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13/7/1993
Despite the excitement of the day, Areru's evening was decidedly quiet. Normal. His two halves were each doing the same things they usually did.
One part of him was sitting at a desk, next to the phone, his homework in front of him as he worked at it between taking orders for either groceries or sweets. The other part, when he wasn't making deliveries, was sitting in the sitting room at the kotatsu and slowly writing out the instructions for what was one of the most foundational pieces of magic that he knew.
Using a fountain pen and an inkwell was actually a new learning experience for him. It wasn't easy, and Areru wasn't good enough to add in any artistic flair just yet.
But it was... nice. It was a low-stress project that didn't need to be done right quick and in a hurry, so he could take his time. In fact, it wasn't something that he -needed- to do at all.
It was something he was doing because he wanted to.
Reis was dozing at the side of the Areru working on writing out a book, her head actually on his lap. And Ryoko was playing one of the games that he'd bought for her. Final Fantasy Four.
The game was familiar to Areru, but he didn't actually know why. But, familiar or not, watching as Ryoko struggled to figure out where to go was, somehow... frustrating.
She was at a point in the game where she'd gotten some kind of space whale ship so she could take her characters to the moon. There were a couple of caves, a face-shaped rock, and...
"Weird," Areru said as Ryoko tried to land her ship on the game's map, near the crystal palace, just to be rejected over and over again. "Did you know there's a crystal palace on our own moon?"
Ryoko's fingers froze on the controller as she turned and looked at him, clearly surprised.
'No,' she signed at him as she put the controller down. 'I did not know that.'
"Yeah, hang on a second," the Areru doing his homework told the woman as he got up to head upstairs. He came down a few moments later, a stack of pictures in his hands. He began to lay them out on the kotatsu for Ryoko to see.
The woman picked up the stack and began to look through them, one by one. She started with the shattered remains of what the palace looked like from the outside, then to the interior where Areru had been making repairs, then more and more before stopping at a picture of a painting with two women in it.
One was a teenage girl with long, blond hair while the other was an older, slightly more mature woman with her hair done in an identical style but in the color of silver.
"Don't know if it was a whole kingdom thing going on up there," Areru admitted to the woman as she set the pictures aside. "Or it was some kind of religious outpost or monastery kind of thing. There's technology up there, crystal tech, because it's always crystals, and I haven't had any luck in figuring out how to use any of it."
Ryoko made a sign with her hands that was less a word and more a visual representation that she was listening before she spread the photos out over the tabletop. Areru didn't miss the way the woman focused on the picture of the mother and daughter duo...
It was another question he'd asked, a long time back.
'Do you have any parents?'
And Ryoko had said 'I don't know'.
With what Ryoko had said, with what Areru had seen of her actual, undying body...
He'd been thinking, lately, that Ryoko might be some kind of construct. Something that had been made, forged with a purpose who had, like the legends of the original Golem, grown beyond what she'd been made to do.
It was hard to get any confirmation, though. Ryoko's past was a topic that the woman would rarely talk about.
Ryoko knocked on the table quickly, getting Areru's attention, and then asked him a question.
'The spirit from earlier,' she began, her fingers twisting and her arms waving as she articulated her point. 'Would you have done the same thing to me?'
"Do you mean torment you, tie you up and then send you off to the afterlife?" Areru asked. He waited for the woman to nod her spiky head of hair before pursing his lips for a moment in thought. "Would you kill me for the mistake of crossing your path?"
'Not willingly,' Ryoko said before shaking her head and almost comically waving her hands.
Which added another point for the Construct idea. Or at least half a point.
People that had never been forced to do something against their will? Don't usually consider it a possibility. While the victims of such manipulations, Areru knew, would have to live with the fear of such a thing happening again.
"And that's why I wouldn't treat you like that spirit, Ryoko," Areru explained as he reached over the table to start picking up the pictures one by one. "That spirit, I never learned her name and I'll probably never figure it out, wasn't 'forced' to kill people. She held on to that grudge, that hatred, and she lashed out at total strangers. If she'd been a spirit of vengeance? If she'd killed her own killers before moving on? I wouldn't entirely agree but I've killed people, Ryoko. I understand being forced to take Justice into your own hands."
Areru hadn't killed anyone in this life, a trend he hoped would continue, but...
Some people... chose to be monsters.
If he thought about it. If he lingered on it... He could still see a little cabin hidden in the woods, in the dead of winter. He could still smell the pain and sweat and Violation that had happened within...
"But that spirit's continued existence was just one long, extended temper tantrum," Areru continued, his voice getting softer. "You were also hurt, Ryoko. You were killed, your own body sealed away and your lingering existence... able to see the world, but not able to interact with it? Not able to touch anything, your voice always falling on deaf ears?"
Areru reached over and gently grabbed one of Ryoko's hands, wrapping her smaller hand in his own.
"You could be angry. You should be angry," Areru admitted, his eyes burning as Ryoko looked down, her chest shuddering as tears dripped from her face. "But things are better. Things can -be- better. You just have to be willing to make it so."
Ryoko pulled her hand away from Areru and wrapped herself in a hug, her arms clutching to her own sides tightly.
The Areru who'd been working on the book picked Reis up and draped the sleepy dragon over his shoulder before grabbing the end of the table and pulling it away-
Whilst the Areru who'd been talking with Ryoko, his form expanded, more than doubling in size as he returned to his true self. The dragon gently, carefully pulled Ryoko against his chest and closed his eyes.
Like this, he could feel every tremor that went through her astral form. Like this, he could feel her tears land upon his scales before they faded away.
Areru, whose true shape was great and monstrous...
And Ryoko, whose history was likely more so...
It made his heart hurt.
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In his home, much later that night, Katsuhito sat at his table in deep thought long after Naru and Hanabi had gone to bed.
He hadn't told them of what occurred. He had no idea how to do so, truly. The events seemed to have been utterly surreal, even hours later.
The old man calmly sipped at his tea, a number of books and scrolls open on his table before him.
'What are you?' the Death Goddess had asked, her eyes wide and frightened when she'd looked upon Ginji Areru.
She had not known. They were not omniscient, Yosho knew that quite well enough, but...
What could Areru possibly be?
What could he be, so alien and foreign, that the Shinigami had looked upon him in fear?
Katsuhito did not know, and his books offered him no answers.
There were too many questions about the boy, beloved by the spirits. And that...
That made the prince incredibly uneasy.