As Night and Day
Second Day of Elnu-Hamba (Elnu Descendent), 1349 A. L. (After Landfall)
Sleep proves to be an illusive quarry, its twisting paths filled with half memories. At times you see dark shapes, corpses strewn on the damp earth, their faces turned from you, strange and yet horrifically familiar, then as you turn away you feel the grasp of clammy hands, dead limbs rising to pull your down into their fate. The sword at your side is not there and in its place only the steel you had come into this world with, Durendal's name echoes strangely in your mind, once more a tale that had caught a child's fancy and no more the blade of fire you have borne.
Who do you think you are to presume the name?
Roland de Verley, knight of Normandy, heir and lord of my House, though little remains to me that I shall defend, you answer back as though into swirling waters or storm wracked skies.
The ground shifts beneath your feet and you are again upon the storm tossed deck of the Marcella as she was last night, the shouts of the sailors faded to nothing, even the rumble of thunder faded to a muted rumble. As you reach to give what aid you can your hands pass though the rope and your words wither on your lips. A dread feeling comes upon you then that you are dead and this is your purgatory, that since that first storm none of this had been true, only the wrath of God for your sins that you had been too blind to see.
Had you not doubted the goodness of god and the word of his Church? Thus you are cast out from its embrace into this darling place, thus you are damned.
You are damned.
Something within you breaks, but it is not your hope, rather it is the strange logic of the dream that strains against itself. That you might deserve this fate you can accept, but your men, the whole of the Fellowship of Saint Nicholas damned because you have been damned? No, that you will not bear, you will not accept.
As the faces of your men float out of the deep caverns of memory the darkness of the false storm seems to fade, to part like a tattered curtain with the first breeze of dawn. There is a bitter taste on your tongue and a foul odor in your nostrils, like something that had washed up on the shore only to rot in the sun and the rain.
You damned them.
As a wraith behind your own eyes you float, explaining to Hugh Why he aught not seek to sway his Sacha to other worship, but instead seek to understand her, yet now hearing them again the words have the ring of heresy not good sense. By what right do you to presume to speak on such matters, to judge what the soul can bear and cannot. Are you a priest, a prophet to know that you do not walk among those already accursed by god? What is fair working and what is foul?
I can but trust my eyes which God has given me and the judgement that he too has endowed all of his children. The words pass slowly though the mind as though some great snake sought to strangle your thoughts, but as soon as they are out a weight is lifted from your chest and the veil from your eyes torn.
Above you is the ceiling of the sleeping chamber you had been given, simple wooden beams folding up thatch and leaves as it he common making of Anwa huts, but on those beams there is a hunched figure as mannish form but coiled with its arms and legs beneath it one beside the other like some twisted spider. It is watching you....
Who are you? it asks again, the hateful voice in your dreams that had not been your own, never your own, you realize.
A man doing his best.
The thing hisses at you, like an angry cat and like putrid air passing out of a corpse and then it seems to blur into the shadows and is gone. As you gain control of your limbs, as you jump out of bed and reach for the handle, the candle to set to the embers in the hearth you see that there had been nothing there at all, just a dream, a nightmare born of too many ills along the journey surely.
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Third Day of Elnu-Hamba (Elnu Descendent), 1349 A. L. (After Landfall)
On the next morning you take the chance to bathe and shave with a steady hand, feet planted on ground that does not move and then you go out to meet with Negu, lord of this village. Much to your surprise you hear the man would be happy to see you, the servant claims that he had been looking forward to meeting a warrior as skilled as you and from a land he had not heard of beside.
I am not sure what I was expecting, but it was not this, you admit to yourself as you sit down on the light reed and lacquer chair that seems at first too spindly to hold your weight only to prove startlingly comfortable face to face with a man whose curling hair and beard are so finely groomed as to make you feel scruffy, yet who offers a wry smile as though in inviting a jest of some kind.
"Ah, fine morn sir Roland I hope you have slept well under my roof. We do not oft have so many guests at once but of such dark times are friendships new and lasting made. I hope that is where we are headed."
"Alas we are headed to war," you reply, not sure what to make of the man but reasoning that it is safe enough to speak of common struggle. "Yet for all the peril of it we have no choice but to seek it and glad I am to see that there are some on the island of Korman who would take up the cause and banish the darkness from its midst. I had feared when I left the capital last year that we would find naught but foes and puppets of the Anjo Oru."
"Ah, you wonder if I serve the thing that wears the flesh of my lord like a sack of skin over its blackened bones..." he laughs then, the sound oddly carefree, as though he had made some light jape over wine. "Not to worry, I did not sail so far and slay so many foes to be snared in my own home like a fox in the borrow smoked. They made war on the stones and the giants, upon the trees also to judge from the black smoke that hangs now over the west of the island, but I have known there was an ill thing there long since and that the princess would return. I did not think she would do so with the armies of Lirman and absent its king, though I am glad for the first as I am saddened by the last."
As far as you can tell every word Negu speaks is genuine, his gaze is open and forthright without being naïve, but that is nothing beside the surprise of his next words. "If it is not too bold of me to ask have you need of arms or armor, supplies or provisions?" After a moment he adds. "I too have been a sword for hire in the wars of others and I know that much of what a lord might take for granted a soldier of fortune is not so fortunate with and yet to ask in so many words is oft a blow to pride that others are wont to discount, so behold I have asked that you do not have to?"
What do you reply?
[] Accept the offer, no reason to make enemies and like all after a long sea journey the Fellowship has need of fresh food
[] Refuse the offer, you do not trust the man's smile, not with the dark reputation he bears
[] Write in
OOC: Since I know you will ask, Roland does not know if the dream was more than a dream because he has no applicable skills he cannot tell night terror from visitation and as far a Esha and Inge go, there isn't enough to go on second hand to make a judgement either.