"If you face your enemy without a single advantage, then you will be without victory."
High Field Marshal Alexander Meadow, supreme commander of the Imperial Britannic Army, speaking to General Bartholomew after the rout of Paris.
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12:07pm, Monday the 10th of July, Tokyo-3, NERV quarters
The necessity of synch tests was something Shinji didn't call into question these days. They were something he accepted, along with all the early mornings he had to work.
Early mornings? Is this just a job to me now?
Life was proving to be more interesting than he could ever have imagined in that dingy little apartment in Kure. It was alien to have so many things to do, especially after two years of doing nothing but eating, sleeping, reading, a bit of exercise, and playing his cello. Nowadays, he had more strenuous things to attend to. Surprisingly enough, his role of saving the earth being among the least of his problems.
"Shinji-kun!? Do you know where my dress is?" The voice of one of his chief
tasks echoed from her room.
"It's in the wash!" He called back.
"In the wash? But that's my favourite one! When will it be dry?"
"It'll be dry when it's dry. You'll have to wear something casual today!" Shinji sighed with mock despair.
I thought she's supposed to be my guardian, not the other way around!
Eventually, Misato did come into the kitchen, where the brown haired boy was sitting down and eating his toast. Said piece of bread nearly fell out of his mouth upon seeing her in nothing more than a T-shirt and underwear. Whilst said tight fitting clothes, or lack thereof, were distracting and embarrassing, it was another matter which absorbed his attention.
"I-I just ironed those yesterday." He stammered.
"Yeah...so?" She tilted her head, taking a quick look at the horrendously creased clothing she had on her.
"How are they so creased already...you left them on the floor didn't you?"
"So..?" She plopped herself down on a kitchen chair, not in a normal manner, but with her...
bare...long legs curled beneath her.
Hey, I was busy okay! Protecting humanity from giant monsters is tiring as hell.
"So, is it really that hard, to pick them up, put them on the hanger, then back in the wardrobe? I'm not very good at a lot of things, Misato-san,
but I can do that." Blue and brown didn't break contact for a while, before both of them broke into laughter over the silliness of the situation.
"You're complementing yourself about something now?Spirits on high I must have done something
really wrong." His guardian leaned back in her seat and folded her arms behind her head.
"It's not a compliment when it's a fact..." Shinji said sardonically.
"Hm. You don't have to go to school today you know?" Misato said, picking up a mug of coffee he'd had left out for her.
The boy pondered that for a while before shrugging.
"Maybe...but I kind of enjoy it these days. Anyway, it's history this afternoon and I promised Aida-san I'd be there for his presentation... " He remembered the optional assignment of doing "a presentation on a great post-impact battle" and his...
friend...actually jumping at the opportunity. Much to Toji's horror.
"
He knows so much about it, we'll be there for hours." The jock's moan echoed in Shinji's head, causing him to smile a little.
"Friend of yours right?" The purple head further inquired, slotting some bread of her own in the toaster.
"Yes...I suppose..."
Told you. Not so lonely anymore are you? Misato sipped some more of her coffee, dwelling over what presentations were like for her back in college.
Oh Spirits...Rits-chan getting to talk about Science took up the whole lesson...
Whilst the purple head's own toast popped out of the toaster, Shinji had gone into his room and was gathering his school things together with some haste. Controlled haste, but still haste. For there were other reasons he wished to get to school today.
I want to walk Ayanami-san home this afternoon. See if I can do anything about her apartment.
"Hey, did you hear on the news? The bitch herself is coming to Tokyo-3." Misato half laughed half sneered, opening up a can of beer, pulled from a pack she'd only just retrieved from the fridge.
"The General? Why?" He called back.
"To keep an eye on us of course. Motichka-sama always hates not having things under her control, especially the Evas. With her in town she might actually try and get you to work for her, so stay sharp." The thirty year old quickly downed a quarter of the can, her utterance of
sama being laced with sarcasm.
"Why would she want
me to work for her?"
"An Eva under her command would be quite an addition to Japan's arsenal, and leverage over your father. She'd do anything for either." The purplehead's attention was caught by some warking by her feet, and a beak slightly prodding her thigh.
"Hey, Pen. You want some?" She raised an eyebrow as the Penguin made many a noise of approval. In a casual manner she plucked another can from the pack, and handed it to the genetically enhanced penguin. A wark of gratitude echoed throughout the kitchen, with Shinji only catching the sound of Pen-pen's fridge door sliding shut as he returned from his room.
"You know beer probably isn't any good for him?" He shook his head, slinging his school bag over his shoulder.
"Oh he's fine, he loves it really."
"I'm sure...don't forget to put your cutlery away!" Shinji made his way to the front door.
"Yes Mom!"
Out of her eyesight, the boy had to frantically fight a flinch whilst simultaneously appreciating the humour.
Of course she wouldn't mean it like that.
Putting his hand on the door panel, he stopped for a moment before calling out again.
"I might be home a bit late. I'm going to try and walk Ayanami-san back to her apartment this afternoon."
It was Misato's turn to squirm.
How crazy...you don't know everything about her but you know she's a clone at least. They don't have feelings Shinji, especially not that one. I hope you understand someday...
"Alright, but be back before dark!"
"Okay, see you later!" The sixteen year old pressed the panel, causing the door to slide open, before he walked out of it, the slab of metal sealing shut behind him.
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2:15pm, Sengokuhara high school
"That was an excellent summary of the battle of Hoyo strait. Very well done, Kirishima-san." Mr Sisata gave a nod at the dark redheaded student, who smiled and bowed politely then returned to her seat.
"Now then..." His speech faltered as he chuckled to himself.
"You have fifteen minutes, Aida-san. Don't go overboard. And yes, your request to do the
battle of Hoth was very amusing." This elicited laughter from the class, before the sandy haired geek stood up and made his way to the front, a nervous yet enthusiastic look etched into his freckly features.
"Okay, my presentation is about the 2005 battle of Dogger bank. I've already emailed my stuff to
Sensei so..." He gave a sheepish look at the old man, who simply stood aside and allowed the fifteen year old to access his console. After a few moments of accessing files, Kensuke opened up his presentation. There were some groans upon the quick glimpse of how many slides there were, but Toji just smiled, as if he'd expected it.
Clasping his hands together in a manner more awkward than anything Shinji could ever manage, he began with a sparkle of joy in his brown eyes.
"Alright, the battle of Dogger bank was fought between the British North Sea Fleet and the German High Seas fleet on the 29th of December 2005. The Kaiserreich had the most powerful navy in continental Europe at the time, and its High Seas fleet composed the majority of it, sixty warships altogether. Four Aircraft carriers and an assortment of advanced destroyers, corvettes, and frigates." He tapped the board, causing the next slide to show up.
It was an impressive display, one of the High Seas fleet setting sail from Hamburg. Black, white, and red naval ensigns of the German Empire fluttering proudly from every single tree in a forest of ships.
Reminds me of the Naval reviews at Kure. Shinji fondly mused.
"At this time, the Great British Empire was engaged in a war on two fronts, with the Federation in the west, and Europe in the east. Of course the Grand fleet, the bulk of the Imperial navy, was deployed to the Irish sea to fight off the Federals. That only left twenty ships of the North Sea fleet to defend the English channel."
Kensuke tapped the board again. This time, a map of continental western Europe was brought up. From Gibraltar to Norway, the entire coast was covered in Navy blue, with various arrows of the same colour pointing outwards and further into the continent.
"Before the Federation launched their surprise attack, Europe was on the brink of total obliteration. The armies of France had been pushed back to Paris, the Spanish, Portuguese, Dutch, Belgian, Danish, and Norwegian armies had been utterly smashed, and even the Germans were pretty badly beaten at Beauvais. But with the Federal conquest of Ireland and march on Birmingham, Imperial armies were spread thin. So the Germans thought they could break the Empire's supply lines in a decisive engagement."
The next slide came on, showing a map of the Baltic and north sea, a black arrow extending from Hamburg to Portsmouth.
"Plan-S or
Sieg as it was called, was the Europeans last throw of the dice. If it was successful, they hoped that Britain would be forced to sue for peace. To accomplish that, the High Seas fleet, under the command of Grand Admiral Degenhard, would sail from Hamburg to clear the English channel and attack Portsmouth, cutting Imperial supplies for the campaign in France. They knew from Satellite imagery that they outnumbered the Imperials three to one. And so they committed to the plan."
Next slide.
One which depicted battle plans in the Imperial language.
"Problem was, the Empire wanted them to come. Emperor Charles and his Marshals had decided to conclude the war with Europe from a position of strength. They needed troops and ships to be freed up for the war against the Federation, but they couldn't look weak. Crushing the High Seas fleet would force Europe to the negotiating table on their knees. And this was what they were going to accomplish that with..."
The next slide Kensuke brought up, was of a ship that would have seemed totally antiquated to most navies in 1999 AD, but was now one of the mainstays of a modern navy.
The battlecruiser.
"This is HMS Hood, an Indefatigable class battlecruiser, the flagship of the Imperial navy's first battlecruiser squadron, and the first ship of its kind. Its design is actually a modernised version of the old Royal Navy
Admiral class. Only one of them was ever put into service by the United Kingdom, and that one was lost in 1941, with the ship you see here being named after it. In late 2005 however, the Empire had five of these, whereas now there are about thirty. The advent of the A-T field being used for purposes of shielding brought about the
Second age of the battleship, in which these were the vanguard. So, as you can imagine, the Germans got quite a surprise."
The next slide showed the darkness of an early European December morning being illuminated by the blasts of ship mounted rail guns and the launching of cruise missiles.
"This picture was taken onboard the HMS Anson, another battlecruiser, right when the Imperials opened fire. They'd moved to intercept the Germans around half an hour beforehand. The picture's pretty dark, but the High Seas fleet was within visual range. They'd already used up their payload of missiles on doing absolutely
nothing to the Empire's shielding. That was when they found out just how heavily armed and
fast the Imperial ships were."
Kensuke paused for a moment with a thoughtful expression.
"We all know what it's like when the enemy thinks they have the advantage, and then they find out just how dead wrong they are..." Vicious chuckles echoed across the room, Shinji among them.
Damned Tokuajin.
"Aida-san. Stay on topic." Mr Sisata had raised an eyebrow causing the geek to go rigid with embarrassment.
"Sorry, sensei! Anyway, Admiral Colran, the commander of the North Sea fleet, ordered his battlecruiser squadron to just steam straight into the German formation...the High Seas Fleet got cut to pieces. The order to retreat was given...and then Colran's capability became obvious to all."
Next slide.
The black arrow showing the movement of the High Seas fleet, being met by a Navy blue arrow in the north sea was shown to have been turned back, only to be intercepted by another blue arrow that had split off from the main force and circled around.
They were almost cut off.
"By the way, that arrow looks small, but that's the majority of the North Sea fleet. A bunch of Destroyers, Corvettes, and Submarines broke off from the battlecruisers before they engaged, and flanked around. The German Vice Admiral, nowadays Grand Admiral Scheer saw the danger, and ordered his aircraft to launch, so as to buy the fleet some time to escape. The Imperials lost two Corvettes from that." Kensuke paused, licking his lips as he'd talked himself dry.
"Scheer got his ships out, Degenhard decided to fight to the end. Out of the sixty vessels of the High Seas fleet, only eleven escaped. One of them being Scheer's flagship, the aircraft carrier SMS Koniggratzer."
The following slide showed an image of many well dressed middle aged men and women, dignitaries of all the remaining free states of Europe, humbly bowing before a fifteen year old boy with blonde hair, sapphire eyes, white cape, and navy blue military uniform.
"The Empire's victory at Dogger bank utterly shattered whatever resolve the Europeans had left. And with the Russians massing on their borders, they had to come to the negotiating table, which resulted in the treaty of Paris on the 10th of January 2006. The entire western coast of Europe was ceded to Britain, who could then turn their full might on the Federation armies in the Imperial home islands, crushing them, which would eventually lead to the invasion and conquest of the American east coast. I believe the battle of Dogger bank was instrumental in the shaping of the west as it is today, and if the Empire continues to expand, we may feel its influence too." Kensuke blushed when he received a resounding applause from his class mates, having finally finished.
For most in that class knew just how much he was was interested by naval warfare and anything military related. If he didn't go on for too long, it was actually something of a joy and a privilege to listen, as he had a bottomless well of knowledge to let loose upon the Earth.
"Spirits he had to condense that." Toji whispered quietly to Shinji. The mousey haired sixteen year old raised an eyebrow and shook his head.
"Very well done, Aida-san. I see you're actually listening to me when it comes to downsizing your presentations." Sisata smiled and nodded, Kensuke making a polite bow in response then returnin to his seat.
"Nice one." Toji patted him on the shoulder, with Shinji adding "well done", as he didn't know what else to say.
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3:00pm
After the presentation on the siege of Quebec was finished, the day was over. Whilst the thought of what the Federals had done at the former Canadian city made Shinji's stomach squirm, he was still in something that resembled a good mood.
He honestly enjoyed the company of his...
friends.
Now there was a bizarre thought to him. For the young man had never had such a thing as
friends before. And for the longest time he didn't think he'd ever be getting any. As was to be expected of someone as
dislikeable as him.
Even if I don't deserve that kind of thing...I'm happy to have it.
"So...how big is the Imperial fleet these days?" Toji's question took Shinji out of his moment of self reflection. Said question being directed at Kensuke.
"The Imperial Navy or the Air Fleet?" The bespectacled boy tilted his head.
"Both."
Kensuke scratched the back of his head, whilst he and everyone else in the class started packing up their things.
"The Air Fleet is fifty-five ships strong, fifty of them being Renown class and the other five being Dauntlesses. As for the navy, there's fifteen battleships, most of them being Vanguard class, although I think they launched a new one recently...the
Empress Abigail class or something..."
Shinji blocked that out, as was his specialty, whilst Toji listened on, a tired smile further growing on his face.
"Kensuke-san." He said as they walked through the corridor after the nerd had talked for five minutes straight.
"Hmm huh?" Kensuke stopped mid explanation on the top speed of a Type 45.
"You're going on again, buddy. Time to change topic." The jock patted the shorter geek on the back with surprising gentleness.
"Hey, Ikari-san, if he ever bores you just tell him, he won't know otherwise." Toji advised his new friend.
"Um, thanks. I'll keep that in mind..." A sudden flash of short blue hair going past him caught Shinji's eyes.
"I-I've got to go...things to do..." He nervously started edging away, Toji titling his head, and Kensuke raising a sandy eyebrow.
"Things to do with Ayanami-san I presume? Well as long as you take protection everything will be fine." The two students had to stifle their sniggers when their classmate's face turned redder than the eyes of an enraged Seraph.
"It's...it's...not like that...gah!" Forcing himself away, he hurried on after the quiet albino, his insides convulsing in disgust.
It's classified information, need to know only. I just wish I could tell them to make them shut up.
Yet a little part of him wasn't overly fussed by this. In fact, their teasing was actually funny upon later thought. It would have to be later though, as the back of a blue haired girl came into view by the school entrance.
"Hey...uh...Ayanami-san!" He called out.
Rei stopped in her tracks and turned around. Her expression remained blank, but Shinji understood he had her
undivided attention right then and there. And this was a privilege only a few other people on Earth had.
"Ikari, your expression is very red."
He found himself smiling at that.
"Yes, I suppose I am. How are you holding up?"
"I am not holding anything..."
The brown haired boy quickly and quietly stifled his laugh before straightening up with a humoured yet apologetic expression.
"Sorry,
how are you holding up is sort of another way of saying
how are you?"
She looked semi-thoughtful for a moment, dwelling on what to say.
I know not how to describe myself. But what negative thing am I not currently?
"I am not unwell."
Shinji sighed and nodded, not quite the answer he was looking for, but satisfactory. Far better than just being ignored.
"Ayanami-san...I was wondering...if...if..."
Just say it you idiot.
"Would you like me to walk you home? Also your house is a little messy so I wondered if I could help you tidy it up a little..." He trailed off, blushing ferociously.
Rei stood there, like a computer carrying out calculations. And then, upon finishing said calculations, she nodded slightly.
"I take no issue with it. You may come home with me."
Rei didn't understand why Shinji's blush somehow increased, why it looked like his veins would burst or that he would pass out. For the ethereal girl couldn't quite grasp what she said might be interpreted in...a less than innocent manner.
Tilting her head slightly, the albino looked past him, fixing her attention on something else.
"It seems the Suzuhara and Aida desire your attention."
Following her gaze, the meek young man made eye contact with the two, who had been walking up behind him.
"Sorry to disturb you, but do you mind if we borrow your boyfriend for a bit, Ayanami-san?" Kensuke grinned cheekily and Toji sighed.
Even she seemed semi-surprised by the statement, looking back and forth between the two boys and Shinji. All whilst the brown haired boy in question made varying noises of total discomfort.
"You appear to be mistaken. I harbour no attraction of that kind for my colleague. However, you may indeed
borrow him."
Sighing, her progenitor's child straightened himself up before turning back to her.
"I-I won't be long."
"I shall wait." And that was exactly what the albino did, as this boy so strange to her, was proverbially hauled off.
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"What's all this about?" Shinji said irritably, the three of them making their way to a more private part of the school, where at this time of day its various buildings blocked out the sun.
"I was just having a talk with Kensuke-san...and I felt this needs to happen." Toji said quietly.
When they reached the shade, the black haired boy inhaled deeply, composing himself.
"Hit me."
The demand hung in the air for a while.
"What?" Shinji said, aghast.
"You heard me! I beat the snot out of you, so it's only fair!"
He frantically looked at Kensuke for help, only getting a shrug of the shoulders.
"Look, we can't be friends until you hit me. Then all this nasty shit gets put in the past." Toji pressed.
"But...but...uh..gah, fine!" Reluctantly, but inevitably, as if relenting to other people's demands again, he moved a bit closer to the taller boy, his fist balling and his arm winding back.
"No holding back." The jock narrowed his eyes.
For a moment he hesitated, his hand trembling slightly. The thought of inflicting physical violence on anything had always been abhorrent to him, so much so he even felt some guilt over the various Seraphim whose lives he had taken. Not that he would happily let
them end everything, but he just wasn't a confrontational, nor vindictive person. But once again, duty called. His fist arced around and smacked into Toji's jaw.
What happened next, surprised Shinji.
Toji Suzuhara, a boy much taller and muscular than him, spun round from the impact, collapsing, a few droplets of blood pattering on the floor.
"
Oh Spirits I'm so sorry!" He shrieked in horror as he knelt down to his friend's level, Kensuke following behind him. Toji looked a little dazed, but not at all angry. In fact, he looked relieved, as if many weeks worth of guilt had just dropped off his shoulders.
"You alright, Toji-san?" The geek put a hand on his best friend's shoulder with a look of absolute concern.
Toji sat up, wiping the blood away from his mouth with his sleeve.
"Spirits
, Shinji-san, you hit like a fucking train. Remind me to never piss you off." He chuckled, Kensuke eventually joining him in what could be seen as relief.
The young man in question shook his head.
"You people are lunatics."
Eh, looks like I'm in good company then...
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3:30pm, NERV quarters, eastern sector.
Rei did not hold the door open for him, as was to be expected. It was with no annoyance that Shinji caught said door with his hands when it nearly closed in his face. The apartment was still the same as it was the last time he'd visited. On the day they'd faced the 6th Seraph and scarcely walked away with their lives. Occasionally, he would wake up in a cold sweat, having dreamed of pulling the hatch off the plug, only finding Rei's burned and mangled carcass, what remained of her face contorted in a silent scream of agony. He didn't know whether or not it was worse than his other nightmares. It was just that it was a new one which gave him trouble. He'd adapt to it however, it would become normalized like the rest.
Having walked through the filthy kitchen, he found Rei sitting on her bed, hunched over and looking at the floor.
"Um...are you...what are you doing?" He'd had to correct the
are you alright question he'd created in his grey matter, as it was clear the albino didn't understand that sort of thing. It was a very strange thing for Shinji to find someone even more socially inept than him. It put him in the position of mentor when it came to such things as societal norms now, a position he wasn't at all comfortable with.
"I am sitting on my bed." She whispered.
"I...I can see that, Ayanami-san. But why?" He said, taking stock of the
pit that was Rei Ayanami's humble abode.
Spirits I've got my work cut out for me.
"There is little else to do. Dinner is not until 5:00, and it will not be dark until sometime after that. And so I wait, until there is something worth doing."
Within Shinji, anger bubbled and boiled again, only just being able to contain it.
This had to be his father's work. He'd kept her isolated and alone for all these years in this filthy hovel, in what the young man could only think was an attempt to make her a mindless slave. Why? He didn't know. But this was something he could easily see Gendo Ikari doing.
That's probably just me being angry with him. Father isn't a pleasant man but he's not...evil...that's just ridiculous...
"Alright. Can I put your clothes away...they are kind of everywhere." He put on a small smile, another part of his brain dwelling upon finding something for her to do.
She nodded politely, but remained where she was.
Many things were scattered across that filthy floor. Shirts, skirts, ties...underwear. The wimpy boy found himself fighting back an almost unstoppable blush.
"These are filthy." He noted with slight alarm, turning back to Rei who stared back. She raised no objections.
"Where's your washing machine?"
"In the kitchen. Next to the sink."
Bundling a whole pile of clothes together, dark blue school uniform and white underwear, the mousey haired boy made his way to the kitchen, having to occasionally stop to pick up the odd sock which had fallen off.
"What are you doing?" Rei's words caused him to stop for a moment, before he directed his gaze in her direction.
"I'm putting these in the washing machine."
"But it is not the allocated day."
"What do you mean by
allocated?" Shinji titled his head.
"In the regime the Commander has set out for me, Friday's are the allocated wash days."
No, screaming about how she doesn't have to do everything he tells her isn't going to help...try something else...
"Okay, I suppose that makes a little sense. But if you do it a few times a week, your workloads are smaller and you have more clothes to use overall. It's a bit more efficient." He offered.
She mulled over it for a few moments, a small frown developing on her face which made his heart melt.
"Your logic is...sound..." She sounded distant, as if this thought had never occurred to her.
"I'll just put these in, give me a moment." He said gently, then proceeded into the kitchen. Finding the appropriate cleaning detergent and fabric softener, he turned the machine on for a good thirty minute wash, with its contents sloshing and tumbling merrily.
That being finished, Shinji began his thorough inspection of the kitchen.
Grime.
Dirty dishes.
Filthy floors.
Broken cutlery.
All the things teacher would have given him a bleeding nose for.
Opening the sink cupboard door again, he managed to find some anti-bacterial spray which seemed like it had seen Second Impact, and a mangy old dishcloth.
If that's what I've got, then that's what I'll work with.
Spraying and scrubbing a good deal of the mantle-piece, he managed to get some sort of shine on the taps and such. But there were
growths there he'd probably need the cleaning equivalent of
heavy fire power to get rid of.
Before he could return to Rei however, Shinji felt compelled to clean away all the broken crockery and glass scattered around.
His
sister appeared to be so emotionally and socially stunted, she had no clue these things could do her harm.
I hope she's never cut herself.
His work complete after half an hour, the young man made his way back into the
bedroom, fiddling with the collar of his school uniform as a drop of sweat trickled down the back of his neck due to the heat in this stuffy apartment. Clearly it was so dilapidated, it didn't even have air conditioning. Whether or not that affected Rei, who remained silently sitting on her bed not appearing to have a care in the world, was another matter.
"It's quite a mess in there. I'll bring some stronger cleaning stuff tomorrow...is that okay?" He inquired.
"I take no issue with it."
"Alright. I'm going to check your bathroom now." He gestured at the room in question, getting no response except that red stare. Assuming, and rightfully so, this meant "go ahead," he made his way towards it. Fortunately it wasn't any worse than the kitchen. Unfortunately it was about as bad.
More broken glass, blood in the sink and on the filthy towels, grime in the shower and cracked tiles on the floor. It looked worse than some of the pre-Impact ruins he'd set eyes upon.
How...can he let her live like this!? Shinji's hand balled into a fist, one which actually shook for a while. Eventually calming himself down, he opened the bathroom cabinet to check what was in there.
Medication, bottles and syringes upon endless bottles and syringes resided before him. Now at that moment in his life, he would merely raise an eyebrow of confusion and slight unease at such a sight, for the young man knew little to nothing about medical science.
Especially when the labels were bizarrely enough in English.
But let it never be said he was stupid. For although he felt he didn't know much to begin with, he was sure this amount of medication for one person was unusual.
"You've got a lot of meds in here, Ayanami-san...why?" He called out.
"They are prescribed to me by the Commander. They are very important." Rei found herself, with no one else seeing, furrowing her sky blue eye brows when the word
why filtered through her head.
It is not my place to question.
After another half an hour of jostling around with various medication, managing to get them into a more ordered formation, doing his best to clear away the stains, Shinji came back out of the bathroom, looking concerned.
"Are you sure you really need that much? I mean...it can't be that serious, whatever you have?"
"It is the Commander's will."
"Why do you feel like that...that you always have to obey him?" He gently sat on the bed as well, keeping a cautious distance but not too great a one.
"He gave me life. I must obey without question. He is my progenitor." Her head tilted, the desire to disobey was unthinkable.
"Technically he was mine as well. You don't see me and him getting along so well though do you?" Shinji said sadly.
An awkward silence descended upon the two for a while, with Rei turning away, her expression darkening.
"Sorry." He quickly muttered in an attempt to salvage something from the situation.
"That is unnecessary. Although I disagree with you, I do not think less of you for it." Her words were true to her heart, but the albino's expression remained dark.
Perhaps that's enough for today...I've probably overstayed my welcome.
Standing up, Shinji sighed, nodding slightly.
"I'll leave you be. See you tomorrow then." He smiled, in both a sad yet genuine manner, and began to collect his things.
But something made him hesitate, before he would walk back through the kitchen and to the rusted door. Somehow...he felt her gaze pierce him, follow him. Turning back to face her, cerulean meeting ruby, Shinji found her eyes was
fixed on him. Not murderous, or upset, like whenever anyone else directly focused on him to the exclusion of all else, but something else...something different.
Something he himself felt all too often.
Apprehension.
She...doesn't want me to go?
"Do you want me to stay for dinner?" He found himself smiling in a sweet way, as only someone of his soft nature could manage.
Rei looked thoughtful for a moment. Then, her quiet words, and the lighting up of her features, in so far as she could, proved to be something of a surprise for him.
"Yes, Ikari...I would like that."