[Unofficial Vignette: Beans]
He is a boy in his dreams. A boy, and it is almost always early morning, the stench of petroleum thick in the grey drab room he shares with his parents. He knows without needing to look that the splicers are at it again, dumping their excess oil in the river before the lawmen come. The smell is a clock, or at least Reinhard's clock, and his mother's clock, and his father's too, and even the neighbors', in this distant place that never sees the sun. He is up and tugging at his father's beard, and soon enough the room fills with the sizzle of frying beans. Reinhard's father is combing his hair as he always does, and his mother is humming along and Reinhard is both there and not there-- fading in and out--but if his parents notice they say nothing. Uncle Ho drops by with some kidney beans, and Aunt Anne with a lemon, and that is how, even here, they make life work.
Reinhard wears his grey uniform, one size too big, and stands as if the apartment were a parade ground-- even though he's missing a button and smells like he hasn't had a bath in five days, because he hasn't. Getting to school is long and difficult and passes by the river, which is really a slow undulating morass of water and sludge, sometimes tinted green, sometimes black. Once a boy Reinhard knew stripped down and dived into it. A stupid childhood dare. They spotted the body floating on its belly two bends down the river and one of the other boys poked the face with a pole. It came apart in the water like soggy bread. Reinhard remembers that face often in his dreams. Knows that if he looks at the river he will see it, so he doesn't.
The boy wasn't the only one to die. There are other places, other faces, other names. There always are. But Reinhard keeps forward. Deep in his mind he knows they have no power over him but that which he gives them, and yet he does not look. He moves forward. That is who he is. The path shrinks as he walks it and his face feels funny and his grey uniform is smarter and heavier than he remembers until he emerges into light gasping and wheezing.
Every time he wakes up he feels, first, how soft the bed is, then his augmentations kick in and flood him with information. In a few seconds he is Lord Commodore Reinhard Strauss, Hero of the Empire, Bearer of the Terran Cross. On many such nights Lord Commodore Reinhard Strauss, Hero of the Empire, Bearer of the Terran Cross wants nothing more than a glass of water, so he shuffles to the sink and cups his hands and drinks and wonders how, in this palace of lights and fur and barely-clad servants, it is the smell of petroleum and beans he misses most.