Chapter Seven
Dromund Kaas was a land filled with swamps and lush jungles, and with an air of darkness around it that made Ahsoka uneasy just by looking at it through the Star-Fighter's cockpit window while they proceeded to land in one of the few clearings they could find -and which had all the signs of having been cleared recently. The transponder signal of the Ebon Hawk beeped nearby, a clear sign that her Master had already landed on the planet -he had probably left the Jedi Temple the moment he had watched their own ship leave, and all things considered, it was obvious why he had let the transponder signal of his ship active.
He wanted to be tracked to the planet.
"Let's go find him," Anakin said as he descended from the ship, Ahsoka quickly jumping down behind him. "Do you have any idea where he could be?"
Mister Fluffles meowed, and began to walk cautiously forward. "This way," Ahsoka said, holding her hands near her lightsabers, her expression wary. They had the benefit of surprise by their side. Her master wouldn't expect them so soon, and he couldn't sense them thanks to the Taozin nodules. No matter what happened now, it was all a matter of getting her Master to see reason. The troubling fact was that she hoped even against all odds that her Master could be saved.
There was little else to it but a childish hope. It was a childish hope.
Childish hopes do not survive the test of time.
It was sudden, but the swamp and the jungle drifted away beneath their very feet, leaving the place to a charred land of ashes and spitting hot fire. Moats of lava slowly pulsed by their sides, as thin strips of charred ashen land stuck in the middle of the glowing hot lakes like scar tissue on raw skin. In the distance, a tall tower cast its burning crimson eyes around the land, its fierceness and hatred growing with each passing second. Anakin stumbled on his next step, and looked around with a sense of foreboding dread. "What is this?!" Anakin asked.
"Be careful!" Ahsoka replied. "We're in Wonderland now!"
At least, it looked like a version of Wonderland, but it was darker, more rooted in malice than actual darkness. It was similar, yet distinctively different.
Mister Fluffles meowed with a tone of alarm, and Ahsoka's eyes snapped forward, to where a pair of figures stood in the charred land around them. Two men cloaked in dark robes, frayed and tattered by time, loomed like ghosts in front of them. They shrieked in a long wail that held no meaning, and long blades of thin metal rose from the burning grounds.
"Serve the Emperor above all others," they whispered harshly, and charged forward with their swords drawn.
Ahsoka rolled to the side, avoiding the plunging motion of one as the hot ground stuck ashes of charred black to her skin, while Anakin ignited his lightsaber to parry the blow of the second one. Ahsoka crouched, avoiding a swing, and jumped back igniting both of her lightsabers.
The blade of thin metal sailed through the air with the speed of a whip, and the flexibility of one. It was a sword, and yet when it struck the lightsaber it did not melt, nor bend. It simply created sparks as the strength made Ahsoka stumble on her next step, and forced her to rethink her strategy. The creature wailed again, and lifted his left hand towards her. Mister Fluffles roared as he took that as the moment to move forward, but all it resulted in was his body starting to float in the air, as he meowed in distress from his throat being constricted by the Force.
The ghostly figure stabbed at Mister Fluffles, but Ahsoka brought both of her blades down on the side of the enemy's sword, and made it stick to the ground. Spinning in mid-air, she brought them both down on the Sith's head, only for the creature to shift backwards and lift its blade in defense.
The strike that would have severed its head harmlessly hit the blade and bounced off, but in so doing Mister Fluffles dropped on the ground on all fours, lightsabers now drawn and lit. With four blades entering the fray, the robed figure would have had no choice but to enter a defensive stance.
It didn't.
As Mister Fluffles struck him, he didn't defend against the lightsabers, letting them cut his robes as his sword came crashing down on Ahsoka's guard.
Well, if she had allowed it, but she had felt the creature's strength, and she wasn't stupid. She didn't parry the blow, as much as nimbly avoid it. She couldn't use strength against such a foe, and she apparently couldn't strike him down with lightsabers. That left only one thing. Her hands both came up as the Force answered her call, and as she pushed the creature away, it answered by slamming its sword down on the ground to hold its place.
Mister Fluffles pushed his paws forward too, and in a concentrated effort they both managed, together, to send the robed and frayed figure straight into the lava of the charred landscape. The frayed figure screamed shrilly as it began to burn, bony hands clawing at its robes and trying to snuff out the flames that devoured through its body.
The screams made Ahsoka shudder as she turned to look at Skywalker, who had followed her action the moment he had seen it work. As both figures burned to ashes and disappeared from sight, Anakin neared her with his breathing quick. "What were those things?! I'm pretty sure I struck mine a dozen times."
"This is Wonderland," Ahsoka explained. "It's...it's a place. Master Shade has some control on it, but not much. When the Force is heavy, it's easier to slip inside. We should be getting closer to the tower," Ahsoka said. "It's where Master Shade probably is."
The heat stifled Ahsoka, and her skin sweated to the point where she removed her robes after just a few more steps. "Is it me, or is it getting hotter by the second?" Anakin asked with dread after a few more minutes of walking.
"Yeah," Ahsoka replied. "It is."
The stifling heat made breathing hard, but by that point even taking a step on the ashen land was enough to make Ahsoka wince. Mister Fluffles jumped back and forth on the hot surface, trying to keep as little as possible of his paws on it. The two Jedi trudged along the ashes, which crunched beneath their feet, for what felt like hours.
Finally, something different than black ashes and lava revealed itself over the horizon, a large, tall wall made of pure black stone. In front of it, an army of twitching, rotten corpses stood by with glowing, crimson eyes.
"There's a lot of them," Anakin murmured. "We can't face them all."
"My Master's beyond them," Ahsoka replied hotly. "We aren't stopping here."
"Patience Snips," Anakin hissed back. "We can't pretty much charge an army alone."
Ahsoka glanced sideways at Anakin. She then looked back at the army of rotten corpses. She looked at the lava nearby and winced at the heat emanating from it. "My Master can use the Force to nullify the heat," she said in the end in a soft whisper. "We could...cross the lake?"
Anakin's eyebrows both rose. "That's-we aren't Night, Snips."
Ahsoka bristled. "Maybe you're a defeatist, but I'm not. I say we can do it if we just try."
Anakin stared at her with a puzzled expression, which however soon melted in a resigned smirk. "I appreciate your enthusiasm, Padawan. I do have a better idea, though." His hands moved forward as he closed his eyes, and Ahsoka felt herself being lifted. "I'll join you on the other side," he added offhandedly, and before Ahsoka could protest, she found herself thrown high in the air.
The Force rippled at her passage in the air as Mister Fluffles meowed in surprise from the top of her head, holding tight to her montrals as if his life depended on it. Ahsoka merely chuckled as she 'fell horizontally' as her Master would have said, using the Force to direct her ascension and descent.
The ground neared a bit too fast for her tastes on the other side, and as she crouched in mid-air to dull her fall, she used the Force to deaden the blow on her legs. She landed firmly on the ground beyond the gates, and gasped for air. Knight Skywalker was probably as mad as her Master -seriously, who ever thought about 'throwing a padawan'?
Now she just had to wait for Skywalker to-
The ground trembled beneath her feet, and Ahsoka groaned out loud.
Seriously, couldn't she just catch a break!?
Large, clawed hands broke free from the ground as the flaming skull of a large beast emerged, soon followed by a massive, burning body with large leathery wings. A whip of fire, large and with several thongs, was firmly clasped in its right hand. It was several feet taller than Ahsoka, and bellowed with a furious roar that shook the ground. Ahsoka stared at the thing with narrow eyes. There was no talking. There wasn't even a message behind it. It was simply a creature of fire and shadows, whose only purpose was to kill her. No talking, no secret plans, no means of defeating it past a brutal showdown.
And as it swung its right arm in the air the whip came crashing down on the ground where Ahsoka had been a second before, igniting the very ashes into a molten no man's land. Flames lambasted and screamed in the air as waves of heat erupted from the creature's body. The kid's gloves were off.
This wasn't Wonderland anymore, no more than it could have been her Master's intention. This was malice, and hatred, and anger. This was darkness and power, thrumming in the depths of hell and maybe even further beneath it. This wasn't just the Force, it was power and magic, maybe even reality now. Ahsoka gasped for air as the Balrog charged at her with his massive frame, the ground shaking with each of its steps. A sword of flame appeared in its left hand, and his left arm moved to slice at her.
It took Mister Fluffles' Akul form and four lightsabers ignited to halt the blow, and even then the Akul-sized cat found itself digging his claws in the ground as it was pushed back. The whip of fire came crashing down next, igniting around Mister Fluffles' body and starting to char his fur, as with a ferocious roar, the Akul plummeted his head against that of the Balrog.
The resounding crack made the Balrog scream as he recoiled of barely a single step. The lightsabers flashed in the air, striking at the shadows which burst, and then reformed upon the body. Letting go of them, useless against such a foe, Mister Fluffles pummeled at the beast with all four of his arms. The Balrog answered in kind, flames wrapping his body and shadows enhancing it.
A furious, murderous hatred piled over Ahsoka's frame as she stared at the fight between giants that was nothing short than a test of will between her and the darkness shrouding the place.
And the Balrog wasn't even the final enemy. She could feel it, taste it in the air, and the knowledge that ripped her soul raw and made it bleed was that in the end, she was but a fly against a wall. If it was the power of the Force Nexus aiding her Master, she didn't know. What she did know was that she couldn't manage alone, and yet she had no choice but to.
This wasn't a test or a trial. Her Master had absolutely no intention of testing her like this -because he disliked teaching with pain, he disliked it, and he wasn't for this. He'd never be for this.
So this wasn't her Master.
This wasn't her Master's Wonderland. There was no Wonder here. There was nothing of shocking, or surprising. There was nothing of beautiful in a land of charred ashes and lava. This was a land of fire and ashes, and she'd be damned if she let it take hold.
"You aren't even that scary," Ahsoka bitterly shot back at the Balrog, even as Mister Fluffles meowed and was thrown in the air by the beast. She grabbed her courage with both hands, and carefully brought her lightsabers, as well as those that Mister Fluffles had dropped, to float in front of her. Six lightsabers floated around her, and as Ahsoka took a deep, centering breath, she found peace.
"There is no emotion," Ahsoka whispered as the Balrog roared, whip of fire and flames rushing forth for her. A lightsaber swatted the fire away, and a second sliced the whip. "There is peace."
The Balrog's feet dug in the ashes as it roared again, this time lowering its body to charge at her with its massive body, and its flaming sword in hand. "There is no ignorance, there is knowledge," Ahsoka said, and Mister Fluffles' fallen form twitched as its tail shot forth to grip at one of the Balrog's legs, making him stumble and lose its balance.
The Balrog's hand still gripped its sword, but a lightsaber struck his wrist, and in the moment where the shadows and the flames lost consistency, the flaming blade fell from the monster's clutch. "There is no passion, there is serenity." Ahsoka brought both hands in front of her, even as the Balrog's body neared her to the point where there was little she could have done to dodge it, even if she had wanted to.
But she didn't.
You did not face anger and hatred by avoiding it. You stood firm, feet dug in the ground, and you met passion, anger and hatred with a calm heart and a firm hand.
"There is no death," the fourth and fifth lightsaber sliced at the Balrog's frame right in its chest, "There is the Force." The sixth lightsaber punched a hole through the Balrog's skull just as its head landed an inch away from Ahsoka's own. The hulking creature of darkness exploded through Ahsoka's body, the passionate feelings passing her through like a sickly miasma, yet not touching her the slightest as the Balrog's corpse dropped down past her frame, face down on the ashen ground.
Ahsoka shuddered as she took a deep lungful of fresh air, the lakes of lava slowly cooling off as the air began to turn colder and breezier, the ashes drifting off to reveal an earthy ground below.
The gates behind her cracked and trembled, before falling down to reveal a soot covered Knight Skywalker coughing his way past them, swatting away the clouds of dust. "A cinch," he said with a light cough. "It was a cinch."
Ahsoka flatly looked back at him.
"Come on Snips," Anakin said, taking point once more. "We're nearly there, aren't we?"
"I-There's something I need to tell you, Anakin," Ahsoka said. "My Master's-He's probably-"
"Expecting me to kill him," Anakin said calmly.
Ahsoka froze on her next step. "Wait. What. You knew?!"
"Of course I do," Anakin bristled. "You think your Master's the only one who has visions? I am strong in the Force myself-highest count of Midichlorians ever seen, didn't you know?"
Ahsoka stared at Anakin with a shocked expression as the Knight simply scoffed. "But you know what? If there's one thing I've learned is that we are the only ones who get to pick our destiny. The Force can show us the future, but it is up to us to pick it up." He shrugged. "And I will refuse to kill him. It doesn't matter what he'll say, or if he'll try to kill me. I am not going to kill a friend, no matter what happens."
"But Master Shade would kill you if you turned Dark," Ahsoka blurted out, only for Anakin to stare at her and lift an eyebrow.
"You don't know your Master at all, do you Snips?" Anakin chuckled.
No. Ahsoka feared the opposite was true.
Anakin Skywalker didn't know her Master at all.
Nobody knew her Master at all.
All of the certainty she felt over her Master disappeared as if sucked away by a cold, icy breeze. Her next step was unsure, and the one after that felt as heavy as lead.
The earthy ground turned to mush, and to swamp. Even as Anakin walked surely on it, he turned when he realized she was slowing down.
"Snips? Why are you slowing down?" he asked in concern.
"I-" Ahsoka shuddered. "I just don't know anymore." There was the burning sensation of tears in her eyes.
And fear, cold, unsettling, deep, entrenching fear ensnared her soul as chains burst from the ground much to Anakin's surprise. As they clutched around Ahsoka's body tightly and dug in her skin, dragging her below the swamp, she could barely manage a scream towards Skywalker, who extended a hand, but was too late to grab hold of her.
She disappeared in the darkness, the suffocating, all-encompassing darkness.
The chains stopped digging into her skin once she was in the darkness, as if the lack of light meant she couldn't escape any longer. Her arms hugged her frame as the cold seeped through her skin like an icy storm of needles, the shudders making her skin crawl with goosebumps.
And in the darkness, Ahsoka screamed.
In the darkness, Ahsoka cried.
In the darkness, doubt ruled undisputed, unchallenged, and unquestioned.
"Will you walk into my parlour?" a deep, groveling voice growled in the pits of that darkness. "Tis the prettiest little parlour that ever you did spy. The way into my parlour is up a winding stair, and I've many a curious thing to shew when you are there."
The voice grew quiet.
Ahsoka didn't move. She didn't breathe. She didn't as much as glance up from where her face was, pressed against her knees as she hugged her legs in the featureless darkness.
"Do not give me the answer you have been taught to give!" her Master had said. "Give me the answer you believe in! Knowledge taught is seldom left unchallenged by the trials of doubt, but the knowledge we believe in shall stand even against the mightiest of truths!"
"Stay calm, Padawan. Doubt is truly a frightening creature," her Master's voice had come as a whisper near her ear. "First, it silently slinks near you, and waits. The moment you are distracted, the moment you no longer pay attention to it, it starts to climb over your body. Doubt makes you worry, because doubt means there is ignorance, mistrust, fear, and accusations start to pop up. If you doubt your friends, are they really your friends? If you doubt your allies, are they really your allies? If you doubt your teachers, can you trust their teachings? And when doubt grows, it slowly paralyzes you. It constricts you, it tightens its hold, and when the time comes, it snuffs the light out of you."
"When you realize that doubt is paralyzing you," her master's voice kept coming on peacefully, at ease even, as if this was normal, "We try to fight it. The problem lies in that doubt is a self-reproducing beast. On whom do we trust, if we did not trust our previous friends? Which teachings do we believe in, if those before failed us? How can we trust once more? How can we trust, if people betray?"
Her master had told her the answer.
Hadn't he told her the answer a long, long time before?
Then why was she doubting now?
Why now, of all times, was she falling prey to doubt?
It wasn't like her at all.
This wasn't her.
No, she refused to let this be her. She had to believe.
Mister Fluffles meowed in front of her, and she could feel the light warm her face. She cracked an eye open, and then the other. Mister Fluffles was an orange ball of sunshine in the pits of darkness. Mister Fluffles' orange eyes looked straight at hers, and in the darkness around them, the clicking of thousands of fangs and legs nimbly spread. A multitude of eyes stared through the darkness, spiders as big as dogs, or larger than humans, stood around her. Mister Fluffles meowed again, lifting its tail and swishing it back and forth, looking at her with a hopeful gaze.
"I'm so stupid, ain't I?" Ahsoka mumbled, a small smile on her lips. "This was never about trusting or not my Master. This wasn't about believing in him or not. This-This is about me, isn't it?"
Believe in yourself. Not in the you who believes in me. Not the me who believes in you. Believe in the you who believes in yourself.
How far back had her Master seen?
How far back had he planned?
He hadn't lied in the Datapad.
He truly was devious, more devious than any Sith, and terrifying, horrifying, cold and calculating.
She just had to accept it.
She just had to accept it was part of him, just like she had her own darkness.
Carefully, she stood up. Crying or screaming wouldn't help her insecurities. Fear wouldn't help her judgment. She steeled her gaze on the spiders as she clenched her right hand.
It didn't matter how many enemies she had to face in front of her.
It didn't matter how pitch-black the darkness.
it didn't matter how terrifying the truth could be.
Nothing mattered, but what she decided to do.
And in that moment, in that precise moment, she wanted to punch her Master's face.
So, without further ado, Ahsoka Tano charged forward. She did not charge with a scream of fury, or a roar of challenge.
Ahsoka Tano charged forward with cold eyes and a gleam of determination that made the first of her enemies, a large spider the size of a small house, falter and twitch in fear.
When faced with determination, all but the most courageous of foes falter.
When faced with certainty, all but the most strong of enemies start to doubt.
"I'm coming, Master. So, prepare your nose for my fist!" Ahsoka yelled as she pushed through the carapace of the giant spider, emerging out of a shower of green blood and entrails to land with her feet firmly planted on solid ground once more, the air a breeze and the clouds white and fluffy up in the air.
She was out of the darkness.
The road to the tower was near its end.
Mister Fluffles meowed as he looked at her from the cobblestone road made of golden stones, as if implying she had to follow him. Ahsoka grinned and began to walk on it.
"Hey, Mister Fluffles," Ahsoka remarked, arms crossed behind her head as her steps grew light. "Do you think-Do you think Skyguy's doing fine?"
Mister Fluffles turned pensive, and then, with a calm and tiny squeak replied.
"He's the Chosen One, Ahsoka. Of course he's fine."
Ahsoka chuckled.
Then she stopped.
Then she looked down at Mister Fluffles.
And Mister Fluffles looked back up at her with a grin that was eerily reminiscing of the Cheshire Cat's one.
"Cat-like hallucinations," Ahsoka said dryly. "They grow up so fast."
Mister Fluffles, to that statement, merely giggled back.