Mostly-Canon Omake: Care
logiccosmic
the Prince of Word Crimes
- Location
- the Hague, formerly
- Pronouns
- He/Him
Care
[Wounds]
The Jedi Temple.
A symbol.
A thousand generations of Jedi had passed through these halls. Learned here, from the youngest of younglings, to the ancient masters.
It was empty.
Hollow.
As he walked from the landing pad, he could almost hear the wind flowing through the great halls. Whispering through the enormous columns, burrowing into empty alcoves.
Where have they gone? it whispered.
WHERE HAVE THEY GONE?, it howled.
No one answered - they were gone.
His guards stayed behind, letting him proceed unaccompanied into the temple. Here, of course, he was safe. Safe from the war. Safe from the omnipresent strikes of Grievous. The Jedi would protect him.
The massive doorway - fit to land a starcruiser dwarfed the single human there to receive him.
A Master, lean, long-haired, and scarred. Perhaps an insult, or a snub, to have him there to meet him. The Jedi bowed, deferentially, murmuring a greeting. The Master received a courteous nod in turn, but his stride did not slow.
"We received your holo-comm, but the Council -"
A Council member would have been more appropriate to greet him, but he took the tacit disapproval of the Temple's Battlemaster in stride.
"I understand their reluctance," he interrupted, "But this is but a small favor, and one of personal importance to me."
"Very well, Supreme Chancellor," the Jedi said, following him.
"Thank you, Master Jedi. I am here but to serve."
The Jedi didn't respond, but matched his pace, staying a step behind him.
There were no remarks that he already knew the way to the infirmary. Down massive entry halls, past fountains, through nooks where Jedi had once sat and meditated. To turbolifts, shooting into the belly of the temple. The lift doors opened, and he saw the Jedi.
Here in the infirmary, Jedi rested, convalescing, and healed. An older master was talking with a healer, his eye scarred shut. Healers, med droids, and wounded alike passed through the sterile white halls, all maintaining a calm appearance.
The slow, subtle stinking rot of despair hung over them.
As he passed by doorways, he could see beds. Occupied. But with a sheet pulled over their occupant. The machines in the room silent, the bed cold. Others with Jedi, wounded, grievously, never to walk, never to talk, never to fight again.
Finally, his silent journey ended. A closed door.
His escort stopped at it, but he continued through as it opened, and shut behind him.
The room's occupant looked up from his thoughts. His face, twisted in pain, surprise, and then recognition and gratitude.
"Supreme Chancellor," Anakin Skywalker said, voice light. "What are you doing here?"
The room was small, and spartan. Bright color contrasted with the occupant's mood, and with the mood of the Temple.
"I'm here for you," he said, and sat down.
Why, he could almost hear Anakin say. Why are you here for me?
Anakin was bandaged up, and looking pitiful. Bedraggled and exhausted. His body drooped, tired and soft, but open. Revealing himself to Palpatine.
"Because, my boy, you are my friend. And friends help their friends. What troubles you?" he asked.
Anakin didn't say anything for a long moment. But Palpatine waited. A galaxy waited on him, of course, but this. This right here. This was the most important thing in the galaxy. This was the future.
"... I feel weak. And I don't know if that is a bad thing. I can't… always be strong", he said.
"I don't understand," Sheev admitted. "You are the strongest man I know."
"I'm not," Anakin said, forcefully. "I'm not. I'm… I failed. I failed again."
"Again, Anakin?" he asked. "Jabiim was a tragedy, yes. And one I feel enormous guilt over, my boy. I cannot but take the blame for you being there."
"Chancellor - " Anakin started.
"No, Anakin," he interrupted, raising a hand to forestall any protests. "I ask a lot of you. The Republic asks a lot of you. I will not be blind to your suffering in our service."
"It's that… my troopers. And.." he trailed off.
"What is it Anakin?"
Palpatine sighed, and leaned forward.
"How long have we known each other, Anakin?" Sheev asked, rhetorically.
"... Years." Anakin murmured, glancing at Sheev. His voice was low, soft.
"Years," Palpatine repeated. "Years. I've watched your grow into a man the Republic is proud of. A man I'm proud of. A friend I'm proud of."
Anakin looked away again. He kept silent, but Sheev could feel his turmoil. Guilt, shame, fear gnawing at him, eating him away. His will was splintered. Not broken, but weakened.
"And have I ever wanted anything but the best for you? Teaching you politics, even?" Sheev retorted.
Anakin's mouth twitched. "I don't know how much stuck."
"Yes, and I wished you'd listened. But I have always been your friend, Anakin. No matter what it is, I will always be your friend. You can tell me. Tell me what has happened to you," Sheev pleaded, softly.
The small infirmary room was silent, but for the faint hum of machinery.
"The last time I felt strong - I -"
Anakin gulped. He looked at Sheev, with fear, and then closed his eyes.
"My mother - there are raiders on Tatooine. Tusken Raiders. They… took her."
"Took her," Palpatine repeated, "Did the Jedi not take her when you were freed?"
"No, they only won me - but - she was freed," Anakin said, voice strained. "She was freed and married again. And I dreamed of her. I found her."
Anakin didn't say anything more, but Palpatine could hear the servos in the his mechanical hand whine as they flexed, back and forth.
"Anakin," he said. "I will not think less of you. Whether you tell me, or not."
"I… I killed them," Anakin whispered, hoarsely.
"Killed them? The raiders?" Palpatine asked, voice carefully kept neutral, soft, reassuring.
"I killed them all. I butchered them. They killed her. Tortured her, murdered her!" he ground out, voice barely restrained from a shout. "I could've protected her!"
He gasped, handing coming over his mouth. "My boy… I am sorry. So incredibly sorry."
"You didn't - I." Anakin paused. "I couldn't have saved her. I didn't matter how strong I was -"
Palpatine stood, and took his cold, metal hand in his own.
"Anakin," he interrupted.
The durasteel tightened around his hand.
"Anakin. You are not to blame for this. Not any part of you."
It relaxed.
"Anakin. Do you know that I look up to you? That your strength, your willpower, your nobility inspires me?"
"You think I'm strong?" Anakin asked, disbelief clouding his tone.
Sheev nodded at him, and took a seat in the small chair. He smoothed his robes down, and sighed.
"My boy. I know you do not like to hear it… but you [/i]are[/i] the Hero With No Fear. The Hero we all look up to. Because you are strong."
Anakin shook his head, locks of hair shaken loose over his eyes. He gripped the sheet in his hands, twisting it about. Durasteel and flesh combined to nearly tear it apart. He didn't say a word.
"You are. You don't like to hear it, but you are a good man. A loyal man. A strong man. A man who protects his friends, and the Republic."
In the bed, Anakin shifted, worry and fear creasing his face. He murmured, "I'm not - what I did - I -"
"You did what you had to do, Anakin." Sheev interrupted. Anakin shook his head, but didn't say a word, and Palpatine sighed.
"Anakin. Do you think what we do - what I do - is easy?" He asked, and didn't wait for Anakin to respond. "We make decisions that result in the deaths of millions. Billions. We fight a war for the Republic to live. I would do anything to bring peace back to the galaxy. But that requires strength."
"We don't massacre entire villages!" Anakin hissed, frustration filling his voice. He blushed, and turned away, looking at the cold, immobile form of a powered down medical droid.
"Sometimes… Sometimes we have to do things that we find distasteful, to protect the ones we love, Anakin." Sheev said, calmly, not reacting to Anakin's obvious embarrassment.
"A Jedi should allow the things they love to pass out of their lives. Treasure, yet let pass." Anakin replied, repeating as if from a book. From canon, from teaching. There was no force behind it, no indication the words had meaning to him.
"Do you love the Republic, Anakin? Do you want it to pass as well?" He queried.
"No - I..." Anakin fumbled over his words, turning back to him. "I didn't do what was right, Chancellor. I wasn't a Jedi."
Palpatine shook his head.
Anakin continued, voice cracking, "I can't stop thinking about it. I dream of it. What Obi-Wan would say? If he found out about what I've done?"
"He's not here, Anakin. I am. And I say that I am very proud of your accomplishments as a Jedi. How many people will not be raided by these 'Raiders'? How many mothers will live?"
"Does that mean what I did was right?" Anakin asked.
"Yes, and no, Anakin," he responded.
"You protected innocent citizens, no matter how far removed from the Republic, from a threat they had lived under for their entire lives."
He pointed at Anakin.
"And you did that. Anakin. Were they more effective, better ways? Yes. But you still did a good thing. The rightful thing." Palpatine continued. "That is what strength is - protecting those you care about. You need to be strong - for those you love."
Silence reigned once more, and Sheev waited. Calmly, patient, but with a kernel of eager anticipation buried deep.
"I don't know," Anakin whispered. "I don't know, I can't stop thinking about it. About how it felt. That it almost felt - "
The word right nearly fell from his lips. Palpatine brushed past it.
"Anakin, in all the years we have been friends, have I ever asked you to do anything even the slightest bit against your conscience?"
"No, Chancellor," he said, shaking his head, "You never have."
"And I never will, my dear boy. Think on this. Meditate on what you did - both the good and the bad. On what you felt. On what you accomplished. On what you protected with your own strength."
"Thank you Chancellor," Anakin said, and Sheev knew it was time to go.
He stood, and walked to Anakin's bed, looking down at bandages, healing wounds. Anakin's body was damaged, but he'd be out of the Halls of Healing in days. Darth Sidious, Dark Lord of the Sith, smiled, kindly, and placed a fatherly hand on Anakin's shoulder. He squeezed, gently, easing off the pressure to not hurt Anakin.
"Of course, Anakin,"
Anakin looked up at him. His eyes were clear, and there was no doubt in them. The Force sang with his intentions, a bright, blossoming nova of emotion.
Resolve.
"I will always be your friend," Sidious said.
[Wounds]
The Jedi Temple.
A symbol.
A thousand generations of Jedi had passed through these halls. Learned here, from the youngest of younglings, to the ancient masters.
It was empty.
Hollow.
As he walked from the landing pad, he could almost hear the wind flowing through the great halls. Whispering through the enormous columns, burrowing into empty alcoves.
Where have they gone? it whispered.
WHERE HAVE THEY GONE?, it howled.
No one answered - they were gone.
His guards stayed behind, letting him proceed unaccompanied into the temple. Here, of course, he was safe. Safe from the war. Safe from the omnipresent strikes of Grievous. The Jedi would protect him.
The massive doorway - fit to land a starcruiser dwarfed the single human there to receive him.
A Master, lean, long-haired, and scarred. Perhaps an insult, or a snub, to have him there to meet him. The Jedi bowed, deferentially, murmuring a greeting. The Master received a courteous nod in turn, but his stride did not slow.
"We received your holo-comm, but the Council -"
A Council member would have been more appropriate to greet him, but he took the tacit disapproval of the Temple's Battlemaster in stride.
"I understand their reluctance," he interrupted, "But this is but a small favor, and one of personal importance to me."
"Very well, Supreme Chancellor," the Jedi said, following him.
"Thank you, Master Jedi. I am here but to serve."
The Jedi didn't respond, but matched his pace, staying a step behind him.
There were no remarks that he already knew the way to the infirmary. Down massive entry halls, past fountains, through nooks where Jedi had once sat and meditated. To turbolifts, shooting into the belly of the temple. The lift doors opened, and he saw the Jedi.
Here in the infirmary, Jedi rested, convalescing, and healed. An older master was talking with a healer, his eye scarred shut. Healers, med droids, and wounded alike passed through the sterile white halls, all maintaining a calm appearance.
The slow, subtle stinking rot of despair hung over them.
As he passed by doorways, he could see beds. Occupied. But with a sheet pulled over their occupant. The machines in the room silent, the bed cold. Others with Jedi, wounded, grievously, never to walk, never to talk, never to fight again.
Finally, his silent journey ended. A closed door.
His escort stopped at it, but he continued through as it opened, and shut behind him.
The room's occupant looked up from his thoughts. His face, twisted in pain, surprise, and then recognition and gratitude.
"Supreme Chancellor," Anakin Skywalker said, voice light. "What are you doing here?"
The room was small, and spartan. Bright color contrasted with the occupant's mood, and with the mood of the Temple.
"I'm here for you," he said, and sat down.
Why, he could almost hear Anakin say. Why are you here for me?
Anakin was bandaged up, and looking pitiful. Bedraggled and exhausted. His body drooped, tired and soft, but open. Revealing himself to Palpatine.
"Because, my boy, you are my friend. And friends help their friends. What troubles you?" he asked.
Anakin didn't say anything for a long moment. But Palpatine waited. A galaxy waited on him, of course, but this. This right here. This was the most important thing in the galaxy. This was the future.
"... I feel weak. And I don't know if that is a bad thing. I can't… always be strong", he said.
"I don't understand," Sheev admitted. "You are the strongest man I know."
"I'm not," Anakin said, forcefully. "I'm not. I'm… I failed. I failed again."
"Again, Anakin?" he asked. "Jabiim was a tragedy, yes. And one I feel enormous guilt over, my boy. I cannot but take the blame for you being there."
"Chancellor - " Anakin started.
"No, Anakin," he interrupted, raising a hand to forestall any protests. "I ask a lot of you. The Republic asks a lot of you. I will not be blind to your suffering in our service."
"It's that… my troopers. And.." he trailed off.
"What is it Anakin?"
Palpatine sighed, and leaned forward.
"How long have we known each other, Anakin?" Sheev asked, rhetorically.
"... Years." Anakin murmured, glancing at Sheev. His voice was low, soft.
"Years," Palpatine repeated. "Years. I've watched your grow into a man the Republic is proud of. A man I'm proud of. A friend I'm proud of."
Anakin looked away again. He kept silent, but Sheev could feel his turmoil. Guilt, shame, fear gnawing at him, eating him away. His will was splintered. Not broken, but weakened.
"And have I ever wanted anything but the best for you? Teaching you politics, even?" Sheev retorted.
Anakin's mouth twitched. "I don't know how much stuck."
"Yes, and I wished you'd listened. But I have always been your friend, Anakin. No matter what it is, I will always be your friend. You can tell me. Tell me what has happened to you," Sheev pleaded, softly.
The small infirmary room was silent, but for the faint hum of machinery.
"The last time I felt strong - I -"
Anakin gulped. He looked at Sheev, with fear, and then closed his eyes.
"My mother - there are raiders on Tatooine. Tusken Raiders. They… took her."
"Took her," Palpatine repeated, "Did the Jedi not take her when you were freed?"
"No, they only won me - but - she was freed," Anakin said, voice strained. "She was freed and married again. And I dreamed of her. I found her."
Anakin didn't say anything more, but Palpatine could hear the servos in the his mechanical hand whine as they flexed, back and forth.
"Anakin," he said. "I will not think less of you. Whether you tell me, or not."
"I… I killed them," Anakin whispered, hoarsely.
"Killed them? The raiders?" Palpatine asked, voice carefully kept neutral, soft, reassuring.
"I killed them all. I butchered them. They killed her. Tortured her, murdered her!" he ground out, voice barely restrained from a shout. "I could've protected her!"
He gasped, handing coming over his mouth. "My boy… I am sorry. So incredibly sorry."
"You didn't - I." Anakin paused. "I couldn't have saved her. I didn't matter how strong I was -"
Palpatine stood, and took his cold, metal hand in his own.
"Anakin," he interrupted.
The durasteel tightened around his hand.
"Anakin. You are not to blame for this. Not any part of you."
It relaxed.
"Anakin. Do you know that I look up to you? That your strength, your willpower, your nobility inspires me?"
"You think I'm strong?" Anakin asked, disbelief clouding his tone.
Sheev nodded at him, and took a seat in the small chair. He smoothed his robes down, and sighed.
"My boy. I know you do not like to hear it… but you [/i]are[/i] the Hero With No Fear. The Hero we all look up to. Because you are strong."
Anakin shook his head, locks of hair shaken loose over his eyes. He gripped the sheet in his hands, twisting it about. Durasteel and flesh combined to nearly tear it apart. He didn't say a word.
"You are. You don't like to hear it, but you are a good man. A loyal man. A strong man. A man who protects his friends, and the Republic."
In the bed, Anakin shifted, worry and fear creasing his face. He murmured, "I'm not - what I did - I -"
"You did what you had to do, Anakin." Sheev interrupted. Anakin shook his head, but didn't say a word, and Palpatine sighed.
"Anakin. Do you think what we do - what I do - is easy?" He asked, and didn't wait for Anakin to respond. "We make decisions that result in the deaths of millions. Billions. We fight a war for the Republic to live. I would do anything to bring peace back to the galaxy. But that requires strength."
"We don't massacre entire villages!" Anakin hissed, frustration filling his voice. He blushed, and turned away, looking at the cold, immobile form of a powered down medical droid.
"Sometimes… Sometimes we have to do things that we find distasteful, to protect the ones we love, Anakin." Sheev said, calmly, not reacting to Anakin's obvious embarrassment.
"A Jedi should allow the things they love to pass out of their lives. Treasure, yet let pass." Anakin replied, repeating as if from a book. From canon, from teaching. There was no force behind it, no indication the words had meaning to him.
"Do you love the Republic, Anakin? Do you want it to pass as well?" He queried.
"No - I..." Anakin fumbled over his words, turning back to him. "I didn't do what was right, Chancellor. I wasn't a Jedi."
Palpatine shook his head.
Anakin continued, voice cracking, "I can't stop thinking about it. I dream of it. What Obi-Wan would say? If he found out about what I've done?"
"He's not here, Anakin. I am. And I say that I am very proud of your accomplishments as a Jedi. How many people will not be raided by these 'Raiders'? How many mothers will live?"
"Does that mean what I did was right?" Anakin asked.
"Yes, and no, Anakin," he responded.
"You protected innocent citizens, no matter how far removed from the Republic, from a threat they had lived under for their entire lives."
He pointed at Anakin.
"And you did that. Anakin. Were they more effective, better ways? Yes. But you still did a good thing. The rightful thing." Palpatine continued. "That is what strength is - protecting those you care about. You need to be strong - for those you love."
Silence reigned once more, and Sheev waited. Calmly, patient, but with a kernel of eager anticipation buried deep.
"I don't know," Anakin whispered. "I don't know, I can't stop thinking about it. About how it felt. That it almost felt - "
The word right nearly fell from his lips. Palpatine brushed past it.
"Anakin, in all the years we have been friends, have I ever asked you to do anything even the slightest bit against your conscience?"
"No, Chancellor," he said, shaking his head, "You never have."
"And I never will, my dear boy. Think on this. Meditate on what you did - both the good and the bad. On what you felt. On what you accomplished. On what you protected with your own strength."
"Thank you Chancellor," Anakin said, and Sheev knew it was time to go.
He stood, and walked to Anakin's bed, looking down at bandages, healing wounds. Anakin's body was damaged, but he'd be out of the Halls of Healing in days. Darth Sidious, Dark Lord of the Sith, smiled, kindly, and placed a fatherly hand on Anakin's shoulder. He squeezed, gently, easing off the pressure to not hurt Anakin.
"Of course, Anakin,"
Anakin looked up at him. His eyes were clear, and there was no doubt in them. The Force sang with his intentions, a bright, blossoming nova of emotion.
Resolve.
"I will always be your friend," Sidious said.