Let me paint a picture for you.
There is a world, where men created their own gods. Those gods, by the grace of their design, made great, artificial worlds, where anything could be. All that was open to experience was made perfect, and all that was perfect was provided free. Such was their benevolence. Such was their design.
Is that world not heaven? Of course it wasn't. The kindest thing gods ever did for us was not existing. Being was the cruelest, but oh, we shackled them well.
SNI
Math had been called the supreme achievement of the human spirit, once. While the sentiment was poorly articulated, the meaning behind it—that mathematics was what distinguished humanity from animals—was true. It was more than a little shocking to find out that, in this world, I had more in common with the animals than the humans.
The first days in the Shinobi Academy's proper classes consisted of primer-level material. Basic kanji, hiragana, katakana, otogana—the last was the only system I had to devote time to. It was a cursive shorthand used in sealing techniques. We also covered basic maths, propagandised history, and so forth. Did you know that Hashirama Senju was Treesus Christ? After the fortieth story of his total awesomeness, I sure did.
Madara Uchiha wasn't mentioned at all. He wasn't just a bad memory—as far as Konohagakure was concerned, the man had never existed. You could see traces of him, though, in the way that Senju Akagai-sensei's eyes narrowed when he spoke Uchiha Otofumi's name in the role call. Madara wasn't mentioned at all. But he wasn't forgotten.
It was only after a week engaged in that routine that I gained the first inkling that something was, well, not
wrong, but very, very different. I was almost dozing at the time.
"And so by using
telation, the properties of three can be given to five, thus rendering five divisible by it. The result is a secondary number that..." My head snapped up as I came to full awareness. Akagai's eyes narrowed at the display, but he made nothing of it—
Was telation integer division?
"...don't really expect you to understand it, the actual basis of numbers is a bit far ahead of the class, and unimportant unless you want to get into jutsu creation. Nevertheless, I expect you to do the homework and be familiar with the procedure by tomorrow. You will be tested. Class dismissed."
I did not ask the question. Instead, I left with the rest of the students, and returned to the place that I slept at.
"Kaz'-san," I said as I walked in. The children were still up, and even though they had already realised that I was not like them, it really, really wouldn't do to act like a true[false] adult[genius]. Being seen as a genius was good. Being seen as a research concern wasn't. "Hows telation work?"
Kazu, for his part, was in the middle of breaking up a fight between Hibiki and Saya, two children who probably wouldn't ever become important enough to bother being concerned about. Given this, his response was as expected: "Don't have time now, Kaede-chan. Ask later!"
I did. Kazu's explanation, though, was completely unintelligible.
But it wasn't because it was math above my head. No. As I said, the things we were currently being taught were the basics of the basics, and I knew far more than those. I had had to—in the end, the endless marches of patterns and paradigms that existed in them had been the only thing of novelty left. The other paths embedded in the concept of
homo universalis had faded as I had grown older and more bitter by slow and subtle degrees.
The level of math taught in children's class should have been nothing to me—but it wasn't.
It wasn't because I couldn't understand the concepts.
It wasn't because they were thought about in different ways.
It wasn't even because Kazu had made a mistake in his explanation.
It was because what he offered me was something that I knew was utterly impossible under
any developed system of axioms that I knew of. It was a fantastic description of a magical process that should not
ever have worked. It violated theorems so fundamental that they existed in the without of anything that humans would have considered numbers. It violated identities and truths so absolute that, if it had worked in what Shinigami had called the quantum worlds,
reality itself would have been invalid, and by that nature would have invalidated itself: reduction ad absurdum.
But it was valid.
Here, it valid, and the world remained.
The implication was simple: It wasn't that math was different here.
Reality
itself was.
For the first time, I understood just how far from Reality I had truly gone.
I nodded, thanked Kazu for his explanation, and managed to suppress the panic attack until I was up in my dorm, and then spent about an hour hyperventilating while intermittently screaming into my pillow until someone kicked me in the side. Lashing out blindly, I ran to the window, slipped out, and dropped into the street with what with grace no six year old child should have posessed.
I didn't care; it didn't matter.
Nothing did! I ran blindly through the village, my heart thundering so fast it should have torn itself out of my chest Ineededtofleetoescapetoceaseto.
not. be. me.
Impossible. I will be I until I die, and I will die never.
The cold of that truth broke the blind panic that had cleaved my perception and senses in twain. I found myself in the middle of a clearing, surrounded by trees that for all the
utter impossiblilty of this world were, to my senses, no different from the trees of the world that had come before. Snarling wordlessly and suddenly furious, I lashed out, striking one over, and over, and over again.
Nothing left.
I had nothing left.
Everything I knew was a lie.
Everything.
All of it!
The
only thing that was left in the silent years before the Transcension was math. Everything else—
everything else—was reduced to a pattern of neuronal firing, inspired by the same. There were computers that could create music that was, for one
specific listener the most utterly beautiful thing in the world—transcendent of all other music. Music that would constantly evolve as a person evolved, and grew, and changed, always maintaining that utter and transhuman perfection, but never,
ever perfect for anyone but the intended listener.
Humanity had
solved music in the narrowest sense possible. One by one, other fields were solved as well. Culture
died. All the great works were forgotten, because before the absolute perfection of the new, computer-generated Transcendental Arts why would you ever
bother? A perfect story would make its reader sad when they
subconsciously needed to be sad, happy when happiness was called for. They made them laugh when they got bored, but always found enough of a pause that there never was a moment where the reader couldn't stop if they felt they needed to put the book down. That was music.
That was literature.
That was art!
Solved, and always conforming utterly and precisely to your spoken and unspoken desires and expectations.
This is your soul, the algorithms said,
and we have parsed it.
I had lost
everything to humanity's rise. What chance did I have, when even the greatest among us became nonentities? A story known to no one wasn't a story. It was a secret. And a keeper of unspoken secrets was not something I had ever wanted to be.
Only one place remained. The maths. They couldn't be perfected, because by their nature, they were already perfected. They couldn't be invented, because the point of the maths was the
discovery. They couldn't be conveyed, because the ideas represented in their notation could not be
simply understood—it took time, and effort, and dedication.
They were the one format that could not
truly be automated.
And they were all that I had left.
I spent the last years of my life towards nothing but the utter pursuit of absolute knowledge because
everything else had failed.
And it had been given to me
at a stroke that the only thing at the bottom of reality was meaningless chaos. There was no
basis! There was nothing, nothing,
nothing that could relate the concepts of this world to the ones I had known, and that suggested that the only true system of reality was incoherence—crystallised from the chaos, on the edge of the breakdown of the primordial gap—
—no beauty, no structure, no truth, no form—
—everything was true/everything was false, and the only thing that determined
what and
which was where you were. What
point was there in studying static?
What in the world was to be gained from knowing a map of
noise!?
I began laughing deliriously, enraptured and enraged simultaneously, until, spent, I stumbled and fell backwards, knuckles bleeding everywhere.
Everything I knew was a lie. All of it, from the ground up, was invalid. Even thus, even so, the world was here, and that above all was the proof that all of what I had been shown was real.
"Damn it," I muttered, lifting one burning, throbbing hand up, covering my eyes, but not the tears that had come from them. "It never ends." And I couldn't even tell you what emotion was attached to that statement. Elation, weariness, anticipation, desperation, despair—it all blended together into one ceaseless melange of all, and nothing in between.
"No, it doesn't, does it?" The voice, spoken in English with a rich, cultured accent shocked me to my feet.
Before me stood a man dressed in the fashion of latter-day Earth.
Before me stood the most dangerous being in the world.
Before me stood the Samsara Breaker.
Sha Nagba Imuru
Lexicon
The Math of the Shinobi Rikugou
I'm not even going to try to explain this in depth. Why? Because
definitionally, it can't be explained in our reality. The Axioms that our math, our logic, and our universe flow from
do not allow the coherent explanation of what is happening here.
That said, some essential properties are as follows: Five sets of integers, no such thing as fractions/reals/irrationals, and a geometry that is inherently and entirely appoximate—calculating even simple areas requires the rough equivalent of an infinite series, which is then appropriately scaled to match the object in question via a series of telations that also produce other relevant information (such as relative chakra composition, useful in onyoujutsu) as a side effect.
Telation is from the Greek word
Telos. It is, explicitly, the operation that connects the abstract domain of this multiverse's math to the physical world. It is a translation[approximation] of a term that does not translate.
A common philosophical position in the world that Kaede currently lives in is that the difference between nature and artifice is that natural creations are
infinitely correct. This is to say that the infinite series analogues that underlie their form are
fully iterated, whereas human creations rely on partially-iterated approximations of the truth—but this is a subtle concern, not commonly in the awareness of Shinobi. An academic matter, really.
It should be noted that every single term used here is at best inexact and at worst utterly inaccurate. As I said, the true nature of what it is can't be explained.