had intended to be heard.

"I'll take that as a yes."

"Wait, how does the device keep safe?"

"It activates a forcefield once the game begins, in this version of it. In other circumstances, where money isn't available, they create a sort of cage for it."

With that, he walked over, picked up a ball just a little too big to easily hold in one hand, but not much bigger, and bounced it. It sprung back up incredibly quickly. Ah. Then, with a smile, he bounced it again, and then a third time, as a half-dozen points of light began to dance, two to his left, one on the floor, one on the ceiling…

He bounced one more time, as hard as he could, and then away it went.

Nima scrambled forward, as fast as she could manage. But Axia was faster, diving to slam her elbow into the ball, which bounced right over Hyrem's head, to ricochet against a wall and go straight towards… ah! The point of light in a corner got a partial hit, a single dinging buzz as Nima surged after it, trying to time her movement so that she'd be under it. There was a target that she could hit it to from, with a closed fist. She was just a bit too slow, and Axia reached it in time to bat it away.

She wasn't batting it towards anything, just denying Nima the point.

Hyrem rushed and hit it again. The ball made a sproing as it slammed hard into the wall and went back, Hyrem trying to use this new angle to get a ball in position. But Nima was closer, and she sprinted to hit the ball… into the very goal he'd been trying to get. She hit it head on, and it bounced back towards her, but at a very slight angle.

Axia had somehow predicted this, and was there to hit it into another point before Nima could reach the ball. Also head on.

Nima tried to keep up the pace, but Axia kept just a little bit in the lead, while Hyrem only got a single point. At fifteen minutes, a buzzer sounded. It was time for a break.

Nima's lungs were screaming, but she kept upright, looking at the patterns of goals as they shifted. There were apparently three sections, though after the second there was a much longer break.

"Are you dancing, or are we playing a game?" Axia asked, spitting on the ground, pacing around to keep from cramping up.

"Me?" Nima asked.

"You and the Baron, but especially him. If you don't play to win, if you aren't here to triumph, then why are you here?"

"If… this is… some sort of holovid story where… anyone who beats you at this sport gets the Countship, you should have… said," Hyrem managed to pant out, desperately wiping the sweat from around his eyes as he half-crouched, doubled over and clearly regretting his choices.

"You never were the sort of person to put in effort. You invited me, but of course you wouldn't even try to give me a good match. The ambassador is a fourteen year old girl, and she's doing more. You speak about the commonality of all nobles, and yet here we are."

"I… also didn't know this was an interrogation," Hyrem said. "I'm not my father. I would not have turned you away after your… after your father's unfortunate accident."

"Ah. Yes. Cleaning his blaster. As one does," Axia said, shaking her head. "Don't make excuses. It's pathetic. Do better, or not."

"Ah, right, never a… liar." Hyrem wiped his brow. "What are you telling the Count, that he's still considering you? You want to bring war to our planet."

"I want glory, and I'll be willing to do your reforms, or whatever anyone else proposes if I can reclaim the honor of this planet. But enough talk, let's start up another round. We'll see just what you can do."

"Do I have to repeat that this is not a contest to see who will be Count."

"It is a contest, though," Axia stated. "Now, let's play."

******

The game continued, and Hyrem did no better. He had bursts of effort, and he scored several more points, but it had become a contest between Axia and Nima. Nima wasn't competitive, but she really did want to win, and not just because it'd be a way to gain Axia's respect, and perhaps learn a little about her plans. 'Go to war and then maybe follow the advice of reforms' didn't seem like much to base an attempt to become a Count on. She'd seen war, and she didn't think there would be any glory there.

And what else was there? Hatred, certainly.

But, if her words were accurate… then even Nima wasn't sure if she could have resisted hate in such circumstances. But that didn't make it a good reason either. Axia was not the right person to become Count, but was there a right person? Nobody seemed to be going after it for the right reasons.

Nima was soaked with sweat by the end of the second round. But she'd almost completely caught up, so that it was neck and neck. Her own neck hurt a little form whipping it around so fast to try to follow the ball. She could sense where Axia was, and that helped because Axia seemed to almost always know where the ball was.

Still, she'd really be looking forward to taking a shower after all of this. It wasn't even midnight, and so even after all these days, being up felt a little strange. Then she felt it… oh.

She was distracted for the last minute or two, allowing Axia to secure a solid margin by the end of the time. As soon as there was a buzz, the gym doors opened. Dulia stepped in, not wearing any sort of uniform… followed by Nylirah, wearing a black, purple, and gold suit of stunning boldness and tackiness.

Her dark moonless-night hair only looked more silly when combined with the gaudy outfit. "Ah, Nima'tyruti, I almost thought you were avoiding me. And yet here we are. I'm sorry I came so late, I suppose I'll have to just try harder to make up for it." She stepped forward, slowly and dramatically.

"You… aren't… allowed to add more players," Hyrem said. "It's against the rules."

Nylirah blinked, seemingly taken aback. "Rules? Do you think I care about rules?"

"You are also going to have to wait about thirty minutes, roughly, before we continue. The break is usually pretty long," Axia said. "Mostly because people are usually blown out by the end of it. A pro game, of course, just switches players."

"Right… I did not think this all the way through," Nylirah confessed, with a smile she probably thought was charming, but was instead smarmy and hostile.

Nima stalked forward. "What are you really here for? I don't think you actually care that much about the game."

"What are you saying?" Nylirah said, with a smug smirk. "I care all about Claws-Ball."

"Kla-Ball," Nima corrected.

"Right, right, exactly. So Clause-Ball is a favorite hobby of mine, and who are you to say otherwise."

Nylirah was so… so… petty!

Nima grit her teeth and said, "I'd be perfectly willing to defeat you again, then."

"You, beat me? It's your Master that got in the way. Even with all your jumping around, you were never quite able to keep up with me."

Nima's lekku shook with frustration. "Enough of this, please. Are you seriously interested in these games?"

"Yes. I'm not the one acting as an ambassador, at least not directly. But I do know that if you want to wage a war, Axia, then you will need industrial production: that is to say, the core. Anything the Coalition promises is an illusion based on faulty principles. Of course, it'd cause a lot more destruction and devastation if you went onto the Coalition side and went in half-cocked, armed with a rusty piece of metal blessed by a dozen Jedi, so please, do go ahead and listen to Nima's promises, if she's made any yet."

"She has not. She's wisely left it to her Master, and has been, at the last, a very good Kla-Ball player. Certainly not someone who would believe that you can win on prayers and faith alone. So your insults have not hit home."

"Well then, why not have us play for your entertainment?" Nylirah asked. "See what I can do at this Kal-Ball."

"It'd certainly entertain me. And really, Hyrem dear, do you think that you can keep this up?"

"I… suppose not."

"I want to still play," Axia protested.

"No, no, come on," Dulia said. "Make it a contest between the two of them."

"Absolutely not, you're not going to move me on this--"


*******

Nylirah cheated in their one on one game. Nima had expected that. Everywhere she heard and saw signs that the ball was where it wasn't, and of course Nylirah was fresh while, even after a twenty minute break, Nima was still sweating rather heavily. She'd used a lot of energy only to have her points reset. Not that she would have agreed otherwise. She wanted to be fair, because this was, after all, just a game. Even Axia didn't seem to take the idea that it was some sort of 'contest for support' seriously, and she was the one who had been pushing everyone to treat Kla-Ball seriously as a competition.

So Nima focused on what she felt from Nylirah, and used that as a guide. Nylirah's intentions were veiled, she was nothing if not sneaky, but Nima could at least sense where her emotions were, even if she didn't know what they were.

So in a way, Nima cheated, by trying to be where Nylirah was, focusing more on stealing hits from her than winning outright. She also took the chance to elbow and shove Nylirah, who tried to do so back. Nylirah was taller, and so Nima only managed to give as good as she got. But that was more than enough. (There was no rule about touching, but you couldn't intentionally just hit someone. But it seemed that shoving people aside or bumping them was not only normal, but expected.)

The score was close, and Nima was just about done with her fourth wind, with very little left in her to give… and then she felt it. She stopped, Nylirah stopped.

So they both felt it. Nima, panting said, "Oh."

She then turned and, finding a fifth wind from nowhere, ran.

Oh no.

******

She sat in a side room, as the doctors hovered around the Count, no doubt. She would be able to feel if he was dead, maybe? But she wasn't sure.

Master Massick stepped in, and gave a bow. "He's… fine."

"Fine?" Nima asked, incredulously. "I felt it. It was like… pain, and fear, personified."

"He seems to have had a seizure and nightmares. We don't know why or how," Massick said. "It seems like it might be natural."

"If it was Nylirah, that's some timing. She was down here for a good deal of the time. Dulia seemed surprised as well. Did Dulia visit Count Nives?"

Massick smiled softly. "It is unfortunate that cynicism is required but… clever thinking. There is another thing I believe you missed: Hali has been seen around some of the cooks, during the last day or so. This could be innocent, and I hope it is. But it may not be. And of course, you've told me what's been seen of Axia with the guards. Though, this wasn't a plot by Axia, that much is clear."

"Right. So what should we do, Master?"

"Discussing that will take quite some time. I need to try to improve his health, but if he is truly in need of a break from the stress of the work he still continues to do… then we need to guess at who he will choose, or try to influence him."

"Can we do that?"

"I am not sure," Massick confessed. "It's down to us to decide."

A fateful choice, indeed.

Fill in all four! Plan Vote

[] Dulia, the daughter.
-[] [Dulia] Keep neutral on her candidacy.
-[] [Dulia] Support her candidacy and try to show that this is soa as to win favor.
-[] Try to use her ties to Nylirah to discredit her, or otherwise find ways to draw Count Nives away from her.
[] Hali, the bureaucrat.
-[] [Hali] Keep neutral on her candidacy.
-[] [Hali] Support her candidacy and try to show that this is so as to win favor.
-[] Investigate the matter with the cooks. Why the sudden interest in what he's eating? If anything suspicious is found, use it to discredit her, or worse… if not, still oppose her candidacy.
[] Hyrem, the noble.
-[] Keep neutral on his candidacy.
-[] Support his candidacy and try to show this is so to win favor.
-[] Try to find something, anything, to discredit him in the eyes of others, and if nothing is available, still try to argue against him.
[] Axia, thesoldier.
-[] [Axia] Keep neutral on her candidacy.
-[] [Axia] Support her candidacy and try to show this so as to win favor.
-[] Investigate into her connection with the guards, in an attempt to turn something up to discredit her, or worse. And if not, still oppose her candidacy.

******

A/N: So, yeah, here we go.
 
LVIII: Daymare
LVIII: Daymare

"I don't know what to think about Dulia," Mala Tyruti admitted, staring at her daughter with a frown. "It's terrible that she's making light of threats to you, but you don't sound as if you hate her."

"I didn't like her, but the juice was good and the conversation decent," Nima admitted, remembering the strange tangle of emotions towards the end. She was used to dealing with them, sorting through them and placing them in the right context. It was hard, though. "She was both kinder and crueler than I expected. She didn't care enough, I think, that the position she was going to take is one where you have to care to get anything done. But maybe she would have surprised me. Or maybe she would have proven far worse than I thought possible." Nima didn't like this, in a way: being the person to make sage judgements of others. Diplomacy was also supposed to be about coming to agreements that work.

But something she had seen had made her decide that this wasn't enough. Uncertainty could never be accepted in these situations.

Dulia was an unstable element liable to explode in some unpredictable way, and so she couldn't be part of the formula for whatever was best for the planet.

So Nima had acted. But to act, she needed to figure out how and what Nylirah did… if anything.

That's where it got hard.

That, in fact, is where the doubts piled up. A single moment, not quite real and not quite unreal.

******

"I assume you will need proof to be sure that she's behind it," Master Massick said. "How are we to find such proof? I've been looking at his mind for quite some time, night after night."

Nima didn't think there was some easy, simple solution to this. Still, her lekku curled a little at that phrase. She stood before him, and said, "I… don't know. Can I have some time to think?" She was tired, still reeling from the discussion that revealed that, in truth, they didn't have a candidate they truly supported. They were all suspect, but all of them for different reasons.

Dulia was suspicious and immoral, but also perhaps amoral and willing to go with the flow, if the right offer was provided. Still, that wasn't enough for Nima, not when there was the fact of her probable actions.

Hali was not a good fit for the Count, for all that her ideas seemed rather correct, at least in general. At the same time, she had concrete ideas. Axia was just viciousness and revenge (against terrible wrongs, but still) in a package: they didn't want the planet to go to war directly, the Coalition didn't need the troops that desperately, though the ships could help. Which is why Axia could not be entirely ruled out.

Then there was the noble, Hyrem. He was clearly angling to institute some sort of 'responsible nobles' government' that went against much of what Nima had been taught or picked up from Master Bell. But then again, the whole of this planet and its Count system was just as terrible.

Nima went for a walk, again going to the grounds. She was worried about attacks, but she could sense nobody nearby. It was almost dawn, and thus it was almost time to sleep. They seemed to live by the night, as if in an endless waking dream that had long since shifted--at random and without sense--into a nightmare.

She'd never actually seen the garden grounds during the day. Were all the flowers planted to look best at night? Some of them were glowing, so it was at least possible. It was as if the entire planet itself had flipped upside down in the face of the Count's whims. She walked along, thoughts nagging at her.

He didn't trust anyone, he didn't seem to regret anything, at least not enough not to keep on doing it. The same with Dulia, and far worse than her, Nylirah. Dulia was what he made of her, to some extent, but she was still all that was.;

So, what did this all mean?

Besides that people really needed to start sleeping in hours they preferred, rather than a Count.

Even Master Massick had been made to fit around the schedule, to scan his mind while the man went about his daily… tasks…

Nima froze. Was it possible? It shouldn't be possible. Things in the mind, however hidden, should be able to be found in both a waking and sleeping mind. Still, the thought kept on coming up.

All of those silly holovid stories, some of which included people being stabbed by an icicle dagger, were starting to come back. If there was some way to hurt him that was only viable while he was asleep… but then, how could he sleep through the day? If he hadn't been doing so, then he'd probably have fallen apart from deprivation.

Could it be related to the night in some way, then, going the other direction? Something activated only by nighttime?

If so, how could Nylirah have hidden it? She was a very different Force-user, but she was an illusionist, not a Mind-Healer. Whatever this was, it was clever and subtle, and Nima believed it far more likely that Nylirah was relying on some sort of clever trick than that she was just better with minds than a noted Jedi Master with extensive experience.

Besides, the truth was… if she was, then there was nothing Nima could do, because she certainly wasn't a better telepath, empath, and Mind-Healer than Master Massick. She'd have to make the assumptions that gave her a chance--slim as it was--to figure out whether Nylirah was doing anything. If she was doing it so subtly that nobody could notice, it was the same as her not doing it, for all that mattered.

So, that was an idea.

******

"You wish to watch me while I sleep?" Count Nives asked, spitting the words as he lay in his bed, datapads covering him like leaves on the green, seeming to only increase as the minutes went by and aides set down other datapads, with other sets of data and information. The fat old man's bronze skin was pale and sleek with sweat. "What next, watching me while I defecate?"

"I don't believe that'd teach us anything new," Massick said, still with the cheery smile. Still, Nives didn't say no, and Nima could feel his exhausted despair, the growing uncertainty. It was skin deep, in a way. His fundamental self was the same cruel man she'd felt before. If you coated a stone in sweet dough and sugar, you'd still break your teeth if you tried to bite down on it, trusting on the coating to determine the inner core. (Well, Nima wouldn't, but she was pretty sure a human would break their teeth on stone.)

If he was thinking and feeling like this in a year, perhaps that'd mean something. Even a week after the problem was solved would be easier to believe. Yes, it was possible for sudden conversions and realizations… but this was more simple. He was tired. His every emotion was at once heightened and dulled.

He was who she had to work with.

"What wit. I suppose so, there's no other choice now. If I cannot solve the problem I will have to retire, and I am increasingly sure that none of them are truly deserving. They will all ruin the planet, and so I must reign for another decade, at least! Once the crisis between your 'Coalition' and this 'Republic' is done with your little war, I can make a decision."

The room was richly appointed, the data slates standing out against all the wood and old, fine materials. Nima had the feeling he would have wanted even the data slates to be wood or stone if he had his way. He had a vision of how the world should be, and if that didn't involve mass suffering and misery, that wouldn't have even been a bad thing in itself.

But this old man, sitting in his bad, had more power than any hundred thousand people. He sat, and the world watched. And waited.

So it was.

******

Minds did not have rooms. Minds did not have doors. Everything was visualization, the creation of images that held meaning and power. So Nima was not standing in a dour room in the mansion, staring at a ticking clock that was ticking faster and faster with each second. She could not smell blood and smoke, or feel Master Massick's hand on her shoulder as she tried to take all of it in.

It was not much of a room, but it must be very familiar to Massick for him to be able to manage to pull it together so easily. She steps forward, frowning. "He's running out of time?"

"That's what he feels," Massick said. "That much is very clear. But this looks a little different. The blood, for one…"

There's blood on the walls, bleeding from small cracks in it, dripping down slowly but steadily. Each drop seems to boom and echo when it hits the ground, before sizzling up as if the floor itself was hot. But it wasn't. Nima could tell it wasn't. At a certain point, of course, minds met. What Massick was seeing wasn't purely a vision of his own. It had to connect in some way to what was there, or else it would have no power, no influence. You couldn't look through someone's memories if you didn't know what they were and who they were.

There was a scream in the distance, and the sound of heavy footfalls.

"You can't, you can't," a man's voice echoed down the halls.

There was the crack of a blaster bolt. A mother was crying. The sounds seemed as if they were filtering through the crack.

"This is new?"

"Yes. It was just this room, and then you stepped into his subjective memories. As a lesson, Padawan, beware of attempts to clean up and make sense of what you see. All that does, often enough, is leave you interacting with an illusory version of reality."

Illusions were why she was here. What could Nylirah have done to cause this? "Why is it visible now?"

"I… don't know. How could dreaming change the state of someone's mind, truly? Everything you dream of, unless you are Force Sensitive, comes from within your mind. It is a tangled labyrinth, but I tested him for such sensitivity, and he wasn't. Not even borderline. Slight elevations of midichlorians, but not enough to do anything with. It's likely just another family myth." Massick's smile grew a little brittle. "If you ever serve as a recruiter, you will see that a lot. People whose great-uncle supposedly once lifted something with their minds… it is saddening, in a way."

"That they don't?" Nima asked, frowning a little.

"No, that they think that force sensitivity is what makes them valuable. They hold onto the rumors like a…" Massick trailed off.

"Like a?"

"Like those here and their stories about the Count's bloodline," Massick admitted, striding over towards a door. "Their stories about the holy nature of it. If anything is holy, it isn't a single sentient. Let's go."

They wandered through a bizarre array of sights and sounds. It was as if the memories themselves had been shaken up, burst loose from some dark hole. No, it was… it was more as if the mind itself was decaying from within. Nima kept on trying to figure out how she'd describe this to others.

(Mala Tyruti frowned and tried to understand, but she didn't. Mala Tyruti had never walked in a swamp, but had she ever walked on a rickety roadway? She lived in Coruscant, so surely? Or had she ever been to a neighborhood where she knew things were only going to get worse, and never get better? Or had she ever seen an animal, like one of the bird-like creatures of Coruscant, hit by a speeder and laying on the ground, decomposing but not yet dead?

It was that same feeling.

"Nima, are you okay?" Mala had asked when Nima had finally found a way to describe it.

Was she? Mostly. Was he? Not then.)

She stepped as lightly as she could, and still felt the mind warp beneath her. She imagined this was boggy ground threatening to sink her deep within it. She passed by a flash of something, of color, of a man's dark face as he fell to the ground, placard slipping from his…

"Master, what is this?"

"When he was newly the Count, there was a large-scale protest and strike by one of the unions. After rumors and reports that some of them were armed with blasters, the Prime Minister at the time sent in armed soldiers. Hundreds died, and the union was broken. Some suspected that the new Count had a hand in it."

The smile on his face was strained, almost ironic now.

Nima, aghast, said, "Why… what does helping… what does?" She couldn't finish the sentence. Couldn't even form it.

Her Master, Jordyan Bell, would be trying to find a way to overthrow him if he was here, not save him. But she tried to focus. She was supposed to be a professional, and neither diplomats nor Mind Healers could just decide to abandon people like that.

She could taste the tears of those he hurt, and see the harsh words he'd had for everyone he met: there would be millions who mourned his retirement, but few of them had ever met him, and plenty who'd never seen him before had cause to hate him.

Was it dark of Nima, now fourteen, to think that it was a surprise that everyone hadn't tried to kill or harm him?

Eventually they found themselves in front of something that looked like a giant, pulsing knot of flesh and wire and cords, reddish-brown at places, and clear, steel-like grey at others. It stank of… what? What sounded like poisonous mushrooms, tasted like the groan of agony of a dying man, and smelled like chartreuse? "Guilt. Despair," Nima said, finally recognizing it. "But… not natural?"

"No, it is natural. In the same way cancer is," Massick said. At last the smile was gone. He looked haunted. It pulsed in front of them, sickeningly. "Whoever did it made him have guilty dreams. Bound it up in… a very small amount of real guilt. And now here it is. Somehow, it's hidden outside dreams, or was. Something like this can't be hidden much longer."

"And if it isn't taken away, what happens?"

"Since he would never admit and acknowledge guilt to get rid of it naturally?" Massick asked, stepping back away from the pulsing mass. "He'd go insane, or finally begin to feel guilt. Bottled up, with nowhere to go…"

She knew what that did to people.

It was an 'ironic' punishment.

Who did Nima know who was most likely to try to punish the Count 'ironically'? It was Dulia, most likely. So he'd felt guilt. A lot of it, but only when sleeping. But if this took weeks to build up, then Nylirah had somehow been here before any of the diplomats. Either that, or someone else had started it and then Nylirah had continued it.

But… this was all so elaborate. If Nylirah could get close enough to infest his mind, why couldn't she have just assassinated him, or driven him insane, or any number of choices?

Spite? Probably some of it, but… there was more. Did she see it as an act of art, a sort of total destruction?

It was true that having a longer lead-in time made it easier to try to manipulate the succession, but there were ways around it, surely?

"Can we destroy it?"

"Can we. It's all the guilt he can feel. Sentients who cannot feel guilt and shame cannot actually function. But if we try to unravel it, who's to say it won't backfire? We'll need to consider our actions. And we'll need to confront Dulia." Massick paused, then added, offhand. "There is one problem. Something has been watching us the whole time."

Nima whirled around, as if there'd be a person peeping in the mindscape, and saw nothing. "What?"

"We needed to find the source of this before we left so we could act later… but we must hurry. If Nylirah has learned of it, she might act in a drastic way. I can't sense her anywhere in this room… but that means very little."

*****

He was still sleeping when they left. Most people were. A servant was outside the room though, frowning, dressed in black and grey. She was an old human, withered and yet with bright, feverish eyes. "Oh, it's you. So the Master has gone to bed? I wanted to share the news about his daughter." Ah, someone who loved gossip, Nima guessed.

"What happened?" Massick asked.

"It's terrible! She had this giant argument with Axia, and now she's decided she doesn't want the seat and is going to be leaving for abroad again! He'll be so devastated when he hears that!"

Nima almost shivered. She was going to get away. They needed to talk to Dulia if they were going to figure out what had happened, and why. Now they were almost out of time, and Nima felt the stress building, the sweat and tension that had nothing to do with exercise. She was tired, of course. Anytime she blinked, behind the lids she saw that abomination, the thing that she couldn't quite describe to Mala.

It was like attempts to make others understand the differences in how Twi'lek and human noses worked, or Bothan and Human. Everything was almost the same, but not quite. She could almost grasp what she'd seen well enough to give a real description, but like a flat drawing it had none of the power it should. Even weeks later, she could only imagine it in synesthesia: in the taste of poison-green, the smell of the last goodbye to a loved one.

She shuddered, and almost missed Nylirah as they walked.

They couldn't run, because this wasn't supposed to be a crisis. It might not be yet.

They just turned a corner, and there she was, in the middle of a hallway, a hand on her hip. She had a smirk glued onto her face, and her hip was cocked as if she was posing for the front of some Holomagazine.

A silly part of Nima wondered if she'd been standing there the whole time, waiting for them.

"Hello, Jedi. I cannot let you step further without talking to me."

"Talking? Is that all you intend?" Master Massick asked. He was leaning forward slightly, the hallway too small to pass through without being in lightsaber range. His bright eyes glowed, the yellow seemingly a danger sign.

"Just talking," Nylirah said. "I have a feeling that going against you would be like playing without background tracks. You'd just slick and roll, and then you'd be karped."

Massick didn't understand, and Nima didn't need to read the brittle smile to know that. Nima didn't understand either.

"Just so," Massick said, moving a hand to rest it over his lightsaber. "So, how will you distract me?"

"Talking, of course. You want answers? I have ways to keep it from being recorded, and any Mind-Healer tricks like sharing memories won't hold up, will they?" Nylirah asked. "I also know you, Mr. Massick. You're the type that wants to know just as much as you want to win. You can't win, not really. Honestly, I could tell you that the entire purpose of this expedition was to test my abilities and a new way to manipulate others… and it wouldn't be a lie. It's unfortunate that I was caught, but there's no way to save him, I'm sure of it." Nylirah's cruel face and her dark, enchanting eyes seemed almost to shine like Massick's. "But you shouldn't want to, to be honest."

She waved a hand, and the walls seemed to warp and twist. They stretched like taffy, and then compressed, shifting around and around until she was almost dizzy trying to follow it. An illusion was circling around them as tight as a waistband after an act of gluttony. Nima could see ways to ease the tension, to break through the illusion, but she didn't want to even try. Not yet.

Not when this hateful ball of darkness was before her.

But she seemed… different.

"Why are you stalling?" Nima asked. She began to move forward, carefully, a part of her wanting to strike Nylirah down where she stood, no matter what the cost.

"To allow Dulia to escape, duh." Nylirah rolled her eyes.

"Remarkably loyal," Massick said, sounding approving.

"She's fun enough to hang around. I'd have to kill her if we continued to, so perhaps it's for the best… for her… that we're going to be parting ways," Nylirah said it remarkably casually, but Nima felt something. A thrum, just a small thrum, of pain. Less like she was imagining an infinite sorrow, and more an unfortunate coincidence. But Nima was startled by it. "She's far more interesting than either of you. Interesting, and yet boring. Just another young scion with a thousand reasons to hate her father. She truly does want to do a decent enough job at ruling the planet to not be overthrown. That was the most boring thing about her." Nylirah rolled her eyes, and then stalked a little closer. Nima tensed, but she stopped herself.

"So, she bored you? Or… Nima has mentioned the music. Did you like an audience?"

"It should be destroyed now," Nylirah said. "I'm surprised she told you about it. Too busy trying to make me a bogeyman, as if her thoughts aren't visible on her face. It's cute." Nylirah stretched herself out, a dark and foreboding vision, golden-brown hand impossibly smooth and untouched, moving as if to captivate.

"So, you did something to the Count's mind?" Nima asked.

"Oh, yes. The good thing is I have diplomatic immunity and my own way out of here. But all I did was what his own conscience should have done long ago. I really wouldn't care if he was an innocent, kind man. It'd be fun to do anyways…"

Lie. No, not a lie. Nima focused on Nylirah's emotions. It was the truth and not the truth. "You enjoyed it more because of who he was."

"Have you truly never seen him for that?" Nylirah asked. "Ah, yes, you have. And yet you don't realize the hopelessness and despair of the world, the senseless chaos and destruction that is the truth. Anything you try to hold onto will rot away before the Darkness. I realized that long ago. You could too. Each of you would be powerful indeed if unshackled from the pretenses of the Jedi." She said it idly, musingly. She wasn't actually trying to seduce them to the Dark Side. No, it was the planting of a midnight seed, that she hoped to see grow in the light of day.

"You say all this, but, Master Massick, did you know about her father? He was a vigilante, a Jedi who went rogue," Nima said, quietly. "I wonder: did he hurt you, Nylirah?"

This wasn't kindness. These were the cruelest guesses she could make.

Nylirah stared at her. Even Massick looked shocked. Nima made sure to look her right in the eyes. Nima wasn't going to drive her to attack, but she was going to see what she said.

Nylirah stood there, almost seeming to sway in the breeze for a moment before she said coldly. "One day you will be kneeling before me, all hope lost, aware that death is meaningless and so is life. When that day comes, I will laugh and torture you to death. It will be all you deserve."

"You don't have to be what you are," Nima said. But she wasn't trying to redeem Nylirah. No, it was a realization. Face to face before one of the most disgusting sentients she'd ever met, Nima realized that even now, she could be saved. She could even now turn around. Perhaps that's why she had to kill Dulia if she got too close. Perhaps that's why she was directed, or decided, to destroy her own work. To create bonds gave you something to lose.

She could have been a regular monster, cruel and vicious, but with those she cared about. Horrific, but different. Instead, she had chosen to cut herself off, one by one.

Or perhaps it had been chosen for her. But she was an adult. Nima was fourteen, and she'd still worked to try to forge her own path.

So the realization came, looking at the darkness and hate and joy and glee at the suffering of others… that she could be something else. Perhaps not a good person, but one that wouldn't destroy everything around her in the name of destruction.

It was worse than if there was no way back.

She was here, and the only way she could take even a single step from the path was if she chose to do it. Nylirah stood before them, and her words were a claim.

It was a claim that Nima had to fight.

Nima shook her head. All she had were simple words. "You don't have to be, but can you change? You are trapped in your illusions."

"Do you know how sickening it is, to hear you prattling?" Nylirah asked. "To hear you pretending wisdom you like? That is pretension at its core. I have lived more than you ever will. I have seen more of the truth of the galaxy. And I thought my hatred of you couldn't grow. But then you do this. Then you stand here, and by even your own system you are evil. You protect a monster. That's good. Protect monsters. Justify evil. Revel in cruelty. But don't lie to yourself and talk about how you're saving the Count out of anything but selfishness."

Nima didn't have an answer to that. It was selfish. Nylirah and the Count should both spend the rest of their lives in prison. They should be properly punished for their crimes, and to prevent them from hurting others.

The Count hadn't done as much as she had, but they were not so different, people turned inside out, every dark and bitter thought and inclination defining who they were in every sense. Now she was staring into the darkness and it was glaring back with slick lingo and endless, almost childish, hurt.

The more she looked, the more she thought that perhaps Nylirah would regret quite a few things more than she said. But she didn't want to look deeper. She didn't want to stain herself. Nylirah was edging ever closer as they stared at each other. Each seemed to be waiting for the other to break.

"It is interesting to see such byplay," Master Massick interrupted with an uncertain smile. "But we really have… other things to do. I don't think you can keep us any longer. We'll find a way to save the Count because he's a sentient, and if I thought there was a way to save you, I would try that as well."

Nylirah responded with something so crude and crass that Nima was not going to ever repeat it in front of her mother at any point. So Nima instead told Mala that Nylirah had said:

"Ah, well. Not going to happen. Bye."

And then disappeared.

One blink, and she was gone.

"Well, that was rude," Master Massick said, mildly.

"Rude? I didn't know what half of those words meant," Nima said.

(Mala looked at her daughter. "What words?"

Oops.)

"She was simply being honest about her feelings. I am pretty sure the things she said are physically impossible, however," Massick said, seemingly entirely untroubled by the insults. Nima couldn't feel any annoyance, even. As if it didn't matter. As if she didn't matter. Nima could never take that point of view, not with Nylirah and perhaps not with anything. "I would advise you not to pay them much mind."

Nima bit her lip. The hallway seemed oddly empty, now. One person shouldn't have been able to fill it, but Nylirah had managed to do so. She had a magnetic pull… like the metaphorical speeder crash. "I'll try, Master Massick."

"We need to get to Dulia's room," Massick said. They hurried on, not quite jogging, but coming remarkably close. Nima almost wanted to cut loose and get there ahead of time… then she realized, why be so subtle? She could always just say that she was in a hurry for some other reason. So she started to run. "What are you doing?" He sounded confused.

Nima sped up. "We don't have time," Nima said. "What if Nylirah destroys any evidence? Even if she's gotten away, things might be left behind."

"A fair point," Massick said, and sped up to match her fast jog.

People watched them, startled, as they raced through the halls before stopping in front of a wide door. Nima strode forward and yanked it open, and then strode forward. The carpeting was thick and dark, and the whole room smelled faintly of alcohol and perhaps other narcotics Nima couldn't place. The walls were black and purple, with what seemed like steel-like grooves here and there. The wardrobe was thrown open, and entirely empty. She'd sensed that Dulia wasn't in here when she got closer… but a part of her had hoped she was somehow wrong.

On the bed, there was a holorecorder, and a note on flimsipad. The recorder was silver, and against the dark sheets it stood out. The note read: 'For Nylirah.'

Nima, who was not particularly known for her respect for privacy, pulled off the note and pressed the button.

A projection of Dulia, three hands high, stood in front of her. "So, Nylirah, we're parting ways. Stuff got fudged--"

("She did not say that," Mala accused, with a crooked smile on her face.

"...okay, no she didn't.")

"And it all fell apart, but I'd like to give you advice. I haven't destroyed your music yet, because it's too good. Good enough that you could do it as a full-time gig. I've heard about all the massive evil you've done, and… eh." Dulia shrugged expansively, a smirk on her face. "Not saying I would ever do anything like that, but I don't think that judgement and forgiveness matter. I'm not suggesting you stop this cause being more moral is nice." Dulia rolls her eyes. "I say it because… Nylirah, I think you'd be happier. You don't have to repent: who would forgive you. I'd never forgive my father for what he's done to me, no matter how sorry he was. I'm no white knight or Jedi. You'll probably say no… but if you wanted money to go and disappear and reappear as some musician somewhere… I'd give it to you."

Dulia frowned and shook her head. "Darling, you're a much better musician than you are a war criminal." She sounded like she meant it, and thought that a valuable distinction. The frown seemed so, so sad. "You don't have to pet small animals or be nice or be anything other than yourself: it's just that I don't think 'yourself' is quite this. And I don't think you want to destroy your music. I think you feel you have to, ideologically. Well, you know me and ideology: it's made up. It's bunkum--"

("No, she didn't use the word bunkum," Nima said, interrupting Mala's sly question.)

"So, there you go. There's an offer. You'll probably destroy this and then hunt me down because that's your ideology too: destroying what you value." Dulia seemed remarkably undisturbed. "I'd probably even deserve it. But hey. It is what it is. Keep the music, or don't. I'm just going to go somewhere with my money and my circle. Maybe we'll meet again, maybe we won't. I hope one day you're happy, whatever form that takes. Music's in the drawer. Bye."

And then the message ended.

Nima stared at it, and slowly came to some realizations. Dulia had cared a great deal about Nylirah, and Nylirah about Dulia. If friendship and love could redeem, then they'd certainly failed here. Dulia's mindset, the blithe dismissal of redemption, the blase attitude towards unforgivable crimes… and yet, Nima certainly would be happier if Nylirah went off to make nothing more than music for the rest of her life, if the alternative was having her out there.

It had been personal for Nylirah, in more ways than one.

But Nylirah was never going to change unless she chose to, and that wasn't happening anything soon.

"Nima?" Master Massick asked.

Nima didn't know what she was feeling, not really. She strode forward and opened the drawer, taking out the music player. She thought about Nylirah's cruel smile, and about the pain that defined her. The pain she'd felt and the pain she dealt out with calculated evil, believed in as an article of faith. Destroy what you love, perhaps? But then, how did that fit into anything else? Perhaps it was about destruction in general: Music and friendships were creations, organic and living.

She didn't know. She pressed a button. A song began to play. It started slow, but with an insidious creeping flute-like instrument that contrasted to the metallic, electronic sound of all the rest. It was like some animal stalking through the jungle of industrial destruction. For a moment she felt like she understood exactly what Nylirah meant by the song, and even almost agreed. With what? She wasn't sure. In the next heartbeat it was too beautiful and too horrible, an insinuation of the dark edge of empathy. You could empathize your way to dark places, couldn't you?

She shut off the music.

But not, she knew even then, for the last time.

"Master," Nima said. "How are we going to save the Count?"

He didn't deserve it. Not even a little. But maybe Nima didn't care, maybe she shouldn't. She just wanted to be done with this and him. It wasn't about deserving, about repenting and making up for crimes.

She was selfish, but there were larger issues than the guilt or innocence of a single man.

Nima felt like she was waking up.


What do they try to do?

[] Just tear it out. Clumsy, crude, and could end badly. But it's the most straightforward in ending the nightmares… though who he'd be afterwards is hard to say. Depending on how it ends… the ability to replace him might be great, or nonexistent.
[] Try to unravel and unwind it. This is high-precision surgery, and that's if there's not some sort of sick trap in it. Perhaps they can use it as leverage to convince him to retire?
[] Try to convince him to retire and get therapy… perhaps combined with Mind-Healer work, it would be enough to save him. But he can't do so while still in the seat.
[] Write-in.

******

A/N: Nylirah and Dulia are both pretty terrible people, but I find them interesting to write.
 
LIX: Wake
LIX: Wake


"This is… a lot," Mala admitted, looking down at her daughter. Nima wondered what she saw. "What did you even do with the music?"

"I downloaded it," Nima admitted. "Put it in a few different places."

"Why?" Mala asked.

(Nima thought of the rise of what sounded like a horn, and a single descending, electronic note that sounded almost like a lightsaber through flesh. The horn ascended, the other notes and instruments did the same, but this one note, this one pulsing beat of humming death, went down and down until she felt like screaming at it to go up. Fear and sorrow and anger all seemed to be battling each other as the moment stretched and stretched until she couldn't stand it at all, until she'd give everything just to stop it.

Then it cut off, and in that moment, she'd realized that now she wanted it back, that moment.

It didn't come back. She'd been on the transport home, and somehow she was crying. But a part of her liked it anyways..)

"I don't know," Nima lied, smoother than she'd ever would have thought she would have.

Was it a lie?

******

"You think that something's been done?" Count Nives asked, tapping his finger on his desk. "To my mind?"

"Yes," Master Massick said, with a smile. "There's a few… rather major problems. We cannot guarantee that there is anything we can do in the short-term to solve the problem, and so we have… a.. suggestion."

"What, how did this happen?" the Count asked, plump lips and big, piggish nose all seeming to scrunch together. The Count was ignoring the problem.

Master Massick felt nervous, but it didn't show on his face. "Nylirah, one of the diplomats' guards, is an accomplished user of the Force. She took what little guilt you'd felt for various activities and gathered it. She was haunting your nightmares." Massick smiled in a kindly way that reached his eyes but didn't reach his heart, standing amid the wealth that couldn't help feel as if it was stolen, after all they now knew of his actions.

"What activities are you speaking of?" Count Nives asked, indignantly, again pounding the table lightly.

Master Massick's smile didn't waver, and his voice was unbearably kind and patient. "I have seen into your mind, Count Nives. I know you have not forgotten the kinds of things that someone else might have felt great guilt over." He said it without any judgement, but Nima could feel the annoyance beneath it all.

"Ah, right. So, this Nylirah is giving me nightmares, and you're going to cut out all of that useless guilt."

"If we did, it would be just as likely to drive you insane as help," Massick said, with a shake of his head. "It cannot be easily unraveled, and so we have another suggestion."

"And if you unravel it, as you say you can do, you'll expect me to give my approval for an alliance?" Count Nives asked.

"Nylirah's trap is trickier than you think," Master Massick said. "I do not think we can unravel it while you continue to rule. No, you need therapy, and you need to work towards doing what you can… we can abate the symptoms, but even that shall not last for long."

"Ridiculous! You want me to retire?" Count Nives stood up to his full height. "You wonder what side you're on. Who put you up to this? Hali? The useless buggerer? The daughter of that failure that killed himself over nothing at all? If you can't stand up to blackmail, I'd say, then you're not fit to be in any position at all! So, why do you think I'd ever agree to retiring?"

"It is your life at stake. You will not survive if you do not retire," Massick said. He still was smiling, but Nima could feel the tension. "However, we don't need to decide this now. I am sure that you have other questions."

Nima knew the technique. The point was to try to find a better place to slot in this discussion. Massick had decided, with Nima, that they weren't going to attempt the psychic surgery unless they had no choice at all. It was very difficult, and it would be just like Nylirah to place some sort of trap in it.

She wasn't sure what they'd do if he accepted. It'd take a good deal of work just to make him open for therapy, and then what if it failed?

He was still talking, and had a new question.

"Right… and how did she get… close to me." Count Nives trailed off, frowning deeply as he tapped his fingers on the desk. Then Nima felt it, the realization. "Dulia? Dulia!" He slapped the table, a little harder this time, hot anger bubbling up and boiling over the edges as he stood up from his desk, hands shaking just a little bit. "I didn't know she had it in her. I really didn't!" He paused, and then gave a bitter laugh. "It'd be a lot more impressive if it won, really. I managed to train the softheartedness out of her, not make her such a weak sap as her mother, but as it turns out, you can't train away soft-headedness."

He coughed for a moment, his voice hoarse. "I admit I almost like this better than if she was so kind and so dull as to ask why I didn't love her, as if anyone could love such a fat, ugly dullard, a living reminder of a woman who should have had the good grace to die before she had such a useless child. My vengeance on her will be long and detailed. Where is she?"

He spoke it all slowly, a man used to hearing himself speak, and Massick stood, not so much stunned as unable to quite keep up with the shift. "I will have her dragged before me in a cage, like an overstuffed Reek in a zoo." His voice was a sneer. "Make no mistake about it, even if I die my vengeance will live on. So why can't you simply cure me, to get my allegiance?."

"She's fled anyways, as has Nylirah, and I doubt they're going to make themselves easy to find, all things considered. So to try you must survive now." Massick frowned and looked at a wall. "I don't know how that can be done without drastic action.

"I should expel the ambassador from the Republic," Count Nives said, as if he hadn't heard Massick at all.

"He might not have been a party to it, but he is responsible for what those who are with him do," Massick said, in agreement.

Nima suspected he must have known. But she also hadn't interacted with him much. He'd kept away, or so it seemed, and focused on the technical and diplomatic issues, rather than directly concerning himself with the four candidates. No wonder, if the situation was as it was.

"So, you want to try to force me to retire to put your candidate in. Who is it, anyways?"

"Between the three candidates left, we can say with complete honesty that all have positives and negatives, and we could not and would not choose between them, even if it wasn't a trap on your part." Massick's smile widened.

"So, you don't care who I pick, you just want me gone?"

"I just want you to survive," Massick said.

The Count snorted. "I don't have to be as smart as I am to realize you hate me. You all hate me, because you don't understand how necessary it all is. The world is a much better place for, what, a few dead people against the rights of employers, a few assassinations, a few… what? As if you, Jedi, are not doing the same thing I am. Picking and choosing winners. You could have stayed away, let me die or go insane in peace." The Count shook his head. "But instead you came here, and now you're trying to choose all the same. You'll starve the peasants and expose people to the dangers of factory life, and you'll smile and say 'I did what I had to do.' Always smiling, Mr. Massick."

"So?" Massick asked, still smiling. The smile was now bland, and didn't even reach his eyes, let alone his heart. "I make a choice. You do too. And we'll see where we are at the end of it. I want to help you, but the first question is whether you want help."

"I don't, and you know it," Count Nives said. "Not if the help is talking about my feelings and admitting my 'guilt' for doing what's necessary." He settled deeper into his chair.

"Then you'll die," Massick said. "I'm sorry that it has to happen, but it will."

"There are doctors…"

"No, not really," Massick said. Nima nodded. "There are a few on the Republic side with the ability to do something, but Nylirah is a good example. If you wanted to be brainwashed or turned into a braindead puppet moved around by them… it would be a good idea to ask them for help."

Count Nives blanched, looking for a moment as if he was going to throw up. "Ah. Well, why do I need to retire? The job itself is highly symbolic, and couldn't you just unwind it? You said surgery was difficult, but I'm willing to take the risk." He bit his lip, teasing it slowly before adding, "I am willing to sign a document absolving you from guilt if you fail."

Nima was surprised to notice he meant it. She twitched her lekku, in a sort of 'yes or no' gesture that Massick picked up. "Perhaps, but consider this: Nylirah is tricky. She had to be, in order to hide from my gaze. It would be in her nature to trap the wound itself. You cannot undo a trap with haste, since if it snaps down on your mind, Count Nives, there might not be anything left."

Nima was impressed at the way Massick was handling it. The details were sobering, and even the pure malice that the Count usually wielded wasn't present in the face of the naked, so clearly honest, truth.

"Then why can't I get treatment and be on light work?"

"Why can a person not quit deathsticks while still smoking them?" Master Massick asked. "The kinds of decisions you'll have to make will be fodder for the effect to latch on. Even those that shouldn't incite guilt."

There were many that should, but there was a small amount of truth that sometimes leaders had to make difficult decisions that might hurt people.

Count Nives seemed to hurt people in ways that merely happened to look like difficult decisions until one saw just how little guilt there was, even all piled up and turned into a weapon against him.

Count Nives stared, eyes hard, at Master Massick.

******

Nima was tired. He hadn't said yes.

He hadn't said no, either.

It was the day again, and that meant he'd managed to make it part of the way through. The question that was tickling her lekku was why he did better during the day? There were two possibilities: one, that it was somehow connected to the night.

Second, that Nylirah wanted to play it slow, and had found a way to hide it, somehow? But how?

Nylirah was more dangerous than Nima knew. She was pacing now, walking down the halls. She wasn't paying much attention, not even in the Force.

"Seluku, Baqqanid," Nima said. "I don't suppose…"

'Suppose what?' Seluku asked, voice sounding a little tired. 'We really aren't the ones to answer these sorts of things. He's the sort of person I would have robbed and felt good at.'

'And I am a vigilante. He's… not who I would normally target, but I know nothing about Mind-Healing, and nothing about how you can imagine he'll change.' Baqqanid's voice had a bit of growl to it.

Nima wondered about that. She wandered about that too, the music data-disk still in her possession. She frowned as she walked, considering whether it'd be worth it to go back to her room. It was then that she felt Axia's presence.

Axia was standing in the hallway, frowning. She looked up and saw Nima. "Ah, Nima. Is he okay? Still alive?"

"Yes," Nima said.

"Ah, how… fortunate." The tall, powerful looking woman seemed tense. "Though, I do not know how much longer I can stay here. There was another pirate attack, and yet again our dishonorable force let it get away." Axia frowned, slamming a fist into the wall. "A dozen civilians dead. That's why I need to become the Count, but if I'm going to stay around here for months and months, then what honor can be reclaimed?"

"I don't understand," Nima finally admitted. "What honor is there in joining the war? I can't… disapprove, because I'm an ambassador and the Coalition would no doubt benefit from your involvement." Nima didn't know that for sure, but the Coalition was short on ships of any kind, and Axia's most famous victory was primarily a naval battle.

"We let civilians die because it'd be too great a risk to save them," Axia said. "Where's the honor in that? Only through the struggle of a war can we learn to care for the lives of civilians at risk. Yes, there will be costs, but this is the great struggle of our time! We simply need to find which side is the right side and invest our hearts and souls into winning!" She was posing, just a little bit, standing with a hand thrust forward. "Can you truly say that you wouldn't die for the cause of the Coalition, thinking it is the most just?"

"Yes," Nima said, without hesitation. "But it isn't your life you'd be risking. And is the planet ready for war?"

Axia seemed baffled, as if nobody had bothered actually asking her that. "If it's not ready, then the adversity will help it along. And if we aren't strong enough to win, to stand up for what we believe in, then we deserve to lose. But we will not lose."

"Count Nives believes something like that," Nima said, almost wincing at her own words. It wasn't meant to be cruel, though. They were not meant to be a weapon. Axia could soon be the Count. "That those who are too weak to give into pressure, or blackmail, or… anything else don't deserve pity. It's a hard way to live, and a hard way to think, and we suspect that's why you have the support you do for what we suspect you are going to try to do."

Axia looked sick, her heart pounding. "You… ah. I have not been particularly subtle."

"No, you haven't, Axia. And I'm afraid, I really am. As a person, not a diplomat. The Coalition wants alliance and friendship: war may come to this planet anyways, and if it does you'll need to be prepared, not with an army and navy lightyears away," Nima said. "I don't know enough about this planet. I've been trapped in this manor, on a schedule that makes no sense."

"You forget, after a while, that the rest of the world exists," Axia confessed, and for the first moment she didn't seem like murderous anger was just a moment away. "You fall into a pattern, into a rhythm and you know he's setting it, but what else are you supposed to do? I'm tired of his games. I'd be tired even if they didn't hurt people and besmirch our honor as a planet."

She was tired.

Nima knew that feeling.

Everyone the Count interacted with wound up a worse person because of it, even indirectly.

What she didn't suspect then was that the Count had one last trick up his sleeves.

*****

"Do you know what this is about?" Hyrem asked Master Massick, as they assembled into a rather overstuffed conference room. It smelled faintly of dust, and there were… flimsiplast sheets on a table in the center of it. It was huge enough to fit all four candidates, Nima, Master Massick, and a rather large number of people in suits and robes.

"I have suspicions," Master Massick said, that smile still on his face.

Nima was tense. All she knew was that the Count had agreed to retire, but that he wanted more time to decide who to choose.

Apparently he had made a decision.

Nima could feel him, outside, approaching the door they'd taken. He was moving slowly, as might make sense. It was twelve, and not the twelve she was used to. No, it was high noon at this very moment.

Everyone here was exhausted, having had to drag themselves through hours and hours of daylight to make it to this point. Nima, upon hearing about the meeting, had stayed awake by listening to Nylirah's songs on repeat. They had no arcane or malevolent influence in the Force, but they did seem to wear a path through her, like rushing water carving its path. There was a sort of logic to them that was so different from other music she'd heard. And Nylirah's songs were different from others in their genre, but… not.

They were so familiar, the feeling of speed and muddled understanding, the rage and churn of emotions.

She felt a dozen of Nylirah's songs at once seeing the door open and gazing upon Count Nives.

He'd brought them all here, though only because of Dulia and Nylirah.

"Ah, glad to see you here," Nives said, voice sly and insinuating as a dagger through the heart. She wouldn't trust someone who sounded like that to sell her an airspeeder that worked, let alone anything else. "So, I've decided to retire."

"Oh," Axia said, a little surprised, as if she hadn't expected it.

"Don't sound so happy, Captain," Count Nives said, striding forward and shoving past Hyrem with his bulk. He was headed straight for the table with the flimsiplast. "My lawyers have looked at the documentation, and so this is approved at every level."

Hyrem's mouth twisted in dismay, reacting to a blow that had not yet fallen. No doubt he expected one by now.

"There will be not one Count, but three persons who shall share the role of count as co-equal… what was the term?" Count Nives smiled over at a lawyer, for that's what she must have been.

"Representatives and spiritual possessors of the body of the Counthood."

"Yes, exactly so. Apparently a Count once named both of his daughters to the position of Count," Nives pointed out, to the horrified stares of all three of the supposed co-representatives.

"What?" Hali asked, gaping like some dying beast, eyes wider than Nima thought human eyes could manage to get.

"How did… how…" Axia stammered. She just looked murderous.

"Why?" Hyrem asked, and honestly he looked constipated more than anything else, face bunched up and eyes almost squinting.

"As per the instructions, I can bind you for five years to a different part of the Count's tasks. For instance, one sister fulfilled the religious and ceremonial parts of the role, while the other organized the books. So, you Hali, you will be the ceremonial head of the navy and army, there to oversee all such matters. It is a task that will require your complete knowledge of military tactics, and thus I have entrusted it to you."

Nima could recognize a pattern when she saw it, but just like Master Massick, her only choice was to watch with horror as he continued. "Hyrem, you can of course handle the familial aspects, and the paperwork. There is a special position specifically for those with a dedication and a willingness to do the hard work necessary to keep this mansion going."

"You can't--" Hyrem began.

"Are you refusing?" Count Nives said. "I would then, I suppose, have to divide the duties in two. Former Captain Axia, since of course a Count cannot be in the military, would just have to also do the paperwork, I suppose."

"You motherfucker," Axia said.

Nives just smiled wider, as if her hatred was a particularly rare mushroom he was going to enjoy devouring. "And for that, you'll be in charge of civilian liaison, ritual ceremony, religious observation, that sort of thing. Your pacifistic and kindly nature call out to it, I feel."

"By all the Gods," Hyrem said. "Are you… kidding me?"

"No. You'll of course have to agree on any major decision within your respective areas or outside of them," Nives said. "Since all three of you want it so much, and think it's such an easy job that you can just take it from me, plotting with Dulia no doubt behind my back--"

"Where is Dulia?" Axia asked.

"Dead to me, and perhaps soon to be dead if I can find her. She plotted against me," Nives said, waving a fist. "She's why I'm retiring, she's the cause of my nightmares: she and the Republic, plotting to assassinate me. Which is why I've sent in a request to parliament that they vote on a bill to side with the Coalition. My last act. Since I know that if anything, their attempt to murder me in cold blood only makes you like them more." Count Nives looked sick and tired and also disgusting. He was angry and hurt and betrayed, and there was something like tears in his eyes. As if he'd realized how few people would miss him when he died, except as one would miss an enemy.

Nima wondered at that before. There were stories, about people who mourned cruel bosses and crueler ex-friends, and not for their kindness but for their lack. Thinking about Nylirah, Nima understood it just a little better now.

It was self-pitying, yes, but it was more than she'd expected him to feel. Yet even though he was feeling bad about how he made others feel, he still enjoyed making them miserable. He was taking revenge on unrelated people, even if he had a point that at least two of them were probably plotting against him.

"It doesn't," Axia said, and Nima was surprised to hear the ring of truth. "Was Dulia poisoning you, somehow?"

"It would be a clever trick if she was. I haven't been eating what my chefs were bringing me for months," Nives said. "Can't trust it, y'know?"

"You, what?" Hali asked, stunned. Shame, guilt, and dismay. If Hali had been convinced by events to try to poison Count Nives, she'd done so for nothing. She'd tainted herself in such a case--if it happened, and yet that's what it felt like--without being able to actually do anything to Nives.

"Yes, oh yes, I've been very careful. It's… perhaps cost too much." Nives' eyes lingered for a moment on a far wall, before the old man shook his head. "Are any of you going to refuse to take the position?"

He had them trapped. They were all ambitious, albeit for different reasons. Even with their roles switched around, it was possible they could still exert power. One by one, they nodded, no doubt already planning ways around his restrictions.

Nima and Massick could only watch.

******

"Technically speaking, we were successful," Massick pointed out, not long after the meeting had broken up. "We have gotten the planet to the side of the Coalition, thwarted at least one assassination attempt, and Count Nives' shall either recover and figure out how to process his actions, or he will not."

Technically speaking.

Practically speaking, Nima spent a good deal of time getting to know four people in the most basic sense, trying to discern which one would be the heir… and then three of them were now technically in power, sharing the position of Count. Nima couldn't say that this would help get anything done in the long-term, though perhaps Nives would tear apart his own position with the inertia?

She couldn't be sure. Her lekku itched, and she was of course tired. That was the point. Then again, she couldn't go to sleep now, not until she'd actually reached a regular time to sleep. She needed to break from the patterns she'd learned these past days and weeks.

"A Jedi's task is to do good: a diplomat's is to come to an arrangement that benefits their side the most, Nima." Massick's smile was the one that she had started to characterize as his 'sad wisdom' smile. "So a Jedi diplomat is often working at odds with themselves."

"Still, we could have made a choice," Nima said. "Surely any of them, except Dulia, would be better than all of them at once working against cross purposes."

"We didn't know what would happen. We could only advance what we could. And exposing Nylirah's crimes helps us understand what she's done." They were in a room, but even so Nima almost wished they were talking in their heads. "We now know what to look for, if she tries this again, or something like it. We have the commercial and other ties that we wished, and the complications will be ones for later Jedi and diplomats to deal with."

Massick hesitated, eyes narrowing slightly. "However, Nima, you will have to leave alone. I need to finish setting up the protections I can for the Count, and figuring out how to begin the therapy in such a way that others can take over the task."

Ah.

"When is the ship coming?"

"Tonight," Massick said. "You have done a good job at a task that truly was larger than we expected."

Nima wasn't so sure of that, all things considered. She'd done the best she could, and so had Master Massick.

But.

******

She was nodding off on the ship, so deep in it she couldn't have seen the outside, couldn't have seen the planet, even if she wanted to. All that kept her up was Nylirah's music. It was the… tenth? No, more than that. She rubbed at her lekku, which felt a little numb. Which is what you got when you laid on them like that, blinking sleepily through tears.

(The whine of the music, the scream, the notes that want to release themselves but don't. By the Living Force, she didn't like her mood right now, and the song didn't and did help.)

'I have been thinking,' Baqqanid said, right in her ear. 'You failed to change the world. You failed to somehow remake a better or brighter world. I do wonder: would Hali have done it? Perhaps Hyrem could have been a transitional figure? Axia might have led the planet into such disaster that they abolished Counts entirely. Probably not.'

"Yes," Nima admitted. They'd been rather too cautious in who they promoted and who they didn't. They'd left it up to chance, or even worse, to Count Nives, a vindictive monster that of course would bring disaster.

'But that's not the point. Do you think every time your Master went somewhere, he started a revolution or freed slaves? There had to have been missions where he couldn't find proof, or for that matter where there wasn't much to be done. I've been there: how many times do you think I went out on patrol and saw nothing? Or followed up a dead lead?'

Nima hadn't really thought of it that way. "I suppose something came out of it."

'Yeah, these tunes are pretty good, honestly. Really, shame she couldn't have just been a music-making jerk,' Seluku chimed in, in the other ear. Nima turned off the music to focus. 'Wasted opportunity. Prolly still could have made people cry and ruined lives, just the normal way all of us do, instead.'

Of course, Count Nives showed what normal could amount to.

Nima closed her eyes and reached out with the Force. Not for anything, but just because she wanted to. She could feel the thrum of the engines, and the movement of the people on the ship. All of them, working towards a simple purpose.

There was a rhythm to their hearts, a beat and a flow to it all. They woke and slept, they lived and--though thankfully not at this moment--they died. She felt as if she was fading into it, with the music, sinking deep into this awareness.

She liked it, and so she let it happen, and drifted through an entire cycle, and then two, of the 'album' of sorts.

And she decided she could probably survive a disappointing mission like that, well enough.

******

Arms wrapped around her, holding her tight. Nima's slightly sour, slightly uncertain mood scattered like mist before the light of the sun.

"I'm sorry that the diplomatic mission was so frustrating. Nives sounds like an asshole."

"Mom!" Nima protested, scandalized.

"I'm an adult, so it's okay for me to say it."

"Unlike me?" Nima asked, with a soft smile. "I'm glad that's done, though. I still have a bunch of running around the galaxy to do, but…"

"Yes?"

"I missed you. And my friends." Nima had had dreams about Hannah and Katarina, talking to one or both of them, laughing and smiling with them, joking around. Nothing more than that. Mostly. "That diplomatic mission wasn't really a place to make friends."

Nima liked that, despite all of the things she messed up, after each of her previous major missions--the incident on Haruun Kal, the disaster on Corellia, and the fight against Thrawn on Ryloth and Kamino--she'd wound up with more friends leaving than she started, and people who--even if they weren't her friends--she had at least really helped.

There was Dulia, and there was Nylirah, who Nima now understood far better and thus hated with far more clarity. Which wasn't what she wanted to do, but that's how it was.

"Well, you're back now," Mala said. "And you did a good job with the presentation."

"Thank you," Nima said, smiling genuinely and leaning into the hug.

There was always a chance to move on, rather than being caught up in it.

It was all a matter of perspective.


Seluku and Baqqanid's Training! (Choose 1)

[] Nima was finally adequate at throwing a Shuhudaku dagger, but she was not exceptionally skilled. Perhaps more training and practice would aid with that.
[] The philosophy of the Riders, and the synthesis of it with the ways of the Jedi, might well unlock new and daring ways to act.
[] With all of the training and arm strength, as well as the endurance work, Nima was more able to 'Ride' for longer periods and do more with it. Perhaps it was time to try to hone her efficiency. A true Rider could flow from one building to the next almost without effort or exhaustion, or at least with far less than she got if she ran for long enough.
[] Making one's own weapons could help quite a lot. Especially since apparently the ghosts have an idea for thinner, more aerodynamic daggers that could be made in greater numbers. It's apparently their scheme to give her a replacement for the blaster she'll never use.

Jedi Social Activity (Choose 2)

[] Katarina spends a good deal of time hanging around the Temple, waiting for the next mission after a mishap left her moderately injured. She'd certainly appreciate some company, and she was no doubt at wit's end.
[] Nima finally gets a chance to check in with Scout, and that of course means becoming part of Yoda's strange training methods, in which she becomes just another part of them, as it were.
[] Cho has been deeply involved with quite a lot of the inner-workings of the Jedi Order and the Coalition government, and that has repeatedly brought them back into contact, almost by accident.
[] Elize has been trying to get back in touch, after more than a few months of chaotic war that had seen her bouncing all around. She wants to learn this 'Rider' stuff in full, and since she already worked with Nima on some of the basics, she's rather more developed than some of the sentients who are currently slowly working to master it.
[] Obi-Wan Kenobi finally stops his endless pursuit of more missions long enough to talk with Nima. The talk, inevitably and very openly turns to carefully-not-talking about Anakin.


Friends From Past Adventures (Choose 1)

[] Han Solo needs to take part in some sort of Wookiee ceremony--Nima immediately looked it up as soon as she was told what it was--and has asked if she would have any free time to help him with it. He and Chewbacca, a noted warrior and navigator who had befriended Han's mother, will be returning to Kashyyyk to take part.
[] Nick Rostu has returned to the Temple, specifically because there are hints that Depa might at last be waking up to some small degree. She's still not responding, but it seems as if she might at last, just barely, escape the forest… of course, even if she does wake up, she'll be spending the rest of her life imprisoned, but still…
[] Nima has just enough time for a quick visit of the Rider trainees on Ryloth. It feels very weird to return to Ryloth and find so much unchanged, but it's a chance to both catch up and to help them further their own training and experience.

Minor Adventure (Choose 1)

[] It's not quite diplomacy, but news about Nima's new way, the Riders, has gotten out, and at least some propagandists want to know, as part of some as-yet-unnamed project, what exactly being a Rider involves, and how it can be subtly inserted into the propaganda of the Coalition.
[] Lark and Swoop finally meet. The entire galaxy will no longer be the same after such a momentous event.
[] Nima's cautious exploration of new music, after discovering that she's into whatever it is that Nylirah makes, ends in her somehow meeting celebrity musicians face to face, something that is intensely awkward for all involved, since they were of course fans of Jedi, and Nima was perhaps something of a fan of them.


Diplomatic Training/Missions (Choose 2)

[] How not to answer, how to conceal and not reveal the feelings that she feels. How, in other words, to be a liar without openly lying.
[] The art of making fast friendships. No, not like that. The art of talking to someone and coming out with them thinking you're friends, or perhaps even being so… but sometimes you have to do what you have to do.
[] A set of lessons involving going through past diplomatic actions and critiquing and understanding what went wrong, or what went very, very right.
[] As an extension to basic self-defense and defense of others, diplomats might still spend some extra time practicing lightsaber forms especially to deflect blaster bolts or protect an ambassador.
[] She was inserted into a trade negotiation--this one thankfully not going bad--just to get a grip on some of the more mercenary motives that can drive diplomatic efforts.

******

A/N: So, surprise, managed to draw it together. Sorry if anything is lacking.
 
LX: Views, Part 1
LX: Views, Part 1

"Hey, I'm going to be at the Temple in a week or so. Do you know if you'll be there to talk to me? It's very important, at least to me. But I know how things have gone. This war hasn't really gone the way I expected," Elize said. This felt like a real understatement, but Nima nodded, even though it was a recording.

Nima understood it, and if she was at the Temple, she'd definitely do it. At the moment, though, Nima was sitting in a cabin on a space station in the Freituri system, considering just what the limitation of human arrogance was.

The fact that two Jedi had gone to meet with them convinced the people of the space station that their economic position was stronger than it truly was. They were a good waystation between several somewhat key positions near the front, but going around, even with slower transports, would lose at most another day. This could be critical, but if it came down to it they couldn't stop a fleet from driving right through their system.

But the humans who had created this station wanted an exclusive contract, and tolls equal to a tenth of the value of all goods passing through. For that the Coalition could send out twice as many ships as they already did, and rely on the fact that there would always be a shipment arriving to make up for any lost time.

For that money they could just knock the entire space station down and build their own new one. It'd be cruel to do so, since there were tens of thousands of people living on or above the planet who'd be out of a job and likely just shipped to another planet… but if they couldn't come to an agreement, they'd have to do something.

She was listening to Leap-Jump remixes on repeat when her Master for the mission, Tanja Erine, knocked on the door. Nima had felt her coming, but Nima had also been in the middle of a song. She knew it was a little bit rude, but she was still up and headed towards the door as soon as she heard the knock. So she tried not to worry too much about it.

Tanja Erine was a Jedi Knight, actually, in her late twenties with greyish-brown skin and big, silvery eyes that were just a bit too bright to match with her skin tone. She usually dressed in a traditional Jedi's robes, but she had on a necklace underneath the robes that ended in what looked like a small box. Nima had seen it when the Jedi had taken it out to look at it for a long, long moment, her heart colored with fondness, a splash of golden-brown like fresh baked munch-fungus. A memento from a friend, perhaps?

Erine spoke briskly. "There's been a breakthrough, though the Force knows it's likely them reducing their demands by one or two percent. But we have'ta see what they say. It's always about working towards a final conclusion. That's boring sometimes. I can tell you're a little bored."

Nima didn't know how to feel about that fact, truly. She liked diplomacy, but that didn't keep this from feeling a little like busywork. Jedi certainly weren't needed for this particular mission, except that the spacers had insisted on it.

As they walked through the remarkably unsterile space station, she pondered that. The station itself was filled with kiosks and small stores on this side, and the floors were cleaned far too rarely. Beyond that, there were flowering, towering green and gold and black and orange plants, seemingly distributed at random as if someone had been ordered 'make this space station look alive.'

It already looked alive, of course. All manner of species wandered through the kiosks, and they'd been shown around the living quarters when they'd arrived. Her temporary Master had managed to hide that she wasn't impressed, and Nima had been, just a little bit. It was a well made station, at least, and yet she had a feeling that if she asked to thank the builders, she would be taken to see a rich executive rather than a barracks filled with lowly technicians.

The builders had clearly not also been in charge of cleaning the floor, or Nima's every step wouldn't have been sticking. She was keeping a smile on her face, but it was a difficult task indeed.

The conference room at least was typical enough, and even more boring a room than it had any right to be. There were no plants, just a steel table with a holo-projector in it, which was currently showing the entire system.

Behind the projector, his bulbous face looking like a particularly pale planet remaining fixedly in place, was Vladmer Flinet. Flinet was worth nearly a trillion credits, and so he shouldn't actually be bargaining this hard. Behind him was Alda Lohsa, who at least had reason to want to desperately bargain, as the actual manager of the station. Flinet could probably lose this station and a hundred others like it without it being anything more than a moderate blow.

Losha, on the other hand, was probably out of a job if she didn't manage to make the station profitable. So she'd been the one who was most willing to drive a hard bargain, aware that the likes of Flinet were watching over the whole negotiations.

"Ah," Flinet burbled, "So good to see you again, dear. Now, now, we have a deal we'd like to propose: Three percent of the cost of the cargo, and we also get a manifest of all goods and the prices they were purchased for."

"Ah." Erine seemed to consider that for a long moment before saying, "Two and a half, and not for military cargo, for reasons of galactic security." She stepped closer, looking over the wash of mostly uninhabitable planets.

"Your trust warms my heart so." Flinet stepped around, smiling a little. He was a strange man, with a thin body but a head big and round as an overripe Balaka, eyes bulging outwards in a way that didn't fit with everything else about him. He was human, yes, but such a strange sort of human.

If he had suddenly lost weight, surely it would have been visible in his head, and his cheeks, and…

She was staring.

At least he was too distracted to notice. "How about, three with your little 'military cargo' restriction. But food is not military cargo, and so we need to at least know that."

Nima Tyruti wasn't sure why he wanted to know, if not for information that could be sent to the enemy. Her lekku itched, as they said, as she considered the problem.

"Two point five, with food at a one-week delay for relaying of information," Erine said. "It is the best deal you're going to be getting, and itself is rather over-generous." Of course, many of the things that were going to go through this transit had a rather debatable market vallue, and most of it would be military, wouldn't it?

What did he truly want to know?

"S-sir, I feel as if we can do better than 2.5%, considering the expenses we might need to take." Alda Lohsa stepped forward, her dark, multi-braided hair bouncing as she gestured to planets. "We want to create self-sufficient actualized value, don't we? I believe it was part of the… mission statement."

"Self-sufficiency is old hat. Now, as the legislature is being busy little bee-beeks trying to destroy the market, knowledge is where it is, and interconnected commercial growth. I'm surprised you did not get the memo."

"The memo sir?"

"Ah, tsk tsk, Alda. Can I call you Alda?"

"I--"

"You need to be a go-getter. I'm not that hard to please. I'm a man of the people, not a quintillionaire like some of the galactic big-wigs. What I run is very much a personal sort of service." He turned towards the Jedi. "Yet I'm targeted as if I'm truly rich, as if my little company is part of the problem. And so of course I need advantages such as information to help me understand this new world." He turned towards Alda. "Please do pay more attention. This station will endure, and yet should your responses be inadequate, you might find yourself in need of a new job."

Nima Tyruti didn't frown or scowl. She'd built up a tolerance for arrogant, manipulative monsters after Count Nives', to the extent that her second-hand terror and shame from feeling Alda's emotions was not quite overwhelming. Still, she felt deeply uncomfortable just having to stand here and watch.

"Yes, sir. I'll reread all the memos again, sir. I'm sorry I was not aware of this new and important terminology."

"Right, the Jedi of course care about higher goals. The galaxy is more important than a few credits here and there, and all that."

"Everything is important, not nothing," Eirine said, unable to hide a frown. "Ultimately what matters is the good of everyone in the galaxy. Any individual is at once large and small. Yet the least need most watching."

"Never know what they'll steal, you're right," the executive said with a shake of his bulbous head. "I quite agree."

"...Yes," Eirine said. Then she added. "Though generally, quite a lot less than the likes of the Trade Federation, who steal entire planets."

"That may be true." He shook his head. "Never liked them: not enough individual spirit, too much focus on a corporate collective. So, do we have a deal?"

"Yes," Eirine said. "We do. We shall have to review the document, however."

*****

"It was not a fair deal," Nima pointed out. "Not even close."

"What he thinks is that this will lead us to using his route. It won't, not really: what it'll lead is to us using his route if there's no other choice, which is what we'd already do." The Jedi Knight shook her head, a frown carved into her face. "But we wanted the option open, and were willing to 'pay' for a spate of traffic that will not come unless it's truly desperate."
They were in a private room… which was to say that if it wasn't for the jamming devices they'd brought, their every thought and word would no doubt be analyzed by the people listening in. There was no real privacy on a space station. It was a myth, and worse than that a myth that allowed others to hurt you. They could have talked through their minds… but why bother compared to taking simple precautions.

Nima tried to refocus on the matter at hand. Eirine's argument and it wasn't as if Nima had anything against the idea of being a little unfair in a deal. But trade negotiations were definitely not her strong suit, and she worried at the problem of how to deal with a situation where your senses of what was fair and just was a result less of a fundamental and intrinsic knowledge via the force… and more from study.

It was a classic problem: the Unintuitive Paradox. Jedi were trusted to follow their instincts and enjoined to trust in the Force and follow its guidelines, but she had never meditated on whether to push 2.5% versus 3% and gotten any sort of understanding that felt like it was from the Force rather than her own judgement and evaluation. She might as well say that the Force helped her solve algebraic equations (which she could not always do all that well, anyways.)

It could guide her decisions even then, but not in a way she could understand. It had not felt like the two of them, guided by the Force, coming to an answer that brought the universe closer to balance. No, it had felt a little pettier than that. She meditated on this, and then meditated on it yet more, until the thoughts and non-thoughts all faded.

Finally, she sent a message to Elize: she'd be there, and they'd be able to talk in the Temple tomorrow at the latest.

*****

Elize had changed. Of course, Nima only thought that because Elize said, "Nima, you've changed."

Elize was a little bit taller, and even more trim and hardened. Actually, it seemed as if she'd lost more weight than she should have, but gained it back, more or less. Whatever hardships they faced, they also changed her heart: her emotions felt slightly further from the surface, like a buried communication cable, just out of sight. It wouldn't take much to dig down until she reached emotions, but the Elize she'd known before hadn't bothered to hide anything, consciously or unconsciously.

"You've been through a fire, and of course the truest purpose of fire is for forging, or so they say," Elize said, absently. "Though really, I'm mostly thinking physically. Still exercising all the time? You're really trying to keep up with the likes of us that aren't diplomats."

"Yes, I am," Nima said. "Still, I'm sure you've advanced your lightsaber skills since we last met. Is that what you want? A training bout?" It would make sense. Elize had always liked to test her abilities, and war wouldn't change that.

"I want to learn to be a Rider," Elize said, her every word coming faster and faster as if she was trying to race to the conclusion, or to a finish line… and Nima knew what Elize was like in a race, after the classes they'd had together, all those years ago.. "I know you and your ghostly friends are training people up. It sounds cool, and I want to learn a little more. I've already jumped around with the Boots on, but maybe I could make a sword? I'm not sure how I'd do it, but it's possible, right?"

Nima Tyruti bit her lip. "It is." She had been thinking about how to teach people, but a part of her wondered at Elize's motivations. It wasn't as if people had to come into the Riders out of sheer love of humanity at every turn, way back then. "Do you really have time for it, however?"

"Oh, yeah, probably. Maybe. Either way, I wanna at least try to make a pair of boots I can keep. It's not like yours," Elize said, pointing to them. "Where you just have special boots made for a hero or whatever. I need some of my own."

"Probably, yes," Nima said. There were methods to make the boots, and there were Jedi interested in the practices who were making said boots, or rather their best approximation of them. They were the best that they were going to get, honestly, and Nima could talk to the various Jedi to add a few more to production. The kinds of Jedi who recreated the objects and artifacts of the past in order to better understand the history that the Force has moved through were not the sort of people who--usually at least--had any particular battlefield expertise to offer.

In the previous war, that wouldn't have been enough for them not to have to spend at least a little time as a military leader.

"But yeah, there's a lot of cool tricks you have to know."

Cool. Tricks. Nima's lekku twitched. She was annoyed, and annoyed that she was annoyed. Certainly Seluku treated it just as casually sometimes: it was Nima that was desperate to come out the other end with a philosophy that made sense and fit both of them together. "I might… we'll see what time we have, if you wish to give me a minute."

*****

The truth was, the Dark Side was real. The Riders didn't deny evil, or even unnatural abilities only practiced by those who tried to hurt and destroy others… but they did deny the existence of a dark side as something outside of people. Nima had no proof that this was so, but the more she saw of human darkness, the more she both could and could not believe it. If the Dark Side existed as something that could taint a place, that existed beyond merely good and evil people… then the entire philosophy of the Riders didn't quite work.

That left them with other questions, even if they ignored it: the difference between motion and stillness, between freedom and protection. Riders and their abilities were centered around this freedom, and this self-motivation. They shared a connection to the world, but the Bigness and the Force were both the same thing, and were both everything, and so of course they did. But they were everything in different ways: they were 'everything' in two different languages, not merely in the literal sense, but in--

"That's all great, Nima, but I thought we were going to get to run around," Elize said, sounding a bit apologetic. "I know this is really important, but… aren't Jedi and Riders also sorta 'don't think, do?' I've never been one to read a lot of Jedi philosophy, so maybe I'm missing something."

"That's true, as well," Nima said, aware that her face was hot with embarrassment. "But there's also only so much I can show you if it's not about that. If you understand? Because if you cannot understand movement, then…"

"Nima, do you really think I don't understand movement? My lightsaber form is the one most fitting for this sort of thing. Let's just do it and see what happens."

Nima nodded, unable quite to push back against the idea. It made at least some sense, after all. She was glad she'd brought training lightsabers, and she took them out, lighting them: pink and vomit-green, nice. She'd picked them at random, as long as they fit her hand and were the right length.

"Ha! We must have gotten them from the same barrel." Elize lit her own training lightsaber, which was a pale purple that looked a little as if someone had tried to wrap drapes around an actual lightsaber.

"Maybe so," Nima said. "But you need riders' boots, all the same. Or I need to take them off and try to fight you as a rider anyways." There was a real challenge. How to fight as a rider against someone who could fight like a Jedi in a way that was… like a Rider in a way.

"Sure. You'll need shoes though," Elize pointed out, gesturing to the floor. It was not rough, but it was stone. However, the stone was warm, and so Nima turned off her lightsabers and, with a shrug, slipped off first her books, then her socks. She wiggled her toes playfully, and turned to face Elize. "Oh, well, I suppose that's good enough." Elize looked a little startled.

"It must be." Nima was already thinking about strategies, but she decided to start simple… she charged.

Elize's saber came down to meet both of hers, but Nima had arrested the charge, feet all but curling to keep her balance as she continued to dance around the edges of the fight. Elize seemed to respond with low-sweeps of her sword. Nima just jumped over it… and suddenly she'd turned it into a very different kind of dancing than the one she was used to. She jumped up, but without using the Force to propel her…

It was the Ride, not the height, she thought, and pressed in, slashing furiously and randomly as she hop-danced all around Elize. Elize kept on trying to leap up in the air, but she couldn't. With each movement, she realized that Elize was right… and wrong. Yes, a Rider was about height: that's how Riders fought, jumping and leaping around. But Nima's barely above ground movements were working too, because they forced Elize to fight on the ground. Nima got a graze on Elize's shoulder, but half-stumbled into a slash across her arm before she was able to get back, but she did so half dancing, still light on her feet, never stopping the flow of her movements as she kneed Elize and then followed up with a downward slash and a sucker-punch with a hand holding a lightsaber. Elize dodged the punch, but Nima wasn't done, and in fact she continued to press the attack, half-laughing at how absurd this style of fighting was.

Then, suddenly--not quite sure why, on instinct--she retreated as Elize slashed around at empty air.

"Oh," Elize said. "What was that?"

"If I knew, I'd tell you," Nima said, still bouncing on the balls of her feet. "But I think you were right, and I think I'm learning something by not having the boots."

She sprinted forward for another attack.

******

In the end she lost, of course. Elize was better trained, and when she finally got to jumping around, it really was something. But Nima got in a few very solid blows, and both of them were sweaty and panting by the end of it, clearly a little worse for the wear. Nima's new hybrid style seemed like it might work. She'd been doing some of this before, but this was a more flowing version of it, more playful and just plain different.

Nima didn't feel as tired as she should have. Instead she felt more alive, her limbs not heavy but light. She had a smile on her face, well aware of all the kinds of chemical reactions going on in her body in that moment: the increase in oxygen, the adrenaline but without the fear and panic that turned it sour…

Elize shook her head, and Nima couldn't help but notice: whereas once, years ago, she had had six beads in her dark hair to represent her deeds, now she had well over a dozen, of all colors. They caught the light when she shook her head. Of course, there was also the sweat… then again, Nima's lekku were a little sweaty too. Her grin, too, was wide… but there was some nervous hesitation.

"You figured it out, then? You found something better to do?" Elize asked. "Like I said? Am I right or am I right?"

"You're right. I don't know if you did, though," Nima pointed out.

"I guess so," Elize said, with a groan. "It's harder than I thought. Even if I had Riders' Boots, it doesn't matter if I don't think the right way, I guess. Gotta keep trying, then. And speaking of trying…"

Nima was distracted. That's about the only explanation for why she missed Elize's emotions. In Nima's mind, she was already trying to figure out how to help Elize learn, and how to figure out the way to combine this mindset in just the right way, and…

"Hey, Nima, wanna go on a date?"

And what?

Nima froze in place, her lekku going stiff with shock. "What?"

"A date. You, me, a restaurant or perhaps a holovid movie? Saleucami has a lot more than you might know, just staying down here beneath the earth," Elize said, her grin getting wider. "I'll pay, if that's a concern. Though really, we get the allowances for it if we ask, as long as it's just a little something every now and then." She wiped her forehead.

"A… romantic date?" Nima had of course known that Elize was attracted to her. She'd felt it before, just another one of those weird things you figured out when you had empathic abilities, but which you never talked about or addressed in any way. "Jedi aren't allowed…"

"We're fourteen, Nima. They'd look the other way, even if we weren't fighting and dying for everything. And if it doesn't work out, and we don't connect, so? We just have a friend-date instead." Elize really did feel remarkably casual about it, as if it wasn't a big deal… or at least, not so big of a deal that she couldn't just ask Nima about it.

Nima didn't know how she felt about Elize in that way, not at all, but at the same time, Elize did have a point. Going on a date wasn't a commitment… but it still felt like a huge step. Her heart was racing just thinking about it, especially since she was a Jedi. It wasn't really breaking the rules that badly… but it was breaking the rules.

She looked over at Elize, her grin toothy, her eyes a deep, rich brown, her own heart a bit nervous, a bit uncertain, but only a little bit.

Nima swallowed, not sure what she was feeling, exactly. Did she need to answer now?

"You don't have to tell me now. We did just finish up sparring with each other," Elize said. Nima had a feeling that was part of the reason that Elize had asked, though. The energy and emotions that came from having done so.

Nima wasn't sure at all.

What does Nima decide?

[] She searches her feelings: she's not in love with Elize, but Elize is cute and a good person. Why not go on a date, just to see?
[] She searches her feelings: she doesn't feel ready for it, it's too much of a risk, and the fact that she doesn't have a crush on Elize means she should hold back, not rock the boat too much.

******

A/N: Sorry this is short, but I just kinda realized what made sense part of the way through this!

Anyways, hoped you enjoyed the latest update of 'teenage romantic drama Quest.'
 
LXI: Views, Part 2
LXI: Views, Part 2

Nima didn't know what to expect. She had fretted over her acceptance, but decided it was worth trying. She was fourteen, and within a few days she'd be away for a new mission. There were few enough people available: she'd left a message for Hannah and Katarina, but both were out of touch, and Scout was clearly busy preparing for some kind of mission. Her Master was out of touch, too. Bell was on a long-term assignment, and with all the Padawans scattered around…

She didn't really have anyone to talk to that she was willing to actually share the date with. So she paced quite a lot on the night before. She wandered through the halls, noting how strange and different the young Padawans and Initiates seemed. It wasn't that they were untouched by war. No, war was like tar, it stuck to you, and when you reached out to shake someone else's hand, it stuck to them as well.

But Initiates even six months younger than her had a very different experience. She'd wanted that, of course: she hadn't wanted to stay in the Temple for another few years and just hope that the Jedi won. Where would Jordyan Bell be if he had to stop to fight Nylirah on his way to saving the planet? And besides that, she'd played a role beyond that. Compared to that… her actions on Corellia were less than heroic, but she'd played a small role in making the galaxy better, and in finding more Riders, on Ryloth, Tatooine, and Kamino.

And then after that? Those diplomatic missions were not deciding the galaxy's fate, but they were helpful in small ways.

She wouldn't trade their way of existing for hers. But it made her feel a little worn out already, like a song that was already falling off the charts. (Another comparison she never would have made if she cooled her heels at the Temple and just studied more languages and tried to figure out diplomacy from afar.)

She eventually was forced to dig around in the Jedi clothing archive. Well, it had another name, but it was really just massive amounts of clothes. They'd obviously left behind the old one at the old Temple, but of all the expenses of the Jedi Order, the clothing was hardly the one that would take the most to replace. Jedi going undercover, or just looking not to be noticed… or even just wanting to try on new ways of dressing before asking the authorities in charge for permission to purchase a new outfit on the Order's credit could all find something here for all ages and body types. Cumulatively it was expensive, but probably less expensive than a single proton torpedo. The costs of war were simply impossible to really understand.

It was a lot easier to focus on far more concrete things… like trying to find a good pair of shorts, or the right sort of pants, that wouldn't make her feel completely out of place. She needed to bring along her lightsabers, just in case. Or perhaps, just for safety? So she needed something with a belt. It would be easy enough to just find a… maybe green, pair of shorts? But now she was worried about dressing up too much, or, or--

It was a little bit, or perhaps a lot, different when she was just exercising. She eventually went with something that went down a little past her knees, green with gold stripes, and plenty of pockets just in case she had to carry credits, or whatever else non-Jedi routinely carried around. The blue shirt could be topped with an old, silvery jacket, and then for shoes? She didn't really know, and so picked the first flat-topped black shoes. She was used to her Rider boots, but she'd been told time and time again that they didn't go together with any outfits at all. All she knew was that she was going to be on the date for a number of hours.

Yes, hours. This clearly wasn't just going to a cheap restaurant and then back to the Temple, but beyond that she didn't know.

******

The next day, Nima went to the entrance she was told to, walking through the underground cave complex that made up the Jedi Temple. She knew this entrance opened up relatively near to the outskirts of town, which implied they probably weren't going straight to any sort of diner. She wasn't quite tapping her feet, but there was something very unrestful about waiting for a date. She was out of the hot sun, at least, and she'd just have to get over it. Earlier today she'd gone through all of her exercises, taken a very, very long shower to make sure she was clean, and then gotten dressed up. Along the way she'd passed a few Jedi who had looked at her speculatively, their minds sending out inquiries that Nima just responded to with a distracted set of emotions, carefully projected.

Nobody really tried to say hello, and after the third or fourth time, people could tell she wasn't off on some sort of mission they should be wishing her luck for.

Though, if someone did want to wish her luck on a date, she'd take it by this point. The ghosts had declared that they'd keep themselves as absent as they possibly could, and Nima had decided to leave the anchors behind for the first time in a long, long time. She felt very exposed, without the boots, without the dagger, and without Seluku and Baqqanid nearby. But they'd wished her luck--

Actually, Seluku had said, "Do anything I wouldn't do" and Baqqanid had just told Nima that she should ask more about Rider training for Elize if the date seemed to be getting boring or going off kilter.

Which… wasn't actually bad advice. If she needed to turn this into a friendly outing, she would.

She obviously sensed Elize over a minute before she arrived, the other girls' mind buoyant and even bouncing with excitement. The first thing that Nima noticed when Elize arrived was the other girls' clothing. A jacket, yes, and a shirt not all that different than Nima's, just in a blue-green coloration. But she was wearing pants, and the pants had weird skirting material also attached to them, that seemed to flow and shift with every motion. Looking up, she saw that Elize had put on some makeup, especially around her eyes, dark coloration that Nima was pretty sure was traditional in her culture.

Nima could also see that the beads and braids of Elize's hair were fully on display. In fact, there seemed to be more of them than usual.

Elize goggled at Nima and said, "Oh. Good. That'll… that will work, as far as dressing up goes. We're going to have to go for a little walk, it shouldn't be too far."

"Can I ask you something?"

"Yes, yes, of course. We are going on a date, after all," Elize said, showing the first hint of nervousness, her smile a little too wide.

"Do you have more beads in your hair?" Nima asked. She hadn't counted the number, of course, but it usually stayed pretty consistent.

"You know my culture adds beads for great accomplishments," Elize said, a smile now in her voice.

"Yes, I do, Elize," Nima said, her lekku shifting as she tried to consider what had Elize smiling.

"I"d say that asking a cute, nice girl out for the first time probably counts as an accomplishment," Elize says.

Nima's cheeks felt hot, not least because, while it was obviously flattery, she could sense Elize's mind. There wasn't a tremor, and so if she was lying she was the kind of liar who believed every word they said. Elize had flaws--all Jedi did--but none of them involved conniving. It was probably not didn't say good things about her experiences in the war that she even thought about that.

"Was that a little too… blunt?" Elize asked, fidgeting a little as she said it, and inching a bit closer to Nima.

"No, no, it's fine." She was flushing, but she was kind of pleased. She knew, objectively, that there were people who found her cute. But it was another to just hear someone call her cute. "So, where are we going?"

"Don't you like a little bit of mystery?" Elize asked, stepping towards the entrance.

"I suppose I can do with some," Nima said. "I trust you."

Elize stood up straighter at that.

*****

Saleucami was a hot world, and the afternoons were always the worst. They came out in a relatively shaded area, and of course they would eventually get used to it. But, living underground, it was easy to forget just how scorching things were. The city was lovely though, the trees dotted here and there providing a nice bit of shade, as they walked along the wide sidewalks. The number of speeders in Diceurta were pretty low, compared to Coruscant. There was a lot more walking, and a number of public transportation options that were, bafflingly, groundcars.

It was certainly cheaper, that much was true, but Elize and Nima just walked. A few people glanced down and noticed the lightsabers at their belts, but most were busy with their own lives. It was a very busy city, in its own way, booming and bustling with business and benefits from the Jedi Order's choices. Diceurta had been a biomedical hub, and also hada beautiful forest which attracted some degree of tourist attention. Now it was a hub for all sorts of enterprises all trying to entice the Jedi Order into using their services. The Order preferred to do as much as possible on its own. This clearly wasn't possible.

As they walked along, Elize tried to keep the conversation light. "So, the Aforians have a kinda weird custom, where they burp at the end of every meal." Elize gestured broadly. "And so then if you didn't burp you actually meant you hadn't enjoyed the meal. But of course, they didn't really burp on command, they had drinks and the like you were supposed to drink that made you burp. But then, sometimes people drank that and started farting up a storm."

Nima giggled at that. "How did they solve that?"

"You were supposed to just hold it in and make sure to burp," Elize said. "They started making drugs and pills to encourage it, just to try to make it all work." She gestured broadly. "So after we won the battle, there were all these belches here, there, and everywhere, y'know?"

Nima did know, and it wasn't that absurd, she knew that. Wanting to show signs of appreciate for a meal, even in that sort of way, was common across dozens and dozens of cultures, if not hundreds.

But it was still imagining an entire room of well-dressed dignitaries farting and burping in rapid succession towards the end of a meal. She couldn't keep the laughter from her voice as she said, "Wow."

"Okay, uh, it's probably not really a date topic, but it made you laugh, so there."

"Please, stop worrying," Nima said, earnestly. "We're just walking to wherever we're going, and you know I like hearing about these sorts of things. You remembered something about me, that's always good. Whether in friendship or… this." She gestured a little broadly, and gave her best smile. "You're not always going to know what to say, but don't assume when you can reach out and feel what I feel that I must be waiting to pounce."

"I've never been as good at empathic senses as you," Elize admitted. "You're very hard to read sometimes, you know that? Not in the sense that you don't show emotions, but you're always so nice. Even when you're annoyed, you're nice."

Nima wanted to be rather more than nice, honestly. But she knew what Elize meant. "I try to be kind, but I wouldn't just lie. Not on a date."

Elize considered this, frowning. It didn't seem like an angry frown, really. She seemed more like a quizzical animal than anything else. Nima had her own questions, too. She didn't know what it would look like, when they reached their destination.

She was enjoying the chance to stretch her legs, and her stomach almost growled at the hot, fried smell of street vendor food when they passed by a stand. It was some sort of meat, covered in dough and then heavily burnt, a combination found in hundreds of thousands of cultures in as many forms as could ever be imagined. It made her purse her lips to keep from licking them as she passed.

She should have probably had more for lunch than she did, but she had been worried about being too bloated for whatever they were doing. Maybe she'd eat her own words if they were just watching a show, but Elize didn't seem like the kind of person who'd just do that.

Finally, Elize grinned, anticipation telling Nima before she even spoke that they'd reached their destination. Elize gestured towards a huge, low-slung building, "We're here!"

The building labeled itself 'Roller-float Rink.'

"Roller… what?" Nima asked, scrunching up her eyes in a way that would have looked better with eyebrows.

"You see, they give you these shoes that have hover-components connected to the rink itself. So that you can kind of move your legs and float-speed around a huge rink. It has some curves to let you do flips and the like, but nothing too extreme: it won't let you walk on the ceilings." Elize said it all while gesturing and demonstrating with her body, shifting her legs back and forth as if shuffling, and leaping in the air when she spoke about the flips. "So, I thought it'd be a way to have fun and do something a bit Rider-y, while it's still a new experience. Worst case scenario, they apparently have a snack bar, so we can hang out there and ruin the dinner I have planned."

Nima nodded. "I'm sure I'll love it."

******

They were stopped at the entrance, which smelled faintly of polish and had reprints of art on all the walls, while the staff--harried humans, thus far, had been all she'd seen--discussed what to do. Elize seemed a little surprised at all of it, but of course it was probably the matter of Jedi visiting. Nima glanced over at Elize, tracking her emotions. Elize was not very good at patience, but she was willing to wait despite that, and soon enough they made their way through the entrance. What lay beyond was certainly unlike what Nima had expected.

It was the middle of the afternoon, and so it was not crowded, but there was a huge space in the center, slightly depressed into the ground, where alternating black and white material glistened, especially against the lights that were attached to the flexi-glass all around it. This 'rink' had elevated and raised sections that resembled nothing more than one half-portion of a pipe, and a few daring people were seemingly skimming the surface, a hands-breath above the ground at all times, as they flipped and turned off the edges. Of course, others were just 'skating' around the center areas, some of them very leisurely. The oldest seemed to be somewhere past retirement, while the youngest, a girl with bright blue pigtails, was being guided along by her mother.

Off to the side, there was a station with a bored looking Rutian Twi'lek man, and further off there was what looked like a concession stand, the smells coming from the various extruders and other equipment incredibly tempting.

"I'm impressed," Nima admitted to Elize, in part because the other girl was staring at her with the mindset of a well-trained animal looking for praise. She indeed seemed to puff up with pride at that. "This should be fun."

"Right, right. I think I figured out how the sizes work, I think? And there's a bench, there. You sit down, and take off your shoes… and then there." She was pointing to a small set of lockers in the corner. "You get a key, and then you keep anything you don't want to have on hand there."

Nima nodded, and they went through the motions with the bored Twi'lek employee. Elize ordered herself small, and Nima a 'small' and 'medium' pair of the boots, apparently trying to figure out which of them fit, and displayed the tickets she'd been given that proved she hadn't snuck in. She had a rather offended sort of frown at the very idea, and Nima admitted there was something a little cute about the little moments when Elize was flustered but still trying to seem like she was in control. Nima sat down on the bench, slipping off her borrowed shoes, and then carefully putting on and lacing up the boots she'd been given. They were a lot smaller than the Riders' Boots, and were all black, looking a little sleek and glossy, for all that they had rather old-fashioned laces. The bottom had what seemed like a series of indentations, which she knew would connect with the actual rink, which no doubt had to be expensively built. But no matter.

It did mean that Nima's walk was very awkward. The shoes were not those you'd choose to use to go walking around, but she half-hobbled towards the entrance to the rink, down the gently sloping platform--stairs, of course, would be a nightmare with those shoes on, at least for someone less coordinated than Nima--and then through the gate.

Elize stepped through first, and after a mere second or two of standing on the dark material beneath her, she was suddenly lifted up into the area. "See! It just takes a second or two to register, so that someone doesn't take a step forward and get toppled one-legged."

Nima could imagine someone doing that… ouch. So she stepped quickly onto the platform, and then tried not to feel a little bit of panic as she floated up slightly, moments later. It was a different experience than Riding, in that there was no sense of motion just standing there. Even when you were standing on a wall, it was slightly more in control than she felt now. Still, her lekku and her natural sense of balance kept her from being too unsteady, and she shifted forward, as if shuffling her feet.

Huh. It was best to imagine it as if she were physically connected to the surface. So she tried again, and this time glided forward, her foot actually raising up higher to 'push' off of the invisible floor of sorts.

"See, just like that! Now watch this!" Elize skated forward, legs pumping, and leapt in the air, turning around to face Nima as she did and landing perfectly, momentum still carrying her backwards, her hair jangling in its braids as it did.

"Right," Nima said, and she began to shift forward, not going for any sort of jump at this moment. She needed to get a better idea of what was going on.

A few of the other people in the rink glanced at them briefly, then glanced away, too busy with their own acts.

She 'skated' behind Elize as they made a circuit of the rink, Elize still backwards the whole time and somehow making it look effortless. She had a way of moving that really did show that, whatever else she might have yet to learn, she had the instincts that any Rider--or any Jedi--would be proud to have. She knew how to move her body to always keep balance, and Nima did find herself caught, at moments, watching the little shifts in her form and stance with very careful intention. It was impressive, honestly.

After two circuits, Elize said, "Well then, watch this." She then shifted her legs as she seemed to slide up the pipe, and then do a turn. This time instead of a half-turn, she turned all the way down before she 'hit' the ramp again. "There we go! It's a little trickier than it looks, because if you're still turning like that when you land, you can sort of wobble around and fall over. Like… see." Elize demonstrated by 'trying' to turn around just by shifting her body weight. Instead, she mostly wobbled… again, as if she was fixed in place. Nima could imagine Elize's legs getting tangled up in themselves

"Huh," Nima said.

"I bet you could do something like that. But why not just start by giving it a try. There should be pressure as it curves," Elize said, "So that it really is like trying to go up a slope, slightly… but it means if you get up momentum, you can get even more going down. When I was there, I saw someone go back and forth between the slopes, until they were almost as high up as the flexi-glass barrier."

Nima wasn't sure if she wanted to risk something like that, but… why not? At worst, she wiped out. If so, she really should have put on some padding. She actually saw that some of the others on the rink had on padding and even helmets (unnecessary as that was, and as awkward as that'd be with Nima's lekku.)

"You don't have to," Elize said. "But I bet you could do cool tricks." Elize was not even remotely subtle, and at the moment she apparently really, really really wanted Nima to show off.

So Nima nodded, and began to hover-skate around again, trying to build up some momentum. She lowered herself down slightly, trying to imagine how that might shift her balance, as she pushed up towards the ramp, the curve of it shifting the position of her boots, as she lifted off the ground.

It was instinct and the will of the Force that told her that, short of using the Force to push herself further, she'd need to be satisfied with a half-turn. So she turned once around, and then braced, sliding down as she gained momentum. Skating with her legs, she found herself ramping off the other wall, turning around once, and barreling towards the ramp she'd started with again. This time when she got up, she pushed herself a little with the Force, her body twisting and almost blurring as she completed a spin and a half, landing backwards with a wobble and, as soon as she could, jumping up to turn herself to face the right way. She had to skid out of the way of the mother and daughter skating, but finally she slowed to almost a halt near the middle of the rink, her heart racing.

Oh, wow. Now that was something.

Elize was gaping at her, mouth wide. Then she started clapping. "Whoa! Amazing!" Elize shifted towards her, legs pumping. "I wonder if you could get two whole turns? But anyways… I… whoa." She was entirely inarticulate, staring at Nima as if she'd never fully seen her. "You looked really cool."

"Thanks," Nima said, aware that she was being incredibly awkward. They were both Jedi, which made it worse. They could feel each other's emotions, and then they felt emotions about each other's emotions. She knew that when Elize said 'cool' she also meant 'cute.' Or… something like that. Actually, likely something more than that: a kitten could be cute, and that wasn't what Elize was thinking. "It was a little risky, but I've taken bigger risks."

"Yeah," Elize said, her mood darkening for a moment, mind drawn towards a memory or thought she didn't like. Elize brushed it off, though, said, "Oh, this one's my song! We should dance!"

Nima had been blocking out the music, and now that she heard what Elize liked so much…

Nima Tyruti was not judgemental about music. She wasn't going to judge, of course she wasn't. Just because the music was an anemic, beatless sort of peppy rhythm with faint, thready vocals didn't mean--

Nima Tyruti was not judgemental, and she was not going to say anything judgemental.

"Oh, who's the artist?" Nima asked, perfectly nailing a complete lack of judgement so hard that she was aware there was not an ounce of emotion in her voice at all.

"I don't know. It just has something I like about it," Elize said, as if it didn't matter.

Nima buried any brief annoyance and said. "Sure, why not?" The key was to focus on the dance itself. Elize reached out, and took Nima's left hand. Elize's hand was warm, and while there were calluses, it was nice. She tugged, and Nima went dragging along with her, as Nima hastened to keep up. Elize sped up her movements, and then did a turn that would have sent Nima flying if they weren't holding hands. Ah, is that how it is? Nima smiled and then broke contact with Elize, who looked shocked for a moment. Then she laughed as Nima danced back, one hand gesturing, her boots 'stomping' on the empty air. Elize surged forward and caught both of her hands, whirling them around. They spun and shifted, breaking apart to dance for a few unsteady moments, and then moved back in rhythm. They certainly complimented each other: it was a feeling a little like her every fight with Katarina, where two hearts were beating as one. But it was a little different, in a way she couldn't quite describe. It was less powerful in some ways, but more charged.

Elize wanted to kiss her, and her every move seemed to indicate that more than if she'd simply leaned in. Nima danced and whirled, working up a bit of a sweat, and thinking about that, about a kiss on the lips, soft and brief. What would it be like? She knew what she imagined, of course. She'd been kissed on the cheek before, and she had imagined kissing Katarina, kissing Hannah… at least once in a while.

She wanted, she realized, to kiss Elize. Her movements and her heart were saying that too: she didn't know if it was the kind of crush she had on the other two, but it was still there, present in the moment as Elize said, "Hey, let's try something. Want to see if we can do a half-flip together?" She gestured for the ramp. "Up the ramp hand in hand, and then turning around to face the other direction…"

Nima was a little uncertain about that, but perhaps now was the moment to trust the Force. And more than that, trust Elize.

They looped around, picking up speed. Now people were watching, as the music continued towards its unimpressive ending. But that didn't matter, not when she was focusing more on the act, on yet another risk that Elize wanted her to take. It made the date odd, yes, a little bit like a friendly competition, but it wasn't as if she wasn't having fun.

They hurried up towards the ramp, hand and hand, and launched themselves up into the air.

******

"And then we went like, whoosh, and did fifty flips in a row and landing, and everyone cheered--"

"It didn't happen like that," Nima said, fidgeting in the booth. "I was there."

"But that's what it felt like," Elize added, holding Nima's hand as she said it, one hand on the green table. There was more of a crowd than expected. 'Ga-Nash's' was a family restaurant, and so most of the people here were families eating an early dinner. There were a few couples, because it was a 'local feature' that apparently had good, solid Saleucami food. What this actually meant, Nima didn't know.

"Well, maybe it did," Nima admitted, with a blush. "Still, you didn't have to dance around."

"Didn't you feel it, that rush?"

Nima had, and she smiled. "Yeah, I suppose. So, how does this work?"

"Well, we order appetizers, I suppose. There's a box here you push the orders in, and then a bot brings it out. I think they have a bunch of custom bots," Elize said, with a shrug. "Feels a bit impersonal, but that's the world." She smiled as wide as she possibly could. "We're going to change the galaxy, but it prolly won't start with making dining more personal."

"No, probably not," Nima admitted. "Does anyone else know about this?"

"Worried?"

"A little, yes," Nima admitted. Telling the truth was important, when it came to things like this. She didn't always know what the truth was, but…

"Well, no. Not really. But the thing is, I wouldn't care even if they knew," Elize said, quietly. "You know what it's like out there. The idea that they're protecting anyone or upholding anything of the Jedi Ideal by keeping us from going on a date?" Elize gestured, broadly. "We almost die ten times a month. That's the 'galaxy of adventure.'" She didn't sound as bitter as she should. It shocked Nima, the smooth and easy way she saw it. "So why shouldn't I ask someone I care about, and someone who is as cute as can be, out for a date? You have to know I've liked you for a long, long time. So I don't think it's surprising, and if this is bad, if this is somehow not what the Force wants, then it can tell me itself."

Elize's face was a bit flushed, but she watched Nima carefully. Nima nodded, slowly. She didn't agree, per se. There was a reason they held with not dating, with no romance… but at the same time, this didn't seem as if it was going to hurt anyone.

So Nima should take this seriously, as seriously as it truly was. And as fun as it truly was.

******

It was a good meal, and they switched topics from those heavy moments, to discuss fighting and techniques, and the taste of the food itself. Nima got a sort of grilled fish that swam underground, smothered in cheese and a variety of spices until it was the kind of thing that stung the tongue in a pleasant way. Nima paid close attention to each little shift of Elize's mood, aware that she had to keep the conversation going. But it wasn't hard, really. Elize laughed and changed the subject if she got too flustered, always flitting from one idea to the next, and yet looking at Nima as if she was special.

It was a warm feeling, albeit one that Nima almost didn't feel able to dwell on too strongly. They managed to make it through the meal, and the dessert. It was so similar to an outing with a friend, but so different than that would be. Nima didn't know what to think. She wasn't sure what she wanted: she'd gone on the date not because she was completely sure of how she felt, but because she was not completely sure how she felt.

Still, at the same time, she'd find herself stopping for moments, to just look at Elize. Just see her.

It was hard to define, or quantify, but she was attracted to Elize. That had to be what it was, when her heart beat a little faster when Elize reached a hand out to hold Nima's. Her stomachs churned a little, and it wasn't from the food.

By the time the meal was done for, and they'd paid, Nima Tyruti knew that if she were not a Jedi, she'd be willing and able to go on a second date. She wasn't sure if it was even a 'real' crush, let alone anything like love. But she had enough doubt, and enough in the way of emotions to sort through, that she was willing to try again. And perhaps even a third, a fourth… one could doubt one's way into essentially being girlfriends, she was aware.

As a Jedi, though? As a Jedi, Nima didn't know if there would be another date. So she enjoyed what she could. And she thought about what she could do.

"Can I walk you back to your room, then?" Elize asked, as they stepped back through the cave entrance. It was finally getting nice out, of course, the sun setting and leaving behind a world that was actually bearable. Nima wasn't sure how species that were covered in thick fur dealt with it. Probably not well, was the answer. Nima nodded.

"Of course you can," she said. "Let's go."

They didn't walk hand in hand now, not in the heart of the Jedi Temple, as they had previously. It wasn't that anyone would necessarily assume anything--friends walked hand in hand, but so did people who were dating--but Nima could feel the sort of furtive, uncertain energy of the moment. It was as if they were both slowly making their way through decontamination, except it didn't feel quite that positive. No, it felt like things were being stripped away now that she might have wanted to hold on to.

Finally, they reached the doors. Elize gave a soft, kind smile, clearly sure that this was where they were going to part ways. She wasn't even wrong.

"This was nice," Elize said. "We should do it again, sometime… maybe?"

It was baffling to see Elize without confidence, like it was strange to see a morally conflicted Katarina, or a downtrodden Cho, or--

Nima surged forward, and reached out a hand to gently rest a hand on Elize's shoulder. "We'll see. We can't exactly know what will happen." Nima's lekku gave a sort of shrug-shift as she leaned forward and said. "Please tell me if you don't want this."

Then she leaned in and pressed her lips, slowly and gently, against Elize's.

She tasted faintly of the food she'd eaten, but beneath that there was something else. Elize began to kiss back, still too stunned to do much. Elize's lips were soft, even if they were a little chapped, and the sensation sent tingles running through her, butterflies that gathered and tried to fly away. The kiss didn't last all that long, not really: it was made longer though by the very fact that their emotions mingled. Nima could feel what Elize was feeling, and this drove her on, made every moment feel that much more powerful, deep and heavy, a growing endless sea of a moment that seemed to swallow up all sense.

When she finally--it had only been a second or three, possibly less--broke away from Elize, she could feel herself shaking, unable almost to stand it, giddy and excited and thrilled and terrified, hopeless before the sensations washing over her. She stepped back a little further and said, "Goodnight, Elize."

"G-g-goodnight, Nima," Elize said, her face dark with a flush, adorably flustered and unable to hide it. "Um...thanks. Talk to you later!" Elize turned and rushed off, braids dangling and bouncing as she did. Just around the corner, Nima felt Elize's mind skip a beat, as if she was jumping up and clicking her heels together in joy.

Nima touched her own lips. Huh.

She sat down on her bed in her room, not even turning on the light, and tried to meditate and focus. She was fifteen minutes into the failed try when her dataslate beeped. Incoming messages.

When she sighed and turned it on, heart still running a little fast, she saw that there were actually two requests for a comms-conversation, one from Yoda, the Grandmaster of the Jedi Order, and the other from Hannah Ignes.

She, of course, decided to take the most important call first, and leave the other to wait.

*****

Hannah was trying to appear calm. Nima knew Hannah well enough to see the little signs, the straight line of her lips, the careful set of her shoulders. As if she was being made to give a presentation she hadn't prepared for. Nima had noticed that even before they became friends, the specific little tells when Hannah was in over her head. It's just that back then, they'd been neutral signs at worst.

"So, you have a date? Sorry, I was… busy with a few things, only just got a chance now to say anything," Hannah said.

"Yes, I actually just got back."

"It went well, I hope, darling," Hannah said, with the bravest smile Nima had seen in a while.

Nima, though, was watching her eyes. She could see the moment that Hannah tried to hide, the moment of absolute, unbearable pain that seemed at last to chase away the butterflies in Nima's stomach.

"It did. We went to this 'rink', and then to dinner. The rink was fun… though the music was a bit annoying. But we danced together and skated."

"Rink? Oh, right, yes, yes… that's… yes, I think I know what you mean," Hannah said, her words stumbling over themselves. "I think I looked that up, a while ago? Kinda curious about what fun stuff was around."

Nima wished she could feel Hannah's emotions, wished she didn't feel so bad about it. Wished she wasn't also imagining kissing Hannah like she'd kissed Elize. Nima also wished she fully regretted kissing Elize. Yet if she could step back a few dozen minutes, she would have made the same decision.

Was that terrible of her? Was she being a bad… friend, or whatever it was that she and Hannah actually were?

Maybe. She wasn't sure. "Right, so, are you okay, Hannah?"

"Y-yeah, fine, fine, cool. Very cool," Hannah said. "As cool as Ilum." Hannah paused, and said, "Okay, okay. It's a little weird, but it's good that you're putting yourself out there. I'm proud of you… unless you regret it, in which case…"

"I already told you it was fun," Nima said.

"You said the rink was fun, that doesn't mean the whole date was," Hannah pointed out. "I couldn't read your mind if we were face to face and cheek to cheek, let alone across all of this."

"I enjoyed myself," Nima admitted. "I don't know if I'll do it again, but she's sweet, if a little bit flighty."

"That makes sense. So, you didn't like the music at the rink?" Hannah asked, clearly changing the subject. "What kind of bands do you like, anyways. I've heard about your brand new taste in music, but I haven't really been able to look them up. Are any of them 'uncultured'?"

For anyone else, that would have been a sarcastic question. But Hannah--mostly--meant it seriously.

"Oh, some of them are very uncultured. There's The Hop-Ities, Another Lost Day--"

Nima was pretty sure it was a reference to excessive drinking, but she preferred to believe that it instead had something to do with how floaty their music was, as if they were speeding through days of boredom to get to the exciting parts. Missing the ocean for the drops of water. But sometimes she liked that. "The Kloo Horn Experience: The Sequel." There was no reasonable way to explain their name. "Bloody Feet," a reference to some sort of historical event from their planet. "Barila," which couldn't be translated from its native Zevghorn. Nima frowned, pondering.

"Are those… are those real names?" Hannah asked, eyes narrowed.

"Yes, they absolutely are. Oh, another I like is Boogersnot," she added.

"Booger… snot? Really a band's named…"

Nima was unable to hide her grin.

"Oh, so the rest of the names were fake, then?" Hannah asked.

"Nope," Nima said, entirely truthfully.

"I'll look up everything you said, and there will be words, Nima, if you're lying to me."

"There's always words when we talk, Hannah," Nima said, her grin still gracing her expression.

"That's true enough, I suppose, if you must be pedantic, a quality I do not approve of, and--"

She was stopped by Nima's flat stare. Hannah and pedantry went together like Hannah and her hair.

"Well, I don't approve of it in other people, you know, darling, and--"

The conversation carried itself from there.

******

"Your help, I need, with a task," Yoda said. "Training, Scout must have… and rest. A vacation, we shall take. Lessons, will be taught. You and others, if available, help you might, hmm?" Yoda peered into the screen, squinting as if he wasn't sure how it worked, even though that was far from true.

"Of course, Grandmaster." Another vacation? But… why not. It'd give her time to work out what she was feeling about Elize and Hannah, so there was that.

"Padawan Katarina, Knight Boquin, and others, will help."

Oh.

So, what is Nima's part in this strange training exercise involving Scout and Yoda?

[] Monitoring Scout's emotions, as she's put through a few annoying encounters: not scripted, so much as the inevitable problems that would come up in any… camping trip? It's a camping trip, okay.
[] Nima's a sociable person, perhaps she could talk to a few locals, recruit them for some local help, without causing too much attention… which is what Yoda gets wherever he goes.
[] There are some rather lovely mountains, but in order to get around safely, it might be best to have a… safety monitor who can walk on walls.

******

A/N: Almost late, but here we go!
 
LXII: Views, Part 3
LXII: Views, Part 3

Keli-Klee-Aito was a very beautiful planet, at least in the brochures. She had read a lot about the planet, which was a free, open place that had declared its neutrality and joined in Satine's Congress of Neutral Systems. It was the kind of planet that people called 'quaint' in descriptions, which was a real achievement when it was a planet like any other, with somewhat varied, but all equally… quaint, biomes. It had very few huge mountains that could kill the unwary climber even if they were experienced, but it had a lot of rather lovely peaks. These peaks meant valleys, and these valleys eventually meant rolling hills, and seaside resorts, an entire planet whose deserts were more crisp than unbearable, and whose polar regions were long since conquered and turned into another tourist attraction.

The planet had a population slightly over a billion, but it could have held ten or twelve times as much with ease, especially since it packed much of that population into cities at carefully chosen locations. If ever there was a planet that felt like it was more a park than a place to live, it was Keli-Klee-Aito, which despite its name actually was a primarily human planet. There were Twi'leks on the planet, of course. Find a planet anywhere and you'll find at least a handful of Twi'leks, after all.

Unless it's undiscovered, hidden, or kills outsiders, and sometimes even then.

They arrived on the South continent in a rather large vessel, honestly, to a small town outside a range of mountains and forests that the guide said were 'beyond beautiful.' The small town had a population of thousands, and so they were going to stand out.

The ship wasn't large enough to keep Nima from running into Katarina all the time. It wasn't even that she didn't want to, so much as whenever she did, she thought about kissing Katarina so much that she had to look away. It wasn't appropriate, especially since unlike Hannah, Katarina clearly didn't feel quite the same as Nima did. But Katarina did feel so joyful, soul bright and sparking like the twinkling stars at night, whenever she looked at Nima.

So sometimes they just walked through the corridors, not talking about anything at all. Katarina had a few new quasi-scars, places where bacta had clearly healed her up, and Nima's fingers twitched with the inappropriate desire to trace these oddly fresh looking patches of skin, to feel what it was that had happened to her. Nima wanted to ask, but didn't know if she was supposed to have noticed. The average sentient wouldn't have, but then the average sentient didn't spend that long staring at Katarina. It'd be weird if they did.

Was it weird that she did?

Maybe, but she was pretty sure it was 'understandable.'

Scout's nerves were also understandable. On the trip, she'd had to go talk to Scout at least once, and she'd found the other girl pacing back and forth, back and forth. She didn't stop when she saw Nima.

"I don't know what he wants," Scout said, in despair. "He's clearly teaching me something, but I don't know what it is. Yoda said 'A vacation, it is.' But then he said that when he was having me learn yet more rock climbing, and then it turned out to be about my trust in the Force. I'm expecting a trick." She hesitated, brightening. "Wait, what if the trick is that there's no trick." Then she thought better, shoulders sagging. "Yeah, I didn't think so either."

Nima, who hadn't said anything, just gave a sort of lekku shrug. "I don't know either. I know what my role is, but I don't know what it means. Yoda is mysterious. It's not new," Nima admitted. If Yoda wasn't something of a mystery, albeit a very approachable one, then the speculations of younglings would be very different. Everyone told Yoda stories, everyone asked about what Yoda was thinking sometimes, since some of the stories were strange, seeming to have no point at first glance.

"It's not," Scout said. "Except now I'm his Padawan, and I'm still in the dark, at the bottom of a mine shaft. It's not that bad, though." Scout gave a pouty sort of frown. "He's a good teacher, but he's frustrating. I bet I frustrate him too."

Nima thought that Scout sounded oddly happy about that, all things considered, but Nima wouldn't blame Scout too much. "Possibly, but if so he's had centuries to learn not to show his frustration."

"Oh, he doesn't bother to hide it, sometimes," Scout admitted, with a wave of her arm. "But only when it's useful." Scout bit her lip and backtracked. "I don't mean it like that. But he seems to use everything about himself. It's kinda admirable, y'know? Very logistical… in a way."

Nima tried not to react to how much tripping over herself Scout was doing. "I guess I understand that. I think it comes with diplomacy." You and who you are is a weapon in a way that can get rather metaphorical. This was the wisdom of Jedi of ages past, at least, and Nima didn't want to contradict this without greater experience.

"Maybe it does," Scout said. She gave a shrug and added, "It's weird, or maybe not so weird, but we haven't talked about battle tactics even once so far. When I try, Yoda just changes the subject."

Another unsurprising act, all things considered. Of course, Nima understood that Scout probably just wanted to vent, and wasn't really that baffled. Nima nodded along, then, and Scout kept on talking.

"Either way, hopefully this goes well. I'm a little nervous, honestly, but I've made it through a lot worse than a planetary vacation."

******

Nima could reflect on how much she changed in that she would have found the theme song that was sung to each new visitor, produced by the planet itself, charming all of two years ago. Instead it was grating and it was quite annoying that it rhymed the name of the planet with itself. Nima listened to it once through, and then tried to forget it. But it was lodged in her lekku, itching them up and down with its rather pulseless beat.

So she tried to drown it out, as they entered the atmosphere and flew over what Nima was sure was landscape just as gorgeous, if not more so, than had been promised in the song. She was thinking about what Yoda would have her do.

******

It turned out that the first step was to stroll through a cheery village--town had been giving it too much justice--and see what people said. There was a spaceport the next village over, just large enough to park their vessel if they were willing to make it so that nobody else could arrive or leave. Besides that, they were remarkably isolated, the Holonet feeds incredibly slow. The village itself? There were cobblestones, thatched roofs, quaint circular windows, and more, which sort of summed much of it up.. It was a very earnest kind of village, and so Nima found herself unwinding a little. It wasn't like anyone here was singing that song, and the people were remarkably friendly.

A man in a green sweater and with rather large rubber boots walked up to her within a minute of entering the town, "Oh-yah, are you a visitor, a tourist? Just saw you walking about all confused-like, wanted to see if you were okay."

"I am. I'm just looking around," Nima said, with a smile. "I'm on something of a vacation, I guess."

"Oh-yah, I noticed."

She was dressed in an absolutely absurd hat, and a flowing dress that went down to her ankles and still somehow felt too short. It was supposed to be the style on the planet, but none of the other people she saw in the distance--all human--were dressed that way. "Oh? Do I stand out?"

"Oh-yah, it's the fashion around these parts… a few years ago," the man said, giving a silvery laugh, the kind that invited one to share in the joke. There was no obvious malice, and so Nima decided there was no harm in laughing along.

"Yeah, I'm from off planet." She glanced around, at the two-story buildings, with shingles that clearly were more for decoration than keeping anything out. It was all a very distinctive style, and one that she hadn't ever seen, not quite. "Just getting used to this place. I was wanting to know if there were any sights you really have to see. I'm asking for a friend." She was also asking because of the task they'd been given. They were supposed to not be discovered as Jedi this whole time. Nima was without any of her weapons, or her boots, and this all made her feel remarkably vulnerable.

Obviously, it wouldn't last if they saw Yoda, but the tasks and tests and… and the vacation itself, in fact, was meant to be about how one interacted with the world when one was at least trying to pretend to be someone else. Nima didn't know the details, though.

She could imagine the hubbub if they knew that a half-dozen Jedi were on their planet. Nima wondered what they thought about war and peace and death and violence and democracy and the rights of the people and economics and hope and despair and everything else she'd been living and breathing for months now.

It hardly seemed as if the war would ever touch them, or ever really want to. But the war wasn't a thing, some entity far off. They were touched by what happened beyond their planet, all the same.

"Oh, well, you're definitely a tourist. Oh-yah, there's the peaks, of course, and there's some interesting bit of forest to the south. And of course, Lovers' Bluff, nice place to take a walk, I suppose. Not anything that'd interest me, really. Oh-yah, sorry, I forgot, name's Kimu, Kimu Bachmann."

"I'm Nima," Nima said, sure that her name wouldn't have spread this far out. She'd thought about making up a name, but she thought it was pretty unnecessary. Also, Yoda had just told her not to with a wizened look as if it was some vital instruction.

"Ah, well, good to meet you, Nima. Is that a first name, or a last name, or a nickname…? Just asking, oh-yah." He said Nima slightly wrong, in a subtle way that had to do with how the last bit sounded: he said Nima like the end of Oh-yah, a phrase that she assumed was some sort of verbal tic, with how often he'd repeated it.

"It's my first name," Nima said.

"Then I'm glad to meet you, Honorable Nima, and I wish you many happy returns here, and elsewhere," Kimu said. "Though I do have to get going, unless there's anything else you need from me, miss."

"No, it's really kind of you to just talk to me out of nowhere," Nima said.

"Well, you looked like you had questions. Hope I'll see you around if you're in the area. I work at the local pharmacy, though I guess if there's not any sort of emergency, you wouldn't need to go in there." He shrugged his shoulders, a quick, casual little motion that revealed scars on his arms as the sleeves rode up. But it wasn't something to ask for. Regular people weren't busybodies into everyone's personal problems, or in this case complete lack thereof.

The scars looked old, at least.

"We'll see."

Nima hoped there was no reason to go there. She had her medications for the nightmares, she had made sure to stock up on all the necessities just in case. They were all back at their ship, though, which was supposedly a cruise yacht or something of the like. Nima Tyruti's job wasn't to do much more than convince a few people to get involved in what she was increasingly realizing were tests of understanding. Well, that was her guess at the list of different roles and types of people that Yoda wanted Scout to talk to. He was vague, though, as if it was a test for Nima as well.

'Look for a woman who helps others every day' could be much of the galaxy, in truth. 'Find someone who likes fishing' was at least a little better, but was Nima supposed to just go up and start a conversation about fishing?

******

In the end, Nima just went up and started a conversation about fishing at a family restaurant, asking whether any of the fish she got was from the area, and where people went to fish. Sure enough, a thickset human woman stood up and introduced herself. "So, if you wanna fish, yah, then the place to do it is up by the creek. There's not that much, and you can only take so much a year, but their fins are delicious. You should try some. I'm Margarettea, Margarettea Minhouzer."

"Oh, I should go there sometime. What are good fishing times?" Nima asked, leaning back in the booth she was in, looking at all the family photos on the walls. It was a little unnerving, and reminded her a little too much of her Mom and baby sister. Still, the place smelled rich, and she was pretty sure whatever meal she was going to wind up with was going to be delicious.

"Oh, well, I fish every Azfdei, you could always just visit, as long as you don't take my good spot."

Another down, check.

******

It was a little exhausting, being so clueless. A clueless tourist, it seemed, was something everyone was used to. As long as she smiled and apologized, rather than asking why their customs were different than they should be--something that apparently, against all common sense, had happened before--they tended to give her a lot of slack.

She'd been to plenty of planets, but she'd never felt like more of a tourist. At least it meant that the disguise was working, but she spent several days just talking to people, finding out schedules. Scout was stressed, Yoda was thoughtful, and Katarina kept on looking at Nima, like--

Nima didn't want to think about that part. It didn't quite make sense, and she didn't know if she wanted it to make sense. Still, it made her uncomfortably aware of herself. Scout was so focused and busy that she said little enough, and for once Nima didn't feel like making friends with any of the Jedi who were coming along. They all had their own tasks, and so it was an oddly solitary vacation.

It was relaxing, but it needed some variety. They stayed at the spaceport, and Yoda muttered and puttered around the ship.

On the fourth day, Scout went fishing. Nima was left behind, since it was her job more to set these things up, to talk to people and try to get to know them, than anything. Thus far all of her 'recruitment' had been more about learning what a person was going to do, and then figuring out how Scout could run into them.

Katarina had apparently gone jogging with Scout yesterday, at one of the meetings whose purpose Nima could not quite work out. Now both of them were 'resting.'

Which was to say, they had their lightsabers out, and were sparring across the hold. Nima didn't have her Rider's boots on, and she was still dressed in the running garb she'd worn when she went out. About the only thing of her regular life that she could really do on this strange vacation was her weightlifting and running, and so it was nice to have a chance to spar while she was at it. She would have asked Scout, earlier, but apparently Scout was not supposed to light her blade, whether in anger and play, for the entire set of lessons.

Katarina's blows were particularly sharp this time, in part because Nima had less in the way of room to maneuver. The hold was big, yes, but it was full of boxes and crates of unknown purpose. It reminded her a little--distressingly--of the battle at the speeder factory. Anakin dodging speeders, Nima chasing down Barriss Offee. But Katarina wasn't the sort to jump out at people. No, she advanced steadily, her intentions veiled in the specific but obvious in the abstract, and Nima could do nothing but retreat, try to slip to other directions for the attack, and found that none of them were the right one.

Katarina went straight for her, eyes rich and knowing, without any doubt or hesitation. Nima's heart was racing, just a little bit, when she finally backed off. It was mostly the exertion. Mostly. "Nima, I'd like to ask… could we go on a walk in the woods?" Katarina didn't hesitate, just looked curiously at Nima, watching her reaction.

"Oh, we could." Nima would have to bring a comm device, and potentially a stun-stick just in case the local wildlife were unusually aggressive. It'd be something of a day trip, to say the least, an hour or so by speeder.

So it had to be something that Katarina had planned. "Should we bring a snack?"

"I can make lunch," Katarina said. "I'll just need a little bit of time to prepare things."

Nima tried not to make assumptions. Katarina was just asking her to go on a hike in the woods with a picnic. That seemed pretty normal, didn't it? It felt a little like Katarina was asking her on a date, but she couldn't be doing that. Besides the obvious, Katarina didn't feel all that nervous, didn't feel scared. She felt confident and straightforward. Nima liked that, obviously, but she was pretty sure that people who asked others out on a date were either devil-may-care or nervous wrecks.

Nima, admittedly, had all of one date to actually compare it with.

It wasn't a date.

*****

By the Force, was it a date?

She was glad that Seluku and Baqqanid were not coming along. She'd not even talked to them about this, not wanting their advice when she was already stressing out far too much about this. She'd also had time to wonder just who was going to drive the speeder. But when she arrived at the loading back, Katarina was alone.

She was also dressed in a speeder pilot's jacket, and long-sleeves.

"Katarina, do you have a license?" Nima asked, a little incredulously. The speeder was one of the duller looking models, and it probably had a safe-flying mode for beginners that all but held one's hand in exchange for not being able to outfly anything at all. It was grey and brown, and had an open top.

"Yes. A trainee license. I should be fine if I use the guided system," Katarina said.

"Which guided system?" Nima asked, not sure how much she'd trust programming with her life, since she wasn't going with her Riders' boots.

"All the speeders on this planet have a setting for scenic transport," Katarina said, sounding as if she approved. "It's safe, effective, and rather slow. It'll be more like an hour and a half if we do it that way." Katarina smiled, and reached out in the Force, as if she was patting Nima on the shoulder, trying to be reassuring. "But that should be fine. There's a waystation before the forest if we need anything."

Nima nodded at that, and considered it. "Okay. We have warning beacons and everything else?" It wasn't that she was scared of anything here, she was a Jedi. But she'd be a Jedi without any of her weapons. They said that the Jedi themselves was their lightsaber, and that they didn't need it… but it still felt unsafe. But she trusted Katarina, and Katarina was the sort of person that one just felt safe around.

"Of course."

*****

It really was slow going, which allowed them to look at the majesty of the planet from a hundred feet up. They flew over fields and farmland, most of it operated by droids, the sun high in the sky and beating down on them. But there was enough of a breeze to keep it nice, and she turned to Katarina, who only had to focus so much. "This seems like a good idea, thank you for asking me."

"Setting things up reminds me of the labors that Gavarlkan outlined," Katarina said. If Hannah had said it, there might have been just a little bit of 'I'm so clever' to the reference, but Katarina said it so offhand it was clear she saw nothing of referencing a rather obscure Jedi philosopher. "I'm pretty sure that the will of Yoda is more confusing than the will of the Force could ever be." Katarina heard what she said, and added slightly flustered, "If you pardon the loose way of talking about the Force."

"No, it's okay," Nima said, soothingly. She wanted to reach out. She wanted to cup Katarina's chin, feel her jawline, she--

She was completely and thoroughly doomed.

"Right. So, the forest is supposed to be 'Intermediate Difficulty'," Katarina said, quietly. Now Nima thought she really was trying to distract both of them. "But there's supposed to be a nice clearing. They go out to it sometimes to pick mushrooms, actually."

"Do you think there would be any?" Nima asked.

"Not in season," Katarina said, frowning, and looking pinched, as if she wanted to look it up right then. In fact, since Nima could sense Katarina's emotions, she knew it was just that. "But it should be a nice place anyways, good for talking. There's something I'm… curious about." She took a breath.

"We can talk now," Nima said immediately, fidgeting slightly in her seat.

"You had a… date? What was it like?" There was a slight raise in her voice, a hitch, but one of eagerness, not Hannah's barely hidden dismay. "I have never been on a date, and I do not know if I could… be so brave."

"Brave? It wasn't all that brave," Nima said. "Someone else asked me."

"Oh, really?" Katarina gave a sort of shrug in the force. "Hannah told me that there was a date, but not with whom."

"Elize."

"Huh." Katarina looked over at Nima for a long moment, long enough for Nima to be glad that the autopilot was doing most of the driving, and then said. "This would make sense. She's energetic, and somewhat like a Rider, and very dedicated. Are you going to go on another date with her?"

"A part of me wants to, but there are… risks. We're Jedi, and I know what you're thinking," Nima said. "It's improper for a Jedi to engage in these kinds of things. I even agree." There was a risk, then, when you put yourself out that much, when you had to be expected to risk everything and hold back nothing. There were other risks, of course: dynasties were the last thing the Jedi Order wanted to encourage. But the fear made sense to Nima, she understood it. She already wondered whether she could keep from valuing Katarina, or Hannah, or for that matter Elize's life over those of others, if forced into the worst kind of choice.

"I do not know if you know what I am thinking," Katarina said, very quietly. There was for a moment an intense sort of shyness. "I do not know what I am thinking, and so it would be impressive indeed if you could tell me." She hesitated for a moment and added, "But if you can understand it, I do want to know."

"What… what are you uncertain about? You didn't feel uncertain, before," Nima said.

"I am certain that I'd like to eat lunch with you. You're my friend. But I do not understand, I suppose… Hannah mentioned something about a kiss."

"How much do you talk to Hannah?" Nima asked, a little surprised. "I didn't know she'd tell everything."

"She called me up. She wished to 'vent.'" Katarina didn't seem troubled by that. "But she was happy for you. As well."

As well as devastated, Katarina didn't have to say, because Nima knew. "I need to talk to her," Nima said. If only she knew what she was going to say. She tried to shift her focus back to Katarina. "What don't you understand?"

"You are a very good person," Katarina said, her bluntness almost charming. "I've said it before, but it is true." Katarina shook her head. "But I can't… when I look at you, or anyone else, I don't know what or where the 'attractiveness' is."

What? Nima didn't quite blink, because she was looking at Katarina. "Oh."

There was a long pause, where Nima bowed her head slightly as they drove along. She considered it from all sides. Was she just not attracted to people? If so, then…

She bit her lip, not sure what she was feeling but thinking that for some reason hope was part of it too. "Oh… I… that makes sense."

What vanity is that? Makes sense? Nima castigated herself, but Katarina was already moving on.

"And so I don't know what to… what to think about anything like that. It is not virtue not to do what you are not tempted to do," Katarina pointed out, nervousness finally showing up, as a smattering, like freckles on a face. "But it leaves me… uncertain."

Nima understood that much. "It leaves you, yourself. You can't choose who you're attracted to, or even whether you're attracted to people at all." She needed to do quite a bit more research on these things before she was sure of anything at all. She hoped they reached the forest soon, because this felt like something to say at a time when the wind wasn't whipping her lekku back just a little bit, flopping all around awkwardly.

"I can't be sure of anything," Katarina admitted. "That's why I'm doing this, to be more sure."

More sure of… what?

******

The forest was beautiful in the late morning sun, the light glinting off of the mixture of trees designed to keep it from being a single, simple biome. There were rises and dips, as the forest went up and down and around a series of hills, and the green of the trees contrasted beautifully with the bright fields of flowers to the south of the forest.

If Nima Tyruti was paying it any more than attention, she would have stared at it with wonder. Instead, she was reflecting on the simple fact that this in fact could be a date. Katarina clearly… something. She wanted to see something. She had asked Nima out to attempt to clarify something about herself. This was the only thing that made sense, which meant that… what? She looked out at the forest, not really seeing it, as Katarina parked in one of the designated places that speeders were allowed to park.

"Nima?"

"Yes!" Nima turned, eyes bright and a little feverish.

"Could you carry one of the baskets?" Katarina asked, her nervousness once again entirely absent, her smile soft and reassuring. Nima didn't want to think too much on how it made her feel, to see Katarina's long, thin face turn up into a smile. It was always an even smile, no quirk of the lips, the kind of smile that was steady and firm.

"I can." Nima unbuckled her seatbelt and stepped out of the speeder. "Apologies if I'm acting a little odd." She looked around the clearing, and then over towards the waystation, which she might want to just check out ahead of time. "So, I was wanting to ask you, what about your studies, lately?"

"Ah, philosophers?" Katarina asked, taking one of the baskets and passing the other to Nima, her movements even and easy. She and Nima were both used to heavier weights than this.

*****

The path was well marked, and winding, taking them up and down the hills. Nima walked more than this on any given day, and she didn't quite understand how this was not a beginners hike, honestly. Still, it was a lovely landscape. The animals--brown and fuzzy for the most part--darted and played around, having no real fear of humans or non-humans, though also no desire particularly to land on their shoulders or sing a cheery song of the forest to the two of them. They were living their lives, ones filled with desires and hopes of their own. It was neither as peaceful as it seemed, or as chaotic and endless a war as some would have believed it. She could feel the little minds, and hearts, of the animals all around, a rise and fall of the Living Force itself that she had to respond to.

She reached out with her senses, aware of the emotions but also the bodies of everything around her. That included Katarina, a fact that made her flush. She was painfully aware of the positioning of Katarina's hands. She had both hands on the basket, but Nima imagined reaching out and taking one of Katarina's hands, and just feeling the strong solidity of it, the reassurance that nothing would be wrong. "I think I'm improving, but it's hard to be sure," Nima admitted. "Some days I feel more in tune with the Force and violence than others. But they aren't the same thing." They could be for others. There were Jedi that never felt more in-tune with the Force then when listening to it and allowing it to guide them in battle. Katarina never felt a little bit out of place when she drew upon the Force to fight. She couldn't, if she was as skilled at following its flow…

"Understandable. The Force is the Force, but we are us," Katarina said. "You think these things through more than I do, because what you do has to involve that. The Force cannot simply give you the ability to speak another language, after all." Katarina nodded. "I can only speak seven languages well enough to get by, and only two well enough to have meaningful conversations."

"I could teach you," Nima offered, her mouth moving far faster than her brain. "What's your strongest non-Basic language?"

"Ryl," Katarina said.

Nima was going to need a long time to process that fact and remind herself that the odds of it having anything to do with her were somewhere approaching zero. She did not imagine what it'd sound like for Katarina to speak Nima's first language, to say something, perhaps something about love, in a language other than Basic.

"Right, we can help improve other languages, though Ryl's a very useful one," Nima said, her voice admirably even, in her opinion. "It's the second most spoken language in the galaxy." She didn't know why she was saying obvious, silly things. Katarina knew that.

"Oh, really?" Katarina asked.

Nima didn't know why Katarina was responding to them as if they were intelligent statements that even a child already knew. She shook her head. "But there's a few other useful languages, actually. For instance--"

That neutral topic took them over hill and across several turns and twists in the path, until at last they came to a wide open hill, not quite flat enough to be a plateau, but pretty close. It peeked up above a lot of the trees, allowing a vision of the open sky and the many clouds that were clustered in wispy bunches and clumps. "That makes sense," Katarina said. Neither of them were breathing heavy, though it was a brisk walk by most definitions. It was just enough to get their blood starting to flow, but not enough to really leave them panting. "I think that those languages would certainly be helpful, though the problem is finding time. Time is a mocker of all our plans and efforts, and yet we are the only ones to blame. We make plans, after all, knowing the conditions under which we operate."

It sounded like Katarina was paraphrasing something, and so Nima nodded as if she knew the quote and set down the basket. It hadn't rained all that recently, so the slope wasn't muddy. There was a bit of dew left from the morning, but it wasn't that bad, and she'd had far worse things on her pants than a little dew. Katarina, however, set down her own basket and opened it, withdrawing a huge red blanket that she laid down on the ground as she continued to talk, "So, best to plan ahead."

Nima wouldn't have thought about the dew in the fields, and she smiled as broadly as she could. "Huh," Nima said. "So, what do we have to eat? I didn't look in the baskets." She should have, but she'd wanted it to be a surprise.

"There are some soups that should heat themselves up," Katarina said. "Some munchfungus bread I bought from a local Twi'lek bakery, and some materials for creating sandwiches using either the munchfungus bread or other bread. Also some vegetables and fruits I thought we'd both like, and some desserts." She took the objects out as she said this, laying them out one by one, until there was quite a bounty spread before them. Nima Tyruti and Katarina were just two teenagers, but all things considered Nima was pretty sure that they could eat everything here, and be at most a little bit stuffed.

Katarina started by tapping the side of the soup container. It let off a fizzing sound, the little device inside heating it to hopefully acceptable temperatures. Then she began dividing out the fruits and vegetables, a rainbow of colors and shapes and textures. Nima snagged a few of her favorites, including the Affu-Fruit, orange-red and with a tangy rind. It was a particular favorite of her, but was basically never available at the old Temple. Among other things, it was toxic for eighty-six species, and while there were always foods that needed to be kept carefully separated for specific species, one that covered such a broad band, including Rodians and Mon Calamari, was not going to be served except on incredibly rare occasions. Besides, it didn't grow well on Coruscant, and so it would have already been a delicacy.

"How did you get all this?" Nima asked.

"I bought it. It was less expensive than I expected. I'd looked it up on other planets," Katarina confessed, finally, finally flushing a little bit in embarrassment, "But most everything cost half what it said it would. I don't know why."

The planet was somewhat centrally placed, could that be it? They actually talked around the economics for a full five minutes, which made it a most unusual not-date. But in the end they did not come to any sort of conclusion other than that credits were weird and shouldn't be trusted. By then Nima had constructed a sandwich, and was drinking the water and juice Katarina had also bought carefully. She didn't want to overhydrate, after all. Still, it felt just… normal being with Katarina like that.

There was no magic moment where it suddenly felt as if it was different than what they'd done plenty of times before. But at the same time, everything felt so perfect that Nima would never want to risk this. Perhaps that was the best reason not to even try to date her. Not if they could just spend their time together like this, regularly. Do this more often. Her heart raced at the thought, but she didn't know how to say it without sounding a little absurd.

About halfway through, Katarina said, quietly. "I do not know what I'd do if you died." She'd said it as if she was testing out the words, in the middle of a conversation about lightsaber forms, of all things. But she must have been thinking about it for a long, long time.

Nima's stomach fluttered. "I know. Remember our fight?"

"Yes. I think I would have hated myself if I had not made up with you," Katarina said, and this sounded like yet another revelation for Katarina. "It mattered that much. But…"

"But?"

"Shouldn't I be thinking about your lekku, or your lips, right now? If it's anything like that?"

"Not… necessarily," Nima said, feeling lost at sea, trying to navigate by nothing more than the stars above. Which was a problem, because right now it was a cloudy day in the height of this planet's summer, and so there wasn't a single star visible in the sky. "Attraction and love don't have to be connected."

"I don't know what love feels like, however," Katarina said in response, sounding more annoyed than Nima had heard her since… well, since their fight. "If I don't know, how can I be sure of anything. If I am not sure of anything, then where does that leave us?"

Fear opened up, so much fear that Nima didn't know how she didn't feel it before. It was the ocean beneath the both of them, the fact--the ebb, the tides, the waves--that both of them would need to navigate. Katarina's fear, and for that matter Nima's sharp fear, adding to it. In the Force the two could not be distinguished, they were too close to each other, physically and metaphysically. It was just there, and they would have to deal with it.

"Living one step at a time," Nima insisted, her voice even, as she watched Katarina. "You're scared, and I'm scared, and I don't know if we're both certain of anything. So, we can continue to do whatever between us we are doing… and whatever it means, we'll figure that out later." Her voice sounded firm, and for the first time in this definitely-actually-a-date it was Katarina who seemed a little taken aback by Nima's confidence, rather than the other way around. "So, why don't we eat dessert, and talk, and not worry about what it means until it matters. It might, someday, and hopefully when that happens… we'll have an answer."

Katarina looked at Nima as if she were… what? A revelation? It was hard to even define the emotions present, resting between them, unacknowledged but known by both. Just because you didn't say something, didn't mean that it couldn't be heard, when both the one who didn't 'speak' and the one who didn't 'hear' were Jedi.

"What's your answer, now?" Katarina asked.

"To be honest, I do not entirely know, but I do want to kiss you," Nima admitted. "I've wanted to for a while."

"Ah," Katarina said, quietly. "You… could if you wanted. On the cheek. No matter what we are, that's… not anything that would…" It would be more believable if they were both not blushing.

Nima tried not to melt. Nima scooted towards Katarina, aware that they were both entirely absurd to get worked up over a kiss on the cheek.

She leaned in, and her lips brushed Katarina's cheek, before she leaned in a little more, her whole body a bundle of nerves.

Katarina's cheek was smooth, and Nima pulled away only belatedly. "Huh," Nima said, her heart beating faster than it had in life or death situations. But fear was entirely absent.

******

Scout failed: she turned the meeting with the fisherwoman into a competition instead of realizing the value of patience. She wasn't able to understand the grieving widow's joy. She climbed the mountain from the wrong side, and there was a challenge involving an egg--apparently--that was so terrible it was not worth mentioning.

Scout succeeded: she befriended the fisherwoman, and got into a conversation about religion with the young priest without revealing herself as a Jedi. She went around with apologies after the egg incident, and if she didn't understand the value and usage of Afle-horn music, she'd nonetheless been able to learn it well enough to gain the appreciation of…

It really did sound silly out of context. Unfortunately, Nima didn't have the context. She heard about it secondhand, having done her part in this whole set of lessons on perseverance and patience but also the risks of overcautious behavior, and who knew what else. She'd kissed Katarina.

This was what filled far more of her thoughts than whether Scout was ever going to live down whatever it was with the egg. The sorta-kiss, and the walk back, hand in hand. The thoughts and feelings she couldn't quite describe: that strange liminal space between wherever they might be, and wherever they were.

Nima wasn't sure what to call it.

But the point was, whatever it was didn't need a name. Whatever it wasn't didn't need one either.

Unfortunately for her, things were about to get one step more complicated.


Meanwhile, though, what has Nima advanced? (Choose 1 Stunt)


[] A Kind of Genre (Academic Scholarship, Non-Scientific): Nima has learned how to parse, read, and translate academic scholarship. While she's especially keen on her areas of interest, she can at least understand even the basics of how scholarship in different fields works. This can help her understand anything given to read far faster, giving +2 all such rolls for comprehension, speed, and ability to convey the basic meaning of, say, a report.
[] Specialist (Diplomatics): Nima has gained, through her research, a decent basis of how to research, study, and understand the field of diplomatics. She gains +2 to all Lore rolls relating to that area of specialization.
[] Specialist (Economic Negotiations): Nima has gained, through her research, a decent basis of how to research, study, and understand the field of Diplomacy when it has to do with economics. She gains +2 to all Lore rolls relating to that area of specialization.
[] Specialist (Modern Music): Nima has become, through her extensive listening, a music snob… well, enthusiast with opinions. She gains +2 to all Lore rolls relating to that area of specialization.
[] Feel the Burn. Nima's exercise has taught her much about how to push herself just a little further than she was able to before, especially if it's to reach a goal. While she knows in a non-combat situation not to push it too far… if there's dangers she knows how to suck it up. Nima Tyruti gains an additional mild consequence slot that can only be used for physical harm or hardship (cuts, bruises, strained muscles.)
[] Like Real People Do: Nima has gotten a lot better at pretending to be a normal person, who isn't a Jedi, whether for a date or… well, for her job. She gains +1 to rolls involving trying to pretend to be a non-Jedi, though she cannot pretend to be anyone but herself, as it were.

******

A/N: Finally it has arrived! Just decided to throw it out there, maybe catch people while they're still settling in!
 
LXIII: Views, Part 4
LXIII: Views, Part 4

The galaxy circled onwards: she heard of war, and rumors of war, all of it swifty becoming a morass of names and faces, locations and offensives. She could tell they were not losing, but she saw enough to know that they weren't winning.

She also knew enough to say that three months ago they would have killed--did kill, in fact, in large numbers--to reach something that almost seemed like a stalemate. There were competing visions going on here, about how the galaxy worked. Could you give people more freedom, could you break the power of some of the largest corporations, could you improve work conditions, and by this increase how much the Outer Rim could produce for the war effort?

If they couldn't, then would it just be a repeat of the Clone Wars? The Core ramping up to even greater heights, and overwhelming and flooding the Rim?

She wasn't someone who cared about the economics behind any of it, but she understood the moral point that her Master, Jordyan Bell, wanted to make. Of course, he was away, and sent only brief, concerned messages to her.

She hadn't told him about Elize, or Katarina.

Nima Tyruti did not know what she'd tell him, honestly? She just worried at the problem like it was a loose tooth, a very human metaphor considering that Twi'lek teeth had to go through a lot more than human ones to get wrecked. Human teeth were particularly vulnerable, though she knew there were species that had even greater problems. But everything, in a way, came back down to those comparisons, when humans were the most common, and Twi'leks the second most common. Nima wondered, when she was not thinking of what to tell him, what it said about her that the two people she'd been on dates with were human.

She thought it was their personalities that had… okay, say it: attracted her. But once she was away from Katarina and Elize, it was harder to feel their emotions and be sure that's why it was. It was just a trick her brain was playing on her, a twist of psychological vulnerability that Nima should pay no attention to.

That was, however, not how the sentient mind worked.

So she worried over that at least as much, if not more, than the political situation. The war continued, and as long as it continued it could be turned around, for better or worse. So she had to try her hardest. She heard news about chaos in Hutt Space, Jedi-allied Orders starting to get more involved, and still no sign of Anakin at all. Where was he? Why did she care where he was, anyways?

(A habit of people who think too much about their emotions: they ask themselves questions they know the answers to, even though they know that asking it again will just hurt them again, just a little bit. Self-knowledge is necessary as a Jedi, but then so is the ability to feel pain, since without it one cannot judge when they've been hurt. It didn't mean she had to like that about herself.

Disliking it about herself, and yet also liking what it brought was just another part of herself.)

She sighed. It was a slightly dramatic sigh, but she was in a slightly dramatic mood. She'd been seconded on a mission of 'cultural exchange' at the last minute. She'd been planning on talking to the Jedi Council about her next assignment, only to get pulled from it.

If she had been given anything to study at all, that would have been better.

Instead, she'd been told just to keep an open mind and understand the value of societal outreach. Her lekku twitched at the phrasing, which sounded less like something a Jedi would do and more something a bureaucrat would.

If they wanted her to make friends with other sentients, they should just say it. Or call it a diplomatic mission. Outreach was vague to the point of absurdity.

Nima was not annoyed, she was just expressing very real concerns about the scope of the mission.

...okay, she was annoyed.

She sat up on her bed, an all-white luxury that she didn't need and which was too soft besides. Nima sank into it when she tried to sleep, and it was too warm. In truth, anything would have annoyed her at that moment. So she tried to meditate, but if she did it on the bed, that'd just lead to her trapped in its endless expense. But the floor had dark carpeting all over, well over ankle height. So meditating on it would feel strange.

So.

This was her mindset at the moment her datapad chimed.

So she didn't hurry to answer it, instead padding over barefoot and trying to take deep breaths.

Oh, it was Hannah.

Nima wanted to be in a good mood for Hannah, she really did. So she took another few deep, calming breaths, and pushed 'accept.'

"Good afternoon, Nima, or whenever it is where you are. I hope I haven't woken you up. You took a minute to answer," Hannah said. Her hair was up in a braid, and she looked like she was wearing some form of makeup. It was subtle, but her eyes looked just a little larger than they should, and her lips slightly glossier. Was she at a party?

In the background, Nima could see what looked like a bed… which answered that, didn't it?

"Yes, I had to escape my bed," Nima said. "It's too big, and soft." Nima gave her best practiced smile, aware of the value of deflecting with humor.

Hannah rolled her eyes. "And you hate it, don't you? Sorry, I didn't get to choose which room you got put on, but I'll have to talk with the manager."

"Of course you didn't," Nima said, "But talking to the manager would probably terrify them."

"Me, terrifying?" Hannah asked, with a toss of her head.

Nima's eyes didn't stray to Hannah's jaw. She didn't think about what it'd be like to kiss those slightly glossy lips. "You are very terrifying when you want to be. Which isn't now." Which didn't keep her from scaring Nima, of course. Nima was nervous and anxious about everything regarding their relationship together, whatever that meant and whatever it would mean. The idea of just… letting go was hard. But the repartee helped.

"I'll accept it," Hannah said. "I'm no 'you' though. There's a limit to how scary I can be."

"Me, terrifying?" Nima echoed, her bad mood finally starting to dissipate, her shoulders relaxing just a little bit. The room felt just a little less oppressive. She'd wished that Katarina was here, but Hannah helped, too. In a very different way.

"You're very terrifying, but only when you don't want to be. Which is now," Hannah said, with a playful wink.

"Right, so what are you up to?"

"Oh, I just happened to be on Vali-Oh, and wanted to check in with you," Hannah said, sounding exactly as smug as Nima could stand and no more.

Vali-Oh was the name of the planet she was going to, a fact that didn't really help when it was just another heavily industrialized human colony world at the edge of the Mid Rim.

"Why are you on Vali-Oh?"

"You see, there's this cultural exchange program, meant to help raise funds and increase the profile of the Jedi synergistically through leveraged assets, that are nonetheless deployed holistically to maximize satisfaction." Hannah said all of it with a straight face.

Nima winced, "Please, don't, not even as a joke."

"Okay, okay, but I am at Vali-Oh, and it definitely is about the outreach thing, too. I wouldn't lie to you about that," Hannah admitted. "Well, I wouldn't keep on lying to you past whenever the joke stopped being funny."

"Honesty becomes you," Nima said.

"Oh, really, does it?" Hannah shook her head. "Either way, I think we both have the same mission. I couldn't have ever predicted it, but… it certainly does seem like it'll be an interesting one."

"What is it?" Nima asked, suspiciously. "Is it about the toys?"

"Oh, well, there's going to be talk about that as well, but really that will happen on its own. I'll buy a toy of you that sings and dances one of these days. Or something like that." Hannah shook her head, frowning. "It's not as if we have that much control over our image. I think there are rules about using them, but none of us are going to go around giving cease and desists from our lawyers, are we?" Hannah shook her head. "There's a big untapped market of useless nonsense based on Jedi. Of course, any market's somewhat silly… but it could at least draw attention to the… cause. Maybe? I don't even know for sure. But if I was an impressionable young Twi'lek looking for a role model, a poster of Aayla Secura would probably be cooler than a lot of things. And a Rider Nima action figure… well, that'd just be cool."

Hannah said it all with a faint flush, and Nima was just a little bit glad that she couldn't scan brains and emotions through a datapad connection.

"Maybe it would be. Master Secura is pretty inspiring," Nima admitted. "But, what does that do with us? Nobody knows what the Riders are."

"Yet. They don't know yet. But… you know, I did have a thought." Hannah bit her lip, and then apparently decided against it. "Actually, I'll tell you later, it's not really that important. What is important is that you'll be here in just a few hours."

"Yes, I will be," Nima admitted, then she frowned. "I didn't ask about you: besides being on Vali-Oh, how have things been?"

"They've been better, they've been worse," Hannah said, with a distracted shake of her head. "Really, not that much has changed since we last got to talk. I know you went with Katarina on that retreat. And Scout, of course. How is Scout, anyways?"

"She's doing pretty well," Nima said. "Well, a little annoyed at failing the upside down baking challenge."

"The… what now?" Hannah asked, eyes narrowed and looking as if she was about to accuse Nima of lying. "You know what, nevermind. I don't think I want to know, and I don't know if you want to know either. I think this is a case where the philosophical principle of 'not my problem' is very relevant."

"The philosophical principle of… not my problem?" Nima asked, raising an eyebrow despite not having an eyebrow to raise. The perils of being around humans far too much. Eyebrows struck Nima as incredibly strange, honestly.

"Well, it has other names, but it's an entire trend in philosophy. Well, and politics, but that's something else. It's usually not an actual principle then, compared to 'it is my problem, and I should make it worse' or 'the Trade Federation market will make the best decision.' But philosophically, there's what's called the 'limit of action' that some advocate for. Or the principle of 'stuff happens.' I've been reading this author who makes fun of all the philosophy I read," Hannah said. "Kinda… not that meanspirited, but sorta…"

She trailed off.

"Pointing out the silliness?" Nima guessed.

"Yeah, exactly. It's been a fun side-read. It's really helped to distract me from my nerves on my last mission." Hannah added, quickly. "Which wasn't that interesting, and so I should probably go soon. I just wanted to check in with you, see if you were okay."

Nima didn't know whether Katarina had told Hannah about… whatever it was that was or wasn't between them. She didn't understand it, and she certainly didn't know where she was going with it. Were they stuck in a rut?

She hadn't seen Katarina since: it was only four days after she'd gotten back to the Temple that she'd been dragged out here, for whatever reason. But if Hannah was going to be there, it couldn't be that bad, could it?

She just had to get through it and figure out what they really wanted of her.

******

Vali-Oh was a little too much like Coruscant. Its cities were not quite as dominating, but it had a dozen or so layers to them, like a less horrid Coruscant. Still, at the bottom there were supposedly very few decent sources of food, and quite a lot of waste, garbage dumps, and misery. It was best not to go that far down, not if you had any sense.

It was a little less grand at the top than Coruscant, too. The buildings looked nice, and included plenty of tall spires and office buildings, but it did not have an entire layer just for the Senate and other galactic elites. Instead, the top layer was lived in by more than just a fraction of a fraction. When the shuttle came closer, she could see that greens and blues were more prominent in the buildings than on Coruscant. That was something, at least, and she looked over it with narrowed eyes. At least the gleam of it didn't blind her, as she felt the teeming emotions down below. She was reaching out in the Force, and that meant she felt their minds, like so many hands reaching up into the sky and just barely grazing her.

She couldn't tell what the people down below were feeling, because they were not 'the people down below.' They were just sentients, mostly but not all human. Somewhere down there was Hannah, but even she couldn't feel out Hannah's mind like that. Not unless she was really looking, really drawing on the bond between her and Hannah, the one that also existed between her and Katarina, and in different ways from other friends of hers.

There were many names for these relationships, just as there were many ways she could describe the city below.

But she kept on circling back around to how much like Coruscant it was. Just looking at it made her shudder, and think of those desperate hours when she'd fallen apart. It brought her back there, into the icy pool of her own doubts and fears, to where she'd been once--

She closed her eyes against it, but she could not close her feelings. She remembered it, pictured suddenly the green towers toppling from Star Destroyer blasts far above, pictured the voices crying out in agony, only to be suddenly silenced, and was not able to figure out what it was about the planet that affected her so.

She opened her eyes again, and suddenly she was back in the world as it was, not Coruscant at all. It wasn't even that similar: there were actual parks, here and there, that looked like they weren't only the preserve of the most powerful people… though they did look too nice to be used generally.

No, this planet wasn't Coruscant, but it wasn't Empress Teta. It stretched and turned in on itself, the buildings seeming to close in as they flew to the spaceport.

It was the kind of planet you forgot, if you didn't live there. But she knew that just meant she was missing something.

*******

The first sign that something was wrong was when she strode out of the shuttle and saw a crowd of sentients watching her near the gates. They pointed and whispered, men and women, humans, Twi'leks, Sullustans and a Bothan. They looked older than Nima, but not that much older, late teens, people in their twenties, all staring at her.

She could feel their attention, their excitement, and she wasn't sure what it all meant, except that their clothing seemed oddly familiar. It was bright and colorful, but the angles and cuts of the clothing revealed more of their bodies than usual, and made them seem just a little bit futuristic, in a way.

She could feel her name being said from the burble of emotions coalescing time and again in a sort of call and response, as if their minds were saying: Nima? Nima.

She almost wanted to go talk to them, but instead she walked on by. The spaceport itself had huge white tile floors, and a transparisteel ceiling that let the light in, and in fact amplified it just a little , so that the rays seemed to make the floor itself sparkle. It was one of those little details that one didn't notice after the first or second time seeing them, but were impossible to ignore the first time they came up.

Despite what it felt like, she was not alone with them. She had her datapad in her hand, and a bag over her shoulder, and as she walked forward, so did plenty of other passengers, getting off from other shuttles. Hers was a private one, but it still docked in the public space, which meant that crowds of sentients should have drawn attention away from her.

She heard a ping and looked down, only to see that it had lit up with a message from Hannah:

'Level 1: The Cultists.'

Huh?

She kept on walking forward, and realized something… the people, the crowd that was looking at her, was right next to where she had to go if she wanted to leave the building.

'I'm sorry, I didn't think there'd be this many. I didn't know if you wanted to show up in an 'elite' spaceport.'

Ah, right. Nima decided to just keep on walking, holding her datapad in one hand. Her boots drew attention to her, since they gave metallic clunks as she walked.

"Is that her?"

"Has to be… you talk to her."

"Just because I'm a Twi'lek? That's bigoted… your mother's the therapist!"

"Fine I'll--"

Nima tried not to react. They knew who she was, and that she was a Mind Healer. How?

"Miss, Miss? Are you Nima Tyruti?"

She would have suspected an assassination if she felt even a hint of malice. But there was nothing, their hearts were as clear as spring water, and gushed forth with excitement.

Ping 'Don't answer, keep on walking.'

"Yes?" Nima stated, though it sounded like a question in her own head.

"It's nice to meet you," one of the girls said, a little awkwardly. "So you're a Jedi? Have you known them for--"

"Don't ask about it, it's supposed to be a surprise!" the red Twi'lek man said, elbowing his friend. "Apologies that they're such jerks, we just… want to see you. Since… well, anyways. It's good to see you, and we should get going and--"

"Is it true you can walk on walls?" the Bothan woman asked, her eyes wide and eager.

"Is it true you've beaten a thousand droids?" a human woman with spiky green hair asked.

"Yes… and no," Nima said.

Ping. 'Are you moving on?'

"You can walk on walls?! I thought that was, like, a lyrical metaphor…" one of them muttered.

Nima stepped forward, and they actually politely shifted aside, watching her as if she was an exhibit at the zoo, but one that demanded quiet and respect. She was no such thing.

So as they muttered to themselves, she sped up...

******

She was not running by this point, but her feet almost blurred a little bit as she walked forward, face red. What was any of that about? She didn't want to know, and it left her distracted, sentients swarming all around her on the way to their own destination. None of them paid her any mind, despite her strange clothing. Even the Jedi robe didn't get as much attention as she feared.

Until, suddenly, it did. Near the entrance were a half-dozen holovid reporters, half-hunched together, each of them with a holocam crew.

"We're live at the most important development in the News That Matters, and … is that her?" a dark-haired, grey-skinned human woman said, her voice a little high and squeaky as she turned towards Nima.

Ping 'Level Two: The Reporters. Run.'

Nima almost growled, but instead she just kept on walking forward. If she ran, they'd smell blood and eat her alive. She thought. They all looked a little crazed, their hearts beating even faster, their eyes wide, but it was less pure. They thought they would get something out of her, something that would be worthwhile. Somehow, she was part of their news, and if she said anything to them, it'd be a scoop. So she kept on walking…

And then a big, thickset Rodian man stepped in front of her. "Hello, little girl. Are you Nima Tyruti? What can you tell me about anyone you know? What's your favorite food? Do you have any crushes, do you--"

Spit flew as he spoke, and she decided that no, actually Hannah knew best, because at the moment Nima's patience was exactly none. She slipped by him, and when he reached out she sped up.

The others started yelling other questions, loud and insistent as she turned and started to jog away from them. A few jogged after her, able to keep up, but most of them seemed more baffled and hurt than ready to chase her down. She could feel them, confused, as if she'd done something unusual. Then there was the hurt, the sting like she had slapped them.

Everyone was staring at her, thanks to her speed, but she just kept on going. Ping! No time for that, yet, She reached the big, transparisteel doors, and threw them open, stepping out into the midday sun, and then headed down the ramps towards where the speeders would be, before checking her messages.

'Alright, the speeder should be here. Big, and black.'

A stretch speeder was pulling up, about the length of four speeders put together, and wider than the average speeder as well. It was all black, with dark-tinted, one way windows, and when the door opened, there was Hannah.

Behind her, she could sense that a few of the people who'd been chasing her had made it outside, and were coming down the ramp.

So, without looking back, Nima leapt into the car, and into Hannah's arms.

*****

"I am very, very, very, very, very sorry," Hannah said, looking absolutely terrified of Nima as she hugged her tight. The stretch-speeder was impressive indeed, with velvet plush seats and what looked like a drink bar just sitting nearby, as well as a projector for holovids. It was not the kind of place that a Jedi should feel comfortable in, but after the last few minutes, she just sank into the seats and into Hannah's hug, both equally comforting, and tried to think things through.

"Were those celebrity reporters?" Nima asked.

"Well, I don't think any of them were celebrities," Hannah said, even though it was definitely not the time. She seemed to realize it. "Sorry, I'm just messing everything up, now. But… I promise this next part won't be nearly as bad."

"I'm meeting with some kind of celebrity?" Nima guessed.

"Yes, something like that. We are. It's for planning some outreach events, as I said," Hannah added. "Also, don't bother to check the drink bar. There was only one juice, and I drank it already, sorry. The rest seems to be… alcohol. Which we're both way too young for."

"Of course," Nima said. "You didn't save any of the juice?"

"Well, I saved a bit of it, but…" she gestured over to the bottle, which was clearly opened and half-empty. "If you want, you could, but… we could just wait until we get there."

She gestured towards the blank screen between them and the rest of the speeder. "The driver's up there, and my germs are on it. I only realized it was the only one halfway through, so I stopped."

"I'll drink it. You're a human, anyways," Nima pointed out. "Half of it doesn't even register."

"Right, right. Cool… yes. So, as I said," Hannah said, pulling away from the hug at last to settle back in. "I'm sorry for all of that, but there was a leak. Someone sent a message on the personal newsfeed about it, and then everyone caught wind of it… it's a mess. But they were probably just excited."

"Newsfeed?" Nima asked, reaching over for her datapad.

"No, don't! It's still a surprise, maybe. Not entirely one, but at least a little bit of a surprise. A piece of surprise," Hannah said. "I've… I wanted to do this if I could, help you with this. And so I'm going to be going along for the mission."

Hannah's heart was racing, and she didn't seem at all comforted, as Nima reached across to grab the juice drink and gulp it down. It was sweet and rich, with just a little bit of honey and berry notes, on top of the tropical fruit that made up the majority of what was in the drink. "Ahh," Nima said, and ignored the way that Hannah's eyes were now glued to her lips. "I assume I have juice on my lips?"

"Yes… yes. You do," Hannah said. "That's… why I was looking."

Nima wondered whether Hannah would be able to be honest with Nima about this. It was good to see Hannah again, this time in person. She smelled like Nima remembered, the faint scent of soap and floral perfume, just lightly applied enough to hint at the possibility, just like Hannah's makeup.

Twi'leks didn't traditionally wear makeup of that kind, and so Nima spent a lot of time looking at Hannah's face to see what exactly she was actually wearing.

Force, they were both hopeless, Nima thought. She was supposed to be more sociable than that, but instead she was kinda just stuck in a limbo. "So, where are we going?"

"A meeting place," Hannah said, gesturing outside. Speeders blurred past, as did the buildings, and none of them were really recognizable. They certainly weren't diving down into the bad part of the planet, or at least the kind of part people would call the bad parts.

"Right," Nima said. "Very descriptive." She finished off the bottle and set it aside, feeling Hannah's nervousness, which was too infectious, which seemed to leave her unable quite to be sure of an end; she bit her lip and fidgeted and could not settle down at all.

There was one sure solution: honesty. "Hannah, can you please tell me what we're doing?"

"We're meeting with a celebrity who wants to thank you for what you did on Ryloth, and who also wants to set up a charity drive to donate to the cause of the Coalition," Hannah said.

Was that so hard?

******

Nima should have seen it coming.

Yes, it was that hard. Because Hannah didn't say who the celebrity was, and Nima hadn't bothered to ask. Why would it ever even matter, after all?

But when they arrived at the hotel--and that's clearly what it was, dozens and dozens of windows along a building, a garage for the speeders… and of course, a rather discreet sign that she only noticed once she started looking, which said 'The Gardens.'

She was let out by a tall human dressed in a red full-body suit, a single long piece of cloth that left him a little bit shapeless. He had a white neckerchief that drew attention towards his slightly less shapeless torso. The man gave a sort of half-bow and stepped aside. "Thank you for using our taxi service, honored guests. They should be just in the other room." He gestured towards the door out of the garage, into the back way. "They haven't been waiting long, so if there is anything you need, you could ask. There's facilities over there, if you feel the need to freshen up, and if you want to eat…"

"No, thank you," Nima said stepping forward. There were a half-dozen speeders around, but nobody else. "Were you our driver?"

"Yes, I was. I hope it was a pleasant ride."

"It was, though I know I kind of just leapt in," she said, suddenly feeling self-conscious.

"I've seen worse from celebrities dodging the scandal reporters for the third-rate news programs," the man said. "Happy to have driven a Jedi somewhere."

He held out a hand, and Nima shook it, politely but firmly. After a moment and an aside glance, so did Hannah, who felt a little impatient, her emotions buzzing, her attention straying to the door. Whatever was behind the door was something she really, really wanted Nima to see. Nima concluded that this had to be good, or else it wouldn't be such a bright, happy sort of thought. But what was it?

When they opened the door, they entered a small, brown room. Low ceiling, gaudy decorations, just a pit stop on the way to somewhere more important. But standing right there in front of them were six sentients. A male Bith, a female Twi'lek, two humans males, one human female, a Zeltese enby… but that wasn't what drew her attention. Their garb did. They were dressed in long, flowing black and white clothing, just a little bit unreal, just a little bit too tight and exposing just a bit too much, as if they were ancient holographs from an era before color transmitted well, and not even as an aesthetic choice.

And the hair, a huge, unruly mass of it, on the head of the darker skinned of the two human males.

Nima slowly, almost sleepily blinked.

She knew that mop of head, anywhere. In fact, she knew all six of the sentients standing in front of her, a little like they'd all been posing and waiting for her. Of course she knew them. They were just one of the best bands in the entire known galaxy, hands down, objectively speaking.

'The Kloo Horn Experience: The Sequel' was perhaps the most bizarrely named band with dozens of popular hits over the last few years. One of their members was indeed a Bith, but it was apparently a reference to some sort of moment of their lives together as friends, or whatever else they were to each other. Nima didn't question it, she just enjoyed the music, which always seemed to have a sort of hasty depth to it, like a genius answering trivia questions in a lightning round of a gameshow. It was not the kind of music you listened to when you were falling asleep. Even when it was sleepy, it was a little more like a nightmare you never want to wake up from, because in the nightmare, the galaxy actually makes a diabolic sort of sense.

Nima was definitely not obsessed with their music. She was just an appreciator of obvious quality, and there were few more obvious works of quality than their third album 'Time Until IMplosion.' It was about their personal relationships, but also about the Republic, democracy, and parties. She thought? There were lyrics, sometimes, but they didn't always make sense, and didn't always matter as much as the music and sound-effects.

Hannah was practically vibrating in place.

The band member that she knew as Rox, the dark-skinned human man with a pierced lip and white-gold eyes, perhaps not exactly natural, stepped forward. "I'm so, so, so very sorry, Ms. Tyruti. I didn't mean to send out any sort of message. I accidentally sent a message meant for the other members of the band to the feed…"

"Which led to a bogus amount of press," the woman, Hara, said. She had hair roughly the color of fire, which was to say a half-dozen different shades of red, gold, yellow, and orange all mixed together, and dozens of piercings, even counting the ones simply visible. Her skin was roughly the color of flimsiplast, and she moved with all the grace of a dancer. "Yet you're here. So, Maddy had something to say."

'Maddy' was the red-brown Twi'lek with the dark spots on her lekku, a little like the purple stripes and waves on Nima's lekku. She was dressed in the most revealing version of their already revealing garb, and moved with a grace and comfort that left Nima speechless, and would have even if 'Maddy' wasn't the best vocalist of the band, and the one who helped arrange the electronic bits of the sound. "Hey, you know, my cousin is a friend of the sister of someone who is friends with Flek'varnun." She spoke in heavily accented Ryl, too accented for her to have been born on Ryloth.

Nima's mind instantly conjured the very supportive husband of one of her Rider trainees. "Oh, really?"

"So we heard a lot about how much you were doing for the women of Ryloth, or at least for a few women. The opportunities you were providing. He practically talked my ear off: Diaspora Politics, y'know, always the worst."

"They're not that bad," Hara shouted. "Really, they're sorta radical! In both meanings!"

Oh, so apparently at least one human here could understand Ryl, that was good. Well, plus Hannah.

"I'm a little disconnected from the diaspora," Nima admitted. "I just try to… live the way I think fits?" She didn't know how to say that what she kept that was 'Twi'lek' was a grab bag, rather than a deep cultural heritage. Ryloth had felt so unfamiliar to her.

"Well, there's the Diaspora for you. Any Diaspora!" the Zeltron enby, Valley, said. Their smile was wide and even a bit smug, and they were the one who wrote some of the most experimental lyrics, and sung on the darkest, most bottom-of-a-mineshaft songs. They were the kinds of songs Nima could only listen to once a day lest they drag her down into the darkness. "It's really good to meet you. You're a real life hero, and we're all glad that you took time out of your busy schedule. Oh, and Ms. Ignes, thank you for helping to arrange it. You're a Jedi as well."

Hannah smirked. "Not quite as much of a hero as the one over there, but I'm working on it."

"Right, right," the Bith, G'arvis--another fake name, probably--said. "There's something else too, Nima. The idea the record label had was that we'd go out to eat, talk a little, figure out how we can work together to support the Coalition… and I believe that it was discussed that many in the band want to see a Rider in action. We have heard about 'The Rider' and I happened to read an article--"

"I read it too," Quen said, the second of the two human males, with skin a sort of silver-brown and hair sticking straight up in a white updo. "We all did, once you insisted, G'arvis."

Jee-Arvis, it was pronounced like.

"I insisted for a reason," G'arvis said. "Doesn't that all sound like the topic of a song? Freedom, power, liberation? It is undoubtedly a most excellent--"

"Why are you talking like that?" Maddy asked.

"There's a child present. One must improve one's elocution and respectful manner of address in the presence of a child--"

"I have a nephew," Rox pointed out. "That's the same age. Just because she's a Jedi doesn't mean she's on some different plane of existence from everyone else. Though… the fact that she can probably feel how nervous we all are is pretty cool."

"You get used to it," Hannah said, her voice dry as Tatooine itself.

Nima could indeed feel the churn of their emotions, even if she didn't know all of them well enough to read them.

"I can do that, too," Valley said. "And none of you hear me complaining about all the stupid emotions I have to deal with all the time." They rolled their eyes dramatically, and held out a hand to Nima. "So, we're comrades in Empathy, and possibly also comrades in being comrades."

Nima moved to shake it, only for Valley to slap her hand. "Up high!"

Oh. Nima awkwardly returned the 'up high' and 'down low' feeling increasingly uncool in front of perhaps the coolest musicians ever. Hannah was there by her, and it all did sound good, really.

"I'd be happy to show off a little Rider stuff, or talk about it… or you could talk to the ghosts."

"You have ghosts?! Real ghosts?" Quen asked, with an eager grin.

"I want to see if you can walk on the ceiling," Maddy said. "I was told you can! Not saying my cousin would ever lie, but he heard it thirdhand, so…"

"I can do that," Nima said, glancing over at Hannah. A lot was becoming very, very clear, and yet there was a veil before Hannah's thoughts, as if she was afraid, as if she didn't want to be seen head-on. Nima, affecting an air of casualness that wasn't necessary--because it wasn't a big deal anyways--did a flip and leapt at the same time, landing on the ceiling in a single smooth motion.

Her lekku hung down as the band members goggled, impressed by something far less amazing than their music, and she gave an upside-side grin to Hannah.

You could just ask me, you know. You could just admit it.

Hannah heard her, and thought back: Admit… what?

Oh, is that how it was going to be? As if this was not clearly an attempt at a date?

Nima, feeling cockier than she had in her life, decided that if that was how it was going to be, then she had no choice but to give it her all to get Hannah to admit it. No more doubts--or at least, she'd try to push through them--just truth.

******

A/N: So, somehow this has become the Date Arc.

Don't look at me, I just write the Quest.

This is kinda a 'TBC' moment, so the next update will come as it does. Oh, and should update the character sheet, will do so in a sec.
 
LXIV: Views, Part 5
LXIV: Views, Part 5

It was easier to say something, of course, then to do it. Nima was not especially awkward at socializing, but she was a little awkward in the way everyone was: her feelings got in the way of her work, and so there was a divide between diplomacy and dating. For one, even though it was definitely a date, it was also a publicity event and a chance to get to know some of her musical heroes. Their albums were great, and she wanted to know how G'arvis had gotten the idea for some of the music. She wasn't a genius when it came to music, but she was an enthusiastic amateur.

She was also, honestly, a little…

Okay, she was a lot terrified of coming off as a stupid fangirl kid to the band. She knew she was already a lost cause when, as she hung upside down, she glanced not just at Hannah, but at all of the rest, waiting to see what they thought.

They were suitably impressed, yes, but it was just basic acrobatics.

"You were a blur," Valley said. "A very inspiring blur, actually. We can use that, we really can."

"Use… that?" Nima asked, blinking a little, as she hung above them.

"Well, like we said, we were thinking of making a song inspired by you. Well, by the Riders. And so the blur, it could be a way of portraying the sound that cannot be sounded…" G'arvis said, expansively. "You're fast, and the music would need to be fast. But it needs to flow, obviously. Perhaps we could use some light inspiration from, say, chase scenes…" Quen began.

"Oh, please," Maddy said. "Holovid orchestral scores?" She shook her head, lekku conveying to Nima that he 'got like this' a lot. Which was a very specific sort of message, and one that Nima didn't entirely understand.

"Some of us aren't snobs," Rox said, but Nima could have picked up on the teasing tone, even if she hadn't been a Jedi. "We like what we like, and we put on our pants two legs at a time."

"Skirts are much better," Maddy said, with a roll of her eyes, looking up at Nima. "It must be nice, being able to see things upside down."

"It gives you perspective," Hera pointed out, gesturing curtly. "Of course, I'm not the one who sometimes turns myself literally upside down and figuratively inside out.

"Don't talk about that in front of a child," Maddy said, eyes bulging a little bit.

Nima did not want to know. She really, really didn't. She looked over at Hannah, who still hadn't really replied to all that Nima had thought at her. Hannah was the one dressed like she was going to an important meeting with a famous band, complete with an oceanic theme that seemed to draw on colors that complicated Nima's own. That theme drew attention to her, as elaborate as it was. It looked a little uncomfortable, honestly, a bit stiff in places… but how had she even gotten all of that? The outfit, and especially the halter, looked somewhere between very cool, very cute, and very overplanned and overdramatic. So, very Hannah. But the others were paying far more attention to Nima, despite all of that. She seemed content just to watch, but she should talk, like Nima was trying to.

She wasn't any less than Nima, or Katarina, or any other Jedi Padawan. But she wasn't the one they'd come here to see. Nima didn't know how to change that. She couldn't do anything to convince them to treat Hannah more seriously, and yet she couldn't let that be seen at all. Not now.

"So, I believe… the plan," Hannah began, and almost seemed to shrink when seven sets of eyes found her. She glanced over at Nima, seeming to take strength from Nima's emotions and her presence. "Yes, the plan was to talk, and then if she wanted to show off the Riding, and then dinner? Sorry, I'm partially in charge of, uh, making sure that everything works together." She gave her bravest smile and said. "Coordination is key."

"I guess, but isn't that a little bit boring?" Valley asked. "We could mix it up if we wanted!" They gave their winningest smile. "We have to do all of that, but do we have to do it in that order? For instance, we could snack soon, I'm sure everyone's a lil' hungry, no?" Their voice was just a little bit diminutive when they looked at Nima and Hannah.

...it was true that Nima could use something to eat.

Hannah sensed this, or perhaps just guessed it. "Snack and talk, maybe?" Hannah asked, shaking her head, her sea-colored hair flowing as she did, fading a little in a way that had to be from dye. "The hotel should have plenty of food for that."

"Their munchfungus isn't that good," Maddy complained. "A little too much fungus, and not enough munch, I say."

Nima blinked, and said, "Oh? So it's a little doughy?"

"Basically," Maddy said, with a flip of her lekku as if she were flipping her hair. "It's to be expected, really. Everyone tries to make it like the 'old planet' and they miss what's interesting about it."

"Oh, oh gods I beg of you," Rox said, dramatically lowering himself to his knees. "Let us not spend two hours talking about Maddy's baking hobby."

"You make your own munchfungus?" Nima asked, eyes wide, still hanging upside down. When she thought that Maddy couldn't be any cooler than she was, as a member of one of the best bands in the history of the galaxy. Hannah seemed to inch closer, her presence looming larger as her eyes were glued to Nima as she spoke.

"The gods have forsaken me," Rox murmured to himself, sounding as if he could star in his own holovid. "Well, then, I shall forsake them!" He rose up. "So, yes, she makes her own munchfungus, and more than that too. I'm sorry if I was a little disrespectful, it's just when you know someone long enough, you have your own in-jokes and standards. And we've all known each other for almost six years now."

"Only six?" Nima asked. The first album came out five years ago.

"Yes. We kinda got introduced while a bunch of other bands were breaking up. We didn't get together quite then, but, well, we have common talents," Quen pointed out. "Very special talents."

"You know, could she dance on the ceiling?" G'arvis asked. "Like in that one holovid musical?" He stared out at her with huge, wide eyes, thoughtfully.

"...and also very different tastes," Valley pointed out.

"Your music is not very… orchestral score," Nima said, uncertainly.

"You have to add up a lot of things to get a music that sounds right. Some of it is that, but seen from a different angle," G'arvis declared, with a firm nod. "Therefore, everything can help with that. What matters most, though, is that the songs are not simple, and they are not staid. The heart must ache, must it not, when one hears--"

"We don't have to go on and on about a band she probably doesn't even know about--"

"I know about your band," Nima said, aware that she was already failing that part of the mission. "Actually, since Hannah helped organize it, she might have gotten your name from me mentioning you as a band I enjoyed."

There, make it sound merely like she happened to hear their music and like it. Her tone was even and matter of fact, but it seemed like she'd surprised them, especially Hera, who was staring. "You do, really? I don't want to say that we're bad, that'd be false modesty, but we're still finding our sound."

"I think we sound great, and that this famous Jedi Nima has great taste," Rox said, very firmly. "Excellent taste indeed."

Nima flushed at that, not sure how to really respond, that wasn't entirely… tasteless. Rox was a bit arrogant, but it was pretty clearly mostly skin deep.

"Anyways, so the important thing is that both of our groups view each other honestly," Quen insisted. "Which I think we've already started to do, hopefully? You can talk to G'arvis about the philosophy if you want."

"Yes, I really do want to know what it means to be a Rider?" G'arvis asked.

"To be a Rider, or to be a Rider and a Jedi?" Nima asked, still hanging upside down, looking at all of them from a different angle. "To be a Rider is to be free. This freedom does not have to be glorious, it does not have to be kind. It just is. There were Rider criminals and Rider police and Rider vigilantes, and more. To be a Jedi is to protect the galaxy. The two… can clash sometimes. A Jedi is not an unbounded and unboundable being." She thought that, considering the fact that he'd read an entire article on it, she could talk frankly. "But a Rider is. The secret then is that to be a Rider can mean to limit yourself, to define where you start and where you end. You flow into all things, and yet you cannot be submerged too deeply in anything but yourself." She gestured, a little broadly. "Riders didn't believe in the Dark Side of the Force, but they did believe that there was darkness in people."

Hannah was staring at Nima, her heart clearly racing from the way her emotions were racing as well, but she wasn't the only one.

"You know, I didn't actually hate the article that much," Quen said, a little faintly. "And that sounds… very interesting. So the Riders, did they really live like that? Free?"

"As free as they themselves could be," Nima said, quietly. Then she leapt from the ceiling. Everyone but Hannah backed up, expressions wild with surprise. Hannah just smirked as Nima did the flip just right and landed unharmed on the ground. "I wanted to ask, for 'No Soldiers', how did you make the blaster sounds merge into the screams like that?" They were very loud screams, but it'd stopped her in her tracks the first time she heard it, especially the matter of fact way that words seemed to flow in the background, as if the death and devastation was nothing more than a part of the plan, how things were 'supposed' to be.

"Oh, there's a trick about mixing sounds," Maddy said. "I also do some of that, sometimes. There's a lot of little tricks, and we have an entire crew. You can't really go it alone, it's why people band together." She snapped her fingers. "Like, this wouldn't have happened if Padawan Hannah wasn't involved, since her father--"

"Right, right," Valley said, their brows knit together. "He talked to people, and then they talked to people… there were a lot of people talking to each other, which was hardly bad."

"Well, someone had to act a little like Nima's agent… only less bad," Hannah said, with a smirk. "I know how agents can be. Or I read about it."

"Riiight," Hera said, frowning thoughtfully. "So, Nima's a fan. I assume you knew that?"

"Yes. I thought it'd help you get along, talk about the possibility of the album, and all of that." Hannah looked over at Nima, but a little bit shyly, her eyes darting to look at Nima and thenaway.

"It is important for us that we write it, but we kind of want to… dip our toes in the water." G'arvis spoke slowly and carefully. "It's important that we have a strong theoretical foundation for what we're going to do."

"Theoretical foundation, he says," Rox replied, rolling his eyes. "He just wants to get all the boys."

"I resent that remark."

"It's remarkable how philosophical he gets once there's a cute guy around," Quen continued. "If you don't mind me saying."

"Oh, I know how that is," Nima found herself saying. She blinked, shocked at her own forwardness, especially since Hannah seemed to understand it and looked away, her green hair unable to hide her expression. She looked as if someone had stepped on her toes as hard as they could.

Nima kind of liked it, being the one to surprise Hannah.

"Okay," Valley said. "Anyways, we should go and get some food, right?" But they were looking between Nima and Hannah, their senses and focus clearly on trying to read the complex emotions that existed between them.

"Right, let's do that, then," Rox said.

As Nima left with the others, Valley muttered under their breath. "Really? Really?"

******

They decamped to a side room, walking through a back hall in the hotel, which she learned on the way was called 'The Glimmer.' It was apparently a popular hotel, but of course she didn't know anything about it. She was also not that interested in learning about it, more focused on the band in front of her. They seemed to move with such grace, as if they came from a holovid, for all that there had been a few awkward moments thus far. She was glad they didn't talk too much on the way to the side room, which was apparently meant to be where small parties could be held for private hotel residents.

Some of what she was noticing, she knew was simply being used to each other, and to luxury. They didn't care what the history of the hotel was, because they'd gone on galactic tours before, two of them. Of course, any galactic tour was likely not very galactic so much as hitting key planets and encouraging people to tune into the live holovids or stay overnight. But it meant that they had a very galactic point of view, though one that was in some ways only surface level.

Just like a Jedi, they didn't always have time to get to know every nuance of a planet, rather than the key features and arguments and politics.

The room they wound up in was longer than it was wide, with three different sets of tables and chairs, for enough room to sit around twenty or so people. By the time they arrived, the staff had already brought in fried mushrooms, munchfungus, Afalele wedges and various dips, and what looked distinctly like gold-leafed chocolates. It was simple enough fare, at least, other than the chocolate.

They got themselves set up around one of the tables, as crowded as it was, and Nima picked out a plate full of fried mushrooms and munchfungus and just a few of the chocolates. She was seated next to Hannah, close enough to smell whatever perfume Hannah was wearing. It was… both unlike her and very like her. It was enough to almost distract Nima.

"Hope this is any good," G'arvis said. "A lot of places like this are just terrible at providing snack food, because they're too used to covering everything in special rare salts or whatever else."

"G'arvis is such a snob," Maddy said, "That he's snobbish about how snobbish the snobs are." She twitched her lekku to indicate that this was mostly a joke. "So, Nima, what have you been up to? I know you can't talk about anything top-secret with the war effort, but I haven't really heard news about your Master, Bell, lately."

"He's on assignments I can't say much about, and can't be involved in," Nima pointed out. "I'm his Padawan, but I'm also fourteen, and I do stand out."

"He seems like he'd stand out, too," Rox said, frowning thoughtfully. "He always seemed a little bit iconic. Like someone who should star in his own holovid docudrama." He had a bunch of the wedges in front of him, and a sauce that even from meters away smelled incredibly spicy. "I hope all those missions go well, and I hope… you do have things to do, right? You're not just hanging around like we are."

"I doubt you're just hanging around. I'm training and learning, most of all," Nima said. "Hannah's doing some of the same: we're both diplomats in training."

"A little bit different on my part," Hannah said. "I also do philosophy and internal politics stuff." She shrugged her shoulders.

"Oh, did you meet through the work with the diplomatic corps?" Hera asked, frowning thoughtfully.

"No," Nima said. "Each 'year' of Jedi Initiates is small enough that everyone knows each other." She smiled fondly. "Though… we didn't always get along."

"It was mostly my fault," Hannah said, her grin belying the churn of guilt that accompanied her words. "I was a bit of a brat."

"You're also fourteen, right?" Valley asked, their voice sounding oddly annoyed. They felt troubled as well, their emotions easy to read.

"Yes."

"Then it's fine, really," Valley said, their mood still a little tense. "If you're not still a brat, you're doing better than most people at that age. Everyone is a little bit silly sometimes. What matters is that you work through it, and actually talk about what you want to say."

Nima nodded, "Exactly," she said.

"Well argued," Hannah conceded, looking a little bit smaller all the same. She seemed slightly deflated, and then a little smug and teasing, as if she'd dug deep and found mineral reserves of self-confidence she had not expected. This allowed Hannah to add, " I shall use it as an excuse to still be a little bit of a brat, since I'm young."

Valley looked at Hannah for a long, long moment, unblinking, and then said, "Okay. Okay then. So, Nima, do you want to hear any stories? I assume that you're as curious about us as we are about you, right?" They lounged in their chair, eyes violet and piercing. They looked at the two of them, and then seemed to relax, letting go of their agitation so fast it was as if they were Jedi.

Nima didn't need to be socially astute to suspect that perhaps the Zeltron had seen more of their dynamics than Nima would have liked. She couldn't really say anything about that, not when her goal was not to completely humiliate herself. "I really would," she said, and settled in to hear what it was like to be a star… and a brilliant musician.

******

"So when Nima told me the names of some of the bands, I couldn't quite believe it. But you've met most of them?" Hannah asked, her eyes narrowed as she looked from one member of the band to the other. Nima could feel their amusement, and Hannah's curiosity. "Are they nice?"

"Depends on when you meet them," Hera said, firmly. "These things are all conditional, as G'arvis would say."

Maddy's lekku were shifting around, telling a sort of secondary story as she spoke over them, running around and around in flowing circles, "So as I was saying, there we were, dancing in front of a bunch of kids. Like, young kids. Eleven or twelve. I don't know how they got in, but apparently they were all big fans. It wasn't the usual fanbase, really, but the higher ups were insistent that a 'dance off' would help with ratings. I think it was silly, but I also am no good as a dancer. I just have the wrong sort of rhythm, dancing fast when it was a slow song, and slow when it was a fast song."

Nima nodded, understanding that. Music the likes of which Maddy made didn't always make her feel what she was 'supposed' to feel, and that was part of why she liked it. The feeling that there was a disconnect and that it was okay. Her job, her life in truth, was all about connecting to other sentients. So to be able to deny it, to connect with herself through something that felt personal to her--even if it was a mass-marketed album that had sold a respectable several billion copies--and that she had her own relationship with. Of course, that relationship was probably not unique.

Sitting there, looking at these perfectly normal if rather interesting and politically-tinted sentients, there was no way to think that. But she wasn't someone who went on all the discussion holonet sites to ask who and what and where and why about them. She'd just listened to their albums and built up a picture.

It didn't entirely fit, she kept on finding herself glancing over at Hannah and signalling her gratitude, again and again, for the opportunity she'd been given.

The conversation itself was revealing. It was just a story, but Maddy had a way to make everything just a little bit self-effacing. It wasn't humility, but neither was it some sort of humble arrogance either. Nima didn't know what that was about, but the others seemed to play along.

Rox, pierced and imposing and straightforward, was of course a little dramatic, but he knew when to pull it back, and his drama seemed more a show than something that extended to interpersonal relations, at least from what Nima could see.

(She was very aware that just as she was trying to put on her best front, they were probably at least trying to avoid their worst. There were definite moments in Maddy's story where she was editing things out, such as a passing reference to an ex-partner, and G'arvis' crushes on men were played off as a joke.)

G'arvis for his part was… somewhat pretentious, but he actually did seem to know what he was talking about. Mostly. The heavyset Bith loved music, and loved art, and thought music was the highest form of art. It was just a lot different from the classic 'Bith' style of art, the Kloo Horn and other more brass-filled songs.

Valley was watching everyone as if it was their job to make sure the conversation went well, and considering they were a Zeltron, it was probably just the case. There was a habit among Zeltron of making everyone else's emotional stability the center of their entire world, she thought without even the slightest trace of irony. They had a sense of flow and grace that was somehow neither entirely physical or entirely social, and when they spoke, others listened.

Hera was sensible, which was to say: cynical at times. She wasn't sure whether the band would still be together in five years, and she was focused on trying to steer the conversation back towards usable information, which seemed to be an area where she and G'arvis agreed, if her question, "Can you describe the feeling of Riding? What is it like?" was any indication. She was just coming from it far less philosophically than G'arvis.

Quen was hard to get a read on, in any way, shape or form. Polite, thoughtful, a good person but one who didn't put himself out there. He chimed in only every so often, leaving the field to all of the others to talk. He licked his lips a little too much, a bad habit as if he was constantly dehydrated. She hoped he wasn't, but she knew it wouldn't be polite to ask.

There was plenty to say, especially once it turned out that they'd rented the hotel's entire gym, and wanted to know how they could turn it into an obstacle course or something that could be watched.

"Though, I would understand if it's a bit awkward…" Rox said. "It is short notice, and all that."

"I can do it," Nima said. "But we'll need some help, and we'll need some time."

"We?" Hannah asked.

"Yes, we."

******

Bands were eccentric, apparently, because the reaction to a request for an entire group of employees to help out two teenage Jedi in the task of creating an obstacle course out of what was a fully functioning gym, and supposedly would have to be again as soon as everything was put away… was just to feel exasperated behind their very careful service-employee masks, and then join in.

They didn't say anything to Nima, even though they really should have, when she was busy tossing pool toys of various types into the huge pool, and asking them to get out the goal for this strange popular game involving getting a ball through a vertical ring. She carefully placed it, and looked from it to herself, measuring and finding herself just the right size, even if she had to tuck herself in.

(Which she might, she'd never actually practiced jumping on pool toys, or little rafts, and getting enough lift to keep on going. It wasn't anything that she'd had any reason to try, and neither was it something that Seluku and Baqqanid, oddly quiet this whole time, would have had experience with. Coruscant was not a planet of great pools of water, even in their day. There was no reason to test such things, and a Rider indoors trying to leap around in a pool was a very pathetic Rider indeed.

Luckily, Nima was also a Jedi and a bit of a fangirl, and so she was going to do it anyway. Dignity was overrated.)

She kept it up, and Hannah was by her side. As soon as she got the moment, Nima said, "So, I'm going to be performing tricks. Thanks to you," Nima added, truly unsure how to feel about it.

"This isn't what I intended… but you don't seem sad at the prospect of being able to get your idols to ooh and ahh at you, either," Hannah said, with a shake of her head. She certainty wasn't dressed for setting up an obstacle course. "I'm not going to apologize. Really I'm not. You're loving it despite any doubts: search your feelings, you know it to be true." She was so smug sometimes, especially when she was right.

Because yes. She was practically humming as she directed everything, imagining a chance to really talk to Hannah. She wanted to do more than just work with her to show off for a band she loved. But she'd take what she had now. She was currently arranging the chairs and exercise equipment, dragging it this way and that.

Her movements led to her sleeves rolling up, and she caught Hannah glancing at her. Nima suspected that Hannah would like the chance to watch Nima show off as well. "Maybe I do. But you like the fact that you get to show me off, too." That was the platonic aspect of it: Hannah was smug sometimes--a lot of the time--and there was a smile on her face right this moment that told Nima the truth. At some level, Hannah viewed Nima as 'hers' in the sense of being proud of what she did.

Pride, insecurity, doubt and confidence were parts of Hannah as fundamental to her as her sea-green hair, looking almost a little like the sea and its foam in that moment. Nima didn't know what to think of the seahorse, but she did notice the color arrangement, and the way the skirt seemed to move as Hannah did…

Yet when Nima had tried to get Hannah to admit it was a date, Hannah had denied it!

It was. If she reached a hand out and held Hannah's hand, would that be more clear? If Nima knew what she was feeling, or whether any decision was possible, then she wouldn't be doing this. She was aware that there was a possibility that she was leading Hannah on. She didn't know how to rank how she felt about Hannah and Katarina. And while she didn't feel as strongly about Elize, she didn't feel 'weakly' about her either. She was fourteen, and she had no idea where she'd be in two years. She didn't even know if she'd be in two years.

"I… of course I don't," Hannah insisted, face darkening with a blush, body language growing more closed off. It should have been at least a little bit comical, the green hair with the blush. But, by the Force, Nima was just a little bit gone, and so instead she thought it was cute.

And a little bit comical.

"Of course you don't," Nima said. "Well, are we almost done?"

"Oh! I need to move those chairs, if you're going to… leap over them?"

"No, that's too easy," Nima said. She needed something that'd at least challenge her, and so that was a case where she could try to slide under it.

"Of course, of course," Hannah said, with a smirk. "Always the overachiever."

Why even bother to deny it?

******

"This is… more than we expected, honestly," Hera said. "Not bad, just more than we expected." They all stood looking at the obstacle course, and this just the first bit of it that would loop back around."

"This is great," G'arvis said. "It will be a true experience--"

"If we can see all of it," Hera said, firmly, snapping her fingers. "But we can't, can we?"

"We could get the security systems to send us holovid?" Rox guessed, frowning thoughtfully.

"Yes, we definitely can," Maddy said. "It'd also help us get multiple angles, if we needed to look over it again, later. Though… I personally would just want to find a safe place to stand and watch a part of it on my own. There's something about seeing a piece, and not the whole." She looked a little bit distant, and said, her voice soft, "If something cannot stand up in part, it cannot stand up in whole, and visa versa. This goes for songs, and this goes for this as well, I feel."

"Right, right," Quen said, in agreement. "I'd like to watch from a safe location as well. Perhaps a different one?"

They began dividing out, with half of them deciding that it'd be best to pick a spot and see her passing through, and the other half wanting to watch the Holovid. The latter were joined by Hannah, who no doubt didn't want to miss any details.

Nima, meanwhile, walked over towards the entrance, one of the back halls of the hotel, which was probably being compensated for allowing this stunt with more credits than Nima could imagine. Certainly, they'd gone alone with it far too easily.

She thought this was all a little bit wasteful, but she didn't know how to say no at this point. She also didn't know how to get over the fact that she actually deeply wanted to do this despite that fact.

So, she did it.

******

The thing about Riding was that people had spent generations trying to describe exactly what it truly was. They'd failed. Riding was the feeling of bursting out of a boring, overlong class. It was the feeling of your heart racing as you reached out to hold someone's hand. It was stressful and intense and something she could not do without. Everything that didn't matter fell away, and everything that did matter was so much larger. In the moment of Riding she didn't think about aches and pains, but she knew that they existed. She couldn't smell her sweat, but as part of the flow, she could sometimes tell from a thousand little cues, including olfactory, just what was going to happen. It wasn't seeing the future so much as seeing the eternal now, the endless present, with eyes clear and unclouded.

Afterwards, of course, she woke up in a sense. She'd realize all at once that the ceiling she'd slid along or past while moving hadn't been washed in days, or even weeks. She recognized that she'd bruised a shoulder, or that she stank like a dozen overheated banthas. It'd all come back, but not like it wasn't there before, but more as if she could easily ignore it.

There was a simple truth that she nonetheless couldn't admit except in moments like these. If she had to choose between life without moments like these, and life without the Force, without the Bigness, and death… she didn't know what she'd choose. She knew it was arrogant, to think that way. Quadrillions of sentients lived without access to the Force. All but her and perhaps a handful of others lived now without Riding, without that feeling of flow and ebb. But it was essential to her.

She couldn't tell them that. But perhaps she could show them that. There were so many things she would trade away if it meant keeping Riding. The special thing, however, was that you could not trade anything for Riding, and could not trade Riding for anything. You had to be yourself in every respect and aspect if you wanted to Ride right, which of course meant you needed to be in touch with your feelings, your hopes, your dreams. Of course, then, the Riders viewed the 'Dark Side' as purely internal, something that had more to do with an individual than any larger force. For them, it was in a way. This was perhaps just an excuse to try to force the two philosophies together, but it made sense to her.

She remembered the whole performance, but it was moments that stood out. The feeling of sliding so close to the ground that her lekku trailed and ghosted over the floor of the gym, her legs scraped slightly raw as she moved.

That moment when she sensed their awe as she leapt from wall to wall, back and forth, weaving through obstacles of tables and even at one point grabbing onto a huge, spider-like exercise device just to swing off and plummet towards another wall.

Her path was long, and included going through the same obstacles again in a different way. So she'd jump over one set, then slide under the same later as she looped and circled around, using up all of the space she could. None of it was even a little bit touch and go. No, it was a string of perfect moments carried out over a dozen minutes… except one moment.

When she was first leaping across the pool toys and objects, she found herself wobbling just a little bit. If she fell she'd be humiliated, but instead she sped up, jumping faster and leaving bigger splashes behind her before she leapt up and curled her body just so, sliding through the ring with no room to spare and doing a quick flip before landing. She slowed down for just a moment, her lekku smarting from having smacked up against the ring. Nima Tyruti would be feeling it later, but it was just the cost of doing business. You had lekku, sometimes they smacked on stuff if you moved too fast. Might as well be a human complaining at how your hair gets stuck in things.

She usually was able to move it out of the way… still, the pain seemed only to fuel her, and Nima didn't make even a single real mistake after that.

The heat and passion of the moment fueled her, and she couldn't help but imagine, in some distant corner of her mind, Hannah watching her, and oohing and ahhing at the daring that Nima was displaying, and perhaps seeing her and finding her impressive. That alone was enough cause to give it absolutely everything she had, and leave nothing left.

Finally, she slowed from a run to a jog, and began to feel the slight throb of her lekku, the racing of her heart, and all the little things that added up to having gotten through with a long, exhausting obstacle course. But she'd done it. The grin couldn't have been wiped off her face by a slap. From behind her, she could sense the movement of the band members who'd been strewn along the path watching, and ahead Hera, Rox, G'arvis and Hannah pouring out, their eyes wide… except Hannah's.

No, she was grinning instead, a single eyebrow raised as Nima stepped forward. She suddenly felt more than a little bit shabby. It registered for a moment just how fancily Hannah was dressed. Nima had registered it all without thinking on it. The halter top, the skirt, the shoes, they all fit an oceanic theme so perfectly that it was like something from a runway, or perhaps a holovid. It didn't seem quite real, but more as if she had stepped from a show… and yet it most definitely was real and before her, creating such a combined impression that Nima could not fully take it all in without goggling. She didn't know how anyone could walk in such heels, and yet there Hannah was, walking in them (she didn't know how anyone could walk in any heels at all.) The heels were sandy, the tights blending to coral - and looked at from either top to bottom or bottom to top, it was either a beach giving way to the sea, or a sea giving way to the beach. It was so studied, so mannered, that it should have been absurd… and it was, just a little. But there was grandeur in absurdity. Another time, she would feel a little underdressed, a little too sweaty and tired in comparison to how Hannah's hair didn't have even a strand out of place.

Now, though, Nima grinned and looked around. She needed water, and she needed a towel, and she--

Without any fanfare at all, Seluku and Baqqanid appeared right in front of her, dressed as they ever were in the garb of a Rider, and the armor of a Rider as well. They were still taller than her, and the two of them presented a striking figure, something heroic and made for holovid.

Seluku, though, was grinning in his self-assured way, a grin even bigger than Nima's as he turned and said, in Ancient Coruscanti, "You should go to that locker you passed, towel off. Hannah should go with you… you can talk."

"They wish to learn of the Art of Riding, do they not?" Baqqanid asked, his voice a little bit booming. He was even more intimidating than Seluku, after all. He switched to Basic and said, "Padawan Tyruti should go towel off, it has been a very hard experience. Padawan Ignes should go with her, for the purpose of Jedi business."

Jedi business?

As the band members gathered, most of them looked a little confused by the phrase. Valley, though, looked at them and said, "Okay, guys, let's give them a little time to recover from the little obstacle course we forced on them. We'll talk to these… ghosts." Valley's voice trembled just a bit as they stared at the ghosts. But they were determined, and Nima realized what she'd sorta known before. Of course Valley realized this was all a scheme by Hannah, and of course that'd be a little annoying if they or anyone else in the band found out.

She'd hardly like it if it turned out that the only reason she was being called to meet with them was because they wanted to take photos of her to sell her face on a shirt. She couldn't apologize: even if she was responsible for it, she wouldn't have apologized anyways.

*******

They walk, the both of them, towards the locker room. Nima kept on glancing over at Hannah. It was hard to take her eyes off of Hannah, but not because of the makeup, or the floral perfume. Those drew attention to themselves, the shift of colors, the bright shine of the eyeshadow against her somewhat darker skin, the gloss of her lips. All of that was nice, but it wasn't what drew Nima's eyes, not truly. If it was, then Nima would not have noticed Hannah before that walk towards the locker room. No, it's because it was Hannah, herself.

Strip away the grand, sweeping details of Hannah dressing up, the way she had clearly spent hours planning. To Nima, the whole of the picture was overwhelming, as much for what it meant as what it was…

It's almost easier to focus, instead, on little details, like the locker room itself. It was an omnigender locker room, at the moment entirely empty. As they go down, they don't say anything to each other. There wasn't a need to say anything yet. She wasn't going to let herself feel awkward, as she stepped out into a small row of lockers, and then a bunch of private refresher booths, and shower booths. It was an expensive hotel, and so it was the oddest locker she'd seen in a while. The booths were shiny and chrome, the kind of shine that had to probably be a pain to clean.

Everything about the room screamed that it was cleaned after every use, and that it was as much about aesthetics as anything else.

It was perhaps the least romantic place Nima had ever been. Yes, including battlefields. It was bloodless, characterless, and more than that, proud of it.

But a place wasn't just a place, it was who was in it. Hannah wasn't proud of being characterless, and Nima didn't feel as if she was out of place, standing on the white tiles, glancing over to where the towels were on the rack.

"Hannah," Nima said quietly. She could hear the air condition, feel her sweat starting to dry as she stood there. "I'm sorry."

"For… what?" Hannah asked, a little baffled, her lips pursed and her expression closed off.

"Hypocrisy, of course. I was annoyed at your passive-aggressiveness--"

"My what?" Hannah said, eyes bugging out.

"But trying to force you to actually admit it is passive-aggressive too." Nima's heart was racing as she stepped closer. Nima wasn't sure what perfume Hannah wore, but there was something about her that smelled different. Nima didn't know if she liked it, because she'd liked how Hannah had smelled, to the extent she'd noticed it. She'd liked far too much about Hannah for her own good, for far too long.

"What?"

"So I should say what I feel, and only what I feel," Nima said, softening her voice and stepping closer.

"What?" Hannah asked.

Nima tried not to smile, but it was amusing to look at Hannah, entirely out of clever words.

She could not say: I am sure of what love is, and I love you.

She could not say: you are the only one I have a crush on.

She could not even say: what I want now is what I will want in a month.

But she could say, "Hannah, I want to kiss you."

Hannah blinked, tensing. Like someone waiting for the blow they knew must come. "You… do?" She looked out of place, suddenly her own age entirely and completely, and herself, entirely and completely. It suited her, Nima thought, in giddy fascination.

"I do," Nima said. "I can't say anything for sure beyond that, but this is a date, and I want to kiss you. If you are okay with it, that is." She stepped forward.

Hannah swallowed. "Uh… yes. Of course." She looked like she was about to say something very clever and biting, except she swallowed again and didn't say it or anything else. Nima was now remarkably close to Hannah's face. She was taller than the other girl, unlike Katarina who had been keeping up a little better. So she reached out and touched Hannah's cheek. It was so soft. Her fingers trembled just a little as she breathed in, the perfume a little too rich. Then she--on instinct, but also through simple understanding of logistics--tilted Hannah's face just slightly upwards and leaned down.

It was a single kiss lasting roughly a handful of seconds.

Her heart felt like it would explode for every one of them.

Hannah tasted like she'd put something on her lips. It took a baffled moment for Nima to figure out what: Chelqin, a fruit from Haruun Kal that she'd mentioned once to Hannah in passing, just as she'd mentioned the bands she liked equally without any expectation they'd be there.

Hannah, though, must have worn the lip gloss for a reason.

Hannah's lips were so soft, and Nima closed her eyes for a long, long moment as the kiss continued. Hannah's heart was dancing, she felt like she was on the verge of swooning, and still Nima kept up the kiss.

It was a feeling of that eternal now, that single moment extended forward in time that didn't exist until at last she pulled away. The taste on her lips was amazing, and her whole body felt like it was tingling. She licked her lips, and said, "Chelqin, really?"

"It… seems to have worked," Hannah said, far more out of breath than she should have been from such a short kiss. The world seemed to turn in on itself, until it was just the two of them, standing there and exchanging emotions they couldn't quite define and couldn't quite describe.

"I suppose it did…" Nima muttered, as shocked as Hannah was.

It was not the end of the meeting: she'd ask a thousand more questions of the band, including more about their name, and eat a good deal of far too rich food with them, and even agree to send them a message outlining what she meant when she spoke of Rider philosophy. She heard all of their promises, and wasn't absent for thinking through them, either.

She didn't obsess over the kiss, but it was always there in her mind. She wanted to kiss Hannah again, just as she wanted to kiss Katarina, and might well want to kiss Elize again.

That wasn't an answer, but at least she now knew what question she needed to answer.

But all of that was in the future. For now, Nima stared at Hannah, Hannah stared at Nima, and both of them felt, perhaps, as a Jedi shouldn't feel, but as they could not help but feel.

It was a perfect moment.

******

Reality Intrudes, however. When she gets back to the Temple, it turns out it's time for another diplomatic mission, and this one is rather involved…

[] One Step Forward: Dosha has still not agreed to any representation by the Coalition. The home of the T'Doshok is being very stubborn indeed. These old foes of Kashyyyk and the Wookiees seem determined to continue to play coy when they're not rattling their lightsabers. Nima has been asked to be a junior member of a delegation hoping to organize talks over the next month to come to an agreement. That's all they want: an agreement to talk and negotiate in a month. Is that too much to ask? It very well might be! At the very least, Nima will get to learn from the very best, as the Jedi chosen are some of the best diplomats and negotiators in the Order, and the Wookiees chosen for negotiation are equally chosen with care. It'd be fascinating to watch, even as a small cog in a big process.
[] The Gerrenthum Strain: Nima has found herself recruited to be one of a dozen or so teams--only some of Jedi--involved in trying to deal with disputes in an entire region. The whole area has remained semi-independent in part because of how much of a mess it is. The worlds of the Greater Javin region are all connected by the Figg Conglomerate, a company founded by a long dead, idealistic, at least more-benevolent businessman, whose legacy is now part of a tug of war across the entire region. It is a genuine challenge, and one that might allow her somewhat more free reign than a larger project, though one which also increases the pressure to succeed.
[] Crystallized: Orto Plutonia is a planet of relatively little import, the site of a deep misunderstanding involving the Pantorians and the native species of the planet, the Talz. But now, by sheer accident, Pantorian anthropologists have discovered that one of the many caves of Plutonia includes… a rather impressive, if still modest, cache of lightsaber crystals embedded within the cave. Some non-Jedi Orders allied with the Jedi want to see if they can negotiate access to it, to reduce their dependence on Jedi for this. Obviously, a small team of Jedi diplomats should go along to keep the peace and work things out.

******

A/N: And thus always to romance arcs! They reach an end!
 
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