"I feel that you are somewhat angry with me, Aang." I commented with my reunited student after we had asserted our control over the capital and apprehended Ozai.
"It is nothing."
"Why didn't you mention your plan of using spirits to attack the Fire Nation?" He asks, extremely terse.
"Because it is easier to ask for forgiveness than permission, especially for a good cause. Plus, you even got to capitalize on good public relationships by visiting every place we attacked and pacify the spirits there! A genius strategy!"
My casual words did cause Aang to blow up a cascade, fortunately, Katara took it upon herself to pacify him.
"I am more than willing to stand trial for my war crimes, Aang. But if we are going this route, then there won't be much of a Fire Nation left after their own trial."
While this is incensed, a certain understanding finally dawns on him. "You are provoking me on purpose, aren't you!"
"The Avatar came back, defeated the Fire Lord, and restored balance to the world. Now the only thing that remains is for you to live the rest of your life. These people not only killed everyone you love Aang, but they also brought harm to your new family. People will keep on provoking you, Aang. Testing your virtue."
"You say that, but you still hope to get away with a slap on the wrist, don't you?"
"Guilty as charged," I say in good humor, eliciting a pout from the savior of the world.
-//-
Aang and his gang went galivanting through the Fire Nation, as we often did, to undo my damage, so this time I didn't even get to complain about it.
There was a certain bittersweetness about it all, as we knew this would be the last time we travel like this.
They still managed to get neck-deep in trouble too. A bloodbender of all things! Fascinating. A shame Katara refused to learn the art, but I respected her decision.
Having done what they could for the people I terrorized, we returned to the capital for Zuko's coronation. Iroh argued he was too old for the position and his crimes prevented him from passing on the right image. Since the whole point was to have Aang crowing the next Fire Lord, as a symbol of this new age of peace and cooperation.
While they got busy, I went to check on my problem child.
"Azula?" I had to admit, of all responses, she could take at the news, finding her casually lounging in a royal spar while being pampered by attendants was not what I expected. At least not after the news, she considered the throne her life's ambition.
"What can I do for you, my Sifu?" She asks while not even bothering to open her eyes or turn her head my way.
"Someone is in a good mood. Honestly, I expected to come here to smoother some ruffled feathers."
"Oh, please. As if I need to feel jealous of Zuzu. In the end, the throne is being handed to him by our conquerors. I have to give it to Sozin to stick to his guts with Roku breathing down his neck, but in the end, the power he and all men of my line up to my father believed in was a lie supported by deception and betrayal." This time she opened her eyes, looking meaningfully my way. "It could never stand up to true power, power to save or destroy, the choice and capacity of acting as one please." She spoke as someone who had seen the heights for herself.
In a sense she has.
"You geniuses are all so frightening, you know? I never had this kind of composure at fifteen. It feels as if I will be left behind if I so much as blink." I complain while taking the other seat beside her. With a silent motion from Azula, the attendants started their ministration.
"Considering I am still breathing I will take this as a compliment then." She answers casually with a backhanded compliment of her own. In a sense she was right, if an enemy truly frightened me, I would destroy it without reservation. But that is only an enemy.
"Azula, you know I would never do this to you out of fear, right?"
She snorted in answer, "I know
you wouldn't do that." She answers, displaying her deep understanding of my captain virtue acquired through our connection. One of the reasons she acts so sure-footed around me lately, she knew me as I knew her. Better than anyone ever bothered too. And boy, wasn't that sad?
"I am simply not so sure Uncle Iroh shares these feelings. I am an eyesore for sure, at the very least. It certainly would be convenient if I had some mental breakdown."
"Well, if you care so little for the coronation, then I can think of a more interesting agenda for you today. And remember to bring Jet."
She freezes us, instantly interested.
Time to initiate the two of them properly as Ravens. While I have no means to bring them to the Orphic House, I can at least share in my lived experience and make for them a pass necklace with directions to the Orphic House like the one I got in my initiation.
I brought the two of them to abandoned catacombs I repossessed and remodeled using my swan song to charm the stone, recreating to the best of my ability a place worth of their anointment in mystery faith as colony cults do in Olympia.
It is not like I would be welcome to Zuko's coronation anyway.
-//-
As I predicted, things settled down. The Sozin Comet passed without incident, and this was enough of a show of good faith for the occupying forces to pull out unless they got to the wrong side of the Avatar.
Some more months passed and it was time for the Avatar little gang to disband. Toph wanted to open a metal bending academy, confront her parents and start a musical carrier, Sokka is wrapped up with Princess Yue and has to go face the in-laws as the big damn hero, Aang and Katara hitched together and now she will follow Aang in his little Air Temple revitalization project.
As for me? Well, I know a certain owl that would be more than happy to get everything he can manage about the Fire Nation after a little arson incident.
My destination is Wan Shi Ton's Library. I have to restart my training, while a lot of growth can come from new experiences, I have neglected the plain foundations responsible for supporting the towering pillars of virtue I build inside my soul. My rhetoric is still crude, and all my basic skills stand to be a little more polished.
I had come up with some ideas but grim necessity had made them unavailable when the lives of so many depended on my top performance.
I and the spirit greeted each other as old friends, he was positively ecstatic with my gift and news of long-term residence. I had left Wan Shi Ton to oversee some long-term projects. The power once clinging to the Book of Enlightenment might be gone, but the owl's affinity for books made it capable of understanding its fundamental principles.
Sophic Cultivators can imprint their lived experiences into scrolls, allowing the reader to experience these memories in the first person as if they were there. Who is to say one can't do more? I intend to start on the basic, the passing of skills through this second-hand experience, and Wan Shi Ton is more than happy to assist me in this endeavor as it expands the limits of what books can do.
Between absorbing as much of the content of his library as I can manage and refining my rhetoric by perfecting my delivery and compressing the intent, I might be able to call myself a philosopher by the end of it.
Of course, while this is a great exercise for the mind, a cultivator of virtue is more than Reason.
The refinement of the body is both complicated and easy. As a captain of the Sophic Realm, I stand at the peak of mortal power, this doesn't mean I live up to my potential, but this means that tying a bolter to my back does little to my cardio. While I am more privileged in this regard, as my ivory shadow constructs allow me to match my body against my soul, allowing me to create dumbbells of impossible weight, at the end of the day I am a member of the Orphic House, we have our own focus of refinement.
While my time with Jeong Jeong enlightened me about the proper use of the Dharma Pneumatic Chambers, I could only Turn the Wheel at low throttle due to how painful intense, and exhausting it is, I had to be at peak performance to protect my students. I can barely go for one full minute while at full throttle now. The inevitability of pain and suffering is at the core of Dionysus's virtuous techniques, the only way for me to master it is by creating a tolerance for it.
I even went the extra mile and had Wan Shi Ton peruse samples of venomous and poisonous flora and fauna from all over the world. The first, I even get to produce on demand with Nature's Bounty, making their regular consumption a quick affair, even if not an easy one. Both a blessing and a curse, as all scarlet sons have to do is blind and burn themselves in pursuit of refinement. Am I not blessed for being so spoiled with options?
Alas, the use of the Dharma gives me a lot of spare pneuma to burn, so I have to find a useful way to employ it all.
Finally came my answer for the refinement of the Spirit. After my success with Archimedes' Golden Tread, the quintessence of Conversion, creating a lens through which to make the world predictable under a mathematical formula, I decided to pursue the quintessence of Diversion.
The philosopher Zeno was the creator of the famous Achille's paradox, which is in fact the mental exercise he used to explain his two fundamental paradoxes. The first is that finite things can be divided a limitless amount of times. Based on this comes the second paradox, that Motion, one of the three factors philosophers manipulate in their favor with their rhetoric, is a lie.
The basic idea here is simple to grasp and extremely powerful. If we imagine ourselves moving from Point A to Point B, we must also imagine ourselves moving from Point A to a point between Point A and Point B. If we call that middle point Point C, then in order to get to that point we must first move past a middle point between Point A and Point C. This can continue ad infinitum, and the problem this creates for us is that there seem to be infinitely many intermediate points between any two given points, which seems to suggest that there are infinitely many different points that exist between any two given points.
That is the underlying principle backing the famous Achille's paradox and manifesting it in reality through rhetoric is almost impossible! In over one year of casual attempts, the best I managed was to figure out Socrates' little telekinesis trick he deploys to attract things to him by manifesting 'negative numbers'.
Zeno's paradox is a perfect exercise for the Spirit, it requires me to neutralize Motion, Magnify all divided space, and lengthen the Time it takes to travel it, something easier said than done. There are simply too many vectors involved, it involves Accelerator levels of micromanagement, which is why it is worthwhile. Using my pneumatic and sophic senses to grasp my surroundings, combined with the predictable frame granted by Archimedes' Golden Treat, I have to manipulate my pneuma into smaller and smaller fractions through an ever-constant change caused by outside stimulus.
Even if no real-life application ever comes out of it, I should at least improve my efficiency and control of pneuma to the point of reaching close to zero waste, plus improve the precision and perception of my supernatural senses if not their reach.
And speaking of occult senses, finally comes the address of my soul's condition latest update. My freak new third eye, courtesy of Rher's influence shining through brought with it the god's tendency to uncover the truth of one's soul. This is a complicated topic even when normal cultivation is involved as Greek souls can have three parts while Egyptian souls can have five and both these styles can be true, contradicting the eternal nature of the soul. Then again, that is why we call mysteries as such, they are infuriatingly opaque to a mortal's perspective.
My case is even worse as I have been tempered under the Moon God's light and diagnosed a [Tormented] soul by whatever vagaries ruled that cursed world. The best word I could use to describe it would be [direction] of a soul, because I certainly acted according to my nature, devouring the essence of others in hunger to overcome Termina. All in order to survive that long nightmare.
The essences I devoured lingered to some extent. I could not totally digest them so my soul integrated them as part of myself instead. It wasn't the wrong path exactly but it is one I am stuck with. More precisely, what are the odds these essences bear within them traces of their logos, spirit, and hunger still? Their skills and unique excellence.
The third eye can easily pick the occult talents leaking from the Changeling and Enlightened and my elevated memory picks out how it has been coloring my actions and performance… I am technically the winner of Termina, I guess these are part of the illustrious heights the Jester bastard talked about.
There is a lot of hidden potential in me that I have yet to realize. It is still too early for me to step into the Heroic Realm as premature as I am right now.
-//-
Life in Wan Shi Ton's Library had a familiar marasmus to it, as the spirit library existed cut off from the cycles of days and nights. It reminded me of my times as a grave keeper in that regard, and the absurd company I kept.
Wan Shi Ton followed my progress with interest, especially as I consumed the content of his library with ever-increasing speed, pushed by a ravenous hunger for knowledge. Not really surprising though, after all,
practice makes for perfection. Lived experience is one of the three main means rhetoric can be evoked, the more books I read the better I become at augmenting my reading speed and information absorption.
I then wrote Threads about each topic I passed through in a scroll augmented by my rhetoric, intending to instill the essence of the content through the voice of my soul.
I also helped the giant Owl how to manage his relationship with the outside world. Both, because we had become palls and because I had to earn my keep as I abused the services of the spirit foxes to perform my own errands. In the end, Wan Shi Ton was better off with a mercenary approach, people would just rip him off if he acted for free. As long as he kept low expectations, he would never be disappointed in humans.
My crow network still allowed me to keep tabs on the outside world. Pen pals had gone out of style before my own time, but in this new world, it was an unprecedented luxury. All of my students went through their own misadventures but somehow, they always found time to come visit at least once a year.
I was always surprised by how much they had grown with each passing visit. Aang grew like a weed, puberty hit Toph like a bolder to the point I had to pull Sokka away from her by the ear; she always had a crush on him, don't ask me why.
Azula and Jet came mostly for supplementary training, she became a nuisance for everyone and somehow it became my fault. At least she found some closure after meeting her missing mother in an incident involving Fire Lord Zuko. She didn't get what she was after but she at least spelled out the biggest dark cloud under her head. I guess mommy issues are another thing she has in common with Griffon. At least her reunion was less traumatic than his own turned out.
The world seems to be modernizing at a dazzling speed and a lot of people have expressed their complaints about the invention of firearms to me. Now that people of all nations are living together in the former Fire Nation colonies, the tension between benders, nonbenders, and cultivators of virtue is increasing.
It came to the point some people have come to pursue Wan Shi Ton's Library in search of my tutelage, of all things. Apparently, some of my works have been quite popular as people try to make sense of the cultivation of virtue. I had hit my limit of students, though. At this point any more charges would just be a distraction, so Wan Shi Ton shooed them all away.
Five years after I settled residence there, I summoned Aang. Time for his final lesson.
-//-
"My, you become bigger each time I see you, but the shallow beard doesn't suit you at all."
"Hey, Katara said it looks good on me!"
"She would say that, wouldn't she?"
At my smart-ass answer, Aang pouted, letting the hints of the boy I once knew shine through.
"Why did you call me here, Sifu?" Aang asks in his best Avatar business voice. He is right to be guarded, I made clear what was to follow was for his ears only.
"Do you remember his room?" I pointed out we once more were at the planetary calendar room of Wan Shi Ton's Library.
"This is where we discovered about the eclipse, right?" Aang asks for confirmation as he inspects the place, his childhood careless and unguarded curiosity giving way to a more appraising eye.
"Do me a favor and set it forward 54 years, will you?" I commanded him with a suggestion that was more like one of our old lessons. Reading the sky and mapping the stars was a necessary skill in most of the pre-modern civilizations. I had him learn it as a necessity for a true air nomad.
Aang didn't understand my goal with it, but he obeyed with anxious trepidation. As he adjusted the calendar his anxiety turned into dread, and dread turned into terror at what he saw.
"No. No, no, no. Harmonic Convergence!" he was in a panic like he was twelve again.
"Funny, I never taught you about it so how did you come to learn it, Aang?"
"I guess I always knew about it. Rather, I never forgot it. I just banished it from my mind. Until now."
"Well, you have the fight of your life ahead of you. I don't want to put pressure on you, but if you lose your death match with the embodiment of malevolence and darkness the world will be cast into ten thousand years of darkness."
"No pressure, right? Ahhhhh! Why does this keep happening to me!?"
Aang started to pass back and forth like Sokka said he did the week before the invasion when he tried to go three days without sleeping.
"Aang, relax. You got this. You won back then and you can do it again." I say with as much confidence as I can project, as Aang was no longer that lost little boy I first met.
"Right, I just have to win. And at least I have a heads-up this time. Usually, these things spring up on me out of nowhere. Thanks, Zagreus, you saved me again."
"I didn't call you here just to inform you about your scheduled death match with Vaatu." To drive the point, I reach deep into shadow, drawing from it all the skin-bibles I acquired from that odious cat monster and my own Thread about the dangers of the Spirit world and how to navigate them. "You are somewhat eternal as Raava, so I would sleep better at night knowing you have your eyes open to monsters the likes of Vaatu after I am gone."
"What are these?" Aang asked with fear in his voice. He knew nothing good could come from the content of these books, yet I had to burden him with it.
"I never told you where I came from, right Aang? Well, time to learn. Because this is also the reason I have to leave."
"Leave? You already live in isolation like some hermit!"
"It has to do with my curse, I am fated to live in interesting times. So I either pursue trouble or let it find me. Which is why it is better for everyone if I leave you than to risk my luck bringing trouble for your incoming battle."
"You don't know that!"
"Aang, you don't know how important you and Raava are to the world. I have seen a world of darkness and the memory scarred my very soul. I am burdening you with this information so that you can commit them to your eternal memory, just in case you ever run into any of them in this or another incarnation. I am also leaving guides to help your next incarnation as well."
"So, you really are leaving? Disappearing just as suddenly as the way you came?"
"Yes. Not yet, but sooner rather than later. That is why I want to get my affairs in order. And for now, this means showing you what lies beyond the safe haven you oversee. I made a point to compile all troublemakers and their most likely counters as well, just to be on the safe side."
"So, just like the old times?"
"Yes, come my spineless students. Attend!"
-//-
I spent a good six months drilling Aang into everything I learned about the work of the spirits, and after some more time, the rest of my disciples got wind of the news and came knocking at my door, look to take satisfaction or voice their complaint about my decision.
Most of them simply couldn't understand, except for Aang, who knew better by then, and the Raves Azula and Jet, who had a good idea of how petty and persistent some spirits can be through secondhand experience; I didn't take the name Zagreus lightly.
"So, you really are going, then?" Katara asked she was desolated as she felt powerless about the whole situation. I part of her would always be the little girl that got her mother taken from her.
"Afraid so, this old man is too much of a vagabond to settle, I am afraid. Sorry to disappoint you."
Or maybe not, she wasn't buying my casual words, answering with a deep hug followed by a drowned ugly cry she silenced in my shirt. I just hugged her back. She was a strong and reliable woman now, Katara would be fine.
Next, came Sokka. And boy, wasn't it strange to meet such a familiar gaze at an even eye level? The light of his soul had the most prominent effect on him compared to all my students. He was a thinking man himself. It is hard to believe some days that I raised him.
"Reconsider this, Zagreus. There is no logical reason for you to go!"
It was clear that while this departure was bittersweet to me, for him it was only bitter. He always disdained the ways of spirits and their workings and becoming a man of principle only solidified this view.
"I think I already told you not everything has to do with reason. After what I experienced, my virtuous heart aches to burn. For those I could not save, in defiance against cosmic injustices, to set the wrongs to right wherever I face them. You all healed me and reminded me the world doesn't have to be this grim. I will carry this with me forever."
It always surprised me how alike Sokka and Katara were at the end of the day. He joined his sister in his hug as he understood what I was confessing to him. The pieces settle into place.
A hero's lot was to burn, until the very end. It was what was required to stand against natural law. To make right of fundamental wrongs a man has to commit every part of himself all throw always his millenary existence for a single golden moment of glory. I was going out to die somewhere else beyond their reach, for every Epic was a tragedy.
This was our goodbye.
I returned my first student's desperate embrace. They would all be fine, as long as that remains true, I can move on.
Speaking of troubled children. "Well, aren't you going to embrace me too, Azula?" it was cute she thought she could use my tricks against me, but I taught her all these ninja tricks to obscure her presence.
"You seem to be overcrowded at the moment." She answers petulantly. Foolish girl, always lying to others and herself.
"Well, I do have a parting gift for you. Something to remember me by." I reach in my shadow for a serrated scarlet sword, almost like it was made of fresh blood. I then toss it her way with careless grace she answers with equal swiftlet.
"And this is?" She asks as she tests the blade.
"A souvenir I got from an impertinent godling. It is called [Red Virtue] and I hope it serves you better than it served her."
"Y-you give far better gifts than my uncle ever did, Sifu." Azula comments just to then jump and embrace me by the neck. Azula inherited Sozin's short king gene, the same as Iroh, so she never reached a prominent height despite being a cultivation prodigy.
The water tribe siblings weren't happy with her butting in, especially while holding a dangerous weapon like that, in the hand of a known nuisance like Azula. And I mean, Justice? Really Azula, that is your capital virtue? And isn't your current organization just a rebranded League of Shadows? Well, if anyone asks, I am not at fault here.
I turned toward Toph, who in contrast to Azula, was almost as tall as me and Sokka. "Well? Nothing to say, siren song?"
"Don't call me that! You never came to my concert!" She fumes at me in indignation.
"We can do a duet right now if you so wish. What do you say?"
She punches me in the kidney in answer, followed by a crushing embrace that would have killed mortal any man in half. "You know, I am starting to understand why everybody gets so livid with my devil-may-care attitude." She confesses as she complains.
"Sorry for being such a bad example, then," I answer in good humor. She wasn't wrong.
I turn to Jet, he somehow keeps a working relationship with Azula through the years as they fight for 'dark justice' or whatever freedom-fighting goal catches their fancy. I always tune it all when Aang complains about it to me.
We just compliment each other through a forearm grip. There wasn't much of a point in small talk, he wasn't that angry and lost boy anymore.
"Are you ready?" Aang asks. As the keeper of this realm, it is his responsibility to see that I don't leave any hole or backtrail when I am gone. We never know what might follow back here.
I nodded while patting his bald head a final time, for good luck. Maybe some of the Raava juice will rub off on me.
Somehow both man and spirit got peeved at my last little joke, I sensed.
"Well, goodbye, and thanks for all the fish." I did a last peace sign as I jumped the gate set up inside the Spirit Library.
Time to search for new shores.
-//-
Concrete narrow alley filled with garbage cans? Check.
The almost forgotten low rattle of cars all around? Check.
Neon lights peeking from all corners, almost like stars? Check.
I jump up, which in my raven mantle mind looks like I am actually taking flying as I scale up the building, a certain sense of absurdity asserting itself and driving home how much I had changed.
Yet, my musing is forgotten by the breathtaking sight.
Civilization. Modern post-industrial metropolis. And not any city either, I recognize that bald white mountain in the background, that is Tokyo!
Man, talk about second chances! I never got to visit it in the past-
Wait, what? Talk about something being too good to be true. While my normal senses see that the world before my eyes is completely ordinary and mundane, my sophic and pneumatic senses inform me of a hidden truth.
Pneuma, sort of, leaking from everyone. While common convention states that everything has pneuma and breaths, even if unconventionally, in this case, all pneuma comes from people. While stretching my range shows some buildings with great concentration of it, it is more like they are clinging to it due to human attention or gathering like sediments.
How do I explain it? Rather than an arcane power like chi, this feels more like human overthought being discharged in the ambient. Due to Rher's insight, I can perceive it is eminently negative in nature, though due to Dionysus' own chthonic mysteries, it was something I could perceive just by how familiar it is.
This is negative energy itself born from humanity's dark thoughts… and when enough of it condenses for long enough in a single place, it creates a cesspool that gives birth to all kinds of malaria. Those stemmed from the mind, that it.
Heart Demons.
Tokyo was a quiet pandemonium. They were literally everywhere, invisible to all. Yet they were far from harmless, people suffered under the attention of the least of imps and the more time was granted to the demons, the more a bearing they found to harm others.
After I started to look for it, it became clear normal people would have been easily overrun by any moderately old spirit yet society not only endured their attention but thrived despite it, free of any truly ancient horror.
The most likely answer is that someone is been playing exterminator and as these creatures are made of pure pneuma, they can only be harmed by pneuma in turn. Regular attacks can't harm them at all.
I finally had enough and decided to go into a cybercafé after pickpocketing the wallet of some fat cat, less than what he deserved as a corporative slave master; I guess the term is black company.
Of course, I also needed a better disguise without my mantle of anonymity. The average male Japanese height is 160 cm (5'3'), and my bodily refinement brought me to 215 cm (7 foot), that is without even mentioning the sinister leonine beauty Greek cultivators so heavily favor as the body reaches peak performance. This might have made me popular in the war-sieged Water Tribe but in the pacific and conformity-oriented modern Japan?
I will be lucky if the cops don't close in on me by the end of the hour.
Fortunately, I am not out of options, even if admitting this pains me. Greeks do have a second ideal standard for the male physical that doesn't involve its worship of warfare… this is how they named all their flower after all. Plus, Dionysus is heavily associated with the archetype of the Child and the concept of
Puer Aeternus (eternal child). I had done similar in Ba Sing Se, something like this wasn't beyond my means.
The experience was unsettling and humiliating in a way that my time dragging as Joo Dee to infiltrate the Dai Le never managed to even come close. It is illogical, especially considering I don't even have any company to hold this over my head. But well… at least that form could still pass for a fierce and powerful heroine, my current form? Not so much.
Maybe a part of me has grown to enjoy looking down on people, having an intimidating presence that demanded respect and elicited fear. It is not exactly nice, especially for someone claiming to want to become a hero, but it is the truth.
Plus, the fact I turned out to be the prettiest person I have ever seen in person while in this form comes as an unexpected defeat. I mean, due to the cosmetics of cultivation continuous smoothing out of all outer imperfection, the result was a foregone conclusion when I am pitted against crude unrefined souls, but the realization still comes out as a blow.
Bakkahos, what did you use this form for?
You know what? I am better off not knowing.
-//-
[AUTHOR'S ROOM]
So, Zagreus finally moved on from the elemental nations but not before finally cashing in his victory of Termina. Maybe he will return there someday? Who knows, it might be interesting to see the consequences of his actions.
But the most interesting thing now is the new shores he has to explore. So, did you figure out where he is yet?