Chapter Fifteen
Geonosis was a desert just waiting to happen. The red rocky spires that dotted its landscape were, to date, the most vivid representation of 'desert' that Ahsoka had ever seen, barring her master's meditation chambers. She hadn't spoken with Barriss at all since that day with the holocron disc, and she didn't even have the intention to. Her Master's presence had grown weak through the Bond, probably because of his distance, and she couldn't help but feel alone. As she watched the holograph in front of her, depicting the situation around the droid factory, a tiny nagging voice of doubt made itself known, worming its way through her head to her lips.
"Can't we just circle around it?" Ahsoka asked. You didn't need a genius to understand that outright rushing a flimsy bridge straight ahead of the main doors of the factory was suicidal. Apparently, Skywalker hadn't been taught Strategy One-Oh-One, and was keen on proving his point. Master Unduli wasn't impressed, but neither was she against it.
Master Kenobi and Ki-Adi-Mundi had gone over to reinforce other sides of the planetary assault, leaving thus them four as the Jedi commanders of the assault on the factory. Well, not really them four. She was a Padawan, and so was Barriss. It was mostly Knight Skywalker and Master Unduli who called the shots.
Skywalker's idea was nuts, and Unduli's idea wasn't better.
"The factory is surrounded by impervious mountains," Master Unduli remarked. "And the anti-air is too heavy for the gunships to circle around."
Ahsoka bit down a 'my master would simply topple the mountain over the factory', because that wasn't going to help. She simply looked back at the holocron and sighed as she slung the explosive pack on her back. They'd go with Master Unduli's plan.
"You do realize my Master warned us of this, right?" Ahsoka remarked.
"That is why we'll use markers to know where you are," Unduli replied, handing over such a nifty tool to her and Barriss, while putting on one herself as well as Skywalker. "That way, if you will end up trapped inside a tank, we will be able to come to your rescue."
If the signal was strong enough, of course, but Ahsoka didn't voice that doubt out loud.
As they began to descend along the ridge to reach the base of the gulch, and from there make their way into the catacombs of the droid factory, Ahsoka trailed behind Barriss in silence. The Mirialan padawan hadn't tried to stir the argument about Ahsoka's master again, and so the Togruta had been content to let it go. Meanwhile, up above she could hear the sound of the droid army marching out to face off the clone one. Seriously, 'stick to cover' was one of the most basic things they could learn, and yet Knight Skywalker had insisted on a march-like parade to get the Droid army out. And the droids had fallen for such a dumb challenge.
Still, as Barriss cut through the wall of rock with her lightsaber, Ahsoka looked ahead at the darkness of the Geonosian's catacombs. With her echolocation, she was going to be right at home, light or not.
"I," Barriss said suddenly, making Ahsoka stop her thoughts, "Wanted to apologize."
Ahsoka turned to look at the Mirialan, a perplexed expression clearly visible on her face, because her fellow padawan added for clarification, "About my words against your master. I shouldn't have let emotions control me like that."
Ahsoka sighed, and shook her head gently. "That's all right. I watched the video. I understand," Ahsoka said. "If I didn't know my master well, I'd be afraid too."
"Fear?" Barriss whispered, and her eyes gleamed slightly. "Ah, I see then. I was afraid. I guess I still have a long way to go to complete my training."
"Don't we all?" Ahsoka replied. Barriss stepped inside first, and Ahsoka followed her. Quietly, they made their way through the silent, dark catacombs as the stale air filled Ahsoka's nostrils.
Alice...
Ahsoka froze. No. Not now. She couldn't fall into Wonderland now. The light shifted and disappeared, leaving only the darkness of the catacombs and the pale color of dust everywhere else. Her feet crunched on the gravel. There were bones, thousands of bones, all crunching beneath her feet. The temperature grew hot around her, as if beneath the white pearly color of marrows and skulls laid a thick mat of lava, eager to burst and swallow her whole. Barriss took a turn right, but the Cheshire Cat instead grinned at her from the left. 'Come here, Alice' it seemed to say with its tail and smile. 'Come here.'
Ahsoka hesitated. She was no Alice. She had a mission to follow through.
Your master will die if you don't follow me, Alice. Do you want him to die?
She turned left. She turned left without hesitation, and as she did, a soft, then ever-growing, symphony began to take form. It was an orchestra with drums, trumpets, and more. The bones shifted and give way to a pool of burning lava, to reveal her Master standing at the edge of a precipice, a hand grasping at a molten rock as he hissed in pain form the burning skin. In front of him, a group of dark robed figures stretched with glowing red lightsabers.
"You aren't supposed to be here yet!" her Master yelled at the robed figures. "You aren't even supposed to exist!"
"Master!" Ahsoka yelled through the lava. "Hold on! I'll-" you'll do what? Contact help? The sound of the orchestra's violins grew in a crescendo as one of the dark robed figures neared, lightsaber drawn. Her Master looked up, and sighed as he let go, falling into the lava. Ahsoka's heart stopped beating for a brief moment as she watched her master fall. Time seemed to stop, and then her master's body struck the lava river, and fell through it.
Ahsoka clenched her right hand and screamed as the bones around her rattled and broke, the lightning emerging from her fingertips singing at everything around her. When her breathing calmed down, evened out, and when she finally looked at her surroundings, she stood in a plain of bones and dust in deep, large chambers.
Hundreds of corpses hung in the air, floating by as dark, pulsing energies twisted and twirled, casting shadows of darkness everywhere they went, like ravening mad and hungry beasts seeking to devour flesh.
"And what have we here?" a lanky, bony person spoke from a throne of bones. "My, if it isn't the apprentice," the figure that spoke wasn't on the throne, as much as the throne itself, made out of bone and with a lit skull at its center, talking to her through the air. "So, you have finally fallen deep into the madness?"
"W-Where am I?" Ahsoka asked.
"Just a few steps away from losing yourself, apprentice. Your Master, wise as he was, decided to try to use a galaxy wide Battle Meditation with the Valley of the Jedi's Nexus. A daring thought, quite useful if it had succeeded. A pity it did not," the skull remarked. "Of course, the Valley of the Jedi is not on Mustafar, but on Ruusan. There, over a hundred souls remain trapped. This little detour your Master took was out of concern," the skull added. "A concern that shakes the very foundation of his actions. Here I stand, of course, as the final guardian to his madness."
"What are you?" Ahsoka asked in a whisper, dreading the answers.
Blood began to seep through the walls.
"Blood for the blood god," the skull snarled, the blood gushing out of every skulls' empty eye socket like a geyser of thick syrup, twisting and pulling at the throne as it began to lift it up. "Skulls for the skull throne!" the voice grew louder as the throne cracked apart, widening the frame of blood and bone as it rose, and rose, and rose even higher. Wings of blood and bone sprouted from its back. "BURN!" the ground shook, and hot scorching flames erupted around Ahsoka. "MAIM!" swords of chipped bone spun in the air, and rushed forward. Ahsoka deftly dodged backwards, igniting her lightsaber as she struck them down. Batting away floating skulls and shards of bone, she watched the behemoth monstrosity lift itself higher still. "KILL!"
A large cleaver-like weapon with sharp teeth roared into existence, like a chainsaw, only wielded like a sword. Another sprouted from the ground, and both ignited. "FOR KHORNE!"
Ahsoka's eyes widened significantly as the terrifying monstrosity rushed at her. She jumped to the side, her feet digging in the bones of the wall nearby. The chainsword of fire and bones crushed the ground where she had stood before, widening a large gap in the ground and filling it with bubbling lava. Clutching on to a skull with her left hand and wielding her lightsaber with her right, she sliced a few more floating skulls coming her way, and then screamed as the skull she had been holding on to bit her hard enough to draw blood. She punched the skull's teeth off, and rolled to the side as more skulls on the wall began to bite at her. She couldn't stop, but the behemoth had meanwhile turned to stare at her.
The Dark Force's energies empowered the monster, floating in the air around it.
Feels like a boss battle. If this is a raid, you're missing thirty-nine members. You soloing?
The Cheshire cat was grinning at her as one of the 'skulls' in the wall, and she narrowed her eyes at it before slamming her lightsaber through his head down to the hilt. The cat quickly disappeared, but damn if it didn't feel good to do it. As the chainsword slammed slightly below her and roared to life, the skulls split open as the monstrous abomination began to push the chainsword upwards, against her. She didn't have the time to stop, but her breathing was already coming less. It was then that her eyes caught the sight of a golden skull impaled on a spike of wrought iron and blood right at the top of the abomination's head.
This...
This was like the pillar training, only with monstrous deaths all around.
Well.
Well this didn't change things.
The floor is lava was one of the few games the initiates played when bored, much to their teachers' disdain. And in this case, the floor was lava, and flesh-eating skulls, and -the chainsword was coming closer so it was better to fucking concentrate on the job at hand!
Ahsoka's feet dug in the skulls and then she pushed herself to run upwards, the Force empowering her legs. Her eyes concentrated on the wall, but her montrals picked the movements of the beast behind her. Suddenly, the behemoth's other hand shot forth with the second chainsword -how could she forget about it!?- but she jumped then, avoiding the deadly bones and flames by an inch. The heat was unbearable, and her eyes watered as she twisted her body in midair. The monster moved its head back, and yet Ahsoka clutched her lightsaber and threw it. The blade spun in the air sizzling, and yet, an instant before it could strike the golden skull, the bastard moved it across its head.
"THAT'S UNFAIR!" Ahsoka burst out as she began to fall, before closing her eyes and taking a deep breath. With both hands in front of her, she pulled at her lightsaber, which swiftly went on a return path.
The monster roared at her, but suddenly stopped and, if possible, the eye-sockets of its large skull-like face widened in disbelief as the golden skull fell, neatly sliced in half by Ahsoka's lightsaber.
The Padawan grinned, even as the lava drew neared to her. Quickly, the pavement's cracks closed themselves just in the nick of time, preventing Ahsoka from dying a fiery death, and instead making her suffer a very bad case of back injury.
The abomination of the Force crumbled in front of her eyes, dispersing to reveal a young looking, and trembling, child. The kid was terribly familiar to her, but what cinched it was his eyes.
"M-Master?" Ahsoka asked, drawing near.
"Fear is weak," the child replied shakily, "So...so we change fear into anger," the child said, looking up at her. "And anger makes us strong. Hatred gives us purpose. When...when we are afraid, we run. When we cannot run any longer, we lash out. When we lash out with purpose...we truly become strong," the child looked up at her. "Isn't that right?"
Ahsoka hesitated, and then shook her head. "No." She knelt in front of the scared child. "It's when we accept our fears, and let go of them, that we truly become strong."
The child took a deep breath, and exhaled once. "Leave it...to a Disney character to say that sort of sappy stuff." He grinned, and flicked her forehead, as his frame grew back to its adult form. "I am starting to dislike the Force shenanigans," he acquiesced, his arms hidden by his sleeves. "Truly, maybe I should have thought it better."
"Master?" Ahsoka asked, as around them the walls began to crumble and disperse, letting the rays of the sun shine in.
"I chose my Padawan well," he added. "Maybe, I chose her perfectly. Worry not, Padawan. I was simply overpowered by the Force in the Valley of the Jedi, but it won't happen again."
Ahsoka hesitated. "I saw you fall into the lava, master."
"Energy immunity, padawan," her Master replied dutifully. "I can bat away lightsabers with my hands, you think mere 'lava' is hotter than plasma?"
She looked up at him in surprise, and her Master merely returned a grin. "I am Fire Immune padawan! Damage Reduction Rating of Fifty slash epic! I am OP, someone should nerf me," humming to himself, he made a little spin and flicked her forehead once again.
Ahsoka laughed nervously. "Now, Padawan," her master said seriously. "I need you to promise me something." His hands grabbed the sides of her face, and lifted her head to meet his gaze.
Ahsoka half-froze, like a skittish rabbit. She looked up and awkwardly nodded. Really, what part of 'not touching the montrals' was hard to understand? And the side of her face had montrals. It wasn't that difficult!
"Don't blame yourself," her master said. "You had no control over this."
Ahsoka frowned. No control? No control over what?
The sun disappeared. Her master disappeared. She was back in the catacombs, her lightsaber was in her hand, but Barriss Offee was nowhere to be seen. The rumbling sound of an explosion rocked through the complex, and Ahsoka had barely the time to run away, ignoring her surroundings and the plethora of Geonosian's soldier corpses that skittered the hallways she had trudged upon in her Force trance, before it all came crashing down on her.
The rubble coming down blasted her the last few meters off, before she emerged from the tunnel, blinded by the sun as she began a free-fall of a few meters, rolling against the rock surface as she came to a halt against a rock. Ahsoka hissed. She could swear she had heard her ribs crack from the strength of the blow, even as a thick cloud of dust soon proceeded to cover her. More rocks tumbled down near her, but none hit her fallen body. In the end, when the dust settled, she gagged for air and pushed her body above the rock, her vision clouded and blood dribbling down her frame. She couldn't move her right arm either.
But she was alive, wasn't she?
And her Master was alive.
...
And Barriss had completed the mission alone.
She probably had left her behind. Really. How could she? She should have at least thought it through before doing something like that! She could have died if she had stayed in there a bit longer! Had the Mirialan Padawan no shame? She'd get a word out of her mind the moment she found her! Oh if she would!
When a clone gunship found her, and a few clones placed her gingerly on a stretcher, Ahsoka was already on her last forces. She could barely keep her eyes open, let alone speak. Knight Skywalker neared her out of concern -she hoped, and her hopes were soon dashed- and didn't even ask her how she felt -like crap, of course.
"Where is Barriss?" he asked her, and she answered with what had been on her mind until then.
"She left...me behind," Ahsoka croaked out. "I...don't know."
Knight Skywalker nodded firmly once, and then left her alone. She fell asleep soon after, because with the sun hitting her face, it was just a question of imagination to think back at the river bank, at the grassy hill, and at the picnic tablecloth laid with a closed basket and a bright sun overhead.
It was a peaceful dream.
And she had avoided getting stuck inside a tank beneath the rubble of a destroyed droid factory.
On her book, that counted as a victory.
You've picked up a bit of an attitude, still curious and willing to learn, I hope.
Ahsoka's eyes widened. "There must be more than one way to skin a cat."
The Cat looked at her from atop the basket, laid on the tablecloth, and his grin never faded. The rest of his body, of course, did, but not his grin, oh no, his grin remained right there in the middle of the air, and as Ahsoka grumbled, the grin turned even fiercer.
You don't know how fine you looked when you dressed in rage. Your enemies are fortunate your condition is not permanent. You're lucky, too. Red eyes suit so few.
"What do you mean?" Ahsoka asked, but the cat's grin disappeared. It disappeared, and it did not come back. Too tired to think about it, or maybe finally waking up, Ahsoka let it go. It wasn't important anyway. The cat was mad. Just like she, probably, was.
But everyone was a little bit mad, so...it was fine that way?