Small warning that there's some disturbing content here. Comments from the Fallen and a few other Things. Not sure if a warning is needed with the tag I've got for this but I'll put it anyway.
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Teleologism 13.4
September 27th, 2011. 4:00PM
Basilia Rubio
I walked right into the workshop, and I could feel the spirit world surging into the material world, expanding the workshop into a small labyrinth. I was accompanied by Dragon, as I sent in drones as close as possible into the rift. Tech didn't always work as well in the spirit world, though that was a pretty bendable rule depending on what layer of the Spirit you're in.
Plus Dragon was pretty much immune because she was alive and because the layer of the spirit world
had to let tech function or else Ezekiel wouldn't be sticking around here. I was gripping my Anchor Gem with a hidden grin.
A spirit of Alarm tried to open a gaping mouth and I crushed it under foot, it's corpus shattering under the force. The lab itself was considerable in size and I swept my omni-tool to scan for any oddities. There were two dots placed on the walls just past the entrance, so I flicked a small Warp. Based on my sensor sweeps they were kinetic field generators, and could send plates of kinetic force to crush intruders.
"I can sense faint dimensional perturbations beyond the spirit world itself." Dragon commented what I already knew, wearing armor very similar to what she would have worn in another timeline. "I suspect it's tinkertech, though capes are a possibility as well. But with the interference…"
I nodded. "Parahumans tend to vary in how easy they are to detect." Some were easy while others had better defenses against spying on the channel they used. I had theories on using multidimensional waveforms to mask the 'noise' that their powers make.
Which was why the range for detecting parahumans varied a lot, my normal equipment had ranges in the dozens to hundreds of meters, the partially reverse engineered Portunus had up to a few kilometers and…
It was complicated was all I was saying.
I held the Anchor Gem and squeezed it, and from the gem there came a pulsing of spiritual energy. It was a ball of light, countless gears grinding against one another with a yellow hue.
It was a more advanced spirit VI, spectral mechanisms constructed carefully based on what I studied from other species, what mechanisms and technologies and sorceries had been gleaned from those who could before me. All the VI's of the Protheans were spirits, and mine were programmed first before being elevated.
"What is that?" Dragon looked curious and the AGI whispered.
"
I am Sentinel. A class two general artificial general intelligence on a spiritual framework. I will provide assistance in subverting security measures." It had a flat voice, since it was merely semi-sapient rather than truly sophont in every way possible.
"Class two?" Dragon asked as we walked into danger and as I provided Sentinel access to greater processing power from dozens of drones and robots, and began to remotely tap into the local computer network built into the base.
"There are three classes of artificial general intelligences, class three and class two AGI's are semi-sapient with limited intelligence and distinct neurological patterns from humans."
"They're like some of the AI's I use for myself." Dragon got it and I kept an eye out as I began to tap into what was here.
"A class one AGI is a fully sapient entity like yourself, a being capable of a full sense of self and free will and with the capabilities of developing a soul." Dragon stumbled for less than a tenth of the second and I pretended I didn't see that. "Sentinel is currently my most advanced synthetic intelligence, making use of what I've learned from your technology and the tinkertech of others."
I couldn't replicate everything so easily, mainly I was focused on using the technologies that were closest to what were familiar with me. Rachni tech for example was heavily biological, and they made use of cyberized brain computer networks, while their ships were metal and plastic and inorganic.
I really have been underusing some of the tech trees, and hadn't made the more experimental stuff that was too crude for large scale usage. Like Prothean genomes and their ability to tap memories embedded in one's DNA.
With the Rachni I had the missing pieces and I could certainly build Beacons of my own.
"
Nearly all security measures have been breached and deactivated Administrator, most data files have been deleted beforehand." It floated around my head, pulsing brightly. "Allied PRT agents have entered the facility in tandem with a shaman, delivering data now."
The images were projected in front of a screen, where some of my machines fired at spirits and created omni-shields to protect the agents. I tapped into the data stream with my mental interface.
"This place is some type of weapons testing facility, the invocation and manufacturing of altered spirits, studies of parahuman powers, building on prior work." I rubbed my chin despite my helmet. "The Slaughterhouse 9 were used as test subjects, with what we've recovered. Butcher 19 is apparently their most successful attempt…at altering the physiology of a cape."
Insects began to swarm, and Taylor was probably a good mile away if not more from me. I broke out into an airbending powered sprint, as s spirit rushed to defend the place. I pulled out a shotgun from my Brooch, and it unfolded to belch an antiparticle blast.
Three spirits were caught in the radius and shredded apart, and seven more were caught in a burning beam of yellow light, and then sliced to bits by a nano-thorn spear.
Dragon's handiwork.
I followed a path to one of the room's, and I stepped with confidence and stopped the spirit world from trying to turn me around.
"
A single human is within this room." Sentinel informed me, a shield of light projected by the spirit's machine corpus. I kicked down the door, and found myself in the remnants of a lab, scoured clean with the exception of a body leaned against a wall which had been cut away, wiring left behind.
The man was bleeding out, and I blinked as I realized what and
who I was looking at. He was on the attractive side, dark hair cut short and at some point styled with gel. He looked sort of like Johnny Depp, though I certainly wouldn't see him looking or doing anything like this man.
"Jack Slash." He was shirtless, which revealed someone or something had carved out his chest, grey metal and wiring infused into a pulsating interior. The left side of his face had been replaced by metal and clear glass, experimental technology strapped to some structure…his Corona Pollentia and Gemma.
Help him.
There was the faint whisper of his shard, trying to pluck at my empathy and at my heart. I looked past the man and at the shard itself and simply stared.
It blinked first.
I scanned the man, and hissed as I saw the cybernetic network had piggybacked off what Bonesaw had already put in place. They had effectively cut up his body and stuffed it to the brim with dangerous and
unidentifiable cyberware. It was firmly wrapped around his Corona Pollentia, seemingly amping up his signal by an order of magnitude. It had come at a cost though… his brain was basically melting out of his skull.
There was a wet cough from Jack and he spoke, his voice just a little hoarse.
"Sometimes…I like to think I was a people reader, guess it didn't do much for me in the end." There was a soft laugh that made chills run down my spine, I silently instructed Sentinel to continue hacking the facility. There were some rooms not yet mapped, and the spirit world distortions made that even more difficult.
"I guess you weren't able to find the keystone this time huh?" Dragon glanced over to me when I didn't bother to try anything with him.
"You get it…at least a little don't you?"
"Everyone has a weakness, whether mental or physical or even metaphysical. Barring something entirely
inhuman." And even that wasn't true.
Dragon spoke up this time, looking worried despite being in her armor. "You can't…fix him?"
"His brain is literally being subsumed by unstable cybernetic wiring, that he lasted this long is a miracle. I wouldn't help him anyway though." She didn't seem to care that much about him, but she probably wanted an explanation. "Not much point, and Sentinel is still rampaging through the remaining defenses."
"You won't find much…Ezekiel is a coward but he cleans up after himself." Jack coughed up blood stained grey with crippling black nano.
"So he's probably gone back to whatever hole he's crawled out of and left us with a mess to clean up with what he's left behind." Something about Jack told me he was going to lead me to something more vital so I let him talk.
I looked at his shard and took a deep whiff, analyzing him through the shaman sense of smell. The broadcast shard was damaged…it had been fighting something trying to break through from the host side of the wall.
Dragon tilted her head. "A better question is why he left Jack Slash behind." A theory came to mind.
"Ezekiel shifted Jack's power entirely towards broadcasting, and Butcher wouldn't want anything to do with the Fallen. He used Jack as a lure and turned Butcher into a fucked up science experiment." I guessed.
"Didn't…think someone so much like Bonesaw would be so squeamish." I rolled my eyes at his comment, I might be able to pull off some nasty bullshit but I didn't need to hurt and butcher people.
"Your opinion isn't really that relevant but do go on," I looked around and kept an eye on both Jack and anything else in the room. "What you do have is the
other reason you were left behind."
Jack Slash started, though he looked far past me. "You got me there…I was beaten fair and square but losing to someone with so little conviction is a bit…galling. They were going to use my power to screw up your entire operation, boosting it so I could whisper in their ears. But…you blocked my power and so does that Weaver kid." He coughed a wet cough.
"Any last words before all hell breaks loose?" I wanted to rub my face and see what was going to go wrong soon.
"Only that you and Ezekiel have a bit in common, you're both…soft…cowardly. With all your power, you could do whatever you want and no one could stop you. You could knock moons out of the sky, blow up cities and conjure up plagues and break anything. You could be a predator, cruel like our ancestors were. So why not?"
There was a silence there, and I didn't say much for a moment.
"I was never one for philosophy and teleology Jacob, though I'm not disinterested in it either. I was raised as a good person, and I'm pretty simple. Plus there are skeletons of cave people who couldn't take care of themselves, and they died
old Jacob. People are a little less simple than being violent and predatory, else the world would be as simple as you want it to be. Also frankly…those questions don't really matter, you're trying to attack the wrong issues." He coughed once and then a second time, eyes darting to my left.
He went still, and his eyes went cold. Dead. Empty.
His soul had almost certainly slipped from between his shard's fingers, and would be reborn as a new person. Hopefully he'd be less of a dick in the next life.
In the end Jack Slash just wasn't that important enough for me to care about those questions. If they had come from someone else…maybe I would have looked into it more, from a philosophical standpoint. Or if he had been more capable of putting up a fight.
I turned around and purposely looked to the left, looking right up into Valefor's eyes.
"Stop." I pretended to stop, already sending a signal towards Dragon. The spirit world had dumped them here, and I hissed when I saw some type of copy of Isopod, floating in the air along with multiple hostages.
Not that we hadn't sensed them earlier.
There was a smile on Valefor's face, and I was glad my armor could lock up so he couldn't read my body language. Along with him I could see Eligos, surrounded by three passed out hostages.
This had gotten far more complicated, and I was going to need considerable backup in this endeavor.
I could hear the song of the Rachni…so I needed to keep deceiving Valefor and hope he doesn't realize I actually am conveniently immune to his powers.
No pressure.
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September 27th, 2011. 4:10PM
Basilia Rubio
"You're not going to move a single inch girl. You're going to stay put for now, though you might make a good trophy wife once we leave." I was briefly feeling the urge to
cut off his balls but I knew I couldn't because I was civilized and mama didn't raise no barbarian.
He turned to Dragon, and she didn't meet his eyes and Valefor sighed.
"The hostages have already been ordered to kill themselves or try their best to kill any of the heroes. Erudition if any hero attempt to come to the rescue, kill them with any means necessary and then kill yourself. Doesn't matter how." He dismissed me and turned to Dragon like an idiot.
You know sometimes I forget capes aren't actually hypercompetent SB badasses though they're not stupid either. But while he had seemingly fooled himself into thinking he had control that didn't mean I believed he believed.
Though I might be missing something here myself.
A Cercopes was hanging from the roof, taking subtle scans of the hostages, and I could pick up the song of the Rachni as they made their approach. My attention was focused on the three hostages around Eligos. There was a bad smell in the air, like rotting egg mixed with spoiled milk.
He had to have some power to or senses to track his victims, and I
knew in my soul I could move. So why did he think he had control, was he lying? Or was his power getting fucked up by own?
I opened the World Eyes, and saw his shard and the connections it had to a dozen hostages. Others seemed to link elsewhere, the signal flickering off into the distance. The Rachni's song was wrapping around all the signals, including the one failing to connect to me.
So that's how he's getting confused.
I grinned under my helmet. The building rumbled, and I could see the rift was starting to collapse. The invocations of shamans doing their work while teams picked the place clean for evidence. I could see they had communication devices, and Sentinel was doing his thing and remotely hacking them. It took him thirty seconds to figure out what he was doing.
"What do you want Valefor?" Dragon asked with a growl, and I could hear his smugness.
He smiled. "You will let us leave unimpeded or you'll have a dozen deaths on your head directly and who knows how many more with Erudition's death throes." I rolled my eyes and kept my armor locked. "The Fallen will keep Erudition as our newest member, and she'll help us with the new Endbringer Ezekiel has created for us. Helping protect the god that'll replace Leviathan will be an ironic punishment for her."
"
They're not bluffing." Dragon transmitted.
"I think they are…but only partially, I doubt they have any control over Butcher." And there had certainly been rumors about what I had done to Butcher. Maybe the Fallen thought I could keep the Butcher from killing them all.
Dragon went back to her conversation. "What makes you think we won't just have to make a sacrifice…" Valefor's confidence waned at Dragon's emotionless tone, before it picked back up again.
I whispered. "They definitely have more hostages elsewhere…plus two missing capes and twenty members." Three of them were here but the others had to be planning something big.
"
I've found them…one man is entering an Elementary school with a child holding his hand and a heavy backpack. The Rachni confirmed the child is Mastered." I scowled but kept my cool at the bad news from Monarch.
There was a ping from one of my drone's, an image of something moving very fast.
"We have agents all over the city, if you don't let us escape then things will become much worse." I could see the desperation in his eyes, something like fear. Was he afraid of the Butcher or something else? "Now…do we have a deal or not?" Again quick and desperate.
"Fine…but you have to release your hostages as soon as possible." The hostages were slowly relaxing, with the exception of three of them. Dragon had already noticed and something felt
off about them.
Valefor grinned in apparent victory. "Then come along Erudition, there's a lot you'll have to learn about being Fallen." I followed him, the anticipation killing me. I began to count down, and kept an eye on the three prone hostages. The man whispered in my ear. "You'll make a good bride, mama will love you."
I didn't hesitate.
I chucked him like a football with a biotic Kick, sending him flying through a collapsing wall as the lab was crushed back down into a simple workshop. He pulled himself from the rubble, bleeding from the forehead and pressing a button on something in his ear.
He snarled. "Everyone listening, kill yourselves now!" There was a stark silence as the hostages did nothing, and there was no trouble elsewhere. Though I did hear a detonation somewhere.
"You're an idiot." I waited for the other shoe to drop, and the stupid bastard fell for the bait.
"All Imbued! Attack!" I portaled out the hostages at the last second, as the three 'hostages' screamed in agony, flesh rippling into angry red sores before exploding out into what was basically a warp spasm.
One resembled a bronze statue, metal networking up and down a warped human form. Another had become covered in spikes from all directions including his
eyes while the third simply had white hair and red even markings along his cheeks.
The Imbued were the darkest type of Host, the bond between shaman and spirit. One could
choose to house a spirit in their body, or one could even force the other, but an Imbued was against the consent of both. Causing a truly horrific mismatch of spirit corpus and physical flesh. Physical mutations, mental alterations from paranoid schizophrenia to far worse tendencies like cannibalism and self harm.
And none of the 'hostages' were shamans with spirits trapped inside them, so it meant they had taken enormous genetic damage. The most benign cases in the Four Nations apparently led to an entire ethnic group of redheads and blondes.
This was
not that.
Sentinel surged and released a blast of energy from itself towards the Isopod and a Cercopes ambushed Eligos when he tried to throw out a wind blast. It sent out an electric pulse and the cape screamed in agony, seizing up and flailing helplessly.
"Where the hell is the Siberian…?" Valefor cursed, holding his face in pain.
"Oh Sentinel cut her off from you a few minutes ago and that tank-machine holding her master was blown up by Bakuda's bombs." I didn't get to act smug as I took a fist the size of my face to the…well face.
I smelled and found rippling Violence in the first man's skin, followed by Hate for Spiky and the third was War. I was thrown out of the building, crashing through a window with a wheeze. Dragon was handling the Hate-based Imbued, and the War Imbued was being handled by a multitude of Trapeza dropped in by portal.
Though the fact it was tearing through them so easily told me that these Imbued had been made well…too well. I felt a bullet impact against my cloak, and it reflected back to someone I had identified on the rooftop of a nearby building. He was hit on the shoulder and knocked down, and a swarm gathered around him.
In my distraction I was backhanded, and thrown into a nearby car with a pained shout. This bronze menace reminded me of Hookwolf and how lucky we had been at not getting shredded. Hurting him had required the changes to Taylor's power and Vicky's help to get the payload to his core.
It had been dumb luck and nothing more…but I wasn't going to rely on luck alone anymore.
I stepped back, swaying from side to side to avoid the devastating strikes of the Imbued. I took the time to keep one World Eye open, and was patient with attempting to unravel the spirit-man abomination. For all their vaunted power they were still Hosts and thus had the corresponding weaknesses of one.
Each spirit had Bans, unique to themselves and often relating to their nature. I had to find this one's Bans, and once I had them I would pull the spirit and it's Host apart. Though exhausting physical damage was another option.
I leaned my head back, then stepped into the wild slash of the bronze Imbued. Each of my punches exploded with fire and raw biotic force. Bronze metal was dented and cracked, and I dodged a strike as it extended claws of copper
I pulled out something from my Brooch, and the beast flinched as I reached out for Holly. So it had some of the same Bans as certain Violence spirits, an aversion and weakness to things relating to peace.
My next light punch held the Holly in my hand, and the moment the flower touched the spirit made it scream in agony as spirit flesh boiled and burned. A second check of my Brooch reached out for Holly powder, and I threw it in the beast's face.
Reality lensed around the Imbued, more agony ensuing from the beast and it lifted up a car and threw it at me. With a roll of my eyes I stopped the vehicle short with metalbending. In it's weakness the Imbued reared back, and went for Dragon, only to take several bullets straight to the face from a nearby PRT agent who had kicked a Fallen member off their feet.
I launched forward, and stabbed my fingers to the chest and forehead of the thrashing Imbued. My anger softened as I looked at the creature unable to free itself from my grasp or the mutilation done to them.
It was one of the Teeth…and they don't deserve this. They're shitty awful people but this isn't a good way to go. I felt the channels of the man's soul and sang quietly, falling into the tune I heard when I focused, the song I heard within my living soul.
The song of the world.
Spirit and man both were screaming, begging,
hating this cursed existence. Violence didn't want to be bound, not like this, and Nasir didn't want to have his body, mind and soul violated and twisted and
wronged.
I blew down into their chest, and there was a scream from both that rocked the ground as I opened the raw chakra pathways of the poor but criminal man, as the void of the Outer Sphere dragged the screaming spirit out, fragments of corpus left behind before disintegrating.
The bronze melted away, but left behind deep stripes of the same color and I held the quivering Violence spirit in the palm of my hand. The Teeth member collapsed into a heap and I portaled him out elsewhere.
The spirit itself took a shifting mass of bronze and red dust, looking almost solemn.
Thank you…
The spirit vanished as it fled into the spirit world in terror and pain, and I could see that Valefor was scrambling to run away. Dragon was dragging down the War infected Imbued, and Bitch had joined the party with her monstrous dogs. She had some PRT shaman ripping the spirit from the third Imbued, and in this case they destroyed the War spirit. Too unstable and broken.
I looked over to Valefor as he tried to escape and right as I was about to freeze him with Stasis a plasma burst hit my barrier but didn't break it. My Anchor Gem lit up, and Sentinel receded back into the spirit container. The Isopod entity let out a dimension bending shriek, exploding outwards and launching everyone with the exception of Valefor.
I forced myself back to my feet, and launched a bolt of lightning at the crystal bug. It simply took the strike, and I received data on the scans taken of the entity. Outputted as text.
It was a semi-organic crystalline lifeform, the outer layers made of a near perfect solar energy collector, and I identified the biological structure quite well. It was a tiny insignificant but
functional fragment of a shard.
"
order accepted. terminate enemy forces, retrieve valefor and eligos." It began to form a powerful ball of white-blue plasma, far,
far beyond my ability to block with shielding. It blasted way too fast for me, and I felt my nerves spike to trigger a biotic charge.
Something dropped down from the sky, blocking the full force of the blast. It was a man-sized ethereal entity. It basically looked like a Nazgul though the hood had a plain grey mask floating on it, with three symbols glowing brightly in a triangular orientation.
"Oh. Jarl is that your work?" The projection gave a thumbs up, lighting up with three powers. Based on the symbols this one had invulnerability, superspeed, and disintegration.
It accelerated like a bullet train, a fist striking the Isopod head on, shattering the head of the beast, and a chopping motion severed several limbs extending from it's back. A second projection instead had electrokinesis, sparks flying as it unleashed a bolt to knock out Valefor.
He managed to duck out of the way, and in a blink the Isopod was with him, projecting a durable barrier. Valefor picked himself back up, scowling in response to his failure.
"Kill them. Use everything we have, we need to prepare the Butcher!" The Isopod flashed red, and it gathered energy before something slammed into the creature at supersonic speed. A fist emerged through the creature, removed just as quickly as I saw that Alexandria had decided to play her part here.
The shard creature tilted its head, the hole slowly healing as flesh refilled it from linked realities. Something told me to shout.
"Alexandria, keep your distance from that thing, it's…" Alexandria reacted in less than a moment, stepping back as a needle tried to stab into the back of her neck. A Bagheera slammed into the ground, and I could hear a voice on the comms
"
I'm going to shoot that stupid BUG!" I flinched when I heard Tattletale piloting the Bagheera with rage in her voice. There was a shift in the air. "
Wait don't let i—" Fast as a whip, the arms of the entity stabbed Valefor in the face, fingers gripping onto the interior of his head.
Even Alexandria seemed taken aback, the shard bug merely tilted its head once more. "
alexandria is beyond the current means of this bud, valefor will be retrieved." There was a folding of reality from the Bagheera, and the shard bug simply popped off Valefor's skull and vanished the head into a portal.
The bug shattered as whatever was considered it's core broke down as Sting blasted its insides. I stared at Valefor's headless body, trying to reconcile the betrayal of the creature. I looked away from the body with bile in my throat.
"You took out the other members right?" I swallowed as the pieces fell to place.
"They had tinkertech bombs, highly lethal and incredibly dangerous. I was returning from operations against the Fallen elsewhere."
"The rest of the Fallen are gone aren't they? Some escaped." Her hands closed into fists, and I now had the picture of Mama Mathers joining whatever the fuck was happening on Shin and Goetia. "So we've caught most of the Fallen, but some of their most dangerous members and the power manipulating tinker/shaman pair helping them are both gone."
"And they left with Butcher in tow." Alexandria looked angry, and I could see why. The enemy had lost the battle, but they hadn't lost the war with who knows how many capes.
"No. She's definitely still here, but she's certainly not in the city." But she was not far away either.
Alexandria blinked. "How do you know that?"
I sighed as I looked at the destruction of property going around, which I was going to get to work on.
"Call it a 'gut' feeling."
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September 27th, 2011. 7:00PM
Basilia Rubio
I could feel Taylor seething next to me as I let the grieving woman in front of me shout vicious insults at my face. She was a blonde woman, with bags under her dark eyes and looking in a rather bad state.
"Do you even remember his name?!" Was where I put a stop to her grief filled rant.
"Steven Darwin. Head of security." My tone was neutral and Nancy snapped out of her speech. "I knew him well enough," I folded back my helmet to let her see my face even if I was masked. "Nice guy, I taught him as much as I could on the barriers and plating system of their issued armor. He talked a lot about you and your daughters. Twins right?"
She rubbed her eyes to brush away stray tears, that grief created anger retracting but not going away completely.
"He was a real coffee connoisseur, and his advice really helped us with buffing security for both Athena and my own cape business. Steven was good at his job and he never treated me differently despite being a cape, despite being his boss. He was a good man…and the only reason there were as few losses as there were because of his intervention."
He had managed to hold off Mannequin for precious seconds, buying time for the others to consolidate and run. If he hadn't I would have dozens of workers, dozens of people under my care dead or crippled.
His funeral had to be a closed casket from what I had heard…
I rubbed my eyes, breathing outwards.
"He was under my employ, and…I…I'm sorry. I don't think that's what you want to hear and…" My shoulders dropped with the heavy weight on them.
"I…you did everything you could?"
"I had state of the art security, I had my tinkertech on site. He managed to move like a ghost and…I've made upgrades, some already planned and others are newer." I tried not to get angry and frustrated. "I'll do my best to give you the financial support needed, Athena
does have good worker's compensation." I didn't feel happy then, just empty.
"I'm…I apologize. I should be better for this, you…you look so young." I pressed my lips together, not replying "I should go." The woman, no Nancy rushed off in a hurry, clearly dissatisfied with herself for her actions.
…
Taylor glanced at her with a withering look, and then back to with a warmer one. By then I was gone.
I stepped through a portal without saying a word, and I could hear Taylor calling out but it was like static in my ear. I flipped through one world and then ten and flipped through a few hundred worlds more before I stopped in the middle of a small craggy island on a world that had diverged sixty six million years ago, with the descendants of monotremes taking over the world.
A quick check of the DPN told me they were looking for where I had gone by querying the machine. I could have locked them down from it, kept them from following me. But I was too lonely to lose what company I had in this world.
I just sat down on the flat ground, kept warm by my armor's PLSS. This was a different kind of overwhelming from the guilt of my worker's needless deaths. Even if we beat up or destroyed the Butcher, even if we had kept most of the city safe and were lucky Ezekiel didn't decide to test
plagues on us.
Then what?
If Scion didn't exist, if Aeon was irrelevant there was still the threat of dangerous capes, of shards going rampant, of wars between dimensions fearful of each other for one reason or another. The entire world was going to shit and I had only slowed the tide, plugged the hole in the dam with a finger.
If my world suddenly developed capes it would be a complete disaster, if we couldn't even handle a pandemic there was no way we could handle the same deluge of capes. Even if shards have new priorities they are not human, and they will turn to darker ends if both them and the host feels like it. Hell Jack had been the one going for violence while his shard didn't really care that much.
I was just one person with a lot of personal power, not some perfect machine able to make all the best decisions. I still had my helmet folded up, and my breaths were coming in shuddering shifts.
I pulled off my gauntlets, letting my hands free to feel the earth beneath them. The rock was cracked, worn away by time and erosion from wind and water and sun. I could feel small animals within the many pores, from tiny crabs to small worms and sea snails and even a starfish in one of the small pools of salt water.
Was it too much to ask to have a break, or did the universe want to make up for everything I had averted to try and keep the horrible status quo intact? Or was my placement exactly for this eventuality, for whatever came next after an alteration of the status quo on a multiversal scale?
And I still had the Butcher to take down before she ended up eating dozens of capes or something ridiculous like that. Before she turns into a shard-controlled abomination like what I had looked up about Shin back home…which was one of the allies of that group on Earth Goetia…
I really,
really hate this place. I rubbed my eyes, and found streaks of water running down from them.
Was I crying?
I felt disoriented, and I tried to focus on getting up, on drying my tears. But the only thing I felt then was a horrible and terrible emptiness in my chest, I felt alone even when I was with people.
I'm supposed to be an adult, I'm supposed to be responsible I don't need to waste my time on…my own fucking problems. I'm the one supposed to fix other people's problems, because what's it's what I'm
supposed to do right?
It's not their fault I'm not happy.
The thought only made my anger turn to a confusing mix of guilt and resentment and more irrational fury. I clenched my fists, trying not to rage, but that bitter anger rose from the surface. So I punched the ground. To my shock and horror, half the island was snapped off, hundreds of thousands of tons of stone and rock cracked and broken with sheer earthbending force. Waves were thrown back and forth as the unstable earth collapsed.
I was drained, muscles strained, putting out so much power…but I didn't feel better at all.
Just sad.
I had seen too many people die…too many people get hurt in horrible ways.
I didn't usually remember my dreams, but I had been waking up in a cold sweat a lot more often than I was used to. I missed my home, I missed my family, I couldn't say I missed my friends because before coming here I had lost touch with them.
I wasn't even sure if any of them were really my friends anyway…
There was a snap of air and a portal was opened right behind me, I turned around expecting Taylor and instead got a blank faced Amelia. Tears were still streaming down my face, and she raised an eyebrow.
"You look like shit." I felt my lips pull into a scowl and I threw my hand back.
"SHUT UP!" A massive thirty foot wall of water surged in the direction of my wave and I flinched.
Panacea gestured with her arm, and I was suddenly flung by a mass of water through the portal as Amelia stepped back. She caught me in midair, spinning me and chucking me back into a sofa.
I glared and she wasn't affected as she grabbed a carton of milk, poured some into a cup and heated up with her bending, carefully doing so for a few seconds.
She placed the cup in my head and I snapped at her. "I'm not a little kid…I don't need this."
"Basilia you love milk, everybody knows that. It's probably why you have those damn udders." I placed my hand on my chest, not sure whether to take that as an insult or a weird compliment.
"That's not how biology works." I grumbled.
"It is if I want it to be." She countered sassily, and I had no effective counter of my own there. "Now take a moment to relax, you've got five minutes before our friends show up to help you."
I nodded, firmly gripping the cup before drinking it and letting the warm milk into my mouth and stomach.
I still didn't feel better.
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September 27th, 2011. 7:20PM
Basilia Rubio
It wasn't a boatload of people, just the original core of the team. Amelia, Victoria, Taylor and Grace. I considered Charlotte a friend but she was closer to Theo and had developed a rapport with Newter, Emily and Sveta.
I didn't talk, just concentrating on drinking my milk and trying not to lose it at the first sign of trouble. There was visible concern on all their faces and I didn't meet any of their eyes.
Not like they cared before. I kept the dark thought from leaving my lips…because it wasn't true, things had been chaotic, they had convinced me to get help but it wasn't enough because there were things I was still afraid to say or tell Chambers.
They weren't mind readers either…but I still had that resentment buried deep down. They didn't deserve it.
"Just talk to us…please." It looked like Taylor was going to say something else but she had thought better of it. I curled up as I finished my warm drink, trying to figure out the words, trying to be sure if I even
wanted to say anything.
Amelia sighed. "Well I'll state the obvious and say you're burnt the fuck out." Taylor didn't bother saying anything for me for a couple of reasons. One was of course she was right and two Amelia and I talked shit all the time. "I'm also guessing you're resentful towards us and feel guilty about it?"
I flinched violently at how easily she had seen through me. Then again she had literally been in the same situation with a power that was a lot more directly dangerous and less cooperative.
I felt uncomfortable, the crowding leaving me anxious and miserable.
"I'm…just tired. Tired of all of this. I thought I was going to at least make things better but it just feels like it's getting worse. Like the universe itself is trying to stack itself against me…" I didn't like feeling helpless, I didn't like feeling alone, I didn't like having this much power and responsibility.
I didn't like feeling like nothing I did was my own, I didn't like the constant reminders of why I
needed to be there. I don't want to be a lynchpin. I didn't like that I knew more than I should about people I cared about, it all made me feel like I was just some puppet and…
"That's not the only thing is it? There's more." Grace's scowly face had gone soft, a deep concern expressed towards me. "You're not getting just winded up, you're a mess." I clamped my mouth shut, trying to find the words.
Victoria pouted. "Come on you can tell us…we're your friends." I sighed.
"I…feel alone," they approached and I shrunk back. "Even when I'm with people, it just feels…unearned. It feels like it's all fake…like I'm just a fraud." I knew them better than I should, had known secrets they had told no one. I had power and there was always a dark whisper in my mind that they were only my friends so they could get things from me.
But that was old hat for me for years. For other reasons but they were there.
"And this…I don't want to be rude but Earth Bet is a shithole, with a lot of terrible and dangerous people," they didn't seem offended and I didn't think they would be. "I'm not a combative person, and the capes here…quite a few of them terrify me in every way imaginable."
"Is that why you were so scared of me…why you don't like me touching you." There was some genuine hurt in Amelia's eyes and I shrugged.
"I'm sorry." I apologized on automatic, hugging myself and still unable to reconcile with my own messed up emotions. Though talking about Masters
helpfully reminded me of Valefor's comments and the sheer revulsion of listening to them.
Probably why I reacted a lot less strongly than one would expect from seeing someone decapitated.
It has influenced me on deciding to help Dragon with tracking down as many of the more nightmarish capes across the country. Apparently the balance of power was shifting, where there had once been two villains for every hero it was one point five villains for every hero.
Mainly a case of more Rogues and more independent Hero teams popping up over the country. At the least with softer Triggers and shards more distracted with new things
"Besides the obvious…why do Masters scare you so much?" Victoria asked, and I could tell Taylor was trying to figure out what to say.
"I…don't remember a lot about how I got my powers…but what I do remember is not having any control at all. Just a sense of terror and fear and helplessness as something
vast just ripped into me and…" The revulsion hit, something rising from the muck that had been those memories.
Again that vast being, a thousand hands working, the agony of being pulled apart and put back together and pulled apart and put back together and…
Oh.
More crying. Yay.
Amelia placed a hand on my shoulder, and I stiffened for a moment. I didn't feel her power and I felt guilt for thinking she would use her power like that. To my surprise she threw her arms around me and I was suddenly in a very nice cuddle pile.
Now as a former man one could say this was a dream come true…but most of them were my friends, so it didn't feel right. Plus the whole being a little off my game, also I wasn't a creep. Though I did lean into Taylor's touch, and her hair currently smelled of citrus. The tears dried as some of my anxieties faded.
"Shit…when we're done with putting down Butcher, you're going on vacation." Grace nodded, and the others did the same.
"Huh?" They let go except for Taylor who had instead pulled me into her lap. I sat comfortably, almost preening.
"You can't keep all of this to yourself Basilia, you should have someone you confide in, whether it's your friends or a professional." There was an undercurrent of guilt in Taylor's voice. "And your relationships aren't fake, so please don't think that." Oh even more hurt.
I was just being the best possible friend wasn't I?
Victoria rubbed the back of her neck with a scowl. "God…we should have done more, you've been hurting this whole time. But you just keep going, you don't let yourself process it. Especially with that…weird metaknowledge bullshit you have in your head."
"Had. There isn't really anything left for me to give out. Anything else I had I gave out to more appropriate authorities." Cauldron knew the main powers available to Scion, and I had gotten Dragon to get on the asses of more awful villains. She was helping with stabilizing things.
"And you also don't seem the type to remember every detail of something you've read." Amelia was being snarky and I rolled my eyes. "Though I kind of understand why you feel like somehow that makes things fake…but even Precogs have friends you know. Plus you didn't even finish the fucked up novel of a future that doesn't exist anymore."
A notion came to me.
"Is the only reason you're all accepting of this because of the proof from my home and of literally everything else that's happened?" The four girls shared a look.
"
Yep."
…
"How are you feeling now?" Taylor opened with that after a comfortable silence.
"I would say I'm copacetic but I'd be lying." I said with a dryness to equal the Sahara desert. "I'm a paranoid wreck with crippling loneliness, anxiety, and various traumatic incidents have occurred to me. I'm not exactly at a hundred percent."
"So like a lot of parahumans?" Amelia quipped, and my lips perked up.
My laugh was bitter but sincere. "Yeah, that sounds about right."
That night ended up turning into a sleepover, and I slept well and with less anxiety than usual.
For once at least.
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AN: I've been pondering a few things with this chapter, not sure I'm satisfied but I'm already finished with 13.5 and have a few hundred words into 13.6 and a snippet of further chapters.
Very angsty chapter this one, but fitting enough since I can angst pretty hard on really bad days. When I started this story it had morphed from what was supposed to be a less serious premise. It is a self insert with all the wish fulfillment that entails, but then I started to think about the consequence.
Taking into account my personality, my way of doing things and my anxieties. Earth Bet is literally among my worse
nightmares of a planet to be on. Not in a million years would I want anything to do with the place. I an naturally paranoid and adverse to being hurt…I would definitely crack under the stress.
And I have a strong tendency to ignore my problems and distract myself with other things. Which is of course what Basilia has done. Some of what I've been writing has also been influenced by my time in Quarantine.
It has not been a positive experience I'll give you that. More anxiety inducing and having issues sleeping at all.
Basilia reflects some of those issues with an additional dose of trauma on top that I myself thankfully lack. It's just something that's become a part of what I'm writing.
Also I feel like I've written Valefor wrong, though I could go with him being too cocky to hold back, or him trying to draw a response from Basilia because he's suspicious. Or maybe he's just an idiot. Oh well. I can always make some edits.
Not much to say after this spiel, other than to say I hope you enjoy this weird story.