--------------------------------------------
The Princess Beneath The Earth
--------------------------------------------
Nargothrond's entrance halls were lively with anticipation, bustling full of people, so many that even the colossal chamber leading deeper into the city was crowded. They'd gathered at the chamber's sides, around and beneath the monumental pillars that held it up, on balconies by the sides, and up high on the lofty bridges that crossed across the high parts of the cavern like branches across a forest canopy. Under the light of the great lamps, Finduilas could count tens of thousands with ease, and there were many more beyond her sight.
Finduilas had the entryway prepared for them, as the King had asked her to. The emerald banners of King Finrod had been hung from the canopy, alongside the standards of the House of Finarfin, silken sheets larger than a house chamber. There were silver and gold hangings, flowers and roses from the gates to the furthest end of the vast room. All across the great hall they'd placed the strongest-voiced heralds and singers, so that not even the youngest child could be confused.
We will need all the help we can find there, Finduilas thought to herself as she looked at the work of Nargothrond's people. She saw stars and red banners everywhere, from hastily-made standards like those used by soldiers to ones as small as handkerchiefs. Unlike the banners of the King and his House they did not hang from the pillars or the cavern ceiling, but in the hands of the people awaiting the arrival of those to whom those banners belonged. It seemed only a few short days ago when all Nargothrond was enraged at the 'New Kinslaying' as they'd called it. Grief, mingled with fury at another betrayal by the easterners, an even greater offense than all the rest.
Then more news came from the north. The Sons of Fëanor were no traitors, but were slandered by a deception of Angband. What more, they proved their worth on the field of battle. And for most, that was enough to wash away all dishonor, sufficient to welcome the Fëanorians as heroes. After all that happened, why not wish for a hero to wipe the tears away?
Father certainly would not approve of such heroes. He had little good to say about the House of Fëanor. He rarely brought them up in conversation, and seemed to live his life content with pretending they did not exist. He has his reasons. On this at least, if nothing else. Finduilas reminded herself. Reminded herself, as she had to do every so often now. They were kinslayers. On both her mother's side and her father's, she could claim kinship to the Teleri who had been slain at Alqualondë. Yet if not for them, would any of these people have lived to return here?
She did not know. These were old enmities, grudges born long before her, but they cast their shadow still.
Finduilas looked to the side, and saw Siniel, her son in her arms. The princess had invited her friends to be close by her side, in the balcony box reserved for Finarfin's House, highest and closest to where the King would be. Siniel had chosen to wear her red dress, and over it a long-sleeved overcoat, decorated with stars and altogether too much fur. In his small hand, her son held a tiny red cloth too. Siniel was far from the only one to dress herself like that - the 'eastern style', it had come to be called in Nargothrond, in honor of Fëanor's House. Daeron's choice was similar, though it involved more painted leathers, and a false sword worn at his waist (He would not have dared wear a real blade in Finduilas' presence).
Finduilas could not afford to indulge in such frivolities. On this day, she wore the colors of the King. A white silk dress, tied at the waist with a green sash. A light blue shawl over her left shoulder, decorated with amber carved in the shape of flower petals, like those at the heart of her great-grandfather's sigil. She and Eithoril were the only ones in the box not to wear red.
From the gates, the great trumpets rang. "They are coming!" Finduilas heard Siniel whisper, the anticipation in her voice clear. She was far from alone. Whispers carried easily across the hall, even underneath the cries of the heralds and the singers' hymns.
"O folk of Nargothrond! Into our city come the guardians against the North! Into our city welcome your sons and daughters! Hail to the valiant Prince Gwindor, son of Guilin, returned after many battles!" The first cry issued forth from the heralds. Swiftly after, another announcement followed. "Welcome our worthy eastern kin, who came to our aid unlooked for! Hail to the princes of Finwë's line! Hail to Celegorm and Curufin!" She was surprised there was no mention of her father, hard though it was to imagine him a great warrior in battle. That must have been why no one had said his name as of yet.
"The defenders of the north!" many cried reverently. "Glory to the heroes of our people."
They were not yet in sight, but people cheered for them all the same. "The champions of the Ñoldor!"
Then from far in the distance there came a roll on great drums, drowning out all other calls. Slow at first, then faster and faster. I did not arrange for these, Finduilas thought. They were followed by more voices crying out. "Á cenë ancénië!" they called. Finduilas could now see the players in the distance. They were arranged in bands, some mounted and others following at the side on foot. All wore brightly-colored robes and red-feathered caps, those at the forefront marked out by their tall horse-tail headdresses.
"Á cenë ancénië!" they sang again, calling out for all to hear. Now alongside the drums, she could hear many more instruments. Pipes and fiddles and reed trumpets joined with the approaching drums, their tune rising ever higher in intensity. It was a rhythm unlike those of Nargothrond, heavy, shrill, almost discordant. The drums kept banging at repetitive, short intervals. Trailing behind them was the sound of footfalls, marching feet and many hooves stamping against the stones of the floor in tune with the drums.
"What are they singing about?" Siniel asked absent-mindedly. "Can't say I understand all of it. Is it the Quenya of Valinor? They don't speak quite right."
"No," Finduilas answered her. In all truth, she had trouble understanding some parts of the hymn herself. She could make out Quenya words and phrases, but they were mixed with dialects of Sindarin - and she didn't know them all.
"Something of fathers and mothers, sons and daughters. It's your Quenya, mixed… carelessly with the dialects favored east of my home, and the proper speech of us in Doriath." Eithoril said. "Even though King Thingol is supposed to have outlawed kinslayers from speaking that tongue." she added.
Finally, the host came within sight, and the music reached a fever-pitch. There were many companies, and they marched in perfect order. First came the ones on foot, carrying the banners of Nargothrond. Some of those soldiers Finduilas could even recognize. They were greeted by the people with loud cheers, many rushing up close to embrace their loved ones, others watching close, hoping to see a familiar face. We don't even know all those we lost yet.
It was the first time in her life that Finduilas had seen so many soldiers gathered like this within Nargothrond's walls. It felt wrong, like something about life had changed, and she didn't know if things would ever be the same again.
After them came the squadrons of the easterners, arrayed in their elaborate formations. Above their ranks floated crimson banners and horse-tail standards. These eldar held themselves proudly, their bearing tall and straight as they trotted forward in orderly fashion. All of them had bows by their side, tucked into richly-embroidered quivers alongside their arrows.
None of the leathers that poor Daeron wore though, or half as much fur. Nevertheless, Finduilas noticed that her companion was whistling to the sound of the Fëanorian music. "I like it," he said, smiling casually. "Songs with brawn. About brave deeds, not… trees and blooming flowers."
For-ever valiant the Ñoldor folk have been.
Under stars renowned, your far-famed hosts are seen!
Under stars renowned, your far-famed hosts are seen!
Of course you do, Finduilas thought. In but a few days, Daeron had gone from decrying all things of Fëanor's House and listing their each and every treachery to this, as soon as different news came.
Though Finduilas had to admit the music had its appeal, for all its percussive harshness. The words had her shiver in excitement, and made her want to sweep into dance herself. Or to walk very intently, perhaps. Should I feel guilty for that?
Aiya Rúnavarrim, Aiya Rúnavarrim!
Never show fear! For kin and land you take the field!
Accursed foes you scatter to the wind!
Accursed foes you scatter to the wind!
"Just look at them!" Siniel marveled, pointing to the Fëanorian horsemen. "They're splendid." Indeed they were, with their embroidered cummerbunds, their feathers and their colored plumes, their bands and leaders, marching through the hall with a victor's swagger.
"Indeed they are." Finduilas agreed, and saw Eithoril's gaze darken that very instant. "Though the eagles flying over Aman's skies would have been truly magnificent, my father would say. Or something of that sort." she laughed. No doubt, she'd hear it from father himself soon enough.
"I heard the easterners call these riders 'Daeliyúmë', the Terror Host. They're the vanguard that heralds the advance of their riders. The orcs in the borderlands hate them especially, for they have no mercy and ever seek to torment them. I also heard that they must each gather a score of orc heads in battle and hand them to their lords before being accepted into the ranks." Daeron confided, as if sharing in on a secret.
"That sounds like the Sons of Fëanor." said Eithoril, her voice cold.
"These Sons of Feanor are why my son still has a father, and not a corpse." Siniel retorted. "Why should I care what they do to orcs?"
Finduilas could see an argument was brewing. Before she could stop it however, something else did. Where before there were only cheers, now gasps came from those watching the procession. The closely-ordered Fëanorian ranks had opened, to reveal more than two-score Men.
Bound hand and foot in heavy irons they were, and blindfolded. "Orc-work." Eithoril whispered faintly, and Finduilas doubted she was alone in thinking that. 'Why let them here?' she heard others whisper. 'Not into Nargothrond, not our city.', 'It's not meant to be done this way.' The Edain shambled forward, their heads hanging low. Their garments were strange - or at least so far as Finduilas could tell, ragged and caked in dirt as they were. Beneath the stains of sweat and filth, she could still see their clothes were yellow, that many of them had been well-made. In terms of shape… they were as Edain always were. Finduilas had not met many of their kind, but these did not seem unusual. Some tall, others short, bearded and beardless. At least one of them had that odd habit of Aftercomer men, where the hair on their heads would grow thin or fall off entirely, leaving them as bare as a rock under the sun. She'd once been told it was a sign of age, like how their hair would turn white.
"Our kin of Nargothrond," a man's voice cried out from among the Fëanorian following. Though he didn't seem especially remarkable in appearance, he was well-situated and dressed in finery, on his head a jeweled helm plumed with peacock feathers. "Word came that it was the Sons of Fëanor and their armies who betrayed you. But you were lied to, deceived by a foe who sought in vain to blacken our name and rupture the bond of kinship among the Ñoldor. Behold those who truly betrayed you, the Aftercomers that fell upon Minas Tirith at the North's bidding, who killed your sons and daughters!"
Finduilas could hear the murmurs among the crowd turn, and bubble up. Water bubbling in the river was air, seeking to be let out, she had once been told. This was resentment, seeking release.
"Traitors! Traitors!" A voice called out, and the flood began. Now, the world was flooded with cries, awash in the rising uproar.
"Murderers!" some said. "Justice! Justice!" others called for. "Accursed be the moment you were born!"
"Orcs in man-shape, get thee gone from here!"
All that and more the shackled Edain were showered with on their path and in front the man with the gilded helm kept on shouting his speeches. "With trickery they found passage to your land, in the name of their king. A boy who claims to be king of all the Edain, and seeks dominion of Beleriand."
Was this true? Finduilas wondered. A boy claiming to be king of all the Aftercomers. There hadn't ever been an Edain king, none that she heard of. Why would one be Nargothrond's enemy now?
But those thoughts were for others to have, and later. "That boy-king leads a Golden Host, Edain impostors one and all. He has made league with Gorthaur, whose armies march into your lands. They made captives of those they didn't murder. More would have fallen had we not arrived."
"This cannot be borne! It is unacceptable."
"Show them to us. Show them. Show us their faces!" the crowd demanded.
"As you wish, so the valiant sons of Feanor answer," the mounted man with the gilded helm answered. At his command, the Edain were placed upon the ground, their blindfolds roughly removed. "See wretches, the great city you sought in vain to conquer, the people you meant to humble and enslave!"
She could see the Edain glance about, their eyes flickering with awe and terror as they took in their surroundings. Could they have ever seen anything alike to Nargothrond in all their lives?
Three times a horn sounded, and now came the biggest banners yet seen. There were the emerald standards of Nargothrond and King Finrod. Close by yet standing apart were the Fëanorian flags, now-familiar with their silver stars on red, and the flame-wreathed device of Fëanor. Last was Gwindor's blue banner. Finduilas let her hand rest against the balcony's marble edge, and closed her eyes.
The rider with the gilded helm turned course, bowing his head deeply. These are his lords. The Sons of Feanor, at last. They were riding side by side, a large retinue of men and women clad in polished steel following behind. The one to the left bore a cluster of golden plates over his armor, shaped like roses. Above it he was wearing a two-toned heavy coat, red as blood outside and white within, long as a cloak, with its brim, the cuff of the sleeves and hem trimmed with fine fur, golden patterns swirling upwards at the back like flames. On his dark-haired head there was no helm - rather he wore a crown of crystal, and in hand held a steel rod, wielding it as a scepter. On his feet he had a pair of scarlet boots, made of supple-looking leather and velvet, edged in jeweled scrollwork and decorated with patterns of stars and tulips in gold and silver-corded thread. The horse he rode upon was no less splendid than the rider, with its bejeweled caparison and gem-encrusted bridle. This must be Curufin. He certainly knows how to dress. Finduilas thoughts passed to what she'd heard of the man. Word was that he was the most alike to Fëanor in appearance and character, the favorite among all his Sons. If so, was she looking at this man's father writ small?
Curufin returned the courteous bow of his vassal with a smile and raised his hand in acknowledgement before turning his head to look at the cheering crowds surrounding him - yet kept a distance, sitting tall and straight atop his mount. It was the brother beside him who received the greatest attention and the loudest acclaim instead.
Where Curufin's attire wedded palatial splendor with martial glory, no such considerations passed the mind of the rider to his right. There were no jewels on him that Finduilas could see, no softnesses nor precious fabrics. This man's appearance spoke of naught but war. He sat atop a snorting red horse, clad in the same steels he might wear on the battlefield. By his side he had a bow, and a young rider behind him carried a large spear reverently. Four other riders followed too, golden banners attached to the tails of their horses, trailing on the ground behind like prey caught at the end of a hunt. Already they'd gathered much dust and dirt. "Turko! Turko! Turko!" the riders behind him chanted enthusiastically. "Prince Celegorm! Hunter of beasts and traitors, feared by all the orcs!"
It wasn't just his own following who were cheering. By Finduilas' side, Siniel was waving with her free hand, and many others were shouting his name as well. Unlike Curufin, Celegorm led his horse closer to the crowd, letting children touch the fur of the enormous dog that walked alongside him. He laughed with his knights and talked to those who approached him, glorying in the adulation.
Finduilas turned her head to Daeron. Something about this was odd. "They seem to be more enthusiastic about Prince Celegorm than Prince Curufin." she said, careful to try and not phrase it as a question. She didn't like looking ignorant, much less having to ask for help.
"Well, there is plenty of reason for that, Princess Finduilas." Bless you Daeron, she thought, and your endless eagerness to share whatever you've heard. "They say in Valinor he was squire to Oromë himself, learned how to ride and hunt and shoot a bow at the Great Rider's feet. That hound? His name's Huan, Oromë's gift to a beloved companion. They hunted alongside King Finrod, Lady Aredhel and your own grandfather, the late Martial Prince. His bow can pierce through solid steel, run an orc through and still pin it to a tree after, from what I've heard."
Eithoril raised her eyebrow. "What he used to do in Valinor doesn't mean much for who he is today." she said. "Hunting beasts hardly makes great lords."
"I've heard many of the same things, Daeron." Finduilas added more diplomatically.
"Oh no, not just that!" he answered. "When Fëanor first landed in Nevrast, it was Prince Celegorm who led the southwards prong of the attack. His cavalry passed undetected and smashed an orc throng that outnumbered them more than three-to-one, lifting the siege of the Falas. After the fighting was over, he enters the city and presents Lord Cirdan with the head and arms of the commander of the host that had tormented his people, wrapped in his own banner, before speeding north again to join his father! And at the Aglareb, he led the eastern vanguard in the envelopment that broke the armies attacking Dorthonion. Since then, he's fought more than a hundred battles great and small. Hasn't lost a single one. His people claim he's the mightiest warrior in all the East, the 'Cáno worth Ten Thousand Spears'. Of the Sons of Fëanor, the reputations of Maedhros and Maglor alone match his."
"You can take a breath now," Finduilas smiled. "but thank you." As funny as Daeron's enthusiasm was, Finduilas was thankful for it all the same. She doubted her father would divulge that kind of information, and she had never much bothered with news of the war before.
As if on cue, some of the Fëanorian troops chanted - they had no music behind them, and their voices were low, rasping fast like a light tap on wood. "We're the Hunter's men, Prince Turko's faithful! Loyal, mighty, ever-victorious! From the waves of the Falas to Angband's iron gates, foemen get out of our way! To us, lords of the West, clans and kin listen!"
Daeron laughed. "I can answer more if you want!" he added.
"Maybe later," Finduilas replied, turning her head to face the trumpets. Below, riding by the Fëanorians she saw Gwindor. For a moment, their gazes met, but only for a moment.
"I have to leave," she said hastily. "I will see you afterwards."
Finduilas made her way down flights of stairs and through winding corridors, as quick as her feet could carry her before she finally reached her destination. Guilin was already there.
"Neither too late nor early, Princess Finduilas." he greeted her. Guilin was robed in white, his garment reaching down to his knees. His pants were a light shade of green, as were the layered folds of his robe. The scrollwork at his sleeves was yellow, the embroidery depicting the bare branches of some golden tree. Fine attire to represent both the colors of the King and the winter season. But there was blue there as well - splashes of it, in the gems that decorated Prince Guilin's lapels, and the silk ribbon that kept his dark hair tied into a knot. For Gwindor, no doubt. "Did you see my son?" he asked.
"Yes," Finduilas answered. "He was there beneath our king's banners. But I did not see my lord father with him." Speaking those words aloud, she found herself suddenly worried.
If Prince Guilin was surprised by her news, he did not show it. "Be at ease," he said gently. "Your father never was much for ceremony, and he likes the Sons of Feanor even less. He has his reasons."
Finduilas felt some relief at Guilin's words. Of course. Why would he be riding alongside the Fëanorians? What a foolish idea. "Of course. You're right, lord Guilin." She smiled. Yet for some reason, the pangs of worry did not fully go away. She felt them still, a wrongness churning inside her. She ignored the feeling. It was a chill, and nothing more.
"And what do you think of our king's guests, Princess Finduilas?" Guilin asked her.
What do I think of them? She was not certain how to reply - or what to reply with. While she wouldn't go so far as Siniel and Daeron's newfound adoration, they were impressive all the same. They were not what Finduilas had expected - different certainly, but not savages barely above orcs. Father wouldn't like to hear that, and she doubted Guilin would either.
"They're loud." was what she settled for. At least it was true. "And more… ostentatious than I imagined. They want to impress us, and like being seen as much as the people like seeing them."
Guilin nodded. "Indeed?" he observed, interest coloring his voice. "You have a keen eye, Princess Finduilas. Why do you think they do so?"
Finduilas paused. Once again, what was she meant to answer, beneath Guilin's gaze? "To demonstrate their valor. They want to impress us - everyone here, by showing their strength."
"You are correct," Guilin said. "yet still missing something." Finduilas froze, waiting for his next words. What did he think she'd gotten wrong? "They do want to impress us, yet it is not because of their strength but their weakness."
"What do you mean, lord Guilin?" Finduilas asked, politely as she could. What is he trying to say? "They look mighty to me."
"And that is exactly how they wish to appear. Mighty heroes, the triumphant conquerors come to deliver us. Their music, their splendid clothes and armors, the… indignities imposed upon their captives. Even if you were to look away, you could hardly ignore them. The purpose is to overawe the people of Nargothrond with spectacle. But what you must understand is this: such grand displays, such elaborate ceremonies are not born from certainty, but the lack of it. Power - true power - is a frightfully subtle thing. It is there, but has no need to make itself seen. Look beneath the image they show to us - see their numbers, and how few they are compared to our people. Ask yourself, Princess Finduilas; why are they here to begin with? It is because they abandoned their lands to the orcs."
She thought back to what Daeron said about Celegorm. How does a warrior who has never lost a battle end up forced to leave his home to the flames? But was what Guilin said the whole truth? "I did not think of it this way." Finduilas admitted. "Though I have to ask - if true power needs not be seen, then why do we bother with crowns?"
Guilin looked at her, a moment passing silently, or as silently as it could with what was happening close by. "A good question." he chuckled. "But I want you to forget about japes for a moment, and heed what I have to say next. All power rests on people and flows from them, even as it changes their lives. One can hold power over the life and death of another, yet remain blind to that fact. Someone with lesser strength can veil the eyes of all around him and appear far greater than he truly is. A mere handful can start a war, and one man may stir an entire people to madness. We might not yet know what the Sons of Fëanor truly want, or why they came here. But I can tell what they are doing now, and saw what they've done before. Do not trust them." Guilin warned, all humor vanishing from his voice. "The Sons of Feanor have aims of their own, and never let their words blind you to that."
Everyone does. Finduilas thought, but dared not speak. Was there someone in this place who had not a goal of his own, no matter how small? "Whatever their aims, I have faith in our King and trust his wisdom to see us through." she said, echoing Guilin's own words before the throne.
"As do I." Guilin answered. "As must we all." He stepped forward with grace, one foot in front of another and she followed. The procession was in front of them now.
With a pneumatic whirr, the doors began to open. On them, they bore many engravings, fashioned in a series of great circles, expanding from the center outwards. At the innermost one were wrought the Stars and Two Trees in gold and silver, while the outermost was set with the image of the Ekkaia, the Outer Ocean that circled the edge of Arda. Between them many more images were graven. Folk plowing their fields and hunters at the chase, miners delving for precious stones and craftsmen working their trade in forges of gold-wrought flame. Then in the deeper circle, amidst kinsmen hunting in a far-off land, a lone, golden-haired prince sat in repose by the river. Before him the Lord of Waters rose in glory. Following the Vala, he saw a place by the river Narog, deep beneath the earth, and hewed therein a city. By his side were arranged many more figures - eldar and naugrim alike, working side by side. Lastly at the circle's far-end, he sat enthroned and crowned. It was nothing less than the tale of Nargothrond's foundation - and a powerful depiction of its prosperity. More than that, it was a display of what made Nargothrond exceptional among the kingdoms of Beleriand - founded with the guidance of the Valar, the permission of Thingol, its halls hewed with the aid of the Dwarves. What other realm could boast of such concord by all Arda in its founding? The thought made Finduilas proud.
The Deep Gate, it was called, and led onto the throne chamber. From it emerged King Finrod, flanked by the Ehtërim Mahalma, their armor concealed beneath rich purple robes, bearing green plumes upon their gilded helms. The same mechanisms that had opened the gate now blew rose petals across the chamber, as if by a wind from the West. They scattered slowly down onto the polished floors as the lanterns that lit above the King and his entourage flickered brighter.
"Ever-lasting joy to thee! Ever-lasting joy to Nargothrond and its people!" came the acclamations from down below.
"Turmenatar! Turmenatar!", 'Realm-father' chanted the gathered throngs of the city's craftsmen and masons by the side. "Úlmo and Elbereth grant you foresight and wisdom, to guide our people. May the Powers preserve and steady our great realm."
"And may you who over prosperity have reigned four hundred years -" cried out the heralds.
"- in peace reign four thousand more!" answered all ranks of the Throne Guard, loudly enough that Finduilas wanted to cover her ears. Alone and set apart from all stood the figure of King Finrod, perfectly still and silent, serene amid the din. His hands were clasped before his waist, the lanternlight above setting his golden hair and the many gems of his silver crown aflame.
Soon the procession reached the foot of the steps and all fell silent. The forward columns of soldiers parted to the sides, letting their leaders through. Curufin and Gwindor were first to dismount. Celegorm was the last to do so, removing his red-plumed helm and handing it over to a scarred rider behind him before dismounting in a single swift move, striding up the steps with a weighty gait. It was Finduilas' first close look at Fëanor's thirdborn. He was tall, very tall and powerful in appearance, broad at the shoulders and around the waist. Silver hair fell loosely down his shoulders like a lion's mane and his eyes were dark grey, the Light of the Trees visible within them. His features were well-shaped, his skin tanned, though more weathered than that of Gwindor. Some call him Fair, either for the color of his hair or his looks. She would not deny that Prince Celegorm was a handsome man, but Finduilas could not find him attractive. There was something to him, a severity in his eyes even when restful, a tempestuousness to his expression that threatened to explode into violence at any moment. It scared her, as did the thought of this man with blade in hand.
The sound of steel-shod feet clanking on the marble steps echoed across the grand chamber. Those next to Finduilas and on the opposite row looked on solemnly, though a few stole sideways glances at the trio as it passed them by. Finduilas focused her eyes on Gwindor. Just as before, he did not turn his eyes towards her. Why? She asked silently.
When he was on the level below the King, Gwindor bowed his head and clasped his hands, before kneeling on one leg. Next to him, Curufin inclined his head in respect, but Celegorm stood still, his eyes meeting those of the King.
There was a moment, but a brief one where they studied the other. But then the King spoke. His voice was level, but by some art unknown to Finduilas, the spot upon which he stood carried his voice across the vast chamber, in a manner that would have been impossible even if he were shouting. "Welcome, Prince Celegorm, mighty lord and valiant hunter, famed in battle. Welcome, Prince Curufin, beloved son of the First House, for your cunning craft renowned. A long way have you ridden from your eastern homeland, but gladdened we are by your coming." Gwindor, he hailed after them. "Welcome, Prince Gwindor Guilin's son, child of our realm, fast friend of my House. All Nargothrond is joyous for your return."
"We accept the honor gladly, wise king." said Curufin. "And are thankful for the hospitality of your great realm."
"A fine welcome." Celegorm spoke. His voice was deeper than his brother's, resounding clear and loud across the hall. "But we're not here to beg for lodging, younger brother. We are princes of Finwë's line, not beggars at Nargothrond's door." he declared proudly. "We will win our place at the table with brave deeds."
The King's gaze went to the two brothers. "Then you already have, kinsmen." he said. "You and your host have done us a service that Nargothrond cannot forget." From there, the King turned to address the hall. "My people! I, Finrod son of Finwë Arafinwë, of Finwë's House greet Princes Celegorm and Curufin into our realm, as loved kin and fast friends. I give praise to their bravery, and the dangers they took in coming to our help in this hour. I ask you to honor them, to aid them here as I do, as you would our own."
'Yea! Praise be, praise be! Glory to Nargothrond, glory to our King! Honor to the heirs of Finwë!' the acclamations of a happy crowd resounded, loud as thunder.
The giving of gifts followed after that - silk garments, of the cut favored in Nargothrond for Celegorm, as well as a bow, an embroidered quiver full of arrows and jeweled thumb ring (Finduilas had to ask what the purpose of that was - apparently archery!), while his brother Curufin was gifted with a golden necklace and gem-encrusted belt. Gwindor was given a long blue velvet cloak, trimmed with white fur and decorated with silver thread, as well as a diadem, pearls hanging on strings from its back and sides. After them, the captains and officers received gifts also, of no small worth in their own right. So too were all soldiers of the host down to the lowliest awarded with bales of silk and strong wine. The Sons of Fëanor exchanged gifts of their own in turn - horses and panoplies, spoils of war taken from the ruin of the Golden Host. Prince Celegorm took great pleasure in revealing the contents of a large sack, slashing it open with his blade. Many golden arm rings spilled forth from within, worn, he said, by the warriors of the traitor Edain. She tried not to dwell too much on the fact that more than a few still were stained with blood.
After all that was done, the King took to introducing Nargothrond's notables to his cousins. Finduilas smiled watching him do so. It was the first time in months that she'd seen King Finrod be so energetic, as if all the ardor he'd lost was returned to him, overcoming his grief.
It was good to see, and made her feel safe, safer than before. Before she realized it, King Finrod and the Fëanorians stood before her.
"This is the fair lady Finduilas," he said to them. "daughter of my nephew Orodreth, and the youngest of my House."
"I am honored to meet you, my kin." Finduilas said politely, standing tall. Curufin smiled easily, as he had with all others who had greeted him. Celegorm's eyes on the other seemed to observe her more closely. It made her nervous and she had to look up slightly, but she met his gaze all the same.
"I remember Orodreth." Remember? She wondered, but had no time to dwell on it. "You do not look much like him."
"I've been told I resemble my grandsire most, great Prince." she answered. "I am glad for it however - if I took after my father or mother more, I'd have to turn my head much higher now, and you much lower." she added with a light laugh. Celegorm paused for a moment… before laughing out loud, the laughter convulsing his whole frame.
"You're bolder than he." Celegorm remarked. Finduilas was not sure what to feel. Should she be honored by a warrior like that calling her bold? Insulted, at the implication about Father?
"As am I." Curufin stepped in to say. "My apologies Lady Finduilas, my brother has his own way with words. I am certain my son would be happy to meet you also, when he arrives later."
A son? Of course, she had almost forgotten amid everything else. Curufin had a son of his own, Celebrimbor. She had not heard much about him, save that he was a skilled smith like his sire and grandsire. "I would be glad to talk to another of my kinsmen, and hope to see him soon. Finduilas answered. "But if I may ask, why is he not here with us already?"
Curufin's expression darkened at that. "My son was injured," he said flatly. "He is strong, and he'll recover. But it left him in little state to keep up with us."
"Injured? How?" she asked.
"An ambush." Celegorm rumbled. "By Thingol's men."
Suddenly, she felt embarrassed, left scrambling for words. Eithoril never said a word about that, she thought with horror. Could they really have done it? Attacked fellow Eldar? Before Finduilas could respond however, they had moved on. "No need to say anything, Lady Finduilas. My brother brokered peace between us once more - and discovered the true culprit, the Golden Host." Curufin told her. "It is in the past now, and there it will remain."
She was not sure what sounded more unbelievable. That the House of Fëanor and Thingol would keep a grudge to the past? Or that it was Prince Celegorm, with the reputation that accompanied him, who was responsible?
It seemed that the King thought much the same. "You have changed, cousin." he told Celegorm, surprise in his voice. He must have already known, of course.
"As have you." Celegorm answered, looking around. "I don't remember all this… ceremony, even if you always were one to appreciate treasure."
"It is part of being king, no less than my throne or crown." King Finrod said, with some wistfulness. "And for treasure, many esteem it on its own, but I never have. I do not value gold for its gleam, nor treasure for its worth. I value the friends it can be gifted to, the craftsman's skill who made it."
"If you have the ability, then why not display your creations?" Curufin agreed. "Though I have not had time to work the forge in far too long."
"A shame, cousin. I always admired your work. I can understand, being severed from what you would rather be doing." the King said, some sadness in his voice.
"Maybe you'll find the time here, Lord Curufin." Finduilas offered, to join the conversation. "Our city is home to many craftsmen, and they would be honored to find you a workplace."
"A generous offer, Princess." Curufin said with a smile. It was the kind of smile that made her uncertain whether he meant it, or was laughing at some joke only he was privy to. "I might take you up on it. We found many interesting devices in the possession of the traitors, and I'd like the chance to study them more closely."
"Is that so, cousin?" Finrod's voice grew more inquisitive. "I have heard much and more of this 'Golden Host' that attacked Minas Tirith. Enough, but how much of it true, I cannot tell. You fought these Edain and I want to hear all you know of them."
She'd wanted to hear more too. Questions had swirled in her mind ever since she first saw the captives, and heard the words of the Feänorian officer. Who were these people? She'd never heard of them before. Where did they come from? They called her great-uncle Finrod Edennil, Friend to Men. Why would a kindred of Edain turn against someone who had done so much for their people? Who was 'Aegon Targaryen', and what possessed him to make such bold claims? None of it made sense, and that more than anything itched at her, making her want to find the truth behind it all.
The King turned to face her. "Leave us, Finduilas." he said. Not harshly, but his intent was clear.
"My King, I-" Finduilas said, but she was cut off.
"You're right to be curious." the King stated. "But I rule Nargothrond. I must hear, and judge with caution ere any rash words are spoken, or actions made that cannot be unmade."
And I'm your kinswoman, but I can't be trusted to hear any of it? Finduilas thought ruefully. "As my King wishes." she said.
"Fret not." Finrod said, a slight smile on his face. "I will tell you later. But I think that for now, you would do well to speak to Gwindor. Surely, you must miss him."
"My King is wise." Finduilas said, bowing her head in respect, before turning back around. Whatever passed between them, she didn't know.
Her footsteps came to a freezing halt when she found Gwindor.
It was the first time she'd seen him in a year. A year alone, and it has turned the world entire. Gelmir was by his side then, smiling and teasing Gwindor for his seriousness. Looking forward to fighting alongside the King and his 'big brother'. There were many friends with them, valiant knights eager for war. Finduilas knew their names, called them friends too. Now Gwindor stood alone.
"Prince Gwindor." Finduilas said, trepidation in her voice.
Gwindor looked back at her, looking surprised. "Princess Finduilas…" he answered, after a long silence. His eyes peered into her own as she approached him. "Faelivrin." Gwindor said finally. It was his name for her. Hearing it again from his lips after so long… it made Finduilas feel warm within, it made her remember how much she missed being called that.
"I've missed you." she told him. "I was worried about you ever since.." she paused, regretting what she was about to say. "Ever since you left."
Gwindor looked at her silently. In his grey eyes, Finduilas saw exhaustion. No, not just exhaustion. There was anger there too and determination, no less than in Celegorm's. "I'm so sorry, Gwindor." She raised her hand, and brought it to his face. There was a scar there, by the side of his chin. It was new.
Before she could touch it, she felt her hand being moved aside, gently. Yet no amount of gentleness could change the feeling of a warrior's gauntlet. Gwindor held her hands in his own, just like he used to. But now, she only felt cold steel, pressing against her skin.
"It will heal. It's just a scratch." he reassured her.
"Remove those things," Finduilas commanded, pointing to his gauntlets. "I don't like them touching me."
"I'm sorry, Faelivrin. I forgot." Gwindor said softly. There was another pause. "I… I didn't want to return like this. I promised…"
What was she supposed to say that would make the loss easier? How could she even hope to comfort him? "But you came back. I know about Gelmir. He was my friend, and I knew him since we were both children. Do you think I don't miss him too? I lost my grandfather - so many died then. It's not your fault he's gone." She felt like her father. Seeing sorrow, and offering only platitudes.
"Gelmir isn't dead." Gwindor said, as confident as if he were looking at his brother instead of Finduilas. "I looked. Many times. Among the dead, when it was clear no one had seen him. I hoped to find Gelmir among them." He sounded disgusted with his own words. "I wish he was dead. I could grieve for him like all the others if he was. I know he's alive, and if I were anywhere but here…"
"What would you do then?" she asked. "Keep fighting? You've been fighting for a year now."
"Be of use." Gwindor answered. "What good am I here, Faelivrin? Who am I helping by sitting idle? There is work to be done, and I would rather help than brood on broken promises."
"Broken promises? You also promised me something, Gwindor." Finduilas told him. "You said that you'd return here. You kept that promise, but now you want to leave again? Is your word to me worth less than those?"
"You don't understand, Faelivrin." Gwindor tried to explain. He sounds like he's hiding something, Finduilas thought.
"Tell me then, so I might understand. Do you think me incapable?" she pressed him.
Gwindor's gaze hardened in response to her words. She met it head-on. "You've never fought. I pray you never have to, Faelivrin. You never had to make decisions, knowing lives would be lost whatever you chose! You've not had to watch your friends die in front of your eyes, to lie to them as life went out of them, so they'd pass thinking something was accomplished by their dying! I learned to bear it. To live with myself, with everything. I had to. I did." he said, sounding more as though he wanted to convince himself. "But not here! They have me… They act as though we won a great victory. Some victory. We- we didn't. We won nothing!"
"I have the strength." Gwindor said. Finduilas wasn't sure if it was to her, or himself. It was the first time she had heard his voice fraying like this. "Out there, I can lead. I can fight. Here, I'm useless! They have me stand tall, and smile and be cheered at and given gifts. Like some toy to wave about. Do you think I deserve this crown?" he clenched his hand into a tight fist. "All those damnable cheers? Any of it? The only thing I heard when they cheered was those damned Men laughing as they rode my friends down! But I kept silent. I learned how to keep it all quiet, so nobody would be afraid and all they'd see from me was certainty. I'm tired, Faelivrin. Tired of seeing us lose. And this… this farce earlier where we pretend we won. That made it all come back." Gwindor said, trembling with grief and rage. It broke her heart seeing him like this. Gwindor was supposed to be strong, he was a brave knight like no other. He wasn't meant to be near sobbing.
"You're brave." Finduilas tried to console him. "You're strong, and there is nobody here worthier of honor than you. All of Nargothrond loves you. I…"
"You still don't understand, do you?" Gwindor spat out. "I don't care for honor, glory, anything they give me. I want to lose no one else. I will punish those monsters for everything they did. To my brother, to Gonodor and my friends, your father-" he stopped suddenly there. Those words, those words fell like a hammerblow. Finduilas took a step back, as if she'd been struck. That same sensation she had felt when talking with Guilin returned, stronger than before.
"What?" she asked. No, she hadn't asked. Her voice was torn and hoarse. She must have shouted it. "My.. my father? What are you talking about? Guilin said- your father told me he would be here soon, that he's well."
Gwindor looked at her. "Is that what my father told you? He lied. For some… wise reason, as always."
"What happened then?" Finduilas demanded. "Tell me!"
He turned his head down, ashamed. "I lost him." he began after a long pause. "In the escape from the isle, the traitors chased us. My men and I were split from Prince Orodreth. I never saw your father again after that. I don't know what happened, if he's alive or dead. I- I shouldn't have listened. He wanted to leave the tower. If we stayed put…"
A familiar, stern voice interrupted them. "Gwindor, my son. You have said enough." Prince Guilin pronounced. At the sound of his father's voice, Gwindor froze. For a moment, he looked at Finduilas, but turned his eyes away. Silently, he went over to his father. Their eyes met, and Gwindor inclined his head in respect. Without saying a word, Guilin embraced his son.
"Go now, your mother has missed you." he instructed, and Gwindor obeyed. Before parting, he gave Finduilas a final look. None of the sorrow and anger had vanished from his eyes. Instead, they were frozen, silenced around his father. Left to fester.
Finduilas turned towards Prince Guilin. She tried to collect herself, to appear unfrayed. "Why did you come here?" she asked once Gwindor was out of earshot.
"To find my son." Guilin answered emotionlessly, his face unmoving. "I apologize for his rash words - he has suffered much, but that does not mean he should have spoken as he did."
She had no patience for this. She couldn't. "You lied to me." Finduilas told him, fighting to keep her composure. "And now you talk about Gwindor? Do you have no shame, lord?"
"I kept the truth from you, yes." Guilin said. "But not out of ill-will, Princess Finduilas."
She found herself laughing at that. "You wished to spare my feelings, Prince Guilin? Would I be happier thinking my father was about to return home?"
"You are shaken." he said firmly, but gently. "Do you think I was not, when news first came of it? I have been friends with your father since before either you or my sons were born. And the King? His nephew disappearing, so soon after he lost his brothers? But we are older, and know how to control ourselves."
Finduilas merely glared at him, feeling a lump in her throat, her eyes itching. "I have no time for these- these excuses." she said, trying to hold back a sob. Father. I- I didn't want this, I don't want something to happen to you. Mother... She thought of Mother too, she wanted her here. She wanted someone she could talk to, anyone.
"You would have been told - eventually." Guilin continued. "I want you to understand, Princess Finduilas. This is a difficult time and we can ill-afford panic to spread, to do the Enemy's work for him. Look at yourself now. Had I told you before, would you have kept your composure? Or would you have acted as now, where all Nargothrond could see you?"
"You lied to me because you did not want to be embarrassed?" she snapped. "You talked about the Sons of Fëanor and their displays, but don't act much different, do you?"
He seemed unfazed by her words, almost as though she had said nothing. She wished for him to be angry, that might at least mean he heard her. "It is precisely because of them that I was worried." Guilin answered. "I told you as much before. No matter what they say, the Sons of Fëanor are no friends of your House. Their eyes look for any weakness. If they saw the heir of Finarfin's House weeping, gripped by fright, how do you think they would perceive it?"
Finduilas stopped what she was about to say. "The heir of Finarfin's House?" In the midst of all else, she had failed to think of that.
"Indeed." Guilin confirmed it, his voice grave. "Until we find the truth of what happened to Prince Orodreth, then you are the last of the King's House left in Nargothrond save King Finrod himself. It is… a heavy burden, to be thrust upon you so suddenly, I know. One even the strongest would be bowed by. Much less to receive it alongside the news of your father."
She struggled to think of something to say. She could not.
"I would suggest you take your time. Rest. Clear your thoughts, try to be calm. Ask that your father be safe, as I shall. Whatever the truth may be, neither you nor your father will benefit from weeping ere it is known. And think on the future. Whether you want to or not… things will change now. For you, and all of us. And as the King's Heir, then you have to change also. Your life cannot be as it was before, whether you desire it or not." Guilin said, letting the words sink in slowly. "The King has decreed there will be a gathering later today. Much will be decided there. We will await your arrival, Finharyë."
Guilin left, with farewells that sounded faint to her, leaving Finduilas standing alone, his last words still ringing loudly.
Finharyë. King's Heir. Sometimes Finduilas had dreamt of being called that. She had wanted to be seen, for her voice to be heard. Now you have it.
But at what cost?
She had never wanted Father to be hurt. She wanted him to listen, to pay attention to her for once and not mourn some home he'd left long ago, not to disappear like this. You brought this, it's your fault, some part of her screamed. You wished, but never knew what it was you really wanted, what it meant. Now you have it. Enjoy it.
You've never led anyone in your life. She told herself. I've never made an actual decision, one that matters. How can I be trusted to lead the kingdom? How could she even learn to lead? Who would she turn to, if there even was anyone?
She had never felt so alone in her life. "Father." she said, her voice choked, sobbing and her eyes wet with tears. "Why? Why did this happen?" she whispered, afraid someone might hear her. Why me?
When she was alone again, Finduilas wept, as she had never wept before.
Eventually her eyes dried, having no more tears left to give. Sleep would not come to Finduilas, no matter how much she wished for it - part of her hoping that if she slept, things would be back to ordinary again.
And she had no will or mood to go to the gathering that Guilin had told her about. But Finduilas was now the King's heir. And if the King expected her to attend, then she had no other choice.
Finduilas washed her face, before applying a powder to whiten it and painting her eyes, hoping it would hide the raw redness around them, alongside the swelling. For the second time that day, she took to combing her hair, tangled as it had gotten, the rote movements helping distract her mind. Her clothes she changed too. She chose a blue dress, its shade dark at the heart but lighter towards the edges. Over it, a rose-colored overcoat speckled with white and golden patterns. Finduilas tossed the clothes she'd worn before to the side. She didn't want to think of them, or touch them now. She couldn't stop thinking of… what she was told. It drained the joy from everything she was doing. I have not eaten anything all day, Finduilas realized. She felt no hunger, nor any desire for food. Just a hollowness, eating her from the inside, making her fingers tremble and her feet shake.
Reluctantly, she looked into the mirror. The raw and swollen skin had been concealed, but the redness inside her eyes could not be painted over. Finduilas chose earrings with blue gems, and a high silver diadem set with diamonds to hold her hair in place. She hoped they would draw attention away from her eyes.
Is this what King Finrod feels like? She wondered. That sometimes, he'd rather not be king at all?
Finally, she was ready. But before she could step outside, Finduilas heard her bronze bird chirp and flap its wings. Someone's at the door. Eithoril, or one of the others probably. She had no mood for visitors, not now, not even them. Tell them to go away and be off. Weary, she opened the door.
Standing on the doorstep, Finduilas saw King Finrod. He was not wearing his crown, though the Nauglamring still gleamed bright on his neck. "I hope you are ready, Finduilas. I would like to have you accompany me." he said.
Jolted to awareness, Finduilas bowed her head in respect. "My king!" she hurried to speak.
King Finrod waved his hand, as if to tell her off. "None of this," he told her. "You are my blood, Finduilas. And now my heir. If I meet an ill-fate, then Nargothrond passes onto you. I will not have these formalities separate us. Call me by name when we are alone. The one I was given."
"Yes, my k- Finrod." Finduilas corrected herself. The king smiled slightly. She took a deep breath, and then the plunge. "I… want to ask you a question. About that. And other things too." she said to him.
"I know," he answered softly. "The news you received were dark. And the manner you were informed no less. It displeased me to hear of it. No doubt you have many questions, and I want nothing but truth between us. Ask, and I will answer."
She nodded, and asked.. "Why me? I haven't done… I have no deeds to my name. I've never led anyone in all my years. I'm young. I have never fought, and none have ever called me wise. You could marry. Sire children of your own. Why choose me instead?" Thoughts of her father, of Guilin and Gwindor's words raced through Finduilas' mind. Of being trapped and alone. Not knowing who to trust, whether her choices were for good or ill.
"Never called wise?" Finrod mused. "Let me be first, then. You have some wisdom in you, Finduilas Faelivrin. Else you would not be able to see your own faults and admit to them."
Finduilas looked down. "I asked you a question, but you're making light of me." she said mirthlessly.
Not so, not at all. I meant every word." he paused. "But you did ask me, yes. Many years ago, I held love for a woman, and she loved me in turn. We were to be married, not unlike you and young Guilinion. But events came between us. She remained in Valinor, and I left it behind. We were not the only ones. Others found love anew, but I could not forget. Further, I had two brothers, a sister and a nephew who could take my place. Things were secure and there was no need, or so I thought." "
"And now you have me left." Finduilas commented. "Not what you hoped for, I think."
"I did not expect it to go this way. I hoped - we all hoped that there would be no need to place this burden upon you. But I will teach you, Finduilas, so you can learn how to bear it if need be." Finduilas looked into his eyes, and heard the sincerity in his voice. "And I'll aid you on every step of the road. No less than if you were my own child."
This also was unexpected. Her own father had never offered to teach her like this. Nobody had. Father. She felt guilty, thinking of him.
"I… thank you." Finduilas said finally. "But I have more questions. What is this gathering for?" she took another pause. Did she want to say this aloud? The King asked for honesty. "I ask because I have little wish to attend." she admitted. "The news about my father has left me unwell. I would prefer to stay here."
"I know, Finduilas. More than you realize." The King said, his voice gentle. "If it were anything else, I would let you do as you wish. But as I told Guilin earlier, I'll tell you now. Much will be decided today."
"What is it even for?" Finduilas asked behind her teeth. The ill-mood had slipped into her tone, making her sound far more snappish than she expected.
"My kinsmen requested the right to speak before Nargothrond's people." he said, unperturbed by Finduilas' tone. I suppose hearing me whine is no great challenge for a king. "They have many things to suggest, regarding the future, our foes and our defense."
"You've heard what they have to say, then?
Finrod nodded. "Of course."
"Then why not decide on it yourself?" Finduilas pointed out. "You're the King."
King Finrod looked at her, his blue-grey eyes twinkling with curiosity. Did I say something wrong? She couldn't think of anything. "Indeed I am. But being King does not simply mean dictating that my will be done. If a decision is to be made, then the people must know first. It is their futures that will be affected as much as ours, if not more so."
"They followed you when you founded Nargothrond." she said. "And to Beleriand. They call you Turmenatar. I think they'd follow you still, no matter what you decreed."
"It might be so." Finrod admitted. His tone turned cautious. "That they'd follow my commands unto death. But that's a dangerous path for any lord to take. Nargothrond is not my possession, and neither are its people. Being King, to be a descendant of Finwë does not grant me power over the minds of others - though my uncles would have certainly liked it to be so!"
Despite herself, Finduilas let out a ragged chuckle at that. Her throat still felt raw from earlier. "I did not imagine them like that. Fëanor perhaps, but Fingolfin?"
"My uncles were similar to each other in many ways, though they would never admit it. Both willful, prideful men. They saw the world and wished to shape it according to their vision. Yet a king cannot know all things, nor prosper without advice. The greater your certainty in your course, the more you need someone close to offer dissent. That is why I keep Guilin by my side, as I kept my brothers and your father. Once you are better learned, I expect you to play the same part."
"And the Sons of Fëanor? Guilin says they're ambitious, that they have plans of their own." said Finduilas.
"Guilin is not I, nor does he speak with my voice unless I so will it." Finrod declared. "It is inevitable that my kinsmen want a seat at the table. They know well that we would have suffered worse if not for their valor - and they had no obligation to ride to our aid. I would gladly grant them a place, so long as they take part in Nargothrond's defense." After saying this however, Finrod paused and looked at Finduilas. "What do you think, then? How would you handle this matter?" He appeared genuinely curious.
"What do I think?" Finduilas was surprised, but part of her felt giddy. Nobody had asked her a question like this before. She took a pause, to clear her thoughts. "I agree with you," she said finally, taking on a more formal tone, like she'd heard from others before the King's throne. "Prince Guilin is correct in that we do not know the motives of the Sons of Fëanor, we cannot turn down an ally out of fear, not when the Enemy is at our doorstep."
"You might yet make a fine advisor." King Finrod smiled. "And yes, all that is true. I also freely admit that of war, Celegorm knows more than I. That skilI I would see used for the good of Nargothrond."
"Do you think they will be willing?" Finduilas asked.
"That we shall see." The king answered. Despite the confidence in his voice, Finduilas could see the concern in Finrod Felagund's eyes, the sorrow that had not gone away.
"I am ready," she said. "and I will follow, if you let me."
"People of Nargothrond, sons and daughters of the Ñoldor. Hear my words!" Rumbled the voice of Celegorm. "Five centuries have passed since we chose to leave Aman and reach Beleriand. To avenge the murder of my grandsire, our King. Because we saw Taniquetil's silence as evil reigned across the sea, and did not want to idly stand."
"For some of us, to seek our own lands and freedom, as we had not before. For others, they sought to safeguard the peoples of Endorë from Angband's cruel tyranny. All reasons good and valid." Curufin added. Outside, the sun must have set. But within Nargothrond, night and day were irrelevant.
"As my grandsire made his decision, so did we. Because of our choices, we Ñoldor have taken a path apart. No others went to Valinor and chose to renounce it. None carved with steel and skill realms as ours, braved dread and danger to win the victories we have."
Curufin continued from his brother. "Look around you and see the results of the choice we made back then. The fruits of your labor, the splendor of your city. Who else in Arda has wealth in such plenty as we own, holds might as we possess? What we left behind, we've made back a hundredfold. Our sages are the envy of all, our laws bring even justice so that others want their own to be alike, and our people have the greatest freedom in all the world. We do not imitate our neighbors - instead we set them an example to follow. The road was hard but the end fair, as promised long ago." However, it was then that Celegorm cut in.
"I have not braved fire and war to speak about yesterday's glories," he said. "but the danger of today. Last year, the siege of Angband was shattered, and the peace which we upheld for four centuries with it. I shall not recount for you the losses - you know them well. I will only say that we suffered the same, forced to leave our homes. Everywhere, our land and law is in retreat, crumbling in the face of the renewed Enemy. New leaguers are being raised across the length of Beleriand every day, and where but a year ago we had Angband fenced in, now it is we who are besieged. And it is not our land and law alone that are threatened, but our very existence - there shall be no end to this, not in Dorthonion, not in the Sirion, not until the hosts of the North crush us all beneath their feet and hear the ocean's waves roar before them."
Finduilas was left surprised. Never had she imagined that Prince Celegorm would have spoken like this. Blunt and hard, a man of few words and no orator. She was wrong.
"And it's not orcs alone and that we have to contend with." Curufin continued from him. "We know their ilk - and from where we came, we don't call you a warrior until you've killed at least one. Morgoth has spent the years besieged productively, turning his malice and will towards the sole purpose of overthrowing our hegemony. We laughed at the Worm of Angband when Fingon of Hithlum drove him home, overlarge tail between his legs, but things are different now. Glaurung has grown to be a weapon of terrible potency, and whispers come of his spawn appearing on the field of battle. New weapons are forged beneath Thangorodrim, every day fresh terrors come forth from its pits, brands to be put in the hands of the Black Foe's lieutenants and used against us. You have already heard of the newest one."
"A golden host and its silver king." proclaimed Celegorm. "They wrested Tol Sirion from your hands. Those Edain are disciplined and hardy, skilled in the ways of war. They won't stop at Tol Sirion either. Prince Gwindor and his men can testify to that - their king, Aegon Targaryen has declared himself lord of all Edain and demands your submission."
Murmurs rose in a flurry across the chamber. "He entered Tol Sirion atop a white horse, as blood flowed through the isle like rainwater after a sudden storm!" declared Curufin. "By his side? None other than Sauron. Their deceptions stained our honor, making us appear as traitors. When we rushed to your aid, the men of Thingol ambushed us, wounding my son." Recounting that, Curufin's voice turned from indignation to anger. "You, fathers and mothers in this city, I know what it is like, to see your child in pain, how it hurts to sit by your son's side, not knowing if he will make it through the day. It was luck alone then, that prevented him from dying of the wounds inflicted on him. Fortune and my brother's wisdom. That prevented a war between Doriath and the House of Fëanor."
She'd heard part of this tale now. Upon being asked, Eithoril had told her Beleg Cúthalion was the one who'd let the Fëanorians pass to avert a war - and was rewarded for that with ten years of exile at Elu Thingol's decree. The lady of Doriath had tried hard to hide her embarrassment.
'What can we do?' some wondered aloud. 'Where did they come from?'
'Elu Thingol cannot have given such an order.' others whispered. Finduilas looked over to Eithoril, and wondered what must have been passing through her mind.
'Enough about Doriath - this Aegon Targaryen calls himself king of all Edain. What about the other Edain? The ones on our side. What if he turns them against us?'
'Why? What wrong have we done to them?'
"Every kindred has its wretches." Celegorm answered simply.
"My brother is not wrong," Curufin acknowledged. "But your questions are fair. Where did they come from? We don't know. We only know that we found their tracks, the traces of their camps amid Nan Dungortheb, and that they then encountered the folk of Brethil. That and their intent is all we know for now."
'An army of elite mannish troops, for countless orcs to rally around?'
'How many of them are there?' Those and more questions flooded in. 'What else is there that we don't know?'
'What if they train the Dark Lord's hosts? What if we see more Edain turned, made to take the Enemy's side against us? Dorthonion's loss repeated, over and over again!'
Celegorm parted his cloak to the side, revealing a blade. Though Finduilas did not know much about swords, she could tell it was from Nargothrond. She'd seen the maker's mark in other blades before. The light shone upon its golden gravings, of flowers and prancing beasts. "Behold!" he shouted. "Before fear takes you. This blade belonged to a warrior of your realm. The Golden Host took it as a prize, and we reclaimed it when I beat them in battle. Arodfeir, my brother's man, led his Echad Bauglar and freed many the enemy kept chained in their camps. Our enemy is strong. Our enemy is determined. But not beyond our strength."
"Wait!" A voice called out. It was hurried, strained. A man running up the steps, ignoring the spears of the Throne-Guard. "I know that sword!" The voice and man was Avorn, one of the city's many high men. "It is my son's. But he is not here. Where- where is he?"
Celegorm bade to let him closer. "Your son died a warrior's death, and not in vain." he said, the prince's voice becoming lower, almost gentle. "He fell fighting, for family, for his home. I've known such loss too, when my own father fell in battle against the Enemy. We're alike that way, man of Nargothrond."
Finduilas could see Avorn struggling - how he was barely keeping his composure in the face of what he just heard. Celegorm sheathed the blade, and offered it to him. "I avenged your son." he pronounced. "We avenged all sons and daughters of Nargothrond who fell to the Golden Host's treachery."
Avorn took a step back, and bowed his head in respect. "I cannot be glad, lord," he said, voice heavy. Finduilas struggled to imagine how he must be keeping himself together. "but I am grateful for what you did." Avorn took the sword and clutched it close as if it were his living son.
'Worthy! Worthy!' the people shouted their approval.
"Kin keeps kin," said Celegorm. "The worthy man guards his kin from danger, protects them from dishonor." There was cheering at his words. "You welcomed us here, and so I swear that my spear and bow will defend your realm for as long as I stand."
"As do I and all our host." Curufin added.
Once again there was applause, but also questions. 'What happens next?'
'You are mighty, Prince Celegorm, but even you cannot turn the tide of war alone!'
"What now, you ask?" said Celegorm. "The choices that make victory or defeat. I'd heard word of Nargothrond's fortified plains. Yet what did I see when riding here? Less and nothing. Fortifications made decrepit, watch-hills and passes barely manned. Even the saintost by Tol Sirion had been left free to grow fat and lazy. You are not ready for this war."
The reception to these words was far more mixed. Though some seemed to agree, others were left uneasy - and a few were outright incensed. "You have no right," said Feiror of the Moors. "No right to accuse us of unreadiness or to insult us, Prince. The warriors of Dorthonion guarded the North with their lives. We've given of our blood no less than the East."
'Yea!' the most vocal below said in agreement. Finduilas saw a smile cross Guilin's face for a moment.
"My brother meant no offense, friend." Curufin interceded. "Nor did he mean to diminish the sacrifices Nargothrond has made. But what he means to say is that errors have been made."
Celegorm on the other did not seem to care for Feiror's words overmuch. "Dorthonion is gone. The banners of the Golden Host fly over Tol Sirion. This war will be fought here, not your old borders."
"If we'd heeded Princes Angrod and Aegnor, we wouldn't have been in this predicament!" sighed Dammor of the smiths, and was joined by others in agreement.
Finduilas remembered what they spoke, though faintly. She had been much younger then. Her grandfather and great-uncle had come to Nargothrond, bringing with them a command from Barad Eithel and the High King himself. For Nargothrond to marshal its hosts and join him in storming Angband. Grandfather and Aegnor argued fiercely in favor, said that there would be no better chance and that if left unchecked, Morgoth would overthrow the leaguer around his walls. The King was more skeptical, and so was her father, citing the unwillingness of the East. Guilin had joined his voice to Father's, saying that it was beyond the Ñoldor to defeat one of the Powers of Arda, especially in its own domain, and that it was not just for the High King to deliver demands to the kings of the Ñoldor as Fëanor had. In the end, it fell through - and her grandfather returned to the borderlands once more, with empty hands. Hithlum would not commit its forces alone, and the Siege continued. She never thought of the incident since, not until now.
"The suggestion to storm Angband's walls?" Celegorm said. "I remember. I urged for it too. My brothers thought otherwise. Ease and victory made them soft, wore down their resolve better than any enemy. They went pale at the losses they feared they'd incur, blind to the defeat their inaction was sowing for us on the morrow."
Curufin seemed downbeat in response to what his brother said. "All of us have made mistakes," he admitted. "But what do we do now? How do we learn from them?"
"To survive, Nargothrond needs to awaken and find new strength. First, you must fortify your land once more. Rebuild the fastnesses you have torn down, man those that you abandoned." Celegorm declared. "Build watchtowers, and have trustworthy troops guard them. Tol Sirion was deceived, and that deception allowed the traitor Edain to take it. That cannot happen again. No corner must be left in shadow, no eye allowed to remain blind. Any enemy that steps foot into your land, you must know of him. Your forges, and your craftsmen." he motioned towards the smiths. "You have many. Light the fires for war, and work the anvils. Not a day must pass where you do not make new armaments. They will be needed. You must raise new strength to replace what you have lost, twice and thrice, and five times over."
Murmurs started up in the hall again, many wondering where so many willing and knowing how to fight would be found. Finduilas thought so too. "There can be no idle hands." Celegorm said, cutting through the whispers. "Not in the defense of your homes. Call up all who can serve. If not as warriors, then as laborers for the hosts that must be raised. If you will not bear a spear, you can still carry supplies, build, cook and craft armaments for those who shall. If one is still able but not willing to serve, then he must pay enough to feed, clothe and arm his replacement. Those who work the land or keep beasts must provide greater tithes to the King - enough to supply the new hosts and fill storehouses for the defense of all. Everywhere, there are those who have broken the realm's laws. Rather than punishment, give them the choice to seek forgiveness in battle."
It did little to calm the tumult, but more people were now voicing their approval. These are hard laws, Finduilas thought, but not bad ones. She'd heard stories of similar things in the northern frontier, though she never expected to see such things here.
"A moment, honored Prince!" Sirionnen objected. "Your counsel is wise, but all these things you speak of need time to bear fruit. Months, maybe years. Where do we find that time?"
Celegorm looked at the nodostrad, and crossed his arms about his chest. "Your domains are large. Trade land for time. If a place is too exposed to the enemy, leave it with what you can carry, retreat somewhere that can be safely held."
Sirionnen's face went pale at what he heard, and Finduilas could hardly blame him. He made to speak, but Celegorm interrupted him before he had the chance. "I am not finished." the Fëanorian said. "Your crops can feed the invader. They can still find rest in an abandoned home. Let them choke on ashes and squat in ruins. Be prepared to destroy your homes before you hand them over to the enemy."
Finduilas tried to picture it in her mind. She thought of her home, her rooms, all her and mother's belongings in it. Could she bring herself to burn it all, because someone demanded it? Even if it was 'wise'? I don't know. And if she didn't know about her own, then how about hundreds, thousands of other homes? How could we even demand something like that of them, if we won't dare do it ourselves?
Looking around, she was far from alone in being disturbed by Celegorm's words. There were demands to explain, shouts of disagreement. 'We cannot abandon our lands and people!', 'Would you do that to your own?'
"We could, we did." said Celegorm. "Do Nargothrond's folk esteem land and possessions higher than lives and freedom? Much has changed since the Aglareb." At those words, many were chastened, but they made some among the incensed even moreso.
Finduilas looked towards Gwindor, to see what he thought. To her surprise, he had not joined his voice to those questioning Prince Celegorm - if anything, his expression seemed displeased with what was happening. "Prince Celegorm has the right of it." Gwindor raised his voice.
"Speak, Prince Gwindor!" spoke Curufin. "Son of Guilin, in war your prowess is beyond question, and in council you excel all who are of your years. None among the Ñoldor can make light of what you speak, nor with ease gainsay it."
With a nod, Gwindor took his turn. "If you don't want to hear it from him, then I ask you to heed me. We cannot fight without loss, only try to lessen it. For over four hundred years, our defenses have rested upon four strong places - the leaguer around Angband, Dorthonion, our friends in Barad Eithel and Tol Sirion. Even if the Enemy's minions passed through the first, they could not break through the three strongholds that held our line together. Things have changed. Our enemies have changed. How we fight must change too. We cannot keep as we had done before. Not now that we've lost Dorthonion and Tol Sirion." Finduilas had not heard Gwindor argue for something in public before. But his certainty, the confidence in his voice impressed her now. He couldn't have sounded more different to how he was when they had talked. "I want to return to battle to defend our people as soon as possible," he said. "and for that to happen, we must make a choice swiftly, else we'll weep for our inaction."
Hearing Gwindor speak, the remaining calls against the Fëanorians died down. Prince Celegorm turned to face Gwindor and from where she stood, Finduilas could not see the expression on his face. But she could see the shift in Guilin's stance well enough, and the shadow that passed over his gaze. "Well spoken, my son!" he said finally. "But does lord Celegorm have anything left to add?" Given his words to her before, Finduilas wondered why he was not speaking against the sons of Fëanor now, especially when others raised their voices openly. She had often seen him turn others to his way of mind before. Is he afraid? Or does he see something the others don't?
"Yes. My brother is not yet done." Curufin commented, giving Guilin a side-glance. Celegorm's jaw tightened, his eyes narrowing as he began to speak again.
"I spoke of levying new troops. But you can raise a host tens of thousands strong, and still have a rabble, not an army. You need able men to lead your hosts. Hardened warriors, who have seen war and know it well."
Curufin then spoke in turn. "I have more to say. My brother's words and yours friends, the talk of the mistakes we made in the years before, convinced me. Had we been of one mind, one purpose, then half our current woes would be averted. Thus I say; and suggest that there needs to be one who commands these captains in turn. One answerable to the King alone, with authority over matters of war that none can question."
Curufin's words invited surprise, but also curiosity. 'Why not the King?' came the question. 'Why can't he lead our armies directly as before?' Some turned to King Finrod himself, though he remained silent.
To Finduilas' surprise, it was Guilin who rose to answer. "Permit me, friends, to observe. We all have duties. Our King's is to rule. And indeed, in our tradition he must also command in battle. But last year, we would have mourned his loss alongside the Princes of Dorthonion - if not for his foresighted wisdom in settling Bëor's folk in Ladros. The turns of fortune cannot be foretold, and even the wise cannot see all ends. How are we to know the peril of tomorrow's battle-lines before they're drawn, or fate's unkindness? If our lord were to fall in battle, Nargothrond would be left leaderless, his life's work unfinished!" Finduilas tried not to wince at that. "Thus," Guilin said as he turned to face the King, inclining his head in respect. "I concur with what Prince Curufin says - and humbly propose that there be chosen and appointed from our people a high commander of all the realm's hosts, to lead Nargothrond's valiant captains into battle as Princes Angrod and Aegnor did. I implore you so, and would be forever grateful if you were to heed my advice."
Curufin smirked. "I'd say it deserves consideration if we're all in such agreement, then!"
Now eyes were turning, from all across the chamber, gazing upon the best-renowned warriors - no doubt wondering who among them would be chosen. 'Prince Gwindor! Our valiant son of Nargothrond! Choose him, wise king!' a number said aloud.
Prince Celegorm ignored them, stepping past his brother and forward again to address the crowd. "People of Nargothrond!" he declared. "I have some last few words, if you'll sit still and hear me. I've spoken today of peril beyond any we've faced before, and new dangers gathering, sharpening their blades. Aye, these are dark times. But I see the way you received my host and I, and beheld how you heard my words, even when they weren't to your liking. So I will also tell you this: four centuries ago, when Nargothrond and the East fought as one, we dealt the Enemy a defeat as none had dealt him before. Who do you think I see standing before me? The same people who triumphed at the Aglareb and their offspring. Tell me, fathers of Nargothrond. Do you still have the same courage you had then? Speak aloud, sons and daughters of the Ñoldor. Do you want to match the deeds of your forebears?"
'Yea, hear him, hear him!' The crowd was turning decisively for Celegorm, new voices joining in as the Prince's words grew ever more intense. 'We remember!' said the fathers. 'We will!' said the sons.
"Then the time is now! Forget fear and hesitation! Do not take heed of hardship, leave behind the ease and comfort of idle days. Let us forget our quarrels. Let us join forces and sharpen our swords, remember the hurts our enemies have dealt our people, the fate Morgoth and his pawns plan for us all! Let us remember, lest we ever forget, that we are Ñoldor. When others sing, it is our deeds they praise. Every trial thrown at us, together we shall overcome. One day, every foe we face shall be destroyed, and the hour come that our wounds will be avenged. Until it does, by our blood and blades must the Ñoldor endure. Now comes the greatest battle of all, a war like no other. And we shall be victorious."
At his words, the chamber went silent for a moment. Then it erupted into applause, louder than any they'd given before. 'Turko, command! Turko, command! Turko, command!' resounded the cries that flooded the hall. Curufin smiled, and Guilin's eyes darkened, King Finrod watching from up high.
Finduilas looked all around her, men and women raising their hands and voices to shout as one. 'For Nargothrond! For the King! For our people and the realm's defense!'
War had finally come to Nargothrond.