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notadate, but could it actually have been?
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    • Honestly, you really don't feel much like replying at all to Rei, after all that has happened, and how it feels like she just threw you away when done with you. You know that isn't the case, but it still hurts anyway. Also, although you feel guilty about this, a large part of being with Rei was to get over your feelings for Akari, in the hopes that a relationship would mask and perhaps eventually overcome your feelings for Akari. You feel like a terrible person, but you know that at any point in time you would have always gladly exchanged Rei for Akari, if not for the fact that Akari was someone way out of your league in just about every aspect. As it is, you decide to give short and concise replies to Rei, and just state that you are busy. You put away your phone, and try to mentally prepare yourself for the upcoming situation.

    The time ticks by, second by second, and with each second you get more nervous. The time arrives, but she still hasn't. You begin panicking. What if she just doesn't come? Or wants to spend as little time as possible with a failure like you? Does this mean she finds this unimportant? What if...
    And you see her, flustered and making her way to you quickly. She immediately apologises, but all your worry has long since disappeared. You begin chatting, and the conversation proceeds smoothly while you two start wandering the mall to decide on a place to eat. You see her smile that you so sorely miss, and her giggles when you try to be funny, and all your emotions that you have been holding back these years come bursting through the dam you have erected in your heart. Yes, this is the girl of your dreams, and the one you have always held affection for. The time passes in a blur in your stupor of happiness, and you are satisfied.

    As you finally decide where to eat half an hour later, she begins going by a roundabout path to the restaurant. She looks away from you momentarily, and, with what seems to be a light blush, reveals to you that she is avoiding her workplace, and places that people she knows occasionally go to. You don't want to be too hasty to jump to any conclusions, but it appears to you that she is at least aware of the implications of how it looks to people. You immediately become conscious of all the couples around you, and how close she is to you. The distance when walking practically couldn't get any close without holding hands, and when talking, her face was close enough you could just learn forward slightly and...
    No, you shake your head and clear your mind. You really don't want to screw anything up today, and you need a clear mind for that. You reach the restaurant and sit down after a short wait, and begin your meal soon after. The conversation proceeds again without a hitch, and when you are both done with your food, she is visibly disappointed that it is over. She suggests to stay longer, but with a quick glance at the queue at the restaurant, realises that it would be rather impolite for all the waiting customers. The two of you pay, and leave.
    As you leave, she inquires into whether you still have time to stay for a while longer, and of course you do. And with that, the aimless wandering around the mall while talking begins yet again. Ultimately, you are dragged to a pet shop, where you two stare at the dogs (and perhaps you stare at her just a little bit) for the rest of the time.
    It is about four hours into the notadate that she tells you that she has to leave to meet a colleague for a project soon, and has to go. You part, and thank each other for the time spent.


    Hideaki happiness level+++

    You return home happy, but aren't sure what to think in your high.
    [ ] What do you think of the rendezvous?

    [ ] You really want to do this again sometime. How?

    [ ] What should you say when you message her later?

    [ ] Anything else you want to do?
     
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    • [X] What do you think of the rendezvous?
    -[X] Good. Too good, if you're honest with yourself. Why did Akari want to meet with you so suddenly?

    [X] You really want to do this again sometime. How?
    -[X] First, try to confirm what Akari's intentions are. She want to be your friend or something else? You do not want to get excited again.

    [X] What should you say when you message her later?
    -[X] Just, try to not be a creep and keep it casual.

    [X] Anything else you want to do?
    -[X] Talk with Rei.
    -[X] Make more exercise.
     
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    [X] What do you think of the rendezvous?
    -[X] Good. Too good, if you're honest with yourself. Why did Akari want to meet with you so suddenly?

    [X] You really want to do this again sometime. How?
    -[X] First, try to confirm what Akari's intentions are. She want to be your friend or something else? You do not want to get excited again.

    [X] What should you say when you message her later?
    -[X] Just, try to not be a creep and keep it causal.

    [X] Anything else you want to do?
    -[X] Talk with Rei.
    -[X] Make more exercise.
     
    [X] What do you think of the rendezvous?
    -[X] Good. Too good, if you're honest with yourself. Why did Akari want to meet with you so suddenly?

    [X] You really want to do this again sometime. How?
    -[X] First, try to confirm what Akari's intentions are. She want to be your friend or something else? You do not want to get excited again.

    [X] What should you say when you message her later?
    -[X] Just, try to not be a creep and keep it causal.

    [X] Anything else you want to do?
    -[X] Talk with Rei.
    -[X] Make more exercise.
     
    [X] What do you think of the rendezvous?
    -[X] Good. Too good, if you're honest with yourself. Why did Akari want to meet with you so suddenly?

    [X] You really want to do this again sometime. How?
    -[X] First, try to confirm what Akari's intentions are. She want to be your friend or something else? You do not want to get excited again.

    [X] What should you say when you message her later?
    -[X] Just, try to not be a creep and keep it casual.

    [X] Anything else you want to do?
    -[X] Talk with Rei.
    -[X] Make more exercise.
     
    Day 5
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    • [X] What do you think of the rendezvous?
    -[X] Good. Too good, if you're honest with yourself. Why did Akari want to meet with you so suddenly?

    She offered to meet you after you mentioned that you haven't been out much recently, and she would like to also catch up with an old friend. There is insufficient evidence to reject the null hypothesis in favour of an alternative possibility, and you do not want to jump to conclusions and falsely give yourself hope. The meeting itself went way too well, though, and you are extremely uncertain how to proceed, and want to be as careful as possible not to cause yourself far greater hurt down the line.

    [X] You really want to do this again sometime. How?
    -[X] First, try to confirm what Akari's intentions are. She want to be your friend or something else? You do not want to get excited again.

    You have no idea how to do so, or at least without just directly asking the question. There is also the possibility that you might have a chance eventually, but it is premature and asking such questions may be detrimental.

    [X] What should you say when you message her later?
    -[X] Just, try to not be a creep and keep it causal.

    You tell her that the experience was throughly enjoyable, and that you would be keen to do so again at a later date, when she has the time. She replies in the affirmative, and agrees to do so if she is free sometime. It is left open-ended, however, and you have no idea if there really will ever be another in the foreseeable future.

    [X] Anything else you want to do?
    -[X] Talk with Rei.
    -[X] Make more exercise.

    You make small talk with Rei, but the entire conversation lacks substance, and nothing meaningful is said.
    Your mind is in turmoil, and you decide to calm yourself with some exercise. You feel slightly unwell, and have been sneezing the entire day, but you perform your new routine, albeit slightly slower than you would otherwise have.

    [X] Recall how much money we currently own.

    You look under you pillow and begin to count out your money. You find a total of $3204.18. You do not want to drain this money too much without having a reliable source of income first.
    By now you are hungry, and you make yourself some lunch to eat.
     
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    • Realised there were no voting options last post, so tried to think of some
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    • Your Mother has designated your dog to do his business in your shower, for convenience of cleaning, but insists that it shouldn't be washed until you take your shower, and to let the urine only be washed off during the shower. You know that the family is not so hard pressed for money that you have to conserve every last drop of water to such an extent, and honestly you think she is slightly insane, but you have been just obeying her instructions. As much as you love your dog, though, you find it rather demeaning to be showing in a puddle of your dog's piss, and want to broach the subject with your mother. However, you are afraid of her getting angry and insulting or hitting you for daring to question her.
    What do you do?
    [ ] Just...bear with it
    [ ] Attempt to politely beg for a change
    [ ] Attempt to use logic and reason to convince her that this is unfair to you
    [ ] Firmly insist that this is too much for you, and that you can't handle it anymore
    [ ] Raise your voice and shout back at her when she gets angry at you
    [ ] Run away from home
    [ ] Write-in

    Your experience yesterday really inspired you to want to improve yourself, so that you would be less inept as compared to Akari, as in your current state, even if she did accept you, you would just be a burden on her life. Perhaps you wouldn't be able to surpass her, but you could at least try to slowly close the gap between the two of you.
    [ ] Other than exercise, what else do you want to do to improve yourself?
     
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    • [X] Attempt to use logic and reason to convince her that this is unfair to you

    This is the most reasonable option, and thus won't work, but at least we'll seem reasonable if our mother complains to our father.

    [X] Clean the living room

    We should start with baby steps towards self improvement. This feels like a good first step.
     
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    matthew badger said:
    Are write-ins allowed?
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    Of course, I just forgot to put it as an option. The specific options given were mainly to encourage voting, as leaving everything as a write-in only would be somewhat lazy on my part and harder for voters to make a decision. By default, I will allow for a write-in whenever applicable, and would in fact, encourage them.
     
    Day 6
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    • You complete your new daily exercise regimen. You turn to the mess in your room that you have been deliberately ignoring, and begin to tidy it up. If you don't even have the resolve to bother tidying up your own room, how could you expect to make yourself do anything more?

    As you tidy your room, you discover an extra $17.80 and an old class photo, containing you and Akari.
    Old class photo added to inventory! Current balance is $3221.98

    You have been trying to improve your physical condition, but your mind has atrophied over prolonged inactivity, and you wish to regain it too. How shall you engage your mind?
    [ ] Learn
    -[ ] A new language
    -[ ] A new skill
    -[ ] Write-in
    -[ ] Write-in
    [ ] Write-in

    Voting for the previous post is still ongoing. As a reminder, the options are:

    What do you do?
    [ ] Just...bear with it
    [ ] Attempt to politely beg for a change
    [ ] Attempt to use logic and reason to convince her that this is unfair to you
    [ ] Firmly insist that this is too much for you, and that you can't handle it anymore
    [ ] Raise your voice and shout back at her when she gets angry at you
    [ ] Run away from home
    [ ] Write-in
    And
    [ ] Other than exercise, what else do you want to do to improve yourself?
     
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    • [X] Attempt to use logic and reason to convince her that this is unfair to you

    [X] Clean the living room

    [X] Learn
    -[X] A new language
    --[X] German

    Just went with the first European language that popped up in my head.
     
    [X] Attempt to use logic and reason to convince her that this is unfair to you

    [] Clean the living room

    [] Learn
    -[] How to make chicken stir-fry and rice
    --[] First, make sure the kitchen is equipped with a pan, fire extinguisher, measuring spoons, a lunchbox sized container and a rice cooker.
    ---[] Wash rice first, then cook in rice cooker; should be easy to find instructions online.
    ----[] Obtain ingredients for this recipe and follow the directions.
    -----[] Save enough rice and stir-fry for your father for when he goes to work tomorrow.

    Adulting, one step at a time.

    Edit: changing vote.

    [X] Finish cleaning your room

    [X] Learn
    -[X] Coding
     
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    [X] Attempt to use logic and reason to convince her that this is unfair to you

    [X] Clean the living room

    [X] Learn
    -[X] How to make chicken stir-fry and rice
    --[X] First, make sure the kitchen is equipped with a pan, fire extinguisher, measuring spoons, a lunchbox sized container and a rice cooker.
    ---[X] Wash rice first, then cook in rice cooker; should be easy to find instructions online.
    ----[X] Obtain ingredients for this recipe and follow the directions.
    -----[X] Save enough rice and stir-fry for your father for when he goes to work tomorrow.
     
    Cleaning the living room had been replaced by cleaning your own room, and will continue until the room is entirely clean and neat. You can make a vote specifically to stop doing so and to clean the living room instead, but im not sure if that would be preferable, or the intention of the voters.

    QueenPally said:
    [X] Learn
    -[X] How to make chicken stir-fry and rice
    --[X] First, make sure the kitchen is equipped with a pan, fire extinguisher, measuring spoons, a lunchbox sized container and a rice cooker.
    ---[X] Wash rice first, then cook in rice cooker; should be easy to find instructions online.
    ----[X] Obtain ingredients for this recipe and follow the directions.
    -----[X] Save enough rice and stir-fry for your father for when he goes to work tomorrow.

    Adulting, one step at a time.
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    Great idea, but that is already a dish you make occasionally.
    The kitchen is not equipped with a fire extinguisher.
    You can't cook for your father, as he has been overseas on a business trip these few weeks. You might get to see him for a few hours on wednesday when he returns, though, before he flies off again
     
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    Akumura said:
    As much as you love your dog, though, you find it rather demeaning to be showing in a puddle of your dog's piss, and want to broach the subject with your mother. However, you are afraid of her getting angry and insulting or hitting you for daring to question her.
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    Why not just ignore the instruction? Its not like anyone sees
     
    Day 7
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    • You begin the day at 4am with a mind-numbing headache and fever, and your bones are aching. It pains you to even move over slightly to reach for the tissue paper to blow your nose, and you spend the next few hours drifting in and out of consciousness. At noon, you drag yourself over to a clinic, and are prescribed a series of different medicines, which eventually seem to take effect by evening, when you finally feel well enough to use your computer for a bit to type some stuff.

    veekie said:
    Why not just ignore the instruction? Its not like anyone sees
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    Due to the shower door and knob placement, you are likely to have to step on the puddle while trying to turn the water on anyway.


    Sorry for short post.

    -$118 for medical bills
     
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    • MC is pathetic, willing to accept such indignity as opposed to a slap. If she slaps you, you step close into their personal space, tower over them and do and say nothing; But make it clear that such a thing will not happen again or face equivalent consequences.

    Often those prepared to dish it out aren't prepared to receive it, especially from someone large than them. In such a case the threat of violence is enough to make them stop.
     
    matthew badger said:
    MC is pathetic, willing to accept such indignity as opposed to a slap. If she slaps you, you step close into their personal space, tower over them and do and say nothing; But make it clear that such a thing will not happen again or face equivalent consequences.

    Often those prepared to dish it out aren't prepared to receive it, especially from someone large than them. In such a case the threat of violence is enough to make them stop.
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    While I agree with you in principle, in reality I feel like the mom would just end up getting even crazier and things may turn out worse.
     
    matthew badger said:
    MC is pathetic, willing to accept such indignity as opposed to a slap. If she slaps you, you step close into their personal space, tower over them and do and say nothing; But make it clear that such a thing will not happen again or face equivalent consequences.

    Often those prepared to dish it out aren't prepared to receive it, especially from someone large than them. In such a case the threat of violence is enough to make them stop.
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    I would like to kindly ask you not to insult the MC. I get that you might dislike him, and that his current life might truly be pathetic, but your current goal is to help him towards a better life, not hurt him more.

    His father will always listen to his mother over him, and will always side with his mother by default. He does not witness the constant verbal abuse targeting the MC on a daily business, and will assume any violence from the mother to be part of disciplining a disobedient son, and any violence back to be an utter lack of filial piety, and resorting to violence to get out of facing proper punishment. The MC is not afraid as much of the physical violence itself; it is the fact that he is afraid of the complete rejection from even his parents, and the possibility of being kicked out of the house and disowned, which has been threatened before.
    If a police officer or something was going on a power trip and using that to falsely arrest you or something, physical violnce would still be the best way to get shot. The MC's mother absolutely loves the power being a parent gives her, and thinks of herself as "owning" the MC, who is just her "property". She has been actively attempting to provoke the MC into action, in fact, because she knows he would be unable to follow through, and merely attempting to look menacing would just make her laugh in his face, and probably escalate the situation.
    However, attempting to use actual physical violence may escalate things to an undesired level that the MC is not ready to face, especially if he is abruptly thrown out. If any such action is considered, it may be better to work on improving the aspects of MC's life to allow him to live independently before doing so. That said, I will not restrict your voting options, and you may vote to do so if you wish. Any action that has a sufficient level of votes and reasoning will always be considered and may be performed, and if there are a sufficient number of people willing to take the risk for some temporary dignity then by all means, go for it.
     
    Week 2, day 1
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    • You think back to the recent week, and it has certainly been an interesting one. Compared to the previous months of sitting in your room all day and accomplishing nothing, it certainly seems like you life is a step towards improving.

    You begin the day with some light exercise, just enough to get your blood going. You still arent completely recovered yet, so its best not to push yourself too hard.

    [X] Attempt to use logic and reason to convince her that this is unfair to you
    You attempt to try to talk to your mother, and on the upside, she doesn't get angry at you. On the other hand, she completely ignores you and continues using her phone to post on facebook, even when you are standing right in front of her trying to get her attention. You wait patiently for five minutes, before giving up.

    [X] Learn
    -[X] Coding
    In this era of technology, learning how to code seems like a useful skill you could acquire. However, you aren't sure if its really a good idea, how far you should go if you try, and how to go about doing so. On one hand, it is an area that seems relatively secure in the near future, and you do have a passing interest in it. On the other hand, however, it is a field where work is incredibly specialised, and although there are some translatable skills, dealing with things like the backend, user interface, web development and game development are extremely different areas requiring much relearning. Furthermore, any passable venture into the area would likely require a University CS course and subsequent internship in order to be familiarised with the teamwork crucial in a programming project. You aren't entirely certain that this is what you desire yet, or if you could even manage to get in one.

    Akari has been taking over a day to reply after each of your messages, and her responses are brief and concise. You know she has been rather busy lately, but now you are worried she just doesn't want to talk to you. All the mixed signals you are receiving from her is confusing you, and you have no idea how to proceed.

    [ ] Write-in (for anything)
     
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