Very late update today, but the day's been pretty weird and hectic. But still! An update. Enjoy. Also there is a bit of anachronism here, because I am using a bit of religious imagination from a couple hundred years up than the epoch depicted, but I think it is actually appropriate and fits, so hey! Here's your
priest.
5.1 Now, Abandon Your Wicked Ways
Knowing that who lives and who dies is decided by the Saints, not by a mortal will, you asked for a priest to be brought to your bedside. As you did that, a measure of lucidity came over you – you suffered from terrible pain, but did not lapse into fevered visions, instead perceiving your surroundings with some clarity. The red-headed maid was near you, tending to you, and other wounded lay around, all that had suffered wounds at the hands of betrayers or the Armalings. Ulla was among them – he too was inflicted a serious wound, but being of a very strong body, it was closing cleanly, and he was recovering well.
As there was no priest in home of Ulla, they sent a servant to a nearby village, where one could be found, and he was brought to you presently. The violence inflicted on the house appalled him, and at the threshold, he balked, but being a man of faith, he did not waver for long, and instead bravely entered the feast-hall, to administer to the wounded and the dying. But first, he asked Ulla about the fight, and upon learning that you too stood in it, he seemed greatly worried.
And he said to Ulla that as it is not correct for a dog to do the work of a horse, and for a horse to do the work of a dog, it is improper for a woman to act like a man; and that under the laws of the old books, such women were to be punished with death, for it was a very sinful thing to do. Ulla would not listen to him, however, and scoff at his words, even as the priest called upon the authority of the great first saints.
The priest then, very wroth with Ulla, said that it seems obvious to him that the errors of idolatry were still present in his heart, and that he did not lead a saintly life; he said:
"Your arm may be strong now, but the Saints will bring you down, unless you avert your ways."
Next, he spoke about it seemed obvious to him that a woman such as you could not stand in fight like a man, and if she did, then it was the work of the Malefactors, for they are the ones who grant strength to the despoilers of peace and saintly order. But he also said that the Saints are merciful, and it was a good thing you were not slain on the field, but rather given more time to renounce your wickedness, and he came by you, and explained to you that you were dying of the wounds inflicted on your body – they festered, and you were afflicted by a fever which would not die; it was likely that your blood was poisoned because of that.
He said:
"Do not despair, however, for you were given a great gift; for the anguish which you now feel is not a hundredth and not a thousandth of what you will suffer when in the clutches of the Malefactors, but also it is a gift from the Saints, and a warning. Suffer it and turn away from sin, and you will be rewarded, and you will be received at Saint Amaulf's table."
Then intervened Ulla, and said that the pious abbot Galen, who was very saintly, said nothing about your actions being sinful, despite seeing them with his own eyes, and more, he also left a finger-bone of Saint Traft in the feast-hall of Ulla, so that it could help the wounded recover; and he praised the courage of those who fought, and how valiantly they opposed wickedness. And so, he explained, it seemed to him that your actions were not in fact a grand sin, and you were not damned, and had no sin on you that you had to shed.
At that, the priest declared that the abbot was surely poorly informed, or perhaps did not notice your sex, and if he had, he certainly would condemn it in same words. With that, Ulla disagreed, but respecting the tonsure, did not proceed to argue anymore; he let the priest address you. And the priest asked you, again, in following words:
"Death is surely upon you, and it is your chance to renounce sin. Do you regret what you did? Do you regret what you allowed yourself to become?"
Others watched your maimed face, as your lips twitched and you tried to say…
[ ] "Yes."
[ ] "No."